grrrrrrr....stupid intro to music.  should not be this hard dang it....it just shouldnt.

they call it March Madness. . .

hahaha

had practice tonight...should be a lot of fun. We have our first game next Thursday night at ten on the indoor soccer field in the rec center. I have no idea how well we will do, but it will be a blast. There are four teams and the two teams with at least 2 out of 3 will have a playoff with each other.

Do you ever wonder about friendships that you have let fade?  I got to thinking the other day about how many close friends I have had and yet they all seem to end abruptly.  It got me to thinking, is it something Im doing??

I dont know it just bugged me,  but it got me wanting to wait for the phone to ring and get a call from a friend i havent talked to in a long time or maybe just give them a ring.

But i have to go do my History homework.

GoaliChik

Thought I'd get this out there so Chris could relax.  He's SO proud to have a black eye.  Ugh!  Boys will be boys...

I didn't pick them...however LSU is AMAZING!!! Yea they beat Duke...who would have thought...not me well I gotta represent my team tomorrow, I can see it now, LSU in the final, April 3, graciousness I'm excited!!!



GO TIGERS

YAY, tomorrow should be soooo easy.  Its the last day before spring break!!  then i can sleep in and just relax.  without worrying about homework or projects.  today has been pretty good, not much has happened.  i wouldnt mind having a day that was a little more interesting though.  well anyway, talk to yall later!

So yeah what a freaking week!! I almost got hit by a car....walking to class....accidently hit a car but it wasn't alot of damage.....uber sick.....no voice....very weak.....uhhhhh

o my goodness

everyday has felt like friday (except for monday)

my head is just sooo messed up right now it's not even funny

I LOVE KATIE KIMBELL!!!

she makes me very happy!!!!

meag

*grins!!!!*

<3The Sweetest Things A Guy Could Do

Smell her hair....Talk to her in movie theatres....Hold her hand while u talk....Tell her she looks pretty....Look her in the eye when u talk to her....Tell her stupid jokes....Let her mess with ur hair....Just walk around w. her....Look at her like shes the only girl you see...Tickle her Even if she says stop....When she starts swearing at u,tell her u love her....Let her fall asleep in ur arms....Get her mad,then kiss her....Tease her...Let her tease u back....kiss her enough, but dont over kiss her....Stay up w. her all night when shes sick....Watch her favorite movie....Kiss her forehead....Write her letters....If she asks u 2 go 2 a show with her,go....Let her wear ur clothes.....When shes sad,hang out with her....Buy her ice cream....Let her take all the photos of u she wants....Kiss her in the rain And when u fall in love w. her tell her

AWW

Gone To Florida.

i leave tomorrow morning for northern ireland.

wow. can't believe this trip is finally here.

i know God is going to move in ways i can't even imagine.

i'm so excited about that.


i would really appreciate your prayers.

i'm kind of nervous about this trip.

i know God is in control and will take total care of me and my group.

i guess i'm just nervous about things like sharing my testimony.



well i need to get back to packing.

i'm just so A.D.D. i'm having trouble focusing.

i hope everyone has a wonderful and safe spring break.

i get back saturday night. talk to ya'll then.

life = hectic

i haven't had but a grand total of 2 hours of sleep this week.

dang.

[me]

There's the strangest feeling, it grew up from the ground
It grew to my heart, and from there spread all around
And now I feel that I'm panting, and I'm wanting to say
These words from my heart, if I can just find a way

To fight it off... This deep feeling of doubt
And start it off... Even if I have to shout..
Just as long as you know it, this feeling I have
I'm wanting to share it, and give you your half

Of my heart.... Of my soul
You can always hold it
Yes, you can always know...
Just hold tight.... don't let go....
I'll love you forever,
Yes, It's the one thing I know...

YES!! Spring Break is finally here. I have been waiting for this. No teachers or work for a week. I am so happy. And I am going shopping with Amber Saturday. That makes me happy. No TJ!!! That makes me so happy. He is getting on my last damn nerve. I mean someone that you love shouldn't annoy as much as TJ annoys me. I am tired of arguing with him. He drives me insane. I mean last night I want to go to bed. He wouldn't let me off the phone. I mean I finally hung up on him. He ended up calling my dad. I think he has completely lost his mind. He wanted me to go out tonight. Umm....NO!!! I am tired and I need to rest for next week. Me and my dad are looking for a place to live. I mean they are raising our rent here and we can't afford it. We find an apartment in Murfreesboro. But it only has 1 bathroom. I don't know if I can handle one bathroom with my dad. But, whatever happens will happen. I am going to go now. Love you all,

Hannah

tomarrow at exactly 3:15 spring break starts. I can wait. The field trip today was a blast. I had a good time.

                        Peace

Ever wonder what it feels like to be leaving school early to go hang out with two great friends, one of which is driving behind you...

and then you hear a slam and look in your rearview mirror...

and that friend's driver side door is completely concave and the mirror has been shattered out?

I never did.  But now I don't have to, because I know.  I'll give you a hint.  It lies somewhere between hysterical panic and complete numbness.

You wouldn't have recognized me if you'd seen me running to the car.  Me, one of the slowest runners in all of JROTC, in my class A uniform, was full on sprinting.  Man, if I could keep that pace for my mile run I'd be done in three minutes.

Upon arriving at the collision site, about 50 yards from where I pulled off the road and jumped out of my car, I realized that Stephanie was not unconcious, bleeding to death, or suffering and immediate medical danger.  Her face was bleeding because of the glass spray from the shattered window, but she was mostly just distressed about the state of her 2003 Sunfire, which has been in her posession a mere two months.

Matt, the guy who t-boned her car as she turned left out of a parking lot, was completely cool about everything.  I was talking to Stephanie about calling an ambulance and he said, "Sarah, use my phone," and tossed it to me through his open windows.  In the end, I wound up calling Kristin, the other friend we were going to be hanging out with [who had left ahead of us] and Matt called the police and paramedics. 

Mandy, who was nearby, went to get an SRO and the school nurse.  Nathan and his dad [neither of whom I'm acquainted with, even though I occasionally see Nathan around school] stopped to help Stephanie and make sure she was okay.  Nathan got out in the middle of Oakland Drive and started directing traffic.  :p

In the end, everything except Stephanie's car was okay.  Her door and probably a front panel are going to need replacing.  Her insurance is going to go up.  And she got a ticket for failure to yield when exiting a parking lot. 

Stephanie herself is okay.  Kristin and I went to my house so I could change clothes (I got glass on my uniform from leaning through Stephanie's window and crawling into her car to get her stuff out.)  Then we went and met Stephanie and her dad at the ER.  They cleaned her face, smothered it with disinfectant, and told her to put neosporin on it every night to keep scarring down.

Whoo.

Wouldn't mind never going through that again.

Oh yeah... and ACI was totally cool.  I made a few mistakes, but I think as a whole we did very well.

i was wrestling last night.  Chris and i were wrestling Ken (a 2nd degree blackbelt).  we won, but i got this great red mark all over my upper arm from his shoe (i was holding both his legs) and i got a black eye!  stacy's not so happy about it...  to mention it, neither is my mom, but i think it's not too bad.  i wish i had a stinkin' camera, i'd post up a pic.  if i get the chance, i will.

as it is, i'm feeling great (with a slight headache).

leave me comments, i want to be on the home page tomorrow.  show me love OR ELSE!

Yeah today was totally boring having a job at an office kinda sucks but hey the pays good so you know. I'm new and I know that i don't have a pic in yet and i don't know why i didn't put one in but oh well i will sooner or later just whenever i want to i guess

For those of you out there that wear contacts... I'm sorry... But that really hurt... My contact just got lost in my eye... So now i'm wearing my glasses... They feel weird... Ouch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this spring break i am hoping is going to be better... lol well anyways i am bored shitless right now so yeah later

             meg

oooooooooooooooooookay. this will b my last post until i get back. can't wait and hope that its good. by this time tomorrow i shall be in sunny florida. hope that ya'll have a great spring break. 

and ben, i will try to have fun and relax and forget all of my problems, if it's that big of a deal to you.

lylas

I went guitar shoping yesterday and fell in love with a guitar. I still have about 1,200,572 guitars left to play before I decide which one I want, but I am going to be hard pressed to find better. It sounded AMAZING and when I plugged it in it kept a mellow sound (I hate when it's twangy and sharp.... when it's like that you can hear every individual string and it kinda hurts your ears) which is amazing. I'm going to go to Guitar Heaven, the Gibson store in Opry Mills, and all the shops on the square. I'm going to play just about every accoustic (unless it's above my price range) that they have. I'll find the perfect guitar.

Well, now I'm off to work. I work 5 to Midnight if anyone wants to drop in and see me. If you drop in around 8 you might catch me on my break.

    I hate school related embarrassment (well any really, but especially school stuff cause you kinda have to do it). Ughh school is....

finish the sentence using your own words.

Well the hours are counting down til i must go to florida. who knows what awaits me.  hopefully nothing more than a good time and a close friend.  i'm going to a wedding and then spending the rest of my time at the beach.  today actually went pretty well.  first was kinda like a free period, so was second, third we did a very simple worksheet, fourth we watched csi: miami, fifth i was lucky and my name wasn't called to do a speech (yay), and in sixth (right now) the new batman movie is on (yuck).  i like the older batman movies better.  hmmmmmm.  i uploaded a bunch of corpse bride pix to my comp but it refused to put them on phusebox.  well thats all for now. after today i shan't write anymore because i will be on vaca.

Plaques and curses on your family... you know who you are... ;)

it appears that leaving the boro for warmer places causes people to forget

Hey there you all! So I haven't updated in like 20 billion years & its because I am grounded. & I still am. I am just @ school typing this in computer class. So yeah. But I have an "F" in my math class right now so that's why. But anyways... when I get ungrounded I will write a new blog. So other then that leave me some comments if you feel like it. I <3 yall.

God Bless,

*+*Chandelle Nicole*+*

Im at home with an ear infection... :( but at least the doctor doesnt think i have mono....

yeah!!!! I finally got my blog to work it was messed up for like an hour i almost died!!!(Lol) what if there were no days or night it was just like one big continued life i think that would be so cool. anyways so what if it was true that god was the only thing you really needed i thought that once but my life turned around and i'm not so sure anymore ya know i mean its like god just left me to fend for myself in the hardest time of my life. The time where i have to make the decision to follow god and the standards and morals of my church or just to put that all behind me and live for me and only me. I mean i did give god a chance over and over again but hes kinda like me in a way i am given chances and i just throw them away. I don't know anymore i have become someone so different in the last few months i am hurting the people who have always stood beside me but i guess its better to hurt than be hurt .........right? you never really can tell the wrong from the right anymore society has our minds so wrapped up that right seems wrong and wrong seems right. anyways this blog is way to long so i think i'll go before i spout of more well catch you guys laterz,

brandi

is it wrong to ask God for more when you already have more than you deserve?

last night sam told me that he wanted to nashville....

i don't want him to move. he wants me to move with him... i don't know.. i just.. im not even going to college yet, i just got a new job and im just not ready for this big push. I know it is hard on him to drive back and forth to murfreesboro in the morning and at night and it would be totally easier for him... but i feel if he moves to nashville then i will never see him again because we dont see each other enough as it is. im worried that i will only get to see him maybe a few hours of one day a week....

its not fair and i don't want us to break up or split or anything like that. and to tell you the truth i knew this day would eventually come. and its just not cool.... im just really upset.

i don't feel good today. and i have a feeling that im getting sick and that something else may be happening. i don't know. im low on funds and i've got alot of things to pay for once again.

its just not a good day....

plus: my battery just died. ):

Okay so how is everyone doing today... Excellent I am hoping... Because well I am sure many of you guys have heard about what happened last night... During rehersal I was dropped and well I landed on my knee... Yeah that's right it popped and then was burning BAD last night... Now this morning I got up and it was still burning... So apparently some people thought that I was not going to be able to fill my roles in the show so I was replaced... On top of that I was already mad at myself for allowing this to happen... I mean I guess I can't help everything in life... I am just really down-n-out now... Because I feel like I am totally worthless to the show... This is my senior year my last show and now I can't even dance in it anymore... Yup I am really depressed about this but oh well I guess I have to trust that this is for the best and that everything will work out... I just wish that things could be different... I wish that this never happened... As they say though "life goes on" I just need to take those words and remember them... So back to last night right... Well I had a major breakdown at my house... Everything that I was holding in well just finally came out... I mean as much as I would let come out came out... Everyone keeps asking me about this certain person and well all I have to say to that is just drop and forget about it... Nobody else needs to be concerned with it so it's all cool... What's supposed to happen will happen... I am not going to force anything or whatever... If it is meant to be then it will be... So guys that's all for right now... I hope all you guys & gals have an amazing day...

You know what would be really rad?
when I get up to heaven..
Jesus would be wearing an "Ashley is my homegirl shirt"
:D

2 days till Mexico

CAN'T WAIT!!!

Young musicians to solo with MYO

Young musicians recently competed for cash prizes and the chance for a solo with the Murfreesboro Youth Orchestra at its upcoming spring concert.

The Concerto Competition was sponsored by Steinway Piano Gallery.

Young musicians recently competed for cash prizes and the chance for a solo with the Murfreesboro Youth Orchestra at its upcoming spring concert.

The Concerto Competition was sponsored by Steinway Piano Gallery.

Young musicians recently competed for cash prizes and the chance for a solo with the Murfreesboro Youth Orchestra at its upcoming spring concert.

The Concerto Competition was sponsored by Steinway Piano Gallery.

Young musicians recently competed for cash prizes and the chance for a solo with the Murfreesboro Youth Orchestra at its upcoming spring concert.

The Concerto Competition was sponsored by Steinway Piano Gallery.

The two winners of the Senior Division are Kyle Hayes, French Horn, and Ellen Gassler, cello. They will be in the spotlight with solos at MYO's May 2 concert.

Kyle is a senior studying with Radu Rusu, and Elizabeth is a junior studying with Alicia Randisi-Hooker.

Honorable Mention in the Senior Division went to Heather Nagy, flute, and Craig Bullington, violin.

View the actual article here.

http://www.maninthedark.com/ haha yeah, wow. lol

I had a good idea today but i shall not act on it yet... too early...

so... i am SUPER tired! >.<

Drop Dead Fred is magically delicious ^^

"Troy:
We’re soarin’, flyin’
There’s not a star in heaven
That we can’t reach

Gabriella:
If we’re trying
So we’re breaking free"
-Breaking Free (High School Musical)

I have a ton of term paper stuff due tomorrow moring, I have no cule how I'm gonna get it all done. Pretty sure I'm gonna fail this mess. I'm so stressed! : (

still going on my paper, i feel rather dizzy.

some of the collegues saw me and thought me as a "lover fallen".( i coin the word). that's terrible. but it is funny, i lost a lot of weight because of this paper, which i regard as a "economical way".

   anyway, the weekend is coming. i expect myself to finish this weekend, but i am not confident about it any more. God, i need your help.

   it has been raining for too many days. hoping the the sunshine will go with my accomplishment of the paper, so that i will have a REALLY good time after such a long of "staying before computer.

so maybe best friends arn't always BEST friends. See yall know how i liked randy we'll the girl that's supposed to be my best friend broke up w/her b/f which is randy's brother and what does she do but moves right in on randy knowin i still liked him. Well now i don't and i like johnny again. She ain't gettin him. Well ttyl love yall.

    I have an exam today and while I have studied, I never feel ready. Let's hope I don't fail this one. 

What's with me blogging on Wednesdays? lol.

I'm losing my head over complex matters. Why does high school have to be so hard--both social wise and academics wise? Aye, ferchristsake! It's like saying to God, "Thanks for a reason for suicide." At first, I thought I was over the whole thing with my ex-love, but apparently I'm not. What am I gonna do? I know I shouldn't worry, but I just came to a realization with all these hints he's been dropping everywhere. He still likes me. At least..I think so..or maybe it's his way of saying--I got over you. Thanks for the memories. Nah, I don't think he's like that...or is he??

Am I way too into my head? Cause I think I'm losing my sanity as the current events are replayed in my mind. I think I'm in love. But I'm not certain. I think I fall in love way too easily and it's hurting me. I can't explain anything else except for...

- Me and my friend are like the two Nanas. We're like 2 peas in a pod.

- I'd fit the personality description as Nana Komatsu, as I fall in love way too easily.

- My friend would fit the description of Nana Oosaki because she has a boyfriend with spiky hair and he plays guitar in a band. Only thing is that she needs to be singer and that her boyfriend's name isn't Ren. lol.

- Me and my friend are so close and it almost makes us sound like lesbians, but our orientations are straight. Thank you very much.

I can only describe things when I compare them to something else. And with that we shall bring this subject to a close as there are no further discussions.

we have this science test on the table of elements and it's hard.. more then half the elements we have to remember.. i can't even said it.. ugh! hopefully i do good.. i'll study during 2nd period.. haha.. well, hey meg! have a fun trip.

yay.

finished up a roll of film today.

so of course i quickly ran to the nearest [actually, it  was the farther one away] walmart and got it one hour developed.

and so now, i shalt share a few of these lovlie beauties that you too can find on my phusebox pictures [yep. right here] or photobucket.

so have a lovely day and enjoy!

<3

jen

Ok a lot of you posted saying you would be interested. Here is what i came up with.... Not much. I emailed the girl that would know asking if i could buy more than one student priced ticket but it has been about a week now and she hasnt written back. So i figure i cant but i am planning on checking again when i go back to school but then it may be too late. So i would suggest getting on ticket master beacause it doesnt look too hopful. sorry..... 

I LOVE BURRITOS!!!!!!!!!

So, did your heart sing a new song tonight?

Did a new word of prayer leave your lips?

Mexico is only two days away.

Our prayers concerning the trip are vital, but the trip isn't hinged upon our prayers, our strength.

Mexico is hinged upon His Power. The same God who created every star in the sky, who keeps the entire universe intact (what else is it held together by?) has His hand on our going to Mexico.

I had a moment of "I can't do this...too much is riding on this...I'm not ready, not strong enough..." tonight, but my mom said something that made me think: if I was strong enough to do all of this, who would get the glory? God or me?

If we could do this on our own strength, then how would God get the glory? If we could do this on our own strength, it wouldn't even be about Him anymore.

What's the point in that? Woe to me if I am my own strength! If our lives, our Salvation, were in our hands, there's no way we'd ever see the light of Day!

"If we are faithless,

He will remain faithful,

for He cannot disown Himself."

2 Timothy 2:13

Well I am doin aight I guess. My last entry sounded kinda emo-depressing, but actually its not as bad as I thought. I probably won't have to move after all, unless my dad can't find a job within 5 months. And he should hopefully have gotten one by then, so yeah. I appreciate all your prayers and comments on the last entry though. Yall mean the world to me. I have really been finding out who my real friends are, and the people that I am gonna stay in touch with for the rest of my life. So tonight at diversion was pretty awesome. We talked about Mexico which is in 3 DAYS and I am getting really pumped about it. I am still waitin on the job at Belle Aire, and it shouldn't be long hopefully with all the references I have. Thanks to everybody who is helping me get on. So once I get that job, i'll FINALLY BE ABLE TO GET A CELL PHONE (I know, I know....i'm a latecomer. It isn't my fault. SO STOP GIVING ME CRAP ABOUT IT PLEASE!!!!!!!!!! IN CASE U DIDN'T KNOW IT REALLY GETS ON MY NERVES!!!!!). So yeah, I can't wait to start text messaging everybody and calling people just because I feel like callin them.. I can never call anyone for a long time with my home phone b/c my parents don't like me to use it for long periods of time, and they get mad. But of course my brother can stay on there and talk to his girlfriend for like 4 hours and its perfectly ok. But that's life, and its not fair....never was. My mom is actually gettin rid of her phone, b/c she doesn't use it alot and doesn't want to pay for it. Plus the screen is broken. But yeah, this is a pointless blog and i'm just rambling about cell phones and wishing that I had one. So i'm going to sleep.
~Garrett

Im so glad its almost spring break!! i need it so much.  last day of school is friday.  yay!!!!!!!!!!

tonight was totally about God. we had some speakers tonight that Christ totally worked through and got the focus of mexico in my heart. one shared that no matter where we are, whether in mexico or at school, or even on the beach, that that is our ministry field. it doesnt (or shouldnt) take us a trip to mexico and think thats the only time we are be witnesses and lights to a dark world. good verse: 1 Tim. 1:12. that really touched me tonight. we got to spend some deep time in prayer and that is where we are going to truly be blessed and get anything out of this trip is having our daily talk with Jesus. i encourage all who are going to stay strong and only lift each other up. i pray that we will be blameless in Gods sight and that we give TOTAL glory to our Christ Jesus the whole time we are there! love yall.. 2 days!!! =)

Your LIFE is your MINISTRY,

Lead it with a PASSION.

I LOVE cotton candy!  Randy brought Beka and I some the other night.  What a treat!  It tastes great!  It smells good!  It's sticky!  It dissolves when you get it in your mouth.  Yep!  I liked it! And I didn't have to share!

hola people I just found out that the guy at work was arrested for DUI and the cop thought that the car was stolen because the cop though that He was a mexican but he is white so that is way he was not at work for a week

i love parade day in buffalo. basically... everyone gets wasted watching the st. patricks day parade. great festivity. <3 it lots.

jackdaw's pretty amazing too.

happy belated st. patrick's day!

oh. i got my hair cut too. its super cute.

oakland varsity cheerleader
2006-2007
congrats to everyone!!

I'm tired of fake friends.

Ok... so.. Today started off pretty good I suppose... I went to that football thing and actually had fun... Didn't really pay attention to the game though.I found my prom dress and I'm SO excited over that. That's probably like the best thing that has happened to me all day. I feel like I'm being lied to, which is not cool... These two people act so different around me and it really makes me wonder if anything is going on between them. Even though I have a boyfriend it still aggravates the hell out of me. Oh well. I can't find my graduation list that I made like a LONG time ago and I kind trashed my room trying to look for it. Not that much longer and I'm out of here

I realized tonight I never tell my friends this enough. So every single one of u listen and let this soak in. I LOVE YOU!!! now that that's said...GOD LOVES U!! even more than me. you're worth more than you know. your life has an amazing amount of purpose and potential. and despite all the garbage. life is worth every second of it. and more people love u then u will ever know!

remember that...

MEXICO TRIP SATURDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So, can I say that Building 429 is some of the coolest guys ever?  I mean, they are awesome!  I went to a free concert at a coffee shop on Friday night and it was so good.  They didn't play too many songs because they just wanted to hang out with us.  That was fun.  Mandy and I got their cd for only $5!  That's amazing! 

Relient K was fabulous as well.  It was really crowded and very hot but so awesome!  The doors opened 1.5 hours late so we were outside freezing for 3.5 hours.  That's not fun.  The concert made up for it though.  There were 3 opening bands and the second one wasn't too bad, but the third one was AWFUL!!!!!!  So Relient K didn't start until like 10 or 10:30.  It was crazy.  But when they started it was great.  I think everyone else was getting pushed around but I wasn't.  I was fairly comfortable.  They put on a great show.  And what's more amazing is that they don't use set lists.  That's super fun.  Although disappointing for me because I collect them.  Oh, well.  I did pick up a signed guitar pick that I didn't see them throw out.  That's kinda cool.  And I got some t-shirts, so that's super fun.  All in all, I'd do it again just for that GREAT concert!

On monday I got to go to the dermatologist and get that cyst looked at.  That wasn't so fun because they removed it and a mole from my arm so now both of those just kinda hurt.  And I found out that I genetically got passed a gene that gives me those cysts.  So who knows how many I will have to get taken out.  Funny how things work.

I've also been sewing like I told you I would.  I've made 5 or 6 purses, I can't remember.  And I still have like 2 or 3 more to go.  So I will stay busy tomorrow as well.  I think on Friday I am leaving for Nashville or Knoxville to see my cousin run a marathon.  I'll also get to see my Aunt and Uncle that I won't get to see this summer because I will  be in Poland, so that's cool.  It's too bad I won't get to see any other family.  They are great.  I have been kinda bored but I've been doing a pretty good job of occupying my mind.  I do have some homework I could do, but that doesn't sound like fun at all.  Nope, not at all.

So anyways, I'm gonna run and work on some web design stuff.  That way I won't be stressed when I go back to school.

allow me to be a bit depressing...

so I've gotten to the point where I've chosen to evaluate all of the relationships that I have formed with people...from people I met 10 yrs ago to the ones I met last wk...the majority of them have impacted my life.

what's sad is this...

I don't want to be the person that walks away from these relationships just because I'm beginning my life.

I love them too much.

And chances are...if we're friends....you've most likely made an impact on me....

...and you haven't a clue.

Here are a few things to think about that you probably have
never

thought about;

Can you cry under water?

How important does a person have to be before they are considered

assassinated instead of just murdered?

Why do you have to "put your two cents in".. . but it's only a

"penny for your thoughts"? Where's that extra penny going to?

Once you're in heaven, do you get stuck wearing the clothes you were

buried in for eternity?

Why does a round pizza come in a square box?

What disease did cured ham actually have?

How is it that we put man on the moon before we figured out it would

be a good idea to put wheels on luggage?

Why is it that people say they "slept like a baby" when babies wake
up

like every two hours?

If a deaf person has to go to court, is it still called a hearing?

Why are you IN a movie, but you're ON TV?

Why do people pay to go up tall buildings and then put money in

binoculars to look at things on the ground?

Why do toasters always have a setting that burns the toast to a

horrible crisp, which no decent human being would eat?

If Jimmy cracks corn and no one cares, why is there a stupid song

about him?

Can a hearse carrying a corpse drive in the carpool lane?

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If the professor on Gilligan's Island can make
a radio out of a

coconut, why can't he fix a hole in a boat?

Why does Goofy stand correct while Pluto remains on all fours?

They're both dogs!

If Wiley E. Coyote had enough money to buy all that ACME stuff, why didn't he just
buy dinner?

If corn oil is made from corn, and vegetable oil is made from

vegetables, what is baby oil made from?

If electricity comes from electrons, does morality come from morons?

Did you ever notice that when you blow in a dog's face, he gets mad at

you, but when you take him for a car ride; he sticks his head out the

window?

Do you ever wonder why you read this blog in the first place?

Sarah.... she looked BEAUTIFUL!!!

Sarah and Andrew

GREG-O!

WE hate each other... love hate relationship but mostly hate!!

Me and Weston (( i look like im about to kill him... but im not))  HAHAHAHA we played a dirty trick on my sister!!!

AMY MAC! I <3 her

yayay! I MADE IT! =D

My bestest & I at tryouts today!

"the list"! congrats to everyone! <33

so we're finally working on the stuff for prom and pretty sure i just now realized that prom is like a month away and i'm flat broke. so i'm selling some stuff on e-bay. i don't expect more than a hundred bucks but i do have two things that might actually be worth something so...wish me luck! maybe i'll get lucky!

Time for some funny stuff.
Ever wonder that things mean....like really. What the hell does emo really mean?
well......



2. Emo


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Punk
music on estrogen. Often acoustic guitar with soft, high male vocals
that dwell exessively on the singer's feelings, especially melancholy
remembrances of past relationships/mistakes in life. A form of music
that diverged from punk in the '80s, the name "emo" is derived from the
emotive style of the lyrics and music. This genre has lately been
marketed heavily by the music industry to teenagers with bands such as Dashboard Confessional and Taking Back Sunday,
and has seen much commercial and mainstream success. The music has also
spawned a subculture which conforms to certain conventions in dress
such as tight sweatshirts, tight band T-shirts and horn-rim glasses.
Adherents profess to exessively melancholy temperments. Males that
adhere to the emo subculture are sometimes confused with metrosexuals;
indeed the line between the two is somwhat blurred, though both groups
claim to be intouch with their emotional side. The ephemeral and
hackneyed nature of emo songwriting suggests that its audience will be
restricted largely to teenagers. the genre suffers from a lack of
credibility outside the aforementioned demographic group, much like
current Nu Metal bands.

girlfriend: C'mon, lets have sex.

boyfriend: I'm too sad to have sex.

girlfriend: I'm sad too; lets have sex and cry.

boyfriend: I'm already crying.

Yea....Well ...i found another one too.


Emu spelled incorrectly.

"That emo sure is fast!"

Yea i think i like that one better. 
Track stars watch out....those emo kids are out to get ya!


Comeing next.....
Fo' Shizzle my nizzle

so nothin really new....but my birthday is in 4 days so therefore im excited!

today was AWESOME!!!... we didnt do like n e thing in any of my classes...!!! WOOP WOOP!!! wa took like this benchmark thing in 1st worked on stuff we did yesterday in 2nd i got to paint the emeral gates to Oz in 3rd we colored in 4th and then the football game for the rest of the day.... and i got to see “her” today... actually... i got to see “her” alot today... it made me happy!!! LOL... i had fun @ the game ... though none of us watched it LOL... well guys im out I LOVE U ALL!!
~tRISH



me, ash, and lin-z...! gosh i look fat.... LOL....

met a real cute khmai guy..he's pretty c0ol..but dunno much bout him yets..newayz..go0dness..grlz witch alot...all dey ever do0 is talk shizz bout one another..ruin great friendships over stupid stuff...urgh..wat u should do0i juss let dem argue n w/e..until dey start scrappin..den dats where u come n....newayz...sho0t...think bout wat u guys ruining...and for wat..

It has been a fabulous day, I must say! Things are looking pretty good in Amy's world, and God has definitely been answering some prayers...

I think I totally aced my pysch test, despite what little study time I had.

The show last night was great. It helped me realize that TV is not so bad after all if you can get in something that isn't corrupted, and live TV can actually be kind of cool. It's like in one night, a whole new possibility of careers opened up to me as I realized that I could produce a show like that if that's what I needed to do to start out. And yes, I would produce. When I was younger I dreamed of directing, but now I am in love with the idea of producing. And I really plan to get involved with MTSU's channel in the future. My friend Jolene and I want to take over it actually, and have like Anna and another friend of mine help us revolutionize the station to have shows that people, especially MTSU students, will actually want to watch.

Speech class was cancelled. Awesome beyond words.

And I'm starting to enjoy my EMC class, and the people in it.

Life is good for today. Who knows what tomorrow will bring, yet I am convinced that God is still actively working, despite my doubts at times that maybe He has no plans for me, because He most certianly does, so Satan can take that and eat it. And that was totally a William Faulkner sentence. Actually it wasn't long enough...

welcome

Ok, SOOO Kaylie is not longer going to Prom with Justin. He wanted a limo, i did not, i refused, and he wanted to go with another, AFTER we had had plans with my group, so we're not attending the prom together anymore...i'm over it...SO...anyone up for Blackman Prom '06? yea i didn't think so..prom's like less than a month away, and everyone has a date except you Kaylie, you're just a big loser, and no one would ever want to go with you. Justin only felt sorry for you...Wow, i'm a loser

Kaylie

I got to thinking earlier today about things...

...I came to the conclusion that I somewhat treat life as if it were a video game console.  As totally stupid as that sounds, I think it's a rather appropriate description of it.

I've thought about all the things I'd like to do...  I'd like to be an astronaut, an architect, a roller coaster designer, an EB Games/Gamestop store manager, an arcade owner, a game designer, a chemist, a secret agent, a police officer, an archaeologist, or a teacher...  In terms of hobbies, I'd like to play video games, learn many martial arts, create and/or play music, mess with LEGOs, watch and make movies, a collectible card game player, exercise, play DDR...  I'm sure there's many more I can't think of at the moment to put in both lists.  I want to be able to do all kinds of things, experience the world from any point of view that I can, make friends with all...

...But I can't.  It's not like I could simply put in a different game and change what I play for awhile, then switch to something else after I get done with that.  That's what I want to do.  I want to see/hear/do it all.  But I can't.  I can't switch from Katamari Damacy to Time Crisis 3...  I can't switch from teaching or policing, and I especially can't do both at the same time.  I have to choose...

Choosing a career is like choosing one, and only one, game to play for the rest of your life.  Or at least that's how it feels to me.  I can't simply choose one game to play for the rest of my life!  There's different genres, different stories, different systems...  Katamari's fun, but only for so long; Devil May Cry 3 is awesome, but I like a good ol' RPG to play; RPG's are only so entertaining, so I switch to God of War, and then to Mario after that, and then to Beatmania after that...then I might go back to Katamari when all's said and done, and the cycle begins.

Even, to a certain extent, my friends are the same way.  I have different groups of friends, all of which I enjoy being with, all of which I want to do stuff with all the time.  But, I know that some of my friends can be somewhat "incompatible" with each other.  My assistant manager, Donald...  I really enjoy goin' to his place and playin' games and perhaps even having a drink or two; he's a good guy.  But some of my other friends would be highly uncomfortable being around him, I know...

I can't be with all my friends at the same time; it just couldn't happen.  So many different backgrounds, different philosophies, different everythings...  And so, I end up having to switch between them all like different video games...

I guess, in the bitter end, video games really have shaped me in ways I normally wouldn't realize.

...You know what they say about red mages: they're a jack of all trades...but they can't do any one particular thing very well.

...And in America, specialization and focus on one and only one thing is what's desired.  Perhaps that is why I'm having a difficult time with everything...

(EDIT: www.sloganizer.net for the win.)

'Mommy Wars': To Work or Stay at Home?

Feb. 22, 2006 — An alarming number of college-educated women are leaving the work force to stay at home and raise their children, a trend that is a tragedy not only for the mothers, but ultimately their children and women as a whole.

So said law professor and working mom Linda Hirshman in a 2005 article for American Prospect magazine that has ignited an intense debate among mothers.

Census figures show 54 percent of mothers with a graduate or professional degree no longer work full time. In 2003 and 2004 Hirshman interviewed about 30 women whose wedding announcements had appeared in The New York Times in 1996 and who had had children. Five of the women were working full time, and 10 were working part time. The rest were not working at all.

"We care because what they do is bad for them, is certainly bad for society, and is widely imitated, even by people who never get their weddings in the Times," Hirshman wrote. "This last is called the 'regime effect,' and it means that even if women don't quit their jobs for their families, they think they should and feel guilty about not doing it."

Hirshman also said educated women choosing to stay home was bad for them as individuals.

"A good life for humans includes the classical standard of using one's capacities for speech and reason in a prudent way, the liberal requirement of having enough autonomy to direct one's own life, and the utilitarian test of doing more good than harm in the world," Hirshman wrote. "Measured against these time-tested standards, the expensively educated, upper-class moms will be leading lesser lives."

A great counter to that message, I pasted below:

(from Boundless, a webzine)

by Bethany Patchin

Mothering is a career choice that is rarely respected. We should recognize and affirm women who opt to invest time in their children. The Bible is clear that sons and daughters are among the greatest blessings we will ever receive.

A friend of mine once said his greatest desire is to create something beautiful and lasting. That stuck with me. I want to create a beautiful and lasting marriage with a man, and with that man I want to bear and rear children, which are the most exquisite and eternal creations we humans can take part in fashioning. Architects design buildings that will someday fall, programmers construct computer software that will eventually be obsolete — but fathers and mothers cultivate souls that will never die. How wonderful to experience just an inkling of what God feels as our Father.

When I am old and I look at my wrinkled hands, I want to know that the creases came from — among many things — years of playing music, reading books, drawing pictures and writing stories. But my greatest hope is that those lines will remind me most of hours spent washing my babies’ and grandbabies’ tummies, tucking them into bed and teaching them what I have learned.

Maybe, once I've tucked my precious 3-year-old in bed, I'll have time to write my own commentary.  For now I'll just say, I am PRIVELEDGED beyond what words could express to be the full-time caregiver for our son.  There's nothing I'd rather do.  And I would consider myself a well-educated, intelligent adult who contributes greatly to society.

so...

new hair.

^_-

since this week is my spring break, me, my brother, my mom my aunt and cousins all went to the zoo at grassmere (in nashville) here are some pictures of the animals...... very cool animals........

the bengal tiger.......

 

these are the tigers... it only said bengal- but there were two- one white and one brown.......

 

this is some goose that kept tryin to bite my brother.....

this is the white handed gibbon...... they were SOOOO funny..... swinging from the trees on ropes and stuff.....amazing at how wonderful God's creation is.....

this is a meerkat.... they are sorta like prairie dogs.... (i think) they tunnel like prairie dogs though.......

here are some more meerkats........

here is the cougar.......

and the -(i dont remember what this is called!!!!!!!!)

this was like the coolest bird ever!!!!!! look at its head....

and the tiger again.....

i took more pics, but they were just like cows ans sheep and stuff- they were in the petting zoo..... the giraffes and elephants and the really cool animals werent out..... so- i hope to go back in may.........

I found out today that MTSU lost my Spanish placement scores, so now I have to take the test over again. I don't suppose it'll be so bad; I'm going to review with a teacher I had a few years ago, so hopefully that'll be a big help.

I think there should be a Phusebox get together. That way, when people go to Taco Bell and see people they're subscribed to ((yet haven't actually met)), they wouldn't feel so weird about saying hi. Not that this has happened to me or anything. . . lol.

Gen. Eds. bite. I wish I could take just Spanish and Electronic Media classes. One of these days. . .

...

An e-mail I got today from the guy I work for;

 "There once was a boy who had a bad temper. His Father gave him a bag of nails and told him that every time he lost his temper, he must hammer a nail into the back of the fence..." to shorten the story - the son finally learned to control anger and he regretted the things he had done in anger he pulled out all the nails and his father told him he had done well, however; "The father took his son by the hand and led him to the fence. He said, look at the holes in the fence. The fence will never be the same. When you say things in anger, they leave a scar just like this one. You can put a knife in a man and draw it out. It won't matter how many times you say I'm sorry, the wound is still there. " A verbal wound is as bad as a physical one"

I don't want to drive the nails only to regret them. I hate that you can't always fix things that you have done.

wow

http://www.maninthedark.com/

JESUS CHRIST

STICKS CLOSER THAN A BROTHER!!!!

whats the purpose on giving up?....i mean on anything. what good does it do? absolutley none. sure its the easy thing to do but why not fight? fighting is what has kept me spiratually alive. without fighting i would have fell back into depression. i would be doin no tellin what. i havnt always been sweet carol as everyone has known me. before i moved to murfreesboro and got into church i was not a happy acquaintence. god and church is what has gotten me where i am now. and i am not giving up anytime soon. and to those of you that on your way there or have already given up please listen to my advice. god is the only thing that will get you out of your rut. no substance, music, or person comes even close to the one and only savior.

do one good thing.

then screw it up.

congrats.

i just wanna see that boy at church.

i just need to stop. males are too frustrating. period.

Title from the first interesting book title I saw on the shelf.

I'm in the school library. I got here early and finished half of an assignment due on Monday. Now I get to go to Figure Study and then go HOME. I love Wednesdays - only one class. I only have one class on Fridays too, but it's at 9am and that makes it not so great.

Lots of wedding planning to do, most of which will be done this summer. Good news is, the wedding is going to be the Saturday before my fall break so we get a week long honeymoon without me having to miss class.

Lets see....what else is new....planning out my schedule for the fall semester tomorrow, and it's actually pretty exciting because next year I'm a junior so I get to take classes like seminar and I might get to intern at a gallery or museum here in Nashville, but I'm not going to try to intern anywhere until next spring. It would be way to much to juggle between my other classes and planning a wedding.

I guess that's about it. I hope all is well.

growing up means making actual decisions that have tangible impacts on the rest of your life. 

it sounds great to grow up in theory, until you have to pay for this and that, and your advisor says she can't help you until you pick a major...

ben moser's post made me think back to when everything was fun, and if it wasn't fun, then you made it fun through some stretch of the imagination...

i miss those days...

God has had such a major impact on my life.  just recently He  revealed just a glimpse of what He wants me to do for ministry. so far i have seen myself singing somewhere in churches or something. God desires for his children to worship him.  i have been through alot so far in my life. at times the circumstance seems unbearible, then i remember the one who conquered the world. i'm about to go and visit my mom in Maryland whom i havn't seen in 6 years. there has been several times where i came close to leaving God's will.  but because of His word that is already hidden in my heart, God's word saved me!  if you are going through a tough time in your life, cry out to God and he will meet you in your time of need.  Jesus Christ laid down his life for you and me. the same Jesus that caused the blind to see and healed the sick nearly 2000 years ago hasn't changed! because of what God has done thus far in my life i can go and witness to my mom and family and share the love of Jesus Christ with them.

WAY TOO MUCH TO THINK ABOUT, FRAID I MIGHT FALL INTO A SLIGHT RUT. UGH.

Yesterday my first nephew came into the world. After a nearly 24 year drought, the Blackwell family has finally produced another male. My sister Bronwyn and brother-in-law Jason had Joshua Michael Swartz around 1:30 (pst) yesterday afternoon. He weighed in at 8 lbs. 1 oz. and was a nice 21 inches long. All 21 digits are in tact.

on their 2 1/2 day trip from CA to TN. they went to cali to help my aunt move out here. and it ONLY took them 2 1/2 days of driving. Last time they did that was when we moved out here, and that took 4 1/2 days. but here are some pics. idk what state each pic was taken in.

looks like down down knoxville. lol.

duhh its new mexico. haha.

ahh. DINOSOURS [sp? lol]. haha.

i <33 this picture.

those are just a FEW of the pictures they took. these were just some of my favorites.

MOUNTAIN DEW

   RULES!!!!!

 asghjksg.
3 months & 20 days.
(16th birthday)
Gosh.
I'm so young.

Things about me.
CHECK IT.

I am Ashley.
I am a big deal.
People know me.
I loveeee metal.
And techno.
I freaking love my friends.
I am a church kid.
jesus loves me.
i'm artistically challenged.
I play bass.
I like neon colors.
and black.
I like taking pictures.
[even though my camera is broken]
I dye my hair way too much.
I hate.
I love.
I can be pretty rad.
then I can be your worst nightmare.
I like making people laugh.
[even if I fall on my face]
I'm crazy.
You know you want me. rofl.
uhmmm.
I don't really know what else there is about me.
Laterrrrrr.

  I am brandi

 I love music

    I  am a rocker

           I love the color black

                      And am trying to learn guitar

              I am am loser

                But am cooler than some

                       I don't claim to be perfect

                        because i have to many flaws

                     I don't want to die

                    But i don't want my life

                   I want to live for god

                            but i mess up far to much

                          I want to live my life for me

                            not for everyone else

                             I want to be different

                              cause the same isn't cool

                           Life is a soapbox

                             but only if you live it

                          I am a jesusfreak

                            but don't know how to reach him

                         I am lost

                            I am me

                       I am different

                     I am free

                             I hate material things

                              I love my friends

                             I hate pain

                              I am an airforce girl

                            I am strong

                            But i'm weak

                           I do hurt

                           But hurt others

                            I love unconditionally

                            I hate with no problem

                            I don't judge

                            so don't judge me

                           I have a past

                            I am alone

                          But sorrounded by friends

                          I am loved

                         but also hated

                          I'm am bound

                            never to be free

                        I am in love with a guy

                          who will never see

                        I wish i was free

                    cause all i can offer is me!

                               
                             

                             

 

it was very very early in the morning...and i decided to take a picture of myself!!!     

the view from our hotel room, yeah, that was a winner!!

a view from central park, i think...

CHICAGO is probably the worst Broadway show ever...

me and my mom at Rockefeller Center!!!!

_ill put up more pictures later...like, actual pictures of me and friends!!!  lol 

LOVE YOU AND HAVE A GREAT DAY!

Hello out there........ It has been a while... It has been hectic over the past several months so I have let xanga slip by the wayside but things are beginning to return to some semblance of normal... My son is pretty much healed from his surgeries last year.... finally.... He should be going back to school after spring break. We also had a visit from the Make A Wish Foundation and my son has been initially approved for a whish. He wanted to go on a cruise to Hawaii but we had to explain that they don't have cruises to Hawaii so his first choice was a Cruise (Disney if they can get it or one of the regular Caribbean ones) and his second choice was to fly to Hawaii. Pretty good choices I think. They said they can't promise anything but said that there shouldn't be any problem with his wish. They wanted to know if we could go on spring break but not everyone has spring break at the same time so could not do it . It looks like it will be at the end of May/begining of June. Sounds like fun but I will have to be drugged the whole time because I get motion sickness very easily... My daughter has been getting in trouble at school.... for talking to much. She definitely did not get that from me as I am the quiet type... She came home one day and her agenda had "talking to much" in it and the next day it said "still talking"... lol I think the teacher has moved all the students at her table away from her. My daughter said that it good because now she can get her work done because she does not have anything to distract her... She's to smart for her own good... lol. My little brother Casey is also going to the 3BC Basketball camp next month which should be good for him. Hopefully it will work off some of that energy he has inside... As far as myself... bad news at work.. I am apparently overpaid for the job I do so will not be getting any raise this year... Welcome to the Real World... And in case you did not know, I do computer technical support so if anyone needs help with their computer just let me know.

Take Care and Keep Smiling

Danny

Edit.... just found out that our Cruise destination is Cancun!

the other day i was thinking "what are my Pet Peeves?" and i couldn't think of anything. but this morning, i discovered one.

I was running late getting out of the house to go to school this morning and my mom needed change for a 5 to give my brother and i lunch money. i didn't have change for a 5 so i just gave my brother 2 dollars cuz i had my own money for lunch. then my mom made us trade out money (him give me my 2 dollars for lunch and my mom gave him the 5 for lunch) WHY DID WE HAVE TO WASTE TIME BY EXCHANGING MONEY WHEN SHE COULD'VE JUST GIVEN ME THE 5! >.<

so i went out to my car and my mom had already started it w/ her key so the car is warm and we can just jump in and go. but no... my brother TAKES OUT MY MOM'S KEY TO PUT MINE IN! >.< yet another waste of time!!! >.<

so i don't like it when ppl don't hurry and do stupid things that waste time...

"Flowers are surely waiting for us
In a place we haven't yet seen
Before we are used to being bored
And our time passes quickly"
-Ayu (Pride)

hey everyone! how is everbody?? hmmm not much to report . I havnt done my homework yet again, whats new though lol.well only 1 day left after today YAY everyone do a happy dance.I tell ya what if teachers think im actually going to be doing anything for the rest of this week they are mistaken!!Okay im bored and i have to go write my body paragraphs for my term paper..They are due after luch thank god :) guess whos skipping out on lunch to do her work?? hehe LATER EVERYONE

a thought hit me today.

if someone from my community can make it big, why can't i? i love the medical field, you know, but we all have that little, hidden dream. Mine=anything musical, acting related, or just showbiz in general. i mean, i know i couldnt even get the lead in the school play, but something Griffin said one day stuck with me.

Michael Jordan was kicked off his high school basketball team.

that thought sticks with me.

Something good happened last night. I can't explain it, but yet I can.

I went to Encounter last night and Pastor Dan talked about making a difference in other people's lives. See, I have been working on a Short Sermon for Fine Arts but I coudn't really get what God was trying to say to me. Well, after being at Encounter last night, I realized something very important....I need to step it up a noch or two and quit being the same old person that I was yesterday. I need to quit being "Normal" and quit being "Negative". God does use normal people, but He helps them to get out of the "Normal" attitude of todays society and into a Spiritual attitude. If I keep being so "Negative" all the time, I am just going to keep going nowhere fast. It's time for me to step it up a noch and ignite my passion for God.