sometimes i just want to die
so i can look down
and see whos
crying or who is smiling

so many emotions are running through me right now. i want to scream. i was going to type a poem or a song on here to describe how i felt but i could find none that even came close. "don't let your emotions effect your judgement" i am watching pain killer jane on sci-fi and that is something that they just said. it is soo true.  we just need 2 realize it.

      

one weekend 06.. <3

haha. i told u i would leave u a blog on YOUR OWN page. hehe.

ur such a CoOL guy to talk to!! u REALLY are!!

GLAD i started talking to u! next time i talk to u, lets PLAY that game again!! but this time im ganna WIN! haha

ANIMALS:

dog

window

cat

window

fish

window

elephant

window

bird

window

camel

window

seals

window

hawk

window

eagle

window

wolf

window

penguin

window

antalope

window

leapord

window

lion

window

lamb

window

sheep

window

cow

window

chicken

window

tiger

window

kangaroo

window

rabit

window

turtle

window

gerbil

window

panther

window

turkey

window

mongoose

window

crocidile

window

aligator

window

ok im DONE! haha. i think i WON this time! hehe.. =oD

but yeah u SHOULD most DEFINETLY teach that GAME to MORE people! lol. its basicly AMAZING! makes u THINK! it kinda hurts my brain. just a little bit. haha. but yeah. =o)

<3 KeLLy

1.  Your clothes

2.  Your hair

3.  Your eyelashes

4.  Your bra

5.  In the hands of Brian King

Hey all, this is Matt...not Sydney. I got a comprehensive online test that I have to take for school tomorrow and a critical care test the following day, so I'm asking for prayers from anyone so inclined to pray for a student masquerading as a dog. If I don't pass these comp tests (which there are four of them) I basically get kicked out of the program --->BUMMER
anywho
GOD BLESS! :)

Today. Today was ok.

We're out of school Friday. w00t.

I need to go shopping for my prom dress.

I LOVE you all.

Today made me miss LaVergne.... Missing... like what it seems the people at Oakland don't do.... ah such is life...

meag

fromwhatihear, the silver jews played a FREE show last night.
and i missed it.

TOMORROW night may make up for it though...
[apparently, i am the only person going to belle & sebastian/ new pornographers show.]

that kindasorta rhymed?
whatev.
this is the lamest post ever.

<3

so yea at freshman orientation and im really bored...........

hey thats pretty much the story of my life but oh well

ahh i made it a cartoon, isn't it cool?

i love old Amy Grant. it makes me feel like i'm five again.

recently i've been thrust into having these thoughts about my sister being able to get married. her two best friends were recently married and it's weird to think that they're old enough to go live on their own. with a boy. supporting themselves. it feels like just yesterday that me and my sister were fighting about why i took the original clothes off the rollerskate barbie. or being bored out of my mind when she started driving and not being able to listen to the radio for a good month while in the car with her. being so relieved that she was leaving for college, but after the first week she was gone missing her tremendously.

 i guess it comes with the territory.

 i need some new pictures.

blah.... 

So yeah guess who got out of their speeding ticket today?? if you guessed ME you were right!!

In this hole
That is me
The dead are rolling over
In this hole
Thickening
Dirt shoveled over shoulders

I feel it in me
So overwhelmed
Oh, this pressured center rising
My life overturned
Unfair the despair
All these scars keep ripping open

Peel me from the skin
Tear me from the rind
Does it make you happy now?

Tear meat from the bone
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy now?

In this hole
That is me
A life that's growing feeble
In this hole
So limiting
The sun has set; all darkens

Buried underneath
Hands slip off the wheel
Internal path-way to contention

Peel me from the skin
Tear me from the rind
Does it make you happy now?

Tear meat from the bone
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy now?

Are you
HAPPY?

Are you
HAPPY?

Are you feeling happy?

In this hole
That is me
Left with a heart exhausted
What's my release??
What sets me free?
Do you pull me up just to push me down again?

Peel me from the skin
Tear me from the rind
Does it make you happy now?

Tear meat from the bone
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy?

Peel me from the skin
Peel me from the skin
Tear me from the rind
Does it make you happy now?

Tear me from the bone
Tear me from the bone

Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy?

Does it make you happy?
Are you feeling happy?
Are you fucking happy?
Now that I'm lost left with nothing

Does it make you happy?
Are you feeling happy?
Are you fucking happy?
Now that I'm lost left with nothing

Why are some people just really hard to get close to, and stay close with? This has been a problem with me. Everytime me and somebody get really close in our friendship, something comes between us. Why does this always happen!!!! It's frustrating!!! lol

today was......better...
to say the least.

i laughed a lot today, which took my mind off of so much that's been going on.

one of my friends found out she was pregnant, then fell, and lost her baby; one of the english teachers at the high school found out that she miscarried; a lot of my friends are going through depression right now; and i'm under a lot of stress...

but god gave me people that could make me laugh at any given moment, and i love that god always finds a way to lighten up every bad situation of my life.

it's amazing.

mucho love,
[becca]

Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire comes out TODAY!!  awesome stuff right there.

So, my turtle Chou-Chou died yesterday.

Def. not cool.

Granted we lost 3 of our last 5 games of the season..or something like that..we're still positive here.

21-6 overall, 12-4 in the SEC.
I don't know about anyone else but I'll take those numbers and being ranked in the Top 15 any day.

We've got a first round bye in the SEC Tournament so our first game is Friday against either South Carolina or Mississippi State.

Here's some breaking news..the Lady Vols won the SEC Championship. Like that's never happened before...

Aside from basketball..
I got a job. I'm a host at O'Charleys. After a while I'll be able to be a server but for now..this is awesome.

I think I'm close to finding an apartment, too. Gotta find somewhere soon, though.

I'm pullin hard this year during the Tournament. I've got alot of bold predictions and I'll probably post those after Selection Sunday. I'll say this now though...

JJ Reddick..you suck. Tyler Hansborough is the next big thing.
Chris Lofton will light it up next year and be a First-Team All American and possibly Player of the Year.
Roy Williams is so much better than Coach K.
Jakim Noah (or whatever his name is) from Florida plays like a girl..and CJ Watson proved he couldn't take a shot.
Bruce Pearl should be the Coach of the Year. Find a better story than him and we'll talk.
Adam Morrison will be player of the year over Reddick. Why? Because Morrison is likeable and no one outside of the Duke campus likes Reddick.

As far as the Sweet 16 goes? We've got a week to argue.

yeah, ... she got in on Friday...
 
How awesome is that?

so this morning i found out my mom was going to let me dye my hair black /w pink tips...but not until after my cousins wedding...but i can't wait....it's going to look [awesome]

And it's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I first saw you
And it's been awhile
Since I could stand on my own two feet again
And it's been awhile
Since I could call you

And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've stretched myself beyond my means

And it's been awhile
Since I can say that I wasn't addicted
And it's been awhile
Since I can say I love myself as well
And it's been awhile
Since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do
And it's been awhile
But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you

And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've gone and fucked things up again

Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day!

And it's been awhile
Since I could look at myself straight
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry
And it's been awhile
Since I've seen the way the candles light your face
And it's been awhile
But I can still remember just the way you taste

And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem to be I know it's me
I cannot blame this on my father
He did the best he could for me

And it's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry

well...

4 days this week. that's fun.

and...

woo.

I did a stupid thing last tuesday at Toots

I REEEEEALLLLY want to cut off my hair. I don't want it tooo short but I'm thinking a little above my shoulders. What do you guys think?!

Hey Oakland kids, anyone feel like a post AP exam rolling of Mr. Huffman's house?  I found it.

Mrs. Dugger said that he bought a condo off of Northfield Blvd.  I suspected it, but today my supsictions were confirmed!

Mr. Huffman just moved into my condo complex.  Seriously, if I were a softball player, I could chuck a rock from the roof of my house and hit the roof of his.

So.  You get that urge to take out some AP exam aggression on your APUSH teacher's new house - lemme know.  I'll hook you up.

hyperCalvinism or Deism?

Does God have every single move of ours predestined down to breath, thought, heartbeat, and tripping over rocks, or is He closer to the other end of the spectrum--setting the world in motion and watching from afar as we make our own decisions without intervening?

Stop me before I make a huge mistake.

Gah.

Two Names You Go By
1. Amy
2. Powers (I prefer my first name though)

Two things that scare you
1. NEEDLES!
2. Failure

And Brian (see below)




Two of Your Everyday Essentials
1. GOD's grace
2. Sleep

Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now
1. Jeans
2. sweater

Two of Your Favorite Bands or Musical Artists
1. Jars of Clay
2. Bethany Dillon

Two Physical Things that Appeal to You
1. Eyes
2. Hands

Two of Your Favorite Hobbies
1. Writing
2. Photography

Two Things You Want Really Badly
1. To never worry again
2. A party dress :)

Two Places You Want to go on Vacation
1. England (strictly for vacation)
2. New York (also strictly for vacation)

Two Things You Want to Do Before You Die
1. Write and publish one fiction and one non-fiction book
2. Get married

Two Things You Are Thinking About Now
1. My novel
2. My school projects

Two people you haven't talked to in a while
1. Old friends from Texas
2. My half sisiter

Two Favorite Sports
1. Ice skating
2. Soccer

Two things you did last night
1. Watched a movie
2. Talked to Garrett on the phone

Two shows you like to watch
1. The Cosby Show
2. What Not to Wear

Two places you like to go to:
1. AO
2. Cool Springs

Two Favorite Subjects In School:
1. English
2. Hopefully I will like my EMC classes soon... intro classes bite...

Two Favorite Places to eat:
1. Anything Mexican
2. Anything Italian

Two people that live in your house:
1. Mom
2. Dad

Two things you like about yourself (physical):
1. Eyes
2. Smile

Two things you ate today:
1. Strawberries
2. Dorito's

Two people you last talked to:
1. Mom
2. Shannon Henry (she cut my hair today)

Two Things You're doing tomorrow:
1. Hanging out with Anna
2. Working on a school project

isn't it amazing how the world works in cliques.  even beyond our high school.  if you join a fraternity or sorority in college, you are forever in a clique, though that is not always bad.  the problem begins when that mindset leaks into the other aspects of your life. 

we separate ourselves in cliques according to our favorite teams (college and/or pro).  sometimes these get very heated.  we separate ourselves by what school we went to. 

anybody who knows baseball, knows about the Yankee/Red Sox feud as well as others, but right now, you will see the best players in MLB coming together to play for the U.S. team in the World Championship with team spirit and without spite.

why can't we be the same way in our own church walls?  why do some people come to church and, because of their age, sex, grade, school, or whatever, not be talked to or disrespected when talked to?  we are all one body and we are all of the same vine. 

talk is cheap, though.  and lip-service does nothing.  no doubt, we are all guilty, but let us encourage one another and spur one another on.

dude! i was way out line on on my march 1st post i was reading over some of my stuff and regret what i have posted so i have stepped out of line and have deleted it. sorry if this offended you in anyway i am deeply sorry! -stephen

I  read an article in Child magazine last week about a mom who has to make sure she reminds herself often to slow down and live life.  I feel like I miss alot.  I am constantly telling Addie to hold on just a minute.  But we aren't guaranteed just one more minute.  I get so preoccupied with making dinner, folding laundry,what I want to buy for my house, what is on TV or checking my email.  By saying "just a minute" or "we will do that tomorrow" I am cheating my family out of precious time that we can't get back. I should cherish those moments like bathing Addison and putting warm pj's on her, or brushing her hair.  You never know when the last time you talk to someone could be the last thing you ever say to them.  I try not to think of the bad things that can happen in life.  But today I am sad because I have been taking the little things for granted.  I am so sad because it took the death of a friend that I just assumed would still be there on Monday to remind me that I am moving way too fast to enjoy my life. 

'T is true, 't is certain' man though dead retains,
Part of himself: the immortal mind remains.
                                       --Alexander Pope
               

Hey Phusebox Whats Up? Man Yesterday I Tore The Class Up... I Had Them Laughing And Everything... Today I Might Do It Again But The Student Teacher Is Here So, Um I Don't Know... But There Is A Possibility Tho... And Today After School, Im Going Over To My Brothers House For Bible Study With Most Of My Family... I Can't Wait... Its Gonna Be Another Good Day... Well, I Gotta Go... I'll Write Again Soon So See Ya...

New Bedset + New Hair =

PICTURES..

But do you want em? Cause I'm not taking pictures nobody wants to laugh/look at lol..

Thomas

yeah, it's pretty much a joke.

friday night mrs. johnson (lindsey and whitney's grandma) died. her funeral was last night. it was really sad!! cause whitney was crying SO much!! i ALMOST did, but i didnt want to cause i didnt want streaks of black running down my face (no water proof mascara on at the time) well. it was sad even though i didnt know her. but LISA IS SUCH A GAY BUM cause she didnt even go cause she had "homework" im SO mad! cause we ALL had homework but its just out of respect to go!! like OMG LISA! i

felt kinda weird cause me and joy were like the only ones wearing alot of black. then naomi there parents got there and angelas too. and they were wearing mostly black too. cause like everyone that was from Oak Ridge was wearing like color except Mrs. Johnson's family. so we kinda felt outa place cause we were wearing black. but its all good cuase they showed up in black.

well chris, i wore exacly what u told me too wear. && it looked really CUTE together!! haha. a GUY WITH STYLE! haha!! thanks a BUNCH for the help!!!!! haha i now know CHRIS SLATES PASSWORD.. if u want it.. just tell me!! haha.. JKJK. i wont tell ne one. promise. haha. =oP

well thursday i think is my LAST day in keyboarding!! then i get to switch to acad. orien. FUN FUN. haha. yeah right! but i like being able to get online in the middle of the day. even if i CAN NOT get on myspace or xanga or aim. oh well.. ive got PHUSEBOX! haha. =oD im GLAD that phusebox isnt HUGE like myspace yet. so i can still get on. hehe..

OMGAH! just go my grade! i have a 96 in KEYBOARDING! LOL. i should have a HUNDRED! i mean c'mon its KEYBOARDING! oh well ive got LOTS of extra credit! haha. it'll bring my GRADE UP ALOT! hehe. even though i already ahve an A! hehe.

gosh i have a freak 83 in ALGEBRA! how gay is that?! it keeps going DOWN!! =( maybe i should start STUDYING... hehe. woops. my bad. i havent been studying @ all. haha. ohh well.. as long as i end up with an A or B. im GOOD. ahahah!! =)

well ive got 1 final and 1 midterm THURSDAY and 2 midterms FRIDAY!! i SHOULD/NEED TO STUDY! haha. thats prob NOT ganna happen. oh well..

haha. yeah so i think i spend TOO much time with my YOUTH GROUP! ive seen them everyday since FRIDAY! haha. friday we had YOUTH & hung out with the TFC people. SATURDAY. we did that door hangers thing & hung out with the GiRLS after SHOPPING iN pigeon fordge. SUNDAY we had CHURCH and hung out for a bit w/ the TFC people. MONDAY we were @ Lin. & Whit's grandma's funeral. BUT I WILL NOT SEE NE OF THEM UNTIL SAT! yeah! time away 4rm them! haha. jk. they r CoOLeR than UR YOUTH GROUP! haha. but i would see them all todya if i had gone to the BURIAL @ noon. but parents wouldnt let me skip school. darn. haha. ohh  well..

but yeah. class is ALMOST over! yeay! then i get to go to BUSINESS PRINCPLE! fun fun eh? hah anot really. oh well. haha. its a fun class i guess.. well the people in it are FUN!

OMGAH DrAMA DrAMa DRAmA! taking OVER MY LIFE! i HATE having friends who cause SO MUCH STUPID DRAMA! LIKE OMGAH!!!!

yeah so i think i WRITE TOO MUCH! haha. oh well. =oD

Do you miss me?

i knew that some people smelt an update!!  so how about school sucks!!!!!  and being grounded is even worse!!!  but oh well i'll get over it.  but there is one person who makes everyday better when i talk to her!  and you know who who you are!  well only like 18 days until mexico!!!!!!  i'm so excited about that and new york in the summer!!  well i got to go and study for a really hard test in 6th period so i'll see you later! 

yeah i got a new profile pic.
i was getting sick of that old one.
and as j-mo said i was getting tired of holding that peace sign.
ha.
what a funny one he is.
alright.
well hope you have a great day.
peace//love.
stacy.

trying to figure stuff out while things are in the dark trying to pull me down.  not easy but i will try to tough it out. went to the game last night and we won.  yeah. found out that i have a new favorite villian. pinhead from hellraiser and the demon guy who is there from the waist up, doesn't talk but his teeth make a chattering sound like he was really cold. he moves really fast for someone who moves with their arms. i like pinhead because he takes the form of others and has long needles in his head.

Well, tennis season has pretty much  officially started!!!! :).. We play Riverdale last night in a  scrimmage.. it was ok.. I lost all 3 of my matches but oh well...

Elizabeth

GREATEST  SONG EVER

[Broken up]
Came to the Party

[Spoken]
Jorma: Hello, welcome to the party.
Akiva: Hi, I've never met you before.
Jorma: I know.

[Sung... more or less]
Just two guys and we're having a good time
Having a good time
Having a good time
Just two guys and we're having a good time
Having a good time
Having a good time

Jorma:
We'll burn the roof off,
This party's going off
You think that we're soft,
You get tossed

Akiva:
Guy number one
I love to dance
Fancy feet moves
Putting you in a trance

Jorma:
It's a friend thing
Friends are everywhere
In the kitchen, the den
Hanging out on the stairs

Akiva:
Spinach dip,
Real hot chicks,
Spike the punch
And take a sip

Jorma:
Guy number two here
To chill with you
P-A-R-T Why?
'Cuz we got too

Akiva:
I like playing games in the pool.
Who invited Steve? That dudes a cunt

Both:
We're just two guys who are having a good time
Having a good time
Having a good time
We're just two guys who are having a good time
Having a good time
Having a good time

Akiva:
Now everyone in the house say guy number one.

Both:
Guy number one!

Jorma:
Now everyone in the house say guy number two.

Both:
Guy number two!

Jorma:
Dude quit dripping
You're ruining my high

Akiva:
My loaded gun
Makes you reach for the sky

Jorma:
There's a knock at the door,
Who could that be?
Why won't the cops
Let our party be?

Akiva:
How would you like
To be shot?
Me and my friend
Smoke pot

Jorma: No jocks
Akiva: No dirt
Both: Just fun with girls

Jorma:
Having fun guy one?

Akiva:
The most fun in the world

Both:
We're just two guys who are having a good time
Having a good time
Having a good time
We're just two guys who are having a good time
Having a good time
Having a good time
(Repeat)

Akiva:
Party over here!

Jorma:
Party over here!

Akiva:
Party over here!

Both:
Party over here.

Hard

GREATEST  SONG EVER

[Broken up]
Came to the Party

[Spoken]
Jorma: Hello, welcome to the party.
Akiva: Hi, I've never met you before.
Jorma: I know.

[Sung... more or less]
Just two guys and we're having a good time
Having a good time
Having a good time
Just two guys and we're having a good time
Having a good time
Having a good time

Jorma:
We'll burn the roof off,
This party's going off
You think that we're soft,
You get tossed

Akiva:
Guy number one
I love to dance
Fancy feet moves
Putting you in a trance

Jorma:
It's a friend thing
Friends are everywhere
In the kitchen, the den
Hanging out on the stairs

Akiva:
Spinach dip,
Real hot chicks,
Spike the punch
And take a sip

Jorma:
Guy number two here
To chill with you
P-A-R-T Why?
'Cuz we got too

Akiva:
I like playing games in the pool.
Who invited Steve? That dudes a cunt

Both:
We're just two guys who are having a good time
Having a good time
Having a good time
We're just two guys who are having a good time
Having a good time
Having a good time

Akiva:
Now everyone in the house say guy number one.

Both:
Guy number one!

Jorma:
Now everyone in the house say guy number two.

Both:
Guy number two!

Jorma:
Dude quit dripping
You're ruining my high

Akiva:
My loaded gun
Makes you reach for the sky

Jorma:
There's a knock at the door,
Who could that be?
Why won't the cops
Let our party be?

Akiva:
How would you like
To be shot?
Me and my friend
Smoke pot

Jorma: No jocks
Akiva: No dirt
Both: Just fun with girls

Jorma:
Having fun guy one?

Akiva:
The most fun in the world

Both:
We're just two guys who are having a good time
Having a good time
Having a good time
We're just two guys who are having a good time
Having a good time
Having a good time
(Repeat)

Akiva:
Party over here!

Jorma:
Party over here!

Akiva:
Party over here!

Both:
Party over here.

Hard

I'm so sick of school I could scream...

     WoW SKooL

          SuCkS

Ok yay I know all yall are so un gungho on skool!!! But don't flunk out just because it is hard yay well so bored LOL well tah tah!!!!!!!!!

So lately... I've just had the urge to dress super nice and cool i guess... i don't know... yesterday i got some strange looks and others gave me nice compliments... but... i don't know. its just not enough.

...today im going job searching. the goal is to hace another job by Friday and to quit McDonald's on friday when they have their F.O.R. because that's what our managers deserve. because they are on a giant power trip and they need to be set back. and you know. if they don't respect their employees then they wont have anybody, and since everyone at our store is pretty much like: "if you quit, we all quit." 

and you know... im suppose to be already certified as a shift manager by this month.. well im not. im doing everything i should be as a manager... but they refuse to order a shirt for me... they refuse to do anything further to advance me. and when someone asks them about it they push it away or squash the question like a bug and say its none of your business or something like that.

im sorry but i have pretty much given up on them. they have pissed me off and im not going to work my butt off for them anymore until i get the shirt and the pay for the work i do. grr... it just makes me mad.

anyways.. ill do what i need to i suppse. :

Hey ppl! ^^ today is a new day!

no rehearsal today ^^ which is good cuz i'm tired but bad cuz i like rehearsal and we need to work on stuff...

Freshman Orientation tonite and Chamber Choir has to be there to sing... then i can go home *sigh*

"When we chose our ways to set out
You and I still looked like a child with unprotected smile
Though it has become difficult
To smile in complete innocence like we did at that time
We can realize more now
We can see more now
So I remember my promise to you
That I wouldn't easily give up"
-Ayu (Born to be...)

Changes are to be made in my life.
and these changes will be great.

(thanks Karen)

you'll no longer see that drugged up Ashley Ferrell.
You'll no longer see that Ashley Ferrell claiming to be something that she's not.
I've turned my life over into God's hands.
And now things could only get better for me,
and that's what i've been looking for in my life,
Love and Happiness.

Hey y'all...sorry its been soo long since i updated!!!lol but me and josh took a break but now were ok!!im happy we took it..it helped alot...i love him soo much!lol soo leave me lotsof commetns! I love you josh

so I am going to be a typical Siegel girl and say

YES! Great game.. 75-65!

this wasn't last nights game, but it was the best I could do.

Well, I'm updating. Sorry it's been so long.

I've been thinking on cutting my hair of spring break. Any style suggestions?

Secondly, I need a drummer. Help!!!

    Well as you all know that the Academy Awards was on last night. Although I only got to watch the last hour of it I was able to see Reese Witherspoon win her award!!! Woot Woot!!!

Okay so you also know that Walk the Line has been out for about a week now!
So, Friday the girls went to Far East to eat some delicious chinese food!!! That i was most definatly craving!!! Yum!! As long is it isn't Bo Bo's I'm good. 
After school I went to the best store all around the world Wolly World A.K.A. Wallmart!!! They had Walk the Line for 15 buckaroo's!!! Oh yea!! Do you think that I bought it??

HECK YES!!!!!

Anyways, so we went to eat at Far East and then went to Shelby's house to ...... of course......watch the movie......Walk the Line..... OF COURSE......IT WAS AMAZING!!! duh!!! So, this is one of the few movies that i can watch and never ever get tired of it at all!!!!
I've watched this movie like.......NO JOKE.....5 or 6 times or so.......3 in theaters......2 or 3 after i bought the movie.

If you haven't seen this movie you better get moving on renting or borrowing it from someone. BETTER YET.......have a movie party!!!!

AH What a wonderful movie!!

Now for some random pictures from One Weekend......
(All props to Abigail Coleman for these pics)

One of the two Katie's ( don't know if it's Katie with and E or Kati with an I)

Christine drinking a HI-C at lunch- another leader!!

Our lovely group!!!

Conquering Table Climbing!!!

Abi and I!!!

ABi's favortie pic of me and her!!!

The group again (looking nice) on Sunday Morning (after the ice cream eating contest at 3 o'clock that morning)!!!

Valentines Banquet!!!
(again props to Abi)

Don't ask what i might be doing....cuz i have no clue. It is just cool b/c you can see my gum that i'm chewing!!!

Rachel and I being crazy!!

Okay Michael....sry if you don't like this picture but it is sooooooooooooo funny!!! Doesn't he look like rocko off of Rocko's Modern Life!!! I love you Michael!! You're the best.  Garrett you too!!!

A cheerful  heart brings a smile to your face;a sad heart makes it hard to get through the day~Proverbs 15:13

Kind words heal and help; cutting words wound and maim~Proverbs 15:4

A gentle responce defuses anger, but a sharp tongue kindles a temper-fire~ Proverbs 15:1

BEST FRIENDS!!!!

A friends loves at all times~ Proverbs 17:17

**Everyday has ups and downs, with its share of smile and frowns, but if you'll talk to God a minute, everyday will have Joy in it!!!!

Therefore encourage one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing~ 1 Thessalonians 5:11

Make someone's day and just compliment them and say have a great day and God bless.....you never know what they are facing that day and it might make their day so much HAPPIER!!!

Live as though Christ died yesterday, rose from the grave today, and is coming back tomorrow. -Theodore Epp

You Guys have a wonderful and blessed week!!!

Congrats to The Siegel Basketball Team!!! You're going to the SHIP!!!

SIEGEL NATION!!!!

NewRevStudios.com

Teehee. I got a friend already. Aha. I should invite my friends to phusebox... =)

I think some changes are taking place.  Not sure if this is good or not yet but I feel extremely sick to my stomach as I watch my world turn upside down.  I don't like this feeling.  Maybe things will get better before Friday.  I'm thinking Friday may be a girls night/break from my usual routine.  I need one really bad!

Mid-term time is one of my least favorite times ever.  I have so much stuff due and I don't like it.  I have a web design due on friday along with a virtual notebook and an actual midterm due on Wednesday and a huge project due on Monday.  So why am I typing this, because I don't want to do any of it.  But, alas, I'm a good student and sometimes I just don't want to be.

Anyway, in other news, my mom has assigned me (although I basically volunteered) to make her several things over my Spring Break.  This is good because I won't have ANYTHING to do.  And it will give me practice.

So, I saw When Harry Met Sally for the first time ever and it was a decent movie but not as GREAT as everyone claims.  Sure, it's a love story and I like those but it was just ok.  Sorry everyone who loves that movie.  You know what movie is really fabulous and is a love story?  Pride and Prejudice.  I do, btw, happen to LOVE that movie.  Well, this has been fun but I have stuff to do!  Have a great evening, I will talk to you all later, if I ever update.

No school Friday~w00t! w00t!~

We had West Side Story rehersal today.

The mambo is gonna be totally awesome!

I'm excited out of my mind!!

I had a voice lesson today,and what fun it was.

I'm trying to pick out a song for the big

senior recital. I think I'll just add a verse or

two to a certain song and sing that.

There is a song my mom used to sing to me

When I was little so I'm gonna think about

singing that for her.

Wow, less than 3 months and I'm done

with school. Till college that is. What fun that

will be. Well, good night to you all.

Well, I'm trying out this Phusebox thing. I'm soo used to Myspace. Haha. I guess you just get used to things after sooo long. Well, I hope to make lots of friends. Teeheee.

As I sit here, studying the people that enter and exit the coffee shop, I notice two men in the corner discussing a court case.  One is presumably the lawyer, the other the accused.  A pretty girl enters, probably around early 20s in age.  She goes and gets her coffee and then sits in the green chair next to me. She smells nice.  I haven't told her though.  She drinks her coffee, just sitting.  I can't tell if she is doing anything else at all.  She seems to be looking into a small pink journal or pocketbook.  Maybe writing.  I can't tell.  There are to ladies talking at a table about ten feet away from me.  The girl next to me brushes her hair back and takes another sip of coffee, then writes something in the small pink book.  She is dressed nicely.  A college student rushes out with a drink tray of coffee, a girl.  She appears to be a nurse as well, or at least a nursing student.  I wonder if the girl next to me is actually writing about me as I am she….  There is now soft jazz playing with trumpet and saxophone features.  Another friend of mine just walked into the shop.  He ordered a tall caramel frapuccino.  Iced caramel latte is what he received, though.  We are talking now.  We are disrupted by a man getting sugar for his coffee and singing.  My friend is proclaiming, "Oh Glorious!"  We discuss the joys of not having homework.  The reason he never received his frapuccino is because there were approximately 15 frapuccinos in line to be created.  Another guy in the corner makes my friend happy because he is wearing a tshirt and shorts.  We left.

::b

I think guys look better with long, curly, or straight hair... I don't really care for the hair that is spiked(except for Chris Jensen's), short, or the kind of thing that Seventh Time Down does with their hair... What do you think? I don't like unnaturally straight hair on girls for some weird reason... I think curly hair is cute on girls... My mom doesn't brush her hair... That's okay though because if she did it would be frizzy... I like mine very rarly, but that's because I haven't figured out how to make it do what I want it to do... I probably never will... If I take a shower in the morning then it's frizzy all day long... So I have to take showers at night...

I stayed after school for West Side Story rehearsal... which went pretty well... minus some girl drama...

I have a voice lesson tomorrow! ^^ w00t!

Check out Ayu's new Panasonic commercial: http://panasonic.jp/dc/gallery/cm/fx01_30sec/512k.html
she is so magical!

STATE BOUND

SIEGEL STARS

[Me.]

My weekend was cool.  Got to hang out with the amazing Brian, Nemanja, Katie, and Sonja on Friday.  For the record, Final Destination 3 is hilarious.  Haha.  Nail uzi.

Got to hang out with Michael Cole on Saturday morning.  "Hercules, Hercules!"  Then came home and fell in bed after being up for about 20 hours.  Slept.  Woke up.  Watched TV.  Did nothing productive.

Sunday, much the same as Saturday, minus the hanging out with Michacco in the morning.  Went to see Date Movie with Rachel H.  Not as funny as I was hoping, but not an entire dissappointment either.

Today?  Boring as hizzeck.  I've still got counseling to do.  Why, oh why do I procrastinate so?

well..here it is..my 18th birthday...i'm finally 18...so what did i do? went to Olive Garden, opened my present from my parents...which so happened to be a new Wah Pedal...yay! then i smoked me a cigar with my dad...i had to talk him into it...but it was cool. but yeah...it was a nice birthday...thanks to everyone who wished me a happy birthday and whatnot...thanks guys

-KYLE

hey

Ahh!!! this has been a crazy week, and it's only Monday!! :o)  I can't believe how busy I am!! lol... college.. gotta love it!

justin.

this post is for you. only because i love you. and you asked me too.

anyone else want to talk.. find me on myspace or xanga. later loves.

<3

'our god is faithful
now blessed children, move your feet
dance before the lord'

do you ever have one of those days or weeks when you're just kinda in a rut and just kind of coasting through life and then a day when maybe you're just reflecting on life or listening to some music and you just feel overwhelmed with God's love and you just want to dance, like this quote says, or tell everyone how awesome and faithful your God is?

i love those days.
they're especially great after you've had an especially crappy day or someone's bringing you down.

i love days like today, somehow it was different.
just wish the weather was a little warmer :o)

'well i'm just capable of what i am. i'm making progress despite setbacks. well, i'm just looking to the skies. hoping for the best, wishing for everything.'

well 2morrow im off to NYC!!! i will miss you all but will return on Friday! who wants souvenirs???

So yeah, I'm totally going to college for free. I love my horn. To think what I would be doing if I still played the clarinet...

Friends on this thing would be nice? <33

wow, don't you LOVE it
when no one comments?
it just makes me feel so great.

funny how SO much can change overnight.
yesterday was horrible.

we won't go into that.

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on the other hand, little brothers are the best...




(he gets his photo posing skills from myself...)  =]

mucho love,
[becca]

hey hey

haven't updated in a while so i thought that i would do so.nothing much has really changed im still down about myself but hey it's life right.well umm this weekend was pretty awesome had alot of fun and had fun with people i don't normally have fun with.this weekend was also really bad but hey you can't go back and change that now can you.i hate life sometimes...it never seems to go my way.

well i guess i'll tak to you guys later

...me...

hey hey!! im new at this && have no idea wht to do..so help would be nice =)

I've been stealing
Time where I can get it from
I've been losing
Grip on what I used to hold

If I could get another chance
I'd put it in a ziploc bag
And keep it in my pocket
Keep it in my pocket
Keep it in my pocket

Tell me
When I start to blow it
Would you show me
What I need to do
Before you hate me
I could never live with that so
Tell me
Before you're better off without me

I've been watching you
Sleeping with a troubled look
I'm sure your bad dreams
Are probably all about me
And better off without me

If I could get another chance
I'd put it in a ziploc bag
And keep it in my pocket
Keep it in my pocket
Keep it in my pocket

Tell me
When I start to blow it
Would you show me
What I need to do
Before you hate me
I could never live with that so
Tell me
Before you're better off without me

I've been losing
Grip on what I used to hold
I don't want you
to be better off without me

If I could get another chance
I'd put it in a ziploc bag
And keep it in my pocket
Keep it in my pocket
Keep it in my pocket

Tell me
When I start to blow it
Would you show me
What I need to do
Before you hate me
I could never live with that so
Tell me
Before you're better off without me.

ziplock by LIT

heyy.. my name is Lauren && im new at this phusebox thingy so if you would be so kind as to explain it to me i will be soo happy

This is something God gave me over the past few days. I think He wants me to share it with you. Someone out there needs it.

Genesis  3

1Now ^(A)the serpent was more crafty than any beast of the field which the LORD God had made. And he said to the woman, "Indeed, has God said, 'You shall not eat from any tree of the garden'?"  2The woman said to the serpent, "^(B)From the fruit of the trees of the garden we may eat; 3but from the fruit of the tree which is in the middle of the garden, God has said, 'You shall not eat from it or touch it, or you will die.'" 4^(C)The serpent said to the woman, "You surely will not die! 5"For God knows that in the day you eat from it your eyes will be opened, and ^(D)you will be like God, knowing good and evil." 6^(E)When the woman saw that the tree was good for food, and that it was a delight to the eyes, and that the tree was desirable to make one wise, she took from its fruit and ate; and she gave also to her husband with her, and he ate. 7Then the eyes of both of them were opened, and they ^(F)knew that they were naked; and they sewed fig leaves together and made themselves loin coverings. 8They heard the sound of ^(G)the
LORD God walking in the garden in the cool of the day, ^(H)and
the man and his wife hid themselves from the presence of the LORD God among the trees of the garden.

9Then the LORD God called to the man, and said to him, "^(I)Where
are you?"

Is the God we serve not all knowing? Is He not present everywhere? Is He not all powerful? Why then would He ask Adam, "Where are you?"?

Could it have been such a good hiding place that God didn't know? Surely God could see him even if there were trees in the way. Could it be that God was checking to see if Adam would answer when He called?
Could it be that God was testing to see if Adam would lie? Or could it be that Adam was actually hidden by his sin?

10He said, "^(J)I heard the sound of You in the garden, and I was afraid because I was naked; so I hid myself."

He was naked, so he hid himself. Wasn't he naked before? Why
was it necessary to hide now? I think that the sin Adam committed made him know he was naked. Was it because his sin exposed him to God? No, I think he was afraid because his sin was exposed to God. God said "Do not"' and Adam did anyway. He knew that he sinned. He knew that God would be angry. He knew that he messed up, and he was trying to hide it from God.

What about you? Are you trying to hide your sin from God?
Are you wondering where God is? Here's a hint: God hasn't moved. If you can't find Him, maybe you have moved. Maybe your sin is hiding you from His sight.

I know one thing.
If God can't find you because your sin is hiding you from
His sight, He is asking, "Where are you?" Don't be afraid. Answer Him. Confess your sins to Him and let Him forgive you. Allow Him to see you again. You won't be sorry. He is a God of Grace.

I have decided to join the Phusebox community, mostly so that I can share pictures with you, but occasionally I also have some wisdom that I will share with anyone who is interested. It is highly likely that I will also be searching for wisdom from others on a regular basis.

Wow I havent heard this song in forever...and everyone listen to it bc its and awesome song  and I <3 it !!!

So, we only take pictures of the things we wish not to forget right? so why when things come down to it, we find ourselves throwing them away or ripping them up? it's like we wish we could forget all the memories... is that possible? to forget? thank God memories fade, but if the memories those pictures we took hold such great memories, Why would we EVER want to get rid of them?

::Ponders quietly::

Take this quiz, only 10 questions how well do you know me?

http://www.quizyourfriends.com/yourquiz.php?quizname=060306171633-601785&

WHY does LIFE treat ME so SPLENDIDLY!?

i'm not quite sure but i enjoy it.

LOVE/ Britt

some birthday
:-(

Mum sent this, and I suddenly felt compelled to post it up here:
"As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will.  You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time.  You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken.  You'll fight with your best friend.  You'll blame a new love for things an old one did.  You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love.  So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back."

In other news....

Actually, there is no other news.  Yesterday's post kind of sums everything up.  Watched the Oscars.  Was dreadfully bored.  The only thing that was even remotely worth turning the mute button off for was, "Ladies and gentlemen, I have some very bad news.  Bjork will not be in attendance tonight.  She was trying on her Oscar dress and Dick Cheney shot her."
Who is Jon Stewart, anyway???

Oh yes!  Other news.  Well, only the girls will really appreciate this.  I am now the proud owner of 3.5"-4" heeled gold sandals.  Strappy.  Fun.  And metallic.  Oh yes.

Anyway....

your laughter, it echos like a joyous thunder
your wisper, it warms me like a summer breeze
your anger is fiercer then the sun in its splendor
your close and yet full of mystery
and ever since the day that i saw your face
try as i may
i cannot look away
i cannot look away
captivated by you
i am captivated by you
may my life be one unbroken gaze
fixed upon the beauty of your face
beholding is becoming so as you fill my gaze
i become more like you and my heart is changed
beholding is becoming so as you fill my view
transform me into the likeness of you
this is what i ask for all my days
that i may never look away
never look away
captivated by you
i am captivated by you
may my life be one unbroken gaze
fixed upon your beauty
fixed upon your beauty
no other could ever be as beautyiful
no other could ever steal my heart away
no other could be as beautiful
no other could ever steal my heart away
i just can't look away
i am captivated by you.
may my life be one unbroken gaze
fixed upon your beauty
fixed upon your beauty of your face

By Vicky Beeching

This song got a hold of me today.  This is so much of a prayer for me that i can barely stand it. 

As we approach yet another great adventure next week, I am brought back to some of my old entries about life on the road. I went back and found the entry I wrote the night before we left for the California trip this summer and I must say I think it is the best piece of writing I've ever done. It describes me and life on the road so well. So I'm going to repost that entry right now because again it is so true (except for the details of the trip).

June 8th, 2005:
Yes, IT is Upon us...the urges, the desires, the passion of experience. An experience that will mold us, wrinkle us, and yes; make us different people. As I sit here on the eve on The Second Great Trip, I'm wondering how is this trip going to effect me? How it will mold my friendships and take over my relationships. Will it bring us closer together or pull us apart? I am at my most happiest right now, and if you're not around to see it I feel sorry for you because you do not know what it means for Joey to be happy. So much anxiety, yet a sign of maturity with my new found patience. The stress starts to set in on the inevitable questions that we are forced to ask ourselves: are we gonna actually make it? Did we budget right? Have we planned the route so we can see as much as possible? Am I up to the challenge...

And a challenge it will be...2500 miles, 4 National Parks, and 8 States over the course of 3 days; TWICE! My body is already tired from the previous four weeks at work and I can feel an illness getting ready to set in. And set in it will, 3 continuous days on the road will definitely knock on your immune system as well as your will to be energetic and optimistic. It sounds like a lot of negativity coming out of my mouth right now I'm sure...but for you that have actually went through something like this you know my concerns have some merritt. I'm absolutely going to love being on this trip. I was thinking about it today that it could have the possibilities of becoming the best two weeks of my life. And considering last summer's trip I'd have to say that means I could be pretty darn happy. My girl, my buddy, my country, my world; it doesn't get much better than that and if it does...I'm really not ready to experience that kind of joy. There is nothing like staring over the edge of that dash with scenery you've never seen before passing you on both sides, nothing infront of you but about 800 Miles to drive that day. Man, I love it. Rolling down the windows and letting the wind and the sunlight just wrap you up. Listening to music so loud you can't hear the semis going by. Experiencing things with people you love that you will remember for the rest of your life. Example: Laying in the middle of Yellowstone last summer at 3:30 a.m. Having a pack of Coyotes wake you and your buddy up with a sound so loud that it rivaled the memories of Monster Trucks when you were a child. Standing of the edge of Wyoming staring 7000 feet down. Or just having drunken nights in Tijuana with the two people that mean the most to you. That's why we travel...

The next two weeks are only going to be as good as we make them. I'm just so excited right now, so excited. I can't believe it's finally here. It's been planned since February and mapped out to the every detail since last month. It's what your whole summer was planned around, it was the reason you decided to come home and work this summer instead of working in San Francisco. It's going to change your life again. It's going to humble you and give you more respect for God and how awesome His creations are, including the two awesome people that are coming with you. It's going to beat on you, wear on you, and make you question your passion to travel. And you're going to love every moment of it...

=fag <3 haha kidding..seeing as i love that kid to death..

And I´ll let it be known
at times I have shown
signs of all my weakness
but somewhere in me
there is strength

And you promise me
that you believe
in time I will defeat this
cause somewhere in me
there is strength

"I WIN. Get over it.

P.S...I Love you."

                                                     -GOD

    Ok so I posted some older stuff. This was all done when I was 14 and it's just stuff that was in my sketchbook. none of it is really complete works. All but one are just sketches and the exception is the oil painting, but it's not finished either (even though I haven't worked on it since). anyway... just thought I'd post some of it... I may do back later and post stuff from like when I was 7-13... should I?

My sisters baby shower went good. It was truely boring.

Spring break is in 4 days! *yeah baby* I can't wait... I'm so excited. Hopefully I won't work much because i've got plans to go to the beach, along with every other high school kid on their spring break... humm..

Prom is April 8th. My goodness thats close. I'm going for the friends and some photo oppurtunities. It'll be fun. Unfortunatly my sisters dress didn't fit so I actually have to go shopping,blah, i hate shopping. i hate dresses, but i'll go find one, buy it and wear it just for heck of it.

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I wish I could go back in time and change some of the things I really messed up. I also wish I could rewind life to go back to the fun days when life was simple. Ice cream and climbing trees... gosh, why'd life have to get so hard? It feels like the last 4 yrs of high school have flown by so quick. It seems like if sit back and try to actually enjoy life, i'll just get swept away from the flow of traffic.

And the multi-million dollar questions are:
Why does everything have to change?
Why do we have to change?
Why do we make things so difficult to where we sit there in our "free time" and wish that we had done things differently?
Whats wrong with us that we try and fail and then beat ourselfs up on the inside 4 months later because we know that if we had kept on working at it then we might have had a chance on actually making it? Being able to say "I did that!"

Life is cruel....

So how was everyon's weekend???!!!!!

Whats Up PhuseBox? Me, Nothing Much Just Got Back In School Today... And Thank God That We Don't Have School This Friday.. That Gives Me More Time To Rest... And Last Weekend Was So Much Fun... I Went To A Party On Friday Over By MTSU In Some Girls Apartment... It Started Off Boring And Everybody Started To Leave But Then, I Wasn't Gonna Take It Anymore So I Grabbed Me A Girl And She Danced On Me Almost All Night... Then My Friends Got Mad At Me Because I Wasnt Sharing Her Hahahahaha... And On Saturday I Went To The Movies With Some Of My Friends And With My Cousin Dre To See That New Dave Chappelle Block Party Movie... It Was So Funny... I Didn't Get Home Until Like 2 In The Morning... I Wish That Every Weekend Could Be Like That Instead Of Having To Wait For A Long Period Of Time Then My Fun Comes... Thats Boring Aint It? And Sunday I Guess Me And My Mom Was Too Tired So We Didn't Go To Church... I'm So Sorry God... I Will Make It Up To You Somehow In Jesus Name, AMEN... Well, I Gotta Go... The Bell Is About To Ring And I Don't Want My Teacher (Mrs. Teasley) To Catch Me Because She Take This Internet Thing To Seriously Hahahahahaha.... I'll Write Again Soon... See-Ya...

so last week, one of my friends and i were having a big conversation. she said, "guard your heart...no, actually, give your heart to God and let him guard it." ...hello?? i thought that i did that once...but i didn't. i fooled myself and told myself that i did. i had told God that he can have most of it, but i still needed to hang on to part of it. but i learned, here lately, that everything goes much smoother if you give God 100% of your heart. you can't hang on to part of it.

that's all i have to say!

So im sick again today (crap!). I hate being sick. Im starting to feel a little better, but im still very light headed. I like phusebox. I still need to get used to it to like it more than xanga (im not to fond of myspace) but it's fun. and.... i feel like putting pictures in!

    

    

   

i love the mystical mermaidness.

I got my first team member over the weekend.  I am freakin' thrilled.   I couldn't believe how easy it was.   And it really showed me why I can't pre-judge what people are going to say because I truly thought this person was only going to be a product user.  I guess some people are just waiting for a good oppurtunity and others have to see the results first.  I am having a great day....busy but great.  I hope everyone else is too!