HELLO

            we looooove to run very fast and do flips and fight on my new trampoline. YES that is right I got a trampoline with all the great fun it comes with. And a word of advise, if you are going to do half of something then dont do half of a backflip.

                                                  Phil Over And Out

i had someone ask me on myspace for info on west side story so here it is

Where: Siegel High School Theater
When: May 4th- 9th @ 7:00 pm (GET THERE AROUND 6:30-6:45)

Where is Siegel High???
3300 Thompson Lane right beside siegel middle and northside baptist in murfreesboro!

If you have any question message me! later- stephen

Wear your grudge like a crown of negativity.

Calculate what we will or will not tolerate.

Desperate to control all and everything.

Unable to forgive your scarlet lettermen.


Clutch it like a cornerstone. Otherwise it all comes down.

Justify denials and grip it to the lonesome end.

Clutch it like a cornerstone. Otherwise it all comes down.

Terrified of being wrong. Ultimatum prison cell.




Saturn ascends, choose one or ten. Hang on or be humbled again.




Clutch it like a cornerstone. Otherwise it all comes down.

Justify denials and grip it to the lonesome end.

Saturn ascends, comes round again.

Saturn ascends, the one, the ten. Ignorant to the damage done.




Wear your grudge like a crown of negativity.

Calculate what you will or will not tolerate.

Desperate to control all and everything.

Unable to forgive your scarlet lettermen.




Wear the grudge like a crown. Desperate to control.

Unable to forgive. And we're sinking deeper.




Defining, confining, sinking deeper.
Controlling, defining, and we're sinking deeper.




Saturn comes back around to show you everything

Let's you choose what you will not see and then

Drags you down like a stone or lifts you up again

Spits you out like a child, light and innocent.




Saturn comes back around. Lifts you up like a child or

Drags you down like a stone to

Consume you till you choose to let this go.

Choose to let this go.




Give away the stone. Let the oceans take and transmutate this cold and fated anchor.

Give away the stone. Let the waters kiss and transmutate these leaden grudges into gold.




Let go.

Prom was amazing. Katie Kimbell is the best and thats the bottom line!!

Pictures coming SOON!!!!

             I advanced in both my human video solo and my short sermon.... God is great, because there is no way I should have been able to pull those off. He has blessed me in the people who supprt me, believe in me, and help me.

Well this weekend was great...I was with Carla n Paul ( I love Paul! and Carla!) Friday I was at their house with the Nicks and Chris Saturday I was at an auction type thing and it was a late nite an today i was at church so my weekend was booked!!!  the choir made it!!!!  that was exciting everyone was telling me about it
     SAD NEWS~ Pastor Tommy and his wife are leaving our church, its sooo sad but its the best thing for them!

~Karus

SO! prom and districts FAF were this weekend. Fine arts was extremely stressful, but well worth it. Our large human video is advancing to nationals! That means I get to spend my 18th birthday in Orlando, which makes me pretty happy.  

Prom was insane!!! Rachel and Bridgett did my hair and makeup for me. We sat in Centennial High School's empty gym during the FAF break before ceremony and Rae curled and braided my hair and Bridge went makeup crazy. They were such a big help. I made it to our limo just in time. Went to west end, goofed off, went to prom. Made a complete idiot of myself there, and LOVED it! Only survived after prom for a little while. Got home at 4.

Prom had a few rough spots, but all in all it was fun. FAF was tons of fun competing and hangin out w/some really cool people. So had a good weekend, just too tired for my own good!

I think the things that had me the most stressed out are finally over now! Hopefully if is gonna get a little more enjoyable

...it was gangsta gangsta at the top of the list
then i played my own shit and it went somethin' like this
cruisin down the street in my six-fo
jockin the bitches, slappin the hoes
went to the park to get the scoop
knuckleheads out there cold, shootin some hoops
a car pulls up, who can it be
a fresh El Camino rollin kilo G
he rolled down his window and he started to say
its all about makin that G.T.A.

coz the boys in the hood are always hard
you come talkin that trash, we'll pull ya card
knowin' nutin in life but to be legit'
dont quote me boy coz i aint said shit...

...bored as hell and i wanna get ill
so i went to a spot where ma homeboys chill
the fellas out there makin dat dollar
i pulled up in ma 6 fo' impala
they greet me wit a 40 and i start drinkin
and from the 8 ball, my breath starts stinkin
left to get ma girl to rock that body
before i left, i hit the bac-ardi
went to her house to get her out of the pad
dumb hoe said somethin that made me mad
she said somethin that i couldnt believe
so i grabbed the stupid bitch by her nappy-ass weave
she started talkin shit, wouldnt you know
reached back like a pimp, slapped the hoe

...it was gangsta gangsta at the top of the list
then i played my own shit and it went somethin' like this
cruisin down the street in my six-fo
jockin the bitches, slappin the hoes
went to the park to get the scoop
knuckleheads out there cold, shootin some hoops
a car pulls up, who can it be
a fresh El Camino rollin kilo G
he rolled down his window and he started to say
its all about makin that G.T.A.

coz the boys in the hood are always hard
you come talkin that trash, we'll pull ya card
knowin' nutin in life but to be legit'
dont quote me boy coz i aint said shit...

...bored as hell and i wanna get ill
so i went to a spot where ma homeboys chill
the fellas out there makin dat dollar
i pulled up in ma 6 fo' impala
they greet me wit a 40 and i start drinkin
and from the 8 ball, my breath starts stinkin
left to get ma girl to rock that body
before i left, i hit the bac-ardi
went to her house to get her out of the pad
dumb hoe said somethin that made me mad
she said somethin that i couldnt believe
so i grabbed the stupid bitch by her nappy-ass weave
she started talkin shit, wouldnt you know
reached back like a pimp, slapped the hoe

 I posed for a couple of pictures at home:

Then I went to Karen's to take some pictures since she and Jacob were going to Oakland's prom:

Finally, I went to Brian's to meet up with him, Cameron, and Stephanie:

I wasn't sticking him that bad. . . :)

How lovely. . .

Then we picked up the rest of the gang and headed to Opry Mills in Brian's mom's party--er--minivan

While waiting for our table at TGIFriday's, we decided to ride the merry-go-round

We finally got to prom after an interesting LONG way back. . . lol. And we danced. . .

and danced. . .

and danced. . .

It was pretty much the topper of the three proms I've been to. Fun night :)

After prom got horribly boring after we ate, so Brian, Cameron, Katie, and I went to Wal-Mart at 3:30 this morning and stayed about an hour. Those pictures can be seen in my photo box.

So prom was basically amazing.  It was so cool to see all the senior girls so beutiful, and the senior boys looking so sharp...and the dancing was fun fun!  I'm so sore. 

Dinner with Hunter, Kris, and Bean was an adventure, as you might imagine.  We discussed such things as Arthurian Legend and Protocal, selling out each other's seats to immigrants, the numbers and countries imprinted on our silverware, and how to poison our waiter with his tip ("take the glowing dollar bill!  It won't hurt you!").

Party After Prom was pretty sweet too.  The decorations were excellent - it reminded me so much of when I lived in Vegas!!  Gambling's not really my thing, but Chloe's mom basically gave me free chips, which was super cool!  I'm not much of a night owl, though, and by about 3:30 am I had reached the state of being known as the Living Dead.  But we stuck around until five, and Bean won a microwave and Hunter won the Holy Grail of Siegel, so it was worth it.

Overall...a great night.  Hunter was very sweet.  My friends were very beautiful.  Everything was lovely.

 : )

Christina

Prom was a blast.  I run half-marathons, and dancing that crazy still wore me out.  At Party After Prom, I won a FREAKIN' MICROWAVE!!!!

MIERDA SANTA!

Just a short blog to let everybody know I have arrived safely in Houston.  Not so sound thou.  Seemed like every step of the way had a challenge.

a. BAD traffic to airport

b. No a/c in Luanda airport (HOT)

c. Plane reservations messed up; had to wait 20 minutes in the heat

d.  Shoes kept setting off the metal detectors

e. Tripped on stairs to waiting area

f. Oversized man on plane with me, snoring, slobbering, and needing 2 belts so he could fasten up

g. 15.5 hour plane ride

h.  Emigration insisted I give the the hotel address (on the Customs form), had to get out of line and go find it

i. No car reservation; but got lucky

j. Hotel reservation ok; but luggage stuck somewhere for 30 minutes

k. No phone access b/coz something thought I was paying with cash.

>>> sooner or later jetlag will hit

>>> ahhh, such a great day to be alive ... It gets better ... I think

blah.....blahdee blah blah....prom....blahdee blah blah.....fun...blahdee blah blah...lol....blahdee blah blah...

Fine Arts was this weekend. I think everyone did very well. I advanced only in our choir, but hey, I'm going to Orlando!!! I was hoping I would advance in at least 1 thing other than choir...but I didn't, and that's ok. I did my best. I got a lot of compliments on our Human Video. Everyone seemed to enjoy it. I almost laughed when I looked at the audience all swaying and laughing during 'I Can Be Your Friend'. It was great. I was 'in the zone'...I've got to go eat lunch. I will see ya'll tonight. Have a great Sunday, and congrats to all in FA. see ya'll

Hey Everyone.....

wut is up? yesterday was awesome... so was friday....

friday i just stuck with steven ambrose and walked around seeing everyone else but saturday i preformed....it went very well.... my solo was first thing saturday morning at 8 am.... i know too early to be singing... it went extremely well... everyone told me that if i took wed. night's performance and multiplyed it by 4 i would get how well i performed yesterday... i got to see Will and Travis' human video... they did it to Lord of the dance by steven curtis chapman....the choir was awesome and so was our ensemble.... we ater went to the coolsprings mall and ali and i "stalked" tyler while we were looking for the candy shop.... which we ended up never finding.... then we went back to Centennial for the award ceremony...

at the award ceremony we found out that... Stacy advanced in her solo.... becky, adam r (also taking first), amanda, brad(group) and alex (solo and in group with brad) advanced in the drama/human video category... adam A and micheal took first.... becky, adam r and hannah advanced in short sermon....the Greater ensemble advanced and took first... and the choir advanced and took first.... and that is all.... i am not upset about not advancing... i partely had a feeling just because it was my first year participating in fine arts i wasnt sure how everything layed out... i just can't wait to start preparing for next year... oh and i can't wait until nationals and competing in the choir!!!

i was so happy for will and travis because their human video advanced!

i will see everyone Wed... i am trying to set it up so seth can come to the youth group....

love ya! ecspecially Ty and Steven!!!!

So everyone knows so I don't have to tell the same story a million times, I'll give the run down on fine arts this weekend.

And just to go ahead and get this out of the way, no, I did not advance in short sermon.

Yes, I made it to the second round at nationals last year, but, well, I
think I went over time, which stinks, but o well, I guess.

But though I didn't advance in the category I've made it in for the
first two years, let me just give you the story of the category I tried
for the first time this year: drama solo.

See, I loved our large drama last year, I had somewhat of an important
role, so I wanted to be able to do drama this year, so I signed up for
it.

For WEEKS in advance I had the same idea for a drama solo, working on it and all.

Then, either tuesday, or more likely wednesday, I couldn't get it to
fall together, so I sought what God wanted me to do. " Go through it
one more time."

So I did.

I figured in doing so He'd show me how to pull it together.  Instead, I realized.. it wasn't going to work. 

Realize this was just a couple days before the competition, with finals
right in the middle, more specifically a monologue and drama exam on
friday.

There's no way I can do it.  I run through things a million times.
I've had plenty of human video ideas that took forever, and sometimes
didn't really work.

In fact, I remember telling my friend Lori Basler at lunch that I was
considering not even doing one: man, am I glad I didn't do that,
because,

Well, it happened. I had an idea, it fell together, I hardly had to
revise any lines at all.  All I really had to do was memorize it,
get a spectaculous drama major to help: thank you TIFFANY TERPIN
(spelling) Your suggestions were GREAT.

And the end result was:

I was blown away at how much everyone loved my drama solo.  WAAAY more support than I was expecting.

And in a category where almost everyone advanced, I advanced......

AND TOOK FIRST PLACE :)

Yep everyone, I didn't advance in sermon, but I took first place in
drama solo.  Adam Rodrigues, yes, you heard it correctly.

Fine Arts 06- Amazing! ( in its own way :) )

Prom...

wow.

I love Brady and Jackie.

We met at Jackie's to take pictures.       We had dinner at the Aquarium at Opry Mills.

Then we went to prom.     Everyone was gorgeous and hot and danced amazingly. Twas fun. But why didn't they play "Check Up On It"???? >.< (LOVE THAT SONG LOL)

Party After Prom was no where near as fun as i though it'd be. but i had a lil fun. tho i didn't win anything... I was sooooo happy when Brady won a video Ipod! ^^ now we can watch the Lestat commercial all the time! ^^

then we went to Brady's and watched some Anastasia and ate some cinnomon buns ^^ yum!

I'll post pictures REALLY soon!

P.S. I love my hair

I DID IT!!! All 26.219 miles! Which makes me wonder... if the Marathon is under my belt... what ELSE can I do?

"Tell you of a girl that I saw, I froze in the moment and she changed it all..."
- Yellowcard, "How I Go"








Prom was amazing. Jaleah looked so beautiful. I can not even describe.... Well, first our group went to Opry Mills where we ate at TGI Fridays. That was amazing. While we were there we did not neglect to ride the merry-go-round in the food court. it was quite entertaining. then prom was awesome. danced with jaleah for about three hours straight. hm... then we came back to my house and the group played Dance Dance Revolution til' time to go to After Prom. That was okay, it got old really quick though. Then me and Jaleah just kind of hung out til' five in the morning. Hm... that's it.
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all it worked out
a great night on the town
all the friends they were laughing
not one wore a frown
and then as one
we all danced the night away
we stayed up til' day break
then most slept the next day
and all i can say
to the end of the night
it ended so sudden
and it just didn't seem right
the night was so great
i hate that it had to end
and to think i didn't get to kiss
the greatest date God could've sent....

so prom was a lot of fun.  i sang.  i danced.  i ate.  i gambled.  i played twister.  it was great.  *sigh*  i dont know if jacob had fun or not.  he promised me he did.  i hope hes not lying.

hotay, so prom and party after prom is over now.  it was lots of fun and a most interesting experiance.  i can't wait to see if the pix turn out good enough for blogging.  party after prom was over at five fifteen and mai, erica and i ate at i hops. i am soooooooo exhausted. must sleep.  ambers sleep over was the night before last.  ummmmmm, lets see, nearly went to go see the midnight showing of scary movie four but there was no way in hades that lisa and i could've snuck amber out of her house so that has to be rescheduled.   hmmmmmmmmmmm. nothing else that i can think of, though i probably will update after i sleep. if i don't, i tell some what happened fully and others nothing.  muwa haha

So we started at 8 and didn't actually get through security till about 11:30 yea, it took us 2(ish) hours to get to the church then we stood in line for another 1 and a half hours to wait for about 4 security guys to check ALL the bags you had w/ you, which for me was 3, my purse my change of clothes and my sleeping bag, then we got in, took a pic and my pic was totally screwed up b/c i think the camera was broken b/c both me and my friend's picture turned out all blurry, but anyways, then I went to the borter potty, which they were actually pretty clean, then I talked to some friends and was asleep by 1:30ish, then around 5:30 people started waking me up, not fun, but I got up and came to the Nutt house (my friend's name is Katie Nutt) so now I am here, eating a cinnamon roll and going to go watch a movie and catch up on sleep.

Megan

I was thinking about it, and I don't want yall to get the wrong impression, I had a lot of fun, and it was amazing to see everyone there to support the invisible children, and I am so glad I did it, i like to think that I made a difference, and hopefull I did, but I just wanted to make that more clear.

allergies = not fun

yes, it is 4:30AM and i'm awake.  i still can't decide if i'm up late or woke up early.  i can't really remember if i went to sleep or not; it's all a blur.  after a horrible week of battling seasonal allergies, i'm much better but still a bit miserable.  for those that say they have allergies and sneeze once or twice, i don't want to hear it! 

anyway, on a brighter note...we survived our first week without ben and kevin at the after school program.  although, we did have a total of 6 new youth come this past week.  totally was not expecting it, at all. 

ouch, i just pulled a muscle (from coughing). 

the next few weeks will be full of studying and paper/office work.  i feel that since i made it through everything that happened in march and april, i can make it through a few weeks of this fun. 

not really any exciting adventures this past week...but hopefully there will be some soon

iv been online since 11 thats a long time

iv been doing something productive though

iv made a 6 page band dictionary i took one from a site and added alot and removed soem its so cool but it wouldnt let cope paste it bacue its in columnsbut yeah its the coolest thing ever!

so Tom Sawyer is alot of fun.. last show tommorow at 4:00.... im actually upset! i grew close to them.....egh

Tonights show was amazing! around 200 ppl came i heard!

lets see

sydney,kristi,kendall,jarren,cristin,shane,corey,mrs.marino,mrs. robin, mr. phil, moe,trey,alexanna,tonya,steve,sara beth, olivia, my aunt patsy and uncle vick ,my dadd-o,rachel,jamie,mr. allen and one other person i think all came tonight.. it was crazy

affter tis weekend im putting up all the pictures soooo yea

im gonna go

love love

laura

Wutz^ ... purty bored right now... fig i'll juss update real quick.. leav sum..P34C3 and i got a my space.. http://www.myspace.com/repinflorida4life

still trin 2 customize it out my way..

is absolutely amazing.

and all the hott kids are about to be at party after prom.

and probably at church tomorrow.

what an amazing night . . .

anna and i are booty-licious dance partners. the hottness part deux.

and with phusebox still blocked i can never get on here, so . . . who wants to share the loophole with me? *puppy face*

ciao, hos

well.. tonight was the night commute renactment (sp?) of the children in uganda. oh my goodness-- it was amzinggg.. it shows you the trouble they go through every night just to be safe. it amazed me how tired i was after doing it once, and how they go through that daily.. not just to do it, but for the safety of their lives. i was very blessed to take part in something like that. but i hung out with the coolest people everrr-- chelsea, chris =), and alex. it was so much fun! from almost getting lost like.. 10000 times to chris' patch of hair to alex's 20 bags he carried (his mom made him pack it all ) ahaha i love that kid to chelsea's meeting her hero.. *sigh* good times.. i love those guys. well-- my feet are pretty tired so im gonna go to bed now. love yall and had an amazinggg time!

I am pretty tired. I need sleep. I am also kind of bored since soo many people are at prom and  am stuck at home with nothing to do but vegetate at the computer.

On a side note, boys are confusing. Is there something or am I imagining things? hmm...confusing still.

Retreat in a week! I ge tto be a leader! I get to read my talk that I have been working on for months! And I get soo many hugs in that one night! I am sooo excited!

We had soooooooooo much fun this weekend! Everyone was AMAZING! I think we had 3 first places and 10 advances. That's AWESOME! Youth choir got first place and advanced, and we got to perform in front of everyone after we all got our medals! It was so exciting. THANK YOU, VERA for helping us get to the level we were at, and especially GLORY TO GOD for being with us and annointing us through it all! Now I can't wait 'til ORLANDO!!!!! Yeah! And my brother Adam got first place in his instumental division but they didn't advance. That's ok, he was still shocked they got 1st and so was I!

So this weekend was fine arts. It was amazing.... I competed in Youth Choir and in Large Drama Group. Choir advanced Drama did not. Our church won 4 first place entries and had 10 categories advance. We just finished watching a movie with our family, Hooper, Adam and Chris M. that was fun. I am going to go to bed so that I can get up in time for church tomorow.

Zay

So here we are, the end of our freshman year in college.  I never thought I would make it this far.  If I remember correctly when I left Erie I told one of my teachers I was going to die two months into school.  Ya well that didn't happen.  There were times first semester that I thought I was died though, and there were times that all I wanted to do was go home and never see this place again.  I learned alot about myself in those times.  As much as I want to forget about the mistakes I made, they did make me look at my life in a whole new prespective, and they taught me that I don't have to settle for just any friends, I can be a little picky and still meet some awesome people.  Christmas break did me a world of good, and I came back ready to take MTSU on!! LoL  Ok so I didn't take this place on, but hey second semster was 10x better then 1st.  Do you ever wonder why God does the things he does?  Like why do you grow up in the place you do, why do you fall in love with the people you do, why do you get the job that you do??  I know you are never suppose to doubt the things he does, and I don't very offten but I still wonder why?  When I left Erie I didn't know how this was going to work out, and the night before I left I really thought that I was crazy and truly wanted to tell my parents I couldn't do it.  But hey I have to much pride to let my parents think they know whats best for me.  So I did it, and looking back on this past semester I now know why this was his choice for me.  You all want to know why now don't ya!!??  Well lets see, I really don't make friends easily, I make casual friends great, but to make a true friend for life is a rare thing for me.  I have a couple back home, but there are still times that I wonder if in 20 years we will still talk?  I love those girls to death but I don't know... Can you ever really tell what the future is going to bring (the answer to that is no by the way).  But for some reason when I came here God put me next door to one of the most crazyist chicks I have ever met.  Gosh what was he thinking?! LoL JK  So we became friends and at some point I actaully opened up to her.  I guess in some ways she taught me how to trust, in my self and in my friends.  I still can't forsee the furture nor can I really control it.  But if it was up to me we would talk in 20 years, and be as good of friends as we are now, if not better!!  Thanks Kristi for letting me open up and never giving up on me!!  I know there was times where you really did think I hated you! LoL  I never did though, you know its easier to tell some one you hate them than that you care! I am always here for ya chic!  Love ya!!   But now I have to say good bye to this place and these people.  I really hate good byes, and I know that I am going to cry all Friday.  Even when I am getting my TN licesens, and the pic is going to look really bad, and evertime I look at it I am going to know why its bad and cry all over again!!  My dad tells me just to suck it up and we all have to say good bye at some point in our life!! That dose not make me feel any better!!  Gosh right now I wish I could just freeze time and stay right here right now forever! But again we all know that can't happen!!  Well I guess this is long enough now!  So everyone have a great day I will TTYL!! <3 

i think i'm getting close to figuring out what i'm going to do when i grow up...

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::sigh::

my gerbil has no brain

Well another year has gone by and this time I didn't compete.....I kinda wish I had but I really didn't have the money and am gettting futher and futher behind on my bills and unless I had managed to miraculously make 100 bucks appear and if I could do that I wouldn't be having money problems......but everything I saw was amazing I really miss acting as well as singing.....maybe I can convince them to let me be in the choir because my finances should be working out come June if not sooner......I pray sooner.....but all in all things went great I have to say I am sorry for those that didn't advance but I think from what I saw everyone preformed their hearts out......espically Meagan.....you were amazing and if I had been a judge I would have given you a 38 or a 39 cause nothings perfect......but your solo was amazing and that says alot comeing from me since of course I have music flowing through my veins.....if only I could play an instrument.....anyways I am off peace out much of that stuff bye bye

Why are some people allowed to be parents?  Seriously, why were eggs/sperm placed in their genitalia?  Some people are less designed to be parents than Naturally, I'm not talking about all parents, or even most.  I'm talking about a select group of parents: the ones who discipline their children by yelling. 

I am admittedly no expert on children or how to raise them--I've never read the books (it's never really been applicable to me...) and or have any of my own (children, that is... I do have books), but I do know when people are making large mistakes.

We have relatives staying with us this weekend, and I could definitely do without.  Whenever the children (ages 3 and 6) do anything--regardless of what it is--the parents yell at them.  If they touch the glass on the door, they are yelled at.  Walking in the general direction of the china cabinet makes Mommy bellow like a longshoreman.  Daddy shouts when, I don't know, the younger one breathes too loudly.  Then, naturally, when they actually do something dangerous or that they shouldn't do (putting their hand dangerously close to the blades on the fan, for example), they don't respond when their parents yell.  And this baffles the parents.

I would like to tell them that their children have not yet reached double digits in their years and are unable to distinguish between "Mommy is yelling as she always does" and "Mommy's voice has gone up 1/2 an octave; this means that I must be doing something that could produce unsound effects on my health."  I have had to leave the house twice today and go outside for a few minutes just because of all the yelling.  And the kids are not neglected; they're well-loved and not abused or anything.  They've grown up in this culture of yelling, so it's all perfectly normal.  I, on the other hand, who was rarely yelled at as a child (and knew to respond instantly when my parents did yell), find this constant shouting grating.

This is not to say that all yelling is bad.  If the children are about to stick their fingers in the fan blades or are simply acting so atrociously that even Mary Poppins would fail with them, then yelling can have its justifications.  But all the time?

In addition, both children still drink out of sippy cups.  Did you happen to catch their ages?  Three and six, in case you didn't.  The three-year-old, that's fine; a sippy cup is a good thing.  But when a child is six, can swim underwater (she told me), and is almost done with kindergarten, a sippy cup for plain old water seems unnecessary...

I'M GOIN' TO NATIONALS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yeah, my choir advanced (and took first, oh yeah we rock), but my HV didn't. It makes me sad, but at the same time mucho glad.

 We're watching "Fun With Dick And Jane", it is HILARIOUS! Not exactly the best morals, hello they get away with bank robbery!

 Ok, mom's putting in "Tristian and Islode", (turns into a puddle at the thought of the beautiful James Franco)

 *haha, you saw me get girly!!*

What if you never got a chance to see me ever again? What if I died tonight?

Would you come to my funeral?



Would you cry?



Would you forget me?



Would you bring me flowers?



How would you respond?



What would be going through your head?



Would you regret anything you said to me?



Would you regret anything you didn't say to me?



What would be your last memory of me?



What would you remember me by?

I BETTER GET SOME RESPONSES!!!!

what is this "phusebox" of which you speak....?

Well fine arts was great... my choir and ensemble took first and advanced to nationals... my drama, human video and solo didnt... i was really hoping to make it with my solo.. but life... happens..... im really excited about nationals.. i cant wait to see jon.....

i held zay's hand.. *giggle giggle* lol... (rebbecca.."noooo, not.... DRATS!)

thank you sooooo much those of you who came to hear me sing... stephen.... THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU..... marybeth thanks for making a point to be there too.. your amazing... there were a couple other people i reeeeeeeeeeeeallly wanted to be there but couldnt make it because of paul and linda's duet... but yeh... i guess it happens.....

i cant handle life.....

really...

i

just

cant.......

rebecca jensen's hv solo sums it up for me... it had me in tears... but what is new lately for me???

Is there anyone that fails
Is there anyone that falls
Am I the only one in church today feelin' so small

Cause when I take a look around
Everybody seems so strong
I know they'll soon discover
That I don't belong

So I tuck it all away, like everything's okay
If I make them all believe it, maybe I'll believe it too
So with a painted grin, I play the part again
So everyone will see me the way that I see them

CHORUS
Are we happy plastic people
Under shiny plastic steeples
With walls around our weakness
And smiles to hide our pain
But if the invitation's open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain on our stained glass masquerade

Is there anyone who's been there
Are there any hands to raise
Am I the only one who's traded
In the altar for a stage

The performance is convincing
And we know every line by heart
Only when no one is watching
Can we really fall apart

But would it set me free
If I dared to let you see
The truth behind the person
That you imagine me to be

Would your arms be open
Or would you walk away
Would the love of Jesus
Be enough to make you stay

CHORUS 2x

But if the invitation's open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain on our stained glass masquerade

Is there anyone that fails
Is there anyone that falls
Am I the only one in church today feelin' so small

you know...

sometimes i really wish my boyfriend could understand my emotions
and how his temper breaks my heart

i'm not suppose to talk to him until monday,
all because of a fight last night and me 'annoying' him

so there's go my weekend down the drain

i really wish i hadn't lost all my friends

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packin up the van with blankets and pillows...food and music.

im really excited about tonight...sleepin outside and such..

I've asked several, and the same as times
Have befallen the unfortunate hearers,
What do you think of me?
What do you think of my life?
Oh, but if there was a cure
For the all too common Christopher
That 36 among the stars somewhere
Beckoning my greatness to manifest,
What a day that would be!
Now, having unmasked the world,
I'm left begging for fulfillment.
What do you think of me?
What do you think my purpose is?
Ah, introspection got the best
Of you and me.
Aren't you worn from all this excitement?
I know I am...haha,
If only there were any to be had.
Once I said that
To be a realist
Is to be a pessimist,
Everyone else ran off,
And my dreams chased them as well.

     Bear Bear just got a new haircut yesterday (not his first one... >>> but by far the cutest! :D).  I wuv it!!!!!!! :D  ANYCOWS >>> I just thought that this thing needed an update... oh yea... >>> I went to a concert last nite... >>> it was fun.

My Choir and ensemble advanced, but my duet and solo didn't :-) & :-(

Actually it was my solo and duet that I wanted to go the most, but it's still cool. I'm off to prom now.

why did he forgive me?
why did he help me?
why didn't he get mad?
why did he, instead, make me feel loved?
           That's what makes him so great
           What an amazing boy.

I've looked at this site for a while then after awhile I decided to join.

so u guys all ready for prom tonight???

hey whats up well  my name is sarah lynn im from baker county flordia the most boring place ever well i am 13 im in 8th grade i have the most coolest friends and my baby boy scott i luv him so much he is the most wonderfulest person in the world i dont even no if that a word but i made it up then lol

I'm done with fine arts (I'll know the results soon) and now I'm getting ready for prom.

WHAT A DAY!!!

so i'm sure if you are a senior or close, today's topic is prom. well, duh, i'm excited, its the senior prom. but this is a different subject.

This is my advice, my plea.  

~~~>be careful!! we loose a senior every year, due to a mistake they made or someone else made.

I'm being dead serious. If you read this, obviously we know one another and that makes us friends. (hence, i care about you!)

I beg you all. Don't become a statistic.

Be careful, have fun, and enjoy a memory that you'll keep a lifetime!

*prettyinpink*

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sooo..there it is!

my new car!!

FINALLY!!

OOt

photo from yourcandytears

You should check out the website I post on for the baby and for our little family.

It's the "link" beside website on the left side column over there.

Yay?

YAY!!!!!!!!

"O glorious saint, who chose to die; instead of denying your King, We pray you please to help us; As His fair praise we sing!

We lift our hearts in joyous song to honor Him this way, And while we sing, remembering, To sing is to doubly pray.

At once in our hearts and in our tongues; We offer double prayer; Sent heaven ward on winged notes; To praise God dwelling there.

While in our hearts and tongues we try; With song to praise God twice, We ask dear saint, to help us be United close to Christ!"

                                                                           ~prayer to st.cecilia (the saint i chose as my saint for confirmation)

isnt the prayer beautiful?  its so beautiful i put it on my xanga too! lol

Quickie - friends and loved ones. Hash was great. Smaller than expected but had lots of fun.

I'm now showered, cleaned up, and ready to go to the airport .... hasta luego.

PROM TONIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AND IVE GOT THE BEST DATE EVER

KATIE KIMBELL

so to the titans take vince young. good pick!! i think he can make some immediate impact on the titans. well maybe mcnair will take the pay cutt now. wait a minute who wants the has been (mcnair) anyway! not me! later- stephen

i got my nails done yesterday. We had WSS rehearsal. goin to get my hair done @ 1. still don't have a purse/clutch-thingy lol

"It's easy to get a beautiful moment, but
you already know
that you can't get beautiful things
just by being beautiful yourself.
What journey will you make in your limited time?"
-Ayu (Beautiful Day)

PROMS TONIGHT, UGH SO MUCH TO DO AND SO LITTLE TIME TO DO IT IN

So Tuesday morning my roommate and I travled to New Orleans. We were drove through Times Square at 5am and were eatig benets at Cafe Du Mond by 2pm! It was a crazy trip but it was really great for both of us. I had a job interview and founs a great apartment and meet some really awesome people. God totally confrimed that I was doing what he wanted me to do by moving down. I still get waves of fear but I need to be steadfast in knowing that God is with me through all of this. Still need to find a job, but I have enough money saved that I can live off of for two months so I should be good. I also heard some great things about churches there and about house churches and church plants that are starting up.
New Orleans is not what it once was but I think it is slowly coming back. We drove through some of the hard hit areas and were shocked because it did not look like we were in the US anymore. We also went to Mississippi for a day so Susan could see her town and I think that it was  a lot worse than New Orleans. It was like looking at pictures from WWII of bombed out citys. Huge casinos just gone, house left as rubble and it's been like 8 months and it still looks like a mess.
It was a hard trip for both Susan and I, but it was also a really good trip! I am excited to get down there and to move in and just start living down there! Still need to find a job ASAP!

I MADE COLORGUARD!

YAY!!!!!!!!!

so yea my life has been BUSY!!! west side story rehearsal is winding down. tomorrow is dress rehearsal and we open thursday. i am starting to enjoy choir so yea i am probably going to be back next year. so yea west side story is looking awesome if i can say so myself. so yea its 7:30 and i am still half alsleep so i am sort of babbling so later- stephen

AhHhHhHhHhH!!!!!!
few more day i am going up north for a wedding
it should be fun
lighten my hair to a little lighter blonde
so yeah
i got my dress on wednesday that i have to
wear for my cousins wedding
i am one of the brides maid^^
this should be fun
my week has been great
i had two subs yesterday whuch both of them were cool
today i probably need to work on that gym paper thats due on the 16 of may>>
i suck at writting a ten paper.....
but oh well
well i am going  so yeah

As all of you are probably asleep at this time (4:02 AM) I am getting ready to leave for a half marathon that starts at 7:00am. I have to be at MTC at 4:45. So ya'll be thinkin' about me ya hear ?

~ Drew

ok,,hhhmmmpphhh....lemme' tell u guys 1st..im not used 2 write poem in english,,but i'll try...well i wrote dis poem cuz we had 2 write a poem in english class about friendship,,but NEway.....i need u guys comment on my poem!

Friendship

Friendship is like a chameleon

Changeable and inconstant

Unreliable and fickle

Faking, pretending

Not wanting to show their true color

 

What we all wish for is

True friendship

Just like a diamond

Hard to find, valuable

Constant and everlasting

a.  I don't do drugs

b.  In Angola we call a car/SUV a "kilo"

c.  Whisking away isn't always a bad thing

.... on on ... time to ice down 10 coolies of drinks, plus 10 cases of soda, plus 24 bottles of water, and 17 bottles of kool-aid, not including hauling an asundry of Reglious Advisor punishments .... my clothes, Decy's food ... and a partridge in a pear tree ... oh yeah, and the 275 KIDS t-shirts ....

I'll be glad to get on the plane just so I can relax

Yep...It's official...I'm twitterpated!  I don't think I could be more smitten with Trent.  He is amazing to me...I'm just going to miss him this summer!

Well all i can say is that i dont really like phusebox but i will say this quote "Ya know, right now the most important thing in my life is to make sure you understand that, first of all I thank God I'm alive today, and I mean that.
I spent too many years of my life thinking that the big party was the whole thing. it took me quiet a while to find out that the real deal is to be able to be enough of a person on your own to know when somebody loves you and cares about you.
You see, we are here, as far as I can tell, to help each other; our brothers, our sisters, our friends, our enemies. That is to help each other and not hurt each other. And sometimes to help them we have got to help ourselves. So that we will know that they are around in the first place.
Its a big world out there; with enough pain and misery in it; without me going around and helping it out by hurting myself; and consequently, those that care about me.
What I am trying to get across to you; is please take of yourselves and those that you love; because that is what we are hear for, that's all we got, and that is all we can take with us. Are you with me ?” - SRV

Went to a scrEmo concert tonight. Crazy. Made me remember how different secular concerts are from Christian ones. For instance: The Mosh Pit. At the concert tonight, people would knock you down, walk on your face, and start beating you like a punching bag(like my friend Moinca, she was with me, and she fell. She's going to the hospital in the morning because we think she broke/sprained her wrist). At Cornerstone(Christian Woodstock Camp-Out for a Week Shindig), it was fun because you knew you were safe, and if you fell, people would pick you up and make sure you were okay. I miss Cornerstone.

i can't be as cool as you
i stay between the lines
the world could take a step towards the worst
and i'd still be standing here
though many follow blindly
i chose to stand and see
and how much i wish
you weren't one of the masses
and i wish you'd stand here with me
but i guess i'm not that cool

So today was our senior picnic, that was uber fun. Mrs Gregory dancing to My Humps and reciting rap music in a poetic style during the teacher talent show made my day, well, almost. I hung out with Beth, Sara, and Ashton during the pizza thing, yay.

I went to gas my car today, blah. We've found a convertable that looks promising...and I might have it tomorrow for prom, yay! So I went to pick up my sister and bring her home, take a shower, and went to meet Tyler for us to go to Olive Garden.

We got to Olive Garden to meet Abby and la Madre, it was yum. Our waiter was kinda slow, but the manager said she was sorry for our food coming out slow because she knew that we had to be out for the symphony, so she gave us free cake/pie- score! It was good on my wallet, too.

The Nashville Symphony played Mahler's 2nd symphony tonight and they did a fantastic job. I could tell Tyler enjoyed watched the conductor seeing how that's what he wants to be later on in life. T'was his first orchestral experience, I don't think he'd mind for another one. I could tell Abby enjoyed it, yay, if Tyler wasn't there I would have been an active listener also. Lol.

But yeah, Abby's birthday is (looks at clock) today; happy birthday Abby!

Tomorrow is West Side Story pit rehearsal from 9-1, then I have to go get some shoes. At two I'm going to look at the car down the road and hopefully buy it. At 5 I'm going to pick up Elizabeth, take pictures, and head to the Japanese steak house for some yum yum time. Then we're headed to prom/after prom. Mrs Mullen said she doesn't want us out past 3:30 because of the dress rehearsal on Sunday.

Happy prom'n!

*knocks on monitor*

Helloooooooo?  Anybody home?  Hellooooooo?

No comments in two whole entries.  This isn't like you guys.  I suppose this has been a sluggish week for phusebox - especially now that it's blocked from RCS computers.

Anyways.  Sick today!  Bad allergies causing sinus and ear fluid build up (again) and a mild virus making my throat swell up.  Huzzah!  Skipped school, but still went to Starbucks this afternoon so I could get an APUSH review book from Cameron.

Brian quizzed me on a few questions.  Pretty sure I AM DOOOOOOOOOMED.  I'm not even joking.  AP exam in a week?  HAH!  Maybe if I'd started studying at the beginning of this month, like I'd planned, I'd have a snowflake's chance in Hades...  ARGH.

I just want the school year to be over about... now.  That'd be nice.

By the by... if you've never seen nor heard of a little tv show called Norhtern Exposure - let me just tell you:  You are missing out hella bad.  It is freaking AMAZING.  I seriously can't understand why anyone would not like this show.

Watch it.  WATCH IT NOW!

...and so I went to the concert at the Sports Com Pavillion. Everything was fine till some jerk set off fireworks in the middle of the crowd. I was standing over near a tree with some friends when we first heard a loud pop and then a squeeling noise. Lights started flashing and crap started happening. Before the commotion settles once again, Amilia got trampled in a mosh pit. The police and some emergency vehicles showed up.

As it persist, I'm interrigated by the cops about the fireworks, and then I'm searched. W. T. F. 
Appearently, somebody wearing a tyedie shirt set of the fireworks. People pointed me out, when the only other people weareing tyedie were Andrew Fraiser and Alec Bourice, and as it goes, I asked who did it, and several people said their names. Of course I was discharged of any accusations when they didnt find anything on me, but once again.. W.T.F.  WHY WOULD I JEPRODIZE THE SAFETY OF MY FRIENDS!? Anyone who knows me well enough could tell you I wouldn't do something as STUPID as that. Secondly, I was already upset that my friend got drop kicked to the ground in a mosh pit and had to be taken away on a stretcher.

This weekend is going to be so awesome. It started off pretty well tonight by going to a drive in with Ami. So that was definetly a blast.  Tommorow is going to rock. GNC is gonna be amazing. It is such an awesome oppurtunity to serve Him and make a difference.  Then we have SNAC at church on sunday so that should be awesome also.

God Bless,

Chris <><                                                                                    

tonight was pretty awesome..... i ran into a lot of people, heard some good music, and met some new people... all in all.... it was AWESOME!!!

ok so maybe i was a bit to harsh last time in sayng life sucks...

cuz right now besides all the backstabbing, hard core dancing and being single...

its all good..Karla is pretty darn cool and we invented the black hardcore dancing...and um well i got hugged so much tonight that its just a great feeling...

i love abby dee

brock

BRE

ashley sometimes..haha

tyler my best friend

boys for always killing me with heart break but always keeping me entertained.

and last but not least...

bows...

heehee.

went to the show at sports com tonight.

it was pretty good.

until the cops came.

I am sunburnt.

BUT THATS OK.  I put aloe vera on it and its all good now.

Field day was today..and well..it was interesting. Quite emotionally distressing on someone though...** you know who you are**

and I love that person oh so very much because they got through it with the minimum amount of tears. you go girl.

Well I have dance tomorrow from 8:30-11:30 and then from 2:30-4:30...so im pretty much going to be tired when i wake up in the morning...gah..i hate waking up early.

I havn't spoken to Laura Liz in a while..and I miss her dearly.

Tyler sent me flowers :)   :)

That made me extra super amazingly wonderfully happy.

We are watching the LeonardoDiCaprio version of Romeo and Juliet in English..and its weird. Its like all 90's but they speak like old english. Its creeping me out.

Alas, Babylon is a wonderful read. You should read it if your not already doing so.

Well im done for tonight but if something cool happens before I go to bed ill edit.

alexanna

i didnt take that...but i like it...

it feel kinda crappy

once again im at home on a friday night i wanted to go to the show @ sports com so bad but erin said no she was afraid of getting caught cause we wernt gonna tell the rents cause it would be way to difficult to get a yes 

so i sit here drinking a sugar-free green apple jones which hasnt made me feel better

tomorrow i may go to danielles house for a not goin to prom party thing i dont really want to go cause itll be a danielle kael and milly thing and as much as i want to hang out with my FAVORITE couple ever i dont really feell like hanging out with them together.... ever

i want to go grab my ipod and go ride my bike in the dark out to the section where they are doing all the construction and there is a stream behind barbed wire but its broken in a few places and i can get in

its amazaing its like a little piece of something nice preserved on accident iv only been there once but i love it but before i blink going back there wont be possible for it will be covered by just another house i hate all this bulidling i need a good long 3 weeks in minnesota where the population of backus is 311 and the nearest walmart is over and hour away

i think i may go lay in the front yard...... or not.... mosquitoes suck.... quite literally 

o well i still love you and so does Jesus

So here is a synopsis of my thoughts (some people would use the word "beliefs") and how I got to these thoughts.  Please respect it as it has been a long and thorough road.  The "paper" is short, but it is good enough of a summary for now.  I feel the need to put it up here to express myself and to clear up some common misconceptions about Atheism.  Comments/Questions are welcome.



Here it is:

Atheism


    I ascribe to strong atheism "believing that gods do not (or cannot) exist" (Matthew).  Though I admit that I cannot say for sure gods do not exist, the extent to which I can say gods do not exist renders the terms "god" or "gods" useless for describing any unknown variables I may encounter.  I come to the above conclusion by being an active freethinker- "one who is prepared to consider any possibility, and who determines which ideas are right or wrong by bringing reason to bear, according to a consistent set of rules" (Matthew).  Using this way of coming to conclusions about the world around me, I will explain how I have come to believe that gods do not exist.
    I have determined, based on observation, experience, religious research, and the accomplishments of science, that there are the following options about the existence, or non-existence, of gods.
1.  God(s) exists and is involved in individuals' lives.
2.  God(s) exists and is uninvolved in individuals' lives.
3.  A force or energy connects everyone (some would call this god(s)).
4.  God does not exist.
    For option 1, I have found no evidence.  The religions that make claims of higher powers have no physical proof of their existence.  Claims of experiences with gods are often ambiguous and can be explained through the psychology of the mind and the powerful influences of social psychology.  Positive events are attributed to god's favor and negative events are said to be a result of human wrong doing.  Therefore, all possible events are explainable through the idea of god, but they are also explainable through psychological and scientific theories and laws.  After all, "things do not exist merely because they have been defined to do so" (Matthew).  Furthermore, I can see that throughout history peoples in all nations have used the idea of higher powers to explain the unknown.  Through technology and the advances of science, the events that were previously attributed to the hand of god can be shown to have natural causes.  In this sense, the need for the idea of a higher power in today's times is no longer.
    If option 2 is correct, there is no need for a personal realization of god.  This is the option that one might come to after finding no physical proof of god on earth.  If god is undetectable and uninvolved, why does it matter if it exists or not?
    Option 3 is one that progressive Christians tend to use, and one I myself ascribed to for some time.  I thought that I couldn't believe the gods of religions because they were too limited by human terms, but I could at that point say there to be a connecting energy between people.  Many would say this force is god because everyone is a part of it.  However, in this case, using the age-old term "god" implies a powerful being instead of a neutral force.  If a connection exists, it should simply be termed that.
    So then option 4 is where I find myself.  Options 2 and 3 render the term and understanding of god useless for my life or the lives of those around me, and option 1 lacks sufficient evidence.  I feel living as if there is no god is the best option for me.  I am aware every day of myself and my role in society.  I alone am responsible for making my life the best it can be and for any consequences resulting from my actions.  I am dependent on myself and the people around me for my biggest questions and not afraid to live without the answers if they are momentarily, or perhaps permanently, unattainable.  I have come to peace with the idea that I am not going to live forever and will at some point die and cease to exist, though I cannot fathom the idea.  I feel strongly about helping those around me because "we are all we have" (McGowan).  Humility is something I experience daily as a result of atheism because I know I am small and relatively insignificant on a universal time scale.  Knowing that I have evolved in some way from the things around me gives me a respect for the environment and awe for the process by which I am in existence.  I feel atheism puts the responsibility of my life into my own hands more so than any other religions I have investigated or experienced.

Works Cited

Matthew.  "An Introduction to Atheism".  The Atheism Web.  4 March 2006.      <http://www.infidels.org/news/atheism/intro.html>.

McGowan, Dale.  "Atheist Virtues".  Atheist Alliance.  4 March 2006.      <http://www.atheistalliance.org/family/essay-mcgowan7.php>.

This week was really tiring. Had candy thrown at my head today by a sophmore. not only have they thrown stuff but also pointed lasers at the back of my head with no remorse. Got am email back from an OLD OLD friend. haven't talked to her in quite a few months.

Here are some pictures of her baby JAsper:

well there is gnc saturday;

and i need a ride. seriously.

so message me or something.

Ookay, this is new. Well, my name is N!CK (in the online world) um, i'm geek-ish, lol and yeah.. 'bout it. Bye
                  »N!CK

It seems I have surpassed both my mommy and daddy in number of remarks.  They try hard, but their lives are simply less dynamic than my own.  They live in a limited world, whereas mine is a magical realm, filled with plastic balls and nap time.  What adult experience could compete with such a life?

The other day, Daddy decided to give me a bath.  I think I really impressed him with my super-duper tip-roll-spin into the water.  I was working on the graceful ascension when Daddy scopped me from the water.  So much for an elegant ending.  Oh well, maybe he'll lighten up and let me finish next time.  It was going to be very impressive.  And I still don't understand why I can't bathe in more than 4 inches of water.

Also, I'm a little frustrated with Daddy.  He managed to teach Mommy how to drive a stick shift, but he didn't bother to teach me how to crawl.  This whole time, I've been using the hands-knees-tummy-face technique, which made my nose sore.  It was by sheer accident that I realized my folly and learned to reduce hands-knees-tummy-face into just hands-knees, which is much less painful.  I wonder if he'll teach me to swim by tossing me in.  Stinker.  Also, this new method increases my crawl rate.  I'll be catching that elusive feline by June, I believe-if not by speed, then by strategic timing.

nothing to say. so i insist to tell
every single one of you that i
need to shave my legz. ha.ha.
uhm. that and if i hear 'is he gay?'
or anything that has to with the
wordz 'that gay guy?' and im
not naming namez. all b'cuz it
isnt true. and i would feel very
horrible if it got out me saying it.
anywayz. i hear it again. im going
to punch someone. in the face.
no comment to who.

Really good movie.

I liked it.

Saw it with my TWO favorite 8th graders EVER!

Katie && Katie.

I LOVEEE LOVEEE LOVEEE THOSE GIRL!

I can't wait till they are at Farragut next year.

Go see Stick It. It was good.

"Call me." "Stalk You." =]

Senior week has been awesome!! But it feels so weird because I don't feel like I am supposed to be here now. High school went by really fast...

man this feels great though.. only 10 school days left of high school and im out of there. Although i will miss some stuff..

 Well today was The Faculty Talent show and senior picnic. That was all alot of fun and the show was awesome. I love some of those teachers.

Prom is tomorrow night and will definetely be alot of fun too. Its going to be a night to remember with all my friends and class.

Anyways I'm finishing up stuff for tomorrow and then out to find something to do.. So i'll see ya later!

Hey guys and gals! i finally got back on here! we had cheerleading tryouts and i made it !!! and i made competition squad!! other big news - none really. i played soccer in french class today, even though i figured it would be horrid it was actually kinda fun!

just as a warning to anybody with friends it's a lot of stress to have two friends who like DESPISE eachother avoid it at all costs, no really do. one of my friends is a guy and the other one's a girl and they're ex's and something happened between them and it destroyed their relationship and they're like two of my best friends in the whole world and the guy's been all depressed, but i think that he's finally getting over it, but i don't know- so i guess there was other news, huh?

has anybody heard the Dixie Chicks new song? i don't think that it was incredibly intelligent of them to put out a song in which the lyrics say " im not ready to make nice, im mad as hell..." do you? neways let me know!

Staring at the blank page before you,
open up the dirty window,
and let the sun illuminate the words
that you could not find.
Reaching for something in the distance,
so close you can almost taste it.
Release your inhibitions,
feel the rain on your skin.
No one else can feel it for you,
only you can let it in.
No one else, no one else,
can speak the words on your lips.
Drench yourself in words unspoken,
live your life with arms wide open.
Today is where your book begins,
the rest is still unwritten...

sorry, I've had this song suck in my head
for the last three freaking days.

happy birthday to taylor simpson.
one of the best chicks in tha world :)
sixteen, wow you're growing up, lol

this week has gone by fast.
and next thing I'll know school will be over
I'll miss my friends but goodness,
I sure am ready for a break.
a gooood long break, lol
this year has been interesting.
I met so many people, whom I love very much
and I've gotten to experience so much.
I'm growing up way too fast.
I dont know if that is a good thing or not.

I'm not doing anything tomorrow,
and sunday I'm going to chad's house
[hopefully]
& there's the church picnic.

oh, oh.
happy early birthday tiffany.
[april 30th]

I'm starting to use mybattleplan [ www.battlecry.com ]
I got the site from aquire the fire.
I encourage you to use it, it's pretty cool.
it's for believers to join up together
so we can make a difference together.
makes me happy so many people
want to live for God.
that's just awesome, really it is.

"Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart." Psalm 37:4.

From The Inside Out

by Hillsong United

album: United We Stand (2006)

A thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains And should I stumble again
I'm caught in Your grace
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love you from the inside out

Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries outWhat an amazing song!

it's a beautiful day outside.
and i am in the best mood in the entire world.
hopefully i'll be able to find some stuff to get into tonight.

single&&absolutly loving it.<3

I am tired of being pregnant.


I am very glad that I am more done with carrying the baby than not.  He is due in June.  I will be considered "term" at the first of June so I hope he comes early.  The third trimester has been probably the worst of them all.  Let's recap:

First Trimester: Well, I found out I was five weeks pregnant.  Then a week later I found out I was going to miscarry.  Then a month and a half later, I asked for an ultrasound before the D & C, and low and behold, little Alden was alive and kicking.  The last few weeks of my first trimester- nauseated, a little vomiting, fatigue.

Second Trimester:  I continued the nausea and started being somewhat lightheaded.  I started getting a little bigger in my stomach.  My panic attacks (which I have had since 9th grade) worsened, making public appearances difficult.  I was depressed a lot because I had to be at home.  I had some good days and weeks mixed in there, though, where I was able to go to my parents' house or go to the store.

Third Trimester:  Fatigue, uncomfortable, new back pain, nausea returns more severely, indigestion, more severe dizziness, more home-boundness.  I have been sewing at home to keep myself occupied and to keep my mind off of being sick.  This only works on the less sick days.  I'm trying not to get depressed and distraught.  Sometimes I cry, and Joey has to hold me while I let it all out.  It will all be over soon.


Bright Moments:
Feeling Alden kick
Feeling Alden respond to touch
Sewing projects
Knowing it's going to end very soon
Joey Dail, my comfort and biggest supporter


I suppose I should quit complaining.  It's just so constant.  My advice- do NOT have a baby until you are ready to deal with all that.  Of course, some people don't get sick at all during pregnancy.  If only I could be so lucky.


I promise I'll post something else new and positive soon.  I have all kinds of ideas floating around in my head about the world and my beliefs about dang near everything, so I'll have to let them all out sometime.

never let the fear of stiking out keep you from playing the GAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hey why do i keep getting dreams adout my step dad beeting me im so scared help!! one of my dreams he hit me in the face and i woke up and my face hurt like a bitch!!!!!!!my so fucken scared was it real???

i wont lie, yesterday was awesome. so here's there run down

woke up for my 8 o'clock class which isnt fun, but we watched a movie and a girl asked me for my number on the way to class too so thats pretty tight. came back and chilled till my class at 1110 which was  piece of cake cause all we did was sit back and watch people give presentations.

then me and heath went to get my new toy.

check that beast out.

then the rowing team went to oak ridge to help their team practice and whitney went with me so that was blast.

then me and whitney went to our adopted parents house for dinner, that was great. then we went and met up with some guys from the rowing team. that was awesome.

then me and heath just chilled till like 1:30 or something like that.

i dont know, it was just an awesome day. a blast.

one more class left till we're done. and we're not really even doing anything.

piece

So, in a couple hours I board my last plane out of Hilo Hawaii knowing I'll probably never come back. I turn my back to this place and walk out.
This semester has been crazy but I'm so thankful for it. It held a few things I didn't expect but they were all exactly as God had planned. I leave here with a peace that can only come from Him.
I'm walking out of one season of life... into a whole new one. And to be honest, I'm not sure what the next one holds, just like I was unsure what this one would hold. But my last 4 months confirm what was on my heart when this picture was taken.

God is big! He has you in the palm of his hand! He loves you and He is FOR YOU... and if God is for us... who can be against us?

Praise His holy name!