Go here, be amazed:
http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-4505462782975458603&q=football

WOW... im such a city gurl... but my family is moving to the country... and when we went out there i walked to the middle of our 9 acre back yard... and just looked up... i dont remember the last time i saw the stars so clear... and i did the only thing i could think of to do... i cried... then i talked to my daddy and told him how i was doing... and then i got on my knees ... and prayed... i've never felt so close to the sky... like i could reach up and grap a star... then i just layed there in the middle of this huge field w/ all the little buggies... and snakes... and dirt... and i cried... it felt good... it was AMAZING!! 

N E WAYZ!...

so my b-day is April 11th... and i want a party a somewhat big party...  and i think im gunna have a bon fire im my huge back yard and almost everyone will be invited... wienies, marshmellows, music and all my friends... yah i think thats what i'll do...  n e other suggetions... let me know!!!
~tRISH




i dont think i've ever met n e one quite like him...and i dont think i ever will... he treats me better then most of the boyfriends i've had(though he isnt my b/f...(i wish he was) )... hmmm dakota....

So today was the BIG day...yep sign ups for Passion 07 started at noon EST.  The first 500 registrants got the $99 fee...it was gone in 6 minutes.  6 MINUTES!!  Yours truly was one of the fortunate 500 (does that mean we're like the Fortune 500?...ha!).  Crazy me forgot my credit cards today so I'm like scrambling to call my brother to get his card number like 10 minutes til noon.  Thankfully, no prob there.  Then I had a crazy time trying to sign in to my account.  I didn't know my password so...yep had to wait for them to send it.  Thankfully I got everything squared away along with my brother and his fiance's registration.

And get this...the 2nd 500 could register for $109 and it was gone in like 2.5 minutes.  Is that not unbelievable?!

1000 people signed up for Passion 07 in 8.5 minutes.  Passion 07, here we come!

It's gonna be awesome!  Can't wait!!

yeah so YESTURDAY, a woman was KIDNAPPED @ THE COVE! which is like 7-10 mins down the road from my neighborhood! && like 10 mins away from school! how scary is that?

so yeah.. & a cop went to investigate && got SHOT IN THE ARM! or shoulder..

well heres the story.. there was a white van on the side of the road and a cop went to go see if they were lost or something.. but then they waved to him saying they were fine.. but he went over to the van ne ways just to check && heard a woman screaming for HELP in the van and thats when they shot him in the shoulder... and drove off FAST!! 

&& they looked for the van but could NOT find it.. so yeah.. i think the guy/people? who took that lady r still missing... so is the lady.

&& the cop who was shot was my sisters friends dad. but he is OK. they let him leave the hospital that same night.

but yeah basically.. i just think its kinda scary that someone was KIDNAPPED at a park we go to all the time in the summer.. && that its like about 10 mins. down the road from MY HOUSE and from SCHOOL!!! but yeah its SCARY && my parents r all paranoide (sp?) now..  

i don't know really what to say
things are hell right now
might have to go back to east tennessee for a bit
my great grandmother isn't doing well at all
i hate death
i'm almost 16 and i've been to more funerals than most people i know
what 16 year old has been to atleast 6 funerals?
gah death leaves such a void in life
i broke down at lunch today thinking about my papaw
he died like four or five years ago
just thinking about his funeral made me cry
i guess that's just one of the things i have to keep bottled inside,
it just hurts so much sometimes

Its easy for me to get caught up in the word "best friend"...

When I was younger I told my mom that everyone was my best friend - I just thought everyone deserved to have one. As I got older things changed the kids that I thought were my best friends would always tease me...I'm not complaining though - it had to happen for a reason. But it still effects me today in a lot of ways. I always worry about pleasing my friends - my best friends. I find it easy to get down on myself over little things that I may be doing wrong. Right now I'm at a spot where the people I am the closest to already have their own best friend. It bothered me for a really long time because I felt unwanted. Even though that is totally untrue (I know you guys love me and I love you to DEATH) I still questioned why God was doing this. I knew it was for a reason though.

So I was sitting in my bath tub the other night and God just spoke to me (lol funny how that happens sometimes). He just simply told me that the best friend I was looking for was Him. No one else could fill that place. I realized that he wasn't so far away after all. I know as Christians we say a lot that Jesus is our best friend, but sometimes I don't think we live that way. I know I don't all the time. We don't talk to him like he's our best friend and we find it easier to brush him aside than to quiet down the rest of the world to let Him speak to us. It's easy to get caught up in calling God our best friend without taking the time to realize what the truly means. I have the most amazing friends here on earth (and I love you Andrea and Lisa!!!!!!!!!!!) but there is only one Father in Heaven who I can honestly say is the best friend I will ever have.

 Seek good and not evil, and live! You talk about GOD, the God-of-the-Angel-Armies being your best friend. Well, live like it, and maybe it will happen.

- Amos 5:14 (The Message)

+ML+

 http://kevan.org/johari?name=Mary+Lauren - please do this for me! thanks!

i haven't updated in a while so i figured i would. like i've told some of you, life is kinda boring. well i have a choir concert tomorrow, and i might try out 4 dance team next year, since there is not a shot for me making varsity cheer. but i've been struggling with it, so if you have advice it would b appreceated. k well that's about all folks.

<3,
lindsey

Wow. This last 2 weeks have been up and down on the fortune scale. One minute something good happens, and then next thing I know something sucky is there to kiss me in the face. Pray for me that I don't get discouraged through all of this. School is kicking my butt right now. I don't understand algebra at all (I am really, very clueless as to what is going on. Like seriously...its bad). I have a major english research paper that I am currently behind on. I also have a major science project that I have to decide on. And then there are other things on top of that. I'm also sick, got a cold. Migrans won't stop...even with asprin (sp). I had to miss church tonight, b/c i am so behind, and just straight up tired. Siegel's regional championship game is tonight against oakland in franklin county...mmm shame that I can't make it. If yall could pray for me, it would be much appreciated. Thanks.
~Garrett

edit:: Ok I will try to keep this as short as possible, but it will be hard. So I have spent most of the night doing research on the JFK assassination for my english paper. I've been researching this for a few days now, and I can't come to a conclusion about his assassination. As many of us know, (or at least we should) this is one of the most famous assassinations in history because about 95% of all americans belive that the JFK assassination was a conspiracy. Most people don't belive that Lee Harvey Oswald acted alone in the murder. The facts about the case are that Lee Harvey Oswald shot JFK from the 6th story of the Texas School Book Depository Building with a bolt-action rifle (I forget the actual name of the rife), in Dallas, Texas at a place called Dealey Plaza . The President was riding in a convertible with his wife and Texas governor Connally. There is alot of question as to how many shots were actually fired. Many people say that the Zapruder Film (which a video that shows JFK being shot) shows reactions to 6 different shots on the president. It is a fact that only 2 shots hit the president (one that went through his neck and another hitting him in the head, causing his head to explode). They say at least one of these shots came from the grassy knoll nearby (which missed kennedy and the convertible completely), and the others came from the book depository building. But officials of the Warren County Assassination Commission (which was a commission appointed by president Lyndon Johnson that came to the conclusion that kennedy was assassinated by oswald alone, and not a conspiracy) say that only 3 shots were fired at Kennedy. Looking at the evidence myself, this seems almost impossible. So I want to know what you guys think. Was JFK assassinated as a result of a conspiracy? Or was it Oswald acting alone? Please leave me your thoughts. And I am expecting to get good, educated feedback from John on this one, since he has the same research topic as me.

My cheese puffs are sad...

whyyyyyy
do
i
keep
falling
for him....

I don't think i'm going to do Lent this year.

I don't think its a really big statement to just give up something for one measly little month and then go back to the horrible people we were before.

the point to this is to make us remember the sacrifice God made for us right?

well, i think that's something that should  be remembered and honoured all year long and not just for one pathetic month of the year.

when i look around at the people who do participate in Lent, they don't say anything about Jesus or anything. They just whine and complain that they can't eat their candy bar or whatever it was that they gave up.

i'm trying to be a better person and i'm trying to not be cynical all the time.

i must say, these past 2 weeks have been happier than most.

I'm going to stop doing what my church asks me to do and i'm going to do what God asks me to do.

And isn't it that He wants us to love other people regaurdless of race, gender, social status, sexual preference, and any other pathetic reason to hate other people?

I dunno...there's just a lot of politics and hipocrasy in churches lately.

and i just can't see such a loving, gracious God asking for something so stupid.

I think what He really wants (and what we really need to do) is for us to love other people.

i'm sorry if i offended anyone.

I''m just putting my thoughts out into the open and i don't think we are being the people we should be...

So, did the Wicked Witch of the West ever take a shower?

I have a new phone. 

Call me at 713-9272 after 6 sometimes.

It is a sure thing that as soon as I turn 18 in November, I am out of here, I dont care where I have to live, but I am gone, I am sick of living in theis house , under the totalitarian parental units!  I am so sick of this crap I have to deal with, I wish in the deppest darkest region of my heart, that I could just drop dead now and do everyone a favor.

someone stole my camra yesterday><

yes it sucks....

other then that i made good grades

yep yep

one month till i'm 16 woot woot!! =)

oakland vs siegel tonight.. wow.. it is gonna be amazing =)

me and corey rock soooooooooooooo hard.... mrs gunter is letting him go strait to theatre 3 w/ out EVER going through theatre 1 or 2 ... and she's letting me skip theatre 2.... so we'll both go to theatre 3 together FUN woop woop!! ... but yah...  well more movin to do today!
~tRISH

todays lesson little children....

"once a cheater ALWAYS a cheater"
"forgive and forget... relive nd regret..."

I'm sad.
He has left me again, and, even though I have this great news and stuff, I'm going to cry. I mean I finally find out the answers and discover that it's all turning out the way I wanted to, but he's in Arizona and I'm in Tennessee. I love him and he's gone again and I don't know when he's going to be coming back. I'll be waiting here for him because he asked and because I love him. Wish me luck, not that I need it because I'm not even remotely attracted to anyone else. It's just going to hurt like hell and the only thing that will keep me going is the fact that I love him and I will see him again.

I'm really and truely happy.
Wow thats the first time I've been able to say that in a long time.You see crazy things have been going on for a while. If you've been reading this blog long enough you'd know that I've been having issues in matters of the heart for quite some time. Well today that changed. This guy who I happened to love moved away at the end of last year and he came back home to visit for a few days. Well he left today to go back and I'm really sad that he's gone but I have some serious hope now. What I thought was going to be a day from hell turned out to be an interesting and excellent day because I found something out.This morning I met him for breakfast at the KUC and I did my best to laugh and not cry. He walked me to class and we kissed and he left. He left a small note in my purse and its changed everything for the better. I'm not going to go into details or anything but let's just say that this guy:  makes me the happiest girl ever. And he's probably going to kill me if he finds out that I've put his picture on my phusebox. But its all good anyway.

Chris Slate has awesome hair!!! Speaking of hair, my friend Ben says he would let me cut his! I wonder just how serious he was. lol The last time I cut Chad's hair he said he would never let me touch it again. Paul, that silly half Jew, has super awesome hair too. I'm getting my hair cut soon. Well bye!

It's amazing how a good day can be made even better just by having a conversation with a 3-year-old.

This Sucks..

Heidi is moving to Colorado next Wednesday,

It Bites', I Wish That I Could DATE SOMEONE

Jesus , Always Something That Prevents Me From

Doing So. It's A Hoe..

I Need To Go Tanning , My Parents Wont Take Me.

I'm Always Hungry Around 6th (Right Now)

I Want To Be Able To Drive

And I Want To Do W/e I Feel Like

Last Night Was Saddening , And Of Course My

iPod Is Phsycic Or Something , It Played

Depressing Songs

The Whole Night , And Guess What..

I Cracked and I Cryed A Little , Don't Care.

I Want Some Mexican Food...

Thomas

SprInG bReAk

iS @lmoSt h3Re!

even though I am not going anymore.. i'm still excieted about getting out of school for a week!!

yayuhh so Siegel plays Oakland tonight..
I wonder what is gonna happen

Siegel Nation

but I love you.
<3mb

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yea so we went to that today........the choir was sweeet..........fohawks are gay.........**coughtannercough** ....lol.........sry.........jp

but yea.........so i did a lot better on my report card than i though i would.....science 83, .............bells's gunna ring in like 10 seconds............i love you!!!

so amazing...............

mrs.gregory let us have naptime...................

because everyone is sick

heeheehee

do u remember naptime??

i do and thos is 10x better because i can phusebox

For those of you that go to AO you know about our BIG signs that go on campus. Well Jeff and I thought it would be a good idea to make one for down here……

 

Making the sign….

What we needed

Wood and tools  

We thought this was pretty funny, but we still took a chance and used it even though we’re not Hawaiian…..

And we worked hard really really hard

Well kinda

Starting to come together

Then it was time to paint….

......

.....

Then spray painting

We we’re mostly making it up as we went, but we we’re happy w/ the end result….well I was since I was spraying. Jeff had to hold the stencils down….lol

And finally after 3 weeks of working on this thing….yes 3 weeks we got it on campus!!!

So we we’re really happy with what it came out looking like. We also went one past AO sign. You see our sign you can take out of the legs and just paint a new one to put in…AO sign you can’t do that…. Anyways what do ya’ll thank about the sign. We have gotten mixed feed back…

Good or Bad?

Hey Phusebox? Whats Up? Me, Nothing Much Just Got Outta 2nd Period... Man I Hate US Government... And The Bible Study Last Night Was Fun.. I Stayed Out Till Like 12 And Then My Mom Called My Phone Angry At Me LOL... Anyways, I Found Someone Else That I Like... 2 People Actually...I Know What Yall Might Be Thinking, "There He Goes Again With That, Blah Blah Blah" Well I Know That I Don't Need A Girlfriend Right Now At This Time, Because I Need To Graduate First And Maintain A Strong Relationship With God... But Prom Is Coming Soon And I Wanna Be There With Someone Special, And There Is Nothing Wrong With Being In Love... I Mean Isn't It A Good Feeling Once You Get It? Man, I Can't Even Explain How Love Can Be When You Find That Special Someone... I Hope That At Least One Of Them Give Me A Chance... I'm Tired Of Feeling So Alone... Do Yall Know How That Feels? So Empty? So Wrong? To Be Honest, I'm Not Lonely In Heart, I Have Lots Of Christian Friends That I Can't Even Count.. But I Am Lonely In Mind, Do Yall Feel What I Mean? Well, I Gotta Go To Lunch I'll Write Again Soon...
"What Kind Of Person Are You"
"Would You Talk To God About Things Before You Do Something Or Would You Just React Towards Your Actions?"
"Don't Try To Always Do Things On Your Own, Take Gods Help"
And What Would You Do To Keep A Strong Relationship With God?

my fav from dir en grey.  hottness

   Danelle which is the girl in my picture was my prom date last year. She Passed away on thursday in a car wreck. So i am sorry that i have not gotten on in a while. Well MTSU finally is gonna let me in...Gosh i can not wait until college life. although all of my freind say that it sucks... I can not wait until SPRING BREAK!!!!! HELL YEAH!!!!

Highschool facebook people can be friends with college people now!! YAY!

What is up my peeps LOL so ummm..............first day LOL well uhh......at school it SUCKS as usual LOL well uhhhhh........they haven't  blocked this site yet LOL well later!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wow so its been a while. Thigns are okay for the moment, school is getting hectic but Spring Break is fast approaching so thank all goodness for that.

Lets see not much to update on. Oh yes, my engagement setting came in!!! HOWEVER, I refuse to get excited b/c in the words of Michael, it could be another six months. So what's to get excited about? Tell a bunch of people and then maybe they won't be around when/if that time comes. *Sigh* so I wait.

Other than that not much, just life. Spring IS coming though, I'm wearing flipflops today!!!!! :D

photo from raoul_de_castor
i'm going to miss you, coffee, my love . . .

so, it's been awhile! nothing really new to report on tho...i've been sick the past couple of weeks, not being able to practice b/c i would lose my voice for a few days. :( but that is getting better and i've been able to start practicing again! the orpheus competition is this saturday, and we had a mock competition for it yesterday during masterclass and i got some really good feedback. yay for hannah and deanna! things with steve are going great as usual...gah i love him! i cannot WAIT until spring break and i can catch up on all of my sleep! i'll be going to huntsville for a couple of days to see a violinist but other than that, i'll be here in the murf so hit me up!

so yesterday was great. i wasn't nervous at all at court. it went very good. i was called up and i decided to plead not guilty and now i have my hearing on march 28th. my officer was a real prick. oh lol! and i got pulled over last night for driving with my headlights off. i cant tell! so hey, but he was real nice about it.

but i did see quite a few people i know. Like Zach, our waiter at Chef Wangs. :D somehow last Thursday court was mentioned and he said he had to go for something stupid. well we finally got him to tell us what he did after we guessed a million times. And when I saw him walk into the room I started to laugh silently. :P

later we went to cracker barrel and i paid for it. so now i only have like 20 dollars and i told sam i had dinner on thursday. and i kinda dont now. (: i can get mine and half of sams though. but if my direct deposit stuff goes in by tomorrow then i will have money. :D so it will be all good. :P that and ill sneek my check on thursday :P lol

Rocky comes back today!!! yay!

work tonight. ill probably do the deposit again (: its all good though.

love you sam. (: be careful.

Hey... I really do not know how to work this.... thing.. so Yall will have to bear with my ignorance for a short while...

So... UTC's best choir came and sang for us this morning. w00t.

Cantante Domino! Cantante Domino!Cantante Domino!= my theme song lol

"everybody GO! everybody JUMP!
You can fly higher
everybody GO! everybody JUMP!
Because you have wings
everybody GO! everybody JUMP!
You don't have to be afraid
everybody GO! everybody JUMP!
I'm just the same"
-Ayu (Humming 7/4)

Ayu is soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo cool! ^^

I'm so in love.
:D

so yeah me and god are arguing right now sooo.......

i really don't know what to write except i won an award for fccla we got bronze which is  bad but i don't really care anyhow i have lots to do got chirch tonight and school tommorow life is a schedule........

to many htings to do........

HEY everybody

Ive been grounded since NOVEMBER and im finally UNGROUNDED!!!!!!!!!!!

So yeah, a lot has happened since then, to much to fit in one entry, sooo ill post more later.

IM SO HAPPY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love all,

GoaliChik

So at 12:00 tonight, i am going for 40 days without ice cream!! At first I was going to do candy..and then I realized that I have 2 boxes of Samoas that my dad bought me..so that wasn't going to work..so next was ice cream!! I hope that I can do it!! But yeah.

Well I have 2 test this week, all sing practice, and 45th anniversary this weekend..I am starting to get a lil stressed out!!! But ohh well...

This weekend was awesome!! I got to see ashley and some of my family!! It was amazing!! Ash and I went and hung out for a while and ate lunch!!! YUM!! LOL!! and then mom, amy, and i went shopping for some dressy clothes and well..yeah..i got a lot of dressy clothes!!!

Well I have a test at 8 in the morning and i am not looking forward to it..SO i am gonna go and get some sleep!!

Luv ya all!!

For those of you who believe things like this picture are gross, inhuman, or inappropriate, this is no joke.  I came across a site with pictures like this one, and they scared me from depression and bitterness for a time.  May these souls always remind me of not only my own mortality but the glory in life I have.

a fishing man ,a boat and the river

Most all of the single people, that i know, are looking forward to romance. some even long for it. girls want to be protected; they want the "prince charming" , the roses, the affection of a man. a lot of people can't imagine their lives without a partner. we can get wrapped up in this imaginary romance. What if we channeled that longing towards a relationship with the Lord? he will give us more than any human could possibly obtain. we just have to let him in. at the end of the day, a "prince" is just a prince and a rose is still a rose, nothing more and nothing less. But God will always be God.

this play will be...amazing. Come see Damn Yankees at Blackman. mostly because you will never regret it. this is my shameless plug of the play.

i have had quite a few great revelations. yes. and most of them come about at play rehearsal. i'm telling you...it's life changing.

that's all i have.

i like shadows.

LOVE/ Britt

fell in love with a boy.

Well... I love to hear from you guys.. and i like to HEAR your advice and i do consider it BUT please stop TELLING me what to do.. im sorry but i dont know how i feel or think or what i want or need so i cant take in what you think... ok im sorry.. thanks you guys.. i love you to peices

meag

So life has been not that great lately.
Swing Dance was a disappointment.

Now I've been talking to this guy name Chris Slate.
He makes me smile.
Crazy kid.

School is beyond hectic.
I can't wait for prom.
I don't have a date though--uuuh frustration.
We'll see if Justin comes around in time.
But I'm thinkin' going alone wouldn't be so bad.

I gottttta go.
Lent starts tomorrow.
I'm singing.
blah.
We'll see how that goes.
Leave me love.

<3

well dang. its been a month.

i'd kill for some belle and sebastion right now.

so things are things. chemistry sucks but thats ok. the rowing team i sthe best thing right now. we have a blast.

i had this pretty bad feeling come over me today. it made me sad. oh well. i guess i'm better, but then after the test i was told something that wasnt cool.

i wish it would snow again but with weather that was as awesome as today it's not going to be happening. i should of worn shorts, but maybe tomorow.

we have lab on thursday, ugh. i cant wait till srping break. and we have our first competition in like 2 weeks. it's going to be tight.

whitney and i got jessica tickets to the Mae concert in nashville. it was a heck of alot of fun.

piece

Found this today on relevantmagazine.com and thought everyone should take a few minutes to read it. Hope it pushes you toward more...

My lips breathe the words I read,
and speak so true to the life I lead,
Day by day, night by night, caught in the moment, everything seems right,
I continue on this way, wondering, searching
with my body, my soul, my heart, my Beauty,
There's so much in me that wants to offer my femininity
I wanna use my Beauty to delight him, captivate him and show him how You
made me,
I yearn to feel the Beauty.
I yearn so much that I give too much, too many, too soon, too fast,
I've toyed and manipulated situations in the past,
to feel that intimacy that only You can offer me
But I admit, I gave too much, too soon, too fast,
that I cannot even grasp the past of hurt, confusion, disillusion, I'm
losing ...

And then I awaken, I arise, I won't buy into the lies
I stop in the pain I've been faking
I've betrayed You, disobeyed You, played You,
used the gifts I've been given
to taint the man I love
I've twisted and bended my Beauty
to obtain that false love that I believe will sustain ... the pain
But pain is what I gain in the forbidden game.

And as I spill forth burning tears of sin,
pain lingers within
pain of pleasure, pain of fun,
my desperate soul cries out ...

GOD what have I done?

Or one of the best.

Today, Cari Jennings told me that she loves reading my phusebox.  That is always makes her laugh and smile.

YAY!!!!!

Cari's really neat.  I'm glad I have her stamp of blogging approval.

In other news, we're gonna give this Fazoli's Night thing another shot.  I might pout and sulk and play up the "nobody loves me" thing a little bit, just to make them feel a little guilty, but then I'll be done.  [The guilt would be over, of course, everyone except me NOT showing up last week.  :p]

Anyways.  If I'm gonna do that, I gotta scram!  Latah.

I was driving home this afternoon from work and as I passed the movie theater I decided to go see this movie that was filmed at my old church when I worked there. When they were filming it, I got to watch a whole lot of it being shot and my parents are even in a scene in the movie. I also found out that a whole lot of people that I know are in it. One of my friends sings in a couple of scenes. Curt, one of our church custodians is in the first scene. Logos and posters that I'd designed were in the background all over the walls throughout the movie. It really actually made me homesick even though it portrayed my church as the big rich white suburban church... (ok so that's actually true.) It was a pretty good movie, I didn't expect to enjoy it as much as I did. If you have a little extra time and cash on your hands, go see it. It's a really great story and it makes you think about what the Church is and what it should be.

The weird thing was that I was the ONLY person in the theater. I had my own private screening. I didn't even turn my cell phone off because it wouldn't have interrupted anyone but me. It was strange to be alone in a big theater, and to see my mom on the screen (even if you could barely see her.) To see the halls of a church building that I used to wander down when i needed to get away from my desk on movie screen was very very surreal. The credits rolled, and I knew like 15 people listed. I guess you can say the movie was quite a nice afternoon surprise.

www.thesecondchancemovie.com
 

ok so maybe i dont think before i talk all the time...

I accidentally told lauren that i wanted her to pick... she told me to give her a day... i agreed... then she told me the next day that she decided... and now is scared to tell me...

i really think i screwed up this time...

i know what probably ticked her off... i was honest with her about something concerning her best friend (not bad)... i cant help what i feel and think... well i can... but i choose not to

i just hope i havent dug myself to deep this time... i would say sorry... but i feel as though i have nothing to apologize for...

you guys are the best... just thanks for readin... who cares about the remarks...

i cant wait til friday... me and my best friend get to hang out again... see what happened last time we hung out... -->

It's official.  I have now descended into a legally ascertained life of sin and vice.

Yes, I am now a ringleader of the crime underworld.

My list of devious deeds, you may ask?

A traffic ticket.  Rolling through a stop-sign.  And a warning for not having proof of insurance (never doubt the potency of a plaintive look; copious amounts of mascara help).  The police were camped out on the main drag of a neighbourhood shortcut to Riverdale (well known to criminals, of course).  I got in the line to merge onto Warrior Drive.  Then I see the three police motorcycles camped in a private drive (which I question the legality of, though I'm hardly one to talk).  They look at me, wave me over and point to a spot where I can park.  I'm so oblivious that I rolled that I actually turn to Caroline and say, since they have a small clipboard, "Maybe it's a survey?"

(I roll down window.)  "Hello there!"
"It was very rude of you to run that stop-sign."
(Internal monologue: What????)  "......Oh?"  (Erudite, I was not.  Here I am desperately trying to remember what sort of phrases the Traffic Ticket Evasion article on www.soyouwanna.com recommends, and thanking every deity known to man that I took the SWORD out of my back seat before leaving home this morning.  That, wrapped in a blanket, defies every law of concealed weaponry.)
"May I see your license and insurance papers?"
"Yeah, sure, certainly.  Caroline, get those out of the glove compartment, will you?"  (After a desperate search through the envelope labelled "Important Papers," I have yet to locate said insurance, and hand it to the cop so he can do the looking.  Decide not to mention the fact that, when hiding behind a bush, he looks just like an old black woman.  No, seriously, he does.)  (Insert searing stares of Han Solo "Laugh-It-Up-Fuzzball" proportions at fellow classmates who point and laugh and wave as they zip merrily by.  Try to hide amusement as cop returns from inscribing my plate number.)  "So, out of curiousity, what's the fine going to be?"
"About $100."
(Internal monologue: Sh*t.  Now I can't use real silk for my faire costume.)  "Excuse me?"
"Yep.  And you don't have your insurance in here, either.  That'll be another ticket."
(Aforementioned plaintive expression.  The key, ladies, is to widen your eyes innocently and gasp a little.)  "....But, since this is your first time in three years, I'll make it a warning."
"Wow, awesome, thanks!"
"So how old are you?"
(Internal monologue: Dammit.)  "Eighteen."  (Continuation of said monologue, with a slightly sarcastic bent: It's not like that's on the license, or anything.)
(Cop seems to sense internal monologue, and returns vital documents.)  "Your court date is April 6, at 8:15."
"Ooookayyyyyy.  And will they tell me to whom I send this fine?"
"It's on the ticket.  Move along, now."
(I move along.  Woman tries to let me onto Warrior before I can fully stop.  Send amazed stare, check rearview mirror, and accelerate to freedom.)

And thus the saga ends.  But not without 1st period French III/IV class deciding to attend court wearing "Free Kelly" shirts.  And me poring over my MTSU Criminal Justice textbook all day long and writing monologues to deliver regarding obscure legal Latin terms and researching issues of legality regarding the police location on private property (can anyone help me with that?) and such ilk.  Oh, this one incident touched off a whole day of revelry and hilarity.  (And getting taken out to dinner.  Woohoo!  But not because of the ticket.  But I'll let you think that, because it's funnier, mwahaha.)

sitting in saltys room before the game listening to 'grillz'

oh yea =D

Ax of  Murder. our play which is awesome. March 10-14 at 7. cept on sunday. that one is at 2 =D

come see me. <3yay

I feel so utterly lost. My head just isn’t on straight or something. Everything is jumbled, and I just want to fast-forward the next couple of months. I’m loosing sleep, and nothing seems that important. This list is as follows.

 

Seniorisitis- My grades sucked this six weeks, I don’t know when I stopped trying. I know they don’t count any longer, but I was studying and working so hard. It doesn’t help any that my sister made all A’s. Then to think college is only going to be harder. I am going to have to work hard to pull them up this last semester. My absences are piling up for my first period, and I do not want to take a final.

PROMblem- Obviously I am an ugly cow. I know I should confront this head on and just ask someone, but there isn’t really anyone I feel comfortable asking. No one wants to ask me. I just feel like a looser; I have never needed a boy in my life until now. So if anyone knows anyone, I would love to take a few people on a couple of dates.

Track- Actually is going wonderfully. Well, except for some annoying girls. I just want more people out, and I want to race and now. I just want to know that I am doing well.

COLLEGE!- EEK! Is all I have to say. I have visited the campuses and have like most of them. I keep thinking that some overwhelming feeling will tell me that I belong there. Everybody else seems so ahead of the game, and I am not. I just want to afford to go to college, and I just don’t know.

I just feel like life is out of my control. I am a control freak, though I just don’t show it that much. I just pray everything will work out, but it never seems to happen.

 

Cara

I feel so utterly lost. My head just isn’t on straight or something. Everything is jumbled, and I just want to fast-forward the next couple of months. I’m loosing sleep, and nothing seems that important. This list is as follows.

 

Seniorisitis- My grades sucked this six weeks, I don’t know when I stopped trying. I know they don’t count any longer, but I was studying and working so hard. It doesn’t help any that my sister made all A’s. Then to think college is only going to be harder. I am going to have to work hard to pull them up this last semester. My absences are piling up for my first period, and I do not want to take a final.

PROMblem- Obviously I am an ugly cow. I know I should confront this head on and just ask someone, but there isn’t really anyone I feel comfortable asking. No one wants to ask me. I just feel like a looser; I have never needed a boy in my life until now. So if anyone knows anyone, I would love to take a few people on a couple of dates.

Track- Actually is going wonderfully. Well, except for some annoying girls. I just want more people out, and I want to race and now. I just want to know that I am doing well.

COLLEGE!- EEK! Is all I have to say. I have visited the campuses and have like most of them. I keep thinking that some overwhelming feeling will tell me that I belong there. Everybody else seems so ahead of the game, and I am not. I just want to afford to go to college, and I just don’t know.

I just feel like life is out of my control. I am a control freak, though I just don’t show it that much. I just pray everything will work out, but it never seems to happen.

 

Cara

I am learning patience in a strange way...

"But if we hope for what we do not have yet, we wait for it patiently."

--Romans 8:25

come on..yall can do better with those comments!! lol

be blessed!

Would you be mine, would be you be mine, won't you be my neighbor?

I have so much going on through my head right now, and one of them should be getting offline promptly so I can study for my psych test... but yeah, if you just happen to think of me as you pray, I would appreciate it. I have a couple of decisions to make... more than a couple actually... a few...

I guess I helped solve the PROMblem ;)

"Just because her eyes don't cry doesn't mean her heart doesn't. And just because she looks strong doesn't mean there's nothing wrong."

For the most part I'm really happy, but there's this part of me that feels like that quote. Mostly because of everything going on right now. (See post below for details.) Today was just a hard day. I know I'll be fine in the end, but right now I'm just messed up feelin.

Hey!  So this is what I think, i think that God has to have a sense of humor,i mean come on.  when you think about all the crazy stuff that happens in our lives for no reason at all??  if i was God i know i absolutely would have SO much fun messin' with our heads!!  i figure that's why im not God ( that and a whole BUNCH of other reasons!!lol!!)  and i also think that its pretty cool that God has a sense of humor, and is not some serious control freak!!  just thought id give yall my opinion.

lovealways

cassidy

So I have decided that it is quit interesting the way God works...
He puts people in our lives for a reason, we all know that, however I think it is WHEN we meet people is how God is interesting, you can meet someone in a random act before, it seems, God was (you think) he was planning on you meeting them, but it is when you meet someone before that time and form a relationship w/ them that is what makes that realtionship what it is...
Ok some people would probably totally not have gotten that, but if you do that is my theory, but I bet people didn't understand Einstian's theory, e = mc2 untill later in life.

alright.  now the last couple of posts ive put up, have gotten some crappy remarks.  last one, a measly two remarks.  now how is that. lol, that just makes me sad.  but its all good,  if u dont want to talk to me, then i can understand that.  but i feel innocent.  haha, jk, but yea, its all good.  i guess i only have two friends. lol, yea, so lets leave some comments.  have an awesome tomorrow morning. 

Today is fat tuesday, the day for us to eat so much we get sick, then tommorrow is ash wednesday.  im going to fast just not go completly with out eating.  ill just eat way less.  that is also when ill give up aim.  well good luck to all those trying to give up somthing for lent.

hello guys

Mandy is giving up the computer and tv for lint. This excludes e-mail of course. but yah. tv and mandy. wow it's going to be so hard. I am going to be sooo bored!! well God is more important than tv and phusebox, xanga, and aim together. maybe i'll stop worrying about my fav shows and finish my homework. or maybe even read!! i know well the day after tomorrow is when it starts so i'll c ya guys in 40 days!! leaves bunches of comments aka over 2! love you guys!!

Mandy

Phusebox and xanga = gone for lent.

Hopefully this break will help me sort some stuff out.  And focus more - focus on God and my friendships and my academics and my family and the things and people I really care about.


"Have courage for the great sorrows of life and patience for the small ones; and when you have laboriously accomplished your daily task, go to sleep in peace. God is awake."  -Victor Hugo


I love you,
Christina

i feel dumb not hanging out with people and enjoying this BEATUIFUL day.

but i don't really know who to call.

These headaches, they won't go away... ahhh!  3 weeks now.  I'm definitely sick of it.  :(   My head is in pain.  Yep, it is.

Ya for sunshine....and temperatures in the 60's

If I can get through Thursday school wise, I will have an 11-day break from it......something to look forward to.

Think of a darn good song, and that's my mood.  I love just being outside in this kind of weather...peace guys

Doing anything at 9pm on Tuesday nights?  I hear this is a tag club forming hehe.  9pm at Kid's Castle, do it.

So... I didn't know about tomorrow night until just now... I hope they don't blow the other sub... That would be bad... I like cheese... RANDOMNESS!!!

So , I'm bored outa my mind in 6th.

Waiting to go home..

Hmm...Anybody wanna pick me up from school

Friday

And we can go eat or something , and be best friends lol!

Thomas

(Live In Murfreesboro lol.)

Tomorrow night in youth (the 1st of March) we'll host Seventh Time Down for a concert!  Their web site is www.seventhtimedown.net.  It otta be good!  Then on Friday night (the 3rd), when Pastors Kenny and Gus are busy Randy and I are gonna take a bus load of youth to a concert in Smyrna to see this same band and Everlife.  Ya'll come now! Ya hear?

I saw this on a random phusebox and thought it was amazing and very true. I'll actually come up with a good update maybe later. Read this and see if it applies to you. My thoughts are added in ()

These are the 12 signs of falling in love....
12. You'll read his/her IMS over and over again... (All the time)
11. You'll walk really really slow while you're with him/her... (Yeah, I have to make every second count.)
10. You'll feel shy whenever you're with him/her... (Sort of shy, but different.)
9. While thinking bout him/her...your heart will beat faster and faster... (Oh yeah.)
8. By listening to his/her voice...you'll smile for no reason. (He makes me very happy)
7. While looking at him/her..you cant see the other people around you...you can only see that person... (Yep)
6. You'll start listening to SLOW songs. (Been there done that.)
5. He/She becomes all you think about. (Yeah and it annoys my dear friends)
4. You'll get high just by their smell... (Heck yes, he smells really good)
3. You'll realize that you're always smiling to yourself when you think about them.. (When I'm not sad that he is far away.)
2. You'll do anything for him/her... (Yeah, very true.)
1. While reading this, there was one person on your mind the whole time. (Oh yeah, can't help but hear his voice as I read this.)

So it seems that i have gone from posting once a week to twice a month.  Maybe nothing is happening or so much is happening but i'm leaving people in the dark.  The painter Leonardo DaVinci once said to start a great painting the artist must start with a black background because that is what is there until some light is shed on subject.  Most artists will start with a whitewash background and add the shadows later, but this is incorrect.  When one walks into a dark room that they have never been in, they do not know that the table is to the right and a rug is directly in front of them.  All they know is that they are in a room and there may or may not be something in there.  All that is there is the darkness and the shadows, but as soon as l ight is applied, everything becomes visible.  The same holds true when you meet someone new.  the only thing that you can know about them for sure is what they tell you, but you still have to take caution as they could be lying to you, but how could you know?  Just a small rambling post for today.

- Daniel

IT'S AMAZING OUTSIDE!

i publicly apologize for hitting my wife so hard...... gosh i'm stronger than i thought

Went to MTSU today for a field trip, to make a video about African Art.  Thats was ok, really boring.  The best part was not having to eat at the high school for lunch, and I got to see Zach at complete random.  It was great.

so yeah im at school doin posters for prom in mrs.penny's 4th period class with shaffana, b,and jessica when all of a sudden i smell the hallway and it smells like weed. lavergne is hella crazy  and i wanna go to blackman or somethin. its so stupid here. maybe im just havin a bad day. not becuz of the weed or anything but other stuff. oh well.

im taking the night off.







....and im starting a countdown to spring break.

Do you like me?
[ ] yes
[ ] no

check one

well.... Milly started a Donald fan club....... Thanks.......

hey....! Encounter is tonight  at 7:07pm we invite all college age 18-30 to come check it out God bless hope to see you there and bring some friends!

I appreciate the comments on my last post, and anyone who wants to further discuss God through e-mail, just let me know.

But I have to say, I'm rather angry right now. I've been reading my boyfriend's blog entries, the comments he gets, I've heard the gossip and rumors of what people are saying about him at FWC, and I've just been taking it all in and I can't hold back my opinions any longer.
Surely you people can find some worth in what have to say seeing as how I am the one person he sees and talks to more than anyone else. I see him every day - through good moods and bad moods. I can tell you that neither of us have abandoned our beliefs in God, and if one of us has even come close - it would be me. I am the one who doubts and questions and beats myself up over it all. Andrew was the one holding me when I was dangerously drunk and crying my eyes out, and when I asked him that night if he believed in God, he said yes. Andrew is the one sitting with me in church almost every Sunday holding my hand during praise and worship. Andrew is one of the only reasons I have left for believing in God. The night before we started dating, (and I haven't even told him this) I had a complete emotional break down. I had nothing left. I wanted to die. I've gone through tough times, everyone has, but I had had all I could take. I was going to kill myself. I prayed for the first time in months that God would please give me some reason to live- something to keep me going. The next day, Andrew and I hung out and ended up hinting around that we had feelings for each other. I was still depressed, and he left for Tampa that night, but I held on to see what would happen when he got back. He came home and we've been inseperable ever since. Andrew wasn't exactly having the easiest time in life before me. He was going through a lot, too. But now we both have at least one reason for being alive, and that's each other. No one can tell me that anything or anyone other than God brought us together. Now I can't tell you if those things prove we're good Christians, because I don't think they do. But I can say what doesn't prove we're bad Christians. When two people who want to spend the rest of their lives together, but can't afford to get married right now, decide to move in with each other, does not mean they're going against God. When a person throws out a cuss word every now and then, it does not mean they're going against God. People should stop looking at everything they think Andrew is doing wrong, and try to understand that maybe, just maybe, he's doing some things right. He is still the kindest and sweetest and most caring person I have ever met. He's a guy who listens to his fellow employees' problems at work and encourages them. He's a guy who is always incredibly kind to complete strangers. He is always there for me when I need him. He always keeps a calm head and takes care of me.
I'm the one who has a drinking problem, people. I'm the one who suggests daily that maybe God doesn't exist. Andrew is the one who discourages that behavior. And I thank God for that, because I know no one else ever bothered. I went to FWC for a year and a half - why did I stop going? Why is there a rumor that I hate that church and I'm the one keeping Andrew from going? Because I went to that church through good times and through bad....through all kinds of addictions and tough times....and it's not like it was some huge secret. I never really tried to hide what I was doing. Can I think of anyone at that church who ever truly made me believe they gave a damn? No. Can I think of one time anyone there ever convinced me about anything regarding God? No. I tried, I came, I listened, I tried to reach out, and I never got anything. And now I have this God sent man in my life who is my constant reminder that not only does God exist, but also my reminder that I have a future. I have a reason to live. I have a reason to not to drink.
Not only that, but I have found a church that doesn't consist of just one or two renegades that used to smoke pot, but a church where the preacher constantly reminds everyone that he was once a crack head. A preacher who has been in prison. A preacher who admits he was a crack head and a youth minister at the same time. And who goes to that church? People like him. People that haven't just dabbled in a few bad things here and there before deciding to walk a straight path, but people who have dived head first into darkness and are slowly finding their way out. Because in the real world, you don't wake up one morning completely renewed and pure. Not after living the way some of us have. You have to work. It's hard. You don't decide one day that God is always there and never question it and never look back. You struggle. You fight. And if you're strong, if you have real honest faith - not the kind of faith that brings you to church every time it's open - but the kind of faith it takes to watch a friend drown in a drug addiction, the kind of faith it takes to see young promising people die right in front of you, to walk into a completely godless school where beliefs without scientific reason are considered pointless, when people are constantly feeding you ideas that anything goes and nothing is sacred, to come home to an insane father and over controlling mother where screaming fights and broken glass are normal, or a home where a marriage is being torn to shreds and you whitness it first hand, when a mistake hits you so hard you can literally feel your heart break, not a mistake that just finds its way back around to you and humiliates you, but a mistake that has ruined your life and you have to deal with it while trying to find forgiveness and trying to put what's left of your life back together - if you have that kind of faith, you can take all of that and more and still find your way out on the other side believing in God. That is real faith, and I can tell you that even if I don't have a grasp on it, Andrew does. And that's what inspires me to keep trying. And if you think he's doing so horribly right now, you take yourself back to around the middle of last year and look at him then - compare who he is now to who he was then and you will realize that he is stronger than all of us. He has made it through so much and is cleaning his act up so well. It baffles me. I don't think I could have done what he has done. My point is that if you knew even a third of who he really is and what he has really gone through, you wouldn't be able to say the things you do. Because he has faith that most of you can't even comprehend.
Now, I can only pray that the ones I am writing this for have read this entire thing and at least tried to step out of their narrow views enough to understand where I am coming from. And I know what FWC teaches you. I know you'll find some scripture to go against everything I have said, and that's fine. Because the rules are black and white, right? Well, in the real world, in our very real lives, nothing is black and white. And we have to take the rules and do the best we can with them. And that's what we're doing. We're trying, and that's all God asks of us - is that we try. And whether you believe it or not, I can tell you we are at least doing that much. I'm not God. I'm not Jesus. I can't tell you for certain what either of them would or would not approve of. But considering God knows things Andrew hasn't even told me, I'm certain He is proud of all that Andrew has done. All that he has made it through. And I'm pretty sure He would favor some people understanding that and maybe giving a little encouragement rather than constantly pointing out every little thing you think he is doing wrong.
Maybe this is just going to be a pointless rant, but I pray that it can get through to some of you.

today, i fell asleep in class for the first time ever!!!  yeah, i mean, we had free time, and i didnt miss much...but still!  lol

Whats Up Phusebox? Me, Nothing Much Just Sitting In Class Thinking About Life Today... I'm Having A Good Day So Far, Just A Little Tired Though, I Fell Asleep In 2nd Period Hahahaha... But Anyways, I Ready To Go Home Though, I'm Supposed To Be Having Bible Study With Most Of My Family Tonight... Its Gonna Be So Much Fun... i Got My Report Card Today... 1 A, 3 B's, & 2 C's... I Could've Did Alot Better Though But These Classes Are Providing Us With Extra Work And Its Kinda Hard... But I'm Gonna Graduate Regardless So What Is There To Worry About? Hmmmm.... Let Me Guess... Ha, Nothing Hahaha... I Be Playing With Yall But Yall Cool Thats Why Express My Feelings And Everything ToYall... Well, I Gotta Go Before The Bell Rings... I'll Write Again Soon...

man sat waz awsome..got a football and basketballl game goin...& they were poppin all day.....tht had 2 be the biggest game of football out there...cant wait till thiz sat....holla..

Colossians 3:5-9 (NIV)

5Put to death,therefore, whatever belongs to your earthly nature: sexual immorality,impurity, lust, evil desires and greed, which is idolatry. 6Because of these, the wrath of God is coming. 7You used to walk in these ways, in the life you once lived. 8But now you must rid yourselves of all such things as these: anger, rage, malice, slander, and filthy language from your lips. 9Do not lie to each other, since you have taken off your old self with its practices

Does it bother you that Kayne West swears, talks crudely about sex and demeans women while saying he's a Christian? Why or why not?