Things I Have Done In High School

ü      Made new friends

ü      Kept my true friends

ü      Found a job and kept it

ü      Found my girly side, but kept the tomboy

ü      Stopped wearing shorts under every skirt

ü      Found a new talent and found a way to shine in it

ü      Straying outside the age group

ü      Stayed true to myself

ü      Maintained my grades

ü      Found a place where I belong

ü      Overcame a bitch for a teacher

ü      Loved being able to be a 1,000 different people in one

ü      Found a guy who accepts me for me

ü      Not accomplished one drama free year (YES!!)

ü      Fell in love with sarcasm

ü      Changed lunch tables every year

ü      A whopping 3 variety shows, and 3 plays

ü      Both choir and theatre

ü      Found a grandmother in one teacher and a friend in another

ü      Returned to Lascassas repeatedly

ü      Kept everything precious to me in a box(it's a big box)

ü      Lost ones I love, but I move on for them

ü      Two proms

ü      1 Military Ball

ü      Prepare myself for my best friend leaving

ü      Watch my best friend fall in love, then completely understand

ü      TAG camp every year!! YES!!

ü      Changing school rivals

ü      Making plenty of mistakes

ü      Had my heart broken

ü      Broke a few hearts

ü      First Kiss

ü      Finding out ROTC kids make a weird first impression

ü      Still not understanding why ROTC and BAND guys were always a turn on….

ü      Missing my Siegel friends

ü      Preparing for college **freaks**

ü      Collecting Freshman: Jen & Kelley (My original two), Ella, Nikki (my real freshie this year), I stole Marshall, and Will, you are practically mine, I just never told you

ü      CaMpInG out ~~>FRODO THE FISH

ü      Getting a cell phone

ü      Random midnight trips to walmart

ü      Found out Music was very important to me

ü      Headbutting Heather J

ü      Falling asleep on the phone way too many times

ü      Meeting the best foreigners EVER **Paula and Nemanja** and the cool Canadians from Nashville Star

ü      Well, duh, Nashville Star

ü      Aaron Roan is ___________<~ pick a word, Aaron

ü      Building my tolerance for scary movies

ü      Getting scared at Trent's house because the mad man with the chainsaw is going to kill us because Donald's car wont MOVE

ü      Watching my friends get married and have a baby

ü      THE best New Year's Eve Parties EVER

ü      What the heck is this thing called DDR?? lol

ü      I learned about Guitar Hero last week

ü      NO BRACES!!! YES!!

ü      Learning the insides of the hospital

ü      GOT a car

ü      Got way too addicted to my phone and text messages

ü      Watched gothic change to punk then to emo

ü      Bill Paxton, enough said

ü      Found a way to stand up to people

ü      Went on an actually school related trip OUT OF THE STATE

ü      ORLANDO kicks butt!

ü      Staying up with kiesha

ü      The Bear in the Water Park

ü      A very long talk with Gary Pounders

ü      Oh, yes, Elizabeth Hooper is a DOLL!! <3

ü      Snuck into the movies

ü      Thanks to Elaine for developing a LOTR fetish & POTC

ü      FLIP FLOPS are my life!

ü      I was the pregnant lady at Disaster Drill.

ü      Turned 16 on the beach

ü      <3 Orlando Bloom

ü      Found out rollerblades and I don't mix

ü      Shot a man in Reno just to watch him die (yeah, you all have stopped reading…J)

ü      My first concert: SCC

ü      Changing Elaine's name to CJ

ü      And RELIENT K!!! YES!!

ü      Bought Pop Tarts as a birthday present

ü      Found out the CAQ may be better off with 3 members

ü      My obsession with Wizard of Oz only got worse

ü      Began collecting shot glasses and picture frames

ü      Went to Arkansas by myself, not knowing anyone, and wishing it was never over

ü      MTSU's St. Jude's Lock In

ü      TIM & SHANNON< YES!!!

ü      All the Christmas parades!!

ü      MALA MALA ANCILLA!!!

ü      Found out I do miss my cousins and my brother does miss me

ü      Watched my friendships change

ü      Found out my love for poetry and writing songs

ü      Introduced to Swing Club and Brito

ü      How many people am I married to?

ü      How many school fights are there gonna be?

ü      CALCULUS=Evil

ü      Rescued kittens off the side of the road

ü      The local hangout: DQ and Walmart, with a side of Guitar

ü      McDonalds with Heather and Terrell, and Spongebob

ü      Being mooned Far too many times by far too many people

ü      HOSA conventions and kicking butt

ü      Finally understood rugby

ü      Speaking in Latin where no one understands

ü      I FINALLY MADE IT TO REN FEST

ü      Watching Tim jump in the pool with his wallet & phone

ü      Carved my name in a tree

ü      I always have the bitchy parts in plays….

ü      Always the Right Answer….4

ü      I ran up the wall, well, I tried at least

ü      Had the coolest locker ever

ü      Tried to know just about everybody

ü      Managed to make a 0 on my term paper

ü      Uncle Dave Macon is calling me again

ü      Too many references to FGA/woods

ü      SUNDROP

ü      I was David Bowie for a day

ü      I made up a dance all by myself!! GO 6^th period!

ü      Floor hockey on a very bad day **evil laugh**

ü      Found out I'm not that bad at football

ü      Student Council (all 4 years!!)

ü      Oakland's rendition of Wizard of Oz

ü      Lizzie Borden cast was the BEST EVER

ü      Finding out Early Day is Satan

ü      Latin Convention

ü      Big Booty

ü      Random trips to find birds (no "pshing")

ü      The oh-so many fights with Kyle

ü      What is this phenomenon called "wicked"?

ü      Never been to the office til this year

ü      Got detention freshman year

ü      Learned how to dance!!

ü      Yes, I was a Spice Girl.

ü      Got far too addicted the internet

ü      And finally, I have saved everything from this year and it is taped to my closet door.

I think that is enough accomplished, huh?

This is us. Watch us change.

**edit** for an interesting story, read "Counting Sheep" on my xanga.

www.xanga.com/benevolent_n_manipulative

i officially sold my second web site ever!  i have a $250 down payment in my pocket right now.  i have another $750 on the way.  i'm splitting the work (and sadly the pay) with paul, but i'm not worried about it.

me is happy (just for you rebecca jensen!)  bad grammar is well!

paul and I already have our next target in mind...  DQ Grill and Chill...

i'm stressed,

 i'm tired,

i'm  not happy,

i'm  guilty,

i'm  mean,

i'm crying,

i'm stupid,

i'm ignorant,

i'm blind,

and i'm sorry.

"Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
go on, go on, go on, go on.

When everything is wrong we move along
go on, go on, go on, go on.
When everything is wrong, we move along
along, along, along...

When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do.
nd even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through."

DM tryouts TOMORROW!!!!!!

3:30

pray for me please!

much love

-milly

there have been about a million things running through my head these last few days..so much has happened..only two days of school left and all the graduations coming up..

it hit me tonight how every year i seem to get so close to the seniors and then off they go...im really going to miss this group so much.. tonight at church some of the seniors got up and spoke about their high school years and what they had learned.. brian king spoke about love.. and how thats really what it all boils down to. Theres also a quote that ive come to love in the last few hours that Brian shared with me..

"It is the intensity of love we put in our gestures that make them into something beautiful for God." - Mother Teresa

i just think that that is so true. i believe in great love and that love pouring from every inch of your heart is where you will find peace.. -kels


Let me say it, let me play it,
Let me lay it on you.
Let me know you, let me show you,
Let me grow it on you.
All I have is yours,
All you see is mine
And I'm glad to have you in my arms,
I'd have you any time.

..................................................................

My love she speaks like silence,
Without ideals or violence,
She doesn't have to say she's faithful,
Yet she's true, like ice, like fire.
People carry roses,
Make promises by the hours,
My love she laughs like the flowers,
Valentines can't buy her.

In the dime stores and bus stations,
People talk of situations,
Read books, repeat quotations,
Draw conclusions on the wall.
Some speak of the future,
My love she speaks softly,
She knows there's no success like failure
And that failure's no success at all. -Bob Dylan

Here is a picture of the Flowers I gave Grace.

Best plan I could think of. It worked out so well.

I walked up to the table where she and three other people were playing cards, gave her the roses, she said "Aww Thanks Danny!" and I said "You're Welcome" and I walked off.

No note. No card. No speech. But it had the best effect.

One of the girls said, "That is so sweet!" as I walked off and I proudly smiled.

Pretty sure she walked around for the rest of the day with the roses.

Mission: Impress Grace.

Mission Accomplished

Danny

...what my worst fear is.


It's losing the love of my life.

Who, I don't know yet.

But i fear the heartbreak.

more than anything.


::b

So I have my AP English language and comp test tomorrow so thats exciting... at least it will be over with and I won't worry about it anymore.  But hey if I don't pass I have another chance next year, I just have to survive the jurgenator.

well.. i thought this was a great idea to show who my truest friends are. i have many many many friends but these are the ones who are there for me always..

1. we have been best friends since freshman year. we have had some amazinggg times and many inside jokes. you always make fun of how little sauce i put on my food, we have an amzing time in st. augustine, you know that i love dolly partons and you were the one who taught me how to do the pancake. but most of all, you been my loyal friend, who would always stick up for me no matter what, and is always excited about whatever we do. i love you more than you know and i hope we do dorm at UT! scooter dave!

2. you are my brother. we have had too many fun times to count. you always cheer up my day and know how to make me truly laugh. you bought me a roll when i was having a bad day, and you share your brownie with me. and even though weve had some awkward moments =), you always seem to be there for me whenever i needed you. you have been someone i look to for Christian advice and know that you will always help me to strive to be a better person. i love you with all my heart as a brother in Christ. my little peachfuzz!

3.my sweet sweet friend. we have known each other from church for a while, but we have become best friends this year. we have gone down the road of patience with boys, weve danced like crazy and always have luck with those red trucks, and we get chill bumps from the amazing conversations we have. you truly listen to me and try to help me. we love all the same things, and we try to dance even though we are white girls. =) i have loved yo see you grow in Christ to prepare you for those 2 years of highschool that we wont be with you. you have truly been a blessing and you dont know how much i love you.

4. you are my sweet loving guy whom i get the honor of having a relationship with. ive gotten to know you so much and see what an amazing man of God you are. you always know how to make me smile, whether its accidentally hitting your windshield wipers on high, or leaving me unexpected texts at night. we know how to have a good time and we can always talk. what can i say-- youre amazing! iii know!

5. my wonderful girl. we have SO many good times, i cant even count them. our song is ridin dirty, we are the official members of gub the bug club, we are amazinggg at kayaking, we have a friday morning tradition at big apple bagels.. basically, we invented the defenition of a good time. i have truly been blessed to know you. there is never ever a dull moment with us. i love you so. i have seen you turn your life back on track with Christ, and you shine that light oh so bright. so whether we're headed to birmingham, or just the nearest breakfast place, know that i will always love you and what we have!

6. my friend. what can i say? we had a delightful time at the tim mcgraw concert, we HAVE to be right, and  you hate it when i cheat while i hate those lame jokes you pull out. i always seem to laugh with you, but you have your priorities like mine. we can be funny, but we know how to be serious and mature as well. i love you forever, and even though UT is so better than alabama, you are one of my best friends.

7. my precious senior! even though im older than you, you graduated a year early! i cant wait to see where you will go, and the things you will become. it has been a blessing getting to know you freshman year in new york. we have had great times, from chattanooga to mexico! i love you and will miss you.. <3

8. my hero! i love you sooo much! we laugh wayyy too hard.. from me and cole shanking you to my "niagra falls" moment. youve always been there for me and been real. you are so wise and i love that in you. youve always been on my side and make me laugh. loveeee you biscuithead..

9. my precious girl. ive known you since second grade.. you are the one who can truly make me laugh my hardest. we have our daily laugh, but we can also talk about whats going on in our lives. i will always love you girl..

10. certainly not least, is my final brother. when you say the right thing at the right time, its the sweetest thing. you know how to cheer me up. i know weve had our rough times, but we get through them. i love you and will always be here. youve grown into such a child of God. and dont worry.. ill come see you at chic-fil-a soooon

i love you all. i have such amazingg friends. God has blessed me so much. they are what get me through the day. They make me smile and laugh, cry, mourn, love, and most importantly-- they bring out the qualities that make me, well.. me. they reassure through their actions that they like me when im truly myself and when im confident in that. and for that i will always love and be thankful for them. all of them.

so i just got back from soccer practice.  i spent 2 hours there but it was all fun.  this team is a lot of fun.  we goof off and just have a good time.  im gonna miss them after the season is over.  and tomorrow is our last game.  ) :  well, maybe ill be able to keep in touch with a few of them.  ya never know... 

hope everyone had a good day.  talk to yall later!

So check this out...
My dad went up to New York to help my brother move.  I wanted them to be able to do something fun together (you know, father son bonding) so today I checked the Yankees schedule and found out that they were playing tonight.  I looked at ticketmaster and the cheapest tickets were $50.00 a piece plus all of the fees.  I looked on ebay and found some good seats for a good price, so I bid on them.  I won the auction.  The seller wanted to e-mail the ticketfast tickets to the buyer.  Well, I wanted her to e-mail them to Nathan, but I was not sure of his e-mail address.  So, I e-mailed the seller and told her that I had to find out what his e-mail address was and that I would e-mail her ASAP.  So, a few hours later I e-mail her the payment for the tickets along with his e-mail address.  I talked to Nathan on the phone and he was excited about getting to go to the game since it will be his last one before coming home.  So around 5:00 I check my ebay stuff and I have a message from her saying "If you were not going to pay for the tickets, why didn't you tell me.  Now they are going to go to waste."  So, I e-mailed her and told her that I had indeed paid for the tickets.  While I was doing that she e-mailed my gmail address, responded to the e-mail I sent her right after the auction about having to find Nathan's e-mail address, and said that since she had not heard from me she e-mailed the tickets to her brother in Long Island and he had already left for the game.  I told her how uncool that was and asked if her brother could meet my brother and give him the tickets I paid for since this was his last chance to get to go to a Yankees game before he moves.  She has not responded.  I looked on ticketmaster and they had already stopped selling tickets because it was too close to game time.  So, because of some stupid girl on ebay who does not know how to check her e-mail, my bother and dad do not get to go to the game and have their father son bonding and my brother will not be able to go before he moves.  GRRRRR.  I am so mad.  I want to cry.  I feel many things.  Just wanted to share that so you could be mad and want to cry as well....

Just a lil update...

cuz im bored...

and thats about it.

<3

I HAVE DECIDED I WANNA KEEP MY SITE!!! TOOK ME LONG ENOUGH DIDN'T IT??? SOOO TODAY AT SKOOL NOTHIN TOO MAJOR HAPPENED!!! IM VERY VERY VERY EXCITED BOUT M-FUGE CANT WAIT AT ALL!!! SO....... YEAH ILL ROOM WITH KELLY!! SO UH......... YEAH

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My name is Daniel Benjamin Morgan, Destroyer of Worlds.  I am Eater of the Carpet Fuzz, Clearer of the Coffee Table, Puller of the Grass, Chomper of the Cell Phone, Stalker of the Kitty, Tipper of the Stroller.  Tremble before me, mere mortals.  Though darkness rises, I have my night light.  Though Mommy steals my carpet fuzz, I have my secret stash.  Though teeth tear gums, I have my biscuits.  Though all my weapons are stripped away, I still have...my cuteness.  I am faster than a speeding kitty, more wily than a coyote, taller than a beanstalk.  Hear me and obey.  From each of you, I demand a proclamation of your love.

PS  I love you, Mommy and Daddy!

Well, I have come down to the last few days in New York City. My stuff is packed up in boxes (for the most part). My last day in the office at The Gallery Church was yesterday. I had my "fairwell" lunch with the staff and others today at Olive Garden. My dad is currently in New Jersey and will be here in about an hour. He is helping me move all my stuff back to Murfreesboro. I am hoping to spend some time with my dad tonight... My older sister bought us tickets to the Yankees game tonight... Hopefully, that will work out. Tomorrow, I have my last Leadership training day. Then, I head back to Murfreesboro.

I have Sarah's graduation on Saturday, then church on Sunday, and then it is time for the wedding planning intensive. Not to mention, trying to move all my stuff in the new apartment and getting all the utilities and stuff in my name.  Then, Friday, the rehersal. And then, Saturday, the wedding planning and stress will finally come to a close. Then the honeymoon in San Francisco. And then, June 1st, I will finally be able to sit down in my apartment with my wife and just sit. That's all I want to do... just sit, without any worries or stresses. just relax.

So, these next couple weeks will probably prove to be the busiest of my entire life. I am hoping that we do not encounter too many problems. But if we do, I hope that we just move past them... because all of this does not truly matter in the end.

Anyways, I know it has been a while since I posted last. I am going to try to keep up with my blog whenever things finally settle down a bit.

The one noticable difference from before I moved to New York City and now? Before the city, I was hooked on Friends, the television show, and the occational Seinfeld... Post-city, I am now regularly hooked on LOST, 24, Grey's Anatomy, The Office, Prison Break, and House MD. Sadly, all of the season finales are here.

{nt}  

New pictures... of baby Jasper... he is sooo cute.

I disected a salmander to day well actually it was called a mudpuppy here's a picture

   

Well, I guess that's the last time I put anything serious on phusebox. 
Wow, no comments, I must say, xanga won on this one..
But anyway, this should be interesting...
SCARY DREAM
So you ever have one of those SICK and weird dreams?

I had one of those last night.

In short, I watched Noelle Troudt, Jessica Hodson, and a couple other
people I can't remember, die. ( those are two of my friends from lee,
and I know the others were lee people as well, the dream was a "lee
friends" dream )


Now that i have your attention:


So basically, there was this new disciplinary standard enstated that
gave you three chances for mess ups, and on the third, THEY HANGED YOU.

I, seemed to be the only one who saw this as TWISTED.

I tried to chase down Paul Conn to talk to him, but he drove off in his golf cart, didn't have the time.

It was pretty messed up.  I think what happened is I saw a couple
of people get killed I didn't know to well, and then it got more
personal by getting to my friends.

What really sucked was when they put Noelle up on the gallows, I was
arguing with this, get this, old lady who was the person who would push
the button to drop the floor from beneathe her, and I tried to tell her
this is RIDICULOUS. 

I mean, I was freaking out, one of my friends was about to DIE IN FRONT OF ME, FOR NO GOOD REASON.

So what happens?  The lady starts giving me marks for arguing with
her, and I looked and saw noelle drop, and the whole thing, neck snap,
death, yeah

Gruesome.

I saw the same thing with Jessica.  I then remember talking to
donnie ( my chaplain ) and how terrible it was to have to be the ones
to tell her boyfriend Corey.


And that's all I remember.  So when I woke up, needless to say, I was relieved it wasn't real.

Comments anyone?

Clearing everything else out of my mind, I have come to some conclusions...
1.  I exist.
2.  My perception is the only means of experiencing that existence.
3.  My perception is fallible.
4.  My memory is a collection of perceptions.
5.  My memory is fallible as well.
6.  Thought can be achieved only by construing those perceptions to obtain meaning.  Most often, perceptions are filtered to make seemingly more pertinent information accessible to my memory to help create meaning to further perceptions.
7.  I assume that other beings very similar to me exist in the same manner I do, although I can not be sure.

so leaving for la vergne one week from tomorrow && one week from friday leaving for C A L I F O R N I A.

and my Q U E S T I O N is...

does ANYONE know what the W E A T H E R is going to be like?

let me know if Y O U know!

thanks!

<333 

any one want to hang out with me when i go to la vergne on may 25? the only day i will be there BEFORE i leave for cali!

tell me if you do! =]

[jessicaaaaa. dont forget to make some plans with SANDRA. we WILL hang out. lol.]

I haven't even graduated yet, and I've already got $125 of graduation present checks.  I can't cash them until I've written thank you notes, but it gives me a warm, fuzzy feeling inside knowing that I can buy books and stuff again.  Maybe I'll finally buy that chainsaw so Dana and I can hold our epic duel.  Of course, surrender is not an option.

Well, today I had to go to Graduation Practice. It was an okay experience. But, I had fun. I have to sit beside Justin. But that is okay. I hope that everything goes the way the teachers want it to go. I have never seen Ms. Dorris act so crazy for people not sitting down right and standing up right. She like totally freaked out. So did Ms Teasley. Well, I am going to go now. Talk to you later!!!!

Hannah Banana

today's been pretty good so far. woke up at 6:20 this mornin. which by the way, anytime in the summer before at least 7 is ungodly! but yea, went and got breakfast with Carol, and then we headed off to graduation practice. now correct me if i'm wrong, but if you're graduating high school in three days should you not be able to count? when we came in there were sheets posted on the wall with our name and what row and seat number we were in. all you had to do was count down for the rows and over for the seats. not a hard process! however, it apparently was for some people. i watched one poor girl count rows like 6 times only to then not be able to find her seat because she was on the wrong side. i've never seen so much confusion over such a simple thing. needless to say that was my amusement for the day. so far the rest of the day has consisted of cleaning the house. and in just a few hours i get to go to my church's new building where i get to clean again, but for some reason i'm actually lookin foward to that. well yea, that's pretty much it....

well schools out for the summer graduation is on saturday i have customs to sign up for classes with mtsu next thursday and friday im probably gonna get a second job at mtsu paying 8 dollars an hour wootwoot ill still work at taco bell about the same that i do now and i can already tell that my summer is going to be busy ive been out for less than a week and have hardly even been home and when i am im babysitting i hate that oh well im trying to get more pictures on here but i cant seem to transfer them from the program there on to here idk ill figure it out eventually and when i do then there will be pictures from prom my trip to chicago and a few random others lol well i guess thats enough rambling for now ill be on later im sure cuz when im babysitting i have nothing else to do lol

Edith

Let's just break up happy homes over a marriage certificate- a dern piece of paper!  Commitment is an action, not a signed document.  So sad...

From CNN:

BLACK JACK, Missouri (AP) -- The City
Council has rejected a measure allowing unmarried couples with multiple
children to live together, and the mayor said those who fall into that
category could soon face eviction.

Olivia Shelltrack and
Fondrey Loving were denied an occupancy permit after moving into a home
in this St. Louis suburb because they have three children and are not
married.

The town's Planning and Zoning Commission proposed a
change in the law, but the measure was rejected Tuesday by the City
Council in a 5-3 vote.

"I'm just shocked," Shelltrack said. "I really thought this would all be over, and we could go on with our lives."

The
current ordinance prohibits more than three people from living together
unless they are related by "blood, marriage or adoption." The defeated
measure would have changed the definition of a family to include
unmarried couples with two or more children.

Mayor Norman McCourt
declined to be interviewed but said in a statement that those who do
not meet the town's definition of family could soon face eviction.

Black
Jack's special counsel, Sheldon Stock, declined to say whether the city
will seek to remove Loving and Shelltrack from their home.

Today is an exciting day!  I found out that I ACED all my classes this semester!  All 18 cr. hours.  That's exciting and has never happened in my entire college career.  See...I told all of you...more stuff=better grades.  You wouldn't think that would make sense but obviously it does!  HAHAHAHHA.  Well, I'm going to continue packing for Poland so I will talk to all of you all later!

We are sex and we really appreciate penny loafers and dont give a fuck about chow time, but the negative effects of positive reinforcement you start to believe in a god that does not exsist and then what do you do? you cry to mommy. Hey what do you say lets have a chat about the why did you just say that? forget it I am at a lost for words (not really).

from now, it is 2 days, 21 hours, 19 minutes.

my sad face.

 

(this pic was taken 2 years ago, but i'm using it to make my point known...)

**edit** is the time messed up on anyone else's entries??

in honor of hearing that 98 degrees are going to get back together at some point [but then again...dc talk said the same thing....and so we know how that's going...]..i was jamming out today to "98 Degrees and Rising". and it was fun.  so here's to some more 98 degrees.

and yes, i am excited to purchase the ashley parker angel cd....

Graduation is right around the corner. I'm so excited and nervous...My grandparents are coming down on Friday..Then Saturday after Graduation I think we are having a little cook out thing and I really don't want to be here for it. I'll be bored out of my mind. Kyle and I were kind of rocky, but now everything is ok. He'll be moving in with Matt when Robert moves out and I really don't want him to move in there. I went with my step-dad to eat lunch with my mom yesterday at Draughons. I talked to her about some things. She made a really good point about something.

The way I see it I DON'T have a best friend anymore...   Fuck you. It's been hard for me not to really tell you what I think about you. By they way, you might want to tell him if he fucks with DJ he will get his ass beat....

Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: Moderate
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial: Moderate
Borderline: Low
Histrionic: Low
Narcissistic: Low
Avoidant: Low
Dependent: Low
Obsessive-Compulsive: Low

URL of the test: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv
URL for more info: http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/index.html


Im quite the stable guy as u can see. the only thing is, i want confermation of this. everybody doubts him/herself, its part of being human. assurance on ones own ideas is a big help to ones confidence, wich is what human needs. one will always want to know the value of ones life "am i worth this life?", "where did i deserve this from? i didnt do anything bad". saying all that is just coincedence just isnt inough for people, they want answers. they want confedence, confedence only other people, labeling and paranoia can give them.

A bitch is a female dog (any kid on the playground can tell you that) or a female human who, like a dog, will whimper, growl and occasionally bite back. When someone calls a woman a bitch, the message is that she is straying from the quiet, obedient, "feminine" ideal. She is uppity--and needs to be controlled.

First used to describe lady dogs in 1000 A.D., "bitch" was applied to humans about 400 years later. The term has endured the test of time and is still a big favorite for putting a woman in her place. The modern twist is applying it to men. A male bitch is seen as "womanish": weak, whiny and submissive (and more than likely gay).

Like some other really sharp putdowns, "bitch" has been picked apart lately in an effort to remove its sting. In the early '90s, for instance, riot grrl bands like Bikini Kill and Huggy Bear scrawled the word on their skin, screamed it out in song and openly embraced other "bitchy" behaviors, like shouting at their fans. They gave "bitch" its own ironic twist in an attempt to "reclaim" it.

Around the same time, with male hip-hop artists like N.W.A. calling women bitches and hos in their rhymes, female hip-hop artists worked their own magic to diffuse the bitch bomb--most notably Queen Latifah, who demanded to know: "Who you callin' a bitch?" Lil' Kim turned the word on its head once again and proclaimed HERSELF the "Queen Bitch."

Want to embrace your own bitchiness? Read "Getting In Touch With Your Inner Bitch" by Elizabeth Hilts.

Hey! Ya'll remember Chris Rini?  We called him Florida.  Well, I got an e-mail from him today and told him I'd pass it along.  I sent him the link to phusebox and invited him to get set up so everyone could be in touch.  Here's his e-mail address and his message for you all.

CRini28@aol.com

message: 
Please tell everyone i miss them and i am having a bunch load of fun but i am very sad that i am not up there. I am still praying everyday and i pray for everyone at the Worship Center a wonderful life. Your Long Time Friend- Christopher Rini

i like a boy i'll never get for several reasons.
the main one being, he's taken.
but. we talk every night and. he makes me smile.
because he calls just to say hello.
and he puts up with my moods. and we
can talk about anything. he's becoming my best
guy friend. and. i just.

arg.

<3

with a few words and a smile
my whole mood has been changed
like the world's become mine
and my first moves have been made
i'll sleep well tonite
with your face in my mind
with a smile, i'll wave
at all i've just left behind
believe that i'll wait here
believe me, i'll call...
cause you're just what i've wanted
here all along...

and now...
i'll sit and i'll wait....
it won't be too long..
i know that you're worth it
so my heart will stand strong...

Ok, ive been up like 4 extra hours talkin to alexanna...and im tired as a mug..lol so im goin to sleep, nite all....

Click photo to enlarge.

       

       

Went to my highschool's dance show tonight... boy do I miss doing those dance shows. They were fun. 4 years, 7 dance shows total... fun times indeed.

I miss dancing. Not that I was anything amazing, but it was fun.

(stupid holly thompson trying to run into the picture.. what a hussy... gees.)

Oh and that picture reminds me of something else I miss........ all my gay dancer friends. I miss seeing them everyday. 

Hmmmmmm two days off in a row. Im so pumped. So off to bed I go.... and Im going to sleep all day tomorrow. Yesss!

Muah!!

Good-bye High school and drama....hello real world and fear....

you never think the last time is the last time. you
never think there will be more. you think you will
have forever. but you don't.
grey's_anatomy <3

i've been working on some stuff lately...

this is my portfolio site
www.susanbluedesign.com

and this is my very dramatic video from my trip to mississippi (i made it for my family) but if you have time to kill, feel free to watch. it takes a while to load... but it eventually will.

mississippi

insomnia is a drag in a half...

yeah, so this year went by so incredibly fast.

i figured that i better start wrapping things up into my yearly end of year blog, but this years would have been so long i figured i'd just put it into a few blogs.

yeah. so i've learned so much this year.

and number one that sticks out is never allow anyone to become your everything because they might not be here the next day, and then what do you have?

the answer is nothing.

and that's exactly what i felt inside.

just....don't. life is too short to sit around and mope so get your sorry asses up and have some fun.

number two...friends really do become family. i dont think this year would have been half as great without my friends.

three....you really can get abs by laughing.

the cause? usually too much spare time spent with a few good friends and large amounts of caffiene.

--------------

how do you deal when you care about someone who doesn't care about you back?

i mean, i like him, but obviously he doesn't return those feelings.

i dont even know if he knows.

how do you tell someone you never get to see anymore that you care for them?

he's graduating this year.

time is running out.

for what?

i dont even know.

i expect too much out of life...

I wish it were possible to make clothes like this for Jack... :(
(even though it was obviously fake (done on the computer))

I think it went rather well!  I haven't exactly had a lot of job interviews, so it's hard to say.

I get to find out some time after Sunday whether I merit a second interview.  And then a week after that possible interview is when I would find out if I get a job or not.  Whoo!

I'm excited.  Now I just have to wait.

Hurrah!

I love my dad SO MUCH. without him, i would be in hell (literally). I cannot thank God enough for him...

John 14:27 is really really nice...

I wrote a song today called "If I Should Die"

maybe i'll post it sometime but i'm too lazy at the moment.

and i'm putting together a list of my favorite love songs. (too lazy to post that either lol)

but one love song i adore is "Let Me Be Your Wings"! (itz from the Thumbelina movie)

"Let me be your wings
Let me be your only love
Let me take you far beyond the stars
Let me be your wings
Let me lift you high above
Everything we're dreaming of will soon be ours
Anything that you desire
Anything at all
Everyday I'll take you higher
And I'll never let you fall"
-Let Me Be Your Wings, Thumbelina

*last night i got a total of 11 hrs of sleep! is that possible? pretty sure it's flippin' sweet!

*then i spent half the day at the DMV... why you say? well.. A. b/c genius me apparently through mine out b/c it was in my envelope that had my boarding passes from my freshman flight... and B. b/c last summer i never got off my GDL (graduated license)... so yeah... i spent the day.. but hey... atleast i have a better picture now?

*so then after dinner i went shopping for camp... i got some cool short... another jean skirt.. some wife beaters (i need long undershirts)... and some t-shirts... but it was fun b/c my brother went w/ me... sometimes he drives me nuts... but right now i'm trying to take in all the time he gives me since i won't always have him. :) i do love him... sometimes. ;)

*i'm soo stoked about camp! and yet.. i feel so unqualified... but today God totally reminded me of what my friend Mike Jones always says "God doesn't call the qualified... He qualifies the called." so God's totally been encouraging me... and reminding me that this is such a privilage... i may never get another chance like this... i certainly hope i do... but what if i don't? it's all for Him! ~Hopes

I'm happy because my mom is thinking about letting me go to the Dashboard Confessional concert. I'm an only child who doesn't go to large events, so it's a pretty cool thing for her to let me. Of course, there's always the chance she'll say no, which I can live with. Yeah, I <33333 them, so it'd be pretty awesome. :-)

Hey guys this is a picture from Blackmans Prom! This is my baby Jacob! I thought we looked darn good!!!

The Lion King, Siegel style.

Class of 06:
"A senior's time as ruler rises and falls like the sun.  One day,
juniors, the sun will set on our time here, and will rise with you as
the new seniors."

Class of 07: "And all of Siegel will be ours?"

Class of 06: "Everything the parking lot touches."

Class of 07: "What about that random lake along Siegel Road?"

Class of 06: "That's beyond our borders.  You must never go there."

Class of 07: "But I thought seniors could do whatever they want."

Class of 06: "There's more to being a senior than getting your way all the time."

Class of 07: "There's more??"

Class of 06: "Yes.  Everything at Siegel exists in a delicate
balance.  As Seniors, you'll need to understand that balance and
respect all the classes, from the crawling freshman to the leaping
senior."

Class of 07: "But, don't we eat the freshmen?"

Class of 06: "Yes, juniors, but let us explain.  When we graduate,
our bodies become the grass.  The freshmen eat the grass.  And so we
are all connected in the great Circle of Life."

Hello all! How has your day been?? Mine has been okay! I have been helping my grandmother clean her house! It has been fun! I am now hanging out with my boyfriend at his house!!!

I got a message from someone who said that i should tell everyone what i am doing after graduation!

Well i am attending MTSU in the fall on a football scholarship! They only pay for books now but if i am dedicated enough then next semester i should get a full ride! Wow me getting a full ride to college never in a million trillion years! One of the perks is that i will be traveling everywhere! I think ww are going to South Carolina and Okalohoma for sure but that is all i know for sure! I plan on majoring in Nursing or Sports Medicine! I also plan on minoring in Spanish! I really wanna work at Vanderbilt childrens hospital so i have heard that they pay for you to go to school if you promise to work for them! Again i would love to do that! I mean that is my dream job! 

I am so excited about GRADUATION! I can't believe that it is almost here then i get to go to GULF SHORES for a week just to relax! It is gonna be awesome! I already went and spent like $200 dollars on clothes for my trip! I can't wait!

Also some of my closet friends are coming to my graduation! Also i am having a grad party on Sunday with me and my cousin Todd! If anyone from church would like to come let me know! i would really appreciate it if you would! No gift or anything is neccessary just you! It would be AWESOME!!! Let me know if you wanna come!!!

Well guys there is only

3more days till graduation!!!

 

A month from this very day... i will infact be 16...

kinda cool...

so heres my list... you all get to make all the unchecked ones... checked =)

Philip Persio watch... CHECK

Armani sunglasses... CHECK

Versaci sunglasses... CHECK

Video ipod... CHECK

Car. (maybe one iv already picked out)... MOST  LIKELY CHECK

New guitar... CHECK

American Eagle clothes... UNCHECKED

Hollister shirts... UNCHECKED

Chiuahua (Chi-Wa-Wa)... UNCHECKED

My own music room... UNCHECKED

Digital camera... UNCHECKED

Cold-hard cash... UNCHECKED

A new motorola SLVR... UNCHECKED

ok thats what i want... if it doesnt say "CHECK"  after it... then you have to get it for me... SURPRISE!!

have a nice day

=)_Chris

 I DO NOT HAVE CHRONE'S DISEASE!!!!!!!!!

translation: much excitement

It is a very dismal rainy night, and the world seems to be very bleak and almost depressing. I don't know why, but rainy days seem to make me sad. They used to be days that I'd revel in because it meant I could curl up with a book, my journal, or some of my writing books. There was not so much to do so I could relax and and be at peace. Sounds corny and silly, I know and do not care. But lately the rain seems to leave me feeling dejected. I wish I knew why. I don't write much because everything seems to come out all wrong. I still read, but the thunder and sound of the rain always seems to become a distraction. And I don't like to write in my journal because there are too many sad entries. I really shouldn't be so depressing and dismal sounding. I just don't feel all happy and bouyant sometimes.

The rain reminds me of the quiet tears I cry sometimes when I think about the way things are right now. While all the couples go out on Friday and Saturday Nights, I sit at home and do nothing. I don't have very many single friends and they go out, so I don't have much to do. My boyfriend lives in another state, almost 1500 miles away. Thats a pretty big distance if you ask me, but I'm determined to make it work. The difficulty is knowing that, for who knows how long, we have to be apart. While other couples get to go out and make memories and be together, we can't. Two months have gone by, and I have sat waiting. It's so hard to be patient when I have see the couples together or listen to my friends talk about their recent dates. And sometimes I just feel like screaming out "Shut up and think about who you are talking to." I want to be the good friend who listens and smiles and is happy for her friends, but sometimes I don't want to hear it. Or when I hear people complaining about the little things about their boyfriend/girlfriend or about how they only get to see them once or twice a week. I mean come on. At least it hasn't been two freakin' months and at least they have some idea when they will get to see them.

ok so graduation is in 4 days. i am so excited. i went out to eat with a good friend of mine today. we went to camino real. it was good. we talked afterwards for like an hour. he is a really good person to talk to. i think that i am starting to like him. that might be a problem. i am still with tj but he is starting to bore me. i mean we don't do anything anymore. and he acts like a kid. probably because he is only 16. well, i am going to go now. have a good day!!!

hannah

GRADUATION IN 4 DAYS!!

 Cole is a rotten child.

 Paige and campbell having an indepth conversation.

 cutie...

So here is just a few pictures.

It's over.  (High school, that is.)
I feel no regrets.
In fact, "frantic rejoicing" could be an applicable phrase.

Weekend was freakishly busy.

Events included:

• Seeing a friend of contemporary age get married.


• Almost had my first cigarette (allergies prevented this, but I've had a strange itch to try one lately).


• Had a drunken stalker at faire.


• Had a Viking entourage.


• Eaten authentic Viking entourage honey cake-stuff.


• Had a major snafu on the chessboard during our fight.


• Wordlessly convinced cast and audience that I had just sliced my hand open when I grabbed a "sharp" sword blade.


• As a result, felt really guilty when half the world came and asked about the aforementioned hand.


• Slapped a guy with actual intent (so I had no idea that "dragging across the stubble grain" even existed or was painful, but apparently it is).


• Been slapped back.


• Been paid for the first time in MONTHS.


• Learned that a former neighbour died (sad, but we haven't seen each other in a decade, so....)


• Realised several times that "God yes, it's time to leave home."  And not felt particularly bad/scared about that decision.



Major thanks, by the way, to all the cool kids who have come out to the Renaissance faire so far!  It's awesome seeing you guys in the lanes!!  :)

"Now, bring me that horizon...."

Major thanks, by the way, to all the cool kids who have come out to the Renaissance faire so far!  It's awesome seeing you guys in the lanes!!  :)

"Now, bring me that horizon...."

I am not a senior, so I am not out of school, but track is over so I feel it is. I ran in Chattanooga today for sectionals. I am bummed a little bit about getting 5th (top 4 go to state) even though I got a PR (personal record) of a 13:03 for 2 miles. But on the plus side I can eat all this candy left over from the chruch retreat that has been sitting on my living room floor with no need to feel bad about it, even though I kind of do.

i broke my finger
          i have to wear glasses cos of an eye infection
i broke a boy's heart on accident
          i have an almost broken heart

everything is going so not right
and it's getting hard to deal with
and i don't have a best friend anymore to help
and this is sad.

haha
i like to laugh
you should laugh too

i am officially doing xc next yr
yay for me

so yeah as you can tell by the title i picked up the new Tool cd and its amazing.....dang its been a while since Maynard has done stuff with Tool ya know....oh well school was fun..mrs.salty hit me with her notebook today and i made a clay pot in art....got a 100 on my biology gateway...so thats cool....now i can graduate....in 2 more years....dang well im gonna go. bye bye everyone!

Lets take a poll does this look like Ben Pearcy or not ??

This is the worse day of my life. I don't know how to explain it other than how it happened.

I was supposed to take my dog (Tori) to the vet at 1:00. She jumped out of my car and ran into the street, getting hit by a car. I've never seen anything so aweful. The vet brought her inside and told me that her heart was still beating, but they were going to put her to sleep. The bastard that hit her didn't even stop. If I had just put her on a leash like any person with a brain, this wouldn't have happened. My parents say that it's not my fault, that it could have happened to them, but they keep her on a leash.

Things just won't be the same around here anymore.

 Tori: Febuary 14, 2000- May 16, 2006

MICHAEL [paranada]
YOU SUCK!!!!

nuh uh..

michael Paranada

wow ashley went to the bathroom, and me and jon are here by the computer.....i want a cookie

paranada did sumtin bbaadd alang ka lang ka le le
there is a crazy killer in the room and that is oru mom

what did you do?? for real? you lying.. send what? liar! liar!!!!!!! kidding.. FINE! you gay! just walk away.. fine.. i'm out.. bell's gonna ring.. bye

YOU GAY MICHAEL PARANADA!!! hahaha

he agrees!

he likes men..

So how about I just went in today to find out if I was getting the Lottery Scholarship next semester and ends up I am and I was supposed to get it last fall and spring......which they just told me about 2 hours ago that I will get all that money $4800 for those semesters direct deposited into my account which combined with the insurance check I am getting from hail damage with pay off my car and pay for my insurance for the next year.....which means all the cash I make this next year goes into savings to pay off next years insurance along with any repairs I might have to make which means I have just managed to being myself out of debt in the matter of about 30mins........I am really happy and really suprised at the same time.....Thank God for computer errors that keep me from spending money before I have the bills come in......Well in the next 3 days that money should make it into my account along with the insurance check in the next week or so......well I am off to celebrate the fact that I am now financially secure for like a month or 6 or something like that......oh yea I am meeting this girls parents on Sat.....pray her family doesn't try anything like handing me a bullet with my name on it......the gun being shown to me has scared me enough in the past I don't want the bullet one to happen.......peace out much love bye bye

finally!

"...but i remember counting down the days until the year could be done, so i could scatter all my notebooks on the prep school lawn and disappear again into a summer's bliss of staying out and sleeping in & getting drunk with my friends..."

[from "loose leaves" by bright eyes]

2 days till i'm in florida.

5 days till i'm at camp.

and basically, he makes me happy.

Happy birthday to me!

I'm seventeen today!

A good friend of mine has told for the longest time to, "Chase what makes your heart flutter." I'm chasing...and I think she is letting me catch up which is a wonderful wonderful feeling...

Couldn't find the perfect lyrics, so I will quote the very person I am talking about:

"So...I really like this feeling..."

Why do you think God makes some people better looking than others?

Graduation party at my house on Saturday! From noon to 3 if you want to come.  I would love for you to be there!!!!

Belle Burucci, Dracula's wife?  Cobra is a genius, ???400 years? I am not sure. BUt are they the same women? anyway, all Italian style. THe ending is suck, he should not compromise, never!!! I fight for God all my life, this is what you pay me back? I'll live for blood, blood is live.

Curse that goddam belief.

vi ci, vi ni, vi de? 

"You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy
tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let
go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true."

"A couple of hundred years ago, Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success. Never leave that till tomorrow, he said, which you can do today. This is the man who discovered electricity. You think more people would listen to what he had to say. I don't know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I'd have to say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure, fear of rejection, sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you're wrong? What if you're making a mistake you can't undo? The early bird catches the worm. A stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we hadn't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin really meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying."

tonight was band banquet & it was fun.  i was the most improved senior woot!  tomorrow is graduation practice.  the real thing is on saturday & i just cant believe it. 

4 months of hard work = 1 well deserved vacation ... today I head to the US to see Paul graduate high school .... visit the "Morgans Unite" ..... and do various asundry things.

But before I can go to the airport (plane leaves at 11pm, have to be there at 7pm) ... I have to work about 7 hours, spend time with the family here, get a haircut (that should take 10 seconds), and finish packing ... then off like a herd of turtles marching through peanut butter.

All going well, the flight from Angola to Houston will be about 15 hrs +/- 1hr .... about 4 hr layover ... then on to Tampa ..... should be dead about the time I arrive Tampa on Wednesday afternoon.  Thursday AM visit to the dentist .... to work on a crown ... rush to the airport and arrive Nashville Thursday night.  By then, my head will be spinning, spinning, spinning .... get some rest on Friday (sort of) .... graduation on Saturday ....

.... more details later ...

... I'm going to miss Decy and the girls .... : (  they can't come because school is still in session in Angola.

Ciao ciao

Congradulations Class of '06!!!

It puts me in a terrible mood, along with the whole can't breathe and coughing up a lung deal.

 Yeah, some of you may find the following rants funny.Other may just sit here and shake their heads, the rest will just gasp in horror.

 We had to practice for the end of the year concert in class today, and because I had an athsma attack last night, I was coughing every 5 seconds. Well, you need the caffene in Coke to keep your lungs circulating, obviously I had on very close by. She (being Ms. Gregory) had a hissy fit.

G:"Jaime, you cannnot drink that in this room!"

J:"Ms. Gregory, I need this."

G:"No you don't, you just think you do."

J:"I had an athsma attack last night, I need caffene to keep my lungs circulating. Otherwise, you're gonna have a dead body in the class. I'm sorry, no disrespect intended, but I really do need this."

G:"Ugh, *eye rolling*. I'm going to need to see a note about that one from a doctor"

J(thinking in my brain): "Bite me"

Yeah, I kinda got testy today, but that was before I had a coughing fit and about keeled over. She may have learned her lesson, but she's about as hardheaded as I am.

~Later that evening~

  I'm late to the concert, so I just shoved on my combat boots and go. Okay, maybe I was being a little spite full, okay fine, I was being very spitefull. she said to wear heels, the boots have heels. Were waiting to go on and this girl Candy (whom I really can't stand, for details, ask me later) saw my shoes. this is our conversation;

C: oh my Gosh!! Jaime Crabtree what are you wearing on your feet?!??!! (say it with a whiny, psuedo Southern accent and that's how she sounds)

J: My boots, like 'em? *lifts up dress to show them off* (spitefull little me)

C: girl, do you have any brain cells?

J: Yeah I do. I just felt like wearing my boots tonight, so here they are.

C: Are you gonna be in choir next year?

J: HECK NO!! ( I hate that class worse than any other)

C: Well good. *Mumbles something I can't hear, causing the girls that did hear it freak out with "Oh my God, CANDY!!"s.

J: Candy, come and get me.*Spoken very scarily* (Not exactly the best thing to say, but she's seen me wail on people before. I could take her, despite the fact that she easily outweighs me.)

So that about sums up my day. Alot of coughing, singing off key, and getting very angry at people. That usually means tomorrow is going to be a very good day.

~To the Seniors: Kim, Jaleah, Stacy, Steven, Jenny, David, and anyone else I may have left out. YOU GUYS ROCK MY SOCKS!!!!!~

band banquet = good

our band will miss our seniors they have totally made our program

now its time for us to stand up

we can totally do it

Chior Concert was awsome.... good job.

so today was my last official day as a high schooler and i could care less lol. yes i'm really excited about graduating and whatever but i'm just ready for it to be done with!! and i think i'm more excited about this weekend just b/c clayton is coming and spending the whole weekend with me. and you'd think that i would be kinda sick of him right now considering that saturday after i got off work i drove down to erin and spent the weekend with him but ne ways. =) i'm outta here. ciao ppl.

Ok i am so sorry to you kate about posting all that information without your consent! it was an unfriendly thing to do and an ungodly thing to do and god hasn't let me live it down... i love you Kate....

Today i wrote a poem...*for my friend Kay Wilt* she ejoyed it so much that i thought i would share it with the rest of the world....no copywriting....*PLEASE*...all this literally just appeared in my head during fifth period so i jotted it down and here it is..

THE WAY

THE WAY the sun rays bounce off your face and glistens in your radiantly gleaming eyes as you gently rotate your head to toss a smile in my direction.

THE WAY your lip part and your cheeks dimple in such a way that i can not help but let a smile slip through my lips also.

THE WAY i know you are recieving the words that pass my lips by the way our eyes meet so profoundly that they act as an unlocked doorway to my heart.

THE WAY that even though i could be anywhere else at the moment, i can not help but just stand there because hearing your voice makes everything worth its while.

THE WAY i look forward to every moment i get to spend with you like a little girl who anxiously awaits the beautiful rainbow that is guaranteed to arrive at the end of every frightening storm.

THE WAY that being in your presence for just a short time can effect my whole outlook for that day.

THESE are just a few of THE WAYS that define who you are to me!

****Applause****

thank you, thank you i would like to thank my ... lol...jk..

But this time there is actually good news and no i actually saved money by switching from geicho but that wasn't the point which i am so desperately trying to state.... i found out what i made on the Algebra 1 Gateway....*drum role please* i made a 96 *YAY*... so technically i'm not stupid but you get the idea...

well amkinda bored and guess you are too... if you haven actually read this far in my post, i am so sorry for you..you have wasted so much time...lol..well, like i said i am bored and do not know what else to post...Laterz

}{Mustard Seed}{

I left school after 2nd period today cuz i rock lol

no more school for me...     well, except for my voice lesson tomorrow...

i have some goals for this summer.

and here they are:

-get another job
-have a camp-out in my backyard
-go to New York (see Lestat and Wicked)
- go to Cornerstone 2006 music festival
-audition for and perform in a show
-write a song
-learn all the choreography from High School Musical
-make a new friend
(i'll add as i think of more...)

"It would be nice if
we could throw away everything
but what is most important;
Reality is just cruel"
-Ayu (Dearest)

I've realized that lately I've been doing a lot of looking at the past.
I'm constantly looking behind me to see if there's something I can salvage from past realtionships...
But even when I'm out shopping I constantly glance behind my shoulder to see if he's still waiting for me...
All this reminds me of a song.

"Settle For A Slowdown"

I must look just like a fool here
in the middle of the road
standing there in your rearview
and getting soaked to the bone
this land is flat as it is mean
a man can see for a hundred miles
So I'm still praying I might see
the glow of a brake light.

But your wheels just turn,
down the road ahead
If it hurts at all
you aint showed it yet
I keep a lookin' for
the slightest sign that you might miss
what you left behind
I know there's nothing stopping you now
but I'd settle for a slowdown.

I held on longer then I should
Believing you might change your mind
And those bright lights of Hollywood
would fade in time.

But your wheels just turn
down the road ahead
If it hurts at all
you aint showed it yet
I keep a lookin' for
the slightest sign
that you might miss
what you left behind
I know there's nothing stopping you now
but I'd settle for a slowdown.

But your wheels just turn
down the road ahead
if it hurts at all
you aint showed it yet
your just a tiny dot on that horizon line come on tap those brakes
baby just one time
I know there's nothing stopping you now
Im not asking you to turn back around

I'd settle for a slowdown
come on just slow down
I'd settle for a slow down.


And then this picture just made me giggle. =)

I'd given up on all the applications I turned in at the end of March.  I assumed that I was never going to hear from any of those places.  But lo and behold...

Hot Topic!  I got a call from them today!  I have an interview tomorrow and I'm HELLA EXCITED!!!

I've wanted to work there for ages.  I'm thrilled just to get an interview.  I'm not giving up on applying at other places, but I'm certainly hoping against all hope that Hot Topic hires me.

My fingers are crossed.

'cause we all just wanna be big rockstars
and live in hilltop houses driving fifteen cars
the girls come easy and the drugs come cheap
we'll all stay skinny 'cause we just won't eat
and we'll hang out in the coolest bars
in the VIP with the movie stars
every good gold digger's gonna wind up there
every playboy bunny with her bleach blond hair
and well..hey hey i wanna be a rockstar


nickelback(rockstar).



love that song.
so. blonde hair fits me better.
hm.
blondes have more fun.
yessir.<3

when everything's made to be broken.
i just want you to know who i am.;;

 yeah phusebox is kinda boring. i am in love with myspace.but yeah.

hmm well this is my first one so go me! anyway nothing happened to day really....school is almost over thats pretty cool....i think my art teacher is crazy.....thats about it i guess....oh yeah gotta do a project for mrs.garner....hahaha that lady makes me laugh...hard to believe....well everyone keep on going in life and have fun

                                                                      <-Jonathan->

No more school for me!!!!!

And look at this crazy kid!

My day so far has been good and bad at the same time. The good thing is that I got my hackysack back from Mrs. Krocker. The bad thing is that I need to do some stuff before I play. I still havent gotten my number puncher thigmo from Erica. I keep forgeting to meet her! She should be nice and pissed off now that she had to wait by her ride 10 min. for me, and me not showing up.

                                            Phil Over and Out

ok everyone, for those of you who know elizabeth kostrub:  today is her birthday, feel free to embarrass the begeezers outta her.  lol

also: today was 80's day in US history.  it was very hard trying to find an 80's song but i finally found one.  "footloose"  i dont know how many of you know it but its a fairly good song (and its wonderful compared to some of the other 80's music)  

in Algebra II today, we didnt do anything, which was a nice change.

for the rest of the afternoon i signed yearbooks, so it was a nice relaxing day.  ( :

hope everyone had a good day!

So yeah I'm not really doing anything right now but sitting here on the computer.  I really haven't done a lot today but sit.

I guess that I will tell you all about my weekend.  On Saturday I went to Solo and Ensemble.  Came out to be that I got four 1's which is totally awesome!!!!  Then on Sunday I went to a friend's house to celebrate Mother's Day and stuff like that. 

I think that I'm going to start a qoute of the day thing and I'm going to start on this day.

"Qoute of the Day"
I hate it when you try to help but all they do is push you away...

Yeah that's really sad when it ends up like that.  I don't know how in the world I put up with this stuff!  I just don't know.  I guess it's God that helps me through all of it.  No, I know that God helps me through all of this.  If He didn't help me through it all I wouldn't be here on this Earth right now and that's a fact.

I don't know how to put everything into words anymore so just go through my mind if and when you need anything guys.

Love you all,
Your amazing friend,
"alive and well"  Daffodil~

I am SO blessed with EVERYTHING that I have! I can't thank God enough!!

be blessed

<3kate

i'm having a good mood/happy spell

i wanna bake cookies

i love this picture <3

What is your worst fear?




Love can be a many splendored thing

Can't deny the joy it brings

A dozen roses, diamond rings

Dreams for sale and fairy tales

It'll make you hear a symphony

And you just want the world to see

But like a drug that makes you blind,

It'll fool ya every time


The trouble with love is

It can tear you up inside

Make your heart believe a lie

It's stronger than your pride

The trouble with love is

It doesn't care how fast you fall

And you can't refuse the call

See, you got no say at all


Now I was once a fool, it's true

I played the game by all the rules

But now my world's a deeper blue

I'm sadder, but I'm wiser too

I swore I'd never love again

I swore my heart would never mend

Said love wasn't worth the pain

But then I hear it call my name


(The trouble with) The trouble with love is

It can tear you up inside

Make your heart believe a lie

It's stronger than your pride

The trouble with love is

It doesn't care how fast you fall

And you can't refuse the call

See, you got no say at all


Every time I turn around

I think I've got it all figured out

My heart keeps callin' and I keep on fallin'

Over and over again

This sad story always ends the same

Me standin' in the pourin' rain

It seems no matter what I do

It tears my heart in two


(The trouble with love is) The trouble with love, yeah

(It can tear you up inside) It can tear you up inside

(Make your heart believe a lie) Make your heart believe a lie

It's stronger than your pride


(The trouble with love is)

It's in your heart

It's in your soul (doesn't care how fast you fall)

You won't get no control

(and you can't refuse the call)

See, you got no say at all


(The trouble with love is) Oh, yeah

(It can tear you up inside)

(Make your heart believe a lie)

::b

Hey yall! Well... wow! I can't believe this time next week I will be laying by the pool and I WILL BE A HIGH SCHOOL GRADUATE!

I can't believe it is almost here! Today was great I slept like all day long! I mean it was incredible! I dont have to go back to school until Wenesday for like a 2 hour graduation practice!

Also today I got a $1,000 scholarship! I am so excited! So i think i am up to 1600 dollars now! Well! Today has been AWESOME! Plus all my family is comin in for GRADUATION! I am so STOKED!

4 more days!!!!

CONGRATS TO THE CLASS OF '06!!!

EVERYONE Must Come!7:15 Calvary Baptist Monday May 22nd. free food, live music, awesome speaker. its going to be awesome!! we are gearing up for next year...getting ready to take it to the next level!! if you want more info just let me know!!

School is finally over.  There will be no more AP Physics with Mrs. Cathey.  There will be no more AP English with Mrs. Juergens.  The plague has lifted.  The time of desolation is no more.  In the words of Alice Cooper,

"No more pencils, no more books,

No more teachers' dirty looks."

And so ... after a "short day" of 12 hours of work ... Decy came to pick me up from work.  There were the normal frustrations with the job, the normal "kilo challenges", the normal traffic issues .... as they say in Indonesian "sama sama" ... its the same .... But, maybe it isn't the same. Maybe today was just a little bit better ... maybe it was because this morning I "gave thanks" before going to work.

Tonight, I had a quiet dinner with Decy at a new Chinese restaurant.  We enjoyed our personal time together.  Decy and I have now been married nearly 3 years .... unfortunately, for various reasons we have not been able to share our anniversary together ... this year is the same (tomorrow I leave for the US to attend Paul's graduation) ... maybe next year.  In the meantime, I give thanks ....

Good night, selamat tidur, boa noite, buenos noches ....