God's given me a window... and i can finally see the light?
August 08 2005
so there's been a friend from work who i've been praying for for... over a year now. as far as i know... she doesn't know Christ. like... i can't tell you the burden that God has given me for her. and like... i dunno... sometimes i just feel so helpless... b/c i dunno... i just hurts sometimes. tonight she got a call that her grandmother has cancer... she was so upset (i would be too i'm sure)... but my GM grabbed me and Amber... and asked us to lead in prayer. so we got to pray over her... and i know you're saying..."so what? you prayed over her... you've done that for other people." and yeah... maybe that's true... but she's never allowed us to do that. that's huge to me! i really just want to ask you guys to pray for her.. pray for her grammy... and pray for her.. that this would draw her to Christ... and not push her away from Him.. pray that she'd see her need for Him. pray that i would be a testimony and encouragement to her. thank you, guys. i love you all...
Truth betold..
August 08 2005
The countdown is at 12 days and I need to lay this out because I'm a horrible person for it..
I'm layin' this out for everyone because over the course of time I have no idea what your opinion of me is and if it's changed but I'd like to say I'm sorry for being the way I have been.
I thought going to college was going to be the best thing ever and that getting out of Murfreesboro was awesome when I'm wrong..to a certain degree. By that I mean that going off to college is the best thing ever IF you don't gloat about it and that getting out of Murfreesboro is awesome because it's a chance to change a bit of scenery not getting away form everyone.
I've been an all out jerk because I thought since I was going to UT I was better than everyone else. I thought MTSU was settling because it wasn't good enough and I thought that it was cool that I was going away to college and I was something special for that. NO college, especially MTSU, is second rate. I parted ways from the majority by going to UT and automatically assumed I was going to be the cool guy who leaves and lives this great life somewhere else and comes home to people regretting staying at home.
I put myself so far out in front of everyone else that I turned into something that I regret so much. I'm tired of trying to be right all the time and, knowing I'm wrong, making a big scene just to try and convince my way upon everyone else and make it seem like I won. I've been wrong so many times but would never admit it because I didn't want people to think less of me when that's exactly what happened.
All I can say is that I’m sorry for how I’ve been and I hope that all of you can forgive me for how I’ve been and I promise to change how I am..back to the way things used to be when the phrase “I have a red lawn mower†brought laughs to more people than it does now, heh..
So basically it’s over..childhood and all. Weird, isn’t it? I wish the best to everyone no matter if you’re still in high school, you’re in college here, in Knoxville, or somewhere on the other side of the country.
I’m sorry I wasn’t who I should have been. I am who I used to be again, though. :-)
..adios..
I'm layin' this out for everyone because over the course of time I have no idea what your opinion of me is and if it's changed but I'd like to say I'm sorry for being the way I have been.
I thought going to college was going to be the best thing ever and that getting out of Murfreesboro was awesome when I'm wrong..to a certain degree. By that I mean that going off to college is the best thing ever IF you don't gloat about it and that getting out of Murfreesboro is awesome because it's a chance to change a bit of scenery not getting away form everyone.
I've been an all out jerk because I thought since I was going to UT I was better than everyone else. I thought MTSU was settling because it wasn't good enough and I thought that it was cool that I was going away to college and I was something special for that. NO college, especially MTSU, is second rate. I parted ways from the majority by going to UT and automatically assumed I was going to be the cool guy who leaves and lives this great life somewhere else and comes home to people regretting staying at home.
I put myself so far out in front of everyone else that I turned into something that I regret so much. I'm tired of trying to be right all the time and, knowing I'm wrong, making a big scene just to try and convince my way upon everyone else and make it seem like I won. I've been wrong so many times but would never admit it because I didn't want people to think less of me when that's exactly what happened.
All I can say is that I’m sorry for how I’ve been and I hope that all of you can forgive me for how I’ve been and I promise to change how I am..back to the way things used to be when the phrase “I have a red lawn mower†brought laughs to more people than it does now, heh..
So basically it’s over..childhood and all. Weird, isn’t it? I wish the best to everyone no matter if you’re still in high school, you’re in college here, in Knoxville, or somewhere on the other side of the country.
I’m sorry I wasn’t who I should have been. I am who I used to be again, though. :-)
..adios..
hm...
August 08 2005
hmmm...so im new at this who phuse box thing....intresting...idk if it will beat good ole' xanga! hehe...
I'm alive!
August 08 2005
Yes, i am alive and doing ok. I offically have no wisdom teeth and my youth minister insists that now all my wisdom is gone! He's a big dork though so it's all good and gravy! The bottom jaw really hurts from the bone grafts and all but the top hardly hurts!! *yea baby* alrighty then i'll be 17 in 38 minutes and my birthday is official in 18hrs and 12min. oh yeah i'm good! good night to all who wonder. I"m tired from my meds!
Last Chapter
August 08 2005
[all of the things that I want to say]
this, the beginning of the conclusion of the first period of my life.
[just aren't coming out right]
from birth to present, the last chapter in the first portion of my life.
[I'm tripping inwards]
what i dont know, can't predict, is whether this last chapter is the resolution to the first part of my life story.
[you got my head spinning]
or does it contain the climax, yet to be written?
[I don't know where to go from here]
is there a plot twist?
[there's something about you now]
my character...is it static, unchanging, or is it dynamic?
[I can't quite figure out]
who plays an important role, especially with all the possibilities?
[everything she does is beautiful]
how many alternate endings are there?
[everything she does is right]
which scenes would i delete if i was director?
[I can't keep up]
who would want to read it?
[and I can't back down]
is it going to be predictable, suspenseful, comical?
[I've been losing so much time]
and how much of it will affect the next part of my life?
[cause it's you and me and all of the people]
who will prove loyal, and who will prove superficial?
[with nothing to do]
and who will prove crucial?
[nothing to lose]
what drama will unfold?
[and it's you and me and all of the people]
what new emotions will i feel?
[and I don't know why]
i'm anxious to find out.
[I can't keep my eyes off of you.]
::ben
Now Playing: "You and Me" by Lifehouse
[thanks to nathan for introducing me to lifehouse]
Let's Get It Started, in here...
August 08 2005
i'm just tryin to figure all this stuff out!!! i could use some help!! :)
This is a test
August 08 2005
This is a test for PhuseBox.
I love you in a sexual way
August 08 2005
This is Emily. I jsut remembered I made this for Malinda therefore I know her password. I am going to post the beautiful song she wrote me. So here it goes:
I Love you Emily
in a sexual way
no matter what they say
even if they call us gay
i always Loooooooove yyyyyyyyyyyyyyoooooooooooooou no matter what do i'll always make love to yyyyyyyyyooooooooooooooouuuuuuuuuuuuuu
and no matter where we go
you'll always be hoe
so lets get loooooooooooooooowwwwwwwwwwww YEAH
(instrumental)
Emily you'll always be my bitch
you cure my forbidden itch
and i dont ever need to be hitched
cause i like the things you do
they always seem so true
and never change who you are
bc you are my shinning star
and tonight i'll meet you at the bar
(instrumental)
your farts smell
like the death of hell
your boobs look like a tack
and i think they're comming out of your back but none of that matters to me bc i love you Emilyyyyyyyyyyy.
I Love you Emily
in a sexual way
no matter what they say
even if they call us gay
i always Loooooooove yyyyyyyyyyyyyyoooooooooooooou no matter what do i'll always make love to yyyyyyyyyooooooooooooooouuuuuuuuuuuuuu
and no matter where we go
you'll always be hoe
so lets get loooooooooooooooowwwwwwwwwwww YEAH
(instrumental)
Emily you'll always be my bitch
you cure my forbidden itch
and i dont ever need to be hitched
cause i like the things you do
they always seem so true
and never change who you are
bc you are my shinning star
and tonight i'll meet you at the bar
(instrumental)
your farts smell
like the death of hell
your boobs look like a tack
and i think they're comming out of your back but none of that matters to me bc i love you Emilyyyyyyyyyyy.
Untitled
August 08 2005
"You tell me when I'm being an arrogant son of bitch, and I tell you when you're a pain in the ass, which you are, 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a two second recovery rate, and then you're on to doing the next pain in the ass thing. So it's not going to be easy; it's going to be really hard. We're going to have to work at this everyday, but I want to do that. Because I want you. I want all of you, forever, you and me, everyday!" -the notebook
Im so glad I have that. ^^
Im so glad I have that. ^^
blah
August 08 2005
well, i'm kinda in a bad mood, but i think thats cause i'm sick and tired pretty much all the time. some things kinda make me mad a little easier lately. i guess it's the tiredness. mainly it's just the parents askin questions all the time.
i came to the conclusion today that i dont like txt messages all the time. sometimes thier acceptable, most of the time thier not though. it's impersonal. dont you agree?
i cant wait till college. i have mixed feelings about it though at times.
you know, i said that things make me mad here lately, but i should look on the bright side, theres alot worse that could be happening to me other than this mono stuff. i need to be a better optimist, more like what i used to be.
piece
i came to the conclusion today that i dont like txt messages all the time. sometimes thier acceptable, most of the time thier not though. it's impersonal. dont you agree?
i cant wait till college. i have mixed feelings about it though at times.
you know, i said that things make me mad here lately, but i should look on the bright side, theres alot worse that could be happening to me other than this mono stuff. i need to be a better optimist, more like what i used to be.
piece
BANDCAMP!
August 08 2005
First day of band camp complete..not too much to say 'cept that I'm tired and about to go to bed!
And to answer Garrett's question, I am section leader (duh!) with the lovely Alicia by my side!
And to answer Garrett's question, I am section leader (duh!) with the lovely Alicia by my side!
Happiness
August 08 2005
I had a very happy day today. I truly enjoyed life for the first time in days.School wasen't that bad and soccer practice was fun and i felt so happy and i could not stop smiling this morning. i'm not sure why but i think my perspective on alot of things has changed.
Untitled
August 08 2005
So I've been home from you all for what seems like quite a while now. I've wanted to write and tell you all that you meant more to me in two short weeks than most have meant to me in years of frindship, but there haven't been words or passion or any of the stuff that makes writing worthwhile.
I know God spoke to me (or His voice was at least amplified) through each friend I made, each jogger I saw in Central Park, each strange set of eyes I looked upon in the subway, but He has yet to really reveal what the words were that He spoke.
I am restless.
I am tearful.
I am searching for what is in front of my face.
Nevertheless, I thank you all for being real humans and realizing that your humanity is not separate from your Christianity; that in fact, it is inextricably intertwined. In that you showed more of the Father to me in one day than I see in countless days at times.
You are amazing and I hope the distance between us is lessened each day through Christ.
With utter gratitude...
I know God spoke to me (or His voice was at least amplified) through each friend I made, each jogger I saw in Central Park, each strange set of eyes I looked upon in the subway, but He has yet to really reveal what the words were that He spoke.
I am restless.
I am tearful.
I am searching for what is in front of my face.
Nevertheless, I thank you all for being real humans and realizing that your humanity is not separate from your Christianity; that in fact, it is inextricably intertwined. In that you showed more of the Father to me in one day than I see in countless days at times.
You are amazing and I hope the distance between us is lessened each day through Christ.
With utter gratitude...
lack of sleep!!!
August 08 2005
okay sorry im a huge Kutless fan....
"Strong Tower"
When I wander through the desert
And I'm longing for my home
All my dreams have gone astray
When I;m stranded in the valley
And I'm tired and all alone
It seems like I've lost my way
I go running to Your mountain
Where Your mercy sets me free
You are my strong tower
Shelter over me
Beautiful and mighty
Everlasting King
You are my strong tower
Fortess when I'm weak
Your name is true and holy
And Your face is all I seek
In the middle of my darkness
In the midst of all my fear
You're my refuge and my hope
When the storm of life is raging
And the thunder's all I fear
You speak softly to my soul
i think the lack of sleep is finally catching up! im sooo exhausted!!!
came in early tonight...as my mom says!!! but o well! i think this is like tha 1st night in a long time i have been home b4 10! its amazing as she says!!!
not going to Atlanta! hanging out w/ tha girls tomorrow night!!! wooo hooo!!! im gettin sad there all leaving me soon!!! :( got to spend as much time w/ them as i can!!! I LOVE YA GURLS!!!! they know who they are!!
well goin to tha football scrimmage tomorrow afternoon...im excited!!! i get to see how far they have come! i may head to practice in tha morning to! not to sure about that!!!
Love Through Christ!
~Rachel~
"Strong Tower"
When I wander through the desert
And I'm longing for my home
All my dreams have gone astray
When I;m stranded in the valley
And I'm tired and all alone
It seems like I've lost my way
I go running to Your mountain
Where Your mercy sets me free
You are my strong tower
Shelter over me
Beautiful and mighty
Everlasting King
You are my strong tower
Fortess when I'm weak
Your name is true and holy
And Your face is all I seek
In the middle of my darkness
In the midst of all my fear
You're my refuge and my hope
When the storm of life is raging
And the thunder's all I fear
You speak softly to my soul
i think the lack of sleep is finally catching up! im sooo exhausted!!!
came in early tonight...as my mom says!!! but o well! i think this is like tha 1st night in a long time i have been home b4 10! its amazing as she says!!!
not going to Atlanta! hanging out w/ tha girls tomorrow night!!! wooo hooo!!! im gettin sad there all leaving me soon!!! :( got to spend as much time w/ them as i can!!! I LOVE YA GURLS!!!! they know who they are!!
well goin to tha football scrimmage tomorrow afternoon...im excited!!! i get to see how far they have come! i may head to practice in tha morning to! not to sure about that!!!
Love Through Christ!
~Rachel~
Untitled
August 08 2005
school
actually
wasnt
that
bad.
wow
it
was
actually
great.
im
pretty
happy
it
started.
ya
i
know
im
a
loser
who
likes
school
exxcept
math
and
science
and
us history
everything
else
is
just
great.
much love.
actually
wasnt
that
bad.
wow
it
was
actually
great.
im
pretty
happy
it
started.
ya
i
know
im
a
loser
who
likes
school
exxcept
math
and
science
and
us history
everything
else
is
just
great.
much love.
Rest in Peace, Peter Jennings...
August 08 2005
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August 08 2005
i have a few pics from last week on my xanga if you're interested. i3lueyes. i am for real not posting them on all my sites haha
Post-painting
August 08 2005
So I just joined the Paint the Town group. It's really amazing how one week affected me so much. Maybe it's not that my life and my neighborhood is so boring. Maybe it's not that anything there was so exciting (though it really was). Maybe it's more that for one week in my entire life, no one had an attitude problem. No one had a bad word to say about anyone. Everyone was just there to work and praise God. Everyone just wanted to do the job. Life is so in the attitude. Why don't people get that? I came back to my retail job (in the middle of back to school season) to find everyone on edge. Everyone was quick to accuse, pass blame, offend and be offended. It was culture shock. The recovery from the Bronx has not been that I no longer have to dodge cabs, live with no air-conditioning, spend the day picking paint from under my nails, or eat nothing but cold cut sandwiches (with Italian dressing). The adjustment isn't in the building size or the routine. It's not in the location or the job I'm doing. It's not even in this intense separation anxiety from people who became my entire world for a week.
The difference is that the attitude is not the same. The difference is that I've tasted a bit of heaven and now I have to go back. This is how I felt after Passion '05 Nashville, only more so because I also have a sense of accomplishment after Paint the Town.
Maybe I think that if I can keep in touch with those amazing people, I can keep in touch with that great attitude. Maybe we all need to go out of our way to encourage each other more. There's just not enough encouragement around. So this is me encouraging anyone that reads this. Eph. 3:20-21 Ps. 30:5 Phil. 4:4
Keep it real.
The difference is that the attitude is not the same. The difference is that I've tasted a bit of heaven and now I have to go back. This is how I felt after Passion '05 Nashville, only more so because I also have a sense of accomplishment after Paint the Town.
Maybe I think that if I can keep in touch with those amazing people, I can keep in touch with that great attitude. Maybe we all need to go out of our way to encourage each other more. There's just not enough encouragement around. So this is me encouraging anyone that reads this. Eph. 3:20-21 Ps. 30:5 Phil. 4:4
Keep it real.
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August 08 2005
for anyone who cares i am updating
dbs rush is tonight & i am pretty sure i am so not in it but i would reallt like to be
congrats to all the girls in adk & dbs..
my granddad is here to stay...like yeah he is living with us...for about a month then he gets to go see my grandmother who passed away when i was 2...it is a very depressing time for me please pray
and to top all of this off SCHOOL STARTS IN TWO DAYS!!!!!
dbs rush is tonight & i am pretty sure i am so not in it but i would reallt like to be
congrats to all the girls in adk & dbs..
my granddad is here to stay...like yeah he is living with us...for about a month then he gets to go see my grandmother who passed away when i was 2...it is a very depressing time for me please pray
and to top all of this off SCHOOL STARTS IN TWO DAYS!!!!!
Orlando. . .
August 08 2005
Well. I'm here, I'm unpacked, and my room is cleaner than i've ever seen a living space of mine.
I'm living in what's called a solarium. it's difficult to describe, but it's like a one bedroom apartment with an alcove area that has these japanese doors that partitions it off. yea, it's confusing
i'll post pictures when i get an chance. we're being lazy now
I'm living in what's called a solarium. it's difficult to describe, but it's like a one bedroom apartment with an alcove area that has these japanese doors that partitions it off. yea, it's confusing
i'll post pictures when i get an chance. we're being lazy now
Do I have to hear this crap again..
August 08 2005
I dislike this time of year,not because we are going back to school or summer is ending. I dislike this time of year for it Rush season. When 10th and 11th grades get picked by upperclass to in a highly selective group. Yes, you have it ADK or DBS. What is worse is that it isn't only girls this year, it is also most of my guy friends being picked to be sponsors. I suppose I am not popular enough or liked by enough people ever to be picked. It makes me feel terribly like an outcast. It seems that High school sororities are only out there to give girls status to lord over others heads. I know they do charity and volunteer work, but hell you can do that on your own. I have. So there is usually a winter formal, yet another thing to rub in other girls faces. I just don't want to hear about this anymore.
I know that sounded like me being a jealous person, but you know what I am just a little.
Then again I look at it some pretty awesome people weren't in sororities take for example Faye, Allison or Kathryn. I bet Kate Hudson wasn't either.
Cara
I know that sounded like me being a jealous person, but you know what I am just a little.
Then again I look at it some pretty awesome people weren't in sororities take for example Faye, Allison or Kathryn. I bet Kate Hudson wasn't either.
Cara
ok
August 08 2005
updating
Lovely bunch of coconuts?
August 08 2005
There was lots of thunder today.
A lot of the girls got scared.
What wimps
Stupid.
We waited for 30 minutes for my bus outside. It felt nice outside, but it was getting all my stuff wet.
I have homework. ALGEBRA homework. My worst class in the universe. It's a review, but I don't remember anything. But I like my class.
Hopefully I won't fail.
Hmm, so I don't have any classes with Maegan, but I ride the same bus and I'm in the same lunch with her. So, it's a plus.
First day wasn't so bad...
A lot of the girls got scared.
What wimps
Stupid.
We waited for 30 minutes for my bus outside. It felt nice outside, but it was getting all my stuff wet.
I have homework. ALGEBRA homework. My worst class in the universe. It's a review, but I don't remember anything. But I like my class.
Hopefully I won't fail.
Hmm, so I don't have any classes with Maegan, but I ride the same bus and I'm in the same lunch with her. So, it's a plus.
First day wasn't so bad...
Untitled
August 08 2005
I should probably write on this...but I dont have anything to say
God's Peace...
August 08 2005
photo from givemorehugs
"Strengthen the feeble hands, steady the knees that give way; say to those with fearful hearts, 'Be strong, do not fear; your God will come , he will come with vengeance; with divine retribution he will come to save you'." -Isaiah 35:3-4
As for me, I will watch expectantly for the LORD;
I will wait for the God of my salvation. My God will hear me.
micah 7:7
The LORD is good to those who wait for Him, To the person who seeks Him.
lamentations 3:25
This is the sweetest song....(it makes me cry)
August 08 2005
And the one step and he's sliding
And the two steps and she's gliding
3 and the 1 and the 2
And then they float in the air
Side to side and she shows him
Back and forth cause she knows him
Round and round again
All that see them can't help but stare
Cause everyone knows they're in love
Everyone knows they're in love
Yes and everyone knows they're in love
By the way they dance
Cheek to cheek cause he needs her
Hand in hand as he leads her
Face to face cause they know
They'll never dance alone
Cause everyone knows they're in love
Everyone knows they're in love
Yes and everyone knows they're in love
By the way they dance
By the way she moves in circles
Ever so sweetly she wins him completly
By the way he holds her so gracefully
The hand that he lends her is able and tender
Never a step to chance
Cause everyone knows they're in love
By the way they dance
Cause everyone knows they're in love
Everyone knows they're in love
Yes and everyone knows they're in love
By the way they dance
Cause everyone knows they're in love
Everyone knows they're in love
Yes and everyone knows they're in love
By the way they dance
And the two steps and she's gliding
3 and the 1 and the 2
And then they float in the air
Side to side and she shows him
Back and forth cause she knows him
Round and round again
All that see them can't help but stare
Cause everyone knows they're in love
Everyone knows they're in love
Yes and everyone knows they're in love
By the way they dance
Cheek to cheek cause he needs her
Hand in hand as he leads her
Face to face cause they know
They'll never dance alone
Cause everyone knows they're in love
Everyone knows they're in love
Yes and everyone knows they're in love
By the way they dance
By the way she moves in circles
Ever so sweetly she wins him completly
By the way he holds her so gracefully
The hand that he lends her is able and tender
Never a step to chance
Cause everyone knows they're in love
By the way they dance
Cause everyone knows they're in love
Everyone knows they're in love
Yes and everyone knows they're in love
By the way they dance
Cause everyone knows they're in love
Everyone knows they're in love
Yes and everyone knows they're in love
By the way they dance
first
August 08 2005
i need help w/ phusebox, just got 1...
i dont really know how to work this...
August 08 2005
hey!! well yea i was talkin to emily and i decided to just make one of these things so yea!! well we had practice today and even though it was tough it was pretty awesome!! well ok i guess im gonna go ill ttyl
Me hungry =(
August 08 2005
So my stepdad is waiting for my mom to get home before we can go order chinese. What he doesn't realize is I had a bowl of cereal at 7:30 this morning and that was all. I am so hungry. The scary part is I lost 5 pounds since Friday. So I am waiting here until I can go get some chinese.
August 08 2005
For those of you who care, I have a facebook.
Hmmm...
August 08 2005
Does anybody not have church service wednesday and wanna go to starbucks and hangout at the mall or want to go earlier in the day and then take me to church with them? I dunno what to do without church on Wednesday lol.
Two days till I get my hair died! YAY!
Gloria Patri
Nathan
Ps: Read yesterday's post!
Two days till I get my hair died! YAY!
Gloria Patri
Nathan
Ps: Read yesterday's post!
One Big Pile Of pOOp!
August 08 2005
LiFe is hOrrible right now..y do we have to die? its soo sad to have someone you love pass away.. whether its a friend..pet..or family member..i rly need to keep happy right now so if you could leave me some nice remarks..thanks alot..i would appriciate it very much.i love love love you all!! muah
NeW mEmBeR!
August 08 2005
Hey everyone..this is myriah i just made this site for justin so he prolly doesnt have a clue what to do but leave him some remarks..please and thanks..hehe bye bye
i got an apartment!!!
August 08 2005
so i will be living in apt 437 in 2 weeks!!! yay!!! i will finally get my computer back, and my own place! i thought i should update since i haven't in a while...geez i haven't even been online since my last post! well, i started working out last week with amber hoo and so far i've lost 2 pounds! ha - i know that's not a lot, but for working out for 5 days i think it's good! anyways, i'm just getting geared up to see cassie in 6 days....YES it is FINALLY going to happen after a year and a half! hey - but patience is a virtue right? anyways, i'm almost done with harry potter 6, and i've already semi-guessed the ending. it almost makes me not want to finish it. but that is impossible b/c i am officially obsessed until i finish it. so, until next time...
What a weirdo
August 08 2005
I read my post and said to myself," what a weirdo!" haha. not funny...I was tired and crazy last night. I think I need to calm down. lol. Im too hyper. talk to much. but...I CAN DRIVE! lol. What am I doin...
- J 4 ( () 8
- edit
I wanna make up a weird word/sound to type.
hmm let me think.
GARSOFLOP!
Heh heh heh.
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- J 4 ( () 8
- edit
I wanna make up a weird word/sound to type.
hmm let me think.
GARSOFLOP!
Heh heh heh.
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Pics
August 08 2005
Some Considerations...
August 08 2005
Ok, so I am considering a couple of things:
1. Taking some graphic design classes in college for electives. I would do this through mass comm, however, for some strange reason I have to have 80 classes outside of mass comm, so I may actually be taking a couple of these classes through the ART department. I've never taken an art class in my life. I may have to take a couple of basic art classes before I move on to graphic design classes. Older college kids: do you know anything about the art department and the teachers? Will they smite me for having little drawing ability if I am forced to take Drawing 1?
I began to consider this as a result of the fun I had with Paint Shop Pro this morning:
photo from SingAHappySong
2. I am considering using my second Phusebox (UntilLater- which was created when I was having technical difficulties with my current username) as a place for me to post devotions. Nathan suggested this, and I had been considering the idea already. This consideration is highly possible, in fact, I might make my first devotional post on there later today or tomorrow.
Also, I am still thinking about and praying about what God has in store for me concerning youth and drama stuff. Thanks for all the encouragement guys... y'all rock my socks!
I'm almost finished with Between A Rock and A Hard Place... I just have to finish the last chapter... which is extremely long...
1. Taking some graphic design classes in college for electives. I would do this through mass comm, however, for some strange reason I have to have 80 classes outside of mass comm, so I may actually be taking a couple of these classes through the ART department. I've never taken an art class in my life. I may have to take a couple of basic art classes before I move on to graphic design classes. Older college kids: do you know anything about the art department and the teachers? Will they smite me for having little drawing ability if I am forced to take Drawing 1?
I began to consider this as a result of the fun I had with Paint Shop Pro this morning:
photo from SingAHappySong
2. I am considering using my second Phusebox (UntilLater- which was created when I was having technical difficulties with my current username) as a place for me to post devotions. Nathan suggested this, and I had been considering the idea already. This consideration is highly possible, in fact, I might make my first devotional post on there later today or tomorrow.
Also, I am still thinking about and praying about what God has in store for me concerning youth and drama stuff. Thanks for all the encouragement guys... y'all rock my socks!
I'm almost finished with Between A Rock and A Hard Place... I just have to finish the last chapter... which is extremely long...
Champion of the World!
August 08 2005
Hey guys...well, i'm updating this darned thing upon request of the ginster...
so yeah, thanks everyone who has become my friend. and yes, i am immensely happy because of it...so thank you...
i really have nothing to talk about...anything of recent importance, i suppose you can read on gini's phusebox...username "virginia".
love you all. whoever reads this...
-bEn
so yeah, thanks everyone who has become my friend. and yes, i am immensely happy because of it...so thank you...
i really have nothing to talk about...anything of recent importance, i suppose you can read on gini's phusebox...username "virginia".
love you all. whoever reads this...
-bEn
Back in town!
August 08 2005
Hey
This weekend I went to eddyville, Ky ( the smallest town i have ever been in ) Well it was fun I got to see all my family well just about! Yea I went to Fancy Farm too! THat was really fun. Well thats about it.
Natalie
This weekend I went to eddyville, Ky ( the smallest town i have ever been in ) Well it was fun I got to see all my family well just about! Yea I went to Fancy Farm too! THat was really fun. Well thats about it.
Natalie
so i'm in the library...
August 08 2005
i'm in the library and these two people are arguing people next to me. i'm thinking about moving down to school to a different computer lab. they are freaking annoying!!! yeah i'm gonna move and i'll add more in a minute...ahhh good gracious. well they left and now i can type in peace. so we finished our performances this weekend and i worked last night. i will be going in to get my tips and paycheck today. WOO HOO! guess who's going shopping for some new jeans. um, so i get to sit around for the next couple of weeks before school starts. all i'm going to be doing is working and sitting around the apartment. sounds like fun to me. today was great because i woke up around 930 then went to the convenience store and bought some oj and breakfast, ate, then went back to sleep until 200. it was awesome. well i've got to update all my other things like myspace and email and whatever other websites i'm a part of. talk to you all soon. Have a merry day!
yea yea
August 08 2005
well, dont know really what to write, im kinda down now. schools about to start, and it seems like my life is trying to get harder every second. anything that can go wrong, pretty much does, but thats ok, because its just driving my insane, nothing wrong with that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Jason Mr.A-Z
August 08 2005
Let me just tell you, That Jason Mraz's new CD is absolutly fantabulous! It's called Mr. A-Z if you dont have it, GET IT!
Ryan comes home today. :-)
If you had to pick a character in harry potter, who would you be?
Ryan comes home today. :-)
If you had to pick a character in harry potter, who would you be?
yo
August 08 2005
You are a genious! Or you cheated. Well, congrats
you saw through my
made-to-fool-you-answers...whether you had help
or not I don't know. I hope you liked my
questions, message me your opinion.
Test your Brillance!
brought to you by Quizilla
This quiz was really fun. I esp liked the last question and got it right. I better have being from KY. haha. Anyway, you all should take it!
-Dana :)
Second Phusebox
August 08 2005
I'm kinda wondering... especially after seeing how many people wanted to be my friend even though I never use this Phusebox since I got SingAHappySong to work... how can I take advantage of a second Phusebox? Ideas?
never a good image.
August 08 2005
photo from bouclee
ohmygosh. mom. i gotta go. [click]
excuse me, miss, do you know how fast you were going?
[shaking ridiculously] no, sir, i have no idea
well, i clocked you going over 20 over
um. okay. [still shaking, and in disbelief]
are you okay? can you take a deep breath for me? i need you to calm down
no, i'm okay. i really had no idea i was going that fast. are you sure?
yes. i see you have tennessee plates. what brings you here?
oh. i go to olivet.
oh. you like it?
yes sir.
i also saw you were talking on your cell phone. it's a new law that under 18 can't do that. but i guess olivet makes you older than that. so i just wanted to check. be careful on those things though
yes sir.
well, miss, i'm going to need to see your license and insurance card. have you had any written warnings or tickets recently?
oh yes. [shaking so badly i can't even get my insurance card out of my wallet.]
i figured as much. okay. here, let me help you with that. it'll be okay. let me just go back here and check on a few things.
HOURS LATER, now in tears...
well, what brought you to onu, cassie?
um. i wanted to go to a christian school. my parents and brother went here.
what's your major?
english education.
high school, huh? interested in youth ministry?
yes sir. i even took a couple classes. just for the knowledge.
you like christian music?
yes sir. expecially worship.
did you go to shinefest?
no sir. i was actually out of town.
oh. well, you should have gone. i took my wife and son and it was great. if i told you that i wouldn't give you a ticket would you promise to go next year?
what? really?
no, just kidding. but you really should go.
okay.
do you think you deserve a ticket today, cassie?
of course. i really didn't think i was going that fast, but i was still breaking the law either way. i deserve one. i just REALLY don't want one.
well, i really don't want to give you one. i see the shape you're in and feel kinda bad for you. but listen, see that subdivision over there? that's where i live. so my wife and son could pull out of there at any time. will you slow down for their sake?
oh yes sir. i'm so sorry.
good. it's okay. and i'm gonna let you go today. you can start breathing now. it was good to meet you. good luck with teaching high school. and keep God first.
whew. God takes care of me. and sometimes in ridiculous ways. wow. :)
aight
August 08 2005
i'm back from gulf shores. I had a blast, even though that place is pretty run down since the hurricane hit it last year. Me and ben went to this cool restaurant called lamburts, where they throw rolls at you and everything on the menu is all u can eat. good stuff. we also went deep sea fishing on an afternoon and morning trip. we met up with forrest in destin for the morning trip. that was alot of fun. yesturday i went to opry mills with all my friends...and let me tell u it was so good to back and see all of them and just hang out again. Anyways, school starts back on Thursday, and i'm so not ready. Even though i'm excited about the first half day, so i can see who all i get classes with and everything. Oh and by the way ben yeargan has a phusebox now. It's called what?im6ft5? So show the man some love and send him a friend request...b/c he needs more friends. For now, i'm out.
Ghaynes
movie quote: The only rules that really matter are these: what a man can do and what a man can't do.
~ Captain Jack Sparrow: Pirates of the Caribbean
Ghaynes
movie quote: The only rules that really matter are these: what a man can do and what a man can't do.
~ Captain Jack Sparrow: Pirates of the Caribbean
SO
August 08 2005
Ok
I have been in NC for a week now, and I am still broke but livin. I realized what TN needs that NC has...........a beach. We went last week. It was cool to only have to drive 2.5 hrs to get to the beach. This is an inivitation for anybody who wants to come and visit can come. other than that things are great. i dont really do anything. cole quit buggin me about those pics. i have to have a scanner first b4 ican put them up. gosh. oh well. holla im oot.
I have been in NC for a week now, and I am still broke but livin. I realized what TN needs that NC has...........a beach. We went last week. It was cool to only have to drive 2.5 hrs to get to the beach. This is an inivitation for anybody who wants to come and visit can come. other than that things are great. i dont really do anything. cole quit buggin me about those pics. i have to have a scanner first b4 ican put them up. gosh. oh well. holla im oot.
Smile for you.
August 08 2005
Hi!,
How are you guys doing?..I hope in your mind you said good. If not, wanna talk about it? I've been in a funk lately, like a haze of unhappiness. I think its starting to go away now, i know come school starting back up...im going to be in agreat mood. The reason i wasn't in a good mood, is because i have been having terrible luck with girls all summer long...right when i thought my luck was about to change, i got shut down. Gahhh. :-) if it didn't work out, then God probably has a better plan i suppose.
I don't ask for a lot from a girl. Some of the things i want are simple.
I want a girl who isn't going to get mad at me if i hold her hand while im driving.
A girl who is not going to get creeped out if I want to cuddle.
A girl that Isn't going to get mad if i just want to call her to tell her that I appreciate the time she spends with me, and how beautiful I think she is.
It would be nice to have someone to invite over for lunch , and we could watch tv and eat some mac and cheese :-)
To stop myself from rambling on ....basically my standards aren't standards, they aren't requirements, they aren't wishes, they aren't dreams, just hopes. I don't know if this list is too elaborate for people to handle, and thats why i haven't had good luck. But my biggest thing is i need a girl who loves and is capable of being loved.
sorry for boring you to tears,
your buddy forever and EVER,
jeremy hirt
How are you guys doing?..I hope in your mind you said good. If not, wanna talk about it? I've been in a funk lately, like a haze of unhappiness. I think its starting to go away now, i know come school starting back up...im going to be in agreat mood. The reason i wasn't in a good mood, is because i have been having terrible luck with girls all summer long...right when i thought my luck was about to change, i got shut down. Gahhh. :-) if it didn't work out, then God probably has a better plan i suppose.
I don't ask for a lot from a girl. Some of the things i want are simple.
I want a girl who isn't going to get mad at me if i hold her hand while im driving.
A girl who is not going to get creeped out if I want to cuddle.
A girl that Isn't going to get mad if i just want to call her to tell her that I appreciate the time she spends with me, and how beautiful I think she is.
It would be nice to have someone to invite over for lunch , and we could watch tv and eat some mac and cheese :-)
To stop myself from rambling on ....basically my standards aren't standards, they aren't requirements, they aren't wishes, they aren't dreams, just hopes. I don't know if this list is too elaborate for people to handle, and thats why i haven't had good luck. But my biggest thing is i need a girl who loves and is capable of being loved.
sorry for boring you to tears,
your buddy forever and EVER,
jeremy hirt
Gilmore Girl marathon
August 08 2005
So this weekend, I did absolutely nothing. Well, I did do my laundry all day on Saturday. But I didn't bath for two days and I just chilled. Gross yes I know, but it was nice to just be by myself.
I am looking forward to Ellie and Meredith being back. It has been weird not seeing their faces everyday.
I am trying to convince someone to go see "Regis and Kelly" with me tomorrow. We would have to wait for Standby tickets, but I think it would be so much fun. Kate Hudson and Paul Rudd are going to be on tomorrow.
The office isn't the same without Tag and Laura. I miss them both dearly. The vibe is very different now.
I talked to Tacoya the other night and it totally made me miss The Boro!! I am looking forward to visiting there in November while I am home for Thanksgiving.
I think next week we are going to Six Flags!!! And I am going to Pennsylvania to see Sara Demerchant. So big trips coming up!!!
Aye with the poodles! (watch Gilmore Girls and you will know what I am talking about)
I am looking forward to Ellie and Meredith being back. It has been weird not seeing their faces everyday.
I am trying to convince someone to go see "Regis and Kelly" with me tomorrow. We would have to wait for Standby tickets, but I think it would be so much fun. Kate Hudson and Paul Rudd are going to be on tomorrow.
The office isn't the same without Tag and Laura. I miss them both dearly. The vibe is very different now.
I talked to Tacoya the other night and it totally made me miss The Boro!! I am looking forward to visiting there in November while I am home for Thanksgiving.
I think next week we are going to Six Flags!!! And I am going to Pennsylvania to see Sara Demerchant. So big trips coming up!!!
Aye with the poodles! (watch Gilmore Girls and you will know what I am talking about)
God gives me my happiness.
August 08 2005
last night was probably the most wonderful night
I have had in a longlonglong time. :]
I am just so happy now.
like the happy where you want to dance
& do flips all day ahaha. < 3
also God showed me something last night.
I know He answers prayers
but last night he answered one that
I had been praying about for maybe a year.
that's just wanted added to my happiness last night.
I mean God is amazing.
no doubt about that at all.
watch "nuisance" by john reuben.
it's awesome becaaaause
matt thiessen is in it :D
yes, the guy from relient k ahaha.
this week is going to be great.
I can just feel it.
music video & stuff. < 3
I have had in a longlonglong time. :]
I am just so happy now.
like the happy where you want to dance
& do flips all day ahaha. < 3
also God showed me something last night.
I know He answers prayers
but last night he answered one that
I had been praying about for maybe a year.
that's just wanted added to my happiness last night.
I mean God is amazing.
no doubt about that at all.
watch "nuisance" by john reuben.
it's awesome becaaaause
matt thiessen is in it :D
yes, the guy from relient k ahaha.
this week is going to be great.
I can just feel it.
music video & stuff. < 3
Belle Aire Group
August 08 2005
Someone posted 2 pictures last week of a Belle Aire group shot and a school from Paint the Town. I have been unable to find it again. I would like to have it for a presentation that will be given to the finance and missions committee of the church.
If you posted it or know where it is on the web page, would you let me know?
Thanks,
Carolyn Outland
If you posted it or know where it is on the web page, would you let me know?
Thanks,
Carolyn Outland
~* Hello *~
August 08 2005
Well last night I went to this little church picnic thing with Jessica......It was pretty fun....lol.......Well not much to say......
FUNNY
August 08 2005
OK i have a funny story for my 4th floor hallmates this summer. Ok we had atleast 3 people, at times much more then that, getting ready at one time. Karalee with her Hair... me with my hair... Curling irons, TV's music... etc. Not once did we ever blow a fuse. Ok well today... its just me. No one else on this entire floor. HEc, the building... and what do i do. Blow a fuse. GIrls. THe building misses you.
*yawn*
August 08 2005
hey guess what! there will be a "music from the oc mix 5"!!!!1 !1 1!1 111!11!!1
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1
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anyway, band camp today which means very little computer for me this week. poo.
wish me luck!
"....i swear i'd burn down this city, just to show you the light...."
sara
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1
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anyway, band camp today which means very little computer for me this week. poo.
wish me luck!
"....i swear i'd burn down this city, just to show you the light...."
sara
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August 08 2005
Band today.
I am up WAY to early for this.
I am up WAY to early for this.
YAY
August 08 2005
i got a car!! i'm soooo excited. i'll put up pics later
Photo From Trademarkofdoom
August 08 2005
i'm just gonna be honest
August 08 2005
i envy those that fall asleep as soon as they lay down. after 3 hours of tossing and turning i decided it wasn't worth it anymore. so here i am at 3AM...hmm.
things i can do at 3AM:
1. if i were in birmingham, i could go to late night cafe with alicia and order a calzone and only eat half of it
2. if i were in birmingham, i could drive to eric's apt and wake him up to go get an egg from waffle house, not ihop
3. if i were in birmingham, i could secretly steal the orange cones from campus safety
4. if i were in birmingham, i could go swimming in the fountain at samford
but ya know what, i'm not in birmingham...so what do i do at 3AM in nyc???
things i can do at 3AM:
1. if i were in birmingham, i could go to late night cafe with alicia and order a calzone and only eat half of it
2. if i were in birmingham, i could drive to eric's apt and wake him up to go get an egg from waffle house, not ihop
3. if i were in birmingham, i could secretly steal the orange cones from campus safety
4. if i were in birmingham, i could go swimming in the fountain at samford
but ya know what, i'm not in birmingham...so what do i do at 3AM in nyc???
ah, insomnia...
August 07 2005
lord have mercy. i think maybe i'm nocturnal. it's gonna be pretty funny when i get rushed tomorrow night, and i'm just sitting up in my living room watching Conan O'Brien. nah. i guess i'll take a lot of benadryl to make me sleep tomorrow. just watched ER. man, i love that show. oh yeah, and i think i've decided what i want to do with my life. i want to be a neurosurgeon. yay rah. so that means i have around 10 more years of school and the like left. woot. my favorite cousin (second cousin) left today. she's so cool. she's getting married on Sept. 24th, and i get to sing at her wedding! which also means i get to miss school. can't get any better than that. i want school to start. but, as Kelsey and i discussed tonight, as soon as i get there and see everyone, i'll get re-bored (i just made up my own word) and start hating it again. woot. i hope i get to go to lunch w/ Kaitlin tomorrow. but alas, we are poor. but i have money, so it's all good. well, i guess i'm gonna go hit the sack and read a lil bit of The Book From Hell, otherwise known as Silas Marner. g'nite! ----Cari
how very odd
August 07 2005
this is strange... do i like it?
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August 07 2005
i don't know how this works.
i'm sick.
=)
GOOD LUCK WITH THE BOPPALOPAS
i'm sick.
=)
GOOD LUCK WITH THE BOPPALOPAS
no title
August 07 2005
so i love him
but i've never met him.
i will marry him
but i've never seen him.
i love how he loves me
but i've never heard his voice.
he's my world
but i don't even know his name.
he will come to me
but until then, i'll wait for you my love.
but i've never met him.
i will marry him
but i've never seen him.
i love how he loves me
but i've never heard his voice.
he's my world
but i don't even know his name.
he will come to me
but until then, i'll wait for you my love.
jUst thInk whaT i WouLd dO
August 07 2005
well im new... so0o yeah
Just Keep Tryin
August 07 2005
I've been tryin to not complain, but its so hard when you get confused...and everyone gets mad...and then you just feel depressed for an hour or two... I just wanna fit in but I feel like Im not even who I am, or even who I wanna be. Im so confused and songs keep rushing through my head until I wanna explode. I think Im gonna go crazy if I dont find a friend who actually relates to my personality, or even someone within my brainwave. I feel alone yet I have friends, I feel sad yet I have so much to be grateful for, I feel tired but want to push on. Then all of those feelings are reversed and I dont know what to do. I guess Im lucky for what I have but Im frustrated with myself. Im gonna go to bed and stay asleep till 10 at least tommorrow. I wanna explode. My friends complain to me and dont understand when I try to complain to them. Forgive me for complaining. Pray for me to have calmness please.
HELP NEEDED:
I need someone to understand.
Thanks for lettin me talk to yall.
- jacob
HELP NEEDED:
I need someone to understand.
Thanks for lettin me talk to yall.
- jacob
It's all tears and smiles
August 07 2005
Home at last, I got off the plane at Hartsfield went up the escalater and was greated by four of the greatest guys I have ever meet. I refer to them as my boys. The best of my friends. I am so happy to be home and I smiled the whole day Saturday. Sunday I got to finally get back on the stage on play with my band and we sounded better than ever. I have to admit that with how amazing it has been the past two days it's hard to miss NYC. To those of you who are reading this and thinking I have forgotten about you I haven't. I want to say that this summer was a major struggle for me. God asked me to step up my game big time. And you guys were there to help me through it. I get brought to tears when I think about how much I love you guys. To me NY wasn't about the big buildings,amazing food, or the history behind it. It was the people. The amazing friendships I made. That's what I miss. You guy were a part of a life changing event of my life and when I look back on this summer I will think of you.
Hmmm
August 07 2005
Is phusebox better than xanga.....We'll find out.
i feel lovely
August 07 2005
i feel lovey
hot and sweaty
playing baseball in the backyard
talking to my best guy friends
running around like a maniac
cleaning my room
being a tard!
reading books cause im geeky
picking off my nailpolish
casue i was bored
i dont think life could get any better!
i swear im such a tard!!
i love christain music!
88.7 rocks the coolest socks!
imma geek...but i love it!
B.
hot and sweaty
playing baseball in the backyard
talking to my best guy friends
running around like a maniac
cleaning my room
being a tard!
reading books cause im geeky
picking off my nailpolish
casue i was bored
i dont think life could get any better!
i swear im such a tard!!
i love christain music!
88.7 rocks the coolest socks!
imma geek...but i love it!
B.
Please tell me next time!!!
August 07 2005
So I walk out of the shower in a towel like usual. I walk out of my bedroom in my underwear to grab pants out of the laundry basket. I get dressed, get on the computer and see my brother's friend come out of his room. So I would like an advance notice if someone other than my family is at my house!
def. hott.
August 07 2005
susanne came over yesterday.
we went and hung out in coolsprings last night.
went to church today.
almost cried b/c julianne wasnt there and i havent seen her in three weeks.
went to bread n company for lunch with susanne.
then went to the mall.
then went to the fair tonight w/ rachael.
i havent seen her in forever either.
it was quite thrilling.
i also saw jeannie.
that was too exciting.
we went and hung out in coolsprings last night.
went to church today.
almost cried b/c julianne wasnt there and i havent seen her in three weeks.
went to bread n company for lunch with susanne.
then went to the mall.
then went to the fair tonight w/ rachael.
i havent seen her in forever either.
it was quite thrilling.
i also saw jeannie.
that was too exciting.
yo again
August 07 2005
Michael Buble is beautiful!
Untitled
August 07 2005
yup i finally got a phusebox, garrett is def ganna have to put a picture on here, so u really believe im 6'5. yes yes, i know its hard to believe, but i am. so ill talk to everyone later. and leave some comments, i need some buddies. dont want anyone thinking im alone.
Heres a thanks for a summer i will always remember
August 07 2005
^Hellogoodbye^
Summer is over [band camp tomorrow, school next week] so I thought this entry would be all about the amazing summer Ive had.
It makes me think of this time last year....
Nick, Maegan, and Kelly were my best friends.This summer, Ive barely even talked to Nick and Maegan and it used to make me sad as hell. But one day I just realized it was better that way. And I know Maegan reads this and Im sure she'll end up telling everyone what I said and they'll end up hating me anyway but oh well. I dont care anymore.Its retarded to have this thing and not say what I really want to say. I still love Nick and Maegan I just realize weve grown apart and Im okay with that.
So anyway, this has been the best summer of my so far life. The beginning....yeah that kinda sucked.. But if Alex hadnt crapped on my heart [lol] I never would have realized who my real friends were [becuz the ones that really love me supported me and helped me through all that], and I never would have been set up with Adam, who just so happens to be the most amazing person in the world. I cant believe how much Ive changed this summer and its great. =)
So thank you to Tyler who would kill someone for me and I know this. Youve been there for me through everrrrrrrrrything. Pretty sure youre one of the few boys that has seen me cry. I love you, man.
And thank you to Adam for being the sweetest person in the world.
And thank you to Kelly Jo for always being there to listen to me bitch or complain or just cry. I love you!
And thank you to Sara for being my friend since 3rd grade. I dont know how you put up with me for that long heh. I love you too!
Wow Im being pretty ballsy right now. I mean, I talked about Nick and Maegan knowing Maegan reads this and setting myself up for them hating me, and I talked about how great Adam is knowing Rachel reads this and shes "the ex".
I never would have written an entry like that last summer,,,,I'd be too scared to.
So cheers to this summer! I hope my Junior year is as awesome as the summer leading up to it was.
Summer is over [band camp tomorrow, school next week] so I thought this entry would be all about the amazing summer Ive had.
It makes me think of this time last year....
Nick, Maegan, and Kelly were my best friends.This summer, Ive barely even talked to Nick and Maegan and it used to make me sad as hell. But one day I just realized it was better that way. And I know Maegan reads this and Im sure she'll end up telling everyone what I said and they'll end up hating me anyway but oh well. I dont care anymore.Its retarded to have this thing and not say what I really want to say. I still love Nick and Maegan I just realize weve grown apart and Im okay with that.
So anyway, this has been the best summer of my so far life. The beginning....yeah that kinda sucked.. But if Alex hadnt crapped on my heart [lol] I never would have realized who my real friends were [becuz the ones that really love me supported me and helped me through all that], and I never would have been set up with Adam, who just so happens to be the most amazing person in the world. I cant believe how much Ive changed this summer and its great. =)
So thank you to Tyler who would kill someone for me and I know this. Youve been there for me through everrrrrrrrrything. Pretty sure youre one of the few boys that has seen me cry. I love you, man.
And thank you to Adam for being the sweetest person in the world.
And thank you to Kelly Jo for always being there to listen to me bitch or complain or just cry. I love you!
And thank you to Sara for being my friend since 3rd grade. I dont know how you put up with me for that long heh. I love you too!
Wow Im being pretty ballsy right now. I mean, I talked about Nick and Maegan knowing Maegan reads this and setting myself up for them hating me, and I talked about how great Adam is knowing Rachel reads this and shes "the ex".
I never would have written an entry like that last summer,,,,I'd be too scared to.
So cheers to this summer! I hope my Junior year is as awesome as the summer leading up to it was.
new pic..
August 07 2005
hey! i got a new pic..i meant for it to be like that to! so yeah.
And Once Again, God is GOOD!
August 07 2005
And in addition to my previous post, I wanted to share what God just showed me. To be honest, I have felt very alone during this trip, causing me to be sad and allowed for satan to tamper with my insecurity. Thus making me question others love for me and long for it. I just sat on my bed crying to God. And asked Him to let me feel love. And then He showed me this verse: "I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you in with loving-kindness. I will build you up again." -Jeremiah 31:3&4.This just made me smile and cry even harder, but with joy. Even when I feel alone, I never am. And just because I am a christian does not mean I won't feel alone or be sad, because I will. And this does not mean I can't question whether or not I am loved...that of course comes ten times as much being an insecure girl, which God is working on by the way. Anyway, God is good. And He loves us all that way, always has and always will. Praise God! He is so awesome!
I am leaving tomorrow! yay! so maybe I will see some of you! I hope everyone has a great night!
I am leaving tomorrow! yay! so maybe I will see some of you! I hope everyone has a great night!
I think my tractor's sexy...
August 07 2005
Bethany and I went to Florida this past week…it was a good vacation before school starts!
On the way from Tampa Airport to our hotel in Clearwater....
photo from spencertheduck
The beach!
photo from spencertheduck
Kathleen came to hang out…
photo from spencertheduck
Our feet!
photo from spencertheduck
Today we went to the farm and drove one of the tractors….no, really.
photo from spencertheduck
photo from spencertheduck
photo from spencertheduck
AND I just want to say that I read the 6th Harry Potter. I forget how much I love Harry Potter (the books, that is) until I read another one. I just get so sucked into it. I know some of you might not have finished it yet, so I will just say this because it’s funny:
I cried. A lot. On the plane, on the way home yesterday. I am sure it had something to do with the fact that we’d had about 2.5 hours of sleep…but I was so trying to hide it and it wasn’t working. Good book.
School starts for me tomorrow. Today I went to clean my room…Rebekah came and helped me (thanks!) It was fun! I am looking forward to this year….hopefully it will be good!
Anyway…off to bed. (Actually, to watch The O.C. in my bed [I am embarrassed to admit that I like it….and that I’ve rented all of Season 1 to watch on DVD] and pretend to be asleep).
On the way from Tampa Airport to our hotel in Clearwater....
photo from spencertheduck
The beach!
photo from spencertheduck
Kathleen came to hang out…
photo from spencertheduck
Our feet!
photo from spencertheduck
Today we went to the farm and drove one of the tractors….no, really.
photo from spencertheduck
photo from spencertheduck
photo from spencertheduck
AND I just want to say that I read the 6th Harry Potter. I forget how much I love Harry Potter (the books, that is) until I read another one. I just get so sucked into it. I know some of you might not have finished it yet, so I will just say this because it’s funny:
I cried. A lot. On the plane, on the way home yesterday. I am sure it had something to do with the fact that we’d had about 2.5 hours of sleep…but I was so trying to hide it and it wasn’t working. Good book.
School starts for me tomorrow. Today I went to clean my room…Rebekah came and helped me (thanks!) It was fun! I am looking forward to this year….hopefully it will be good!
Anyway…off to bed. (Actually, to watch The O.C. in my bed [I am embarrassed to admit that I like it….and that I’ve rented all of Season 1 to watch on DVD] and pretend to be asleep).
School
August 07 2005
School has started and so has soccer. And i'm pretty excited about that. Soccer is so much fun and i think we're gonna have a pretty good team this year.We have alot of new people on the team but they are all doing really good.We're gonna have a fun season. Please pray for Matt Blankenship.
Hawaii
August 07 2005
Had a blast in Hawaii! But not looking forward to working 7:30 to 5:00 for the rest of the summer ... why do it then? I am however looking forward to the paychecks! I've got a Vegas trip planned with Adam for November ... so I got to start saving for that! Fun stuff huh?
the weekend
August 07 2005
This weekend was so much fun!!! Tyler's birthday was on Friday, yay for cookies and stupid party hats! Then on Saturday, Marylane came over and she and my dad and I painted my room, and it's soooooo great! I've been waiting such a long time to do this, and I'm totally happy with the color. It's purple; the technical color is "Starry Sky." Then I went and hung out with Tyler, Katie, and Adam at the library and we saw an "octopus" in the fountain. Today I moved all my furniture back in my room and put my posters and such back on my walls, and now I'm typing out this entry.
Now, it's time for band camp. *heaves a giant sigh of resignation*
Now, it's time for band camp. *heaves a giant sigh of resignation*
Move Along, People. Nothing of Content to Read Here.
August 07 2005
Well, I can't really think of anything worthwhile to say [because who wants to hear about finding corset pieces and toupee tape while rearraging a room? It's not what you think it is, I promise], but I have this urge to update.
Therefor, I'm slapping a piece of writing up here and calling my job "done." Contrary to what these might suggest, I'm not bitter.
Oh, for a rose that never dies,
Whose sweet essence fills the room,
That overwhelms the nose’s eyes
With a lover’s heady fumes.
Oh, for a heart as red and pure
As this sweet Venus-flower.
Alas, too much have I endured –
My bloom grows blacker by the hour.
Oh, for a man who’s worth a rose
And lives not in a book.
I guess, my dear, it goes to show
We needn’t bother look!
Annnnnnd another one. Because they have the same theme. Sort of. Because that one didn't take up near enough room. Because my Mom is watching Harry Potter down below. Hell, I don't know. Pick a reason.
This twisted, wrent, and wilting flower
Tearing in my fists
Reminds me with such righteous power
Wherefor my soul does twist.
Ah, this pretty rose, so fine to see
Now its petals have been shorn
Serves as a bitter memory
From whence our love was born
A gift one breathless long-since night
Before your mask was doffed
When guiding stars were shining bright –
They’re hidden now I’m lost.
This lovely rose, with petals soft
Emits its sweet and velvet scent
With such a plaintive, painful cry
That even saints repent.
The petals fall now one by one
Dying on the breeze
Such a murderous antidote becomes
This thing called "love’s" disease.
Ciao!
Therefor, I'm slapping a piece of writing up here and calling my job "done." Contrary to what these might suggest, I'm not bitter.
Oh, for a rose that never dies,
Whose sweet essence fills the room,
That overwhelms the nose’s eyes
With a lover’s heady fumes.
Oh, for a heart as red and pure
As this sweet Venus-flower.
Alas, too much have I endured –
My bloom grows blacker by the hour.
Oh, for a man who’s worth a rose
And lives not in a book.
I guess, my dear, it goes to show
We needn’t bother look!
Annnnnnd another one. Because they have the same theme. Sort of. Because that one didn't take up near enough room. Because my Mom is watching Harry Potter down below. Hell, I don't know. Pick a reason.
This twisted, wrent, and wilting flower
Tearing in my fists
Reminds me with such righteous power
Wherefor my soul does twist.
Ah, this pretty rose, so fine to see
Now its petals have been shorn
Serves as a bitter memory
From whence our love was born
A gift one breathless long-since night
Before your mask was doffed
When guiding stars were shining bright –
They’re hidden now I’m lost.
This lovely rose, with petals soft
Emits its sweet and velvet scent
With such a plaintive, painful cry
That even saints repent.
The petals fall now one by one
Dying on the breeze
Such a murderous antidote becomes
This thing called "love’s" disease.
Ciao!
back from the gap
August 07 2005
what up. im back in the boro after work crew in the windy gap. i cant even describe how awesome it was. being surrounded by people for two weeks from all over the country who love the Lord. i worked my tail off. i was on outdoor crew, which maintains the camp grounds. it was tight. the people that were helping me were from georgia and indiana. one of them was a new believer and another was just a young gun. i was able to share my story with about 30 of the campers and they seemed touched by it. i am just speechless about it. i guess if you want to learn more, you need to talk to me in person or over the phone. only bad part about it was i broke my wrist and i am covered in poison ivy. other than that im grand. im out. peace
Unsure
August 07 2005
Jeremy claims I write vague posts. Well here's another one to analyze.
I've never, EVER, been more unsure of myself than I am right now. I'm rethinking a lot in my life right now.
I've never, EVER, been more unsure of myself than I am right now. I'm rethinking a lot in my life right now.
tie dye t-shirts!!
August 07 2005
me, lauren, and amber are about to make tie dye tshirts. i am excited. we hung out all day long and it was awesome hanging out with my girls. we are gonna watch "the goonies" and that is my all time favorite movie!!!
"DATA: Pinchers of Peril. You guys...I've been saved by my Pinchers of Peril!"
me and lauren went to go see charlie and the chocolate factory and it was freaky. we got the lovers combo at the jackson heights theatre which was a little embarressing but then i got over it. haha
can't wait for this week because hopefully i will get my room all cleaned out and stuff. then me and lauren are gonna make an attempt to workout. we'll see about that.
"Cause it's you and me and all of the people
Nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you"
"DATA: Pinchers of Peril. You guys...I've been saved by my Pinchers of Peril!"
me and lauren went to go see charlie and the chocolate factory and it was freaky. we got the lovers combo at the jackson heights theatre which was a little embarressing but then i got over it. haha
can't wait for this week because hopefully i will get my room all cleaned out and stuff. then me and lauren are gonna make an attempt to workout. we'll see about that.
"Cause it's you and me and all of the people
Nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you"
Untitled
August 07 2005
im not looking forward to tomorrow
in exactly 11 hours and 43 minutes
it will be my first day of 8th grade.
oh the fun.
in exactly 11 hours and 43 minutes
it will be my first day of 8th grade.
oh the fun.
dramadramadrama
August 07 2005
how do ppl have the audacity to go and hurt someone who never hurt them.. It really bugs me that some people could just care less about how their actions will effect the others around them... I can't go into details, sorry. but i will post more later. leave comments
Untitled
August 07 2005
mmm church is so cool i love the youth group hung out with kael on the roof of erins car for an hour and talked and watched everybody while while they played volley ball ya fun stuff...... :-)
orlando
August 07 2005
wow, so I'm here. and i'm exhausted. so sleep sounds like a plan.
photo from lauraebeth
Samantha's car mirror was broke, so we had to be ghetto and duck tape it
yay!
photo from lauraebeth
Samantha's car mirror was broke, so we had to be ghetto and duck tape it
yay!
Untitled
August 07 2005
I MISS NEW YORK!!!!!!!
Yo!
August 07 2005
Happy Friendship Day guys and gals!
~Dana :)
~Dana :)
i am a sap
August 07 2005
I watched the notebook & a walk to remember last night. I dont think I have cried that hard in awhile. I've been keeping things bottled up lately so it just felt good to finally let it out. ya know? I havent felt content in a good while. maybe it's my relationship with God? I think it's fine but I'm not the person who decides on things very well. I've been confused & lost for the past few weeks. I want to straighten things out before highschool. so that leaves me like 4 more days...
boys. I like someone. I just hope everything turns out good. I hope everything works out. I hope..that's all I can do right now.
today I've realized how many great & wonderful friends I have. I've always known they were there but today they just shined a little more. :]
"It's gonna be Love
It's gonna be great
It's gonna be more than I can take
It's gonna be free
It's gonna be real
It's gonna change everything I feel
It's gonna be sad
It's gonna be true
It's gonna be me baby
It's gonna be you baby
It's gonna be...Its gonna be Love"
boys. I like someone. I just hope everything turns out good. I hope everything works out. I hope..that's all I can do right now.
today I've realized how many great & wonderful friends I have. I've always known they were there but today they just shined a little more. :]
"It's gonna be Love
It's gonna be great
It's gonna be more than I can take
It's gonna be free
It's gonna be real
It's gonna change everything I feel
It's gonna be sad
It's gonna be true
It's gonna be me baby
It's gonna be you baby
It's gonna be...Its gonna be Love"
yeah....
August 07 2005
i had some brett time yesterday...very fun....you know....we talked about some things and i hope he understands how much i care...and anyway, yeah....band camp is taking over and i'm gonna be alone :( well, that also means less distractions and more time for me to read....ugh, summer reading must DIE!!! well, i'm off like a prom dress!! love you all!!
Untitled
August 07 2005
i love cari jennings...i dont know...i have just been thinking about her lately and how i really want to hang out w/ her...but we cant cause we arent gonna get to go to bible study on tuesday!!! grrr....
so, definetely went to elizabeth's classroom today and helped her get ready for school. it was fun and i felt fairly useful. so, thanks to elizabeth for letting me come!
bought some pants at GAP that are too small so i have to go in the morning to get a different size!
i have realized that i write nothing of true value. it almost seems as though i dont have profound thoughts. but, right now, i cant think of super duper profound things to say because i have yet to have a revelation.
[[Seems I'm not alone at being alone
A hundred billion castaways all looking for a home]]
(john mayer_message in a bottle)
so, definetely went to elizabeth's classroom today and helped her get ready for school. it was fun and i felt fairly useful. so, thanks to elizabeth for letting me come!
bought some pants at GAP that are too small so i have to go in the morning to get a different size!
i have realized that i write nothing of true value. it almost seems as though i dont have profound thoughts. but, right now, i cant think of super duper profound things to say because i have yet to have a revelation.
[[Seems I'm not alone at being alone
A hundred billion castaways all looking for a home]]
(john mayer_message in a bottle)
august
August 07 2005
it's here! my three week vacation!! what do i do now? i feel like a lost puppy dog wandering around the city.
>went to fabio's bday party (seriously, how many people can say that)
>paid $20 to get a cab to church (yuck, that's like 4-6 meals that i'll go hungry now)
>got my hair cut (i didn't tell my youth girls i was doing it, they're gonna freak when they see it)
>let stephanie cut my hair (she did a fabulous job)
>had indian food for the first time (lindsey will be proud of me, still not ready for thai though)
>went to fabio's bday party (seriously, how many people can say that)
>paid $20 to get a cab to church (yuck, that's like 4-6 meals that i'll go hungry now)
>got my hair cut (i didn't tell my youth girls i was doing it, they're gonna freak when they see it)
>let stephanie cut my hair (she did a fabulous job)
>had indian food for the first time (lindsey will be proud of me, still not ready for thai though)
I'll be your best kept secret, And your biggest mistake
August 07 2005
something new...
August 07 2005
Here's the deal: I hate putting a lot of info about myself on the net, although I'm sure if I googled my name, I'd eventually find my life story anyway. But I figure this is a fantastic way to stay in touch with some of the greatest, most awesome people I have ever met, namely Team Light Blue (aka "The Hotties") from Paint the Town 2005.
So this is the beginning of a lot of new things for me. For one, I'm trying to find a full-time teaching job. I've had a couple interviews, I've placed a few more bids, and everyone is saying that I have a good chance of getting a job for one reason or another. But through it all, I really kind of want to go back in time to my last year of college and maybe try the whole student thing again. I was really good at that. Can I stay there? But sooner or later, life kicks you in the tail and you have to step out on faith, leaving your huge pile of fear and insecurity behind. Where will I be in five years? No clue. I have no long-term nor short-term plan (for the first time in my entire life), but I have a few options. Meanwhile, I'm praying and trying to focus on the whole job thing.
I'm also trying to live my entire life as if it is a missions trip...because, isn't it? I never really thought of it that way. I always thought that if I wanted to serve God--really serve God--that it would have to be a 24/7 thing, or I just wouldn't be satisfied. I'm an all-or-nothing, front-lines kind of person. I don't think everyone has to give up their regular job and go to Africa or New York or Arizona or Honduras. I just thought that I had to do that. But then I learned that it's all in the attitude. If I start each day the same way I did in New York and Arizona for two weeks this summer, then I will be serving God 24/7 on the front lines. Maybe that makes sense, maybe it doesn't. But I have a new attitude. Ask me how I feel in five weeks! lol
So this is the beginning of a lot of new things for me. For one, I'm trying to find a full-time teaching job. I've had a couple interviews, I've placed a few more bids, and everyone is saying that I have a good chance of getting a job for one reason or another. But through it all, I really kind of want to go back in time to my last year of college and maybe try the whole student thing again. I was really good at that. Can I stay there? But sooner or later, life kicks you in the tail and you have to step out on faith, leaving your huge pile of fear and insecurity behind. Where will I be in five years? No clue. I have no long-term nor short-term plan (for the first time in my entire life), but I have a few options. Meanwhile, I'm praying and trying to focus on the whole job thing.
I'm also trying to live my entire life as if it is a missions trip...because, isn't it? I never really thought of it that way. I always thought that if I wanted to serve God--really serve God--that it would have to be a 24/7 thing, or I just wouldn't be satisfied. I'm an all-or-nothing, front-lines kind of person. I don't think everyone has to give up their regular job and go to Africa or New York or Arizona or Honduras. I just thought that I had to do that. But then I learned that it's all in the attitude. If I start each day the same way I did in New York and Arizona for two weeks this summer, then I will be serving God 24/7 on the front lines. Maybe that makes sense, maybe it doesn't. But I have a new attitude. Ask me how I feel in five weeks! lol
Its Lonely
August 07 2005
Its so quiet here without everyone. SAdness.
Untitled
August 07 2005
so anyone want to run away with me...
i won't be gone for long...
only till next summer.