So Gray and I finally mailed off about half of our save-the-date postcards today. We actually mailed 40, all his side. Now I just have to figure out who my mom hasn't given one to on our side. 
The past week has been great and exciting, as well as tiring. I moved into my new apartment on Sunday and I've been adjusting to it. I absolutely love it here. SOOOO much nicer than living on campus. I love haivng a kitchen to make my own food in. It's much cheaper and actually fun to look for things to make it more homey. We've done some re-arranging and organizing to fit us in a bit better. We need more storage space. 
Since I've been here our air conditioning went out. That was not exactly fun... two days of a sauna. I am unpacked though and ready to start classes. I even already have an assignment.
Yesterday I went to desk assistant training and I start work Sunday at the Corlew desk. I'm working 14 hours a week which means I'm basically getting $340 or so a month. More than I made as a RA last year. Pretty sweet deal considering my schedule is crazy! My hours are all morning hours MWF except on Sunday afternoons. I'm pretty happy with that. 
I'm just enjoying the last few days of summer vacation. I have to finish the rest of the postcards, do my frequent flyer miles, and work some on the favors so I will have it all done before school starts back. 

In NH for my grandfathers 80th birthday.

The weather is nice, staying in the 70's, little cold for the beach. We wear sweatshirts on the beach when just sitting around but as long as you are moving it is warm enough to play in the water. My brother and I bought a new skimboard and I am trying to learn how to get some air off the waves, so far I haven't gotten very high. Not looking forward to coming back to the 100+ degree weather but school starts on monday :-p I am about to go bridge jumping with my cousing, that is going to be cold but it should be fun.

 

Two weekends ago I went out on the lake again, attempted back flips on the wakeboard for the first time... fun stuff. Can't wait to go out again, hope I don't have to wait till next summer to do so. 

 

Stay tuned for further updates...(if time permits)   

Is it just me or is Japanese music way more happier (and when translated its even funnier) than American music? Of course in general it is often worse but very entertaining! :)

 

I'm pretty sure my friend Katy and I are always putting on some random Japan pop or techno during the day (which she got from her study abroad trip) and just start dancing in the kitchen. This is my favorite:

 

"Party Join Us (TV Theme for Shin Chan)"

 
Woke up late this morning
A storm was really rollin’
Frogs and dogs were raining from the sky
Everything seems awkward to me
Nothing’s just as it should be
If this keeps on I’m sure I won’t get by
 
But then I close my eyes and try to smile
I know things are bad and getting worse
But after all this I can rest awhile
And then I’ll party party
 
Party Party Join us Join us
Party Party Join us Join us
Party Party Join us Join us
Shake your day away and you can
Party Party Join us Join us
Party Party Join us Join us
Party Party Join us Join us
Shake your blues away

 

(Reggae Breakdown)
 
Yo Reggae vacation Mon....
This party’s shakin’
and it ain’t just shakin’ me here
I see that smile
You’re grinnin’ ear to ear
Sing this song
And you should really sing it clear
Just sing along with us
 
Party Party Join us Join us
Party Party Join us Join us
Party Party Join us Join us
Shake your day away and you can
PARTY PARTY
PARTY PARTY
PARTY PARTY

 

So, the girl. She was at church last night. Praising God with all of her big heart. It was beautiful. I'm just so excited.

 

On a different note, i started up an invisible childrens club in my community about 2 months ago, and being a leader is harder than it looks. I'm stressing. Prayers for my strength and faithfulness would be greatly appreciated.

 

You guys are amazing, i love you.

and i'm praying for you all! asdflkj<3

lol this looks like fun :) haha

Jarred is a Cow-Boy at heart :)
hahaha (inside j/k)

And thanks to Jarred... i have a new name.. Miles! dont ask my way its Miles, you just have to understand Jarred is a strange cracker :) haha

So, I finally sat down and thought about how busy I am going to be this semester thanks to school, work, focus group leader respobsibilities, and Collage. I don't really want to complain, because I know I'm going to enjoy everything (well, being a focus group leader and Collage, and maybe sometimes school and work), but boy am I going to be busy...

 

Every week, Monday-Friday: Work 20 hours, attend classes for 16 hours

 

Every Sunday: Morning Sunday school and church, AO focus group leader meeting at 5, Focus group at 7 

 

At least every other Monday: Coram Deo for one hour

 

Every Wednesday: Collage meeting at 4, AO at 7:45

 

Weekends: Social/dating life 

 

One Wednesday a month: Go to AO early for Inreach  

 

Approx. three times a month: Meet with mentor

 

Once a month: Meet with Jerel

 

One week out of semester: Grade submissions for Collage 

 

Not to mention substantial time outside of class studying, making videos, eating, and sleeping. 

 

I think this will be my verse this semester...

 

"Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the body is weak." -Matthew 26:41 

i'm quite confused.

so today is the first day of school. yesterday wasnt too bad. but late last night i had to add a history class. i more or less had to take world civilizations. it makes me mad. it's at 8 in the morning. kinda sucks. oh well. i'll make it. i'm thinking i can probably make and A in every class this semester. but world civ will be tough. if i just make it to every class it will be a miracle in itself.

 

i hope everyone else is doing great. i wish i could come home for a while. i'll be home in a few weeks i guess.

 

i'm at the library waiting on my next class to start. i'm listening to pandora. i love that web site.

 

well, wish me luck on the new school year. this school stuff is killing me. i wish i hadnt taken so long to decided what i wanna major in. oh well. i can get that stuff done. lol.

 

piece

Why are fire trucks red?

Fire trucks have 4 wheels and 8 men.

8+4=12

There are 12 inches on a rular.

Queen Elizabeth the 2nd was a rular.

The Queen Elizabeth 2 is one of the largest ships in the sea.

Seas have fish.

Fish have fins.

The Finns fought the Russians,

Russians are also known as Reds.

Fire trucks are always rushin'.

Therefore, they are red.

 

 

 

 

It is true I am not in control.  Dang.

photo from austincaresnot

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

 
 
 

 

I don't have an accurate view of death. A customer at our store committed suicide recently. I knew in my heart it was wrong, but I felt no depth or strong emotion at my realization.

I think this was one of those days where I'm tired in every way possible. No wait, I know it was.

okay i don't know how many of you know this but i'm in the drama club at school as of last wednesday...and our spring musical is (DRUM ROLL PLEASE!!!).....

THE WIZARD OF OZ!!!  i want to be dorothy...well duh i wanna be dorothy...i really hope i get it.  but hardly any freshmen get parts.  OH WELL...maybe i will!  i just really wanna sing "Somewhere Over the Rainbow" and skip on some yellow bricks while watching some small people sing about lollipops and munchkin-ness...haha.  SOOOO how's the week been for you cool kiddos?  mines been alright...as alright as it can be i guess...well not really.  i hope everyone's week is good and if it's not i hope you have the faith to know tomorrow will be better!!!  because let me tell you my week is not going so great...my whole LIFE is not going so swell right now but i've noticed that when i have a positive attitude it at least seems better even if it's really not.  well anyway...i guess that's all!

p.s.-for those of you that do not know what a thespian is...it's an actor or actress...of or partaining to dramatics!!! WOO!!!  okay well yeah.

(thespians do it on stage.)

well. last night was different ....

 i like different !!

   I spent the night at Erins She sorta needed me , and we stayed up til like 1 just tlking ,i was helping her w. something , but we had a lot of fun being goofy ,

 when i sleep i like to cuddle ( i also like to put my feet like right on top of her)she wont let me she makes me sleep on the other side of the bed!!!! =[ LOL.

 well, it was good to be over there i hadnt eaten all yesterday except for some salty peanuts, so i raided her cabinets!   [ you will soon learn that erins home is my home]

but anyways ,  i had too get up this morning at like 7 and her mom dropped me off! now im a little sickish, just tired i guess , my nose is getting on my nerves!

 you know im really excited about things here lately!! i still have to pray about it , but ive been praying for awhile & i think this is what God gave me! from my prayers! a few of yall know what im tlking bout.... it just makes me smile!=] Austin knows from a few months ago what i told him, & its funny how God pieces together things!

  on a sad note, Pray for my dad he was on his way to pick me up saturday night, and he got in his truck on forgot his keys , ran to go get them , & he tripped over this dog , and went flying on concrete , he leg is really bad , if he wouldnt have had to get me he woudnt ve gotten hurt! we will have to take him to the doctor , my dads a pretty strong person i hate to see him limping & stuff!=[

yeah thats it!

  

 

Hey my people, i need  yalls help(and yes i said yall) I have been over loaded with school, and i could drop a class but i dont want to get behind. SO i am trying my hardest to keep up with all my school and ontop of that..i dont get sleep at night! SO i really need yalls prayers! Thank You Ever So Much

   Hola.. Life is great.... im doing soooo good in school && spanish is really easy. man i just love school. i hope the mime team had a great practice as usual! god has many many plans for that team! also mine && jarreds birthdays are coming up!!! so dont forget

 

Corey-- September 30

Jarred-- September 29

        

lol well i hope everyone has a fantastic day!!!
   

I want to ask you all a favor.  Please pray for me that I will be diligent in God's will.  Support me with your songs to God.

For TWO YEARS i have been praying that my friend would find her way back to Christ. She fell from God due to a relationship with a non-believer. As soon as i got online tonight, she IM'd me and confessed to me that she had only been giving half of herself to God, if that! She told me how lost and broken she was, how she felt that she has been missing out on what God was saying to her and trying to do through her life, and how she wants to get back to Christ. the wait is over, my heart is no longer burdened for her. She has found her way back, which is a [i'm sad to say] rare thing. Two years,  my goodness we serve an awesome God.

 

[as for those of you that have been leaving remarks, i'm so sorry i haven't gotten back to you. i'm not recieving email notifications.. so i rarely check this, so again, i'm so sorry but you're all so kind! thank you!]

Yep, that's right... it's that time. It's a week away from school, the big purge day has passed, and I've decided that I really do not want to be in one of the classes I am currently registered for. I bought the books today but while looking at them in the bookstore I was like, wow, I have no interest in this. It's my Social Psychology of Close Relationships class in case you were wondering.

 

It seems like every semester (with the exception of last semester) I always pick one mediocre class with a mediocre teacher due to judgement lapse, and decide right before school starts back up that  I have no desire to be in there and need to get in another class. The only problem is that any class that does interest me is either taught by someone awful or the time is bad. I really can't move any of my other classes. Well, I could, but I wouldn't be happy with it. With the exception of this one class, I really want to keep my teachers and everything. Nevermind that almost every class is filled... I know I can find my way in there eventually. I just need suggestions.

 

So here's my situation: I'm already taking two EMC classes, including the one next in line and one of my two electives. I'm satisfied with that. I am taking Principles of Marketing. I would take another marketing class, but unfortunately you can't take any other marketing classes until you've had Principles, which I am going to be taking. And then I have Abnormal Psych, which I know I'll love. If I take another psych class, I can complete my minor in it, but I'm not necessarily in a hurry to do it. There are psych classes I am interested in, but they conflict but my current classes. 

 

And then outside of those things, I really have no other interests. The only possibility I have really come up with is the first education class you can take, which would be random but I suppose beneficial. The teacher is Rebecca Watts, whom I don't know anything about, but the time is good. Of course, it's filled up. And I may not like it, since that's not really my thing. I don't mind taking a random class, as long as it's either a liberal arts or science class. And by science I mean social science, since I can't stand science science. And I have to be interested in it. I don't want to take a class about Japanese Landscaping or Abstract Thinking or Chinese Philosophy or  The History of Feminisim or anything else of that nature. Oh, and I need to take 15 hours this semester because next semester I will be getting by butt whooped by Mass Media Law and after that I'll be a senior and probably super busy. Suggestions?

i got my hair cut :) Yaaaa Me :P lol

i have so many mixed emotions right now.  i'm confused and hurt and ashamed and happy and all of it all in one!  well i guess....i dont' know! 

so how ya been?  i think i might put up one of my poems that i just wrote...only megan and gen have read it...wait did megan read it??  dunno.  oh well

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"You have to believe it and you hate it, but I don't have to believe it and I think it's beautiful..."

-Leslie, Bridge to Terabithia

(that's from the movie and three kids are in the back of a truck talking about the Bible.  don't we all know that's an interesting conversation.)

-still love austin-

OMG OMG!!!!!! IM GOING TO NEW YORK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THIS SPRING!!!!!!!!!

 

 

 

NEW YORK!!!

Some awsome advice from Mexico!!!!

 

 

 

Drink nothing without seeing it; sign nothing without reading it.

Spanish Proverb

 

So i decided i was going to write a song

its not the best . . . actually its not very good at all but its just the first draft or whatever i guess you could say. Its Genre is Folk

so not all of it rhymes but its what it is 

so Here's my first song

 

Just sittin' here at this Traffic light

Can't get you off my mind

It seems like you are so very close to me Baby

Yout touch still lingers on my hand

Your contageous smile is burnt in my head 

The way it lit up the room

Whoa you are so Amazing

 

Its been all this time and your still my girl

People say it will never work

I say never say never. . . oh (dang) i just did

God I'm so tired of this cliche bull. . . crap

 

Whatever it takes baby i just wanna be close to you

I know in the end it will be worth it all 

Your worth it all Baby
Your worth it all

 

yeah its not a full song and the end sucks yet and i am still working on it

so thats what i got 

 

 

 

"Missing someone gets easier everyday because even though you are one day further from the last time you saw them, you are one day closer to the next time you will."

"Though miles may lie between us, we're never far apart, for friendship doesn't count the miles, it's measured by the heart."
"Close together or far apart, you're forever in my heart."
"Distance between two hearts is not an obstacle; rather a great reminder of just how strong true love can be."
"I never knew what love was until I met you, then when distance pulled us apart, I found out what true love is."

"Friends are like wedgies, it feels great when you pick out a good one!"

"When it hurts to look back, and you are scared to look ahead, look beside you and your bestfriend will be there."

"Good friends are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget."

 

 

 

Well, I am moved in to my apartment in Murfreesboro. Now I just need to unpack and get settled. 

Our friend Zack from The Car Wash bothering people at the Disney store.

an AMAZING song

My Rhapsody Playlist

i love these

this is my short playlist on rhapsody and i really like these songs....especially the jessica simpson one!!!  it's so sweet.  okay well yeah.

A video by my new best friend.......Zack Scott. It is so hilarious!!! 

its hot here

 

but its been fun.

 

yaaaaaaaay

 

classes start tomorrow

 

drawing I at 8

 

then some physics

leadership

and arch design

 

8-5

 

 

joy.

One for today and one for yesterday.

 

 

 

 

RUMOR, n. A favorite weapon of the assassins of character.

Ambrose Bierce , The Devil's Dictionary

 

 

 

 

"Big ol', flat-headed, ugly catfish. Catfish are so ugly."

 

 My Dad

He talks kinda slow sometimes, and its kinda long....but i liked it! it was pretty nifty so..i thought i would share it with all you people :P

A great love? It's when you shed tears for him but still you care for him. It's when he ignored you but you still long for him. It's when he starts loving another,
and yet you manage a smile and find the courage to say "I'm happy for you."

It takes a couple seconds to say Hello, but forever to say Goodbye.

OMGosh. This made my day, I laughed till i cried. LOL

okay why is everyone doing a bunch of posts about love???  CONFUSED!!  but whatever.  what the heck...

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so how has everyone's week been?  i'm very tired...and kinda nervous...i'm gonna be in the FAIREST OF THE FAIR..but for sure this time!  i REALLY want to know which musical we are doing this year in drama...i want a part in it so bad!  but i heard from some drama people that freshmen don't get big parts, if they're lucky, they'll get like an understudy or just a side/crowd person.  dang.  O WELL...i can still try and be confident!  i'm so bored....yawn.  :O...BORED!!  i hate geometry...i really don't like that teacher.  if it wasn't for that class and sometimes choir, school would be good!!!  and i wish i had more than like 1 friend in my lunch shift...but i'll have at least one that i know of next semester...O WELL.  have you ever had a feeling, sorta like a hunch, and it makes you nervous but you don't know what for?  well that's how i feel right now.  i don't know why i have a major case of butterflies, but i do!!!  maybe something good's gonna happen...i hope so.  well i guess that's about all.  ugh so bored...UGH.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ME!!! YAY ME!!! WHO'S THE BIG MAN NOW?!!!!!! OH YEAH!! ALL UP IN YOUR FACE, I OWN THIS SPACE!!!! BOOYAH!!! CLICK CLACK!!!!  CAN YOU FEEL THIS?!!!! 
(THAT'S FOR YOU GRACE : P )
(BTW, JARRED WROTE THE TOP PART OF THIS!)

Yeah... wow.

OMGosh! Today has only started but has been so full of bad stuff its sad. I guess its not "bad Stuff" persay...... but it sure has been full..and its only 11 something.
Ok so i was supposed to ride my horses this morning, while Lilly was at some thing. I got up right before she left talked to her tell she left THEN i went outside to get my horse. Well as i get around the side of the house i see Miles (a REALLY fast wild but tame 7 or 8 year old gilding ) trotting up the hill to the house. Now you have to understand, he is THE smartiest but dumest horse EVER. He knows when you want to catch him and when you want to feed him..... and he knew i was going to cach him since he was out. Luckily i had brought some feed for Kate and that would help me catch Miles.The two things he loves most are Running and FOOD!! so it took me about 15 to 20 minutes of walking up and down a hill, walking back and forth, and trying to get close to him. Now he would eat the food, but right before i could get the lead-rop around his neck he would run away, so then i would have to run wide around him and try again. SO you get the picture by the time i was done catching Miles i was pretty dang tired. I brought him to the barn and headed back to get Kate, i knew i wasn't going to get to ride b/c by then it was to hot to make my baby run around with a saddle on. I at lest wanted to groom her, it took about 5 minutes to catch my lovley baby girl. After grooming Kate, Miles was freaking out b/c he HATED (yes HATED) being in the barn where he couldn't run and be free. As some of you know, There is a little paddock behind the barn. So smart me thinks *hey i can put him out there so he can eat and run a little* and i was right, as soon as i put Miles in the paddock he took of running. As i was shuting the gait i look up and see his not running away from me, he is running at me.....i through my arms up and he turned, but didn't stop, he just ran into the fence. (i think he was going to jump but decided not to at the last moment, STUPID STUPID horse) but some how he didn't brake the fence, so i think fast and run to get Kate from in the barn, HOPING if he saw her he would stop long enough for me to catch him. As i am letting her go in the paddock (i couldn't hold her b/c she was trying to run me over) i walk out trying to shut the gait and my own horse runs straight at me, but stupid me, instead of throughing my hands up i duck and move out of the way like any humen would. Ahhh so my horse was out, with no halter and running way from Miles, which made him really mad, so AGAIN he runs into the fence. (why again do i love horses??? i have no idea) Anyways this story isn't over yet people, i ran into the barn luckily Mr. Keny and Brandon were in the barn working on cars. I asked them to help and they were more then happy to. I was really happy and mad at that moment, I had to big strong guys about to help me catch my horses, but i was mad b/c they had almost run over me. After Miles almost killing Brandon ( ha i have never seen a guy run for his life like that lol ) by charging him, Kate disappearing  and showing up at the paddock were she was supposed to be, and running ALL over the place in the hot hot hot weather. I ended up catching both horses and yelling at Miles, b/c everytime i filled up his water bucket he duped it over. Grrrr horses
well that was my day, who was yours?????

Well... I competed a few months ago at the Indiana State Championships and took home first in Sparring and in Forms and Fourth in Board Breaking. Qualifying me for Nationals in Florida... My school [[Full Armor Martial Arts]] took 21 students. That is the largest out of state group to qualify. 8 adults and 13 students.

Well... Yesterday was the adults competition and at the end of the day we were the 3rd school in points. I came home with first place in forms and in sparring (the only two I competeted in) in my age division for Intermediate ranking. It was truly amazing!!!

The kids are competing today and Ill let you guys know later how that went... but so far...
Tamara-1st is Sparring
Shelly-1st in Sparring and 2nd in Forms
Jim-2nd in Staff and 1st in Sparring
Paula-1st in Forms and 1st in Sparring
Ryan-2nd in Sparring
Nick-1st in Sparring
Melissa-1st in Forms and 1st in Sparring

Yes we kicked but!!! It was amazing... More later...

<3 Meag

I am at Lee now. It is nice having my own apartment finally but it is a bit of a hassle being on the edge of campus.

I am actually eating a meal close to breakfast. I woke up at 8:45 to go to a yard sale where I bought ear buds (from a friend, so they're clean) and a Mae CD called "Destination: Beautiful." It is pretty good but I am glad I only paid $1 for it.  

 

If anyone would like to call me to chat, I would enjoy it. I am a little bored.  

These are so much fun :)

1 honest question
1 honest answer

That's all you get.

You get to ask me 1 question. Any 1 question, anything, no matter how crazy it is, and I promise to answer it....no matter what the question is.

No catch.

Man, what is my problem? Yesterday I was so excited about what's ahead, and today I'm disappointed again. I think the problem is I expect too much out of people. I hold people to the same standard as I hold myself, which is perfection. Thus, I often end up disappointed in myself and in others. I don't want to live that way. I need to realize we are all human beings just trying to work this life out. And I have yet to figure out why there are certain people that I am continually hoping will want to become closer to me only to realize... well... they don't. I guess that's what I get for liking people so much... facing rejection when they don't want to broaden their circle of friends and include me. But whatever. I'm growing more and more thankful each day for those closest to me, and I'm excited about new friendships I am developing.

 

 I'm also a little excited about school... well... I'm excited about Single Cam and my Intro to Motion Pictures class. I'm a little excited about marketing because I'm curious. I'm actually not excited about my psych classes at all, but this is largely due to the fact that I don't know if I have any friends in those classes. Of course, as far as I know I don't have any friends in marketing, but I'm ok with that. But I don't know what the deal with psych is... I mean, I'm very interested in the classes I chose, especially Abnormal Psych. I mean, come on, I was itching to watch A Beautiful Mind last night with my frineds. But I guess I'll get into the swing of it once school starts up. I hope I can handle 15 hours again. I haven't done that in a full year and am hoping I can juggle that, work, focus group responsibilities, AO, a relationship, and a social life... 

 

In other news, the music in High School Musical 2 is amazing. Yes, I totally watched the premiere tonight! The story was really lame, but then again the first one was pretty lame too, but the music was incredible!

 

Also, we have Mamaw settled in a nursing home. She's confused of course, so prayer for her is appreciated.  

 

Anyhow, I'm not generally big on posting song lyrics (despite my post before last) and especially not for a whole song, but I really like this song by Switchfoot, but then again, I like all their songs... Anyhow, it's from their first album from way back in the day and called "Life and Love and Why":

 

Life and love and why
Child, adult, then die
All of your hoping
And all of your searching
For what?
Ask me for what am I living
Or what gives me strength
That I'm willing to die for

Take away from me
This monstrosity
'Cause my futile thinking's
Not gonna solve nothing tonight
Ask me for what am I living
Or what gives me strength
That I'm willing to die for

Could it be this
Could this be bliss
Could it be all that
I ever had missed
Could it be true
Can life be new
And can I be used
Can I be used

Give me a reason
For life and for death
A reason for drowning
While I hold my breath
Something to laugh at
A reason to cry
With everyone hopeless
And hoping for something
To hope for
Yeah, with something to hope for

Could it be true
Can life be new
Could it be all that I am
Is in You
Could it be this
Could it be bliss
Can it be You
Can it be You

  Great Great Movie!! i liked it alottt.... who agrees???

Firt week of school is over and I have yet to understand why people make such a big deal out of being a senior. You still have a few years of school left if you ever want a decent job, you are nowhere near done with school.

 

Ah well, I guess that's my pessimistic mini rant for the day.

  

i love this song...it cheers me up a little. 

"cuz an empty room can be so loud, there's too many tears to drown them out so hold on, hold on

when you love someone and they break your heart, don't give up on love, have faith restart just hold on, hold on..."

HOLD ON!!!

nick (the curly headed, young, cute one) well his solo gives me goosebumps

i woke up this morning sick.... no one knowa what ive been through today... no one.. i think the devil is on my case sooo i dont know what to do... help me god.

I've never known any trouble that an hour's reading didn't assuage.

Charles De Secondat

 

 

This one is for book nerds like me.

 

 

 

AWOOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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 not exactly sure how , but i got voilet!!!!! well, we look a little bit alike ..  but i dont i am like emo ....im sorta the exact opposite from her!!!

 IF i HAD A superpower i would want her Bubble force field!!! & being invisible i would like too ,=]

 

 

I'm starting a daily quote thing.

 

He that climbs the tall tree has won right to the fruit.

Sir Walter Scott

The rules for the Burger King crowns:

 

GAME PLAY:

A.) Adjust size and be the first to place on head.

B.) Whoever places the crown on his or her head first, then in a loud voice proclaims, "I am the King" is from that moment forward, in charge. Rule ends if Crown is removed (see Coup d'etat). Crownings can happen anywhere, at anytime.

 

ADVANCED PLAY:

1. There can only be one king.

2. The King always gets his/her way.

3. The King must speak with some kind of cool accent.

4. The King makes all important decisions governing selection of TV channels, movies, radio stations, pool hopping and cow tipping. The King also determines who gets the remote, who rides " shotgun" and, of course who pays.

5. Rule ends when Crown is removed for more than 3 seconds (see Three Second Law).

6. Disagreement with the King results in a "penalty." This is decided by the King. Common penalties include: forfeiture of fries, surrender of video game controller and banishment from office cubicle.

 

THREE SECOND LAW:

The King's rule ends when the Crown is removed from their head for any reason, accidental or otherwise. The first person to exclaim, "One...Two...Three...King" may claim the Crown.

 

IN THE EVENT OF A TIE:

If two people Crown themselves King simultaneously, the person whose birth date is closest to Dec. 4, 1954 (date the first BURGER KING restaurant opended) is King.

 

COUP D'ETAT:

If everyone agress you completely stink as King, your rule may be renounced. This constitutes a Coup d'etat. A new King may be Crowned if the group reach a unanimous decision. If not, the Three Second Law applies.

 

kINGDOM:

If you are eating in a BURGER KING restaurant, your rule extends all the way to the edge of the parking lot. Off restaurant grounds, your rule extends to a radius of 10 feet around you in any directions.

 

WARNING: This BURGER KING Crown is made of paper. Your rule may end prematurely if Crown is exposed to water or flame.

 

 

Credit given to Burger King.

 

 

 

 

So, I arrived back at my house last night. Today has been spent playing The Sims 2 a lot and making a few phone calls.

 

I received a phone call from the Goodlark Education Foundation in Dickson. They are offering me a $1,000 scholarship for this fall to help me finish my degree. I am estatic! God has provided back all the lottery money I am not receiving and more! It's been amazing to see what has come in. 

 

I also received a phone call from my good friend Shannon today. It turns out that because of financial reasons, she's not going to be able to be in my wedding in May. She has a good reason though. Shannon is going to Slovakia for one year to be a missionary with Campus Crusade for Christ. She can not afford to come back in May... it's completely understandable and I'm perfectly ok with it. I'm just sad she won't be there to see my big day and be a part of it.

 

Aside from that, I'm pleased to say that Gray and I have finalized (minus a few details) our guest list! It was a lot of work but we've managed to do it. Next week we'll begin the exhausting fun of mailing out save-the-dates. I'm excited because now I can start looking for invitations and deciding how I'm going to do my invitations. I know, I have 8 months to go, but I'm determined to be stress free about the wedding and the best way I know to do that is to get things done early.

 

Speaking of wedding... Gray and I got an email from Carnival the other day. The cruise we were going to take to the Bahamas was cancelled because the ship needed to be repaired. So we've re-booked another Bahamian cruise that's a day shorter with them. We'll be staying our first night at the Brentwood Hilton Suites Hotel before flying to Florida and boarding the cruise ship Sensation at Port Canaveral. At this point we're trying to decide if we'd like to stay in Orlando at the Walt Disney World resort a night or two. I'm really up for that because I love Disney and would love to go back, I miss it. Right now we're not too sure what are options are. Gray has family in Orlando that can get us into the parks for free and possibly a reduced hotel room rate. We're going to ask them if they would be willing to help us out with that before we plan the rest of the honeymoon. I'm so thankful that the cruise is almost paid for and that our first night is taken care of. So much stress off my shoulders!

 

Well, I am off to enjoy the rest of my night. Tomorrow Gray and I are going to Murfreesboro. We need to put some stuff in our storage unit and I need to go and fill out payroll for my job.

So i had to write a paper for History Class. I was supposed to write it to a group of NonChristians and try to tell them about Jesus...But i couldn't use 

Scripture or push my faith on them. SO this is what i came up with. I kinda like it. Not my best work but hey its pretty good * i think * well i was bored so i put it on here.

1~Have you had some hard times?

2~Or been hurt by someone you loved?

3~Stabbed in the back by a friend?

4~Lost a loved one?

5~Have you been moved from the place you called home, to a house that seems lonely?

6~Know what peer-pressure is firsthand?

 

I can say yes to every question I have just asked you, and many more. I’m not going to go into my life story because then you might think I want you to feel sorry for me. And that’s just the opposite, I want you to know how I got through all that without doing something stupid, running away, doing drugs, or resorting to alcohol. I suppose I should say "who" got me through it, instead of "how". I will tell you a little about myself before I tell you about "who" got me through my troubles.

I’m just an ordinary girl. I stand 5 feet and 1 inch tall, I have brown/blonde hair, I have blue eyes and braces. I’m in love with horses and I am home-schooled. Yeah, yeah you might think home-schoolers are weird, all I have to say is 5 little words "I Get To Sleep In" and I’m just as smart and maybe smarter then some kids in public school. I try to help out at my local church, watching kids. I love baby-sitting, just like any ordinary girl does. So you get the picture I am your average Jo.

Now here is the part where you learn "who" got me through my troubles, hard times, crying nights, mad hits to my pillow, and screaming fights with myself. He is not your average Jo. No His not my boyfriend and His not my brother, nor is it my father. So who could it be….that’s for you to figure out and for me to know. I’ll just tell you how He got me through it all. First of all He gave me a FANTASTIC family I can lean on. Second He wrote a book for me to read every day that made getting through that much easier, now I can’t lie to you, there were days I didn’t read the book He wrote me. And there were days I didn’t go to His house on Sunday mornings, but on those days my life seemed to get a little harder and more complicated.

Getting to the point, let me give you an instance where He helped me through a hard time. Let’s go with when we moved. You might think moving is not a big deal, but to me it was. You see the house I used to live in when I was a kid, was a dream home. No it wasn’t a big house with a big yard, pool, and the red front door. It was a little Blue home (not a house, a home) on top of a hill. But the memories made in that house will never be forgotten. Life seemed so easy there, but once we moved it was like a chain reaction of bad things happening one after another. We moved a bunch of times after that blue house. And ever since then I have yet to live in a house that felt like a home. During the chain reaction of hard times I kept crying out asking "WHY?". And ever time I felt like I was talking to thin air. But not once did I give up on Him. And when I hit 11 I cried out and He replied me, he held my hand and walked me through the valley of darkness (so to speak). And still to this day we are walking through the valley of darkness. But I can see the light shining in the distance, He has yet to let go of my hand, and I know He never will.

Have you figured out who I am talking about yet? He is not your average Jo, you can’t meet Him walking down the street. I am SO glad I didn’t give up , because if I did, I would be walking through the valley of darkness alone.

Are You Walking Through The Valley Of Darkness Alone?...... you don’t have to be alone.

Well last monday was my last mime practice.. im sorry theirs just to much confusion between people... and some one wrote a blog that i wish they hadnt cause i dont want people to know what my life is.. so this blog is saying im quiting the mime team... im really mad and hurt at a couple people and i apologize to everyone that i hurt in my last blog i was just mad.. and i ole austin a apologizey as well i should of said what i did in my last blog i was just mad and didnt know what to do... i shouldve said all that... carmen as well.. god as many plans for mission 12:2 ...  and i dont bleong in them .god bless!!!!

okay i'm just going to say...i am very hurt right now. this is no one's business except mine elizabeths and maybe austins. there was no need for everyone else to get involved...yes i know about my post but everyone else didn't need to make it a big honkin deal. thanks yall i just want to say i'm sorry for being immature. i'm not going to put up something on dating because i know where i stand and thats...whatever. my heart is broken right now so if you could find it in yours, please pray for me. thanks...for real. i've never been like this before...i don't honestly care about too much. i feel very apathetic and a tad worthless. i miss my friendships that i've destroyed and possible relationships that i've messed up and couldv'e possibly been in...so please. this is no cry for attention or anything just please i'm so sorry you guys don't know how sorry i am for causing all this and i'm so tired of it...i'm so hurt and confused right now i don't think i'm exactly conscious of what i'm doing. so please forgive me and pray for me... please.

first elizabeth that was wrong of you to write that stuff .. no one needs to know all that.. and you wanst 12 years old we like dated up to you turning 14.. so quit making it sound wrong.. and half of that is over dramatic.... soo you need to erase it or delete iot.. thats wrong of you.. and i think its stupid that you and carmen are fight.. quit acting likel little kids.. cause you making austin think ' ohh look at me i have two grils fighting over me.. ' and thats stupid. elizabeth that was wrong of you to write on carmens blog ' carmen your on 13 ' elizabeth you only 14 or 15.. so you are more mature so GROW UP. GRR YALL ARE SOO DUMB grow up.... huhu

so... I haven't updated in a while... generaly my life has been work, work, work on the house, work, and an occasional trip to the lake. Not to exciting. Everyone should come by and see my house whenever I get a chance to finish setting everything up. I'm going to NH next week for my grandfathers eightieth birthday party... I hope that it won't be too boring. I will deffinitly try to update more often...

Moses was stupid. He wondered in the wilderness for 10 forevers, and all that time God blessed him and stuff. How did he repay God? He thwacked His rock. That's right. God says: Talk to this rock. Do not thwack it. But instead Moses walks up and thwacks it. So God killed him. I mean really, how stupid is Moses? God says "Do not thwack rock" and what did he do? He thwacked the rock!!!!! Is it really so tempting? Is it really that hard to resist thwacking a perfectly thwackable rock? Aparently it was for Moses. And what happened to him? God struck him dead. This teaches us many things. 1) If your walking down a sunny lane on a windy Thursday after having a nice chat with God about rock thwacking, and all of a sudden a rock says to you "Don't thwack me" DO NOT THWACK IT!!!! 2) Follow the rules. If you don't break the rules, God won't kill you. Moses broke the rules, so he had to die. 3) PUT ON SOME PANTS!!!!!!

 

 

I want to thank a one Chris Harrelson for assiting me in writing this...welll at least the idea. I know it is long but I find it pretty darn good.

Don't know you but I am just saying.... I think it is kinda silly to say you are not going to date (unless you are just comming out of a relationship or so)...although there is nothing wrong with it. I did that for awhile....I strongly believe that dating leads to marriage. That is why you should date someone to see if you could marry them so if you dely your dating then you would dely finding the right person...No I don't think that if you date someone that means you would marry them...No I don't think that you should pick certain people who you think you would marry and only date them. Dating is to see if you could last with them, not if you will; although I do not believe in dating as in hey lets date because you are hot, oh wait this chick is hotter and I can do her. I hate that. I don't believe there is one right person for everyone because if that was so then not many people are going to end up with the right person because no one is perfect (well htere was this one guy but we killed him) so people would end up with a bunch of differant people. So that would just not work. Love takes work. If you choose not to work then you choose not to love. Love is deeper than skin; therefore I don't believe in love at first sight. But does that mean marrying someone is just who you can tolerate for the rest of your life? Shoot I don't know but I plan on only marrying someone who I can tolerate. But then how do you know when you meet that person? Like I said before it takes work. Expect to work for relationships...I think. because if being with one person forever was so dang easy there would not be so many divorces. I think it is the people who are lazy and don't want to work are the ones left a lone or bailing 2 or 12 years into it. Or maybe something happend. But I think that if you love that person then things will wade out because the truth is "The couples who are truly right for eachother wade through the same crap as everybody else but they don't let it take them down and if they are real lucky someone will say something."  yes yes from scrubs but it is still true. I hope that all of you who made it this far have learned something, if nothing else that I am a rambling idiot. Or maybe you heard just what you need to.

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I'm not dating for a year, or possibly longer.  If you want to know why and have my number, you can just call me.  Otherwise, you can private message me, I guess, and I might answer you.

haha i learned something in geometry today!!  (surprise surprise)... "~" that symbol is a tilda or something and it means not...so when my screen name was ~carmen luvs austin~ it really said not carmen luvs austin not.  but it's a double negative so i guess it cancels it out...lol!  so i am really REALLY busy.  i got my wrist brace and it doesn't seem to help much...it hurts and it makes it hard to do stuff.  :(  well anyway i start piano and so i'm gonna be a bad kid and not wear it...and then i have to go sign up for the fairest of the fair pageant...ALL of you cool kids are gonna be there or else.  AND then tomorrow i have play auditions and stuff and then thursday i...there's something going on i just don't know what...BUSY!!!  ugh.  and then it starts all over next week!  woo...~.  (haha).  well how's your week been thus far?  i'm trying out for freshman honors choir...and then i want to follow in my mom's footsteps and get 1st chair in mid-state choir next year...but i REALLY want first chair in ALL STATE...just because that's better.  well okay

*-*carmen luvs austin*-*

I am going to be ok. There might have been an earthquake last night but its fine. I think it was on the Big Island. Yeah there is a Hurricane coming through today and tomorrow i think but i should be fine. Its supposed to go like hundreds of miles south so

yeah, i will be ok.

Thanks for your concerns 

Hey man are you ok? their was an earth quake in Hawii last night... i heard it on the news =( i hope your ok... love ya be safe.. lol but seriously im freaked out... im at the stage of crying.... g2g2 school now but be on later...

Emo. I promise. I know it may sound like it from my lastest thoughts/blogs/notes, but I really am ok. I am sensitive by nature, but I'm also pretty strong. It's just nice to write down some of what's going through my mind... 

 

I'm heading of to the AO leadership retreat tomorrow and will be back some time Thursday.

First , i wanna say I am not mad at anyone on here !

But I am a little flustrated because of one person on here!!!!!!!!

 insulted me in making me the idiot object .....

 then theres these guys who used to be my friends imed me , & called me ALL THIS STUFF!!!!it made me very mad! & every other line said 666 .... & it really made me upset !!!!!!!

 i was near tears, out of anger , ill admit that i was angry!! i didnt say anything mean to them , i was just u know what i think of this & they said wat?

 then i blocked them , i was sooooo mad !!!!!! its not wrong to be mad ...is it? i mean anger  isnt wrong its grudges , and hate that is wrong.....

 is it wrong to be mad ???

 upset ?? i know i have to let it go , but i want to hold on to it... but i know that it is wrong ....
 you gotta understand my frustration!!!!

wat 2 do?

 but i do wanna say my best made me cry tonite ... they were happy tears of hope

Waaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!! This is a new Carrie Underwood song and i LOVE it, OMGosh. Here are the lyrics:

 

 

What you got if you aint got love?
The kind that you just wanna give away
It's okay to open up
Go ahead and let the light shine through
I know it's hard on a rainy day
You wanna shut the world out
And just be left alone
Don't run out on your dreams

Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
What you've been out there searching for forever,
Is in your hands
When you figure out love is all that matters, after all
It sure makes everything else
Seem so small

So easy to get lost inside
A problem that seems so big, at the time
It's like a river that's so wide
And swallows you whole
While you sittin round thinking about what you can't change
And worryin' about all the wrong things
Time's flying by, moving so fast
Better make it count, cause you can't get it back

Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
What you've been out there searchin for forever
Is in your hands
Oh, When you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
Seem so small


Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
What you've been out there searchin for forever
Is in your hands
Oh, When you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
Oh it sure makes eveyrthing else
Seem so small

 

 

 

 

 

I. Hate. Homework.

 

Alot. it is so gay!!!!! i can't do anything because of homework!!!!!! Ug!!!!

i hope i don't get alot on wensday. between drama and church, i just won't get it done. My teachers are gonna have to get over it. They always say "Get involved in school" but then they give us so much homework that we don't have time!!!!!!!! Gah!!

 

ok, rant over. besides the fact that i have enough homework to fill two semis, i had a good day. Exept Carmen left school so i didn't have anybody to talk to outside @ car riders. I had to stand in the hot all alone Carmen, so i hope you feel good about yourself. But, really, i do hope your wrist gets better cause YOU HAVE TO COME TO SCHOOL TOMORROW!!!! the doctor better fix your stupid wrist because i will not roam the halls in the morning alone looking like an idiot!!! i never get to see you anyway and it just makes it worse when you don't even come to school. so mug. But, really, 100% serious, i hope it's not broken or anything cause that would hurt......ya.

 

Ya.

Yep, school started back today. And I am not at all pleased. My schedule is about eight kinds of jacked up. It'll be sorted out soon, at least it should be. Until then I have crap loads of papers to fill out.

 

Oh and I have a cold. Yay. 

When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones

 

-Coldplay, "Fix You" 

 

Thanks for those who have been encouraging me... I am standing strong on Romans 8:28, and I am thankful for the small things... the grandfatherly old man who talked to me yesterday in Dillard's who made me miss my own grandfathers and yet still brought joy to my heart...

 

Please continue to pray for Mamaw. We've told her about Papaw's death twice now and probably won't anymore because she just keeps forgetting things and lives in a constant state of confusion. With the help of a doctor, we are hoping to get her in a nursing home by the end of the week.

 

I have a burden on my heart, and this week I feel I'm going to have to share it with a group people... I just hope it goes well...  I don't want to get specific right now, but just pray for wisdom and discerenment.

 

And let me know if I can pray for you. Seriously. Because I'm trying to honestly pray for others now. Or if you just need to talk... I'm here... because I love you. Deeply.

God is so good......all the time. :-) I have so many blessings that I don't deserve.

I got my hair chemicaly straightened and cut. It's sholder-length.......and straight. Really straight. Not a wave to be seen. They burnt my face with the chemicals. It made my hair smell really bad. I can't wash it for 48 hrs. I love it. 

"If I speak in the tongues of men and angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal.  If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing.  If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.  Love is patient, love is kind.  It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.  It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.  Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.  It always protects, always trusts and always perserveres.  Love never fails.  But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.  For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears.  When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child.  When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me.  Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face.  Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.  And now these three remain: faith, hope and love.  But the greatest of these is love."

1 Corinthians 13

I love this!

so ,... this is to be one of the best blogs i am ever to write!

 

Why do we act like nothing is happening inside of us when its written across our fake smiling face?

 cmon guys~ im Tired of living this way FAKE

 FAKE FAKE!!!! just pretend what im sposed to be...

 I wanna be ...... MYSELF! BUT im scared what if me is not good enough?=[ what if my friends dont like who i am .. its better to be me , & not liked , then someone everyone likes  , and not me , ITS A BATTLE INSIDE MY mind!& who really knows you might be liked MORE FOR WHO you REALLY ARE!!

 its Like im Talking to GOD , and im like "hey , im doing my best that i can" why do i lie to the all knowing?

 i like a guy , but i was scared to tell him , like the worst he could do is turn his head![ might i add he didnt] why do we look at things like that? dont look at things inside of you , & it must be covered up , but more as HEY LOOK i am different , People think Christians are FAKE , and to be honest we have that problem of acting like its ALL GOOD In THE NEIGHBORHOOD! LETS BREAK THE STEROTYPE!

why am i scared to be me?

why am i fake ?

i am scared to be myself , AND THATS THE GREATEST FEAR YOU CAN EVER HAVE!

 im not doing this anymore..... its all me ... im taking this on! its ALL ME!

 Just wanted to share whats on my mind !

Praise God!! I have finally found a job.  I will be the new Admissions Coordinator for Draughon's Junior College.  I will be recruiting new students and trying to implement a recruiting strategy for high school students.  I so excitied that I will be do something within my degree that allows to do something that I enjoy. 

or lack there of.

i think it is wonderful that we have digital cameras for everyone to have. i think it is great people can instantly take pictures. but because of the digital camera a lot of people now think that they are professional photographers because of their 6 mega pixel snap shot camera. now, i am not saying they are not good... it just seems like everyone is calling themselves a photographer now.

my husband is having this same problem in the web design field. there are more programs that just have templetes. this allows anyone to just plug their info into it and it is an instant web site. no real programming or effort involved. they advertise they can do websites for you, but the truth is, it looks amateur.

with the photography, you have these people that take pictures of something random and turn the picture black and white. they claim it is artistic and great. ok. just taking a picture of something and turning it black and white, to me, does not equal art. to me photography is way more than just editing a picture to be black and white... or having color cut outs and such. a really great photograph does not always need a lot of editing. and i understand that what is considered art is all in the eye of the beholder, but lets be real. just because you have a digital snap shot camera does not make you a professional photographer. here is a way to do black and white photography and make it beautiful, and there is a way to just take a picture and make it black and white. it is all about the actual photography and not the editing.

so that is my rant.

 

but on a different note, i am excited about my new job! i will be an educational assistant for a special needs child. my heart is just so full of gladness! eee! my hours are great, so i have the afternoon to really focus in on my photography. whoo hoo! my job situation is finally looking up. and my goal is getting closer!

 

i hope that everyone has a wonderful night!!! 

Because this has gotten around to a few of you already and some of you are mad at me for not calling you, yes, I was in the hospital yesterday and today. I am out now, obviously.

I am not sick, nor am I injured. I just got a bunch of tests on my heart and I am pleased to say that I passed them all. I am not leaving on Sunday for Lee now because I still have one more test on Monday.

I didn't call anyone because I was only there for tests, and if I call one of you, I have to call all of you. Honestly, I just wanted to get out of there and visitors would have been awkward since I was all hooked up to The Matirx by a bunch of wires. I'm serious, I got out just in time.  To those who have expressed it, thank you for your concern.

 

Sincerely,

Me 

hey y'all...what's poppin?  i had a really long, but fun day!  i have found that the scarf i got for my birthday is my lucky scarf.  as soon as i took it off today (ice skating) i fell and hurt my wrist real bad.  (just take a guess who gave that to me... <3)  well anyway i got to wear a wedding dress today and i took fun pictures...i felt really pretty!  but it did kinda bunch up around my stumik...lol!  happy birthday grace....thinking of something to say...lalala.  i'll put pictures on here on monday...just not now!  i am now married...grace.  haha that's a sorta long story.  i don't want to tell it.  can't wait till the first football game...can't wait till monday...can't wait till birthday...CAN'T WAIT.  okay i have absolutely nothing else in my head.  except a small brain...OH we went to the parthenon in centennial park it was pretty dang cool.  kick awesum...wow haven't heard that in a while.  okay enough of this rambling...i'm done now.

~carmen loves austin~

I'm feeling bright and beautiful today........and no longer confuzed. So, yay!!! Everybody have a happy, sunshiny day!!!!!

 

 

1. You, I have so much hope for.  I'm very proud of you.  You are ambitious but kind, strong but gentle.  I'm very lucky that we ended up the way we are.  I'm not worried about your future, kiddo.
2. Can I help myself?  No.  It was very brief and very long ago, but I still wonder.  My mother warns me about people like you, but I think you're a good example of my future.  And I still have my suspicians about you.  You'll go far, anyway.
3. I'm sorry.  I wish I had been more open-minded.  I regret the way I handled things, and if I had a chance now, I would be less callous.  You deserve better.
4. There aren't words, really.  You are you, and I love you for that.  I respect you for that.  You're not afraid of yourself or what you can do, and I admire that.  I need you.  I really do.  Don't forget me.
5. I wish things could have been different.  I wish the situations were tweaked, I wish it all could have happened earlier.  I was so excited, too, just because I know when I've met a kindred spirit.  And it didn't happen, and it's mostly your fault.
6. You make me nervous sometimes, but then I always realize it's for no reason.  I rely on you, and never run out of things to say to you.  What else is there?  You made my high school experience.  Thank you.
7. I don't understand you - in a good way.  You make me smile, you make me laugh, you can be annoying, but I respect you.  Don't rush ahead.  Enjoy it.  Don't give up on the things you love.  Don't let others bring you down.
8. I did, I really did, for a long time, and more than I ever had before.  I don't now, and I'm very glad.  You have no idea the extent of it.  You would be embarrased.  You have potential - don't blow it.  Be yourself, even when it scares you. 
9. I don't blame you for my shortcomings, and I don't begrudge you your successes, whatever impression I may have given you.  You really do shine, which is why you succeed.  Don't worry so much, it's all there within you. 
10. I don't know how I feel about you.  I know what you were, what you were later, and what you are now.  I'm afraid I don't buy your explanation.  I think you need to honestly examine yourself, and also watch how you handle your relationships.
11. I would have no self-esteem without you.  Honestly, has there ever been a more affirming person?  You and her and her.  I love you all.  I wish I could give you more than what I have. You gave me so much, and I don't think you realize it.

I always feel really weird writing about my personal life online but I just needed to find somewhere (particularly on a site where most of my friends aren't on. lol.) to write and put my thoughts.

 

So anywho today I was totally excited to see all my friends. I haven't seen most of them in a while (since school ended) so naturally when they came back to move I rushed home after work to hang out. It was cool and all catching up and just laughing about silly stuff (which I really needed after having a not so good day at work). I was having fun until someone suggested some not so wholesome activities. I declined but that they decided to go head and leave me behind.

 

For some reason I wasn't mad. (maybe I should have been I don't know) I was just disappointed and shocked at them for even considering doing something like that. When they came back I decided to leave and just go home. Its like what happened to these people I thought I knew? I would have never imagined three years ago they would do some of the things they've done in the past few months and its getting worse. I don't even recognize them anymore. And don't get me wrong I love my friends. We've all had some great times together and I really do consider them family but this is becoming hard for me to just sit back and watch them get out of control. When I do say something its always "Whatever. Stop being so uptight!"  I don't want to lose them but I feel their behavior is getting worse...

I thought i would say
"I had a FANATSTIC birthday..and thanks for the Coments" :)

I hate to complain, but I have to vent...

 

I'm just tired. 

 

Tired of stupidity.

Tired of busyness.

Tired of death.

Tired of life.

Tired of hurt.

Tired of rejection.

Tired of cliques.

Tired of shallowness.

Tired of fakes.

Tired of hypocrites.

Tired emotionally.

Tired physically.

Tired spiritually.

Tired of the desert I'm in.  

My brain is too scattered to even come up with a title for this entry, so be creative. This has been an eventful friday. I recived some interesting news today. i found out that my math teacher is the spawn of Satan and loves to give weekend homework. I bet your math teacher isn't related to the Devil. HA!! I got more interesting news after that. I found out that two of my close friends have A:Sold there souls or B: Attended an Ivy Leauge lieing school. And then i found out even more interesting news, which has left me..............conbufluzed. It was an interesting day. 

 

By the way, im getting a perm. It's gonna look so 80's but i don't care.

i'm overjoyed.  i don't know why i just am...can't really describe it but it feels really good..."bubbly"!  but anyway i think i am getting eclipse my mom was just at the store place and i think she bought it.  i'm super duper excited about tomorrow...mostly.  but that's another story!!!!  what's poppin with all you coolio kiddo's?  this week has gone by so quickly it's not even funny...but i'm glad it's the weekend.  i wish i had something to do tonight but i don't...O WELL!!!  i'm going to virginia in like 6 or 7 weeks!!!  i'm kinda excited but kinda not really.  i'm ready for something interesting (good, of course) to happen to me!  i guess my time will come.  this is really REALLY random.  okay bye

Here are some cool ones idk who they are by but i have heard them

 

 

"Christianity is more than a religion, its a relationship."

 

"You may be disapointed if you fail, but you are doomed if you never try"

 

"Love is like the wind, you can't see it, you feel it."

 

"I have experienced a lot of things in my life, but when I am with you its like I am  a child all over again" Me

I am leaving on Sunday. Hanging out with anyone is virtually impossible. It is Thursday night and I still haven't packed. Oops.

So, my parents and I had decided that I would take a small student loan out for this last semester. We accepted the loan via pipeline over a week ago. Today we took action into our own hands.

Apparently I was supposed to fill out an application and then I'd get my prom. note to sign. Thanks MTSU for letting me know this.

 

I've now taken care of this and signed the prom. note online. I'm only going in debt about $3,000 but since my mom is not working, it was neccessary. Between the loan, scholarship money and our last bit of college savings, I have enough money for tuition, books, food for this semester and my apartment's rent for the entire 12-month lease. This is great becaus e we'll be able to pay for the year up front and get almost a month's worth of rent for free. Great savings and it's one less thing to worry about later.

 

Aside from all of that, today I decided was going to be the day I made a list of everyone I'm inviting to my wedding. This way I know how many invitations I'll need... etc. We're not completely done, but we have around 150 written down with Gray's family still needing to contribute some more.

 

blah to planning 

I finish the book. I'm oddly void of emotion. I want to talk to someone. I want to scream(or type in all caps.) But i won't. I won't say anything exept that it was an overall disappointment for me. Worse than New Moon in some ways. To quote Shakespeare:"I am amazed, and know not what to say." The quote at the begining of the book is nice. "Fire and Ice" by Robert Frost. A little too appropriate.

 

Some say the world will end in fire,
Some say in ice.
From what I've tasted of desire
I hold with those who favor fire.
But if it had to perish twice,
I think I know enough of hate
To say that for destruction ice
Is also great
And would suffice.

My first thought upon reading this was: "It dosn't matter if it's fire or ice that does the job, the world is still destroyed."

well my week has been LOVELY.  and i can tell you i'm lovin it right now.  i really wish things would stay like this but i'm pretty sure they won't.  well me and my happy self are gonna...go do something.  OKAAAY!  well buh bye

 

OMGosh OMGosh OMGosh OMGosh....
So its kinda a long story and i dont feel like going into it BUT i got a camera!!!!! I'm so happy! Yaaaaa !
And i thought i was going to get anything big...maybe a few cards, some hugs....but no! i got a CAMERA!!! Yaaaaaa




YAAAAAAAAA ME! :P Sorry i'm just really happy :P lol if you cant tell :)

Okay.... so I haven't written one of these in a really long time. I actually haven't really been on here in a really long time!! But anyway! Things have been going okay. I've had a lot of up and down times really. I feel like I'm on this never ending roller coaster! But it's looking good right now! :) I'm just learning how to trust God in ways I never have before... but that's good right??

Anyway, I just moved out into my new apartment!! It's pretty exciting! I'm scared I'll get lonely though... I dont know. I guess if I do I can always call up one of the kids from downstairs! lol You'll have to come up and see me sometime! (I say that to whoever's reading this altho I'm sure Grace is the only one that will!)

I'm really needing to use the facilities so I'm ending this now... lol

So you get the picture that todays my Birthday :P lol yaaaa me! HAHA well i'll talk to you fantastic people later :P
P.S Never ForGet That August 9th Is So My Day :P

I know some high schoolers hate school...but if this is your senor year...you will probably love school by the second semester since gradution time will be rolling around. And the time to make up last minute grades in order to graduate will cause school to be your best friend....and then college time hits...where will you go for school? MTSU is a great place to go to college...

I have decided to smile more and laugh louder. It has been improving my life steadily.