I sat out in the snow this morning.  I just let the wondrous white flecks swirl around me and whisper their secrets.  It is beautiful.  You can hear the voices of angels in the rush of the wind.  I think I am losing my grip on reality.  And I don't seem to mind.  It casting a soft glow on this world that I never saw before.  I'm falling in love with little things around me.  All hate and anger leaves me when I step back and gaze at everything.  If this is what insanity is, then I don't want to be sane.  This is just to good to leave.

I can't believe how you got me
and you love me this way
I can't do it without you babe
Don't ever leave, cause its so sweet how you love me this way
I can't do it without you babe

It's the special way we touch
How you cater to my needs
And the way you show you care for me
It's the look in your eyes
When you tell me that you're mine
And the way you're always there for me
It's no wonder why I feel this way

Thought about this love of ours
How intense it really is
And I figured it out,
I'll never find better love than the love you give
Bet ya, can't think without you
Not a doubt, that you're the one I need
Look How Far we've come, since day one
This is how it's supposed to be

It's the burning deep inside
It's too hard to be denied
It's the feeling when you're right there to hold me
And incase you ever have a doubt
I want to let you know this right now
I'm Yours, you give me all the reason I need

Rhiannon is so cool.

That's one of her livejournal icons.  She made it herself.  That girl makes me laugh.

yeah so... i went to the mall lastnight. it was the absolute worst time of my life ever. urm... we showed up.. and corey and eliza were arguing, that was pretty bad, my friend wasnt working, ben was there, and that made my heart fall to the floor, i got some new BUGGIE GLASSES and yeah.. well i had a little fun. tony took me to mcdonalds and we talked. but it was still really hard for me not to just break out in tears. i just, wow, i just dont want that kid to get hurt agian (ben) and i saw him, and he didnt look happy. idk maybe she makes him happy in all the ways i cant see, but i just. i just dont want to see him get hurt again. i really dont. i cant describe how much i like that kid. i have known him forever and an effin day and... i thouhgt things were going good. and all she does is say one word and its like i dont even exist anymore. but i guess... i guess thats what friends are for.

::+::Chelsey::+::

back from kaylah's

it was awesome had soooooooooooo much fun hung out w/ kaci and kaylah goofed around talked and shit... watch the ring which kaylah and kaci were being pethedic(sp?) hehehe watched 28 days later and fell a sleep.. sleep for like 3-ish hours the rat, kaylah has, woke me and kac up @ like 4:40 then light sleep from 5:00-7:00 talked some more listen to some music sooo yeah it was lik good old times... hehehe had the best cake ^^

       kaci and kaylah will always be my buddies

I'm turning 24 on Tuesday.

Last year I had the best birthday ever.  I was surrounded by friends.  I had multiple celebrations.  I even had the day off from school.  Four friends took me to lunch.  Another offered desert.  I received gifts from friends--not something that happens a lot to me.

This year, I don't know what will happen.  I have many of the same friends, but a dozen or so have moved, and the rest are living in a completely different world than I.

I had a group with which I fit perfectly at one time...to be honest, for the first time in my life. University Christian Fellowship.  They've saved my life so many times in so many ways.  But now I go there--because I really don't know where else to go--and I don't fit anymore, or at least, not like I used to.  I have no way of serving.  The jobs I used to do are now filled by others due to the fact that I simply have no time to do them, what with teaching and driving and spending two days a week with my Nana.  I'm in limbo.

I need to find somewhere else to go, some other way to serve, somewhere to fit.  But it seems impossible.

"I wanna run, I want to hide.

I want to tear down the walls that hold me inside

I want to reach out and touch the flame

Where the streets have no name"

--U2 

But for some reason I have a good feeling about something...  What is that something you ask?  Well,  I met this girl online, and we've been talking for a while now.  We really want to meet each other.  Now the crazy part...  She lives in Missouri, I live in Tennessee...  She is willing to use HER spring break to come to Murfreesboro to spend time with me.  Then is also willing to give me a ride and a house in Missouri for my spring break.  I don't know why, but for some reason I feel like I really need to do this.

Aloha.

My day was weird.

First period... We were reading chapter 4, when all of a sudden we hear Shantel's phone being turned off, and Mrs. Hosino tells her to bring it to her. Shantel walks out of class, and Mrs. Hosino cusses her out.

Second Period... We actually behaved like civilized people. We didn't throw anything at Mrs. Domen (Not that I ever did, but some people throw paper and crap like that at her), and nobody cussed her out or anything.

Lunch: It started with Me, Sharon, Shyna, Courtney, and those other people. Then, those other people start talking crap about Melanie, and me and Courtney go and tell her. Then, Everybody (except for me, Melanie, and Melanie's friend) yell at Courtney for not knowing what she was talking about (which, I am pretty sure Courtney was right in the first place). Melanie storms off, Courtney runs off, and Sharon, Shyna, and those other people talk crap about Courtney, while I listen.

Third Period: Nothing interesting.

Fourth Period: Same ol', same ol'. Mr. Akiyama makes us do our outline, threatens to keep us after class, w/e.

After school: We get on the city bus to go home. We get home.

That was my day, not too bad, but I am tired of listening to "those other people."

I had an interesting night tonight.

First off, I went to eat at Famous Dave's BBQ. Absolutely delicious...

After that I just decided to drive around seeing as how I knew nothing really of the area outside of campus and Kingston Pike. I got onto Chapman Highway (going southeast out of Knoxville) and stayed on that road until I started seeing signs for Dollywood and Gatlinburg. I made it all the way to Sevier Co. which means I was about 30 minutes from Gatlinburg.

I find it funny but I guess that's just me.

Tomorrow, er, today I think I'm going apartment hunting.

By the way, I hate the Alabama basketball team and their fans. Yes, you can make fun of me seeing as how I used to be an Alabama fan but I really don't care. I hate them with a passion.

So I am at home for the weekend...Well not really...I went home and then about 3 hours after running around to appointments and to Verizon..I left to come to Chattanooga... I am working the Wrestling Tournament for TSSAA!!! So that is good..That means I can actually go and and buy some food that i might need for the next couple of weeks..lol!! But I really wanted to go to Union to see Ashley preform in her thing with ZETA tonight!!!! But I just got a text message from here saying that they won so I am extremely proud of her!!!!!!!!!

But yeah...So there is a chance that I could get stuck in Chattanooga this weekend!! HAHA!! It is supposed to snow and get bad here tomorrow morning...which kinda sucks b/c who knows when i will get back to tha boro and then have to turn around and drive back to martin!! BLAH!!! But whatever!! It is just go dto be home!!!!

Well I am going to go to bed!!! NIGHTY NIGHT!!!

Well i think this is easier than myspace but i cant find out how to put a profile pic up. can you put music or layouts on this?

Andrew

Middle Tennessee head baseball coach Steve Peterson announced Friday this weekend's baseball games against IP-Fort Wayne have been canceled due to the forecast of inclement weather for both days.

No makeup date has been set at this time for the games. Forecasts call for temperatures in the mid-to-low 30s with a wintry mix of precipitation.

This sucks ! I was really looking foward to tomorrows games ! Oh well ! Who knows when I will catch the next games. They always play on the weekends and eveybody that knows me I work my butt off on the weekends. So its kinda hard sometimes to make it to the games. I can't wait till they start playing during mid week. That will be fun !

These lyrics say it all.

he is amazing.

done with phusebox.

bye<3

confuing? move your eyes around the pictures quickly.

I'll never be good enough for him.

But maybe that's okay. I am just sorry I wasted all that time.
It was there in front of me, but I chose not to see it. So it is my fault. He used to make me so mad, but I now see that I wasn't really angry at him just angered by the fact that I couldn't have him.

That no matter what I did I could not change his mind.
I had no control over it and I think that is what truly scared me.

maybe i should just let him go.

Life changes. I've changed.

I'm trying to find in this world where I belong, because I certainly do not know.
It seems like everything around me is changing-
friends are moving on, everything is moving on without me.
the world is turning and yet I am not turning with it.
I don't know what I believe or think. Everything is in constant turmoil.
I'm not the only thing that has changed, and that is the only thing I am sure of anymore.

They haven't decided yet on who's made it to Rocketown so I guess we still have a shot in this thing. Battle of the Bands must be a big deal for them if they're taking so long to decide.

All I can do is hope that we made it...

I hate waiting....

If we make it, these will be for sale....big black shirts with our emblem on the bosum. I think that's how you spell that, I don't rightly know...

Ok, that's all I have.

Hmm so hows about this weekend is gonna be the best one ever... and thursday was pretty amazing as well

so thursday i went to a concert at Bonhoeffers with karla and like EVERYONE was there... and let me just say... A Plea For Purging is probably the best screamo band iv seen in a long long time

Friday (today) i went to school... went to oakland... and met up with this girl iv just recently met... let me say... Linz Hackney is probably one of the coolest people iv met... Dont get the straws at starbucks... thats how they make their money HAHA

Guess what... me and erica are gonna finally hang out tomorrow night... were gonna go see Date Movie ===

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I am actually jsut goofing around, I liked the pictures so I posted them, by the way, I drew them all :)

Hi people...well i am in a awesome mood..

i just got home from hanging out with like the coolest guy i have ever met...

Chris Slate....sex-eh huh?...yeah buddy....

Like the straw..

Crazy edit...

Tomorrow im gonna wear that dress out..and boogie like no tomorrow..i think depends if i stay the whole time..which i doubt i will...

sunday i'm hanging out with Chris again ( holy shee bisch) ..and well i will go from there.

monday no plans..

kinda sucks..unless i like hang out with someone that calls me..YAY!

old hair....

new hair

you like?!?!

I love finding icons that fit my mood....or ones that i think are cute.....

You are my star in the sky
that shines ever so bright.
You are the light of my life
that gives me my sight.
You are the air that I breathe
that keeps me alive.
You are the fluttering butterflies
that live deep within me.
You are the strength
that keeps me going.
you are the one person
that makes me believe.

Searching for you
through out the halls
I can't help but stare.
As I see you walking by
 seeing your dazzling smile
 just brightens my day.
 

Let's slow dance when there's no music.
Let's kiss underneath the stars till the sun rises.
Let's fall asleep in each other's arms.
Let's walk through the park on a cold winter night.
Let's sing a lullaby to each other after we just got up.
Let's show more love than anyone has ever seen.
Let's become that couple that everyone wishes they were.
   

©  Friends are my life

i was gonna write something... forgot what.

went to lunch with Carly, Amy, and Megan. it was fu-un.

saw Hayhay and Meghan at Old Navy.

came home. watched Tyra.

<3

goin to work in about an hour.

I love downtown at night.  It's so quiet and peaceful.  The soft lights playing upon the windows.  Walking through the hedges at the library.  Then I went down into the parking garage.  The harsh fluorescent lights casting orange glows upon everything.  It honestly felt like hell.  I couldn't stop thinking about it all the way home.

Last night at work I realized that Krystals' falls apart if I'm not there to coordinate things.  I know more things than most managers there.  That's kind of sad.  In two ways.  One that they are so inept.  And two, that I know so much.  I better get promoted soon.

Valentine's Day was like every other one that has come along.  Another normal day.  I didn't care.  I am going to put off dating for awhile.  It just hurts.  I want to focus on my writing anyway.

I went and bought a ton of candy from Wal-Mart earlier.  I'm gonna gorge.  I just hope that I don't have a latent form of diabetes.

I hope everyone has a great three-day weekend.  I'm going to be sleeping through most of it.  I'm so tired lately.

P.S.  I'm getting a new cell phone next Tuesday, but for know call me at home.  849-9201.

watching a movie w/ kay

yay for movies

went to food lion....

yep yep later

                     president

so, i'm totally copying christina but i thought it looked fun! lemme know what you think!

What do you think about me??

     Wow... >>> I am SO f'ing tired.  Me & one of my best friend's (Kyra), went to the Blue Collar Comedy Tour show in Nashville last nite. Well... >>> after all of that... she & I walked all around the whole damned block to find ourselves in front of a bar right across from the Gaylord place (how ironically placed, really). And we ended up talking to the bouncer (whom was AWESOMELY nice to us), & he gave us each a clove to smoke. *tee hee* ((hadn't smoked one of those in AGES!!!!!!!))
     Anycows... >>> I suppose I'll be on my way.  TOODLES!!!!!!!   & remember... No Glove, No Love.  (lol)

                                       <3             -Chelsea

happy birthday AMBER!!!!! I LOVE YOU

piece

So Midstate Choir was super.  Rehearsals were dreadfully long, but we (Carlton, Sophie, Marie and I) found ways to amuse ourselves, most of which involved annoying everyone around us.  We played on the playground for a while, and then had tons of fun when all of the girls had to change into concert wear on a dark bus in about three minutes - and ten minutes after some of us were supposed to be on stage.  But the the Women's Chorus didn't suck as much as expected, and then we told scary stories on the way home, so it was all together a good day.

I'm really worried about (and disappointed in) some people.  Somethings are just awful to witness, especially when you can't do anything about what's happening.

It's times like these that make me say...

O tempora, O mores!

You know what I mean??

A bunch of other people have been doing this Johari Window thing, so I did too - click on the link and do what it says, it only takes a minuteand I'm curious to see what you say...

http://kevan.org/johari?name=ChristinaW

then if you want to do my bad traits go to this link...

http://kevan.org/nohari?name=ChristinaW

yay today is a half day.  i am so happy because this means more time for my puppy. :) i'm caught up in all of my classes and am pretty sure that i made all a's and b's.  i am going to try and have a quiet and peaceful weekend although some *people* (not naming any names) probably won't allow it. oh well, i can at least attempt.  i am almost done with Auschwitz. it's a really good book.

P.S. thanks to laura for the jafar pic.

http://kevan.org/johari?name=AshleyB

Whatever Johari is.....I have a window.  Check it out :)  Thanks E

. . . how was your day?"

"it felt about like someone ripping my heart out."

hmmmmm

i have not wrote on this this thing in a while...i have been quite busy, ive been quite agitated lately too......Valentines day always sux for me and this year it was a slap in the face....i dont know exactly what to do....i should just leave fate take the wheel of my life...i hate everything that has ruined my so called life...but, i can either dwell on everything and be weak..or just get over it and be strong...But, everything that is happening is becoming unexpected....i hate this.....

later Steph

yeah so i think i am about to have the LAMEST 4 DAY WEEKEND EVER!

NO GEORGIA GO FOR ME! =(

EVERYONE BUT ME IS GOING!! stupid parents.. hehe.. jk.. i <3 them.. well lets see who is going..

 joy, gnia, tasha, chris, johnny, peter ly, symon, lisa, skyler, lindsey, angela, peter crank, joseph, umm i think other people are going too..

but NO NOT ME!! cause my parents are MEAN.. haha.. && TOO OVER PROTECTIVE!! everyones leaving TONIGHT && COMING BACK TOMORROW NIGHT..  yeah this weekend is ganna be VERY LAME!!!

i think they wont let me go cause of what happened last time i went to georgia.. hehe..

LONG STORY.. haha.. well not what happened IN GEORGIA.. but the trip back w/ gnia, jack, chris && joy.. haha NEVER ganna do that again.. haha.. that was a CRAZY ride back..

hehe.. i wonder if that REALLY is why they wont let me go.. humms.. idk.. i think they KNOW but dont want me to know that they know..

hums... yeah well this weekend is ganna be LAME!! call me if ya wanna hang out!! 806-3686 =oD or ill be stuck having some "FAMILY FUN" :o/ 

Hey everyone. i'm at school and it's a half day today!!! and then after school i get to go and pick up my new car!! it's a white 1998 mercedes. great condition...i'm so excitd about this all!! i get a new car, and i get a free new cell phone!! AGGGHHH!! nothing is better!! lol. tonight i got off of work so that i could hang out with Jessica Jo....BUT NOOOO Jessica does not like me, she goes off and makes other plans without me. so i get to enjoy my new car all alone. i'll probably end up sitting at home....OR NOT i WILL do something tonight. whether i am by myself or not...i refuse to sit on my butt all night. Matt, Diane, and Mr. Allan are coming in today. Matt has a vocal audition 2morro for MTSU. so tonight, my 'rents and his 'rents are going out to eat....maybe me and Matt can have a date. Maybe not. oh well. if not i can always do something with Kristin or Lauren or Holly and/or Kaitlyn. They are really cool peeps, i might decide to do that, not sure yet. But umm pretty sure my car doesn't have a CD player, and that's the only downside, so i'm taking my car to electronic express saturday while i'm at work, to see if i can have the cd player put in the car. the lowest price in $75 bucks!! pretty sure i'd rather not pay it, but i have to have a CD player. si if anybody knows of someone who can install a CD player, PLEASE tell me, for cheaper then $75 bucks. ok well i'm out! TTYL!!

Kaylie

Besides the fact that i was extremely tired after getting home from a long day at mid-state, i have to say it was actually quite fun. Even though our director was a crazy mad man lol he managed to get 100 some odd teenagers to listen to him for the whole day and make some very beautiful music.

But I have to say that spending the day with my best friend Andrea was the best part by far. Have a wonderful day everyone! Let God rock it.

+ML+