One month exactly till i turn 16...

mmm hardly anyone comments me anymore. So my updates may be random. Ha.

mmm leadership meeting tomorrow for JROTC. Then I'm hopeing SGT will let me help with mini-camp. Then again, I'm just worrying about getting a ride. Heh.

Other than that nothing much to say. Summer reading still isn't done but it's going at an okay pace.


mmm...yeah.

...whatever...

thanks for all the remarks :D

I have been gone all weekend
so that's why I havent written anything

new pictures < 3
so comment on those.
I actually look good in these ahaha.

I spent the day with Claire saturday.
always fun.
didnt get many pictures there
BUT on sunday I went to northside
and then to their "DL" afterwards.
which was crazy
I had so much friggen fun ahaha.
&& I got a couple pictures there.
alot of them are of patton
[[wearing MY sunglasses]] :] ahaha

abby:: that would be awesome &
you would be the greatest person alive
if you would burn it for me. heh I LOVE YOU.

God=love
without love you dont know God
without God you havent experienced true love.
it's that simple
because if God didnt know love
what would be the point of dying for us?
love is something where you dont expect anything back
so that's what we need to be doing
loving people without expecting anything

okay have a wonderful day you guysss.
I love thee. < 3 < 3

xoxo,
Jaaamie

karma's a bitch. i guess i got mine.

So I bit the bullet and joined the "bloggers". A genuine leap of faith having no previous knowledge of what a blog was. Rather daring on my part i think. According to this nifty online dictionary, a blog is a a personal chronological log of thoughts published on a Web page that often reflects the personality of the author. I'll do my best to reflect my personality through the many blogs to come. Anyway, a little bit about me. I'm in Kuwait for 8 months now. Over 15 months since I've seen my own doorstep. Only 4 more to go! I'm an aspiring automotive engineer with so many doubts about what I wanna do with my life I can't even begin to scratch the surface here. There's really nothing I can see myself doing for the rest of my life. The more I work for other people the more I want to work for myself. Starting a coffee house is looking pretty good about now. Who needs big bucks anyway? Moola=Happiness? Hardly I think. Who exactly am I writing this stuff to? Does it matter? Take it for what it's worth and with my blessing. I actually only know a couple people connected to the phusebox. Until more come along me and my 2 blog buddies will persevere. That means u nate and cassie. Nate I'm still very bitter at you for abandoning eric in the face of all those dangerous spores. We'll work through this...let's never fight again. My fingers are tired and I need sleep. 4 hrs a night for 2 months and I am running on empty!!! Thankfully we finally finished the neverending project on Saturday and sleep is so sweet. This makes no sense to most of you. I operate heavy equipment in the army and we were building a staging area/defensive position for tank convoys. Improving a flat desert so all terrain vehicles and roll over it smoother i guess?? the colonel in all his wisdom. ... Tonight i'm listening to Allison Krauss & Union Station: Lonely Runs Both Ways. Very peaceful music. I'm gonna sleep soooooo good...

So, the swelling went down on the inside of my mouth and i discovered one side of my mouth has had stitches!? Weird.... But that explains why that side's swelling has decreased the least amount. The other side is back to norma. but still hurts like crazy. I'm calling the dentist' office tomorow so he can explain what the devil is to happen with these stitches and whether or not the desolve or need to be removed..

It's Late!!!!! I need to get to bed!!!! AAAHHH!!!!
Band (technically since it's 2:40 in the morning) is today!!! AAAHHH!!!! 6 to 9!!!! Fun, Fun!!!!

Well, today is the day after I learned that Amber had died. So I got to thinking about a poem i heard the day that my grandmother died, and how true it is. thus, at risk of copyright infringement, i am going to post 2 poems up here, neither of which i wrote, but they can truely express the feelings i have.

The Dash by Linda Ellis

I read of a man who stood to speak
At the funeral of a friend.
He refers to the dates on her tombstone
From the beginning ... to the end.

He noted that first came the date of her birth
And spoke of the following date with tears,
but he said what mattered most of all
Was the dash between those years.

For that dash represents all the time
That she spent alive on earth ...
And now only those who loved her
Know what that little line is worth

For it matters not, how much we own;
The cars ... the house ... the cash.
What matters is how we live and love
And how we spend our dash

So think about this long and hard ...
Are there thinkgs you'd liek to change?
For you never know how much time is left.
(You could be at "dash midrange")

If we could just slow down enough
To consider what's true and real,
And always try to understand
The way other people feel.

And be less quick to anger,
And show appriciation more
And love the people in our lives
Like we've never loved before.

If we treat each other with respect
And more often wear a smile ...
Remember that this special dash
Might only last a little while.

So when your eulogy's being read
With you life's actions to rehash ...
Would you be proud of the things they
Say about how you spend your dash?

______________________________________

The second poem i don't know the author, but it was provided at my grandmother's funeral.

To Those I Love and Those Who Love Me

When I am gone let me go and release me
I have so many things to do and see
You must not tie yourself to me with tears
Be happy that we shared such beautiful years.

I gave you my love, you can only guess
How much you gave me in happiness.
I thank you for the love you each have shown.
But now its time I traveled alone.

So grieve a while for me, if grieve you must,
Then let your grief be comforted by trust
It is only for a while that we must part.
So cherish the memories in your heart.

I won't be far away, for life goes on.
So if you need me, call and I will come;
Though you cannot see or touch me, I'll be near.
All my love around you, soft and clear.

And then when you shall come this way alone,
I'll greet you with a smile and say, "Welcome Home!"

- We love you and miss you Amber (July 30, 2005)

so i love how totally random this summer has been. i am all about the spontaneous trips to movies and/or dinner. this has been a very moving experience and a rather dramatic change from my seemingly dull life of mississippi. maybe it is the fast pace of the city that i have been away from way too much. there it is! that settles it... i spend too much time away from my home of good ole New York City!!! this really is home to me, and it is summers and all around experiences like this that really make me wonder why i really "need" to go home. i know i REALLY do not want to. yeah i would like to go back and hurry up and finish my edumacation. but i am ready to make a move up here. i am looking forward to the day and dreading the time between here and there.

Wow...Life can slip away just like that...thank goodness that didn't happen tonight. My friend Ben was in a car accident tonight and man did it scare all of us. I dont know what I would've done if he were not ok. But he just tore his ACL not too long ago and tonight he got into a wreck but hes perfectly fine, just shaken up and a little sore. But if you would please please please pray for him. He's one of my closest friends and Im sooo incredibly thankful that God took care of him tonight. God is an awesome God huh?

Me and Ben!....



photo from GodsGirl615

"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."- Romans 8:28

To all you crazy kids that I spent this insane summer with. It is coming to an all so depressing end. It has been amazing to work beside you and get to know you more everyday. It is amazing to me to see how God can take two months and inroduce you to some many new things. I love the fact that God didn't take any short cuts making his creations so amazing. You all are so amazing and i thank you for an amazing summer. and maria i propmise to keep in touch

omg..im so excited..its soo close..4 grades of new people :) boys..boys..MORE BOYS..lol jp..not really..BUT ANYWAYS, I'm extra scared about it too..I am soo gonna get lost like 38475283750294523452 times..crazy stuff..so ya..tomorrow i think im gonna try and get my hair cut and highlighted..should i cut it short???anyways, guess I am gonna go..

I wrote this poem tonight. Honor of its inspiration should rightfully go to Kayla Melton. An entry on her myspace entitled One Headlight is what got me writing. Inspiration strikes in weird places. Enjoy. It's called Golden Decorations.


Golden Decorations

We are called upon to join the dance
no choice given, we all arrive by chance.
Golden decorations are hung to distract
us from noticing the dance's main act.
Surprisingly easily we are all swept away
by what dilusive music they decide to play
in order to convice us it is fun
to dance in this dance with great passion.
The music played, and all stood up
and raised up high our golden cups
filled with our dreams, filled with our love
for those around us, for what's above.
Filled with the lives we wished to live,
little we knew that we were captives.
But one day, much to our surprise
heavy dark clouds began filling up the skies.
The golden decorations faded away,
No longer did we feel the music play.
Alas, this time, we were deceived!
Lost and confused by the lies that they weaved.
They had us trapped, but we had no chance
As we never even asked to join this dance!
All we ever had done was try and smile,
and to just enjoy that dance a while.
But the setting changed, and it invoked fear
as the location of the dance soon became clear.
All alone we stood, in a cemetery.
Where broken lives and dreams were buried.
Music played again, but not at all the same.
This music convinced us of only pain.
The music played, and all sat down.
From our cups, we all felt drowned.
Our dreams became impossible, love was a joke
feelings for those around us were lost in smoke
as we realized that the life we wished to live
was nothing more than fictive.
We all felt lost and deceived,
Punishment for naitivity harshly received.
Perhaps it was too good a dream
To dance forever, decorations agleam.
Suddenly, amid the anguish that we felt
One man changed the hand he was dealt.
a shining light in the middle of the crowd
we heard the beautiful music, booming loud.
This music played, and we all stood up.
Took another look into our forsaken cups.
Though our dreams we lost, though love is broken
Though we feel our lives were stolen
We realized that the dance goes on
memories of pain, though resounding strong
should not stop us from continuing to dance
and to keep giving life another chance.
Even when we find ourselves with broken dreams,
it simply means we must repair the seams.
Every time that music stops
does not mean our spirit must drop.
Because in the end, no one played a song
the music was in us all along.
No one put up those golden decarations
Our pain created from our own proclomations.
So with hope still shining in our eyes
We smile and dance away our lives.

COPYRIGHT DANIEL AUSTIN 2005

-Daniel Austin

so what have i done since... july? mmm, still coming home late, still working at mike's subs (ick), still looking for a boy...

but i did go to warped tour and crowd surf for the first time in my life.

i did realize who i want to keep in touch with through college.

and i'm totally screwed for summer reading and my marine bio assignment... ick.

and jeff is my best friend:

Jeff: actually i dont want you to get a boyfriend cause i mean then you'll spend less time with us.

i love that boy.

so friday i went to six flags with chris, kelly, drew, tiffanie, & joe. then saturday i went to the fair with sarah. then today i went bowling with erica, deanna, tucci, & van. click here for pics!

So school starts in two weeks! All i can say is wow. This summer flew bye real fast and i already can't wait til i graduate. Senior year baby! Have a great rest of the summer!

First...

I am NOT arrogant. Yes, I came to band with a hicky the size of a half dollar on my neck. NO, I did NOT brag about it. Everyone who I talked to about it asked me who gave it too me. I told them when they asked, but I didn't do it in an arrogant way. I have talked to alot of people about this. They have all said that I didn't brag. They all admitted that they asked me who gave it too me. To name a few : Courtney, Owen, Kathrine-Clair, David, Molly, Tyler, and Calvin. Krista claims that I was arrogant about it and that I was showing it off to as many people as possible. Yes, alot of people saw it, but, NO, I didn't show it off. They asked what it was... so I told them.

All the people that I have spoken with have all told me the same thing. They have all said that I seem happier, but thats the only way I seem different. They say that I have in no way become more arrogant. They say that I seem happier because I am no longer with Krista. They have all said that Krista brought me down... that she treated me like crap.

Alot of people have also told me what they think of Krista and how she is treating me now. About how she is telling lies about me and how she is treating me badly because she is jealous.

SiegelHornDude: she's being over dramatic because she's not with you anymore and is jealous of amanda

culture shock 14: i think she seems very jealous that u have moved on so quickly of what u have shown me

i am tenpenny: i like the girl, she's always been nice to me, but i dont get why she says youve changed... other than being pretty happy you havent changed at all!!

kingred13: Krista is acting immature, like you two broke up and now she has to be a bitch to you like it's some unwritten rule, but wasn't she always like that, even when you were still going out with her? And what is all this about you showing off your hicky? You didn't. You told people who gave it too you or what it was when thy asked.

Three tacos: amanda is pretty cool
brettrocks89: hmmmm, krista seems to think that she is a bitch... thats what she said. she has never even met her
Three tacos: Amanda is awesome
Three tacos: I don't know why she would say that

CRANBERRYjuice55: sounds like krista needs to get more of a life
CRANBERRYjuice55: sorry.. that was mean
CRANBERRYjuice55: but it's just.... that's really dumb to be mean to people just because of your jealousy
CRANBERRYjuice55: of which you're in denial of

relientkroxmysok: SHE TREATS YOU LIKE CRAP JUST B/C YOU HAVE A NEW GIRLFRIEND. JUST BECAUSE YOU ARE OVER HER DOSENT MEAN SHE HAS TO TREAT YOU LIKE CRAP. I THINK SHE MIGHT HAVE JUST BEEN USING YOU THE WHOLE TIME. SHES JUST JEALOUS AND NEEDS TO GET OVER IT. YOU CAN STILL BE FRIENDS IF YOUR NOT DATING ANYMORE. SHE JUST NEEDS TO QUIT BEING A BIG BABY. SHE NEEDS TO GET OVER IT AND MOVE ON!!!

Anyway, I would like to say that this entry wasent a dis to Krista, its just a warning of lies to everyone else.

If you disagree with what I have to say, IM me ( brettrocks89 ) or call me if you know my number, or talk to me at school or band.

Later, Brett

dude... this is soo exciting!!! haveing my fone back is sooo awesome!!! i'm at melissa's house rite now... rachel's here too... they say 'hey'... i didn't do much today. i went to a friend-of-the-family's house and it was fun... learned sum new stuff... too much to type out... sry. i can't wait til skool starts!!! it's gonna b awesome... woot woot!! i'm on such a sugar high rite now... omb... i gotta go now... we're gona go swimming!!! yay!!!!

skool is kool
kirsten

look at my car!

Im tryin to fix my xanga. I havent saved the changes yet so It looks the same even though Ive done a lot. Im changin the background a bit and doin some other little tweakes.
- B0Xcar

I don't usually shy away from change, but soo much change over so little time is a little unnerving.
I worked my last night at Don Pablo's tonight. It isn't often that I quit jobs, so it felt very wierd. It was a good thing though (I've been working seven days a week for about 3 months. 4 days off in that time). School starts this month. I'm returning to MTSU after being out of school altogether for a year. I'm a little nervous about starting back not to mention affording it all. In a few weeks, I'm going to have to move... again. I'd like to be settled into a house before school starts, but I'm not sure that's going to happen seeing as August's calendar is running over with AO stuff.

The Prince of Peace is faithful to His name. Laying everything at His feet awards me the most overwhelming peace. He will make a way and provide the joy and peace I long for.

well ladies and gents. I'm a kidnapper

but today was randomly awesome.

Bread bowls rock, and so does buying PENS, not pins

oh, and then in my attempts to clean. . .I got trapped. . .

photo from lauraebeth

and then. . .well. . .anna left and I got something done. . .

photo from lauraebeth

oh. . .and then this picture. . .it's cool, b/c well, I edited it.


photo from lauraebeth


> Laura

so many things to tell her
but how to make her see
the truth about my past,
impossible
she'd turn away from me

he's holding back
he's hiding
but what, i can't decide
why won't he be the king i know he is,
the king i see inside

can you feel the love tonight?

      rob zombie is lovebrought to you by the isLove Generator

So...it just doesn't matter, does it? Nothing does. You can cry and cry until you've drowned...but if just doesn't matter...
Because no one will notice.

Okay, waaaaaaaay too many people have xangas. I found one friend, and then it led me to like 20 others. Yeah, no exaggeration. Soooo......liking phusebox a bit now.

Yeah, my internet's deciding not to be evil anymore...yay!

Dude, I'm a dork. I *laughs* miss marching. Sad, isn't it? Just promise me you won't think differently of me now.....

I think we scared the few freshman that were actually at the party. Yeah.

Night!

~Rachel =)

well i can say 5 words or less & all the sudden people can hate me

& this time sorry just doesn't cut it

join the group i made for my man stu haha

So we helped my sister move into her new house yesterday and today..It was fun!! Lauren and I had a lot of fun just doing random things...As we were leaving today my mom started to cry and said "this is just the first one of the 3 to leave.." lol!! Ohh well!!! I am ready to go..Anxious but ready....
Had church tonight and it was really good!! We talked about the LOVE chapter..and it was a great message...Then we went to the Jones' house and I got to meet Maegan, (i think that is how you spell it) one of Ashley's and Hannah's roommates..she is really nice and cool!! Then ash and i just sat around and talked about different stuff...that was fun!! But yeah!! That is about it..Got work tomorrow and then tomorrow night is WILDFIRE!! WOO HOO!!!!!

photo from kylewesley

That'd be Lyndi, myself, Matt, and Taran on 'Chang' @ Kentucky Kingdom.

I believe my exact words when we got off the coaster were "Thank goodness I wore my Huggies!" That's right. I said that. :-P

Louisville was a fun trip..very tiring though.
Kentucky has some of the worst roads..

Hide and Seek is an "eh" movie, I think so anyway.

Most of you know I don't like to ride roller coasters (and for those who don't know me..I don't like to ride roller coasters). Well I rode some at Kentucky Kingdom and heh..yeah..I'm still looking for my stomach...

1 remark? Maybe I should give up..

It is wonderful knowing that my God is trustworthy...there is no god like Him! I can't quite find the words that I am looking for...it is just that I don't know if I have ever felt this free from worry before. I can trust Him with EVERYTHING! It's simple, but has been extremely hard for me to live out lately...ahhh! I love my God!

I will be home in Six days....

oh the excitement....

I will miss all these northern peoples.....

but I'm so ready to start school.....

For most people, tomorrow is just an ordinary day. Most will go to work as normal, and will just live their day without any life-changing events to occur.

However...this is not the case for me. True, I will go to work at my normal time of 7 AM. But my activities after I get off at one will not be so ordinary. In fact, they will decide the rest of my life.

Tomorrow, I have a doctor's appointment. Doesn't seem to life-changing, does it?? But in all reality, this appointment is the most terrifying appointment I've ever been to. I wish I could get into details about it, but I can't.

I have more emotions going through me than most can even fathom. The most prominent being fear. I am so terrified about the results of this doctor's appointment that my insides are shaking. Chances are that everything will be okay. But there's still that small percentage that everything will be terribly, terribly wrong.

Prayers are much needed for my doctor's appointment. I really wish everything will turn out okay. I don't think I could handle it if everything turned out badly. I'll keep an update of how it went. Thanks for allowing me to pour out my heart!

it's my birthday! suzanne is a teenager! whoa scary.

photo from SeeRockCity

this always makes me laugh

omg i am SUCH a giant retard!! i forgot my password to this thing for FOREVER and now i finally remembered it and it was the easiest thing in the world.. gah i feel dumb!!
-me-

Listen to "Tommy" with a candle burning, and you'll see your entire future.

Today was so incredibly random. . .

singing in front of the entire church. doughnuts in the courtyard. jean shopping. bread bowls. more shopping. "you came all the way to wal-mart just to get pens?". getting kidnapped. car dying in the kroger parking lot.

. . . and I enjoyed every minute of it.

photo from nathan

So, after a full week of staying up until 5AM almost every night for Paint the Town, I was able to relax a little tonight. It was amazing.

Rachael and I were able to go on our first official date, and it was definitely a night I will never forget. The fact that Rachael just ended her year of not dating just added to this special event.

I decided to try to go all out for this date. However, I was in the Bronx all week and was not able to plan everything that I wanted to do for this date. I went ahead and got a personal car service, so at 7:00, we had a car pick us up from my building.

We went to eat at this little Italian place on West 14th Street called Primitivo Osteria. It was amazingly good. Rachael and I decided to tell our story to each other. This whole thing really seems like a script from a movie. We just sat there and talked about how God had worked in both of our lives to bring us together at this specific time and how faithful God has been through it all.

After dinner, we headed over to Cafe Lalo (the little cafe from "You've Got Mail")... We got dessert which consisted of keylime cheesecake for me and a simple chocolate chip cookie for the lady. However, we had to wait for our check for an eternity, but being with someone as great as her made it easier to wait.

Since I had only reserved the car service for two hours, we had to catch a cab back to my apartment. We then decided to walk across the Brooklyn Bridge. (Sorry Rachael for recommended that you take your high heels)... We paused to take SEVERAL photos on the bridge with the cityscape in the background (I have to document this night...)

We met up with Bethany and Matt and walked all the way to Brooklyn. After we caught the subway back, the four of us rested at my apartment before they went back up to the Bronx for the night.

All in all, it was one of the most memorable nights of my life and most definitely my favorite date of all time. I feel so blessed to be able to be with such a Godly woman. She never stops amazing me and my heart for her grows everyday.

I am thankful to God that He has been faithful to both of us as He has prepared us for this portion of our journey.

While tonight was great, my family (+ matt and rachael) are going back to Murfreesboro tomorrow afternoon. It has been great hanging out with them the past week... even though I was working most of the week.

Hopefully, I will get to spend some more time with them when I am in Murfreesboro in October.

I am going to bed... I have had 10 hours of sleep total in the past 3 days.

[FIRST DATE PHOTOS]

[nt]

i don't understand.

i almost got killed twice yesterday!! my friend gave me a lucky 4 leaf clover yesterday and i'm beginning to think it's not so lucky...

instance #1: so i'm driving to work saturday morning in the far right lane on the interstate. one car length in front of me in the next lane is this dirty black pickup truck. up one car length from it in the next lane over is this big 18 wheeler. so we're just truckin along, and all of the sudden, HUGE pieces of metal start flying at my car! it was coming from somewhere off the 18 wheeler! so the pickup truck decides to be stupid and swerve into my lane to avoid the shrapnel, therefore pushing me out of my lane and almost off the interstate while there are metal pieces that i cannot avoid b/c i'm too concerned with staying on the insterstate! a big piece hit my windsheild and other pieces just flew across my hood. the only damage tho is tiny scratches on my hood. ugh

instance #2: i'm driving (hmm...is there a pattern?) down northfield blvd @ pitts lane going away from campus with my friend megan ezell whom i haven't seen in forever and of course i'm not really paying attention when all of the sudden megan starts saying "don't hit the turkeys...DON'T HIT THE TURKEYS!" i look right in front of me and there is a mama turkey and like 8 little turkeys following behind her in a row (reminded me of the partridge family opening) just taking their grand 'ole time walking across this busy street! so i slam, i'm talking SLAM on my brakes so as not to hit them. i think i came within a few inches, but no harm done. and they didn't even flinch as my tires squealed and my horn blared. stupid turkeys.

fun eh? not really. i've been moving out of my apt this last week and tomorrow is my last day. 1pm tomorrow and i officially hand over the keys...sad day. i'm living at home now with all my stuff still packed and just sitting in the playroom until i can move into university courtyard...it feels weird to not have a place to go home to will all my stuff ya know? oh well...only 3 more weeks...

Okay...it is Sunday night, and I still have not done either of my reports for english. Gosh...I am so mad. I am such a procrastinator.

Anways, I went to the clarinet party Friday; met 3 of the freshman...

I just got done watching Swimfan. It was pretty good.

That's it.

DCI WAS AWESOME!!!! man i can't wait to do that it is going to be sooo much fun!!!!

pretty cool weekend kinda boring though kinda sucks but it's all good you know....

okay so you guys im going to go cuz you guys don't leave me comments anymore so ill talk to you guys later

Leah

well this is my first entry on this. just saying hey. me, t.j., haskins, and michael went and saw devils rejects today. that was a messed up movie, but good. then me and brittany went and had dinner tonight. i feel pregnant now blah. well jeremiah comes home tomorrow i am so excited. even though i have camp and then work but it is ok.
i will catch everyone later.

Louisville was a fun trip..very tiring though.
Kentucky has some of the worst roads..

Hide and Seek is an "eh" movie, I think so anyway.

Most of you know I don't like to ride roller coasters (and for those who don't know me..I don't like to ride roller coasters). Well I rode some at Kentucky Kingdom and heh..yeah..I'm still looking for my stomach...

1 remark? Maybe I should give up..

peace.out

photo from swizzlestix

yep.that'd be kai.

Well.the past couple days have been crazyyy

yesterday,silly kai fell 10 feet on his back out of a tree.but he is allll good.thank the lord.

tonight=movie night at ashleys.dance dance..
ah man.u all need to look at my pictures over there.my friends are crazy and that's for sure.

much loveee
kayla

So it is almost impossible to avoid it, I have read so other books this summer, and now I need to read the ones that my grade depends on, so I am now starting summer reading, I don't want to do it, but there is no avoiding it...

well it sux summer is almost over..im actually havin fun now..haha like i have been hangin out with mya lots..and brooke came over today and we swam and took pics(look at photobox) so yeah..well im jus updatin cuz i dunno ok leave remarks pretty plz!

Fri. night was DCI!! I had a blast. I got to see Dennis, and I hadn't gotten to see him in a LONG time.
Saturday, I worked, and then came the fun. :) lol I got to go to the mall!! I got 2 new bras from Victoria's Secret. (I

hey i'm just sitting here at my new computer desk, in our new computer chair. and we got a new car, and new neighbors on both sides of our house.

i have to go to a staff meeting at 6:15.

i love my job. it's so much fun. i love the people i work with and the friends i've made while sitting in the guard stand. the other day these guys that always come and that are in love with me came in and one of them gave me a present which was a knitted blue and white striped hat and wristband. madison wore it around. quite funny and random at the same time. i love getting gifts like that.
spencer got his wallet and watch stolen. he was almost in tears. it was a $200 watch and he had graduation money and his ID and his credit and debit cards and insurance cards and everything. it was sooo sad! but anyways i'm off to my meeting. i love you!

o yea. i'll edit later about last night's girl's night out.

_kt

shopping :) i love it

so i had a girls' night out last night....yeah it was fun....but i was forbidden to mention brett at all. poor thing had to eat an expired bologna sandwich and didn't get to see me....other than that my night was cool....almost rolled someone's car but we didn't and we had fun at the car wash....yes....FUN FUN FUN!!!!

i am -so sick-

it may be mono. but i don't know. :shrug: i can't talk. i have a fever. my throat is all swollen. it sucks. and i went to work... but i think that being up and around and talking just made it worse. but - i do like my job. :thumbs up:

:drinks sprite:

yeah. my sister is awesome. she babys me. ^_^ gives me ibuprophen and blueberry muffins and pats my back when i throw up. haha. and her husband's nice too. he watched TV in my nephew's room cause i was sleeping on the couch. ts, aww.

but um... that's it.

its all about finding happyness right...

Red Hot Chilli Peppers
Suck My Kiss

Should of been, could of been
Would of been dead
If I didn’t get the message
Goin’ to my head
I am what I am
Most motherfuckers
Don’t give a damn
Aw baby think you can
Be my girl, I’ll be your man

Come-on full of fun
Do me ’till I’m well done
Little bo peep
Cumin’ from my stan gun
Beware... take care
Most motherfuckers
Have a cold ass stare
Aw baby please be there
Suck my kiss cut me my share

Hit me you can’t hurt me
Suck my kiss
Kiss me please pervert me
Stick with this
Is she talking dirty
Give to me sweet sacred bliss
Your mouth was made to suck my kiss

Look at me can’t you see
All I really want to be
Is free from a world
That hurts me
I need relief
Do you want me girl
To be your thief
Aw baby just for you
I’d steal anything that you want me to

K - I - s - s - I - n - g
Chicka chicka dee
Do me like a banshee
Low brow is how
Swimming in the sound
Of bow wow wow
Aw baby do me now
Do me here I do allow

Hit me you can’t hurt me
Suck my kiss
Kiss me please pervert me
Stick with this
Is she talking dirty
Give to me sweet sacred bliss
Your mouth was made to...

Should of been, could of been
Would of been dead
If I didn’t get the message
Goin’ to my head
I am what I am
Most motherfuckers
Don’t give a damn
Aw baby think you can
Be my girl, I’ll be your man

Come-on full of fun
Do me ’till I’m well done
Little bo peep
Cumin’ from my stan gun
Beware... take care
Most motherfuckers
Have a cold ass stare
Aw baby please be there
Suck my kiss cut me my share

Hit me you can’t hurt me
Suck my kiss
Kiss me please pervert me
Stick with this
Is she talking dirty
Give to me sweet sacred bliss
Your mouth was made to suck my kiss

the peppers are so awsome, i think ill go with donald and say there my favorite band thats still together

saw the island today, it was everything i expected. (which is good).

yeah, so summer is almost over, and i haven't read my summer reading.

*oops*

The yard sale was fun. I went to Starbucks....yeah....um ...that's bout it.

It hurts. It hurts alot. Why can't things ever have a happy ending for me? Is that so much to ask?

[i'm in the process of blowing up 200+ water balloon..
eeeek but i'll pay off.
heh. just trust me on this]




photo from browneyedgirl_88


i entitle this picture. "Becca's Shoes"

wow...that was wonderful
i'm back from kentucky.. i went horseback riding, fishing for the 1st time!!, rode go carts, fed the dogs and horses, went to Ohio, camped out, watched the stars, made a bon fire, had a fish fry.. and so many other things..i can't think of them all.

i hope y'all had a good week..

later

this is gini.
ben has yet to do anything to his phusebox.
so i'm doing it.

he's over here.
and he gave me what he got for me in florida.


he's doubting the coolness of phusebox.
comment him.
make him happy.


he's leaving for indiana on wednesday.
which is HORRIBLY sad.



crycrycrycry


[vs]

i'm feeling sick. i had to leave church early. i didnt want to.i got to talk to lyndsey or lindsy, how ever you spell it, i'm not good with spellin names. but she's always been real nice to me. so thats cool. i still dont feel good. i gotta go to work tonight. i feel hot. but i dont know if it's me or the house. pray for me.

i found a new song that i like, actually it's old, and i've had it for a while, but i just now listended to it. it's Blue Sky by the allman brothers band.

i finally finished chapter six in harry potter. i'm workin on it guys, dont worry.

piece
*edit* i added some new pics

Soooo yeah. Isn't sucking as much as I thought it would [everyone's still downstairs - minus Brian, Koren, and Becky who couldn't make it.]

We're actually having a good time. Although I'm not sure if there's a contest going on to see who breaks and cries first... I wasn't going to let it be me so I took a few minutes off and came up to my room.

I talked to my Grandpa. Mistake. I've always had an incredible amount of respect for my Grandpa, even if I'm not quite as close to him as I am to Granny. Mom and Vicki were talking about the funny things that Rob would say when he was on medicine that made him angry... Grandpa said [to me],

"I didn't think he would die. Even the morning that he died and Granny came in and said, 'You better go in and say goodbye to him, he's not going be much longer,' I didn't think he would die."

That morning was my Grandpa's 59th birthday.

I couldn't say anything to him without my voice cracking, so I turned around and pretended to listen something my Granny was saying.

My mom brought the photo albums. I'm gonna see if she'll let me borrow them and scan a bunch of the pictures. There's a bunch of me, my brothers, my cousins, aunts, uncles, old friends, relatives who have died. Some damn good pictures. I'll see about getting them on here.

Why so often do we see non-Christians who seem to get it, and Christians who don't. I think we far too often rule out spiritual warfare, or ignore it. Those Christians who don't get it weren't thinking about combating demons. But it is a very real thing that we must not ignore.

Well.....soooo much has been going on lately!!!!! I'm really happy!!!! lol!!!!!! Well I am getting more pictures developed soo I will put them up when I can!!!!!! Well I gotta go!!!!!

First I get cold and hot
think I'm on fire, but I'm not.
Oh, what a pain I've got,
it must be love!
There's nothing I can do,
all that I want is you.
Look what I'm going through,
it must be love!
It must be love, it must be love.
I fall like a sparrow and fly like a dove.
You must be the dream I been dreaming of,
oh what a feeling,
it must be love!
Something is wrong or right,
I think of you all night.
Can't sleep 'til morning light,
It must be love!
Seeing you in my dreams,
holding you close to me.
Oh, what else can it be?
It must be love!
It must be love, it must be love.
I fall like a sparrow and fly like a dove.
You must be the dream I been dreaming of
Oh what a feeling, it must be love.

i hate not feeling in control.....i hate that i am putting my whole heart into something, but what happens from day to day isnt up to me. my hearts just out there on the line. ready to get stepped on. and more than likely it will.......so why am i doing this?

Before I made you in your mother's womb, I chose you. Before you were born, I set you apart for a special work.
Jeremiah 1:9

When you think about heaven and the amazing things in store for you, doesn't that excite you? I know I often find myself thinking about Jesus smiling calling the names of his sons and daughters who accepted the gift of love that he had to offer, and beyond the gates that Jesus stands at lies the eternal praise and fellowship of the Almighty Father! Now I know that everyone has an opinion of heaven, but I just get excited at the fact that right now in heaven, those people are thinking about us down here. They know soon we will be joining them, and God is anticipating the day when we will arrive and embrace Him face to face for the first time. But I think God sits on the Almighty Throne, and consistently thinks about those who haven't accepted the gift he has to offer. Even though he is all knowing, I think he often begs us as instruments to communicate to these people. There are so many people that God loves just like you and I that won't listen because Satan distorts what God has to offer to these people. God put a hole in all of our hearts, and some of us finally came to the realization of who completed that hole. But there are still millions of people, that naturally drift to other things that can only satisfy them for a short time. I believe God has called us to be so much more than we could ever realize. God's love letter to us (bible) mentions the fact that we are all called to ministry. Ministry=the introduction of a relationship with Jesus. We have been chosen to reach out to the people who are being taken away from God, and we are to pass a message of hope to them. It doesn't matter what field he calls us to (they are all important!), we are his instruments. We shouldn't be afraid of what people say to us, because they are only confused. They don't understand the gift that God has to offer, because if they did they wouldn't act like that. WE CANNOT GIVE UP ON THE PLAN THAT GOD HAS GIVEN US BECAUSE GOD NEVER GAVE UP ON US, AND HE'S NOT GIVING UP ON THOSE OUT THERE WHO WE ONCE WERE!!! Accept the plan that God has to offer you! Begin to understand how much God loves you, and then ministry comes with pleasure!

katies birthday party was w00t. swam, ate, watched little boys be idiots on "Boy Meets World", watched one of the biggest chick flicks ever, "Mean Girls".....good times.

what is your favorite movie?
later

im really looking forward to school!!! im really goanna try to get really good grades this year!!! i dont want to be grounded again this year!!

can you believe that in less than 2 weeks we will know more than half of the show??? that seems crazy!! but i cant wait till the show is finished!!! ahhh i cant wait...

but i also cant wait till guard ends b/c im really looking forward to swimming!! i miss swimming... b/c i can eat what ever i want whenever i want!! haha and i miss swim meets!!! lol singin IVE BEEN WORKIN ON THE RAILROAD!!! lol thats the best swimming song!!! haha i'm goanna try to get around a 1 23 or so for the 100 brest!!!

after swimming i'm having surgery!!! on my foot and i will miss prolly 2 weeks of school!!! thats goanna be crazy!!! but hey i really think this is goanna be a fun year!!

less than 2 months till i can drive!! ahhh i cant wait!!!

im not lookin forward to sabre's though the next couple weeks... my arms are goanna get a beating!!! haha they already got 1!!! but hey its all worth it in the end!!!

have a great last 2 weeks of summer everyone!!!

im gettin bangs in a couple days!!! lol and gettin my hair cut!!!

yo friends, I'm in Dallas, TX right now at my uncle Bill's house. I don't get back until the 8th though but I wish I was there to see everyone. I love Texas! I like the weather best because it's hot but it's not humid. So you don't feel sticky the whole time, lol. Well Bye friends and I'll talk to you all later!
-Dana :)

So, you are sitting at home watching tv and the phone rings...it's 830 in the morning on a saturday and you don't even know if you want to answer it. so you check the caller id and it's the person who hasn't called you in a about a month, so each that person needs something, or they have something to say...

thus is the story of today. My phone rang and it was U2's "Where the streets have no name." (the default ring on my phone). thus it can be just about anyone. Well that song was definately appropriate for the call i received. the first verse is

"I want to feel the sunlight on my face
I see the dust clouds disappear without a trace.
I want to take shelter from the poison rain
Where the streets have no name."

Well, anyone's first guess about this song is that it is referring to heaven. Well, my phone call was to tell me that one of my friends, and someone who used to work at wal-mart, died early this morning in Manchester. Now when the person who is calling you is crying, it is all that you can do to not cry too because you know they are calling you to hold them up and to be supportive. thus i had to run out of the house this morning and go straight to her because in a time like this everyone needs a friend regardless of whatever that have done to you in the past.

I managed to hold back the tears until i went to work and had the privacy of my milk cooler. a place where i can think and reflect on life in general. the only thing that i could think of were the lyrics to an old Poison song..."Something to Believe In (acoustic version)":

"But when I want to bitch about growing old, I think how many never had a chance."

Stopped in the prime of life, and here i sit taking the every next day for granted, when all i have to do is take that step backwards and fall 250 feet into a rock quarry. Unfortunately I will never have the chance to see Amber again, but i know that she is in a better place. yet it still sucks that someone has to lose there life so young (she was only 21). So take today and embrace it, don't put off something to tomorrow has you may never have a chance for whatever it is.

The simple sound of a ringing phone, and everything changes. The phone rings and even if you know who is on the other side, you don't know what they will say.

I'MMMM BACK EVERYBODY!!! for good this time...lol. I have had an amazing week with my lovely Lauren. We encourtered everthing from nasty gas station bathrooms to dead puffer fish to sea gulls hitting the car to sneezing a storm to skateboards (hah) to old men in spandex to glowing counters. gosh it was awesome. we even to got to see Sarah (aub's cousin) the last day! I will be putting pics up here soon hopefully.

In a crazy way i am really ready to go back to school. I miss all my friends and choir people. I just need to get back in the groove...anybody with me? guess not. mmmk well i am gonna hit the sack kidos. have a great week everybody. LET GOD ROCK IT!

+ML+

*so today i went w/ Whitney to somewhere in AL to a family get together. i really enjoyed it. even tho i really didn't know any of their family... it felt like home... they pretty much welcomed my w/ open arms. i loved it.

*we played wiffle ball... i'm not quite as bad as i thought i was (*key word* quite)... one of the guys smacked into a tree limb and it took a chunk out from under his eye... it was not good. but they took him to the hospital and he didn't need stiches so that's a blessing.

*today was a blessing to just get away... and not think about much of anything but enjoying everyone's company.

*so things are going great... God's laid a few names of people who to the best of my knowledge... don't know Christ... it's exciting tho... b/c i feel like God's begining to give me a burden for people who don't know Christ... like... for a while i knew that i should be witnessing but that really wasn't a main concern of mine... and i think God's beginning to change my heart.

*i need you guys to pray for a friend of mine... i feel like God's placed something on my heart to say to this person... but He's closed the door the last 3 times i've planned to talk to this person. i still believe that i'm supposed to talk to this friend... but i think maybe God's preparing this friend's heart to hear me. so please just pray for my friend please. i'm really concerned.

*anyways... you guys have a great week. i love you all... and i'll post more later.

Went to the lake today with the Ramsey's. Only Zac was able to come of the 3 kids but it was still fun. We left at about 10:15 and came home at around 8. Then we went to their house for pizza and to see their new black lab puppy! She's so cute! The 4 of us kids went tubing today and Zac and Christi fell off once each and Amy and I managed to stay on. Christi's fall was graceful. She was trying to climb to the back to avoid a wave and the next thing Amy and I know, we are both hit in the face and Christi is in the water! My eye kinda hurts still but Amy's chin looks worse. We lost so much in the lake today too! When Christi was skiing she decided to wear her sunglasses. They're now on some fish in the lake we think. A towel also fell in and sank quickly because it was old and thin. We also lost a frisbee and aluminum foil that was covering the rice krispies. I think that's all we lost but never in our lives have we ever lost so much in the lake! I guess today was just an off day. Might go back tomorrow. I can't decide if I got burnt today or if I'm just sore from skiing and tubing. Guess I'll find out in a few days. Hope everyone's having a wonderful weekend and I'll talk to yall later!

ahhh!!!! I FINALLY GOT MY FONE BACK TODAY!!!! YAY!!!! i know that ya'll r just as excited bout it as i am!! today i had rehearsal and then after that i went to ihop with sum buddies... it was awesome!! 2morrow i'm goin over to a friend-of-the-family cook out thing... which will b totally awesome!! summer reading is still bothering me.... urg. now ya'll can call me... YAY!!!!
here's to:
cell fones and finishing summer reading.

call me :)
kirsten

"Of course I'm home, I'm always home. I'm uncool."

Almost Famous is on my list now. Great flick.

"An entire generation of Cinderellas and there's no slipper."

Just been one of those days.....

Well guys, Sorry I havent updated in a while. I guess I can Say I've done quite alot of things these past few weeks. Like Jon,Joe, and Josh and I went to go see War of the worlds. It was really good. Basically everything was an action scene. And well the books I'm supposed to read. Lets just say thats not doing so good lol. And I've been swimming alot at Jons house. Thats bout the only thing to do. Cause me and everyone else I know are bored out of our minds. So then on Wendsday me and Jon went to go see some bands. One was Touch. They were really good. The other was Knapsack Heroes. They were ok but they were the kind of band that had rap singers with guitars. And today once again me and Jon did somthing. We went to Nashville shores. It was ok besides it was really crowded. And im so red that it hurts. Bad!!! Well thats bout it. O yeah some exciting news. School is less than two weeks away!

-Tanner-

Don’t call me pretty, don’t call me lovely,
Don’t call me comely or fair.
Don’t say I smile most cherubly,
And don’t dare you compare the sun to my hair.

Don’t say I’m sweetness embodied.
Don’t match my laughter to bells.
Don’t say next to me Aphrodite is shoddy --
I’d prefer to be known as the terror of hell.

Don’t call me gentle, do not think me soft,
And especially don’t call me charming.
The words above all that I’d hear most oft
Would be "witty" and "sharp" and "alarming."

Try to be chivalrous, speak one saccharine word
And I warn you, I’ll turn tail and run.
But if it’s "discerning iconoclast" that you would have heard,
Then it’s my heart and my mind that you’ve won.

On a completely unrelated note, I bought French posters for my room. One is a painting of the English book shop Shakespeare and Co. The other is a hazy painting of a woman in gold mist, with the tremulous shadow of the Eiffel tower in the background, and scrawled across the whole of it is "La nuit passe a Paris.... Jamais a oublie." Or, "To spend the night in Paris.... Never to forget." At least, that's the closest translation that makes sense. Lovelove love. Or should I say, l'amourl'amourl'amour. Or "aime." Is it a subject or a verb that I'm repeating?? I should never have gotten started on this. REGARDLESS.... I'm going to marry a lovely French lad with dark eyes. Or at the very least someone who can speak a few words beyond "bonjour." He'll need to, at any rate, because we're getting a Paris flat at some point in time. His opinion on the matter really isn't necessary. It'll happen regardless. "You'd rather learn Italian? Well darling, we can get a summer home." Because hey, who wouldn't want a summer home in Italy? Stop raising your hands.... :P

I'm off to continue working on those three chapters for government. Doing an entire semester of work in two weeks is fuuun.

*Vreeeeeeeeee* Ciao.

Lance Armstong, everyone is familiar with the name. He is no longer confused with that guy who went on the moon. He is known from by winning seven tours, and most of all coming back from cancer. Cancer that was so bad he was coughing up blood. It wasn’t till he was coughing up blood though he actually went to the doctor. I think that we endurance athletes never want to actually admit there is something wrong with us. Then after chemo and many treatments he came back to win seven tours. It took this much to attract Americans to this sport.

The question now is, are Americans going to continue watching cycling? Perhaps if there are other great American Cyclists. Last year a gold medal was won by an American in the time trials but Tyler Hamilton is suspended for two years for blood doping (though there is evidence to refute this claim). There are others to step up to the plate; Bobby Julich, Levi Leipheimer and Floyd Landis were both in the top twenty of this Tour. We must not forget David Zabriskie who wore yellow until crashing in the team time trial. None will dominate the Tour like Lance. No, the real question is if Americans are hook on the sport? Mia Hamn did it with women’s soccer, and the team is still drawing fans after her retirement. I suppose we can’t predict this now. We will have to wait till next year’s tour and the tours after that.

There might never be anybody like Lance, but just think somewhere out there is a kid on his bike dreaming of winning the Tour de France.

As for me, I am having Tour withdrawals. I still consider cycling a great cross trainer, and perhaps one day I will enter a bike race.

Cara

it was so much fun, hanging out w/ john, and all my friends! i wish allison cud hav gon! o my bible study group won the rec party! woo hoo! i had the most fun ever! i made a lot of knew friends, some from virginia, and one from baltimore, maryland.. it was cool meeting other people and hanging out w/ people u dont normally hang out w/. the dance party was also a lot of fun, i acted crazy! and so did everyone else, except john, whom refused to dance :( o well. i still luv him! john is reeli cool, i luv him so much! he's awesome! neways, i can't wait till next year wen we go to passport agin! alrite well ima go, later-

~*chelsea*~



photo from chelsealogue



photo from chelsealogue

So, yeah, I am at home eating an expired balogna sandwich, drinking a green tea, and listening to T.A.T.U. Pretty sad, huh?

I could be at a resturant, eating with Amanda, but no.

All I have to say is that the A.A.A. means "Absolute Ass Association".

Anyway, I went to the mall today and bought a shirt. It's sexy. I saw Steven and Lubna there... nothing too exciting...

Yeah, band starts next week. YAY!!! I think.

Later,
Brett

okay, well its been awhile sence ive been on here. Some stuff has been going on sence ive updated last time. Went on vacation to Helen, Georgia . There were fun days and there were also boring days that i wish would ahve gone by faster , but all in all i had alot of fun seeing people i havent seen in a long time. Came home today and my sister found out that one of her friends had been killed. She was drinking and was driving a four wheeler was not all there and jsut drove off of a 50 foot cliff. So today has been a pretty long day. Me parents and all of my family from florida have all been talking and I think we are moving back to Florida sometime sort of soon. Right now we have family looking for us a house down there in central florida so thats some more big news. School is in 2 weeks which by the way sucks. but thats about it ill cya later. i love u megan

439-5682

hah i am bored again

so yesterday went to the sounds game with jessica...steven was there..so i made him sit up there with us...haha we had so much fun! haha i think steven was like "yeah this chick needs to shutup...like soon" but oh well

had a picnic today & it was fun too...haha jess wanted to drive home but her mom wouldn't let her

haha so now i am sitting here tring to convice steven to go to church with me, kels, jules, stu, & jess
haha they are all short names lol

oh yes stu boyce has a group

My brother's birthday wasn't on Tuesday, it was on Friday. [Which I found out today.]

For those of you who don't read my xanga - I looked at my calendar on Tuesday and was like, "OMG IT'S ROBBIE'S BIRTHDAY." But it wasn't. Found out from my aunt and my dad today that YESTERDAY was his birthday.

Whoops, my bad. I've never been able to get that kid's birthday right.

Well, my family's coming over for his birthday tomorrow. Gonna be the first time in YEARS that my Dad's family and my mom and her family [which in this case justs consists of my mom's youngest sister - the other two live too far out of town] will have been together in AGES. We're gonna have soup, salad, sandwiches, and such.

We're gonna sit around and talk about Robbie.

I bet you five virtual dollars this is gonna suck.

My Aunt Vicki [Dad's sister] and my Mom have never gotten along. Part of that being that Vicki wishes she were our [mine and my brothers'] mom. And that Vicki got to kind of monopolize on Robbie's time because Mom had two other kids and a job to manage and the place we lived wasn't a healthy enough environment for Robbie to live with us.
[At the time we lived with my former step-father's parents and they had lots of animals and chain smoked constantly.]

Not to mention that it's just generally awkward.

Hell, it already sucks. I'm having to clean my ass off because these people are coming over tomorrow. And for some reason I can't get UN-TIRED so my ass has been dragging like you wouldn't believe. Must have taken me two hours to clean my bathroom.

Not to mention that mini camp starts next week and I can't quit thinking about it. . . God grant me the strength to not kill the people I cannot stand... the serenity to accept them for their sheer annoyingness... and the wisdom to know where to hide the bloody murder weapons [if the strength and the serenity don't work].

i am back but i still really miss passport! everyone their was so nice and i meet alot of cool people. Like charlie, will, mills, bobby, Sarah, Kate, and so many more people! can't wait to go next year!

later natalie

turned out soooo cute. its got like this dizzy look to them. and everyone in the picture looks very pale, we all kinda look like ghosts. its so weird. but im in love. and i paid the extra dollar for them to put the white borders on the edges. i think im gonna do that everytime. i really like that. anyway-i saw devils regects for the second time today. that movie is so sick, but so good. i really want the soundtrack. anyway-im at home tonight, i gotta stay here with my sister. my parents are out till late.
love, cailsey

well ive shutdown my AIM and Xanga...i was thinkin bout shuttin this down but a s/n Like darth vader comes around once in a life time so im keepin it. but im not updatin anymore cuz i feel the compy takes up too much time that i could spend doin some10 else. well good bye and have a happy life!!!

i have the theme to Daria stuck in my head... Garbage is wonderful. =]

so this is a random post.. whetev.

so phuseboxxx has stolen my heart.... xanga and myspace are getting really really old fast.

no one comes to my myspace any more... not that i can blame them (at all) nor are people going to my xanga.. rrrr.

who cares, though?
(me)

Katie's house was raaad as usual. we played with OSCAR THE FERRET ^_____^ i'm in love with him. he's adorable

i FINALLY got to see CHARLIE and THE CHOCOLATE FACTORY!!!!! it was amazing. i believe it's my new favorite movie