graduation pictures!!

that's me and clayton...we were still at mtsu. isn't he cute??

that's me and miss janelle

me, linda, and jackie and omg i didn't realize how friggin tall jackie is!!!

and we'll end with another pic of me and clatyon. can u tell i'm half lit? lol.

I LOVE YOU GUYS! CONGRATS CLASS OF '06!

o yes. there is quite the resemblance.

_kt

So Not only today did I start my new job in which i get to drive Cars off the line and out to there destination some where out into Nissan's ginormous back parking lots. That is fun getting to drive every type of car there. Its awesome!

But the better news is..  I Picked up my new car today!!

     I am now the proud driver of a 2006 3.5L SE V6 Nissan Altima!

             Oh dang is that a sweet ride!   I'll have pics up in the next day or two.

hey everyone! so yea apparntly we have changed youth names. yea i will still be putting announcements and stuff on here from Wednesday and Sundays. so yea check here if you missed a sunday also if we cancell guys rec during the season of guys rec i will be posting it up on here. So yea one more day and can't wait. I guess since this is a church site i need to give some spiritual wisdom (what i am thinking) maybe a tidbit. But yea!

jarrod wilson one of our leaders writes these blogs on myspace (really good by the way) so i will leave you with a word from him! peace! -hambone

"Sleep" A Tidbit from the wise Mr. Jarrod Wilson!!

"I do not want you to be ignorant, brethren, concerning those who have fallen asleep, lest you sorrow as others who have no hope. For if we believe that Jesus died and rose again, even so God will bring with Him those who sleep in Jesus." (1 Thess. 4:13-14, NKJV)

If Christianity is a mere fantasy, and the Bible a mere religious book, then its cruelest hoax would be its assertion that people who believe in Christ will live forever after they die. It is not sympathy to give someone false hope, it is cruelty. But if the Bible is true - if Jesus did rise from the dead - then the gospel message is irresistable, for it offers the only real hope to mankind. I believe by faith that it is real, and it is on this belief that I commit not only my own life, but urge others to as well. The mystery will someday be revealed to each of us. Until then, I am firmly assured that it is true

so guess what........

i am

the

HEAD

DRUM MAJOR

im also shocked and crazy excited!!!!!!!!

-oaklad high school band's head drum major 2006-2007

ok, so apparently i found out tyler was moving before other ppl at church did. sunday night was madness with a bunch of "OMG"es, and "he's LEAVING?!" i was surprised i was one of the few to know. goodbye ty. see u in a monthish. you'll be missed.

Milly got Head Drum Major...and um im quite excited for her<3

Erm, yeah. For those of you that are actually READING my blogs, I quit today. Call me unemployed.

I already told Mubs, but I'm trying this bronzing stuff (I'm fake-n-baking, without the bake!!). It's all natural, we're talking hemp and cocconut here. Yeah, thus far the only results showing is that I smell really good. Can't expect too much, I just got it today *sniff, man this is good smellin' stuff*

   AIN'T IT CUUUTTTTEEEE?????!!???!?!?!?!?

summer here I come.

listen to--I will survive by caaaakkkeee.

hey so one more day till we are free!!!!!!  whoop whoop!

so this weekend i hung out w/ friends and watched some of them graduate. ~:*tear*:~ and today i basically did nothing in class. during 5th i played basketball with the guys and i sucked...but hey ..at least i tried.

so till summer i plan to have a lot of fun.

i can't believe I'm are seniors...... whoop whoop!!!

So i need a job, but i'd prefer it not to be in the fast food industry.

Not really my thing.

Any advice?

I really hate to say it, but Phusebox is getting old to me.

anyone else?

Do you know what would be an awesome birthday present?  Everything being simple like it used to be.  I know that won't happen, but life wouldn't be fun without complexity and complicatedness would it?  That's where the Holy Spirit comes in.  ;)

First off, I wanted to let MTSU academic scholarship students that have to do scholarship work know that I forgot one bit of advice for them yesterday: do not work in the honors college building. And the human sciences department is a good place to work. Garrett doesn't like his work at the LRC. Business office is also a good place. I bet most anything in mass comm would be good. But beyond that I don't know.

Secondly, I want all the bookworms to give me advice of what to read this summer. I am finishing up Pride and Prejudice and need more reading material. I'm mostly interested in classics, and also any good Christian fiction. No sci-fi (well, maybe some... like classic sci-fi), horror, or romance (like the written version of porn kind) please. Thanks!

I am so ready to be out of school. I have to take 3 finals all because of when i got the flu.

Tomorrow is the last day off school............

PRAISE THE LORD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

...2.945.  2.945.  That is the GPA I now have.  Dropped ever so slightly below the line...  Thus, the question, "Now what?"

My parents aren't gonna pay the $1500 the HOPE gave me before.  And if I don't go back to college, they'll more than likely kick me outta the house.  But, I don't exactly have $1500 to go to college, so yeah.  Don't expect to see me back at MTSU.  'Cause, damn, I don't wanna have student loans to pay off.  I'm gonna end up havin' to help pay off Marissa's as it is.

So, it looks like I'm gonna haveta find a new job/another job to ensure that I have enough money to live on my own.  I may also haveta find some other friends in need of a place to stay, so we can tackle rent no problem.

Will this mean that I'm gonna be a college drop-out?  Probably.  Do I care?  Not really.

...Maybe it'll be good to move out.  Heh, I may end up with feasible space to put all of my game systems and stuff...  I can not haveta worry about school and work combining forces to bog me down and make me want to commit suicide (And, yes, that kind of feeling has happened before).  I can work, play games, be with Marissa, and develop myself...figure out the kind of person I want to be, not worrying about whether or not I did last night's homework.

...This's my story, and it's time I figure out the plot.

In one day, I'll be a SENIOR.

In one week, I'll be at a Chinese themed wedding.

In one month, I'll be having fun at Governor's School.

In one year, I'll be graduamated.

I'm sitting pretty, and I'm excited.

So this was our last day of school....  (minus exams... they dont count)

but it doesn't feel that way at all...  Just felt like any other day at school.... besides going tto subway and  watching a gazillion movies.

things are so different...   And im Glad.

for the most part that is.

GG is leaving for the whole summer, that i cannot believe.  IM going to miss her soo much.  Both of my best friends = gone..  Beks and now my GG.

i never thought that i would have to miss them this much... I guess i was VERY wrong...  I want and NEED them both back...

My grandfather finally died on Sunday morning, after living for about a week without food and water.

I thought the funeral was going to be on Wednesday, the day I have no exams, but I was wrong.  It is tomorrow.  So I guess I won't see my few friends in physics and Latin tomorrow.  And there will definately be no Fazoli's Night this week (not that there was going to be for me even if the funeral was on Wednesday).

Anyways.

Today, the world sucks.

what would you say if i pierced my lip?

i'm going to miss jonathon
*sigh*
that boy kept me going this year

hey yall! well i just got home from school and i am bored and talking to my best friend on the phone!! well byebye for now

love

candace

okay so now the party begins i guess.lol.

wow okay so many things are going through my head right now. i think i might like someone and it's cool and all but i really just don't know.

anyways sumer break yeah im excited lets go.

Leah 

YAY FOR MARY LAUREN MANSFIELD!!!! SHES AMAZING AT EVERYTHING...HEART AND SOUL!!!

i now have a myspace.  i don't write anything on it so i guess it's kinda pointless to have one huh? but it looks pretty cool.,andits a good way to keep up with my friends through the summer. this was kinda a pointless entry , but oh well.  i've been out of school for 5 days and im not bored yet but we"ll see wht happens

Is that not the cuttest thing that you have ever seen?  just for all yall who don't know who it is it's scamp from lady and the tramp my favorite disney movie of all time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! just thought i'd share that witth yall

No one ever signs my yearbook. Not in the past 4 years has anyone signed them because we get them so late and graduation practice this year was just too crazy!! So leave me a yearbook worthy message, signing off the past four wonderful years. <3 emily

***if you want my description of graduation, visit www.xanga.com/benevolent_n_manipulative.

Soooo...I only have 2 more days of exams and Im threwwww, haha yesssss!!!

Life's A Garden , Dig IT !!!

I put new pics up

Well ... its been a while!!!

Lets see whats happened ...

I am now 18 ... woohoo legal baby!!!
I met a boy ... a new boy ... and I like him ... A LOT!!! But ... of course things are complicated ... why would this time be any different???
Things with some friends have gone downhill ...
Home life is ok ... cant complain but cant get over excited

Well ... I'm sitting in debate class right now ... for the last time EVER!!!
Its kinda sad ... but not ... I mean I'm so ready to get out of high school ... I'm done with all the drama I'm tired and ready for bigger and better things ... but I'm scared ... scared that I wont ever see some of these people ever again ... these people that I've grown up with for the past 8 years ... even though I dont talk to everyone that I used to ... it was still nice to see their face everyday ... now that we dont have to come to school everday ... never in this school again ... I wont see them all the time!!! And its sad!!!

Tomorrow is my last day of high school!!! Its soooo weird!!! I'm graduating in a week!!! Wow ...

I dont know what else to say other than keep repeating myself so ... enough of that!!!

Now ... about this boy ...
his name is cody hes sooo sweet!!! He's a good christian which is hard to find these days, but it does make somethings harder ... which brings us to the complications ... he says he's so in love with his future wife *whoever she is* that he doesnt want to even think about cheating on her and by dating other girls ... he would be cheating on her ... holding hands and kissing and all those emotions are made for your husband or wife is what he says ... but what I say is how do you know who youre gonna marry without dating??? You cant juz look at someone and be like I'm gonna marry them!!! But I totally respect his views ... so right now we're best friends ... who knows maybe he'll change his mind and let his true feelings for me out ...

Autum's Monologue

Oh why cant I be what you need
a new improved version of me
but i'm nothing so good
no i'm nothing
just bones, a lonely ghost burning down songs
of violence of love and of sorrow
i beg for just one more tomorrow
where you hold me down fold me in
deep deep deep in the heart of your sins

I break in two over you
I break in two
And each piece of me dies
And only you can give the breath of life
But you dont see me, you dont...

here i'm in between darkness and light
bleached and blinded by these nights
where im tossing and tortured til dawn
by you, visions of you then youre gone
the shock lifts the red from my face
when i hear someone's taking my place
how could love be so thoughtless, so cruel
when all, all that i did was for you

i break in two over you
i break in two
and each piece of me dies
and only you can give the breath of life
but you dont see me you dont..

i break in two over you
i break in two
and each piece of me dies
and only you can give the breath of life
but you dont see me you don't...

i break in two over you
i break in two over you, over you
i break in two
i would break in two for you
now you see me
now you don't
now you need me
now you don't

The Fiction We Live

You might be just what I need
No I would not change a thing
Been dreaming of this so long
But we only exist in this song
The thing is, I'm not worth the sorrow
And if you come and meet me tomorrow
I will hold you down, fold you in
Deep, deep, deep in the fiction we live
I break in two over you
I break in two
And if a piece of you dies
Autumn, I will bring you back to life
Of course I see you
I do.

IM BACK!!!!!!!!YES I GOT ONLINE AT MY HOUSE SO I'LL BE ON ALL DA TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!

milly got head drum major

so go tell her how amazing she is... now!

i finally got my internet fixed. so much to say, so little time.

i'll talk later

piece

so, i'm a graduate....thats weird.

this summer has started out pretty much amazing!!! there has always been something to do or people to see...i love all of my friends who have been there through it all and i'm really sad that this is the last 3 months before we go off into our future...but at te same time, i feel in my bones that we will stay in touch.

on another note, my NEW LAPTOP traveled from suzhou china to shanghai then to anchorage alaska; indianapolis, indiana; nashville, tn and today, onto my front porch with the fedex guy incesantly ringing the doorbell while i was asleep!!! as i was laying in bed i heard something in my head say, "a real person is at the door" so i dragged myself out of bed to see the fedex truck, so, needless to say, i was excited. yay for MACS!!!! but i dont know how to transfer my music from my iPod, so if anyone could help me that would be perfect!!!


SENIOR VOICE RECITAL TONIGHT 7:00 AT BELLE AIRE BAPTIST CHURCH....

1.  I exist.
2.  My perception allows me to access that existence.  Question:  Is this true?  Do we exist only by perception?  Or is there a blank slate formed before we perceived?  I tend to hold to the blank slate theory, but that would logically follow into the idea that even fetuses are aware of their existence.
3. My perception is inherently flawed relative to itself and limited in capacity.
4.  My memory is a collection of perceptions past.
5.  My memory is inherently flawed.
6.  My cognition (thought) is based off of my perception and memory.  It uses three main methods to process information:
i.  Filtering--Focusing on an perceived part assumed to be of preeminence to the rest of the perception.
ii.  Sorting--Distinguishing between different and similar parts and grouping them accordingly.
iii.  Extrapolation--Using patterns to theorize what information may complete unknowns.
7.  I assume that the others very similar but different to me (humans) exist in a manner to similar to my own existence, but I can not be sure.
8.  My thought is inherently flawed.
9.  I assume that there exists a plane of existence (the universe) for the sake of simplicity.

having moved my Chinese qqzone to here, nothing but just because some of the essay were not convient to be exposed to some people.

疲倦的我评论(9)发表时间：2006年3月15日 17时43分





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上班刚回来。


今天从上第一节课起就想睡觉。
我发现自己好象真的有点"老"了。特别容易困.想当初刚进研时,满腔的热情,似乎有永远用不完的力量.难道三年之后的我，真的"老"了吗? 这种感觉就是那种,你很想投入地去做某件事情，但又觉得全身乏力,软弱无比. 也许雅各与天使摔完跤被那人摸了大腿筋就这种感觉吧? 也许又不是.


身边的同事朋友们的话题让我觉得:其实每个人都怕走向衰老,因为那就意味着你不再拥有"焦点"的生活。我想,年复一年，人到底在追求什么呢? 康希牧师说得对,一个人再辉煌都要成为历史. 那到底我们在这个世界上能做的是什么呢?我们该以怎么样的心态来面对生活呢? 聪明的你,可否告诉我答案呢?

走出来，海阔天空！

随感一篇评论(1)发表时间：2006年3月20日 20时28分





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今天天气又有点冷。
似乎有数日没上网了。

本周日我听了老张的证道，很是感动。
我喜欢听有关启示录的信息，因为那会让我觉得我们的生命如鹰的生命，忘了世界上的争夺，吵闹，那是种对高贵的向上的生命的憧憬与向往．
　　最近老觉得自己属灵生命在低沉期，似乎老是无法很专注去读圣经。但那天，我发现我居然再次在主面前哭了．我那个时候才体会到：忧伤痛悔的灵，你必不轻看。我一直以来在寻求着说，希望在某些事情上主能够给我较为清楚的指示，但一直没有．我觉得我似乎是个被上帝遗弃的人．但那天我哭的时候，我才发现，上帝没有忘记我，而是我一直没有花时间，一直不肯花这个精力．今天读了一个美国朋友的日志，他比我小５岁，可是他的日志却让我震撼．他说一直在寻求上帝的旨意，希望上帝告诉他该不该提早毕业，今年夏天要干什么，正准备要打电话给他的＂死党＂，他的那个朋友却将电话挂掉了．正当他很惆怅地坐在树下等他的回电话时，上帝这时跟他说话了：ＴＯ　ＧＥＥ　ＩＮＴＯ　ＭＹ　ＷＯＲＤ．是啊，我们几时真的将上帝的话藏在心里了？什么时候真的花了时间真正地去思量他的言语了？由此他想到了整个美国社会，他一直都认为美国教会现在正缺少＂ＰＡＳＳＩＯＮ＂．
　　　说实话，我刚认识他的时候，一直都认为他是个疯疯癫癫的爱玩的人．他确实开朗，但令人震撼的是，他真的开始进入ＷＯＲＳＨＩＰ的时候，那种专心，那种的热忱，却是我也不能比的。
　　　我无法表达我的这种感觉，我只是觉得在这样一个年轻人面前，我却变得渺小了．不过，我真是存着感恩的心，因为从他们的日志中，我却感觉到了一股年轻人潮流，一股上帝国度里的年轻的　力量　！感谢上帝，　因为　我知道，我现在要做的是什么了．

无语评论(2)发表时间：2006年3月22日 20时25分





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笑是一种无言的开脱，能记住最美的日子，记住最甜的内容，记住最真的故事，能将太多的挫折和不幸忘掉，是一种比跋涉更深沉的选择．
　　这是一个朋友发来的短信，放在这里与大家共享．
　　有时会突然想起老张那天讲到那个女孩，被卖了好几次，一个人在火车站，眼睛透露着无望．老张振臂高呼：这个世界需要公义！而这一切上帝一定要算数的！
　　我从来对那些在垃圾边的人感到痛苦，也许朋友们永远不会相信，我每次看到他们的时候，总会有种莫名的心酸．我有时觉得自己是不是个悲观的人，或者心理有什么毛病。但我看着他们总觉得心酸．也许他们是这个社会的残酷的存在的折射吧．我有时觉得人若要老想着自己的痛楚，也许他真的永远不会快乐。是啊，快乐的人，不一定是不富足的人，也许还可以说一定不是富足的人，而是一个懂的付出的人。人若老往这个世界的阴暗面去想，也许他真的有天会变成那个垃圾边的人的一分子的．记得有个老师，是学文学的，是个才子．也许作家天生就注定是个悲剧的职业吧．他有次在楼道里大声的喊道：这个世界太黑暗了！现在想想，这个世界其实是在自己的心中．你若对他笑，那些郁闷的，令人痛苦的东西也许就攻不进来了。有个网友一直强调说我们圣经中有个词翻错了：喜乐是上帝赐给你的力量．他说＂力量＂应该是＂堡垒＂．因为有了喜乐作为我们的堡垒，仇敌就攻不进来了。　但愿我们都有颗喜乐的心．常常喜乐．　

哈利路亚！

感动我的一首诗歌评论(6)发表时间：2006年4月2日 20时12分





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星期天。
早上康山里，下午中洲; 早上中文，下午英文.
好久没有这么被上帝的爱感动了。我以为上帝已离弃了我。可不，他却一直爱着我，虽然我以各种方法背叛了他,让他忧伤.

   早上本想去中洲再去寻找那种 安静. 但由于路被堵塞了。就到了满了年轻人的教堂。每次都这样， 主总是这样按时分粮.早上坐在那里,什么都不想,拒绝一切的心思意念，倒不是我的坚强，而正是我的软弱,因为我已软弱无比，懒得去想很多东西。
   这几天的天气很好，暖风习习,而我却颇感忧郁.而今天上帝却亲自用他自己的话语来坚强了我。"向世界死了,向基督活着".我却经常地对这个世界有需求.我是个蒙极大恩典的基督徒,从小就蒙恩，而且有着"崇拜师长倾向的我",在自己为人师后，却一直没有长大,依然生活在那种"领导人不可犯错误"的观念里.我小时候经常坐在教堂的椅子上，想牧师一定是完美的吧.到自己带了团契后，目视自己的失败却依然无法宽恕别人的错误,特别是我所尊敬人的错误。因为当看着那个错误，我就会觉得自己很无助,很孤单。虽然主跟我说,要学会长大,但我还是免不了在痛苦的时候拿这个当借口,放纵自己,告诉自己别人不过如此。不过，今天的信息却很感人，特别是那首诗歌"因他活着，我可以面对明天".其实从上帝来的鼓励没有理由，今天当年轻的人们唱着这首诗歌时,我便感到有一股力量又回来了。以至于在在回家的车上，在回宿舍的拥挤的车上，脑中不断回荡这首诗歌:因他活着，我便可以面对明天。我边在心里唱着，边想这这些日子令我郁闷的事.虽然一边有种想哭的感觉，可一边却不断地得到刚强。我很清楚地知道上帝,他不曾忘记过我。
   我在很多人的眼里，我似乎是个马大， 可我只是个玛利亚.我会跪在耶稣面前，责问他"主啊，你为什么才来?". 可是, 感谢上帝! 因为,玛利亚的眼泪打动了耶稣,因为耶稣也哭了。我不是个坚强的领导人，不过，我感谢上帝，因他活着，因他体恤我们的忧伤，因他与玛利亚一起哭泣,我知道，我的上帝他不是高高在上，他用的是。 双手捧起,造了我们。也许，在这世界上,我们会时常感觉到孤单，无助,背叛。但是，因他活着，因他与我们一同哭泣，我们便知道我们是幸福的人.

   "因他活着，我便可以面对明天!"  哈利路亚!  这个世界可能有愁苦，可能会有伤害，不过，我们不孤单.我只想告诉上帝，求主牵我的手，因为我比以往任何时候都需要你! 不许我退后，不许我再找借口来纵容自己做你所不喜悦的事,一生只要有主拉着手，已经足够!

添加诗歌"因他活着"的网站
http://www2.jdjys.com:77/view/list.exl?channel=106&parent=60

so today is our first official day as a siegel high alumni! we are DONE baby! AND me and clayton are now officially dating. so this weekend was pretty great for me. i graduated, got to party a little, made like 200 bucks just opening envelopes and i got to wake up all weekend wrapped up in the arms of the man of my dreams.....ahhhhhhhhhh. okay i'm a happy camper now lol.

    Well I haven't posted in quite some time. Mostly because nothing eventful has happened that is quality sharing material, then again, I suppose that has never before stopped me. I would like to say felicitations (I became weary of the incessant "congradulations") to all those who have now graduated.
    In other news DQ proved itself to be as I had expected - easy. Though I suppose that I didn't take the job simply for the fun of it so shouldn't expect much from it. I am unaccustomed to wasting so much time. I realize that for me every minute I am on the clock, I recieve pay. However, there are many points where there is aboslutely nothing that can be done. There really isn't even much more that I can clean. I was thinking the other day that there must be a more efficient system. So many people stand around and do nothing. I am also convinced that if they had people who were competent, that, in most cases, they could get by easily with about one third of the people which they have on the clock at any given time.
    hmmm.... that is enough rambling about that.... I slept almost 7 hours last night. I suppose that is newsworthy. Oh, another thing of note; I actually splurged and bought canvas! I also bought medium -yay! I spent nearly $40 at Hobby Lobby. Yes I know... a bit extravagant to just spend on yourself for no reason but I couldn't start my art again until I did :-) I actually don't feel badly about it.  I am going to start my art again. It was hard not to want to get more and more quality oils and more canvas... I was looking through a catalog the other day at linen canvas and new brushes and palette knives (mine is really really awful). I don't care what debates artists have had; linen is incontrovertibly better then cotton... then of course it is more expensive, so for now I will use cotton.
    For those few of you who are still reading, please excuse my verbosity. This post is quite lengthy for the amount to which it actually pertains. I wish you all a great day. Stop by and see me :-)

Its not my normal Mon-AM, but I did log on to my office email while vacation.  I HATE ... hurry hurry .... wait ... hurry hurry wait.  Got an email from the other side of the world asking that I do something ASAP .... and send it to them.

Geez, I told them 3 weeks ago I was going on vacation and that if they needed any special work to request it BEFORE I left ... so what do they do?  First, they request it nicely 2 days after I left ... so I responded nicely I would work on it during vacation (isn't that nice of me) but would complete it and submit it when I return.

Now, they tell me to do it ASAP ... so much for vacation.

On a better note, having a great time visiting the boys and meeting their friends ... you have probably seen some of the blogs on that ... these folks (sons & friends) are a great group.  If more "young adults" were like them ... the world would truly be a better place ... let's pray that the "yeast" leavens all the bread of the world.

BTW ... I LOVE little Daniel ... what a bundle of joy .... he he he ....

enough said...

So graduation has come and gone. It was fun, but I'm glad to see it go and take high school with it. While I'll miss the people I will not miss the atmosphere or the high school drama (which was completely unnecessary about 99% of the time.)

This weekened has proved eventful. After graduation was just a hang out time at the house for me and my family and a couple of friends. Kinda nice. Very crazy. I enjoyed it tho. Today was church, a cookout at the Hipps Grandma's and a movie with the youth. And another short little nice time afterwards.

This weekend has also been extremely emotional. I've had a hard time dealing with some things. I've discovered I have a hard time keeping all my emotions in sometimes. I definetely let them get out of control tonight with someone, and I really wish I hadn't let that happen. I feel pretty bad about it, and yet they claim it's ok. But the frustration I'm directing at myself now is enough to make me crazy. I just need to learn how to handle things better.

so here's to a summer to remember. got a good job, great friends, and unprecedented amounts of free time. and i wanna hang out with YOU.. yeah you.. so just let me know when & where!

I'm just a summer girl
I wear my flip flops
When I let my hair down
That's when the party starts
Who needs a boyfriend
I got my girlfriends
And when we get together
The summer never ends

I'm considered an alumni now. How cool.

I have new work hours, they are Monday/Tuesday 4-9, Thursday/Friday 3-11 (wow, that's a long time.) I'm glad though...I'll start getting fat paychecks to fund my college life.

I think I've decided to just live the dorm because I won't want to miss out on that experience (even though Matt says it sucks). I'm going to try to find a cool roommate (whom also has money) so we can share an apartment together, because I don't want to stay in the dorms longer than I have to...unless I like it. I'm calling housing tomorrow so I can get Jeff hooked up into my room.

I went to a graduation party tonight hosted by my Japanese friends, and randomly, my Mexican friends were there too. Pictures to come.

I'm going to bed.

Okay so...customs is this week.....Thursday and Friday. And I've been on mtsu review...it's helpful.....but there are so many different teachers for the exact same class that it's hard to choose what teacher I would like to have.

I kind of feel AHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I've decided.

I am a horrible decision maker.I freak out, and never know what to do.

It seems like whenever I think that i've finally made a good decision, it isn't and screws up anyways.

or maybe it's just me...maybe i'm just making myself think that everything is wrong even though it isn't.

whenever im sick I tend to think of things like this, and I confuse myself.

I forgot to put this>>..I'm sick. After dance on Saturday my voice has been coming to me on and off. But that's ok im getting better.

oh yea...i've also decided that all guys are insensitive jerks. well...most of them anyways. BUT that's just something I'll have to live with. Anyways, I don't think that i'd have it any other way. I couldn't handle them doing everything right 100% of the time. I'd feel like I was the one screwing up, and that is unexceptable.

summer's almost here, and it can't come soon enough. I can't handle another week of school. I seriously don't think I could handle it. I feel like if I were to go to school and put up with some of the idiots I have to deal with I might explode. I'm not saying that everyone at Smyrna is an idiot...just alot of people.

I need sleep. So im going to go.

love to all.

I had to delete all pictures with me in them and my name, school, city.

It sucks

- the guy who shows not his face now

donald, sine your leaving and i cant get it to you here it is

ok hey everyone else 

one more day of school one day of emptying notebooks, cleaning lockers, and the last of yearbook signing

there is on eother thing that tomorrow will hold

ohs marching band drum maajor results and im only a little bit excited

ok well i guess ill go get some sleep

love you guys

-me

NOBODY CLEANS TOILET LIKE WE DO HAHAHAHA
photo from what?im6ft5?

God laughs all the time. Most of the time we just don't get it.
~ Jessica Foster~

[made a post earlier tonight. deleted it. family. they make us mad.but will ALWAYS be there when we need them most.]

[God does work in mysterious ways. i was going through my old email && deleting junk mail && stuff and i came across this from Kalue. from A LONG time ago. it said HI. so i opened it thinking it was something she asked me a while ago. but it wasnt. glad i opened it before i deleted it. I LOVE MY FAMILY, even when they make me mad.]

>
>
>
>
>
>F A M I L Y
>
>I ran into a stranger as he passed by,
>"Oh excuse me please" was my reply.
>
>He said, "Please excuse me too;
>I wasn't watching for you."
>
>We were very polite, this stranger and I.
>We went on our way and we said goodbye.
>
>But at home a different story is told,
>How we treat our loved ones, young and old.
>
>Later that day, cooking the evening meal,
>My son

stood beside me very still.
>
>When I turned, I nearly knocked him down.
>"Move out of the way," I said with a frown.
>
>He walked away, his little heart broken.
>I didn't realize how harshly I'd spoken.
>
>While I lay awake in bed,
>God's still small voice came to me and said,
>
>"While dealing with a stranger,
>common courtesy you use,
>>>> >>but the family you love, you seem to abuse.
>>>> >>
>>>> >>
>>>> >>Go and look on the kitchen floor,
>>>> >>You'll find some flowers there by the door.
>>>> >>
>>>> >>
>>>> >>Those are the flowers he brought for you.
>>>> >>He picked them himself: pink, yellow and blue.
>>>> >>
>>>> >>
>>>> >>He stood very! quietly
not to spoil the surprise,
>>>> >>you never saw the tears that filled his little eyes."
>>>> >>
>>>> >>
>>>> >>By this time, I felt very small,
>>>> >>And now my tears began to fall.
>>>> >>
>>>> >>
>>>> >>I quietly went and knelt by his bed;
>>>> >>"Wake up, little one, wake up," I said.
>>>> >>
>>>> >>
>>>> >>"Are these the flowers you picked for me?"
>>>> >>He smiled, "I found 'em, out by the tree.
>>>> >>
>>>> >>
>>>> >>I picked 'em because they're pretty like you.
>>>> >>I knew you'd like 'em, especially the blue."
>>>> >>
>>>> >>
>>>> >>I said, "! Son, I'm
very sorry for the way I acted today;
>>>> >>I shouldn't have yelled at you that way."
>>>> >>He said, "Oh, Mom, that's okay.
>>>> >>I love you anyway."
>>>> >>
>>>> >>
>>>> >>I said, "Son, I love you too,
>>>> >>and I do like the flowers, especially the blue."
>>>> >>
>>>> >>
>>>> >>FAMILY
>>>> >>Are you aware that if we died tomorrow, the company
>>>> >>that we are working for could easily replace us in
>>>> >>a matter of days.
>>>> >>But the family we left behind will feel the loss
>>>> >>for the rest of their lives.
>>>> >>
>>>> >>
>>>> >>And come to think of it, we pour ourselves
more
>>>> >>into work than into our own family,
>>>> >>an unwise investment indeed,
>>>> >>don't you think?
>>>> >>So what is behind the story?
>>>> >>
>>>> >>
>>>> >>Do you know what the word FAMILY means?
>>>> >>FAMILY = (F)ATHER (A)ND (M)OTHER (I) (L)OVE (Y)OU
>>>> >>
>>>> >>
>>>> >>Pass this message to 7 people except you and me.
>>>> >>
>>>> >>
>>>> >>You will receive a miracle tomorrow.
>>>> >>Don't ignore and God will bless you

so boys are stupid. beyond reason.
why must they be so immature?
it's like talking to a four year old i swear.
but it's okay. he can go and have his fun.
because he lost me five months ago.
and there is no way in hell i am going back.
[not that he'd ever want me back. at least not
right now.]
but one day he'll realize what he lost.
and he'll also realize that i am not stupid enough
to wait around for someone like that.





on the other hand.
i can't wait to talk to my other
boy tonight.
hm. :].
he makes me smile.<3

okay...guys, sorry about my attitude lately..
some things happened here in my house and it's been very stressful for me.

dang...i've been having these REALLY BAD leg cramps lately...and those of you who know me know that i've been through a lot and it takes a lot of pain for me to really hurt...well, i was up crying last night because it was so bad..it's really weird...i thought i already went through the growing pains area...guess not...well, my mom gave me some stuff that's considered to be narcotics..haha...this will be fun...

tonight at church, i realized what i'm supposed to be doing (for now at
least)...i feel like i've been called into the ministry with kids...don't know exactly what...but to add onto that, i've always been drawn to the ministry commercials about the kids who are starving in other parts of the world, and they've always touched me. i can't sit there through a commercial and just let it pass me by...it's always on my mind...kids who aren't getting the food they need and also kids who are being abused...it's just something i've always had a heart for...

yeah, okay, enough of me rambling...
talk to you guys later...
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(yeah, so maybe i copied and pasted of off xanga...who cares?)

pretty cool videos>> 
Arcade Acappella
Honda Acapella

Daddy and Mommy told me they opened me a college fund.  I don't know what college is (something about pizza), but 'fund' sounds like 'fun', so I'm excited.

somewhere
oh, to be lying,
on a beach,
somewhere,
with sand in my toes,
and the wind,
in my hair.
and only the sound,
of the seagulls,
on high,
on a beach,
somewhere,
under a sunset orange sky.
the gentle caress,
of the waves,
on the shore,
and you close,
beside me,
could I ask for more? ...
-Linda Harnett

So this has been a boring yet stressful weekend. Boring in which I sat on my ass at the computer all weekend. Stressful in that my granny was taken of the resporator yesterday and we are waiting for her to die to know when to go down to Florida for her funeral. Also, I don't understand boys, but I am trying to turn over this new leaf of not caring, that I am afraid isn't working quite as well as I was hoping...

now for random pictures...

Congradulations Class of 2006!!!

This is what happends when your photography buddies find toilet paper in the dark room...and yes that is me...

The song Let's Do It in the Road by the Beatles is crazy! That is all they say, and "lets do it in the road" could refer to something kinky...

Graduation went well.  itz very surreal...

Singing at church this morning was way more fun than i thought it'd be... (some moshing was involved lol)

The Arthritis Walk was successful. We did a 5K walk! w00t! so i am exhausted...

The Graduation party at Scott and Debi's was AWESOME! ^^ great food (big cake ^^ lol), trampoline, ping pong, numerous other activities, music, and very very interesting and fun ppl!

Tomorrow is the End of the Year recital for all of Donna Shearron's Senior (now graduated) students. It starts at Bell Aire at 6. be there or be L-7! lol

"Choosing only the things you like
isn't irresponsible.
If you can't find anything you like
then why accept the responsibility?
I take only the possibilities that I'm ready to accept."
-Ayu (SURREAL)

I cant wait till summer, thats me and garrett by the way.  lol

Why, why are You still here with me
Didn't You see what I've done?
In my shame I want to run and hide myself
But it's here I see the truth
I don't deserve You

[Chorus:]
But I need You to love me, and I
I won't keep my heart from You this time
And I'll stop this pretending that I can
Somehow deserve what I already have
I need You to love me

I, I have wasted so much time
Pushing You away from me
I just never saw how You could cherish me
'Cause You're a God who has all things
And still You want me

[Chorus:]
But I need You to love me, and I
I won't keep my heart from You this time
And I'll stop this pretending that I can
Somehow deserve what I already have
I need You to love me

Your love makes me forget what I have been
Your love makes me see who I really am
Your love makes me forget what I have been

yeah so i got back from gatlinburg again this weekend...it was fun...we went and got those old tyme photo things...and i got to dress up as a cowboy.....dang i was sexy hahahahah.....yeah right!...dang and i now have six- count them!- SIX 311 CDS!!!!!!! dang im excited...i almost have them all....oh well heheh well im gonna go...bye everyone and stay cool

i think it would be great if life had background music. would you agree?

we went wal mart 5 times!!! who does that?!?!

So I pretty much went muddin' today with Aaron and some other people...and Oh My Goodness...it was SOO much FUN!! It was simply great! I dont think I've had that much fun in a real long time! So thanks Aaron for inviting me.

 

I mean...we are pretty GANGSTER!

phusebox. is useless. i realize this. && yet. i still come here to vent. or whatever. im not really sure. anywayz. thatz not the point. but. im going to vent now. ---
I dislike nameless people and/or personz. have crazy, hypnotic obsessionz && very much need to get over. 'ex-loverz' this pissez me off. even though i really couldnt care for them or their 'ex-lover' you need a life. yes i plan to tell you this. possibly tomorrow??. meet me at skool. ha.ha. i know ill see you. b'cuz thatz the only place i do. except for when my boyfriend seez you at his work. aka. mcdonaldz. basically. the whole overview of this is. if you get dumped on your ass when your 'in love' && it'z been a long time. [weekz/monthz/yearz] && they've moved on. i would bet a million dollarz && my auntz house, carz, && property that they're not coming back. you--go find yourself a lover. have a life.

thank you.

Hey hey hey everyone!! well i am doing good on this pusebox thing..... its a little confusing but i got it!!! lol well iam bored..... so leave me some message things lol what ever u call them

Love,

Candace :)

Yea!!! we did it!! Congratz to all my classmates, it was soo awsome!! and HOT jeez hehe GO 06'!!!!!!

DOODOODOO NOT MUCH GOIN ON... GOT A FUNDRAISER 2NITE SOOO YEAH....5 DAYS OF SKOOL!!!!! ROCK ON!!!!

I had a fun weekend. I went to the women's banquet on Friday night (that was interesting) and then I spent the night at the Lewis's. Went to Oakland's graduation Saturday morning and then went to lunch with the McCann's, Morgans, Lewis's, and Gray's. We went to the Daily Buffet. Mmmm. I then went to Wal-Mart with the amazingly great Mrs. Jeana, Liz, and Beka. Mrs. Jeana bought me a shirt. Yay! We went back to the Lewis's and hung around there and I played with Daniel (the bundle of cuteness) and...yeah, hung out. Then Josh, Liz, Paul, Chris M., Rebecca, Mr. Morgan and I went to the Mellow Mushroom and waited for about 45 minutes for our table, went in and ordered, and then waited another 45 minutes for our food. Rebecca and I split a calizone...it was amazingly yummy.
The graduation banquet is tonight. I'm serving. I love serving, although it is kind of frusturating when you rush to get food to the people and then have to stand around for 5 minutes for the other servers to get their food...it takes a while, but it's fun.
Well anyway, School's almost out!!!! I'm so happy!! It makes me so happy!! I only have english and Algebra 2 to do, and I should be done with those this week! Yipee!!! Hoorah!!
I guess I'll see ya'll tonight.

This is the first time I get to feel old as I pass down wisdom and advice to graduating high school seniors. My first bit is just advice to all in general, and then I want to specifically address those going to MTSU.

And so to all seniors...
1.) Learn about your professors before you take them. This may very well save you.
2.) Don't stress out too much, but do work hard. Study the material in-depth, but don't do it all in one late-night cramming session. You may not do well on your first tests, but be assured that you will eventually do better and your semester grade will probably end up being better than you imagined it would.
3.) Do not go to either of these common-among-freshman extremes: either going wild and crazy, get drunk all the time, and skipping classes; nor fall prey to over-achivement, afraid-you-won't-make-it, gotta study your brains out extreme.
4.) Just because you can skip class, it doesn't mean you should. There are actually some teachers that do require attendance and not attending will greatly affect your grade, and not just because of the information you missed. It is also to your benefit to be in the class and hearing the lecture and taking your own notes instead of copying someone else's later. Many teachers also give students extra credit if they have perfect attendance or if they attend on certain days of the semester. Attendance can make a big difference in what your final letter grade is - trust me.
5.) College tests are different than high school tests. I can't explain it, but you'll experience it and learn to cope with it.
6.) You can change your major - so don't freak out if you change your mind. I have a friend who's the same year as me and she has changed her major four times this year - and that's ok.
7.) College is just different over all. I can't explain this one either. In college, no one is popular. There isn't a bunch of political garbage going on. It's just different. You'll see what I mean when you get there.
8.) Don't be discouraged by a first bad day, week, month, or semester. Give it time to adjust.
9.) Start attending AO on Wednesday nights this Wednesday at 6:00 at the church's pavillion (unless it rains, then in the AO space).
10.) Have fun! Get involved with something! Get plugged into a great college ministry (AO if you're staying here) and find a way to get involved on campus as well.
11.) Facebook is cool. Check it out at facebook.com. If you have a high school account, get a college account.
12.) You can change your schedule around before the semester starts (and for a couple of days after as well).
13.) Don't be afraid of your professors. Most of them are willing to help if you don't understand something, need some extra credit, etc. Just speak up and confide in them, because it works.
14.) People who didn't talk to you in high school may suddenly speak to you if they see you on campus. Count on it.

To those going to MTSU...
1.) Mtsureview.com is your new best friend. Cherish it. But also, evaluate the GPA and absenses missed by those who write the reviews, because some of them are just stupid. Also consult friends. I'll be glad to share about my professors and classes.
2.) Accept now that nothing at MTSU makes sense. Period.
3.) If you hate science, hold out for an astronomy class. Only take geology if you're miserable at science, and if you do, take it with a friend to help you stay awake. Also be sure you take Collins for lab. Don't take biology unless you're required to.
4.) If you can, take honors classes. They're not harder in the least bit. They're smaller and more interesting as a general rule, but it can depend on the professor. A couple of them do take it too seriously or not seriously enough, so be sure to check out your professor before signing up for one.
5.) Make a friend at Customs, otherwise you'll be bored. Just strike up a converstaion with someone and hang out with them. I made a friend at Customs and we still talk to each other.
6.) If you want to challenge yourself in an English class, take Therrien. She's tough but she's amazing. I would take her again in a heartbeat and I hope to one day.
7.) Go to AO. I can't stress it enough.

And for the rising seniors...
1.) High school is overrated but senior year really is great. Make the most of it. Take a zillion pictures to capture it all.
2.) Take a healthy balance of easy classes and harder classes. Don't stress out or freak out too much, especially your second semester. If you can aide, even for just one semester, do it, because it's awesome.

That's what I leave you... take it to heart!

I am

I'm the God above
everyone.
I'm the God you
can't understand,
The one at then
end of all things,
I am the I am that
I am.
I'm the one at the
end of every tunnel.
The lighting on
every hill.
I'm the one who
brought everything to be.
I am the one
bringing all under my will.
I am the one with
an eternity of love,
and even more to
give,
I am the God who
is forever,
And with whom you
will forever live.
I am the one who
loves all,
Even if they feel
unworthy,
I am the God who
couldn't stop loving,
Even if all
disowned me.
I am the God who
couldn't give you enough
To tell you who I
am.
I'm the God who is
over everything
Your will, and
purpose, and plan.
I'm the God who
couldn't stop giving,
Even if I tried,
For I'm the one
who gave such much,
I even came down
and died.
I'm the one over
everything,
I am the one over
every man,
I am the
unthinkable, indescribable, incomprehensible,
I am the I am,
That I am.

For those of you unenlightened as to the true nature of the Spanish Inquisition, I present-

http://www3.youtube.com/watch?v=gldlyTjXk9A&search=the%20spanish%20inquisition

Note: The beginning is a bit messed up but the rest if perfect.

Congratulations

Class of 2006!

Today, I'm in the US (Tenn) with my sons ... and away from my wife and daughters (they are in Angola).  This is a reversal of my normal pattern ..... it is very hard being away from Decy and the girls; I am so use to being with them every day ... they are an integral part of my "daily life".

When I'm with Decy, I think of my sons.  When I am with my sons, I think of Decy and my daughters.  Is that wrong?  No, not necessarily ... as I love all of them.  I do, however, have to remember to enjoy EACH AND EVERY DAY ... to take advantage of all the opportunities to be with the ones I love ... and to trust God to protect the ones who are not with me; and trust I must.

Today I give thanks that there are so many in my family, that we love each other, we respect each other, we enjoy being with each other ..... Blessed is the man who's quiver is full .... and I am truly blessed.

THANK YOU GOD ...

HEY PEOPLE,

I AM MOST OF THE TIME ON MY XANGA
www.xanga.com/iamsoconfused3591

How has everyone been?

I am about to go get ready.

Quick update:

made THIRTY FIVE DOLLARS in 3 hours of babysitting.

I went to the party for 1.5 hours.

 - Jacob

that was the name of my Bible study for may 20.  i thought that was uber awesome. 

so i graduated today.  im done with high school.  totally done.  my moms whole family wen to p. f. changs with us & it was really good & we had a whole lot of fun. 

then i went to go look at that car... & then we bought it!  i really like it.  its a manual so thats gonna be interesting, but i tried driving it for a while & ill manage.  if anyone can drive a stick & would like to lend me a hand that would be much appreciated. 

well after i got home i went to emmy's bonfire & it was lots of fun, just kinda hung around & listened to boys play guitars & sing about kiesha.  so all in all i had a good graduation day! 

So, all I really have to say right now is.....

I LOVE THE CHEESE CAKE FACTORY!!

Every Saturday night the guys and I (Mo, Lance, Jason, Daniel P, and Brooke) go out to eat. Tonight Lance decided we are going to the Cheese Cake Factory since I have never been.. oh my goodness! Good food! I love cheese cake, and they have a really good chicken salad sandwich!

Okay, that's it.... I am off to bed!

i got a new job at fuji. it's weird.. being the only white person... but it's really fun working there. crazy busy but fun.

So I haven't writen on here in a long time.  I just read my last blog and wow I had forgot what I wrote on there.  It is hard to believe that was almost a month ago.  Times flies when well I can't say fun but how about when you work!!  I am living with my sister and it is going well so far.  Here husband is out of town right now so she is acting like the old Mindy that I know.  I like it like this.  Brings back memories of when we both lived at home, and her best friend Allie was always around, and we got along really good.  But anyways not much is going on in my life just work pretty much.  It seems like that is all I do, but hey I guess that it is money, and that is all that really matters!!  Well I am going to head to bed now!! TTYL <3

I know you can't put a price on the love of your family, but it turns out that if you tried to estimate that with graduation gifts the amount would be:  a lot of money.  Quite apart from not being broke anymore, I can now afford that troupe of breakdancing lemurs I've wanted for so long.  In addition to suddenly becoming so wealthy that I plan to finance a panda smuggling operation (buy our stock, we're a sure bet to skyrocket), I also became one of the select few valedictorians to utilize a Johnny Cash quote in their speeches (with the voice imitation, too).  I passed the 2,487 hours that it took to hand out all the diplomas (1 graduation hour = 2,000 normal hours) yelling amusing comments at everyone walking across the stage since I was on the front row up there.  Brian betrayed the school the instant he received his diploma, and is probably plotting a hostile takeover as I type.  Alex Pilote got a new nickname - "ham salad" - which I did not hesitate to yell at him no less than three times.  I gave many post-graduation goodbyes and hugs, the most ironic being Dana (because we're mortal enemies) and Lana (because she is so tall I actually hugged her ankle).  I then rewarded my family for their extraordinary generosity by having Hunter over during the post-graduation party, where he was of course polite, quiet, and subdued (if you did not detect the lies in that sentence, either you don't know Hunter or your IQ is probably in the single digits).  Then my youth minister, David, swung by with his family, and I owned up with his son on Mario Kart (we went 1-0).  The lack of AP Physics and AP English is something too beautiful to put into words, but if anyone were to try to express this feeling, it would probably come out sounding a lot like "Here Comes the Sun" by the Beatles.

Breathe Today by Flyleaf

You can only move as fast as

Who's in front of you

And if you assume

Just like them

What good will it do

So find out for yourself

So your ignorance

Will stop bleeding through

You can breathe today

So many lies swirling

All around you

You're suffocating

The empty shape in you

Steals your breath

You're suffocating

Logic forces me to believe in this

And I have learned to see

And I can only say what I've seen and heard

And only you can choose

And every choice you make will effect you

Search your own self

You can breathe today

So many lies swirling

All around you

You're suffocating

The empty shape in you

Steals your breath

You're suffocating

So many lies swirling

All around you

You're suffocating

The empty shape in you

Steals your breath

You're suffocating

Breathe

Big enough to fill the void that's inside of you

It's just a breath away

So many lies swirling

All around you

You're suffocating

The empty shape in you

Steals your breath

You're suffocating

So many lies swirling

All around you

You're suffocating

The empty shape in you

Steals your breath

Breathe

So many lies swirling

All around you

You're suffocating

Breathe

The empty shape in you

Breathe today

So many things unsaid, spoken by actions,

actions sometimes exhibited by doing nothing.

Does that make me a renegade, or just one that holds things in. 

It's already set, the battle, the war, the defeat, the victory. 

Somebody is always different.  We are never the same,

Someone's heart is crying out, u ganna listen. 

You ganna cry out with them, will you weep with them?

Or just let it roll right off your back. 

Maybe you will pick it up another day.

Christian Valentino Demarino

Born May 20th 2006

4lb 11oz ..... but

he was born realy early...  and now they r holding him in an incubator
in ICU b/c he isnt breathing on his own.... and we dont know for how
long.... these next few hours will be the most crucial.... pray not
only for me.... my family... but mostly for little chris.... my
beautiful baby brother....


proud big sister....tRISH...


on a lighter note... i guess graduation was fun... but i think im sick
... (thanx john) ... so i couldnt yell... at all.... i looked extra
hott though w/ saras cherry dress.... im sooooo freekin proud of all of
the seniors... i cried like a baby!!!! .... "he" was there and we
talked ALOT.... maybe there is something a little more between us then
both of us thought....  i think hes comming w/ me to CT this summer...
well guys i guess im off to bed.... i've had a rough week!! come see
me@ work tomorrow 4-10!!! WOOT   

~tRISH   
 

to begin, a few lyrics:

I am not skilled to understand

What God has willed, what God has planned

I only know at His right hand

Stands one who is my Savior

My God, He loves, my God, He lives

My God is always there for me

My God, He was, my God, He is,

My God is always gonna be...

g-reat song. so. news? not much to speak of. graduation was kinda boring. not too sad, at least not for me. i find it sad that i get attached to new friends right at the end of the year. pretty sure i won't be hanging out with them over the summer. oh well. school is almost out baby! woot! can't wait. but i do need a job...OH! that reminds me, tonight i went to Hastings. WOW! they did a great job remodeling, and their new little coffee shop inside is great! i am officially replacing Starbucks! and is Cocomocha not the best word ever? so, have you ever just wondered if anyone in the entire world has ever had a crush on you? not dwelling, just a thought that crossed my mind earlier today...i guess i wouldn't mind an ego boost...ha.,but it could end up being an ego killer too....hardy har. nayways, i will leave you with one last question: What the heck kinda question is "Have you ever seen me without pants on?" ...(????????) i wouldn't wanna know the answer to that one...much love to all of you! ---Cari

wow it's over it's done no more high school for me. wow it's so crazy to think that i no longer have a high school career. i don't know what life is going tobe life next year but i'm ready to see what my future holds for me.

Grads to everyone who graduated today.I am proud of you all and i wish you the best of luck in the future. if you ever need something i am always here for you all. God Bless!

I love you all!

Leah

well, it's been a while...
although not much has changed...

i still need a job...
badly...


recently, a lot of my friends are graduating...
man, i'll miss them so much.... *sighs*

but yeah, that's about it...
someone needs to call me..
i'm so bored

[[[beccanator]]]

tell me that i was wrong
tell me that i am wrong
even though you don't know my version of him
even though you don't see his thoughts
even though you don't really know me
tell me that i was wrong
tell me that i am wrong
so no one knows either of us
so no one can understand our motives
so no one sees it like me
even though
tell me that i was wrong
tell me that i am wrong
speak to me like you know
speak to me your truth
speak to me how it should be
tell me that i was wrong
tell me that i am wrong
to love a boy like him
to love that boy
tell me that i was wrong
to fall in love
tell me that i am wrong
to be in love

  So tonight is my last night in my apartment. I don't think it has hit me yet that I am really leaving tomorrow. All my stuff is packed, I have said a ton of goodbyes and am getting ready to go to church tomorrow and say good bye to my friends and Skyline Family tomorrow. I don't like saying goodbyes, it was hard enough to say goodbye the other day to my college friends in the city.
I am trying to look past my fears and see what God has for me. God has a plan for me and I want what he has for me more than anything.

yes! today has been soo awesome!   i got to hang out with celia and we went to panera then walked around old navy and shoe carnival.  after she left with her mom i stayed out a bit longer and ended running into amber!! so that was cool.  i was gonna go to the siegel high graduation but my mom didnt want me to.  so after church i went home and cleaned my room, which i am still in teh process of doing.  ah well, as long as its clean by tomorrow at 2!  ( : 

things ive done to avoid cleaning:

eaten waffles

talked on aim

phusebox

im pretty sure id do hw to avoid cleaning.  thats how much i hate it.

so its cool

graduation

erin has a car and a laptop both from dad

(her right tail light is waterlogged though)

i more day of school then the chem exam

monday they announce DM results

i am so anxous

and by the way i think i love you all....alot

-emily

Well, I got sick. It never seems to fail when my parents go out of town. Got a bad cough and i'm coughing up snot...its pretty gross. Today I slept basically the entire day...and i've never done that before. I made the mistake of taking medicine for my cold that made me very drousy...so after I woke up at 1:00 pm I went back to sleep and slept until 5. I don't think i've ever done this much sleeping in one day. Anyway, sorry if I didn't return your phone calls today. I'm losing my voice and you wouldn't be able to understand me very well haha. Parents called today, said they are probably gonna stay in south carolina until thursday, instead of coming home on monday. It doesn't bother me a whole lot I guess, but I am really starting to miss my mom. I'm kind of getting used to being independent and doing my own laundry and scavanging for food lol. I feel like i'm living the college life already, and I still have one year to go before that comes around. Well i'm going back to sleep lol. Congrats to Liz on her new car! Buenos Noches.
         In Christ,
                    Garrett

So things are great.
I like these great boy.
I graduate tomorrow.
woop.

Life's perfect,
I love it.

So Yea...

Tonights Prom and i'm not going...

'Cause I have no friends or a date.

Not like anyone in their right mind would go with me...

So instead I'll sit at home typing stupid blogs into this site that noone will see

...'Cause I have no friends...

Prom Sucks...

Cognition, I guess it is better to say, is not so much flawed as it is limited, and in many ways that is a flaw.
1.  Our senses can only concentrate on so much so that a particular perception, although seemingly complete, can be very incomplete and can give us a distorted view that surprise us to be otherwise.
2.  Our senses have only existed for a short time.
3.  Our senses contradict each other.  Perfect senses would not, as I demonstrated with the 3d movie example.
4.  Our perception cannot collect all information at once.  It  is limited by direction and in scope.
5.  Our thought can contradict our perception
6.  Our perception's ability can change.
There is no right or wrong standard I'm implying here, other than the one relative to one's own perception.  I think 3 is the best example of this, simply for the fact that it distinguishes between an outside standard and an inside standard by stating that our own senses conflict with each other.  Logically, I believe nothing perfect can contradict itself: it must be completely congruent.  But that is another debate.

9.  There is a plane of existence I assume carries on its own existence for simplicity's sake.

**There's some sort of famous rule of logic that says out of two equally explanatory answers, the simplest one is normally correct.

Today I went to Christy Parr and Bradley Byrum's wedding (now Mr. and Mrs. Bradley Byrum).  It made me think a little bit about what I would like my wedding to be like.  I really liked their wedding because it was simple and really down-to-earth.  There were a lot of things that I really liked and some things I would have changed.

I liked how family-friendly the atmosphere of the reception was.  The Bride and Groom toasted on Ale-8s and guests munched on cake, peanuts, mints, and M&Ms.  So simple I loved it.  I also liked the cameras on the tables for memories.  Friends from the B were serving the guests punch and Ale-8.  It was nice.

I didn't like that the Bride did not have a Father/Daughter dance nor did the Bride and Groom have their first dance as a married couple.  Now, I don't necessarily want a dance floor or tons of dancing but I already know what song I want to dance to with my Dad.

I also like that they had a slideshow fo them growing up and then together.  That was really nice.   Bradley also sang a song to Christy and that was sweet.  I think that in the ceremony, I wouldn't change anything.  I liked that they didn't really have ushers.  I liked both parents joining the Bride and Groom at the alter to give each away.  That was cool.

All in all, it was a beautiful ceremony and gave me a lot to think about...not that I'm getting married anytime soon...but every little girl thinks about her wedding day.  So it just got me thinking...