it is officially my birthday in 1 hour and 53 minutes... AUGUST 6TH!!! best day ever!

I'm gonna be out of town tomorrow...b/c I'm doing some serious yardsaling. My mom and me are going to Crossville to go to the Hwy 127 Yard Sale which is the longest yardsale in the country. It goes all the way from Kentucky through TN down to Alabama. I'm excited!

eliz

at some point anyone who is attempting to get their life in line with the divine will of God has to accept the fact that if all you do is try then all you will do is disappoint yourself when you fail. what does it take for a person to fall? to fall completely and unhindered into the arms of God. i want to be able to fully rely on the power of God to handle all of my problems, but because of who i am my pride and ego take over and next thing i know i'm trying to handle things that i do not have any business trying to handle. God created it, so he can fix it, so why can't i let go. not to be trite but is seems i have the 18 inch disease. i know in my MIND all of the things God wants for me, but i don't know how to accept it in my HEART. what's the deal with God giving you a talent that makes it more difficult to accept his help and just blindly trust. i think, i analyze, i ponder, i rationalize, and i over think situations, in the past that has been a blessing because in school and other areas that helps, but when it comes to trusting, especially in something felt not seen, i have extreme difficulty. and i know that God has allowed things to happen in my life just so i would have difficulty trusting, because when we are able to get to that point of acceptance it will make it all the more sweet. however, as a short sighted arrogant boy/man, it dosen't make since to me, but i guess that is the way God wants it to be, if we understood him and his ways then faith wouldn't be as powerful and the relationship wouldn't be built so much on trust and the admittance that by myself i am incomplete and not sufficent, which i dispise, that i'm not good enough, but that is just one of the many characteristics of who i am that God is trying to break and rebuild. on a side note that corresponds to this situation: you know in nativity scenes and pastoral pictures when you see the shepherd carrying a lamb over his shoulders? the reason why he does that is because when that lamb was born he was wayward and tried to stray from the flock so the shepherd physically broke one of the lambs legs and carried the lamb until it healed, and once it healed that lamb would never stray from the shepherd's side, i guess that is what i needed, to get my leg broken by God...

i don't know if it's possible, but, the whipped cream at sonic is better than the whipped cream at starbucks.

Trumpets kick! I was so proud of my my trumpet kids! We put on like 12 sets of drill today and I was really happy! Yaya for band kids!

Now I'm sunny with a high of 75, since you took my heavy heart and made it light!!!

So I promised myself to start writing like I used to on hear, my tohughts, poems, song lyrics, short stories, but I can't, I forgot what I was gonna say.... lol

But I promise, I really did have something worth saying at one time....

But yeah I'm really starting to want to go to school man! Totally, I feel like such a square.... I've just been workin..... at my mom's school and stuff.... but I don't mind so much, and when I'm outside I love it, but I miss my friends a lot....

Gloria Patri
Nathaniel

I get tired of being the nice guy. Honesty is in low demand these days as well, it seems.

I wish I didn't care...

I'm loaded up on medication and should be passing out any minute now. I feel my body getting warm. All I can think about is him. It's amazing how you can miss someone so much when they've only been out of your site a few short hours. I'll miss him next week though. Fo sho' nigga.

I spent two days this week at a teacher-related conference. Most of the information was irrelevant to my profession, but the presenter was very comical. In the midst of a lot of "blah-blah-blah," she put up a cartoon with this quote.
"It's not so much that we're afraid of change or so in love with the old ways, but it's that place in-between that we fear. It's like being between trapezes, it's Linus when his blankets in the dryer - there's nothing to hold onto." - Marilyn Ferguson
It is amazing how much insight one can gain from a drawing of a Peanuts character with a random quote written on it.

Is it stupid of me to keep thinking that maybe,just maybe,he'll realize what he's lost,and he'll give me a second chance?

=\
I hope he does.
Kayla.

Thanks to all those who prayed for us as we went to Paint the Town last week! If you would like to know in depth of what happened check out some of our phusebox's!! hope you all have a great week! -proxy 521 ministries

i swear, the person in the picture isn't me.
and i can't get it to change.
weird.

photo from Trademarkofdoom

This is my vehicular transport for the majority of my junior year. I like to call it: coolness on wheels. Don't you agree?

I actually did two hoods today, go me! For those that don't know ((which is probably most)), "doing the hood" consists of taking the fluid samples-- engine oil, power steering, coolant, and transmission--, checking the air filter, and adding washer fluid. Then Alex ((head floor manager dude)) made me show the clipboards to the customers-- that was entertaining for him to watch, I'm sure.

. . . now I'm in serious need of a shower.

There's a slight chance plans for Tuesday won't completely pan out, but I'll keep y'all updated.

Hmm. . . what else. OOH! I rearranged my room all by myself yesterday! I'll have pictures up once I've gotten everything
back where it belongs.

((edit))

Ugh. I really annoy the crap out of myself by doing the same thing over, and over, and over. I'll make all these preconcieved notions about other people, say judgemental things about them when BAM, I was wrong all along and it shows up right in my face. Eh. I'm sorry. I suck.

so here i sit. bored and dying to escape. there are soooo many people...and i only know a few. so picture it: a lot of italians, notherners, loud talkers, and a bunch of people drinking. yeah, that pretty much sums it up. BUT! i am going to have a positve attitude, because God can always use me! i just got to let his light shine through me! yay for God!

God has blessed me though. i was very discouraged from all the weird looks i was getting from family members when i was talking about what i want to do in the near future. silence and side glances was all i was getting on the subject all day. so as i was walking inside, extremely discouraged, i prayed for God to help me and remind me that i must let his light shine. then i sat down at the table and started talking to my 3rd cousin (haha that whole family thing is funny) anywho, she wanted to hear about my plans. so i told her and she was so excited. she felt a joy in her heart and told me i inspired her. God spoke through me to her! it was great! and that also encouraged me and helped me realize my passions. God is so good. and so as i type this i feel God telling me, 'child don't waste your time in here, God spread my light, joy, love, and hope.' yep, so i bid you goodbye all my faithful phuesbox readers. pray for me, this is hard. and for other issues that satan is throwing at me-my insecurity! blah on satan!!! haha. have a great night!!!

hey whats up well this past 2 weeks i have been going to band camp so i couldnt get on much but now i can lol. man there is already sooo much drama and thats just in band lol man its going to suck when skool starts if a whole bunch f drama starts but o well. umm today was the last day of band camp and the seniors like rolled the skool lol it was pretty funny but ya im going to go now ttyl peace

JR!!

im new at this and i dont know very many people! school starts in like 5 days summer was boring and i am looking forward to middle school! woo woo! i would like remarks please! and thank you!!
B.

thank god.

i don't think i have slept well these last two weeks...not once.
hm. no more six flags.
so instead. come to the carwash on church street. for band. advanced auto parts. 9:30 to 2:00,sat. (i think?) donations. [[are required]]

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becca came over last night.
we hung out with the guys.
and went ding dong ditching.
it was quite an excitement, but we didnt get chased, so that was a bummer.

my sister and her friend decided they would play a prank on us by hanging all of our thongs around my room.
we had all these crazy ideas thought up and given to us, but they locked their door.
so then we got them back by putting vasaline on the door handles to wake up to the next morning.

then they put vasaline on the toliet seat, thinking they could get us back.. but never did.
little girls, i tell you what.

carolines coming over tonight.
we are either goin to that fair thing.
or out with jordan, john ellis, and patrick to cause more mischief in the neighborhood.

im out.

i like it alot. but it gets so hot upstairs and then at night its like below zero up here, so who knows. im going to dye some sheets today with amara and tina. that should be fun. i cant believe school starts next week. thats insane. oh well-ive had a good summer. a little less eventful than i though, but still it was good all in all.
bye =)

i was bored and though i would right on here i like phuse box better i mgiht start writing on here again but idk o well we will find out!evry1 have a great day!ttyl bye
pat

i really should put pictures up in hurr.
but i am wayy to friggin lazy. oh well. later.


the jack johnson cd is..
...scrumtrellescent.
go buy it.

I only worked four hours today seating people, but dammit if I'm not tired.

Swing music at the square. For weeks I was labouring under the delusion that it was a dancin' event. Apparently it's just a concert, but I get the distinct feeling it's not going to end that way. Mwaha.

I hate it when people know the value of the stuff they're hawking on eBay. Most are just slapping on $10 prices right 'n' left, but nooo. Some have to be informed and do research, making it impossible to take advantage of them. Sigh. Foiling my subversive bidding methods once again.... "No rest for the wicked," as Leland put it.

I'm off to take a break from being wicked. Blahh.

I like this quote by Steve Jobs:

"Be a yardstick of quality. Some people aren't used to an environment where excellence is expected." -Steve Jobs

Not kidding, this may be the coolest thing I've ever seen.

Surfing for Him. . . awesome!

http://www.surfingthenations.com/

Below is a link about this ministry. This story ran in the New York Times.

http://www.theocracywatch.org/rel_inst_hawaii_times_june1_05.htm

hmm....

Today I was cleaning out from under the bed. I pulled out some sports tape and a practice jersey. That was the most I had missed football. I smelt the tape, and brought back good memories.

Edit:

So I realized that I was just sitting around, and my little bros were just sitting around. Then I realized that I wanted to see The Dukes of Hazzard, and my little bros wanted to see The Dukes of Hazzard. Later on, halfway through the movie, I realized that the movie was good, but didn't hold a candle to the tv show, and my little bros had never seen the tv show. Finally on the way home I realized how much I appreciate Jessica Simpson, and my little bros had the same feelings.

So as I was cleaning out my desk i found a poem that I had written down sometime during high school about friends. I didn't right it, so don't think i did....LOL!!

Friends
Why do we value friendship so much?
Because we cannot live without it!
A friend provides a shoulder to cry on,
A smile and a hug to cheer you up.
Having someone you can truly call "friend" is the greatest joy in life.
NOt only do you have a companion,
BUt a supporter too.
Friends are not just simply people we share interests with.
They are people who make us feel happy to around.
Thank you to all my friends, who are there for me.


That is such an awesome poem..It says everything that a friend is..And that is what all my friends have been..So thank you soo much to all my friends!! I love you all!!!

It's been 4 days since we got back from Paint the Town. Already the allure of laziness has matriculated down upon me. Forming a weighty puddle upon my body I, praise Jesus, shook it off yesterday. It's good to be dry. Wiping myself off I write this blog.

What can I report back to you, the reader, of what happened at Paint the Town? I can only tell you of what I experienced. My eyes were my camera and these words are the footage of my account of what God did through others and through me.

God is in control. His hands are on the steering wheel. He is the Commander in General, the President, the Architect, and the Director of ALL directors. This meaning that He is in the process, has been in the process, and will continue to be in the process of rescuing people from sin for His glory. The part that we as a team played to bring about His glory was to tell people what He is and has been and will be up to. Enter my conversation with, Tony. The guy in the picture I'm with below.



photo from clint
This is Tony and I talking about his life at the Block Party at Paint the Town.

Tony's story is that like many people you might know. Put in the person your thinking off in place of Tony and I'll bet that you've heard of his story before. Tony is from the Bronx. Born and raised. 37 years old and missing freedom in Jesus Christ by 18 inches, that is from his head to his heart. He knows about God, prays, has a roserary, says all the right things but can't say that he puts his life and trust and hope in the Son of God, Jesus Christ. See his father died 5 years ago and at the height of his grief his long time girlfriend and mother of his child decides to leave him along with their baby. Why? Because he, "needed to f****** hurry up and get over his sadness and f***** move on," Tony's girlfriend told him. This is the point where you probably are villianizing his girlfriend. DON'T! Before you read on please pray for her and ask that God would break her of her selfishness and come to know Jesus.

Don't read on until you pray for her.

That situation was 5 years ago. Today Tony is back on his feet. He is living with his Mom and has a job and wants to be there for his son, Tony Jr. (6 years old). He also wants his girlfriend back too. However, she wants Tony back but has another guy on the side who she sees as well. Tony is driven and focused on one thing...to win back his old girlfriend by getting a better job and better car. Thus, showing that he is capable of supporting his son and her. That is a good goal to have. Realistic and obtainable. When I asked Tony about what would happen if doesn't work out the way he wants it to he replied, "It's okay I'll still support my son. If it don't work out then God has other things for me." Tony is your sterotypical tough spirited, resilient New Yorker from the Bronx. His refusal to lay down and be defeated inspired me. Then God led me to ask him this question, "Tony, how do you get that strength, where does it come from?" Tony said, "It's how we was raised as kids. See I'm know lazy ***. My kid won't have no dead *** father for a father." "Tony, do ever get tired of being strong?" I said. "It's hard sometimes, yeah." I then told him about my life and the trials I went through and how Jesus lifted me up and rescued me and that He wanted to do the same for him too. Tony just shook his head to affirm me. I have never wanted anyone to "get it" more than I did for, Tony.
As our conversation closed after about an hour and a half Tony said some things that I will never forget. "Clint, you are different. I never told these things to anyone else before. I don't have any friends to tell the things I told you about. Thanks man for listening to my ****. Means a lot that you a stranger, some guy from Tennessee would want to listen to me a guy from the Bronx about his problems." Praise our King that He gave me the words to speak to Tony. Praise our Father that He gave me the love to listen to, Tony. Before we went our seperate ways Tony hugged me. It was a hug that had within it so much hurt and pain. I felt as if it had been a long time since someone had hugged him before. It was in that moment that it hit me about the seriousness and magnitude of how important it is to show Christ to EVERYONE. You never know when God will place in your path someone who is hurting and needs to receieve a touch from Jesus. I pray that you will be on the lookout for a "Tony" and love on that person as you yield yourself and heart to Jesus (John 3:30, John 15:5). "Make the most of every opportunity" (Col. 4:5) for His glory (1 Cor. 10:30) my friend.

photo from ValPal8605

Yeah, so Im retarded... actually Im gonna go with extremely understanding and forgiving. Bottom line, I really really really really like him, and techincally I cant get too mad cause I did the same thing to him. So we are puting all this mess behind us and just forgeting about it :-) . He is such a great guy, my little tomato lol. So yeah things are actually better than before if possible, and hes home for good in what 10 days now? heck yes!!! Oh heres a pic of al, sara, and stephen... hes just such a cutie!!!



photo from ValPal8605

I have the most useless job ever... but that's okay. At least i have one. This week has been incredibly uneventful so far, and i'm ready for the weekend. I'm sleeping tomorrow. That's as far as i've gotten on saturday plans. If you recognize me or something... i need friends! my friends list is kinda scarce so befriend me please! Thank ya!

Yeah so....Amanda isnt in town. : ( But Michael's back! WOOT! Possibilities have arisen! YAY!

oh man... The Great Gatsby is so good! wow. great book.

i think i might go up to band camp again today... but i really don't know their schedule, so i might not see them. whatever. and tonight i get to go to work at HT, and i'll be better, so it'll be that much more fun! tee hee.

but um... i don't really have much to write.

geez my life's boring...

{edit} my Sims2: Nightlife horoscope just reinforces that i need clothes...

Libra
Ah, life. What is it all about, anyway? You've been waxing philosophical of late, and that's getting you down in the doldrums. It's time for a change. That could mean anything from a new snakeskin jacket to a whole new life aspiration devoted to the pursuit of pleasure.

"The glory of God is man fully alive." -Saint Irenaeus

"...that you may love him with all your heart and with all your soul, and live." -Deut. 30:6b

"See, I set before you today life and prosperity..." -from Deut 30:15

To be fully alive is to fully love God. When we fully love God, His glory is revealed. Therefore, to be fully alive is to reveal God's glory. When we follow Him and love Him, we fully live because He directs in our paths what it takes to live life fully for Him.

So...

Tonight is that swing music concert thing on the Square. Garrett and I are going... it should be fun! Also, we should all do something tomorrow night. Anna and I have been talking about it... any suggestions?

Mom said we might get a car for her and then I would get hers... that would be amazing. I love the 2000 black Toyota Camry with spoiler... But right now, anything decent and running would be nice...

Mom and Dad went and ate Chinese for lunch today. My Dad brought home a fortune cookie for me and this is what it said: "This is a good time to consider formally helping others."

Hmmm... interesting...

i want a green shirt that says im wearing green. KAPOW

school starts in a week..
i'm so excited.. not for all the schoolwork & what not..
but i want to see all my friends again!

"nothing new"
ashlee simpson

I found myself wrong again
Starin out my window
Wonderin what it is I should have said
I found myself at home again
Waitin for the after call
From a fallout that feels like such a mess

Ohhhh I can only be myself
I'm sorry that's hell for you
Heyyy so what's my damage today?
Don't let me get in your way
Let it out like you always do
The trouble between me and you
Is nothing new

So I listen to you complain and then
I bite my tongue in vain again
As I let it all just slowly settle in
Such a pretty picture that you paint
I'm so vile while your a saint
Funny how your eyes see thick not thin

Ohhhh I can only be myself
Your lookin for someone else
Heyyy so what's my damage today
Don't let me get in your way
Let it out like you always do
The trouble between me and you
Is nothing new

You know how to give it but you can't take it
It's all just a waste now you can save it
No matter what I do
Is never good enough, never good enough

Heyyy so what's my damage today
Don't let me get in your way
Let it out like you always do
The trouble between me and you
Is nothing new
Is nothing new

Save your breath cause here comes the truth
I'm over the drama of you
And that's something new

Well I'm starin' out my window
Wonderin' what it is I should have, said

...that I actually am entering something on my blog! Anyway, I just finished eating, and I'm about to go to my 400th meeting this week! I am SO TIRED of meetings, and for those of you who know me well...you know what I mean!

Well, I just wanted to say hello to everyone. Write or call me! Love you guys...

goodness...this has been a longggg week, but now it seems like it went in the blink of an eye.
JROTC camp was all week, and i think it went very well. rifle team is going awesome, but it's stressful being the commander and not knowing exactly what needs to be done.
i hope ya'll have a wonderful weekend! and be safe

One more week left of summer.
I'm gonna make it the best week possible.

This has been a good couple of days.
Lets see..
Monday: cc practice, stayed home to do summer reading all day.. didn't do any of it.
Tuesday: cc practice, then out to breakfast w/ berry, lambo, and reese. we head up to cool springs for a while. then come back and play a killer game of doubles tennis! Then that night went out w/ kels looking for the Shawn McDonald cd... didn't find it.
Wednesday: cc practice, laid out at kels's pool, then went up to franklin and played ultimate frisbee w/ some church ppl
Thusday: cc practice, went to school to help w/ Ren. stuff for a bit but really just helped lamb w/ Student Council. went and saw Must Love Dogs w/ kelsey.
Today: cc practice--we played ultimate frisbee oh yes! we kill at that game i love it. getting ready to go up to franklin to lay out w/ holly. then come back to the boro and kick it w/ kelsey.


ahh i love the summer so so much.

thursday i finally read a summer reading book, Raisin in the Sun. it was gay gay. but i just sat down and read it in 3 hours.



I'll be in Atlanta Tues-Fri of next week.
so since i'll be gone on the half day.
i found out my schedule!
:Schedule:
1. Journalism - Walker (formerly mcgonigal ..psh)
2. *Media Production* - Mac
3. Adv. Hon. Spanish III - ? .. i forgot
4. AP US History - Johnson
5. AP English III - Thomason
6. General Music - ? .. is it Patton?

**once you get your schedule... comment and tell me how many classes we have together!!
..do you see that?! no math or science!!

but yeah i'll be off in atlanta w/ the family.
we'll do like back to school shopping
and go to white water atlanta. yess!



we're having cc practice at 6:45 next week.. soo crazy!!.. i'll die.
thank goodness i'll only be able to go to mondays!!

Today is Tyler's Birthday!

so yesterday was really really sad!! guard is goanna be completely different without kayla!! and i mean completely!!

i got my hair cut and it is sooooo cute!!! i LOVE it!!!! i will put a pic up here soon when i take a pic!! haha

bandcamp is next week... cant say im as excited about it after yesterday but it will still be fun!! just different!! so i guess thats it

so. last night i watched Stand By Me with my mom. that movie is freakin hilarious. and i'm sorry to say that if i was twelve, i would date Corey Feldman in that movie. but oh well. still working on my school crap. oh yeah. so last night, the hysterical conversations on Stand By Me evoked thoughts of other hilarious convos in other movies...such as the asexual Smurfs convo in Donnie Darko. or the bulimia convo in Zoolander. or the conversations between Cletus and the grandma on Nutty Professor 2. so many funny conversations. nayways. Fahrenheit 451 is a really good book man. i love Ray Bradbury. Silas Marner needs to die. I think i'm giving up and going solely on Sparknotes. soap operas are funny. "Oh Stone! I love you! But i can't have you! Because....YOU'RE MY BROTHER!!!!!!!!". ha. watched a really gay movie called Fear X yesterday. it was all like, good and suspenseful, and then the ending just sucked. i'm still at a loss as to what happened. so. have you ever had something that wasn't really your problem bother you at length? that's what's happnin to me lately. like, i have a friend who i thought was doing something wrong, but they told me that they weren't... and i believe them, but it's still bothering me. and i just don't know what to think. it's very disenchanting when everyone but you seems to be doing all this stuff. and when a lot of the time, it's stuff that they know is wrong. i becomes hard to stand your ground. and that's another facet of my life in which it would be nice to have a best friend. but i don't. and that sucks.

Ultimate frisbee is fun...ultimate frisbee with mostly strangers..even more fun..

okay okay I got to the hair coloring finally.
I have the pictures over there in my album.
tell me which you like better
I can always go back to black ahaha.

five more days of summer.
& I feel like I havent done anything. :/
have you ever had a summer like that?
I mean I am hardly at my house
but, I dont know.
I feel like I havent done anything exciting
cept going to ohio of course
at least I am going white water rafting in sept.
me & Josh are gonna rock that trip ahaha.

I'll let ya go.
see ya kids. < 3
hugs for you. heh
Jamie

I got my driver's permit yesterday! whoop.

Capitol Swing, including me, is playing in the boro's square tonight at 7. if you like big band music, come check it out. it's free admition! God Bless.

i
really
really
really
really
really
really
really
dont
want
to
go
back
to
school.

Guess who just bought a humongous box of chalk on sale.

Oh and since the last entry confused you guys quite a bit, I'll give you an explination. I watched the movie Almost Famous. I only wish I could see my entire future by listening to a cd.

As you all might now MTSU is having faith and family day this year on september 17th. they have finally realesed who is in concert and it is building 429. this is going to be an awesome concert you will not want to miss. i have seen these guys in concert and they are excellent!!!!

whew. yesterday was crazy! so after my parents got off from work, we went to the airport. our flight left at 4pm, and we were pushing it leaving at 2:30. when we got there the long term parking lot was full. so we had to drive around the circle thing, back around to the economy lot. which was extremely full as well. so then we had to wait for a shuttle for about 10 minutes. we finally got in the airport...we tried to do the electronic thing, but because we were there 20 MINUTES before our flight was going to leave we were unable to. so the lady behind the desk said we would not make our flight and was being sooo rude! but after her being so slow we got our bording passes. then of course the security line was long. after that we had to RUN! our gate was at the very end of the hall...it was straight out of a movie. the plane had already begun to pull away. i just sat on the floor, expecting to have to wait until a later flight, then the lady asked if there was anyone left. so then, she says "the last three passengers have arrived". so we had to run OUT to the plane. everyone was waiting on us. it was crazy! and it did not stop there. when we got to D.C the were calling for me over the intercom. apparently i dropped my id. it was insane. then flew to philly, then to maryland. where my grandparents picked us up, to drive 30 minutes to delaware. and that was even a crazy trip with my pop-pop driving!!! whew. i am glad to be able to relax a bit. which won't be much, we have a big party tonight, then my aunt's wedding tomorrow.

but i miss all my wonderful friends! i feel like i haven't seen you guys in forever because of being gone to NY and now here. but you guys can call me, it won't be a problem, TRUST ME! i hope everyone has a great day!!!

"What God calls us to cannot be definitely stated because His call is simply to be His friend to accomplish His own purposes. Our real test is in truly believeing that God knows what He desires. The things that happen do not happen by chance- they happen entirely by the decree of God. God IS sovereignly working out his own purposes. If we are in fellowship and oneness with God and recognize that He is taking us into His purposes, then we will no longer strive to find out what His purposes are." -Oswald Chambers
that is awesome! God is teaching me to trust and wait for Him. He will lead me where I need to go in the right time.

When I wander through the desert
And I'm longing for my home
All my dreams have gone astray
When I'm stranded in the valley
And I'm tired and all alone
It seems like I've lost my way

I go running to Your mountain
Where your mercy sets me free

(chorus)
You are my strong tower
Shelter over me
Beautiful and mighty
Everlasting King
You are my strong tower
Fortress when I'm weak
Your name is true and holy
And Your face is all I seek

In the middle of my darkness
In the midst of all my fear
You're my refuge and my hope
When the storm of life is raging
And the thunder's all I hear
You speak softly to my soul

There are so many times when I forget that God has an unbelievable plan for me! It's so easy to forget that God has this incredible life planned for us, and we want to take over because we lack in trusting God, or we don't like the direction he is taking us. In my life lately, God has been really breaking me, and taking me in a direction I'm scared of. He's bringing a storm into my life, and I'm so afraid of being broken. But what I realize even though this brokenness is headed for my heart is that I become more intimate with God and I am strengthened because of the storm. We all need to trust God with our lives because we should all remember that he orchestrates all things for our good, not our harm. Even though I'm going through a time where I don't understand things, I know the overall plan will be so incredible. Even though I remain in the dark about so much, God simply wants me to stop and listen to his still voice. I know that if I finally stop and listen to his voice he will invite me to a call of intimacy. God desperately longs for a deeper relationship with us, and if we just give Him the time of day, he will blow our minds with his loving and eternal characteristics. Remember that just because the world tells you God's intentions for your life aren't good, doesn't mean that it's true at all. God wants to be our refuge and our strength. He wants to provide a road that very few will follow, but I pray that all of us will discover that narrow road. Passionately travel it, because in the end the only road existing will be the road you and God are standing on. How exciting to know that our Father loves us that much!

so i go out to get in the truck this morning and there's a desert lizard in my seat. how he got in there is beyond me. i gathered from all the hissing and snapping that he doesn't like people too much. another day in the desert.....
no good, no bad, just another day.
no emails, no messages, hmph

jolar mcnrperga0p;[l'IJMPMGjen riepa


^ that was me falling asleep on the key board






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I think I just had the worst dream I have ever had.

every house has monsters. there is one in the dryer that steals one sock to make lots of mismatched pairs. there is the one in the fridge b/c our parents(or us for that matter) cooked something so long ago the food item is unidentifiable.

then there is the monster under the bed. Maybe children are afraid of this monster b/c of all the junk they shove under there to hide from mommy's and daddy's. Stuff goes under our beds never to be seen again. . .that is, until you decide you're moving to florida

I promise that i've cleaned out under my bed at least once or twice in the last 6 months. I guess it was never good enough, because the monster under my bed had my cordless phone, and he suddenly decided to regurgitate it.

gah.

just got home from work...kinda. after work, amber and i went to dancin in the district to hear john legend or something and he was amazing! saw jason and joel polk and kyle scoble there...they sat right in front of us! but my feet huuuuuuuurt walking all that way. then we went and did kareoke with mark and some people...mark and i sang 2 duets - let's make love which we were good at (ha!) and come what may from moulin rouge...yeah the 2nd one was a buuuuuuuum buuuuuuzz! we have to work on that one! anyways, now that i have HUUGE blisters on my feet, i'm going to bed. g'night world!

okay if anyone can help me, i am having trouble with my ipod. i was listening to it in my car and i went to go change the song and all of a sudden it froze. The screen is still lit and the name of the song is still on there but I can't do anything to it. So if any of you guys know what to do then please help me. thanks

So I'm seventeen,
It's just a number to me,
Still growing, Still living,
And still just as confusing.

Though I've been here,
For a long time - it may seem,
I've still spent most my time,
Just simply learning to Breathe..

It's almost sad..
I've just barely begun to live.

All week I have basically been hanging out with Courtney, and I have had a total blast. This morning we woke up early around 9 and went to Riverdale t check our Senior schedules!!! :) heh. We got some awesome classes :D
Life is going great. I love life. I couldnt ask for a better one. I thank God everyday for everything and all
my friends! ((i love you all)).
Gotta clean&wakeup early for Working ALLL day but I get to see Brian :D..lol..

x3iloveyoux3

ix3rasmus.avengedsevenfold.stereophonics.

okay...so now that i have broken my cell phone and all have now relized the people i miss the most...well one of those people had 2 pics on my phone and his number...i relize how much i miss this guy callin me and stuff even tho he has a gf and tryina git me to go over to my friends house [he friends wiht her bro]...and yah so i mean when im around him i feel all weird and idk he makes me feel soo good! and like idk its really weird...oh and my friends brother is outta the hospital...i was so worried about him..!...he fell outta the back of a truck so sad gah hes so stupid! but i love hima nyways...but okay the main point in this entry is taht as soon as i git my phone replaced tomorrw i think ima go to my friends and hopefully this guy willl be there adn git pissed that his pics and # aitn in my phone no more and put them back in...wish me luck with this one yall...hes a really good sweet guy*!!
♥cammie

i'm back! i feel like it has been years since i've posted (well it has been over a month...wait what is today...i don't know...anyway). so camp is over and i'm back in my fun apartment next to campus. my roommate doesn't get back until school starts so i have the place to myself (sniff sniff...i'm lonely!). monday i fly to new york (upstate) to visit my grandparents, so i will be sure and wave at nathan as i fly over him.
something cool...i was offered an internship at my church (the river community church) under the family ministries pastor, and of course i accepted! i'm a little nervous about it because i have no idea what i'm doing. all of my jobs are listed for me, but i just feel clueless. oh well, i guess with any new job that is natural. i am still working at poet's about 10-15 hours a week, planning a convention, and going to school full time (ahhhhhhh what am i doing???) everything will taper off as the year winds down, and even more as i approach graduation in may. i have really been feeling that God wants me (at least for now) to just wait on him about plans after graduation. i have no doubt in my mind that he has called me to full time ministry eventually (with nursing?), but i don't know anything else! for the FIRST time in my life, i don't have a plan. i'm waiting on God.
i still feel as though i am hanging on to a brick wall with my fingernails...one wrong move and i fall and tear my nails too. hmm strange comparison...
well, i guess i'll go to bed now. busy day tomorrow.

i wish guys were even HALF as into me as i'm into them.....

erk... stupid males.

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in other news:
went to the mall today with carly and ryan and had a blast

ryan wouldn't let me pay him back for my chai late
nor would he let carly pay for her shirt.

we sat on benches and people-watched. we made fun of people's clothes and made up stories about their lives. that's always fun times.

grilled cheese at our daily bread is goood. you should get it ^_^

i got a hott yellow choker (with big, round yellow beads) loooove

afterwards, me and my mommy went to starbucks where i got yet ANOTHER coffee.. i'm spazzy now.

uhh... yeah... i realized probably no one cares.
later


abbs



photo from SeeRockCity

look what RED made for moi!!!

Yay for having more money in my account then i thought! But not much more.

Today i cleaned the upstairs a little bit, then i went to the bank to deposit a paycheck. I went to Music&Arts and they fixed my guitar... for 3$. Pretty sweet huh? All i had to do was get a string fixed and it tuned, but still. Then i went to the cosmetic market and got my favorite lipgloss. yay for DuWop Lip Venom. Then i went to work.

If you had to lose one limb, which would it be, and why?

precamp this week...band camp next week...helping with precamp was fun...actually having to stand at attention and hold my horn up and all that stuff...not so much.

i got sick today. i had to go home. i felt like such a wimp...

happy birthday to...me! j/p THANK YALL SOOOO MUCH for the birthday wishes! you guys are awesome!

Well keepin this post short and sweet...partially cuz im too tired to write much and/or theres not much to be said in a short post, I Love You! Sweet dreams and ADIOS!

The show is on Saturday, doors open at 7:00 and it starts at 8:00, and it's 5 dolla each. And our band is playing freaking FIRST. so if you come, you can't be late, or you've missed it hahaha. oh yea, and it's at tucker theatre. and just remember they're begginner bands... so they'll prolly suck. BYE!

I need to find a roomate!! NOW! I don't think I can handle it anymore!!

I was riding my bike to my friend Jessica's at 9 tonite. Matt was ridin my bike so I rode his sisters walmart bike. Right when I started gaining speed and moving, the gear fell out and it started sliding. It slid sideways and I slid along the pavement for about 6 feet or somethin. I was goin pretty fasr and it hurt like crap. I got a huge bruise on my thigh, a burn patch and a few layer thick cut into my leg, and a crazy scratched up elbow. We got the rocks out at least! I feel stupid. I didnt cry though., even though this was one of my worst accidents.
Other than that today-
- I went to Bentley's and we worked on the math packet for algebra 2 honors. Its stupid but we cut up a lot so that it wasnt so bad. We have to work again tommorrow and the next day.
- I almost finished A walk across America!
- I played video games.
- I got my TI-83.

Im goin to bed now.
Comment me and Ill get ya back soon.
- J 4 ( () 8

Well, I am siting at Austin's computer right now and decided to make a post. Things have been going good latley. I just got back from NYC and Paint the Town. It was great, the things I saw there. Thank you to everyone who was praying for us while we were up there. God really moved in some amazing ways. I know that he had me there for a reason. Despite the fact I didn't really want to be go in the first place..... Anyways all in all it was a good trip. I have been confused about so so so many things latley. I am so lost and not sure of where to go next. During the trip though I could really feel God was moving in my heart.... You know it really amazes me that God never turns from us. No matter how much I strugle to get away. No matter how mad I get. No matter how stuburn I am. When I turn back to the only thing I know is true, He is always right there. Though I don't deserve His never failing love He never wavers. It is so awesome!----- Well me and Austin are fixin to watch a movie so im gonna go but until next time I hope whoever reads this in some way is blessed. Peace Out!

Be joyful always. Never stop praying. Give thanks in all circimstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ. 1Thes. 5:16-18

OMG BUSTED LIP!!!!

I Realize....

that i can't take the past five minutes back or the past three years back for that matter...but i also realize that i can make the next five minutes or three years worth living for.....

i've come to realize that life is to short to take everything sooo seriously....life is too short not to have fun and just kick it with the girls....or anyone for that matter....life is to short to not have fun and just be yourself all the time no matter what....

i've come to realize that you can't conform to the ways of the world and expect to be happy....you must be true to yourself in order to get what you want out of life.....

ive come to realize that you can't regret what you've done in th past....but that you can change with your acts of the present and future....

ive come to realize that life is precisous and you must make the best of it in order to be truly happy.....

ive come to realize that you don't always need a guy in your life to make you happy...just great friends and people who love you!!!!

guys today was an awesome day and an eye opener for me so many things went on in my head today that i just can't describe it all...it's amazing....wow!!! i hope someday you guys will realize what i did today that life is so live it up!!!!

I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!(you don't even know)
GOD BLESS!!!!
Love Always!!!
Leah

Hey guys well today was just like every other day this week I had volleyball and work... Work was fun untill I was asked to take out the trash by the pool and the bag like ripped and had water and like diapers with crap on them in it and it busted all over my foot so I then had to get a bigger trash bag to put it in and then drag it out to the trash. After that I had to put Clorox on the pool deck and on this litte like pool cover thing cuz the crap and water had gotten on it and trust me the smell of Clorox and crap stinks! So yeah I was cleanin out the trash can that it all was in and it like sprayed up into my face so I got in the car and I was so mad and disgusted that I just like started cryin lol Oh and did I mention that the diapers had like magots or little white worms on it?

Home, sweet home.

But I can't really enjoy it because I have two unread summer reading books staring me in the face right now.

But I'm home nonetheless.

Missed you guys.

Alright, fine. Job first. My interview was not so much the,

"Well tell me a little about yourself, Sarah. What will make you an asset to my company?"

and more the

"Thanks for coming out today, Sarah. Okay, what I want you to do today is blahblahblah... Christi can show you how."

*Mrs. Singletary leaves*

"Soooo, Christi. Think I got the job?"

"Uhhh... YEAH."

So I am employed. $6 an hour. Screen printing. Cleaning. Babysitting. Hanging out with a ton of good friends. It's all gravy, baby.

Now... Mark says WHAT? He's positively mad, I tell you. Mark [Raider Team CO, my company CO, and the object of my obsession hormonal desire] is setting up a rope bridge for the cadet freshies to play on tomorrow. At the AAR [After Action Review] today, Colonel asked if he wanted anyone specific to be assigned to him.

At first, it made sense. All very active Raiders. All people who had been on the team for years.

Jake Durant, Joseph Barron, and Amber Burgess.

He needed another girl to help the fresh-women to put their swiss seats on. Kristin Michaels [who is one of those hardcore Raider for two years people] volunteered to do it.

Oh, but no.

He says, "Aaaaaand... Vermillion."

*blink blink*

Mark says WHAT?

"Uhhh, honey? I don't know how to do anything with a rope bridge, I'm not on Raiders, remember."

"Then we'll have to teach you, won't we?"

*blink blink*

I don't know a swiss seat from the swiss alps. I am the ONLY person assigned to run the rope bridge tomorrow that is NOT a Raider.

PURE INSANITY, I tell you.

Now, I know what all my friends who want to keep my spirits up are thinking, "Aww, it's just because he likes you and he wants to see what you look like tied up."

But I know better... I know it's one of the following things: a. he's making a last ditch effort to recruit me for Raiders [has been trying for two years - not happening, I am the anti-raider] or b. he is trying to punish me for harassing him and giving him hell all week.

. . . or c. being outdoors all day having to listen to retarted freshmen has rotted the three brain cells he has left and he has gone truly mad.

tonight was my lazy night...i needed it!!! sorry for tha ppl that wanted me to do something!!! lol!!! i felt like being a bum!!! lol!!!

i just got done reading "He Chose The Nails" by Max Lucado...that book is amazing!!! i recommend it!!! lol!!! i learned soo much through that book!!!

For all at once all sin is atoned for on the cross, the entire Fall is erased, and the whole obligation to Satan, and the entire sentence passed upon the Fall of Adam is torn up, cancelled, and annulled by the nails of Jesus.
~Count Niklolaus Ludwig Von Zinzendorf

"Christ is King" no matter what language you Speak
~Max Lucado

so much is going on in my life at tha moment...God has shown me new things and still hasnt answered some things but i have patience for those things!!! its insane but what God has been telling me is wonderful!!!!

Love Through Christ!!!
~Rachel~

i keep getting dizzy when i stand up...but it doesnt hit immediately....it waits until im about 20 steps from anywhere to sit down!!!! ugh...work through the dizziness...

-kurma looks like poop
-mushrooms taste like poop
-the subway smells like poop
-jazz sounds like poop

and the NAMB monthly report is POOP

thank you, thank you, that's all...

so this weekend i get to go to the glorious gatlinburg!! funfun.....not realy.......i'm not really that big of a fan of gatlinburg.....partially b/c i'm not into shopping.....and that's pretty much all there is to do in gatlinburg.......don't get me wrong....i love getting new stuff...but i hate the process of getting it!! ugh.....so basically i get to spend saturday-munday SHOPPING!!! ugh that's poopie!! but they do have a lot of nifty kewl lil stores down there....haha ya ......but i think that part of the reason i don't feel to strongly for gatlinburg is b/c last time we went was when i was having my first "symptoms" of **mono** ugh that stunk.....i was in pain from my neck up the whole time......so enough for complaining......so today i woke up.....went with my dad to appraise sum buildings......went to staples....cavalry bank with dad.......subway.....mmm eat fresh........home.......nap.....sort of........captain d's for dad's ghetto b-day supper.....home......puter........now.......so me n mom made these fun lil snaks for her to bring to her works lunch pot luck thingy....they're very cute......and yummy i must say myself......they took a lot of patience though

speaking of patience.....i learned on sundy mornin that you shouldn't pray for patience.....b/c then God will give you more things to test ur patience......haha.....kinda funny ain't it?? it confused me for a while so then i asked silly ?'s using ppl as examples and bein mean to ppl.....lol jp......theyknow i was jp'in.......so pretty sure yall all need to be like lauren and leave me 66 remarks!!!! cause she's "tha bomb" haha so now i'm gunna go!!!!
i love you all soo very much!!!
MWAH

photo from bonin4him

Rachael and I at Paint the Town last week... it was really awesome being able to serve along side her for a week. God is definitely faithful in our story.

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I want school to start more than ever.

I'm really excited to see what the Battalion will be like this year.

The freshman are all pretty cool too.

And school also means seeing him.

And if I see him, I know that everything's okay.

well i've been home for a few days and already have had more adventures. Tuesday night me, lauren, megan and some of her friends decided to break in my new car and go to cool springs to eat. well i missed the exit somehow and we ended up in Nashville.

"Guys...I don't think Cool Springs is this far!"
"Oh my gosh!!! We are in Nashville!!"

haha good times.I've had fun just hanging out and catching up with my friends. Oh how I've missed them so!!!

I went to church on Wed. and it was really weird. It felt like I didn't belong there. It wasn't anything anybody did, it just felt really weird. God had done so much in my life this summer and I guess the rush was so high and then it is over. I want to just call my friends that I had this summer and see if they want to do something but they can't.

The Lord is breaking me so bad. I've never felt such love for Him then I have right now. He is amazing and I don't know what I would do without Him. He is my savior, redeemer and my best friend. I can feel something big coming for my life. God's hands are all over that plan and I wouldn't have it any other way. My life is nothing without Him. He is the only reason I am doing this, living this life to be pleasing in His eyes. I just want Him to be proud of me.

"For you I'd wait 'Til kingdom come
Until my days my days are done
Say you'll come and set me free
Just say you'll wait you'll wait for me"

It's sad, but I'm beginning to realize that a lot of lasts are coming up in my high school life. Tomorrow ends my last band camp and, 2 weeks from tomorrow, I have my last first football game, if that makes any sense. Wow. School also starts up in a week. This is gonna be a fun long-awaited journey.

so this summer is almost over.
which is kinda scary, because it flew by.
and yes, time can fly.

i've learned a lot. this summer had its ups and downs.

i learned how to drive, how to cope with "strangers" in your home, how to mambo with the best of them, how to make new friends and keep the old, and ultimately, how to let someone go.

i wouldn't take this summer back for anything.
it was just that great.

"The small things of life were often so much bigger than the great things...the trivial pleasures like cooking, one's home, little poems especially sad ones, solitary walks, funny things seen and overheard."

photo from nathan

I got bored.

So apparently with the uniform we have to wear a tie.

I was excited until I decided to try to knot one. I tried three different methods. Regular, full and half Windsor.
Now here I sit with Jerry Garcia draped across my shoulders, the wider end mysteriously knotted around itself.
I will not reduce myself to clip-ons. I will triumph. Then we'll see who's laughing, Jerry, oh yes, then we'll see who's laughing.

But until then, anyone feel like teaching this clueless female how to tie a silken noose around my neck?? I would be ever so appreciative.

*Mutters*

::::EDIT:::: TAKE THAT, JERRY GARCIA!! ::::/EDIT::::

photo from crazy_lil_ali24
THis is the beautiful Mackenzie Mattingly I went ovr to her house yesterday!!it was bunches of fun!

photo from browneyedgirl_88


dear boobs..
i wish you weren't so massive,
so that way i could fit into my little boy's t-shirt i bought..
but of course,
as usual you just have to be too big..
thanks alot,
me.

There is a swing band concert on the square tomorrow.

I finished Wild at Heart the other night.

well hello friends.sorry that i havent updated in a while but theres really not much to say.i hope you all are haven a great end of summer.im gonna go find something to do.haha!bye guys!
stacy

is there anyone who can speak pig latin (sp?) lol and is willing to teach me? please with sugar on top!!

Hope.

luckily i have connections..
she fixed it for me..
[and to add.. it wasn't my guidance counsler to fix it...
she has never fixed any of my problems for me..
it always has to be someone else that fixes them]
so no more major scheduling problems..
only that i have ms. high/whatever her new name is..
and i HATEHATEHATE that woman...
errr..

So today, in leadership training, we had to come up with a clothing idea and create a website in 3 hours... so here is what we came up with... not bad for 3 hours.

CURRENT THREADS

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This isn't something I'm looking foward to do it, but I know it needs to be done. Tuesday Anna and I have decided to go see Bruces gravesite. We're thinking about meeting at Belle Aire at 5 and then going over and then goin to eat at La Siesta to talk and such. Leave a comment on here or on Anna's phusebox if you wanna go.

This isn't something I'm entirely looking forward to, but I feel the need to do so. . . Jenna and I are going to see Bruce's grave site Tuesday, August 9th. We want others to come too. No doubt it will be hard; that's why we want to get whoever can together. We're thinking about meeting at Belle Aire around five and heading over from there. Afterwards, we'll probably get a bite to eat at La Siesta to talk and hang out and such. Remark or something so we can get an idea of who will be there.

From Sunny Destin.


Comment If You Like.
They would be greatly appreciated.

love.

The title says it all. I think I might be going to go to my grandparents' from tonight til Saturday afternoon. Eh, cool I guess. Lata.

Well I like being in Tennesse for the summer but I miss all my friends in PA too... man I hate having friends in 2 states cuz i can never see any one enough. I leave in 22 days... it seems like a long time but its not... Im gonna miss you all but have fun without me!!!

the maturity levels... or lack there of... of some people amaze me.

Last night I went to Smyrna Assembly's youth meeting to tell some of my friends there good-bye. (Going back to SC next week) As the lesson was closing and the invitation to prayer was given, one of the young girls came to me and asked me to pray for her. I was shocked since I have only been around a few weeks. As it turns out Nate had sent her to me for wisdom about balancing a college schedule on top of work and church. HAHA, God you crack me up! But it always an awesome feeling to be used by God, and I loved it.

Later at the young adults thing, during worship, Nate took my Bible and opened it to Col. 2:5. It says, "For even though I am absent in body, nevertheless I am with you in spirit, rejoicing to see your good discipline and the stability of your faith in Christ." Aww!

I think God is trying to teach me something, I just don't know exactly what. A month ago, I was ready for school to start. I was budgeted to be able to pay for it (mostly :)). But then life kicked in. I went to renew my insurance and it went up. I got a nail in the back tire which ate $180. Two nights ago, on the way home, my clutch cable broke and I had to order a new one. Since I needed it ASAP, overnighting it costed $30 extra. I'm starting to get the feeling that I may not be able to pay for school. Student loans aren't the answer, I've got some of those already and I'm paying on them. (Dumbest decision of my life).

I'm trying to figure out what God's teaching me. I'm also trying not to let myself jump in and take control. I will only mess things up more. Any insight?