Hey everybody well its been a long time since i gotten on here...but yeah.. ive had a great 3 months here at the beginning.. lol.. and yeah..me and beth are still dating..we had to take some sorda of a little break which i think helped us and stuff.. but yeah.. im goin..PeaCe out... i love you beth!!

-Josh-

greer is beautiful.

i think i'm in love with her, because she's amazing.

the way she looks . . . the way she smiles . . . the way her hair lightly floats in the breeze . . .

one day, she will be mine.

holllllla lol , ill take a picture n put it on here at home.

Blond = Alright

I GOT MY CLASS RING!!!!!!!
       i am really excited it is so cool... anyways want to say hi to all my friends i love you guys........but still trying to learn bass not as easy as i thought it would be. anyways i don't have to work again till friday so.... i get to hang out all week yeah.....no big mac day for me uhhuh uhuh.... anyways tommorow is freshman orientation:( like we need anymore freshman om my god freshman drama.... but we were all there at one time they will grow up, i hope. lol but anyways got some work to do leave me some remarks i am bored..

brandi

ahhhahahahaha!!!

ohmigosh! i heard this on the radio this morning and they were saying that Paul Wall has a new site and says that he is promoting making ever'body grills and that you can order him to make you one. And the cheapest thing you can buy is a single gold tooth for $50 :D

if you want to check it out (coughcough*sam*coughcough) the website is www.grillsbypaulwall.com and if you go to it and you're in class make sure the volume is either off or way down because the intro is music. BUT you need to watch the intro cause if you're like me you'll think its funny. :D

anybody watch the oscar's last night? :P

i watched the Oscars last nite.

itz so ironic that the only ppl that thanked God/Jesus was 3/6 Mafia from TN, who, after performing a song called "It's Hard Out Here for a Pimp" and thanking Jesus for winning an Oscar, promptly said the F-word...

ironic...

I stayed after school for West Side Story rehearsal... which went pretty well... minus some girl drama...

I have a voice lesson tomorrow! ^^ w00t!

Check out Ayu's new Panasonic commercial: http://panasonic.jp/dc/gallery/cm/fx01_30sec/512k.html
she is so magical!

So I was watching Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind just a minute ago, and as cheesy as it sounds, I used the restroom after it ended and wept...

the lyric of

" your skin & bones turn you into something beautiful "

has never made so much sense.

running everyday is making me so tired, not to mention i havent been eating at school to begin with. (considering how hard some of the allstate orchestra stuff is, i don't have the time anyway) i guess this will aide in mine looking okay for the prom fashion show. oh wait. i'm surrounded by twigs. yaaaaaay.

but running makes me forget that my brother is leaving. and not eating makes it okay to run, because it actually shows something. & i've been going to the tanning bed so i won't be a casper for prom. so i've basically slipped into the whole conceited persona that i never wantd to become. atleast for now. maybe it's because i'm really tired and stressed.

this thing is nice to rant on, because no one ever reads it.

(( the one bright spot is that the boy and my friends are amazing, just to let you know ))

<3

I'm just a boy,
that's used as a toy
as something you beat up
something you chew up, spit out
and then forget all about
when you decide to grow up....
it's screwed up
i hate it
how i never seem
to get inside of a dream
i always tend to wake up
just when life gets good

So today, what I thought was going to happen did (well it didn't really happen but it was confirmed)...to an extent...

I had a feeling that Sean would be leaving fairly soon after he got married.  Turns out he is "leaving" I think May?  about a year and a half after he got married.

Zach is also "leaving"... I didn't expect this.  I am the most upset about this... don't get my wrong I love Sean, but I feel I a lot closer to Zach... I mean I invited him to my birthday party for crying out loud.  He bonded more with my sister, because mainly they are both crazy...but anyway.... so gradually we got closer because of her...and the Guster songs we sang on the Philly mission trip. 

But hey it gets better... Ben Brown... a person I consider to be one of my best friends....is coming back to the youth to do Sean's job.  I am really excited about that.  I just can't expect everything to go back to the way it was 1/2 of 7th- 1/2 9th grade. I also knew this would happen if Sean left. 

wow longest entry ever.....

btw "leaving" = volenteering when they can 

so over all I a bummed and happy, bitter sweet if you will.

well there you go, I suppose thats it.

another btw: if you don't know who I am talking about the pictures are in the same order of the paragraphs.

FAITH - It takes the words of doubt, and says YES!

Just think on that, its pretty awesome to see what God shows you with that thought.  He sure showed me some things, take some time, and see what he does for you. 

A lost child tries to find her way home.

Her fathers at the door but she feels so alone.

She feels the tears start to run down her face.

Some how her life seems so far out of place.

A broken girl tries to pick up her life.

Her father watches as he gives her the knife.

She feels so cold and dead when he is around.

Tries not to fall but then he pushes her down.

A blind father tries to put her to blame.

His daughter's attitude is always so lame.

He doesn't know what reallly goes on.

It's way to late because her love for him is gone.

I'mma be

16

tomorrow!!

yay <33

so this weekend was pretty darn FUNN!!!!

friday-- left home @ 5:45ish hung out @ church with youth group untikl the Tacoah* Falls Students got there around 8 but they were suppose to be there around 6. oh well. haha.. well they did their thing, and we all went to dinner around like 9 PM. haha.. i got home around 11ish

and friday night around 9:00-- lindsey's grandma died. please pray for her family. they knew it was ganna happen that night so atleast they were able to spend that time with her. but please just pray for her family. thanks!

saturday-- left home @ 8:40 AM. got to church about 9:05 me & angela got there sorta late. woops. haha. well they were talking about what TO DO & what NOT TO DO while we were doing the door hanger thingys. well from 10-12 me lisa and cebert (cool old guy) went around to almost 300 homes!! well most of them were apartments but whatever. well when we got back to church, we all ate lunch together.

then after lunch we were all ganna hang out. then the Tacoah Falls Students DITCHED US FOR PASTOR DALE!!! gnia was SO pissed off. it was kinda FUNNY. but then we ditched them cause they ditched us first. so angela went over to johnny there place and i went over to joy & gnias and then since joyce and juda were there, we went to PIGEON FORDGE to go SHOPPING! long story SHORTER, haha, i ONLY got 2 purses. =) & i spent LESS THAN $10 BUCKS! go me and my SALES!! haha.

oh yeah and when we were @ OLD NAVY there was a SIGN that said 2 for 5!! && there were the REALLY cute flats (shoes) and i was ganna get them & so was joy. so we went to go pay (got a purse there too i almost got the one that jennifer got but i didnt i got a different one) well it turns out that they WERE NOT 2 for 5.. it was 2 for 5 FLIP FLOPS!!!! i was like OMG JOY UR SO GAY!! haha. well then i got a purse from RUE 21 too.. i SHOULD HAVE gotten those sunglasses that i DIDNT GET!! =(

well then we went to Mc D's idk y since we were SUPPOSE to go eat @ my weekend home. well then we stopped by their house to get all their cars since after the land we were all going to different places.

well we were @ the land for like max of 15 mins. then we (me, joy, angela, and lisa-- lisa && angela were already @ the land) went to the mall to meet the tacoah falls girls. (Jennifer Xiong, Mary Vang, and Krista something.. they are VERY COOL GiRLS!!) well we met up with them at the West Town Mall, then we decided to go to the Dollar Theatre-- yes we know we ARE CHEAP. haha. & saw LAST HOLIDAY!! it was pretty good!! very funny @ some parts. haha.

then lisa came over to spend the night we got back around midnight.

and this whole time the guys-- johnny, peter ly, peter crank, aaron, gnia, && joseph r hanging out with the Tacoah Falls Guys-- Char (haha my LAST NAME) Vang (LISA's LAST NAME), Leng something, and Nick something. i have NO clue what they did. but they were @ josephs place the whole time.

well today (sunday) we (me, lisa, kayla, isabelle, and symon) woke up @ 7:30 well i woke up @ 7:00 to shower.. well ne ways. we left for church around 8:30 got there @ 9:00 and hung out at church until 9:30 when sunday school started.

well me & lisa were like FALLING ASLEEP during sunday school cause we didnt go to bed until like 1? or something like that. and then went to service, and then after church was over we all ate lunch together--pizza, and then around 2 pm the tacoah falls students left to go home. and everyone went to play tennis but me joy & my sister kayla cause we went shopping in farragut. YES I SAID FARRAGUT LISA!! just cause i go to FHS doesnt mean ne thing BAD! haha. ur just JEALOUS cause farragut is BETTER than powell..

sry got kind off topic for a second. but ne ways. umm i saw amy ford and shelby gordon @ khols! i was like AMY! omg i havnet seen u in like a YEAR! lol. she goes to bearden =( i wish i went to bearden. well ne ways.. umm this weekend was AMAZINGLY FUN!! i feel bad though cause i was suppsoe to hang out with Kayla LeTard, but i canceled so i could hang out with youth group & tacoah falls ppl but it was a fun weekend.

but tomorrow is Lindseys grandmas funeral. well the service is tomorrow night and the burial is tuesday afternoon. just pray for her family please. her grandma was so SWEET!!!

me && my cool brother jordan aka jj. yeah he looks BORED cause he was too busy playing STUPID VIDEO GAMES!! haha.

wow that was REALLY long. i hope someone read it. lol. its cool if u didnt though.. lol..

well.. this is what i felt on thursday and it doesn't involve anything i mean.. i was just super emotional.. mixed feelings were just a pain in the butt.. and yeah.. haha.. you guys are lucky.. i didn't post this on my myspace or xanga.. so yeah.. have fun enjoying it.. i really know you guys feel this way at times.. don't lie..

Fake Anything

I can no longer pretend,
ignoring the events affected.
I'll fake my smile
so you can't see my emotions.
I'll close my eyes
so you can no longer see my tears.
I"ll quit what I"m feeling
to impress and please you.
I'll quit everything I enjoy
to give up everything I haven't yet to do.
'I'm sorry' is not what I mean
because I'm only acting this way.
I gave up my life
to give mines to you to have and torture.
I won't try to be myself
because you forced me to.
I'll build a wall to hide inside
so you can't hear me crying for help.
I'll learn what apathy is
so when I finally feel what it is to not care.
I'll ignore what love is.
I'll forget what my friends were to me and live life alone.
I'll soon banish fron reality
and my emotions will rot away in the wind.
I'm gonna pretend I'm even alinve
so I canwait for death to open that door.
I'm never to run back to my "home"
but live in the shadows swallowed in the dark.
I'll fake this happiness I may feel,
I'll stab all comfort I may get to feel better.
I shall destroy those memories and erase that and my well-being.
I'm pretendto understand and lie the truth away.
All have lies to me and I'll no longer laugh.
I'll sing thing lullaby and hope you sleep
and I'll disappear.. no longer there..
I won't mean to and can't be lyrical.
but for now... I'll fake that laugh you hear.. smile..
I'll fake anything..

so last night's show was pretty cool.

I messed up some on the guitar but I guess I just wasn't myself after hearing that the venue that our band had been a regular at for quite some time now was closing down and we were playing the last show there.

I've got lots of memories from that place, good and bad. I'm gonna miss it.

I'm kinda depressed now....for many different reasons.

Sigh.................I guess life goes on.

Hope everybody reading this has an awesome week, and those who aren't as well.

Later

im tired of pleasing everyone .. i just want to do what i feel is right not what someone else wants me to do .. i dont want to say no and have that person just be mad at me just cause i didnt want to go but at the same time i dont to force myself into doing soimthing that i know is wrong .. for once i wish i knew what i wanted to do .. i wish i could do what i wanted to do and not what someone else wants me to do .. i dont want them to hate me just because i rather stay home then go out with them and go chill somewhere like always ... from now on im going to get online less and start going out less and if someone doesnt like it well they can just go fuck themself .. cause this is who i want to be so take me as i am for just leave me alone ..

just had alot on my mind and had to vent and let it all out ..

<3 lizabeth

got unlimited tanning today for two months.. maybe i wont be so pale anymore.. who knows..

my mom went to and said she can already feel burnt.. i was like.. i think i should have stayed longer cause i didnt even get hot.. and my fan wasnt on.. who knows..

so.. how is everyone doing?

I'm gonna sleep well into next week.  Then I'm gonna eat some cookies.  I really want some cookies.

"Night Drive"

I know you
so better than the city in the rear view
I drive to
eliminate the ball that I'm chained to

Take me break me
every mile further there's a part of me that slips away
One day you'll see
Even if you got down on your knees you couldn't make me stay

Drive all night
Never gonna get me
Night by night
To get away from it all
Fight fight fight
All you wanna do is hurt me
You wrecked my life
So I'm gonna have to drive all night

I'll stay strong
I'm pushing on the pedal till I break dawn
So I'm gone, go find another shoulder you can cry on

Take me break me
every mile further there's a part of me that slips away
One day you'll see
Even if you got down on your knees you couldn't make me stay

Drive all night
Never gonna get me
Night by night
To get away from it all
Fight fight fight
All you wanna do is hurt me
You wrecked my life
So I'm gonna have to drive all night
You wrecked my life
So I'm gonna have to drive all night
You wrecked my life
So I'm gonna have to drive all night
You wrecked my life
So I'm gonna have to drive all night

All of the things that you knew that I'd try
All of the things that I held inside
All I gotta do is drive

Drive all night
Never gonna get me
Night by night
To get away from it all
Fight fight fight
All you wanna do is hurt me
You wrecked my life
So I'm gonna have to drive all night
You wrecked my life
So I'm gonna have to drive all night
You wrecked my life
So I'm gonna have to drive all night
You wrecked my life
So I'm gonna have to drive all night
you wrecked my life
so I'm gonna have to drive all night

so yes..formal is over..and it was amazing!

me.sam.julia.stu.cat.john.ana.and matt all went to demos's to eat then we headed over to the james c . union building for the presentation.after that we got our shirt and talked to everyone for a bit.then we all went to walmart...cause go use was closed...and the skating rink!AHH WHAT IS THE WORLD COMING TOO!

hehe

but anyways..back to the story..

(ehem.)

so we ended up going bowling from 12-2: )

and yes..twas fun

then i had to wake up oober early this morning for church:)

and....

i was tired..

the end :)<3

I painted my toenails red.  Now it looks like my feet are hemmorhaging.  (Colouring inside the lines is for conformists!)

Wow.  Yesterday was so busy.  But so fun.  I swear, I haven't had a weekend in probably a month, but that's okay.  Being busy takes my mind off those things I prefer not to dwell on.

Up and out of the house by 8:30 on a Saturday.  Should high school students even be coming out of a REM cycle by 8:30?  I think not.  Rehearse Macbeth for two hours.  Rehearse-rehearse-rehearse-getdaggerpointedataveryvitalarteryduringonescene-rehearse-rehearse-rehearse.  Leave promptly thereafter for combat training.  Drill target zones, cuts, and slices.  Almost fall over during a circling exercise (I am grace).  Then we performed a most pernicious exercise that pretty much involved us lunging, sword straight out, empty hand stretched behind us, and standing there for almost two minutes.  Then simply thrusting, sword straight out, empty hand stretched out behind us, for almost two minutes.  Oh Christ.  My right bicep and forearm (which I guess technically speaking is the entire arm) are still screaming in their death throes.  It's a wonder I haven't died from rhobdomylasia, if I have the term correct, which is when muscle tissue is heinously overworked and sheds into the bloodstream, and you die.  (I have now made everyone who reads this absolutely paranoid about exercise.  YES!)

Go home for two hours.  Yayyyyyy, respite!

Aaaaand-then-go-dancing-until-11:00.  Best part of the entire friggin' day.  I have some serious black marks where my shoes were.  Learned two different ways of getting into the Cable Car/Candlestick, both of which in my opinion leave much more room for error/dropping/too much work on the guy's part.  Was mistaken for a rower by a Vandy student (apparently I have distinctive calluses -- who knew?)  (We blamed the sword.)  And I actually remembered names this time.  Nono, this is an amazing occurrence.  I am so not a names person it's unreal.  In plays, I'll call people by their character name until somewhere close to opening night.

Speaking of opening night.... Macbeth opens the 15th.  Diabolically enough, my mom has back surgery that day.  ARG.  I blame neither, this is just a very inconvenient congruity.  Tech week will begin shortly, and everyone is going to hate the play and each other until curtain call on that first night.  Somehow, that's always how pre-play emotions pan out.

To those who were wondering: Although I had a bad relapse Thursday night {or Friday morning whichever} I have finally broken my fever and have been deemed "Flu-less" but I still have problems with the lungs so thoughts are always appreciated. Oh! No more drugs...they made me angry after the fourth night of using them so they are put somewhere.

For the main event: How often have we met someone in life, deemed them as "best friend" and some how fallen out of sync with them? I'm grateful for people like Ashley and SumSum-- people who never seem to go away [[Not that it's a bad thing]]-- but I have always wondered what happens to those who have gone their own way.

All of this was sparked by one person. It's ackward to me to think of her. How horrible to say such a thing about one you once considered to be "my better half". I haven't spoken with her in over two years and haven't seen her in an equal amount of time... and yet here I am thinking about Niky. We use to make up the most stupid words because she and I couldn't seem to stop giggling or talking long enough to speak a proper word; in essence we had our own language. To say the least we were inseperable for years on end. Niky and I went everywhere with eachother, enjoyed the same crushes, talked about everything....the girl practicely lived at my house! -- we knew eachother's houses like the backs of our own hands and it was no suprise when we got what we wanted when we wanted it... there never was any asking. We had the most stupid nick names for eachother and eventually ended up doing the most idiotic, but memorable things together! Who would have known that a few years later "Lucy and Ethel" would ever split up? I happened though....and over an arguement about an eating disorder.

Katty Blue Bonnet. Oh I love that girl but it's so hard to ever get a hold of her. To think that moving a few thousand miles away would halt the daily chatter and weekly visits...who would have thought it? We both simply have lives opposite of each other and it is ackward to update with one another for some reason or another. Yet we press through once in a while. We have name upon name for each other but our favorites involve the felonies we commited together. Stalkers, belly button rings, disobediance and so much more is tucked under the belt of our frienship--she was the one who helped buy a ring for the one mistake I made willingly. We made movies about frogs we caught and ran through the streets of China together...loved together... and cried together. When she visited we hid her smoking while she thought Tony was hot [[I'll get that picture one day]]. Now it's hard to chat once in a while. Our lived continue to go on without eachother...

Then there was Anna. She and I were the oddest of pairs. Being petite, blonde and blue eyed Anna was always concerned with how she looked and always dressed to the nines--I on the other hand was the tall brunette who simply liked to be who I am. Yet we both sang, loved poetry, were poetic and hopeless romantics. God was a number one priority for both of us and [[yet again]] we were inseperable. Nick names never came into play because we were at that age in which we thought sophistication was the best thing-- yet we were constantly doing eachother's hair, trying new make-up and fashion ideas and taking about crushes. We were the girls who would drive around town at 4 in the morning just to do it and we slept in the camper so we could make all the noise we wanted. Now we don't even talk... we did for a while after I moved but then she stopped picking up the phone...so tempted to call her.

There was another one here in the prime of the south: Tennessee...but I would never go into that. It simply would be a waste of space since neither of us would agree on what happened.

Once more thank you to those who have stuck through it...you are AMAZING! Now that it is three in the morning maybe I'll go be restless somewhere else....and I'll come back and read this and delete it...yeah

It's amazing how much we grow throughout the years. No one ever thought that the one person {{or in some cases the many people}} you loved like a brother or sister and seemed to be connected at the hip with would grow distant. A wise and crazy kitchen dancer once told me my problem is is that I have to strong a nurturing personality. I like to befriend those who need help with some thing at the time and when their better or have wiped their feet all over me I let them go and fine some one new. Eh...

Not really wanting to write two entries in a row, but I'm trying to wind down from today.

Aimee came down and we went shopping at Old Navy and Target--- now I can't buy anything for a month, lol. Jason met up with us for a few minutes at Old Navy and Lifeway, and he showed me his video camera. I've got so many ideas bouncing in my head for a shot film, but I don't know how to get it all together. It's one of those things where it can't be forced, but discipline to get everything together is necessary. Then Aimee and I saw Date Movie which--- in short, I was pretty disgusted with it. But anyway, then we went to Ruby Tuesday's and split an appetizer and strawberry tallcake. . . mmm.

SPRING BREAK! I can sleep late even on the days I have to work! Praise Jesus!

. . . and evidentally it takes a day for the effects of ten minutes worth of the tanning bed to kick in. My face hurts, lol.

Goodnight!

God just put the most amazing woman of God in my life, and I don't deserve it. I love you Amber!! Sorry about my hott face in this picture! LOL!

Just Why?

first post thingy..wooo so yeah, still very new to this whole thing and i don't really know what i'm doing here...i think i'm going to try to keep my posts not like xanga and all "my life" stuff...im just going to put like happy things on here..sooo for all the happy stuff..

life is amazing right now..not perfect, because it has it's ups and downs...but very close to it. I don't really know what else to write in here...i met some very cool people this weekend in kingston while i was at premire, i got to just talk to everyone there while jumping on trampolines..haha (premire is a gymnastics training facility for those who didn't know)

i met this person last night, lives down the street from my grandparents...very normal looking...a great christian..a beautiful person all around..i later found out about a disability of the other person and it completely shocked me things like that could happen to someone like then..and i was just really amazing to see how christ helped them find their way....just a little story..i couldnt tell the whole thing because its personal..if you want to ask me about it..you can..i just didnt want to put it on here..

on another note...i have been in a relationship with the most amazing guy ever for 6 months...thats right...6 whole months...with jacob feltner...i love it so much...and i hope there's 6 more to come... : )

i am completely in love.

CONGRATULATIONS!

Which File Extension are You?

haha...it siad i was pretty.

I had to work last nite so i had to come straight from work to WSS rehearsal this morning at 9! >.< and then we got out of rehearsal early ^^ w00t! then, Rae and I went to Wild Oats ( in Nashville). If you don't kno, Wild Oats is a natural/organic food store. We had lunch there (amazing grilled veggie sandwich thingy ^^ and lattes!) And i bought some non-dairy icecream, soy cheese, veggie corndogs, and fruit leather ^^ NUM NUMS! lol
we then returned to Rae's crib and hung out (watched Date My Mom and Drake & Josh ^^ lol). Then we took a walk. here are a couple of pics from our walk:

Rae and I doing gross faces lol

Rae and I smiling like Dwander >.< ew lol

this is (i think) a very cute pic of Rae and me ^^

i have to work tonite. Church tomorrow... then back to school... w/ WSS rehearsal/head-shots after school. and we have to sing at a game... *sigh* so tired...

Yeah so I got my haircut today.. And well its diffrent actually I got it buzzed. HAHA I actually like it but its diffrent and if you know me you know its diffrent so I would like your opinions on my new hair.....................

Let me know what you think................

well i ran 9 more miles today which means only 5 more miles. i am so excited i wam going to try to finish tomorrow or maybe do some tomorrow and the rest monday. but i will be ready for the game tuesday for sure!!!

Ben

Ok so Nissan training today was alright i guess. Met some cool people and had a good time talking with them and joking around. The training itself wasnt all too great. It wasn't the actual job training, that will wait til the last week of may when i actually start the job. I'll be trained for about 3 days with another person on the actual line and then sent off by myself for the next 10 weeks. But watching a movie on safety at 5:30 in the morning on a saturday with exactly 4 hours of sleep on you is not a very good idea. Oh well the 5k will be worth it in the end and the actual job is going to be fun and I'll meet alot of fun people.

Just got home from the greenway though. Am supposed to go bowling with a group tonight too. Should be a fun night. See ya!  Leave one..

BOREDUM is the worset thing

watched a movie
played sims
cleaned
and talk on the phone w/ kaylah
shit i am bored

well later

Spring......needs to be here NOW!!!!!!

I'm OFFICIALLY A Future Fisher!!!!

We're ENGAGED!!!!

So guys here are some pictures from an amazing week i had last week....enjoy!

Chris Tomlin Concert....

Isnt that Awesome!

Chris Tomlin.

Our new friend Jeremy....that was so awesome.

One Weekend!!!!

AW i love her.

TWINKIES!

ha..

thats pretty sweet...

She's the Best....i love this picture!

DONT TOUCH GRANDMA!!!

NOOO!

OH JOHN....

HA.

me and ben.

That's a good one...

WE BE GANGSTA!

yea..

WE GOT STICKERS!!

ME AND ABI!

NERDS!

OH MAN.

I WILL END ON THIS PICTURE.....

AG FOR LIFE! haha

I love my friends...they are great....yes they are.

http://kevan.org/johari?name=Kalli+Nicole

Please do it for me...

So, Siegel beat Oakland a few nights ago.... In your face Paulinski!!! : )

So I was thinking about how  God lets everything happen for reasons. And how God puts people in your life to realize things. I hate that we don't know the reasons of why things happen, but thats just how life is. I am really confused of something thats going on in my life, and I wish it would all go perfectly , and back to how it use to be, and all of us back together. This scripture in Proverbs about dont be a yoke with the non believers. That is the scripture that's really killing me right now. And I keep on praying about it, but nothing is happening. Im so bad with being patient, but I need to try to be. I just wish she would just believe. I wish she would just be one of the believers, so I would have that spiritual connection with her, bc I know her life would be so much better with God in her life. But my friend Liz and I have done all we can do , and now it is in Gods hands. But I hate this , and Im scared that she will never believe. Because Im scared for her, and I know there is a time limit on things, and I want her to believeeeee so badly. And I want her to be in my life forever, and I am scared for her future. So im going to keep on praying about it everyday ...and hopefully God will change her heart :/

"What would people do if they knew that im a Jesus Freak?"

Shhh...

listen to the rain,

listen close as it calls your name,

hear the whistle of wind blow down the street,

make a path of destruction all but discreet,

it starts at your toes and ends at your mind,

taking it all, leaving nothing behind,

it gets to your thigh and causes a bruise,

from your last soccer game you happened to lose,

it gets to your waiste and sees the mistakes,

that you and some other and lust seemed to make,

the stomach is calm as your funnel arrives,

it sees butterflies of holding hands on long winter nights,

two veins up just on the left,

there lies a hear that ceases to rest,

it sees your emotions that broke it in half,

a bracket, a three, intercepted by a slash (</3>)

the eyes that saw heaven and the lips that kissed fate,

seldom compare to the mind that awaits,

the funnel then stops for its now met its match,

broken momentos and black and white photographs,

it sees a mom and dad divorcing and tears in your eyes,

and black and white clothing when your brother took his own life,

the funnel packs up but refuses to leave,

the funnel is your life... just you failed to see.

ok so i know it sucks... but act like you love it... i could use the ego boost... lol

p.s. New crushes= AM-ah_zing

just when i thought this valley couldn't get any deeper
just when i thought that i was stepping out of it
just when i thought the mountain was in my view
that's when i saw you

you didn't take me out of it but you joined me in it
you didn't lift me out of it but you lifted me up in it
you didn't pull me out of it but you pulled me towards you in it
and i know i'll be ok

Jesus where would i be without your sovereignty?
Jesus where would i be without your sovereignty?

just when i thought this mountain couldn't get any steeper
just when i thought i was falling off of it
just when i thought the valley was in my view again
that's when i saw you

you didn't take me out of it but you joined me in it
you didn't lift me out of it but you lifted me up in it
you didn't pull me out of it but you pulled me towards you in it
and i know i'll be ok

Jesus where would i be without your sovereignty?
Jesus where would i be without your sovereignty?

This is my dress i want. It's from David's Bridal. i LOVE IT!!! it looked amazing on me...except for the fact that i'm a blessed girl in the upper region!! UGH!!!!!

Kaylie

so omg, we had a totally epic time in Nashville. it was me, Caitlin, Andrew, and his friend Patrick. who is amazing.

we had so much fun.

we didn't stay for the show at Coco, cause it was $4, and we didn't want to pay for it. haha. so we ate and walked around town acting crazy and taking pictures. epic.

and... some guy tried to sell us wasted concert tickets. (the show was canceled) and we gave change to homeless people. aanndd... took lots of pictures. looked at magazines in Borders. were amazing. uhm. i asked Andrew on a date. ^_^ and Patrick asked me out. and Caitlin laughed both times. and we had the most wonderful time ever.

it was great.

we are awesome.

It's been a while since I blogged, so i figured I'd drop a line and say that I'm super excited for spring break comming up. I get to go back home to the mountains, see my friends, family, and wonderful girlfriend. Oh yeah, I'm gonna have a birthday between now and then too. I'm excited about that. but anyway. I'm gonna go now.

Clint

so... I went to swing yesterday, there were like 5 guys there and I was the only girl because shannon had disapeared... so britto was going to demonstrate the "real" stripper pole, not the dip... so he used me for the demonstration.. ( The guy throws the girl onto his sholders, then swings her around so she slides down) So I did it, and everthing went right, so then it ws Mark's turn (it was an accident, dont feel bad)... So he got me on his shoulders then slung me a bit to hard but caught me... so then we tried again, and... i never made it to his shoulder, i went flying backwards over his head, which would have been fun except the floor got in the way... anyways long story short, I spent a few hours in the hospital in a neck brace getting x rayed... though it was quite amusing telling everyone i was injured doing the stripper pole! but Im fine today so yay!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR CANDACE.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME.

YAY it's here finally lol. Well ummmm yeah last night was ok i had about 17 kids but it was ok. Katie didn't come tho. GRRRRRRRRRRRR. Well ummmmm yeah that's about it. Well ttyl love yall.

it has been more than half an year since Jeff graduated from Fuzhou University.

Make Yourself by Incubus

If I hadn't made me, I would of been made somehow..

If I hadn't assembled myself, I would've fallen apart by now..

If I hadn't made me, I'd be more inclined to bow!

Powers that be would have swallowed me up,

But thats more then I can allow!

(But!)


If you let them make you! They'll make you paper-mache!

At a distance you're stong, until the wind comes..

Then you'll crumble and blow away...

If you let them fuck you! There will be no foreplay!

Rest assured, they'll screw you completely, until your ass is blue and grey!


You should make amends with you!

If only for better health!

But if you really want to live...

Why not try, and Make yourself?


If I hadn't me, I'd have fallen apart by now..

I wont let them make me..It's more then I can allow!

So when I make me, I won't be paper-mache..

And if I fuck me...I'll fuck me in my own way!!!


You should make amends with you,

If only for better health!

But if you really want to live...

Why not try, and make yourself?

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I've never particularly enjoyed the music to this song (there are much better Incubus songs around, especially Fungus Amongus).  The difference is what it says and the problem it entails.  People always talk of living beyond the proverbial influence and/or not caring what others think.  If you really didn't care what others thought, you would do whatever you wanted, but you don't.  Making yourself only works half the time, and even then, can fail in bringing you happiness.  Fuck people, but fuck these stupid transcendentalists who say through human progressive psyche we can attain shit beyond our wildest dreams.  My "progress" hasn't made me content--much less, happy.

Hey guys, got this quiz made for you.  It's only 6 questions... nothing fancy.  just stop bye and take it.  see ya!

My Quiz!!!!!

Ooooo poor jeff…. So we went to the beach today, and well…….we we’re kinda out in the sun to long….well at least jeff was (Im still ok) but yeah you got to see these pics.

before

after

wow yeah maybe just a little to much sun

-Hodge

this is me in a severe need of a nap...

so yeah, on a really random note mom bought us some new tanning oil and pretty sure it's called Kona Caramel Roast. and for those of u that know about coffee Kona coffee is like one of the most expensive brands of coffee like...ever. and yeah now i smell like a really big caramel latte or something lol.

she diagnoses herself with indecency and anxiety
at least it's an excuse for her clothes being to tight
and the way she feels alone in a room full of people that she hates.
maybe someday she'll wipe off all the heavy make-up.
let someone in and see her hideous tears.
as they stain her pillow at night
while every morning the shower rinses them away.

I'm not the biggest Switchfoot fan, but that song is probably favorite on WAY-FM right now.

Things are nice right now. I'm finally on spring break-- this means that next week, I have three days of NOTHING. What stinks though, is that I have to write a six page paper for History, do a Theatre Appreciation project, and get some solid information on a subject for an English paper. I started going to the tanning bed today, so hopefully my irritation will dry out and my skin will be a little darker by the time school rolls back around and I can wear my cute skirt from Old Navy without frightening all of MTSU, lol.  I went to my first. . . party. . . in which the host/majority of the people there were at least 30 and older last night, lol. It was fun. It was actually a surprise birthday party for a lady I work with.

Um-- that's about all I have. I'm too tired to write about anything that I have a lot to say about right now, so I'll just leave you with what I wrote above, lol. 'Night.

So I worked as a judge runner w/ Rae at the MTVA Choral Festival hosted at First United Methodist Church. Here are some pics:

Me this morning in the kitchen

Rae at the church this morning

Bekah at the chruch this morning

Lil John at the church! ^^ awwww! itz like a CD cover ^^

Ashley Brown and Rebekah Minor! i love them! they are so amazing! ^^

i had fun but i'm really sore from running all over and up and down that church! >.< i feel like such an old lady! i'm so tired! and i have to work tonite! and go to WSS rehearsal tomorrow @ 9 in the morning! >.<