grrr...its been all rainy and cold for the whole day, and its sposed to be like this tomorrow also.  you cant do anything with days like these except for hope that theyll end soon or get you out of school. so ill just wait and hope.

I haven't posted anything on here since October. I believe an update is in order.

Since October, I have done loads of super cool stuff.

Update complete.

so i went downstairs and there was this thing on the stove that looked like a cooked mole. and i said "mom, what is that?" and she goes "don't look at it...... it's a soy roast"

so i looked at it, and she starts to cut it. i say "that's not soy. that's a real roast"

...

and she's cutting it and she says "i cooked it in teriyaki" like that makes it okay. and i said "mom it's not soy"

and she just kinda shrugged and kept cutting it.

wtf. haha.

today was shit. comepletely. weather sucked. and i'm totally through with school.

my mom said that for spring break we can go to Atlanta and she's gonna buy me stuff at Urban Outfitters. the actual store! yay.  ^_^  that's the only reason i'd let her go with though.

<3

WOW!!!! I just saw V for Vendetta, probably the best movie out there to go see. I didn't think it would be that great but i was wrong this was the best movie I've seen in a while, still Batman Begins is still the best i've seen. This movie has everything. I suggest anyone intrested in seeing go see it. GO!!!!!!! NOW!!!

al gore was not the greatest speaker.

he knew about global warming.

but that was it.

and then he just got stupid.

oh good.

i better have written enough notes for my extra credit.

have a great day!

<3

jen

well i amm soooooooooooo bored

Hey, I just want to say a big "thank you" to everyone who has come out to see Macbeth so far.  I really.... It means a lot.  An awful lot.  :) x 32.

Off to do it all over again.... Agh, divas.

well this is cool... i went from 20 to 38 friends in about 14 hours.... cool.... well satuday was really awesome!! i started out the day good by driving around the church parking lot for about 5 minutes (yes, it was my first time driving!), then the junior high youth group went to chattanooga for the second time. that was fun.... i fell asleep on the van a lot.... then we had that "controlled chaos" thing and that was both life threatening and amazing! i left early, tho.... i needed a good day to make up for all the bad ones i've been having....

My shoulder hurts. I arm wrestled Josh a few weeks ago and pulled or strained something in my shoulder (don't laugh). It's been a small problem since then, like when I mop the floor at work it will throb a little, or really when I do anything physical like that. Well apparently raquetball is not a good choice. By the end of about 1/2 an hour my arm was screaming at me and threatening to fall off my body, but it was much welcomed stress relief.

I got a new cell phone (for those of you who don't know, that's a big deal). My new phone is the Motorola E815

It's nice, and I can connect it to my laptop through bluetooth. So instead of downloading all the music and backgrounds I want and having to pay for them I can do it free from my laptop.

So i was in the hallway and i saw rachel.  i recognized her from her picture on phusebox. it was soo awesome. and the only way that that happened was because i snuck out of class early. c u meet kool people when u leave class early.

Well...i got accepted to Govenor's School.............everyone in my family was thrilled, but I dunno.........just doesnt feel like a big accomplishment........my dradad got out of the hospital, but isnt in great health........thanks for the prayers though.............hopefully things continue to get better................g2g.........God Bless

hola kids!  thought i'd try this thing since xanga is kind of a no-no right now.  well, drop me a line if you love me! 

Hey Phusebox... Whats Up? Me, Nothing Much Just Chillin... Anyways, Yesterday I Went To Church And Afterwards I Came Home And Later That Day I Went Over My Brothers... I Was Pretty Fun Over There... And Last Friday, At The Track Meet, We Didnt Do As Well As We Planned To Do... Actually We Did Worse... And I Feel So Empty Inside Again... I Dont Know Whats Wrong But I Just Have A Feeling That Something Just Isnt Right.. And Me And My Girlfriend Are Still Together If Yall Thought That Was It.. But She Needs To Give Me More Attention Though Because She Doesnt Answer My Calls Or Texts Sometimes... Well, In A Few Minutes When School Is Over I Have Track Practice Because We Have Another Track Meet On Thursday... I Hope To Lead My Team Into Victory... And After Practice Ima Go Over My Friend Quentins To See Him For A Little Bit Then Head Home For The Night... Well, I Dont Have Much To Say Anymore Because Im Feeling Empty Inside So I'll Write Yall Again Soon... Holla...

this is a cool gangsta pic of me and raye

me, in my hard-core sunglasses...lol

took it in choir.

took this is in nashville at some random person's house... i thought it was cool

at all-state

Polonius:
That he is mad, 'tis true: 'tis true 'tis pity;
And pity 'tis 'tis true: a foolish figure;
But farewell it, for I will use no art.
Mad let us grant him, then: and now remains
That we find out the cause of this effect,
Or rather say, the cause of this defect,
For this effect defective comes by cause:
Thus it remains, and the remainder thus.
Perpend [consider]-
I have a daughter.

i breathed today.

AND i vaccumed my floor!!!!

i feel good..on with my schedule...

have a great day!

<3

Jen

so pretty sure mexico is in 5 days!!! i am oh so excited but what im truly excited about is how Christ will be moving down there.. cant wait! go quesidillas!

pray this up: psalm 119

so sometime within the next couple of hours, we will be leaving the mounatins of west virginia and come home! I miss home (sadly) I won't be home in time for school tomorrow, but i will be home for work (YAY :-( ) and I'll have to go to middle's library and work on the research paper! ahhh.....

yea so dad's not as upset about me goin into airforce as i thought he would be!

so on my way to 4th period i met the amazingly magical Elizabeth (who has very cool taste ^^). how exciting! ^^

Rae and I went shopping but ended up buying only some Frappichinos from Starbucks)


we also rented Drop Dead Fred which is a magical movie

look! a pic of Drake from yesterday! (after his accident.... notice the only thing really different is the lil scar on his chin which is kinda hot... lol)

so i have a strict schedule for myself today..and this isn't on it. ha. but fixin to get on the room cleanage [room checks this evening].

i apologized to my sociology prof. for sleeping thru some of his class..just told him it was one of those days...and i think he can't hold a grudge or anything against that. =)

i'm off to clean the room/eat lunch/chill/work out/ go see al gore speak for extra credit/ go to lab/study.

yeah. i even have everything on a time table.

this will be done.

have a great day!

<3

jen

hey everyone I guess it is time for me to post but yeah i guess i am pretty much busy i have track season that is about to start, fine arts which is frustrating, church softball league for the men, and i play as crucified jesus in the easter trilogy   so i am pretty much booked but i hope its easier on you peeps and shout out for amanda ayers my lil sister cause i posted just for her lol but if anybody messes with her has to deal with me so back off love you amanda lol

yeah yeah i know, i know.  i am obsessed with star wars. not really , my interest has just been renewed a whole bunch.

Who I Am Hates Who I've Been Lyrics

I watched the proverbial sunrise

coming up over the Pacific and

you might think I'm losing my mind,

but I will shy away from the specifics...


'cause I don't want you to know where I am

'cause then you'll see my heart

in the saddest state it's ever been.


This is no place to try and live my life.

[Pre-Chorus]

Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it.

See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.

Stop right there. Well I never should have said

that it's the very moment that

I wish that I could take back.

[Chorus]

I'm sorry for the person I became.

I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.

I'm ready to try and never become that way again

'cause who I am hates who I've been.

Who I am hates who I've been.


I talk to absolutely no one.

Couldn't keep to myself enough.

And the things bottled inside have finally begun

to create so much pressure that I’ll soon blow up.


I heard the reverberating footsteps

sinking up to the beating of my heart,

and I was positive that unless I got myself together,

I would watch me fall apart.


And I can’t let that happen again

‘cause then you’ll see my heart

in the saddest state it’s ever been.


This is no place to try and live my life.

[Pre-Chorus x2]
[Chorus]


Who I am hates who I've been

and who I am won’t take the second chance you gave me.

Who I am hates who I’ve been

‘cause who I’ve been only ever made me...


So sorry for the person I became.

So sorry that it took so long for me to change.

I’m ready to try and never become that way again

‘cause who I am hates who I’ve been.

Who I am hates who I’ve been.

              

"i try to take one day at a time, but sometimes several days attack me at once."

-jennifer yane

that's about how this week is going to feel . . .

so .. last night I sent an emotional email to an acquaintance trying to sway her view of church, the establishment, and the importance of worship to grow in faith. unfortunately this is (as far as i can remember) the most intimately i have ever gotten to being a missionary for christ and it really got me fired up. i am so anxious to hear back from her and see what she thought of the words i sent. i hope they spoke to her heart because i know they came directly from mine.

at church service on sunday the message was "a life of thank you" ..

*be consistent in thanking GOD

*spend time in PRAYER thanking god for others.

*Be consistent in thanking OTHERS

  ..... I feel that my lack of want to show emotions towards others continually holds me back from offering gratitude and appreciation. dont get me wrong .. I AM soooo APPRECIATIVE of all that i have in my life. but, it is SO hard for me to express it. sometimes i feel like that puts me in a position for vulnerability.

I guess I have to accept the fact that being vulnerable is what places you at others level and allows you to truly open up and experience a relationship with others.

people are flawed .. they will let you down but luckily God is always there to lift you up. if you let him .. if you seek him.

-i want to work on my daily walk with Christ .. DAILY being the key word there. i need consistency in my faith. too many times i call on him in times of need, resist him in times of temptation and neglect him in times of joy.-

Ohhhh...pretty fire....But anyway...HELLO PHUSERS!!! I am HAPPY today! I don't know why exactly...but I am!! Yay! I guess it's cause I get to see one of my favorite actors(even though I have a lot of them) back on his show tonight! But I'd be a lot happier if 102.9's website would let me look up the songs I want to find....GRRRR....But no I'm going to be happy today..even if it kills me...(gulp) Maybe those weren't the best words to use...lol Just kiddin'...What else to write....I am happy because my friend Justin-the Hawaiian Batman bought me the Queen of the Damned dvd!!!! I've seen it a lot before, but now it's mine! I am so happy! Normally I would've just bought it myself, but my mom and my brother are always on my ass about stuff like that. They think that just because I watch a vampire movie I'm gonna' "become gothic/devil worshipper/spawn of satan(maybe that was a little much)". I wish they would just let me be, I'm almost 18 and they still pull that crap.What bugs me the most is the double standard...my brother sees a movie with topless girls and sex scenes out the whazoo...I see a movie with no nudity at all and I'm the one who they worry about? But anyway..I am happy with my new dvd! Thank you Justin!

I have a bullet with a name on it.
you might want to be a little worried.

What an eventful weekend!!

Have you ever wondered how you could make life better or yourself for that matter................I have been trying for the last 3 years to make myself better or just to feel better.I can't seem to find the person i want to be............I'm just lost in a dream that can't happen because thats not who i am. I want people to see me for me and no one does that i don't want to have to hide me past because i'm afraid that people will judge me for it. I guess i'm just tired of being me and not being able to be free.I could never be good enough i'm not that strong i'm not good enough for god or anyone.I have no one to trust anymore everyone has left me i can't talk about my pain because i'm supposed to be strong,strong for me and everyone else..............I just don't know what to do anymore i'm lost in a place that has it grip tight around me.and it seems i will never be free not even god can help me.......right?

ok, do you think its possible to create friendships through phusebox?  I mean i know you can meet new people but that doesn't mean that you automatically become friends with them.  If they leave you remarks, does that make them a friend? 

=)

New pic slide show and profile look on my myspace.... check it out.

www.myspace.com/red1027

-Jeff

photo from oosnake45
Take the time to examine yourself...
look in your own eyes...
Are you dead, or grown up?..
Are you truth or all lies?..
Do you live what you say?..
Do you give or you take?..
Do you hide away in darkness...
Or do you stand up for the days?..
Do you cry yourself to sleep?..
Or laugh away your sorrows?..
Do your wounds hide deep?...
Or lie in sight to be seen?..

We should live what we say,
We should shout and proclaim,
What we all know is right..
Though none feel the same...
We should share all our worth..
We should share all our souls...
We should hide behind nothing...
And fill our hearts' holes...

Take time to examine,
what you think is the truth...
Cause we all confuse judgment,
while young and in youth...But it won't be an excuse for
Our lives when we stand....
In front of our Savior,
When we lie in his hand...
He'll guide us through darkness,
If we give him our faith...
But until that time he watches...
Just lying in wait...

We should live what we say,
We should shout and proclaim,
What we all know is right..
Though none feel the same...
We should share all our worth..
We should share all our souls...
We should hide behind nothing...
And fill our hearts' holes...

There is a hippo in my head eating my hypothalamus.



yeah. exactly.
{nt}

walk the line is an amazing movie.

seriously.

amazing.

[and it takes a lot for a movie to thoroughly impress me...]

Had a little surreal moment.  I signed my first prints today.  A friend is decorating a doctors office ehere in the city and wanted to use some of my photos so she purchased the files from me and had them printed over the weekend. She brought them to church this morning so i could see what they look like and to sign them.  Had to quickly practice my signature.  Quit intimidating but very surreal... It make me crazy that my pictures will be in some random doctor's office.  Crazyness...

A song by me, as cheesy as it may be

Narcissistic, I find that
I'd rather be the odd man out
Than better than everyone else,
But that's not really true,
And solitude never rewards
Someone with genuine pride.

Everytime you said, "I love you,"
Brought me something special and new
But now that things have changed,
Girl, you feel so far away.
All I want to say is I miss you.

Guess I'm the one to blame,
After all, I made all of the mistakes,
In what I labeled a cheesy game.
Foolish pride, it seems, is the cause
Of all my unrealized dreams,
Now wanting what I can't have.

Everytime you said, "I love you,"

Brought me something special and new

But now that things have changed,

Girl, you feel so far away.

All I want to say is I miss you.

You said I owed you a song,
But selfishness gets in the way,
So all that I can say is I miss you.

wow...i dont think ive ever been that scared in my whole life. oh man.

OMG I haven't updated this thing is sooooo long... lol... well lets see how my life is going.... um AMAZING!!!... today is the last day of Spring Break....UGH!! but it was soo much fun!! I spent everyday with my baby!! almost 5 months... Omg you don't know how much I love him....to strong for words...anyways!

School is so blah... like always... its School... but seeing my friends everyday is amazing!! I have the best friend in the entire world!! I love them to death.....they are no where near as close as me and Leah... but they know alot about me....

I miss Tennessee and all my friends... but I am glad I am not there right now... I have heard alot about all the drama... and UGH...just take a deep breath...just relax...if people can't accept you for who you are... or whatever.. they aren't your real friends to begin with....I have learned that the hard... and it sucks...so ya... believe me...

Life is so amazing right know you have no Idea...school... my friends... the love of my life...just truely amazing....well I guess thats all....

LEAH MARIE I LOVE YOU AND I MISS YOU MOST OF ALL!!
I Love Nathan Hoxie....

This week:

1 mile run towmorrow
ACI Thursday  [[faints at the thought]]
APUSH quiz over 60 pages worth of reading on Thursday
Model of the Temple of Vesta due Friday in Latin

...Woah. Wait.  I just realized that we don't have to go back to class after ACI.... that means... NO QUIZ FOR SARAH!  WOOOOOOT.  But shhhhhh!  Don't tell Mr. Huffman.  He'll just make me take it on wednesday.  If he doesn't know, I can just "forget."

But hey! That one mile.  It's gonna kick.  my.  ass. 

me + running = no.

Just have to remind myself that on the other side of this week lies spring break!  Yessss.  And the week after that lies my berfday!  Heck yes.

I just have to survive this sucky ass week.

i am taking a poll:
do you think God still has prophets like in the bible or atleast something similar?

dont you just love those conversations that are so completly random?!  thats like my usual conversation with some people and theyre so much fun.  if you havnt had a conversation like this, you dont know what your missing.

well, i guess things arent really falling into place right now.  but i just got an awesome suggestion from an awesome girl.  my awesome friend, she is a girl, and yes, we are together, lol, left me an awesome comment.  dont let the small things get to you.  and i guess that is what has been happening lately.  just the smallest things have been getting to me, and they keep adding up.  and if i didnt let them get to me in the first place, then i wouldnt be annoyed by some things.  if that makes since.  now dont think i dont care about stuff that is going on.  that isnt it, i am just choosing to let it bounce right off of me.  im not going to waste my time, being worried or annoyed by things.  i cant be worrying about WORLDLY THINGS.  this last week before i go to mexico is going to be a challenge.  and i dont want to be overcome, or defeated by something, just because i am annoyed or something.  over the smallest thing.  this week im ganna let God get to me.  i want him to get to me sooooooo bad, that it would become annoying.  i dont think that would happen, but i do want him to just overwhelm me with things.  anything!  so yea, i guess thats about it.  thanks kristen for that awesome advice.  ooooooo yea

redlight*

So Tyler came to see Macbeth with me. They did really well, and were very good actors. The guy who played Macbeth was super.

We then went to eat Japanese food. I also taught him the ways of chopsticks. We split a bento box with lots of stuff in it. He said he didn't trust me at first, but really enjoying it. We also had like eight california rolls. Sr. Dan should be proud.

and i've contrived some sort of a plan to help my fellow man
let's get emotional girls to all wear mood rings
so we'll be tipped off to when they're ticked off
cause we'll know just what they're thinking
cause what they're thinking...

she's so pretty but she but doesn't always act that way
her mood's out swinging on the swing set almost every day
she said to me that she's so stressed out that it's soothing
and all i said was "someone get that girl a mood ring"

cause when it's black (it) means watch your back because you're probably
the last person in the world right now she wants to see
and when it's blue it means that you should call her up immediately
and ask her out because she'll most likely agree
and when it's green it simply means that she is really stressed
and when it's clear it means she's completely emotionless (and that's all right i must confess)

we all know the girls that i am talking about
she liked you wednesday but now it's friday and she has to wash her hair
and it just figures that we'll never figure them out
first she's jekyll and then she's hyde....at least she makes a lovely pair

mood ring oh mood ring
oh tell me will you bring
the key to unlock this mystery
of girls and their emotions
play it back in slow motion
so i may understand the complex infrastructure known as the female mind

ok so it's a the majority of a relient k song....... but hey.... check out the pics from this weekend!

Here is one of the skits I wrote for Celebration of the arts. Enjoy:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TYpBd-F1Aa8

The other skit should be coming very soon.

FM Static "Hold Me Twice"

I saw you in the hallway,
I bet that's what they all say,
You probably didnt even notice
I was the loser,
Who was starin at my shoes 'n'
Couldn't think of nothin' to say.
I'm on the runway,
Of a flight thats going one way,
On "cross your finger" airlines.
I'm picking up pace
I'm gettin' nervous in the worst way, here goes nothing

I saw her walkin' over,
She's slowly movin' closer,
Wrote her a letter about a week ago and, to my surprise
She replied and said:

You can hold me once, You can hold me twice,
Even better if the stars are good tonight.
You can hold me, be my one and only,
This is the reply to the letter you wrote me.

You told me to meet you after gym class,
But I forgot to get a hall pass,
And got sent to the office.
You tried to call me,
Asked everyone around who saw me,
They didnt even notice.
You're on your way now,
Movin' with your parents to some hick town,
A thousand miles away.
I'm in the playground,
And there's so much I could say now,
I still remember when...

(Chorus)

I'ts been awhile since we said "hi",
Three hundred and sixty five days have gone by now,
And I could paint of picture of you.
I see you everytime I pass your locker,
Remember the time we talked 'til six a.m.
And I'm tired of missing you
Six a.m. and I'm tired of missing you

I was told this today.

so ive come to a desicion....i cant spell that ord so shush

haha

should i ....

cut my hair....

or...

not

hm? commentS? oppinions?

id love to hear them

<33

You are bread where there is hunger
In the desert You are thunder
You are all we need, all we need
You are peace where men would riot
In the turmoil there is quiet
You are all we need, all we need

I want the world to know
There is one shining hope
I want the world to know You

To the broken You bring healing
To the heart of stone revealing
You are all we need, all we need
You are friendship to the lonely
The forever one and only
You are all we need, all we need

I want the world to know
The story must be told
I want the world to know the Truth
I want the world to know
There is one shining hope
I want the world to know You

You are love where there is hatred
You are life and You are sacred
You are all we need, all we need

I want the world to know
The story must be told
I want the world to know the Truth
I want the world to know
There is one shining hope
I want the world to know You



so God showed me the theme song for my Northern Ireland mission trip today in the service..

only 5 days away!!!



i'm so busy..

and such a mess.

meet josh. [please excuse the look on my face. i was being dumb]

this is the boy.
yeah. :-).
he makes me happy.

thought i'd post a picture.
just because. i can.
that's right.

♥♥♥♥

ok so i went to work saturday intending to quit and i kid you not my manager said no ben i will not let you quit. i said ok well for like 3 weeks in a row i may not be able to work and she said ok thats fine. so anyways if people heard i was quiting i was but i am not allowed to. haha.
Ben

p.s. thanks for the encouragement on my foot and running i feel 100% and should get to play tuesday evening at white county i know its a good drive there so i won't expect a big crowd to see me tear it up but i will let you know how it went on here.

Andrew and I are engaged! Planning to have the wedding this fall.

That's the most exciting thing in my life right now, and it's more than enough.

There's a man sitting behind me, and I think I love him. Pretty damn sure I do.

... i never thought it'd happen.

i went to Riverdale's play today. it was so-so. it was presented well. just... not the best choice. i think.

but i enjoyed it anyway.

and Andrew and Carly and i goofed off... and that was fun.

and hearts semicolon

this made me laugh today...



it said Brad Pitt... couldn't they have listed Pittsburgh first and Bradley second?

and my other fun photo of the day



this is the happiest kid i know! not to mention that he's really cute.

how do you catch a cloud and pin it down?

It really sucks that unc got beat now I have nothing to do....

so...yeah.

Hanna: If you add an O at the end, then it's masculine. If you add an A at the end, then it's feminine. Get it?

Me: OHHHHH. I get it, so it's like senorita and senorito?

Hanna: ....Oh god, Jenny. *laughs uncontrollably*

so.
for some reason,
when i'm in the mood i am now...

i like to make myself miserable.
i like to make myself sick.
i shut myself down from the world.
i isolate myself.
i cry.
i get lazy, and i don't want to do anything.
all i want to do is sleep.
i don't let people help me.
i become mean.
i become a pessimist.
i find something to be unhappy about.

and the sad thing is..
is that as much as i don't want to do these things,
i won't let myself NOT do these things.

i don't understand myself.
but i'm hurt.
and as of now, thats all i know.

i need a change.
i need something that will bring me happiness.

So I come home from work at 3:30pm yesterday and I see this amazing '62 inch TV in my living room. Its pretty sweet. I guess we are getting rid of the old one.

when you try your best
but you don't succeed.

when you get what you want,
but not what you need.

when you feel so tired but you can't sleep.

stuck in reverse.
and the tears come streaming down your face.
when you lose something you can't replace.
when you like someone but it goes to waste.
could it be worse?

so.
i feel like LIFE itself is going downhill for me.

i don't understand anything anymore.

and nothing makes sense anymore.

so, what's my purpose?

i was thinkin about life. just life in general. and i realized that people to often take it for granted. i always here people sayin how there life sucks or how they wish they were someone else. but my question is ...why? i mean if your life doesnt seem all that it could be why just sit around and complain about it. why not get out there and start makin it something worth while. dont just sit and watch your life go by. jump in.

Hey there!! Well today was my 19th b-day...I know I'm getting old...well my day was good I spent it with one of my best friends and my family. I've never felt so many emotions at once as I have today. I almost cried, screamed all that naughty words I could think of, laugh my butt off and cry at the same time...depressed....but over all my b-day was awesome! I got alot of cards, a troll pin (LONG story), Jack Johnson cd, a BIG balloon, playdough, dozen roses(LONG and CREEPY story), lots of stuff for my ipod, SunnyD, and a BUTT load of gum, money, giftcard for itunes.....sigh.....good times

simply amazing

ummm...... im not really sure what is going on.  im all good, but it seems like no one thinks so.  i dont think anything is wrong.  wow, actually im great.  i hope everyone had an awesome night.  ill cya at church tomorrow. peace

work BLOWED... i got hit on twice and some creepy old dirty mexicans were checkin me out... they prolly woulda hit on me too if the could speak english... oh well... this weekend was pretty lame but at least i wasnt doing n e thing totaly boring... i have to work on monday... i have detention on tuesday haircut on wednesday... ACI and i have to work thursday and Britt is cummin over friday... so i have a fun week ahead of me YAY... hmmm well i better get off here i wanna go call jon b-4 he goes to sleep on me... much love!
~tRISH

Someone call 911 the Preds murdered the Flames!!!!
So tonight we went to see the Predators play the Flames. It was a back and forth game but in the second period the Preds brought hell upon theFlames and destroyed them. The Flames are going to need an ambulance to take them back to Calgary tonight. Almost every Predator scored tonight. New Predator this year paul Kariya scored 2 goals to help the Preds to a 9-4 victory over a #3 ranked team. He proves over and over how valuble he is to the team. Stanley Cup here we come!!!!!!

... so i've done a little self-exploring... and i don't like what i see... or what i think i see.. im sure.. im full of flaws...

im foolish
im selfish
im insecure
im fat
im a giant
im abusive
im inconciderate
im ugly
im a horrible girlfriend
im nasty
im stupid
im evil
im lazy
im annoying
im a bitch
im a drama queen
im moody
im a failure
im outspoken
im disrespectful
im ignorant
im insensitive
im plain
im a disappointment

...im never good enough...

    death is such an ironic situation
if you know whe re you are going its quite a nice thing but God puts that will to live in us and keep going even though we know we could have so much better and not have to deal with the problems of this world.

I just wrote a really good yet confusing xanga entry for anyone who wants to read it.  In other news, I got my scholarship stuff back from UTC for anyone who cares.  They are giving my $700 a semester.  I hope that's really good but I'm gonna ask Mr. Lawson and Mrs. Hahn and see what they say.  Well I guess that's it.  I just felt like writing my more deep thoughts on my xanga. 

               So today was so much fun. I went to Chattanooga as youth staff on a trip to the aquarium. Despite my misunderstanding as to when exactly I was supposed to be at the church, thus almost missing the trip, it was a great day. It was fun to be able to hang out with these teens because many of them I haven't ever really had a chance to talk to. We had a great time and no one was killed. I think they had more energy than I have in a week. I guess I should sleep well tonight then. God is gracious. Through everything I mess up, He still shows me that He can use me. I am so greatful for the opportunities He gives to serve Him. Though I don't feel like I actually helped a whole lot today, it was cool to see the way God is drawing this group together.

God is AWESOME!!!

yeah, so i just got back from the yaws thing at oakland. the skits were cheesy but they were fun. i guess...

i really wanna do drama next year. and art. and photography. and....well, there's just not enough time in high school to do everything i want to.

but anyway, things are going pretty great lately. i don't even miss him at all anymore. lately i have noticed what nincompoops guys are and who really needs them anyway, but apparently we do because i've got my eye on a couple and if you haven't noticed who yet then you are just either really stupid or don't spend much time around me.

you know, only lately have i stepped back and enjoyed high school. the first half was fun, don't get me wrong, just not like it is now.

i always took time out to do stuff with him, but he would always back out at the last minute saying he had to go to his mom's and other various bullshit.

i'm just glad i didn't waste more time than i did.

never again will i be so blind as to allow a guy to blow me off and waste my time.

i won't take anymore bullshit.

but despite everything, i look around and i really truly realize that i've never been happier...

so far this weekend has been pretty amazing!

pretty sure last night(fri) met a pretty awesome guy and then after that went and hung out with Edi, Cory and Leslie and that was fun as well.

and today not to much has happened except for the fact that i have practice today from 9 to 6 and then i had to go start to babysitting but hey it's all good it was fun and i had a blast.

hey lets see what tomorrow brings right....im kinda looking forward to it.

Thought I would try this out... Things are surprisingly going smoothly so far... Spring Break is coming up. How exciting. oh well. Got some things to do

I discovered today that USA Today picked up the article from the Teneesean that featured PodPoint.

Check it out.

On a similar note, if you are a part of a church or ministry that would like to podcast your weekly gatherings or just make them available online, let me know... or send them over to PodPoint.net.

{nt}

i'm thankful that i can put headphones in and turn my music up and drown it all out...
                        and for those moments....
                                                        
                                            I
                                                PRAISE
                                                           God for iPods



... that and chocolate milk

yesterday, oh man, I had fun.
me, rachel j, rachel h, dillon, patton, and kyle
all went to go see she's the man.
hilar-ious movie
I saw hunter davis, jonathan day, ste, abby-dee,
carrie, lauren and richard, amber, aubrey and more people
all in like a two hour period.
I got to see my patton :)
after like a billion months, lol
and I met kyle for the first time
but he's a cool kidd.
we went to the movies at 7 but the ticket were sold out
so we hung out at the mall til like 9
and then we watched the 9:30 movie.
we had to take everyone home so I didnt get home til like 1
craziness
but I had lots of fun.

today, I had this, ahahaha math contest
yes, I was doing it for mrs snell
because I really needed the extra credit.
but it was okay
and I found out, I'm smart lol

yesterday I also realized,
no matter what, I need to smile
because there was a lot of drama in 1st period
about the smallest things
and I dont want stuff like that to get to me
it'll add more stress to me.
which, everything is getting better stress wise
maybe not the eating habit wise..
it'll get better though, if I want it to

so. life is pretty is good. about to go Celebration of the Arts @ Oakland. today was also the math competition (yeah, that's how i roll...) and it made me feel like an idiot. like, i get algebra and all, but dude, i seriously don't get that algebra. w/e. i had an ok time. i saw Stephen Diaz, whom i used to talk to all the time about 3 years ago. wow. he had no idea who i was. kinda weird. anyways, so yeah. i had a really weird dream, and i woke up, thought it was real and was really happy, and then realized it wasn't, and was kinda sad. w/e. i'm weird these days. watched Orange County a little while ago. good movie. Colin Hanks reminds me of William West. ha. so yeah, Ms. Hebden is definitely my favorite teacher. she is so nice, and she said some really nice things about me to my mom. word up. oh well. tomorrow is church, and DBS, and the a Mexico meeting. I'm leaving on Friday! ...no wait...Saturday! i also realized that i have to make 4 flights in all...poop. i'mma hafta take some heavy sedatives. j/k. well, i gotta go. much love to you all. ----Cari

pretty sure i just watched v for vendetta. it was freaking amazing. easily the best movie i've seen in a very long time.

"Disdaining fortune with his brandished steel
Which smoked with bloody execution"

"Beneath this mask there is more than flesh. There is an idea, Mr. Creedy, and ideas are bulletproof."

ok well!! its been a couple of weeks since i have posted and my life has gone from being one big train wreck to having a new cousin to being busy to here. but hey its been all good. so tonight i am home alone trying to learn some new tunes for one club and all. so yea! hope you all are having an awesome weekend! here are some new pictures of my new 'cuz!!

LATER- hambone

the windy city was nice...but we spent way to much time in the museum.

hey just got back from my orienteering competition

this is the first year more than one team in the whole competition has gotten a perfect score

this year there were at least 5 teams with prefect scores

don't know what our score was i'll find out on monday

but running around the woods for an hour and 45 mins was great

in a lonely way , very content with life. 

peace ,

AND WHO'S IN THE FINAL FIVE FOR CELLPHONE SUPERSTAR!?!?!?!?!

OOO ME!! MEE!!!

wow God really works in mysterious ways! i have this person i know hwo has gone through a LOT of stuff lately and was NEVER happy always being negative and she called me and said...

julie anne..why am i happy?? i prayed and asked God to show me that everything will be ok and a few days later...im fine...i dont get it..i didn't act any diffrent than i usually do!

i said well thats God trying to work His way into your life to show you there is hope for a better future!

Now i know God is real and believe in Him Strongly but just a small example of God working in someone's life!

i hope yall have a great day!

<33 in God's love!

julie anne

Wow, so much has happened. I am no longer at Oakland. I am building a custom street racer from the ground up. I sleep in every day but am still so tired. I can't get enough sleep. I have finally rid myself of the craving for a female companion. It feels great to have that burden lifted from my shoulders. I am free.....

"We don't rebel to sell, it just suits us well."

"Haters call me bitch
Call me faggot call me whitey
But I am something that you'll never be"

"You drained my heart
And made a spade"

I hate being bored! It's of the devil.

~!~Friends will think your fine but best friends can tell that something is seriously wrong through that big smile...~!~

"i dont know why im feeling sorry for myself...i spend all my time wishin that i was someone else..."-girl next door, by saving jane

we get into the biggest fights with the ones that we care for... because those are ones that you're willing to fight for!

It's the days like these... where we sit around and do nothing... the moments we laugh so hard we cry... the way we look at each other and know exactly whats going through our minds.. it's the stupid things, the inside jokes... that's the reason why we're [[ i n s e p e r e b l e ]]

Pride can stand a thousand trials The strong will never fall But watching stars without you My soul cries [kissing you}{romeo&juliet sondtrack]

**she is the prom queen...im in the marching band...she is a cheerleader..im sittin in the stands...i get a little bit...she get's a little more...she's miss america...im just the girl next door** girl next door-saving jane

Hey guys

Well my life has totally turned upside down. I mean when I thought everything was just going fine and then something hits me and BAM everything goes upside down.Its like I'm in another world or something . I don't knwo what to do, I guess this is gods way of saying that I need to stop focusing on other things and focus on school and life in general. But like my  brother said I just need to relax or I just  might fall into something worse then what I think is bad now.  ttyl guys God Bless

* TRUST HIM*

I finally snuck out of my house last night.
Yeah, I felt pretty cool...
Opened the window, hopped onto the trash can, climbed down the fence.
Made me feel very much like a ninja.
Was never known I left my house... Damn, Im good :}

Well, I don't really have anything else all that interesting to say right now, but this is one thing I guess:  I am obsessed with Blindside.
I might have posted about them in the past, but a while ago I discovered that they were Christian.  After that, I very quickly bought all three of their cds ( after their three.... lack luster.. independent albums )
Silence is an amazing cd.
About a burning fire is an amazing cd.
The great depression is a great cd.
The thing I love about them, is, duh, their sound, but if you just read their lyrics, they are amazing poets.  The spiritual message behind every one of their songs is.. you'd just have to read them.   Go to google and type in blindside lyrics.  About time someone didn't just give you the link.  Get some internet savvy. 
So yeah, this post wasn't really all that.. meaningful, but um, I Love Blindside!

so pretty sure some kids got in trouble for their phuseboxes yesterday. *tisk tisk* at least if youre going to threaten someone, dont write it down.

phusebox blows like a bulimic (after thanksgiving dinner)..i dont even know why i have one.

I never update this thing....

www.myspace.com/sandthruthe_hourlgass

Thats mine. Go to it. Add me. <3 ^^

hey! well i am new to this to so leave messages or whatever! i love you!

<33

julie anne

Harrison's rather sick. Bad.
So sick, he's waking up at night for hours at a time, screaming.  Very Bad.
I'm craving junk food.  Bad.
My tummy's getting bigger.  Good.
Jeremy says we need to take a picture soon.  ?Eh?

I Love you!!!!!!

LAST NIGHT:

ste was on his period
we wanted a baby
carly got grounded
i tried on a dress
ate chinese food with amber and linz
target
ste and i were winey
so we went to Hastings and looked at gay books.
and FRUITS 2
he read disco bloodbath outloud to me
got some cds from a kid my mom goes to school with

he's hella cute.

it's saturday.

abbyDee

Would anyone be interested in seeing Pirates on the Penzance at Riverdale? I feel like I owe it to my old buddies, especially since I missed the play from last semester. If you're interested, leave me a remark, and I'll send you a message or make another post about meeting, or you can call me. Or if it's too short of notice, maybe a group of us can plan for next weekend...