I can see the shore off in the distance
A vast blue ocean still lies to cross
But I can make it, I can feel it
I have a feeling all's not lost

I can see the sunset in my heart
An end to the bad, with a fresh new start
I can feel the passion growing inside
This feeling I thought I'd never find (and)

I'm on my knees, please hear my cry
I'm here and waiting for all you invite
Whether a brand new morning sun,
Or a starry sky on a moonlit night (it)

Means so much to hear you care,
The clear blue sky proved you're there,
Just don't let me feel it ever again
That you may have left me, deep within....

crying = catharic

suprised i lasted this long til i started crying.

so... i never blog anymore... ill get around to it one day when i feel like getting on. most likely the days after exams and school when i have something to say. :P

prom was great (:

weird but cool song... pretty

im at mi casa right now.... i have accumulated sooo much mierda over the course of my freshman year it is crazy! mi madre and padre are excited to have their hija home for a few months!

dont you like how i choose random words to be español? i think it gives my blogs some character... si? maybe not.

ok i guess i'll go decide what im going to do with all this stuff i brought home...

muah!!

WHat a day...

watched NAtional treasure again in world Geography. it wasn't too bad even though i have seen it like 3 times already. but it was better than Madagascar. Malinda is staying 8 days with me starting next wensday. i am sooo excited. not much going on lately. got to clean my room and bathroom sometime before next week. junior year is finally closing to a close so here goes my yearly ramble:

Malinda Morgan: you've been my bestest friend since the seventh or eight grade and i cant wait to finish out our senior year together.

Sara Reed: you always make me laugh even since freshman year.

Rachel Baldwin: chi-chi.. what can i say about you.

Beth Cooper: just recently found you on here and i hope to keep on talking.

Kayla Hurt: You have always been just a phone call away. we have had some interesting times since the beginning of seventh grade.

Allen: thanks for one of the most fun summers of my life. (i know you still read this)

Rachel Mckinney: Lunch, Band, 1st period, Band trips, you are a hoot to stay with in a hotel room.

Amy Kendrick: one of the few gaurd girls that i dont think are crazy, and one of the sweetest people i know.

Megan Rhody: little rhody keep that insurance dont worry it will always be with you.

Valeri: keep having fun as a LITTLE FRESHMAN for now (until next year)

okay if i forgot anyone let me know.

Ok, so I did it ... broke down and bought 3 buckets of crawfish (~10.5 pounds).  So, which is better?  Eating beef until you drop?  Or, eating crawfish until you drop?  I will know better tomorrow morning .... but prelim results indicate that crawfish won .... two claws down !!

We had a big budget meeting today with the Angolan govt.  It lasted 2 hours (as per the plan).  Everything was ok, which means it was boring.  If I hadn't done my work it would have been "eventful".  But, because I did my work (for the last 3 months) it was almost boring.

Ok, enough rambling. I need to go pack ... to go back to Luanda in the morning.

Ciao Ciao.

    Is hate absolutely the worst status that you can have with another? I don't think so. For instance if someone hates you, what does that mean? The way I see it, it is a strong disliking for someone, but also why would someone go out of their way to make sure that you know that they hate you if they indead really do feel that way about you. Obviously if someone in fact actually did feal this horrible emotion toward you they would just not even bother. Because typically with things that I hate, I try to keep quite a distance between me and that certain object. So in other words for someone to hate you and then care enough about you to actually consider telling you instead of just avoiding the matter in hand, they probably don't  in fact hate you. So think about that the next time someone goes out of their way just to tell you that they hate you. It's kinda funny because there's this girl at school who apparently loathes me sooo greatly that she has to constantly remind me everyday. Kids these days... what kinda hatred is that. Yeah this was kind of a weird post and alot of it doesn't make sense and it's definetly not insightfull like what I thought it might turn out to be but I've already typed it all out so I'm not going to go back and erase it all... Oh well...

about me: i fall a lot. and i have phat ankles to prove it. what? i think the city brings it out in me.

  

Exams are done, and now, I'm just awaiting the grades.  (I'm back home for good.)
Now to look for a job...
If you wanna do anything (generally speaking), call me...
To Randy, I'm reconsidering Warped Tour because the Fall of Troy is going to be there.  If I can raise the funds, chances are I'll go...but again, I need a job...
If anyone knows of any job offers, do tell.  Preferably in the Cool Springs area, but Murfreesboro is fine too.

I think I need to get foucsed on more important things in life..other than guys and sports...maybe I should really pay attention to my exams coming up then what Im wearing or always wondering what people think of me!  Well 2morrow I guess Im going to this heat team preformance thing at my school and then Saturday I am goig to this party type thing with my parents and other people form church!! But me paying more attention doesnt mean not sitting with guys at church *lol jp* n.. that whole promise thing was broken!!!

~Karus

Today was awful!! this guy, one of my friends told a few people that he was thinking about commiting sucide and we got upset, includng me, but here's the twist, after school he was fine, he just wanted the attention and i am so pissed off, like he's had a hard life so far but who hasn't? we all have our problems and he needs to get over his instead of being some gothic person!! We're still friends but im just really mad.

on a better note one of my bestest friends is going on her last offical date with her current boyfriend awwwwwwwwwww, im so sorry for her!  (long story)

"Tonight, tonight. It all began tonight..."

Tonight is the opening show of West Side Story! I am super excited and a tad bit nervous about the dancing parts. Wow, this is my last show. Tear* Tear* Well, I'm off to go get ready. Everybody come!!!

"We're gonna rock it tonight, tonight!"

8 days.

ok, so im pretty sure i failed the last cumulative test in US history.  The exam of doom is tomorrow, but it will be followed by chef wang's so im not gonna complain.  i mean it doesnt really matter anyway right? for all those people taking it: GOOD LUCK!!!!!

hey yall!

so i am like so siked about tomorrow because i am going to the Renisiance festival with my  class and i think it will be AWESOME!

well i will see yall on sunday!

please message me or remark me or something i am just really bored well g2g i will get on later

(hopefully)

Tootles,

Emily

I am DONE.

100% and completly DONE

No more for the rest of the summer

oh what joy

so i figured it was time to update. i havent in a while. i'll have to write more later when i have more time. right now i'm sitting at the library using whit's laptop. i'm deffering from studying. sometimes it's just so hard for me to study when i have so much time. know what i mean? my next test arent till tuesday, yet i know i need to study. oh well. right now i'm using my mp3 player like crazy. i bought some new headphones for it before i came. i like putting it on random and hearing what i get. it's nice.

alsdkjf

sorry, i sneezed.

so i'm probably going to florida right after school gets out. i'd kinda like to not go at all, but i dont think that'll happen.

piece

In this post, I want to look at an issue that I have personally been reflecting on lately, the issue of church growth. In today's churches, we have "church growth movements" seminary departments titled, "department of church growth" and pastors and lay leaders alike obsessed with the idea of church growth. Just from making observations, it seems that there are two extremes here.

In one camp--the bigger the better. If your church is growing, then you must be doing something right. In this camp resides most of America's mega-churches and their high-profile pastors. Some of these guys believe that because of their positive self-improvement message, their nice, well lit auditoriums, and their refusal to offend anyone with the truth of sin and their personal responsibility to it, that God must be blessing them because they have droves of people coming every week.

In the other camp--resides the over-zealous "fundy" KJV Bible beating pastors with their churches smaller than some Mormon families. They boast that they have the most doctrinally pure congregations and that they have the "most faithful church" not the "largest church." Don't get me wrong, there are actually quite large churches in this camp, but this is due in part to their strong political affiliations and attraction of right wing affiliates. You don't see too many of these churches in some of the more "liberal" parts of the country; here, they exist as tiny congregations escaping the evils of the world and those in it.

My prayer for America's church is the emergence of a third camp, which I have seen demonstrated by several churches I have recently studied. I believe a church can explode in numerical growth for all the right or all the wrong reasons. While I do believe that God expects not only faithfulness, but fruitfulness--this "fruitfulness" is not always measured in terms of numerical growth. Let me explain. God's utmost concern is not church growth. Rather, His utmost agenda is His glory among all nations, peoples, tribes, and tongues. Therefore, we need to ask the question, "how can I personally and how can my church meet this concern--to spread the supremacy of God to all nations for the joy of all peoples?" Sometimes that is church growth; other times its not. In David Garrison's Church Planting Movements, he explores the explosion of the church, primarily in India and East Asia. Among churches caught in the movement, the prayer is not, "Lord grow our church"; rather, it's "Lord, multiply our church". And He does!!!

Jesus says these words in John 12, "I tell you the truth, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds." Jesus was obviously talking about the gospel here; He was about to die, and the only way we could live is if He dies. However, as His followers this applies to us personally and as a church. If we want to be used by God in a missional lifestyle, we have to die to ourselves! We have no choice. As a church, we have to put aside our personal agendas as Christian leaders, aspiring pastors, or lay leaders. In many cases, the "dying" that needs to take place is the longing to have a huge church and be famous. My prayer for America is that we would see an explosion of new churches much like other places in the world, that Christian leaders (me included) would die to the desire to become famous, and that God would use our generation to redeem millions and billions of people.

For further reading (these books have shaped my personal view on missions and the church):

Church Planting Movements, by David Garrison
Radical Reformission, by Mark Driscoll
Let the Nations Be Glad, by John Piper
Planting Missional Churches, by Ed Stetzer

I'm to much like him

She's to much like her

But in the long run the eldest takes up for her clone

It's annoying... so maybe I wasn't ever a make up/ fashion person. Frankley I'm still not but I like to cover up some blemishes but otherwise simplicity and comfort are more my style.  I hate that just because I'm not mile long legs with an attitude to follow along that I have to take the crap the younger one dishes out.

So today's thursday and I'm still in Cleveland.  I'm staying in
Thorne's room until graduation this saturday.  Granted, it's
pretty cool to just get to hang out here and all, Russ went to Samford,
Johnathan left for Tiffany's this morning, Brent left earlier, and a
bunch of other people are of course already gone.  The bottom line
is, Thorne and I are pretty much the only ones for today, so we're kind
of... HAVING NOTHING TO DO :)

But I guess that's a good feeling.. I don't know

It's definitely weird to be someone staying here and see pretty much
everyone else leave before you do... I don't know if I like that too
much.

STill uncertain as to where I"m going to be this summer, knoxville or the boro, the next few days shall tell.

Well, God is good, this first year of college has been rockin awesome,
and I guess it's nice to end it with a few days with nothing to do....

Next year should be fantabulous!

jazz fest is in ONE FREAKING DAY!!!

i'm so excited.

oh, by the way, alfred hitchcock is amazing.
who else could film an entire movie in one single take?

ok... last day at escuela and im muy excited. i'll go back to.... sleeping on my queen size bed, a non-community non-stalled shower, and a bunny rabbit that i can talk to everyday so that i'm never alone at home.

hahaha.

freshman year was cake. well, almost cake... it wasnt as hard as i expected (with the exception of history and the assignments i had to do)

probably wont be on this sucker until im moved home. not that anyone cares haha. i move out around 6... ill get home around 7 or so. so sometime after 7 ill be back on.

i just got the hiccups. :(
shower time. my last community shower at the corlew....

im so sad...... haha that was a lie.

I absolutely hate third period, really I do. Someone get me out of here!!!!!

    Yeah, I'm on the slow computers again, Kproxy and the like today. It's probably the only chance I'll get to post today. I'm trying to steal Ciera's Ipod from her, she doesn't have the titles, so I'm curious.
 We had the English Gateway today. I was the first one done, and with an hour and a half to spare.Can you say "Read a book until all the lazy people who bite at English get done"? Yeah, it was really funny when Abby poked me in the side to bring me back into reality. I about fell out of my chair.
  I'm drowning out Chris Brown (that stupid song of his that they play way to much on the radio) with some good old fashioned RENT.
   "5250,600 minutes, 525,000 moments so dear
     525,600 minutes, how do you measure; measure a year?"
This is the good stuff right here man.
  
  Sorry, I tend to ramble sometimes. The Gateway was insultingly easy, I felt like I was back in 7th grade taking the TCAP (may it burn into a thousand tiny pieces), and I'm in Advanced Honors. That's just sad.
 *along with the TCAP tests, may rap burn into millions of little pieces* That is the 43rd time they've played that freakin' song!! I'm gonna go insane!! Once is enough, the entire class knows this song by heart now!!!

So last month, I called Cingular and cancelled the 7PM-7AM Nights/Weekends shared minutes feature that allowed us to use night and weekend minutes starting at 7PM.  The woman I spoke with informed me that on my May bill, there would be a credit for part of the cost.  I was looking at the bill due on the fourth of May, and it not only does not have a credit for the service, it also still has a charge for it.  After spending a while on hold and speaking with a customer service representative (Hello, my name is __________.  Thank you for calling Cingular.  How may I make you miserable and cheat you today?), she informed me that we pay a month in advance for our services, so the credit will show up on the next bill.

I will therefore pay this month in advance for a service that I will not use nor have access to because I've already cancelled it.  I hate you, Cingular.  In fact, I hate you, all wireless companies.

At least the baby is still cute.

Had a business dinner last night here in Houston.  Lots of high level folks ... I feel like the luggage boy ... oh well ... and so we go to Fogo de Chao, which is a Brazilian Churrascaria ... which is style of "Brazilian BBQ".  Think meat, meat, meat ... Here's how it works ... you have a little card on your table, by your plate. One side is green (give me more food), the other side is red (stop feeding this pig).  As long as the green side is up ... the meat keeps coming and coming and coming.

I was a good boy and didn't eat so much that I was sick ... although I WAS waddling a bit as I left.  MY FAVORITE - GARLIC STEAK.  MY LEAST FAVORITE - PARMESAN CHIX.  MY ONLY DISAPPOINTMENT - NO CHIX HEARTS.

Speaking of food, and for those you are "in the know" .... reservations at the Broker in Denver are made !!!!

Speaking of food, again.  I think I have some free time this evening.  I may head over to "Ragin Cajun" and see if "death by crawfish" is more fulfilling.

yep.

i'm crying.

[edit: i don't have anything to say at this moment. ]

So pretty sure next year is going to be amazing, and if you didn't know, Blackman does a moving up peprally and so tech. next monday around 1:30ish I will be a senior, sosososososo scary to think about...

I remember being a freshman...
Getting lost to English class 2 DAYS in a row...
Not knowing a thing about marching and roally screwing up...
Being little and thinking the Seniors were so BIG...
However next year I'm going to be BIG...
I'm going to be looked up to...
Our class will be looked at on how to do peprallies...
If a class can take the last peprally from one class...
Then turn around and take the first one from the next senior class...
We have to be doing something right...
And we are going to rule the school...
We have seen people succeed and we've seen them fail...
We will succeed.
No questions asked.

last 2 finals are tomorrow. pray to God that i get a passing grade in Bio since now i dont need it and would HATE to have to take it again for no reason cept to better my grade. but yes that and history but history should be easy think i have an A or B+ in there and hey jus got my Eng grade for 1020 and who made an A? thatd be me! good thing thats my major now huh... ah the irony but anyway i love you all then im off to FL til the 9th. i know you will all go crazy witout me but u shall live. now im off to bed so i can get up and be done with my freshman year in college. man thats a scary statement. i will no longer be a freshman and i am only 17 years of age as of this moment. *shakes head, snaps out of it* life presses onward so yeah seems i have to call the theatre department to get them to put on my records that im a theatre minor. but anyway life is great other than i twisted my ankle like no other today and i have worked over 80 hours in the last 2 weeks along with my 17 hours of school and studyin for my finals if u can call what i did studying lol. but oh well tis nearly over now and i could care less. but i hope it went well for the rest of you and i will c ya this summer cuz i will have time now yay!! ttyl

Ok, so I'll start with prom. I went and got Elizabeth around 5:00, did pictures and we left in my mom's car to a Japanese steak house in Nashville. We stuffed our faces, oh so yummy, and then left. Our chef dude wasn't very entertaining, but oh well, he made good food. We got to the dance around 8 and stayed till 11:30. I think everyone was expecting the dance to be more, but it wasn't. Lindsey and I requested My Humps to be played but it didn't happen. After we left we stopped at McD's to get a happy meal, ice cream, and change our clothes. We made it to the party after prom and played blackjack till around 3. I donated my chips to Lindsey (all $500,000+ of them) and went home to sleep.

Woke up around 12 and made it to dress reheasal (MYO) and it went very well. After that, I went home to eat something and then go to West Side Story rehearsal, which went well also.

Monday was kinda blahish. I didn't really do anything. West Side Story again.

I didn't go to school yesturday, I didn't feel like going. So my dad comes in my room around 11 and says we're going to get a car. We got a black, 2000 pontiac grand am se. It's so nice. I named it Laquita.

So ready to hear about the concert? Well we did the runthrough and all went well. I had only played 10 minutes or so before at my house, so I felt ready. I waited out in the lobby for Tyler to show up. (He didn't know if he would be able to make it because of drummajor auditions.) I stopped waiting around 7:45 at which time I went to re-warm up. I was extremely nervous. I got on stage, everyone clapped. I swear, I don't know how I pulled it off so well. The high Bb's were all there, everything went much better than I expected. I walked off the stage and back out again, and you know what? I looked up in the back corner and there he (Tyler) was. I'm pretty sure I started crying. Lol. I guess it was a mixture of me being happy, seeing that he made it in time to hear me, and just everything. It was amazing. So I got off, had some water, and went back on for the rest of the concert.

Tyler, the amazing person that he is, took me out to eat afterwards and it was GOOD! We had different kinds of chicken (and some really good mashed potatos) and yeah, it was the most romantic moment I've had. I love him so much, y'all (and probably him) have no idea.

Today was also very blah. I didn't really do anything...at all. We played sudoku during 5th period, and I left early. I went to look for some new glasses, but ended up making schedualing an eye examination for 8:00 next Tuesday morning. I then went to have Laquita checked out and make sure she checked out so I can get new tags. After that I went to eat and then to West Side Story rehearsal. I don't know what days I'll be playing yet, but it looks like I'm playing tomorrow night. I was hoping Tyler could drive down again and see it with me, but he can't. Oh well, I'm going to see him on Friday for his band banquet.

Guess what about Mr. Turner, he got drummajor! Woot. I knew he would though, he's super. Congrats to him.

Wow, it's been a while.

Prom was magical!! I had so much fun. I didn't know I could dance so long without stopping. lol And my prom date was wonderful, of course. After prom was so cool, but I was so tired I was pretty much sleep walking. Prom was just a ton of fun.

Look at my crazy dance moves! lol

I love this picture!!

West Side Story opens tomorrow night at 7!!! Yeah!

here lately ive kinda felt like a squirrel on speed.  ok maybe not that bad.  i cant concentrate on anything at all.  my brains just all over the place.  graduation.  prom.  boy.  music.  graduation.  ap bio.  why cant i think straight?  that crazy fly on the wall.  jazz fest.  josh mcdowell thing.  cell phone.  college.  roomie.  new computer.  car.  new french horn.  youth group.  ipod.  tree!!  jiggly puff!!

i felt really bad at church tonight.  i couldnt concentrate on worshipping.  my mind was just all over the place.  i sat down & tried to pray about it.  i cant even concentrate when im praying.  

i like to tell myself that this is just a senior thing... but its probly just me.

So I've finally uploaded these pics from my trip to NC almost 3 months ago...whoops. =)
Take a look though.

Pretty sure I was driving by and wanted a pic of this amazing car...


Rest Area--SO cute--It snowed when we were going through the moutains.


I took this in that 7 hour car ride--I got BORED!


I was *trying* to sleep and drifted in and out--my sis thought it was funny. =)


Blonde Hair--Black Hoodie--Camera--Car Ride--Equals = THIS PICTURE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So leave me some love.
Summer Countdown--5 days.

took some pictures..ill post them when laura sends them to-eth me.

jazz fest this weekend. if your a awesome you'll be there on Saturday with the rest of us cool kids.

we did freaking amazing at our competition!!! all ultimate victories(platinums) and only one first place(gold) there were no high golds. lol!! we won tons of overall prizes too! ahah i was so excited!!

seriouslly..my dad is crazy..he grounded me for  a month form the phone..so I got all mad at him and gave him the silence treatment and cried a little bit..so he gave my phone back to me the next day and apologized. its great being a daughter, I think we get it alot easier sometimes than guys.

havn't had a soft drink in forever!! (not counting that one at Chili's with laura)

im only eating French Fries once a week..because I eat too many French fries..lol

i can't wait until these braces come off..then no one canm ake fun of my motuh or my lips or anything to do with having braces.

plus, ill have pretty teeth! lol

so im pretty much determined to make myself happy. and I think that a good first step is too quit eating so much crap thats not good for me, I think its runing my brain. its a good thing i dont drink and plan on never drinking because then Id be even worse off.

my life is boring right now.

i love you much.

alex+anna = alexanna.

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these sunken eyes and learn to see
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to be free.

Blackbird fly, Blackbird fly
Into the light of a dark black night.

Blackbird fly, Blackbird fly
Into the light of a dark black night.

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise.
You were only waiting for this moment to arise.
You were only waiting for this moment to arise.

Or at least a very annoying rash.

Three weeks three weeks three weeks.

I keep chanting that to remind myself that it's almost over.  But then the smart voice that sometimes speaks up from the back of my brain says, "But you have an assload of makeup work to do if you want to pass the semester!"  And then I reply:

Crap Crap Crap Crap Crap Crap... (and so on).

Hey!  YOU!  Yeah, the dumb one on the computer.

There's gonna be a celemabration to commemorate our liberation from the APUSH exam and Mr. Huffman's way-too-entusiastic lectures.  (Or from the APUSH exam and whatever your teacher's-name-is's lectures if you don't got to OHS.)

Or just a celemabration to commemorate the fact that you like eating Mexican food.

EL TORERO on Memorial Blvd.  5 PM on Friday. 

There will be joy, merriment, and tortilla chips.

The RSVP'd so far are:  Megan McDonald, Sarah Vermillion (that's me, dummies), Becky Amonett, Leah Hodgins, Kelsey Shearen, Rachel Summar, Heather Nagy, Michele Royer, Cassidy Slover, Brian King, Danny Jones, Erin Hall, Emily Hall, Ben Moser 

If you hate any of those people, you proably wouldn't have the maximum amount of fun.  (But you're still invited.)

wow so i havent updated on this in a while...

finally got my texting back on my phone! yesssssss

 dance is pretty much amazing..... we have a competiton this weekend so tell me if u wanna come...

no luck on boys yet..... hmmm

well i thinki might go...

love

laura

Hey everyone!

once again i am extremely bored! i just got back from church! i went to DAIRY QUEEN i saw becca and matt hicks there anyways so i got this chocolate-chip cookie dough blizzard....right.....right.........so now i am like really really hiper sooooooooooooo i will see everyone on either friday at the cookout or sunday at church well g2g bye, tootles, see ya, asta lavista, call it what eva you wanna call it! BYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111111

well i found out i'm going to the beach this summer. and st. louis for m-fuge. so i'm excited.

baseball is over for spring; today.

my dad ran the 1/2 marathon saturday[1:51]

and that is about it.

i don't believe him

oh well
nobigdeal

why is "love" so hard
&why must i be so cynical

sometimes i don't believe that there is love
and sometimes i don't even have hope
it makes me sad
almost all the time

I am not going to able to sleep tonight! I cannot stop eating the smarties in my room! I keep eating and if there isn't one in my mouth I feel lonely. If Smarties are bad I cannot imagine what drugs are like! Ohh my these make me hyper! I am getting soo jittery!

mmm. i need a boy.
just someone to take my mind
off of everything.

because boys stress me out.
[boys named justin. in particular].
but whatever.
i'm not supposed to care.
ha. to bad i do right?

hell.<3

As an afterthought, i realized the icons were a bit strange, but don't hold that against me please. I've been stuck in the house all day, what would you do?

ok so thiss week has been pretty awesome. life has been ok. i still havent found a summer job yet(tear) but im still looking. i dont have that many days left with my senior friends...that makes me really sad. but i am happy for them....cause i know they have waited a really long time to graduate. yeah this really cool guy asked me out on a date. so im pretty excited about it. oh and this past sat. a few of my friends ran the half marathon and one of my teachers. im really proud of them. i think i will run it next year...hopefully. smile and keep it real

luv

lisa

 i believe that no matter what you preference you should support everyone and be an activist for everything and everyone that needs your help.....

in the words of brianne : "what, whatever, what, whatever, b..." [originally by the 8 jade horses- everyone's favorite funk group in the boro...]

john mayer = really good. diggin this record i got for half off *score*

and tomorrow i move out. and i am not anywhere near being ready. yay.

<3

jen

 the click five...

wow mortals, its been a while. Well, Me and Jesus, we toked up pretty good on 4/20, how about yall? That Jesus is one crazy character when he is high.,,,ah but sigh

-Satan

I satyed home today with the Mother Of All Migranes. I woke up with it and it continues to plauge me, it's not a full blown migrane. More like a pestering headache.

 AS a product of my boredom, here's an icon or two for my amusement and yours.

       

           

      

  See, sheer boredom

So today had to stay in Mrs. Nichols room for 2 hours. we watched this movie about dogs and then popped in MAdagascar. Lets just say i didn't vote for it. i voted for the princess bride. I would be really happy if i never saw Madagascar again.

Biology Gateway is friday, fun fun.

Clarinet lessons today (crud that reminds me i didn't pay her). after lunch, Sarah, Catlin and Rachel B. we having their own little musical group of coke bottles. it was funny because rachel couldn't stop laughing.

My brother got a fish that looks like a catfish once i can finally get a picture of it i will put it on here. it just goes so fast.

ok, so my friend has been smoking weed and stuff. i just found out the other day at lunch. she doesnt know i know. she has been telling me she feels sick, and i just thought maybe she IS getting sick. but then the other day someone tells me she has been doing that kinda stuff with 2 of her "new" friends.

i dont know what to do. i dont know if i should ask her about it or not cause if i do then she will ask me who told her and i will have to tell her who said but that person told me not do say anything....

HELP.

na ni na fa la...

BALLOON!

...

i have decided to go back to being the person i was in 7th grade.

i liked her better than the idiot i was these past two years.

sorry you guys.

...

JAZZ FEST THIS WEEKEND!!

you better be there...or else!

it's going to be fun!

ohs plays at 7:40....???? i think  ????

...

percussion and jazz band concert in the ohs auditorium thursday at 7 pm.

please go.

it's free!

...

I still don't have my pictures from prom. sorry.

but...

WEST SIDE STORY opens (tomorrow) Thursday May 4th - 9th @ 7pm and May 7th @ 3pm

COME SEE WEST SIDE STORY! WE WORKED SOOOOO HARD!

I saw on the front page of The Tennessean that Chris Young won Nashville Star. I can't help but wonder if my sixth grade yearbook ((containing his eighth grade picture)) would bring me any money on ebay. . . .

God has a funny way of bringing new people into my life at the oddest times. It's as if He gave me long enough to grab hold but not long enough to go along for the ride.

. . . or am I on the ride?

thank God for amazing friends!

I'm really trying not to... I have an Exam in Theater!!! and I have my papers due tomorrow!!! Which (I'm trying really hard) I think I'm not going to write the extra credit essay... and no I'm not just  saying it this time... I really don't think I'm going to... really... I mean it... I have to much to do...

I think I have to go to church in a few minutes...

so we went to my grandparents this weekend.
it was a great trip. i got some great "picture-taking time" in =)
here are a few of them...

their pond

the barn

flowers are my favorite =)

a little flower shed..

a bell thats in their yard

my grandpa was a POW in the korean war

i dont know what it is.. its antique and i like it, though

haha.. their mailbox.. i thought it was cute

my grandma has alot of pretty flowers

the wagon..

this is a little portion of the land they own.. its beautiful!
some more pretty flowers..

the road

when we were sitting on the fence

the horses

thats my horsie.. dave =)

dolly and dixie.. i dont know where the other two are?

random picture from the field

before we went and rode

my daddy fixing the briddle

caroline on her horse, dolly

leaving..

i love that picture..

well hello everyone I am such a dumb ass  I cant even talk about it but some of you all know

The only thing worse than having dial-up Internt is not having Internet at all. BellSouth cut my family off early, but on Friday we will have Comcast Internet. And the angels will sing, and it will be a day of bliss. But yay for Internt at MTSU so I don't feel completely disconnected.

I totally rocked on my EMC final, at least I think I did. I felt pretty good about it. I think I have an A in that class. So the only class I'm really concerned about is history. But realy, if I get a B in there, who cares? One B in two semesters is an accomplishment. No one expects me to be perfect except for me, and that's just silly.

Thanks so much for those who expressed interest in my video. I will give y'all more info soon, and if anyone else wants to help I can definitely use extras. I've got the main roles covered though. I want to start next week possibly, but we'll see how that goes.

I get to go to Destin the week after next! I can hardly wait! I really need this kind of vacation after this semester... and year...

I'm sick of all the illegal immigration stuff...

Ok, I ought to study for history now so I won't bomb the final tomorrow...

So there are a lot of things that I would like to do for a job, but one of the things that I wish that I could do more than anything right now is to be a wedding cake maker. I love looking at wedding cakes and their design. I love bakeing and so this would be a practical use for my love of baking. I wish that I could open up my own bake shop and design wedding cakes all day long! Someday I hope I'll get to do it, but for now I will just practice and get fat eating all of my practice cakes.

Mike Burton
"Sunday Morning"
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1. Lullaby
2. Streets of Queens
3. Without You
4. I'll Be Fine
5. Sunday Morning
6. While You're Gone
7. Out of Context
8. Mr. Right in Front of You
9. Marry Me
10. Only Natural
11. Cataract
12. Stereoarchetype

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So, my play went off without a hitch.  It was amazing all the innuendos that were in the play that I never realized were there.  And with a theatre dept. watching, it got even worse.  
But here is a picture of George Carter.  He was in my show and he did FABULOUS.  All the lines were said correctly and everything so that just makes me happy!  A big load off my shoulders.  Now to work on Darwin's THe Origin of Species.  Blah to that!

so i saw this picture and thought "who is that standing with paul?  she's really pretty and i've seen her before, but who is she?"

she's definately a pretty girl, but mine's hotter.  here i'd post one pic i'm thinking of, but she asked me to take it down....   so i'll post this one:



mmm  ::licks lips::  j/k  ;)

WEST SIDE STORY

Performed by the Siegel High School Chamber Choir
May 4, 5, 6, 8, and 9 at 7:00 pm
May 7 at 3:00
$6 for students, $8 for adults.

It's going to be an amazing show.  It opens tomorrow so you'd better come out and see it!

I took 6 classes this semester for a total of 15 hours.  So far, I have the grades for 4 of these classes, which is 9 hours worth.  All A's.  Boo-yah.  Of course, these are not the classes which I was worried about, but it still feels nice to have those A's.  The way everything is averaging out now, even if I failed Latin and General Psych (both of which are impossibilities), I'd still have a higher GPA than last semester.  Yay!

newest picture to add to my "college" photo album with a whopping 5 or 6 pages of pictures (2 pics per page)... -sigh-

next year ive got to make friends, take pictures, and have a good, happy year.

i dont know if want to go back to murfreesboro tonight... we'll see :)

ok shower time.... bye!!

 So if anyone is a fan of Dave Barnes you should check out his myspace (sorry Nathan). He has up these two short stories that are so funny. If you have ever seen him live you know that he is a funny guy and the stories are like you sitting down having a conversation with him. So check it out!

No guys you don't understand... I DID it... PAST tense... I ALREADY did it... on SUNDAY... LAST Sunday... LOL

"I DID IT!!! All 26.219 miles! Which makes me wonder... if the Marathon is under my belt... what ELSE can I do?..."

Im good today. Ive just had a lot on my mind lately with girls and stuff, and when i saw that thing on my friends phusebox i just put it in there for the heck of it. Thanks to the folks who left a comment. Im not done with phusebox i dont think. Just had one of those days. the day was great but when i sat and thought about everything i jus kinda fell off.  But im good everythings good. GOD IS IN CONTROL!!!!!!!!!  PRAISE THE LORD!!!

Everybody have a great day!!!!

the end is in sight

today i turned in my spanish books and ceremoniously threw away my WBs it was wonderful

MYO concert was pretty good tonight i happen to love MYO oh yeah any band kids should try out caue were graduating 13 wind players there is gonna be noone left

i love you

"Do not be content with the customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think."

Romans 12:2

This is how I feel tonight....... Maybe the person it is about knows who they are, but they probably dont....

"Tonight I Wanna Cry"
Keith Urban


Alone in this house again tonight

I got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine

There's pictures of you and I on the walls around me

The way that it was and could have been surrounds me

I'll never get over you walkin' away

[Chorus:]

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show

And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control

But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain

To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain

From my eyes

Tonight I wanna cry


Would it help if I turned a sad song on

"All By Myself" would sure hit me hard now that you're gone

Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters

It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better

But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way

[Chorus:]

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show

And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control

But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain

To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain

From my eyes

Tonight I wanna cry

[Chorus:]

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show

And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control

But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain

To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain

From my eyes

Tonight I wanna cry

    Generally, I am very level-headed, taking things that offend me in stride.  I understand that people have their own opinions that will most certainly differ from my own, and I am appreciative of that difference.  What I am not happy with and will get angry over is people teaching their opinion as the only way, the right way, or the truth.  Individuals who are in leadership positions or positions of influence, should be careful with what they say.  Ravi Zacharias has written this book called "The True Face of Atheism."  I have not read the book, but from the quotes and the reviews I feel extremely angered.  He portrays atheism as a "hopeless belief" and one "without morality."  This is simply untrue.  Just because one says they have not seen or experienced god or any proof of god does not mean they cannot be just as moral as the next person.  Furthermore, an individual does not necessarily need hope in something to get from one day to the next or have aspirations from their life.  People often say, "Well, what's the purpose of life then?" when I tell them that I am an atheist.  I say that there isn't a purpose- we are just animals existing among other animals.  We are not deserving of anything or entitled to anything.  But even though my life will end one day and there won't be some afterlife (in my opinion), I still have goals for my life.  It would be silly for me to just say that I have to have some divine purpose to live because I am alive and must deal with that.  I choose to assign value to certain things in my life- those that enhance my life while I am here.  And when it's over, it will be over.  Hopefully I have enjoyed it.  You CAN have value outside of a religion assigning it for you- I've been on both sides so I personally know.  Books like the one Zacharias has put out are the type that promote the intolerance we don't need in this world and confuse readers into thinking they are getting a true take on Atheism.  My advice:  If you want a true take on any religions or non-religious beliefs, talk to the members of that group.  Read writings from people who ascribe to that type of thought.  That is the best way to really know about the beliefs you are investigating.  Okay, now I feel a little better.

TOLERANCE...the word for the day.

I didn't until today. I was eating at work, and my food had this really yummy olive salad on it. The oil goes everywhere, had to learn that one the hard way.

  I was freaked out today, my friend Niles was upset about something. (note to self: ask him subtly about it tomorrow) He storms into the room and just flips over his desk, meaning he lifts it and tosses it over to one side.

  Someone (namely Carrie *ugh*) had the genius to ask him if he was ok. He repies with a highly sarcastic "I'm fantastic!". He sets his desk back up and throws his books in it. Here I am sitting on Abby's desk, reading a manga, minding my own business. He pulls out his phone, looks at it for a sec, mutters something and then yells "[Insert Profanity Here] you!!" and throws it at the wall. Well, in order for it to hit the wall, it has to pass over my head, and it did.

 I'm fine, it just grazed the very top of my head. It worried me more than it scared me, Niles isn't usually the one to use words of that nature. Nor is he the type to fling his cell phone at the wall.

 Mogan said he was crying in class, she sits right next to him. He calmed down some, he at least told her to not ask. He was polite about it, which was a good thing. Still, I'm kinda worried.

Or not studying.  What I'm doing instead of studying.  Shhhh.  Don't tell Mr. Huffman.

Anyways.

I have now entered the scratchy-throat-one-wimpy-cough-every-four-seconds stage of my combination allergies from hell and sinus infection.

I object!  To... everything.  So there.

Speaking of objecting: we're starting our mock Supreme Court trials in JROTC.  Exciting, no?  Our first trial is tomorrow.  The issue in question:  Should a woman who has given up her child for adoption be allowed to regain custody after the adoptive parents have obtained custody?

Or something that means about the same thing.  Two teams of "attorneys" will argue against each other.  I'm either a judge or a spectator tomorrow.  I don't have to try a case until next week.  Justin Bingham and I are arguing against Clinton Holladay and Kristin Michaels over whether or not a man should be able to get a court order to stop his wife from aborting their child [Justin and I are arguing the "yes" side].

Kristin and I picked that case because we could both see both sides of the argument.  We've even been helping each other find precedents and laws to bolster our arguments.

Something tells me we wouldn't actually make good lawyers.  :p

I took my Statistics test today.
I think I passed, but not by much. In the intire statistics book there was only one subject that we didn't cover over the year, and we didn't cover it because in past years there were only 2 or 3 (out of 75) multiple choice questions over it.
The test went like this:

• 75 Multiple Choice-50%


• 5 Free Response-25%


• 1 Really Hard Free Response-25%

Guess what that one REALLY big free response was over... Chi^2!!!!! Curses, Execrations, and Maldiction on this cursed thing called "Chi Squared." The ONE thing we didn't go over. I still think I passed though.

A.P. English is Thursday, and I don't know how I'm going to do on it. It's not even a test you can study for. All you do is write essays (which I don't have a natural tallent for) and interpret poems and find things like "Tone" and "Motifs." We'll see how I do.

But this makes me feel better:

Tired already and it is just Tuesday. Gateway friday is going to go okay. but i am going to go to bed...

    pink spiders baby...im officially a groupie...lol......the one in glasses is like the only ugly one...

Im teaching myself right now to play it on the guitar... not hard chords

at all. But anyway , I am bored, and ready for summer.

<3 yall

 OK WELL IF U GO TO OAKLAND OR EVEN IF YOU DONT THERE ARE ISSUES OUT THERE THAT NEED TO BE TAKEN CARE OF..I AM WANTING TO TALK TO MR TACKET ABOUT POSTING TEN STEPS TO STOPPING GLOBAL WARMING AROUND THE SCHOOL AND IF WE CAN JUST GET EVERY CLASS TO PLANT ONE TREE AT THE SCHOOL WE'LL CUT DOWN ON CARBON DIOXIDE BY LIKE 10 % AND ITS NOT MUCH BUT IT WILL HELP.....IF ALL THE ICE CAPS MELT WHERE WILL THE POLAR BEARS GO?????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

Two interesting articles...

http://www.jewishworldreview.com/cols/krauthammer1.asp

http://www.telladf.org/UserDocs/GeorgiaTechComplaint.pdf

The first is one about the price of gas, and the second about a lawsuit two students have brought against Georgia Tech.  If you politics and such, these will probably suit you best.

My CS 1371 exam went well today, and Calculus is tomorrow.  Also, I checked out of my room for good today, which also flew by smoothly.  On another note, I bought Tool's 10,000 Days today at BestBuy.  I may review it later if I find the time and the motivation.

soo i have had long hair for wayy to long and havent had it even near my shoulders since i was like six...so today i got it cut off..but im not sure if i like it yet?

what if i die and no one cares?

what if no one comes to my funeral?

what if i don't matter?

all i want is to save the world.

(is that too much to ask?)

i want my own chapter in the history books.

(i would settle for a paragraph.)

what if i spend my entire life in tennessee and my bones spend forever rotting away in a country graveyard?

(forgotten by everyone except the man who mows the grass.)

what will my headstone say?

who will bring flowers year after year?

anyone?

all i want is to change the world.

(am i that selfish?)

to be loved.

(what is love?)

what if even God forgets me?

(impossible.)

i really need a hug.

(or at the very least a phonecall.)

Stole this from a friend, thanks Brian

that being said i think im done with phusebox and xanga and all this online blogging stuff for a while cuz i jus dont get that many comments(I dont blame u guys, its no big deal, but if noones redin it then im not writin it

Well yea today was just a day...not great but not horrible....so i guess thats okay. im ready to get away...

i am officially going to Africa.

i just finished watching the movie Hotel Rwanda. OMGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH....

talk about your emotional rollercoasters. i was screaming at the tv, yelling for the rebels to kill the Hutus...

so....this is the story..(yeah, this is gonna be an extra long entry...)

in Rwanda, there are 2 types of Rwandans, Hutus, and Tutsis. There is no real difference between the two. The Belgian colonists that came there picked out the Rwandans with the fairest skin and the thinnest noses, and that sort of petty thing, and like, interbreeded and intermarried. they then made these more "desirable" people the rulers over the others. and some took on too much power or became tyrants. so eventually, the Hutus grew to hate them. so in 1994, unrest came to a head. the Hutus decided to form an army and begin a campaign of ethnic cleansing when the Rwandan president, (Hutu) Juvenal Habyarimana's plane was shot down over a Kigali airport. Almost immediately after, a newly formed militia, called the Interahamwe, were gathered to slaughter all Tutsis and those who tried to protect them. through the use of propaganda, many were coerced into following them, and were even given incentives such as food and land. Over 1,000,000 people were killed, for no reason. and the UN did not intervene. wow. what on earth? i can't imagine such a thing. there was a part in the movie where Paul Rusesabagina and one of his workers, Gregoire, were driving on of the hotel's van back to the hotel, and they began hitting all of these speed bumps. so Paul got out, and i'll finish this later because i gotta go. be back later.---

Well i went to a concert last friday. it was awesome. if you didnt go you should have it because it was awesome

Andrew

 am i vain?

So we had a meeting about graduation today.  Looks like I can't do either chess match at faire that Sunday.  :-(  Curses.  They also told me not to wear heels -- a double blow to my soul!  [Hmmm, like I'll listen to them.]

Ican'twait.
Freemenow.
Eliminateallspacesbetweenwords.

Jazz fest this Friday.... Who's going??

And so, the hash t-shirt saga goes.  Its a long convoluted and probably boring story; and I won't bore you with the details.  But, as per my earlier blog, our t-shirt printer only delivered half the number of t-shirts we requested (275 vs 550).  Now, (a) he doesn't want to give us our money back, (b) he doesn't want to complete the t-shirts, nor (c) give us some mix that leaves us whole (with worthless t-shirts, of course).  ARRRGGGHHHHH.

As for my trip to Houston, it continues to be plagued with challenges, issues, and disappointments.  Howerver, I am moving forward and anxious to go back to Angola ... so I can be with my wife.  

Hey guys,

Today was great.... i invited like 15 of my friends from school to come to the youth cookout friday... it will really be bummer if it gets canceled due to the weather!!!! well  if you haven't seen them already, here are some pictures that ali or should i say ayliegh (lol) took of her and I while we were franticly waiting on the wonderful ppl at fine arts to start the cerimony!!!!

^My fave of most of them^

^See, what is happening in this picture is there was this ginormous Chicken running rampagely loose in the auditorium so we stopped it (whom as called by the name of ty) in it's path and told it boldly "quote," chicken, we're gonna eat you!!!" *dun dun dun sound affects* unqoute".....

Those are the only ones i am willing to post at the moment, if you have a problem with that please get in line with all the others to recieve a quarter or two from my ginormous stack of quarters to call someone who cares....lol....jk....

Well if i don't see you at school tomorrow i will see you at church Wed. but if i don't see you at church Wed. i will see you friday at the youth cookout. but if by any chance i have still not seen you after these three atempts plus Sunday, i'm sorry to say that you are out of luck.

}{Mustard Seed}{

so here i sit, bored out of my mind.  even though i could be doing a number of important things such as my homework or studying for a big test coming up, i dont want to.  so here i sit...yup

btw do any of you think the band "smalltown poets" sounds like jars of clay? cuz i always seem to get them confused when im listening.

I made the critical mistake of showing my parents a post that spoke kindly of me. Now, I shall be lectured on how I'm going to be arrested for accusing someone of causing the dinosaurs to go extinct.

The AP test for Statistics was terrible beyond all comprehension.  The multiple choice was pretty easy, but the free response was anthrax in math form.  In case you were wondering about the horrible screams of pain echoing across the land, they originiated from those of us unfortunate souls trying to answer questions asking for various paramaters and statistics that I'm pretty sure the exam writers just made up based on their favorite book characters names put into an anagram generator.  Imagine being trapped in a room by the sadistic dictator of some dirtball country with no concept of human rights and being given a sheet with football scores and the script to the musical Cats.  With this information you are commanded to calculate the probability of each of three sections of the roof falling on you within twenty minutes.  Of course, none of the information is remotely useful so you just hum Can't Buy Me Love to yourself for nineteen minutes and then hastily pick a section to stand under that you hope won't fall.  Right before you are crushed, you have just enough time to appreciate the irony in the fact that all three sections are falling.  That's what the test was like.

finals = brain becomes mush

[np:ryan adams- "pa"]

silly kids.

what if i die and no one cares?

what if no one comes to my funeral?

what if i don't matter?

all i want is to save the world.

(is that too much to ask?)

i want my own chapter in the history books.

(i would settle for a paragraph.)

what if i spend my entire life in tennessee and my bones spend forever rotting away in a country graveyard?

(forgotten by everyone except the man who mows the grass.)

what will my headstone say?

who will bring flowers year after year?

anyone?

all i want is to change the world.

(am i that selfish?)

to be loved.

(what is love?)

what if even God forgets me?

(impossible.)

i really need a hug.

(or at the very least a phonecall.)

Hey Everyone!

soooooooooooooooo............. i am extremely bored so if you see this please comment me! If you do i will be forever grateful.... okay that sounded really cheesy so let me rephrase that i will just write you back (that sounds much better) LOL! okay well i better go please comment me or message me or whatever you want to do! okay well bye!

hey people

well tomorrow about this time i'll be in ohio
yay
well i am listening to story of the year...
i like them
havent listen to them to a long time><
"from up here the city is a light burgh of thousand mile of fire"
well i am bored i hope everyone has a good rest of the week and weekend
later

       meg