I have been sick this week,
it's almost over though=)
&& toinght the boys are goin to state..
Yessuh...SIEGEL NATION BABY!!

I just made up the Peanut butter and sprinkle sandwich.
i'm in love with it!!!!!!!!
oh yeahhhh

What's been up;;
I got asked to prom, it's still a maybe.
I'm a vegetaria now for a month.
I'm failing Geometry.
I'm singing at church tonight.
Chelsey has my pants.
I'm tryin out for colorgaurd.
&& Tomorrow is St. Patrick's Day.

but yeah..
i'm off to play some volleyball.
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1. Your real name: Sarah

2. friends call you: Sarah Sunshine

3 What your boyfriend calls you: Don't have one

4 What's a name you once wished you'd rather have?: Aroura

5. What is/are the ugliest name(s) you can think of?: Bertha

6. What would you name these if you had them as pets?

a. turtle: Franklin

b. goose: Lucy

c. pirate: George

d. a hot boy: Riley

7. If there was a song about you, what would it be called?: Sarah:you light up my life...hahahaha

8. What would you name your kids?: Aroura,Riley,Brooklyn,Phoenix

9. What would you name a ship you built?: I'd have to ask it.

10. If you wrote a book, what would it be called?: naked:under her clothes, a biography


Have you ever...


11. Thrown up in public?: yes.

12. Eaten or drank anything spoiled?: yes..ewww

13. Had a rip in your pants you didn't know about? oh yes

14. Tripped while checking someone out?: haha yes

15. Had to pay for something you broke?: no

16. Nearly drowned?: yep

17. Passed out?: yes

18. Had a crush on somebody: yeah

19. Been stuck in the rain?: yeah

20. Been attacked by an animal?: yes;last weekend actually

21. Caught people having sex?: yeah..ugh memories

22. Fallen asleep while driving?: no way

23. Felt attracted to someone of the same sex?: no

24. Actually slipped on a banana peel?: nope

25. Made a wish that came true?: yup


Complete The Sentence


26. I once had a dream... I was forced to eat meat.

27. I'm only racist towards... the racist

28. I don't even know why I'm... so lame

29. I'd give anything to have sex with....your mom...not really; she's not my type=) haha

30. Nothing sucks more than having to...sit in geometry

31. If I had six bucks i'd buy... INVEST!

32. It's hot. I should take off my...plastic underwear

33. It's always more fun if you... do it naked.

34. You can't eat steak without... making it out of vegtables

35. You better shut up before I... force live lobsters in your mouth

36. I really like you and everything but... your brother is hotter=)

wow march 15,2006... what a great day! i will never forget it!

so i guess Milwaukee is doing pretty good...

ahaha ben ben ben! we have electricity between us lol! ur a pretty awesome person!

have a great day!

hmm ..

schools a bore

rents mite know bout him =[

not good

gotta lie low for a while

this weekend ;;

gotta spend time with family

rather go to

my friends birthday party

but i cant go =[

gonna cause more questions bout him =[

everything starting to fuck up once again

why cant i just be happy for once in life ??

was i not suppose to be here?

why am i being punished for everything ?

why am i always doing the wrong thing?

when i do something right why doesnt anyone care?

i just want to get away from all the bullshit life gives you

but whats the point of running

gotta face my problems eventually

i just dont know what to do anymore

i dont want things to turn out like last time ]=

so many people are gonna say they can help ;;

but they really cant ;;

they dont know half of the shit i have to go through everyday ;;

most people think i can go out all the time ;;

not true ;;

most people think i never get in trouble ;;

not true ;;

most people think my parents trust me ;;

definatly not true ;;

it seems like i get everything i want ;;

but i have to work for it ;;

and most people dont realize it ;;

alot of people just think im this rich asian girl who gets everything she wants ;;

just because my parents work at nissan ;;

and that i live in a nice neighborohood ;;

yes i do have my own car thats brand new ;;

yes i do have a mp3 player ;;

yes i do have a computer  and the internet ;;

yes i do have a digital camera ;;

yes i do have my own room ;;

but i work my ass off for all the shit i get ;;

and i want people to realize that ;;

sometimes i dont know why i even bother to explain myself ;;

its not like anyone cares =[ ;;

i should just dissappear ;;

its not like anyone's gonna miss me ......

the world is doomed
b/c i made
kaylah: the leader of the armed force
kaci: Leader of the prison
kay:the tresure
ashley:: the vis-president
and me of corse the the president

praise God for answered prayers..!

I MADE GOVERNORS SCHOOL.


AHHH.

im going to the 2006 Governors School For the Arts...:-) :-) :-)
-kels

The GWU letter of either acceptance or denial comes soon.  They said "middle of March," and considering that this is quite literally the middle of March, I can only anticipate the mailman's arrival.

"I hate waiting."

Argargargargarg.  *Shreds furniture*

So I've suddenly become very interested in runes.  This is due largely to the fact that Odin/All-Father/What-Have-You is a major player in my latest read American Gods.  It's some pretty cool stuff.  You get to say/write "wyrd."  Which is always fun.  {It's a much cooler predecessor of "weird."}  Wyrd-wyrd-wyrd.

Random Quotage:
Marriage is finding that one special person that you want to annoy for the rest of your life.

A tes souhaits et tes amours.

Aslan got here a  week ago today! I can't believe it's already been a week! March 9, 2006 at 11:29pm Rachel and I's precious son, Clint  Aslan Nadeau was born! Aslan, tipped the scales at 8 pounds, 4.5 ounces, and 20 inches. The delivery wasn't an easy one. Dr. Swan had to delivery Aslan by way of forceps (they resemble salad tongs) because he turned face up instead of face down. So that's why Aslan's left eye was swollen shut. Aslan's eye has since returned to normal and the brusie is almost gone. I will continue updating pictures of him. I have had the flu the past few days and class so I have been extremely busy and sick. Please continue to ask God to give Rachel and I the wisdom to raise Aslan. It has been so neat to see Rachel with Aslan. It is beautiful to see her talk to Aslan and do all the Mommy things with him. I am so in love with my precious son, Aslan. Aslan is so dependent on Rachel and I. For everything! God has taught me that my relationship with Him is to continue to be like that. No matter how old and independent and self-sufficent I become in life that I am still to rely on His guidence, His Word, and His fellowship to live. I am in awe of God. This experience of watching Aslan come into the world has changed my life. I praise God that He has blessed Rachel and I with this opportunity to raise Aslan for His glory. This whole thing has made me fall in love with God in a way that I can't describe. He has entrusted Rachel and I to raise Aslan according to His Word and Truth. I am so humbled and honored.

To all the single parent teenagers,
To the kids who go to bed every night without the love from both parents,
To the Moms who struggle to make ends meet. Who cry themselves to sleep overwhelmed,
To the Dads who try as hard as they can to provide and yet feel as though they never connect with they're child,
For all the tears my brother and sister and I cried,
To the insecurity that overtook us,
The insanity that was more consistant than security,
For all those nights where you couldn't close your eyes to sleep because you wondered when Mom was coming home,
I promise to be the Father I never had for the glory of Jesus Christ and for you.

On behalf of my God and life Jesus Christ, I surrender to You, depending on You to raise Aslan so that I might not repeat the mistakes that my parents made. Grant Rachel and I, your servants, the strength and wisdom to guide Aslan to Your cross. May you call Aslan's name to salvation according to Your will, so that He would bring glory to Your name.

And you who read this, no matter if your from a broken home or not
ask God to give you His strength to raise your future children for God's glory. Be there for your kids. Emotionally and physically. Always love them. Lavish them more with affection then material goods. Want more to provide for them then for selfish gain. No matter what, seek God, who is the giver of all things, at all costs.

hello (again), i'm in computer class(again) and i really enjoy going online (again) why am i saying again so much, i don't know (again)well, anyway , Mr. VanderWould isn't in here, so i can type as much as i want hahahahhahahahahhahahah, oh he's back. gtg bye.

HAHAHAH I SNUCK ON DURING ENGLISH GO ME HAHAHAH OK IM BORED LOL

walking with my feet 10 feet off of beale . . .

yeah . . . this afternoon i am leaving with my father for memphis. i shall return friday afternoon/evening.

so . . .

if i don't get a chance to talk to you tomorrow . . .

top o' the mornin' to ye, and a happy saint patty's day!

i feel better today.

when you haven't got a prayer . . .

boy, you got a prayer in memphis.

Whats Up Phusebox? Me, Nothing Much Just Chillin In 4th Period... Man Its Good To Be Back In Class Because For The Last 2 Days I Had ISS And That Teacher Was Evil... I Mean Very Mean... Anyways, Im Out And Ive Found A Prom Date!?! I Finally Got One And Ive Got A New Girlfriend... Thank You Lord, You Have Sent One Of Your Beautiful Angels To Love Me... I Love You Father... In Jesus Name AMEN!!! Im Trying To See Her Today But If I Dont See Her Today Then I'll See Her Saturday At Her Family & Friends Day Thing That She Invited me To Come To... And I Made The Track Team!!! Man I Must Have Good Luck Huh? We Have A Game Friday @ Riverdale And We Gonna Show Everybody That We Run It!!! Like I Said On My Title, Siegel... Stand UP!!! Im Supposed To Go To Church Today, Then Again Im Supposed To Meet Up With My Girlfriend So I'll Have To See Which One That Ima Do... And I Need $40 For My Track Shoes... Man, I Gotta Get That Money, Hopefully There Is A 60% Chance That I Will So Im Not Worrying... Well, I Gotta Go I'll Write Again Soon Because I Dont Want My Teacher To Catch Me And Start Trippin So See-Ya...

so....I GET TO SEE MY ERIN TOMMORROW!!!!!  we're just a bit excited. 

                       
She's so cute!!

"Lie to me!
Tell me that I've been sick forever... it will make since when i get better"

Charles Manson is one of the world's most notorious serial killers. He is best known for the Tate-LaBianca murders, although there were others. The story behind this is a strange one. It goes deep into one mans sick and twisted mind, that was determined to make his odd fantasy world a reality. Beware, for this tale is not for the weak at heart. The beginning of this story starts with a simple cult known as 'The Manson Family'.

A man with name of Charles Manson created the Manson Family in 1967. He had a great technique with women and would make everyone feel loved. Two of his first members were Fromme and Krenwinkel (Burns 1). Fromme was the most loyal to Manson and became his main girl. . She joined The Family at the age of 18 after her father threw her out of the house (1). Krenwinkel was a 21-year-old collage dropout and was living with her sister. She depended on her sister for diet pills because she was overweight due to a medical condition. She met Manson at a friend's house and devoted her life to him after he called her pretty and lavished her in compliments (1). As time passed The Family continued to grow. The strange thing about a majority of the young people whom became involved with the family is that they used to be pretty good kids. Tex was a track star, played basketball and football, and always got straight A's. Leslie was homecoming princess. Patricia had wanted to become a nun (Jicha). Then they got mixed up with Manson.

People always say if these young people were so great and smart, why in the world did they get mixed up with Manson? There are many answers to this including problems at home and low self-esteem, but one of the major ones is he was a very hypnotic and persuasive speaker. He demonstrated this when two reporters, one male one female, interviewed him one day (Burns 1).

At first he ignored the female, but as the interview progressed he slowly paid her compliments and would rub her shoulders (1), this continued for most of the interview. Then suddenly, he grabbed the cord with which the tape recorder was connected and wrapped it around her throat (1), causing her to fear for her life. As he was taken away, he said while laughing that that is one of the reasons that she shouldn't just trust anybody.

Another one of the main reasons is that he believed that he was Jesus Christ reincarnate. He would ask his followers if they would die for him. If one of them started to argue and fight or disagree with him, he would say, do you know whom I am (1)? This, of course, was implying that he was their messiah and they should not, therefore, be arguing with him because he knew what was best for them.

The Family lived like children of nature. They walked around bare foot, ate from the garbage, and danced and sang to the songs that Charles wrote. He made it a requirement for both men and women to have sex with him. He had nude women serve him. Women were generally naked, and men were held in high regard merely because they were men.

Manson was a huge Beatles fan. It was one of their songs from their The White album that inspired Helter Skelter (Layman 296-297). Manson believed that they were communicating telepathically with him through their music and that they were telling him that he needed to start a racial war (296). In order to do this he decided to murder wealthy white people and blame it on a black political party known as The Black Panthers. After being falsely accused the blacks would rise up and kill almost all of the whites. They would then go find The Family, who would be in a safe place in the desert, so that they could start a new race (296).

The chosen victims were Sharon Tate, Jay Sebring, Voytek Frykowski, and Abigail Folger (Koopmans 53). Also killed at the Tate residence were the grounds keeper William Garretson and his friend Steve Parent (56). Also killed were Leno LaBianca and his wife Rosemary (56) They owned a small ring of grocery stores and were chosen merely because they had money, not as much as Tate and friends, but enough to subject them to a violent death at the hands of a select few of The Family.

These killings caused widespread panic. Movie stars and celebrities started buying up all means of security that they could get their hands on (Steffens, Bradley, and Staples 18). Soon rumors started to fly that a celebrity hit list had been formed.

On the morning of August 9, 1969 there was a horrific discovery (Burns 1). The mangled and bloodied bodies of Sharon Tate and her friends and groundskeeper were found by the maid. She was so horrified about what she had seen that she could barely gasp out " blood….bodies…death", as she ran frantically for help (1). Later they found the LaBiancas, whose bodies were also mangled.

The police working on the case did not believe them to be related. Even after a young boy found the gun used at the murders they didn't compare it to the evidence because it was found so far away from the crime scene (Steffens, Bradley, and Staples 47-48). Another thing that hindered the investigation was that the two police forces working on the cases refused to work together because they were so competitive (22-23). They were also delayed because of their short sightedness and inflexibility. When they finally made the connection it was only a matter of time before they went after The Family.

Manson and The Family fled to Barker Ranch in early September of '69 (Koopmans 62). They were no longer the harmonious group that they had started out as, now they were tense and nervous. Manson was going around telling everyone to fight to the death if necessary before they would allow themselves to be taken by the cops. These conditions, along with the rumors that The Family was involved in murder, caused many people to run away from the Family. Two young girls, both pregnant, ran away and found the police who were on their way to Barker Ranch to arrest the Family before the armed search party that Manson had sent after them did (24).

Police found Manson hiding in a small bathroom cabinet in one of the ranch buildings and arrested 24 Family members (63). They were taken to Inyo County Jail where they were held for many things including grand theft auto, arson, and illegal firearm possession (63). Manson was booked under the alias of Jesus Christ.

The trial was the longest running trial at the time. It lasted 9 ½ months and most of the prosecutions testimony came from members of The Family in exchange for a more lenient sentence (Layman 297). They used the testimony of some members from the gang Straight Satan, who said that some Family members had bragged about killing five piggies and said that Manson had asked how to decompose a body( Lindner). The most incriminating evidence came from what Susan Atkins had told her jail mate Virginia.

Susan had been saying all sorts of stuff about a guy named Charles and how she knew all about the Tate-LaBianca murders and Virginia listened uneasily as Susan proceeded to describe the horrific events. "Sharon was the last to die", said Susan laughing. Susan held Sharon's arms behind her back while she pleaded not only for her life but for that of her unborn child. Susan looked her in the eye and said "Look I don't care about you. I don't care if you're having a baby. You'd better be ready. You're going to die and I don't care." (64).

Afterward she killed her she tasted the blood on her finger and said that she liked it. She said that she had wanted to cut out the baby and mutilate it and the people but there hadn't been enough time(64). When Virginia asked how she felt afterwards, she said happy. She also told of how Krenwinkel stabbed Folger 28 times, she had stabbed Leno 26 times and carved war on his stomach while thinking, 'this is one man who won't send his son to war' (Burns 1). She also told her that they had planned to kill Elizabeth Taylor, Richard Burton, Tom Jones, Steve McQueen, and Frank Sinatra (Lindner). Virginia told the guards but they didn't listen so she called the hotline and told them everything that she had heard (Steffens, Bradley, and Staples 34).

Manson refused to testify before a jury and tried to control the courtroom (1). People argued that his followers shouldn't be held responsible because Manson had so much control over them. (Steffens, Bradley, and Staples 42). The prosecution argued that they did it out of love (Karisa 1). During the trial Patricia Krenwinkel, Susan Atkins, and Linda Kasabian visited, chanted, giggled, and sang loudly (Burns 1). The Manson Family tattoed X's on their heads saying they had X'd themselves from the world. Fromme took over the group after Manson was incarcerated and continued to take his orders. They were given a death sentence that was later reversed to a life sentence (1).

Manson is currently living comfortably in Corcoran State Prison. He receives 60,000 pieces of mail a year which is more than any other prisoner on record. He was up for parole in 2002 but was denied. He will be up for parole yet again in the year 2007. He will presumably be denied again, which is more than he deserves. As the years pass, people still remember the tragedy the cut these young peoples lives so short. These young people had much potential and thanks to the Manson Family we will never know what they were capable of.

Works cited

Burns, Kari. “True Crime Book: Charles Manson and Family.” Kari and Associates. 1994-2005. http://www.karisable.com/skazmanson.htm (1 Mar. 2006).

Jicha, Tom. “CBS unveils a sadistic new Manson Family portrait.” South Florida Sun Sentenial. 13 May 2004. 2 Mar. 2006. <http.//access.gale.com/tel1/>

Koopmans, Andy. Charles Manson. Detroit: Lucent Books 2005.

Ok this really stinks.  I have waited nearly two years to get to play softball at church.  And now we are finally getting a team back together.  But the problem is that I have a dislocated shoulder that needs surgery.  All my waiting was for nothing.  But there's always next year...right?  We do have a fall league though, co-ed ball.  But I should be ready by then, unless I am playing football....I am going to atleast help out with the team.  Still show up to practice and stuff like that.  But yeah, I won't get to PLAY!!!!  I wanted to play so bad too.  GRRRR!!ARRR!!!

So hows everyone?so last night at church we were talkin about different religons and my youth pastor said something that made me think he said you need to figure out who you are..........and i thought about it and was like i don't really know who i am or what i want from god or even what i am doing on this planet..........man life is screwed up.so anyways i am still trying to write but my poems are stuck ........still.........

one day i woke up and turned my head

i finally realized my life was finally dead

i suffocated the person in me

only i knew i could never be free

free from my past which haunted me in my dreams

free from the pain that surrounded me,

free from the life that.......................

i really wish i could finish these but even when i do i will go back and revise them and change life half of it?oh well will post more later

They (Mr. Harris) are thinking about cutting us down to 20hrs over the summer, this would suck. Any idea where I can work over the summer for only 20hrs.

I am working on my term paper thingy on Andrew Lloyd Weber. so if anyone has a book or magazine or something about him, it would be greatly appreciated...

i helped watch babies Sunday at church. here's some pics:

cute lil Taylor ^^

adorable Joshua

AWWW! ^^ Noah! ^^

Joshua and I ^^

"You see? We will get to that place some day
I want to show you a superb view
That's the sign for tomorrow, our future"
-Ayu (criminal)

Yesterday life threw a crazy at me. I'm so confused. It's nothing bad really, just frustrating. It would be cool if ya'll could pray for me. I don't know what to do! --pout face-- I think I will do nothing and focus on God. I know he will give me peace and help me in this crazy situation. Well, I'm off to New York tomorrow morning! : )

I would like for a website to exist that is like phusebox, only you can upload documents instead of pictures, and you can make them private. I guess this DOES exist and is called an ftp, but I want the lazy-man's version of an ftp so I can access documents from any computer. Why? Because I am working on several different homework assingnments in MS word and don't want to carry a thumbdrive/flash drive/jump drive whatever you want to call it. The result is that I email myself several different drafts of each paper, filling up my inbox. Yes, I go and delete them after awhile, but wouldn't it be nice to just log onto phusebox and have access to your stuff? I think so. Then again, I might just be crazy.

In other news, I'm going to SEPA! :) Look out Atlanta, I'm on the loose!

im finally getting back to my old self. Muahahahahahahaha  (evil laugh)

be afraid be very afraid.

            The immigrants from Indochina have flourished in our country, they are successful business owners and professionals, they succeed in our schools, and seamlessly mingle within our society. Many of these successful people were not always this accomplished, decades earlier they were struggling in third-world countries. Behind their eyes there are hundreds of stories, stories of terror, suffering, and death. During the 1970’s, the Vietnam War shook the lives of millions of the population of the Indochina region, fleeing war, oppression, and torture; the coming of these fiercely independent peoples has changed our foreign policy, our economy, and our culture.

The Indochinese government and culture of these refugees influence the war. During this time the French controlled Indochina as a colony (Tucker 305) Their oppressive laws ignited the communist Revolution (304). Examples of their laws were they were not allowed to have any say in the governmental policies and they were not allowed to attack an officer of the French army despite any harsh treatment (Singfried 37) Many people were growing restless and leaving the country. One of these people was Ho Chi Minh (Tucker 306) He left the country via fishing companies. During the end of World War II Minh was residing in Paris near the negotiations between the Axis and the Allied powers (306). Minh submitted a petition for the freedom of the Indochinese people. However, the council did not appear interested in the freedom of his people and the petition was refused (306).

 

          Minh was desperate for his people’s freedom. Seeing no other way to accomplish his task he joined the French Communist Party (306) who were working to free the Indochinese from the overruling governments (306). Minh became very active in this new faction, quickly gaining the attention of this superiors and respect from his comrades (306). However Minh became impatient and took action of his own; he called a secret meeting in Hong Kong and instated the brotherhood of the Vietnamese Communists or the Viet Minh (Thompson). This organization planned an attack on the French colonists which ignited an eight year struggle for their independence.

 

          During the Vietnamese war many people were displaced and took refuge in other countries. Many homes were commandeered by Vietnamese soldiers so they could appear civilian (Stringly 16). Others were caught in the crossfire. On April 27, 1965 the village of Mai Lai was shaken by the war. American troops invaded the town massacring the villagers indiscriminately, there was no one found that was left alive. Others decided to wave during the fall of the Republic of Vietnam because of their fear from the communist leaders’ vengeance. The first wave of refugees left by helicopter in the American base camps.

 

          The second wave of the refugees was called the Boat People. They received their names from their rickety boats they used to travel across the South China Sea (Tuckier 12) many of these people died at sea. Some died from starvation or thirst, others died of the overexposure and may were murdered or pillaged by pirates (Stringly 18). Less than 2,000 refugees made it while the Vietnamese governments say that 30,000 left the country (Stringly 12). However there are strong indications point to higher numbers Many wonder why these people would face conditions that were so unfavorable to them. It was because they faced worse conditions if they stayed in the country. These people were taken over by a vengeful government who killed many leaders of the Republic and stole their savings, their land, and their homes (Thompson)

 

          The communists were creating a new economy based on Socialism and were moving the southern population into New Economic Zones, grungy cities, or land that was not as fertile. Some were also moved into reeducation camps, where they were forcecd to work and warn the communist doctrines (Valdir 12)

 

          The refugees that were brought to the United States received more help from our government than other refugees because the government had played a larger role in displacing their people (Rheinhardt, 12-15). The Indochinese has also been the most successful of all the refugees in succeeding in our economy. Over 30% of the refugees saw self employment as their best option (12-15). Many of the Indochinese grabbed hold of the beauty industry, quickly obtaining nail salons, barber shops, and sewing machines. The refugee population in many areas took major cities by storm, such as New York and Los Angelos, creating Chinatowns (12-15) where they sell their wares even to this day.

 

          Loy Tam was one such refugee. When he moved to the states he obtained a job at a restaurant and his wife Pai was a seamstress. After a year he took interest in his wifes success (12-15). He soon obtained a garment making machine and began selling his wares. Three years later he had obtained six machines and was grossing over one million dollars (12-15) This kind of success is not precedented in other refugee groups. Loy Tam refers to their advantage as the “Indochinese” mentality. (12-15)

 

          The Fierce tenacity of these people is evident in their success. Now you can buy an Americanized version of their food in almost every city, their cartoons in our television and their salons in our phone books these independent people have most certainly taken our people by storm. They have also changed our government, because without these people we would not have the Refugee Act of 1970. They have changed our economy thorough their businesses caused by their initiative in fulfilling their needs. There is no doubt that these people have changed our country.

 

           

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Rheinhardt, Tom. Laos and the Almighty Dollar.

<http:/www.tel/gale2/index.com>February 28, 2006.

Singfried, Hon. French Colonial Regimes. Philadelphia. Penguin Press, 1987.

Stringly, Gale. Refugees: Immigrants and Emmigrants. New York: Harper Collins,   1998.

Thompson, Amber. Personal Interview. Sengduane Thompson. Personal. February 26,

 2006.

Tucker, Alice. Vietnam. Los Angelos: Vintage Press, 1996.

Valdir, Jane. Viet Minh. Chicago: Harper Collins, 1997.

my parents decided to be the meanest people in the world and cut off our internet!!! how sad is that? they didnt even give me a reason why soo hopefully they will turn it back on soon cuz im like dying!!! soo i can only get on phusebox *cries* this is a sad day! I cant even do my term paper atm soo to all my friends if i dont answer ur email u know why.......soo juss message me on here :D GRRRRRRR IM SO MAD

went flyering with andy.

fun times.

dinner was yummy.

we are def. hitting up the jub again.

def.

i think i'm out.

have a nice day.

<3

jen

Thanks to Cameron for a) yanking me out of my mood, and b) general conversation.  You are quite good for conversing with.  {{It's because you're tall.}}

Unrelated: "Nothing" usually means "something."
Figure it out.

So Mum's surgery went well enough.  She's doped up on coedine {I'm not really sure, actually -- regardless, she's doped up} and reclining in splendour upon the couch.  Caroline and Tori are camping out with her downstairs tonight.  She can wiggle her toes and cough and do all sorts of fun stuff without sciatic mayhem.  As Martha says, "It's a good thing."  {And she's letting us stay home for a while tomorrow.  Granted, it's for medical reasons, but still!  Yes, I'm a selfish opportunist.  Don't remind me.}

I went to Starbucks twice in twelve hours.  Under twelve hours, even.  How sad is that?

Um, yeah.  So Macbeth opens tomorrow.  And runs through Saturday night, with a Sunday matinee.  Same schedule for next week, too.  Evening shows are at 7:30, Sunday is at 2:00.  Seniors can try to wrangle extra credit with theatre or English teachers (or both).  No idea how much it costs -- I've never paid for a play at the Centre for the Arts yet.  And yeah.  Because people have gotten onto me for not saying anything about it, lol.  Macbeth has a really awesome death scene.  You should come just to see that.  It's gruesomely fantastic.

I'm tired.  Physically, mentally tired.  I'd say spiritually too, but I'm not really a religious person to begin with, so it doesn't count.  {Lots of reasons that I prefer not to discuss in a public forum.}

A tes souhaits et tes amours.

4:30 PM.  Don't have much homework.  Decide to visit my mom.  But first, I'm going to call my dad to let him know I won't be there when he comes home from work.  This requires turning on my cellular telephone.

I have three new voicemails.  I know one of the first one, which I got yesterday, is from Sean and Ella and it says something about "Hey, where are you?  We're waiting on you."

Surprise!  No it's not.  Instead, it is my mother's husband.  [Probably called shortly after I got to school yesterday.]

"Hey Sarah, it's Tully.  I just wanted to let you know that your mom's in the hospital.  She's fine, she just had a mild stroke.  She's in room number blah blah and you can reach her by dialing such-and-such number.  She's fine.  She's walking and talking; they just want to keep her for some tests...."

My mouth falls open.  I stare at my phone, thinking it lies to me.  Then, in a moment of hating myself and feeling like the worst daughter in the history of the universe, I let slip a bad word.  I'll give you a hint.

It starts with 'f.'

And ends with 'uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck.'

Message number two: from my grandmother.  I have a dentist appointment tomorrow after school.  Message number three: also my grandmother.  I'm supposed to call her as soon as I get it [Tully told her he hadn't been able to reach me.]

So I call my grandmother, confirm my dentist appointment and make sure all my info on mom is up to date.  Then I call Vanderbilt Medical Center and ask to be connected to my mamoo's room.

I was about to go steal my dad's car and drive up to Vanderbilt and stay until they were absolutely sure that everything was fine and dandy and they were ready to release her.  But I was a little late.  By the time I called her they said, "Eat something, sign an assload of paperwork, and then you're free to go."

She got a little woozy by the time she got to M'boro, so I met her just off of 840, got her some dinner, and took her the rest of the way home.  She was kind of tired and didn't want to stay up very long, but I don't blame her.

So the verdict is that she had two itty-bitty-teeny-tiny strokes, one right after the other.  There doesn't appear to be any permanent brain or nerve damage [beyond damage caused by previous illnesses or bouts of comatose-ness].  So she's fine.  She's exhausted, but she should be back to normal in the next few days.

. . . . . . . Doesn't change the fact that I feel like the world's worst daughter for leaving my mom in a hospital by herself for two days when she'd had two strokes.  She hates hospitals by the way, especially staying there alone overnight.  She's not mad at me, though.  So I guess it's all good.

--Oh yes.  Special thank you to anyone who left me a random comment on the last entry.  ^_^

3 months from today I'm moving to New York City.

over,and done with.

damn it.

How do you leave the past behind

When it keeps finding ways to get to your heart

It reaches way down deep and tears you inside out

Till you're torn apart

Rent!



::b

Christ is Risen!

---------------DECEMBER---------------

This straight-up means ur the most good-looking person possible...
better than all of these other months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic.
Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient
and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with.
Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet
complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and
soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating,
tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny
and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone
always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to
make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of
person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. loves music.
pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows
emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive.

im not quite sure what this typing is doing and/or where itz going. pft. im slow.

I ate a whole pizza today.

I have percussion xs for the next five days.

So I didn't go to church tonight.

I wanna do something to my hair.

Dye it or something.

I don't think my maja will let me tho.

California white is the best pizza. buy it.

We Have Victory through his blood.... PRAISE GOD!!!

so yea working on the research paper for english as you prolly have seen

anyways my computer is being stupid and not letting me e-mail anyone
so i'm using my phuse to act as my email for now

Went to Langworthy's today..

wasn't too good of results.. not allowed to have caffeine anymore, no chocolate, light on the calcium, and this doesn't deal with it but i have to become more flexible cause he couldn't even lift my leg straight up with me laying on a table. soo.. any dancers or anybody know any tricks?? lol.

   ok so..the not so good news, i have a cat scan tuesday at 1. have to be there by 11:30. no food 3 hours before appointment..and my last "meal" before it has to be all clear liquids. he said the cat scan was to look at kidneys.

so life is slowly getting back on track. math is getting better while getting worse at the same time.   i've gotten two papers due and both of them have been pushed back so now i have more time to work on them. (which is a good thing)  i am finally gettign together with some friends that i havent seen in a while. hmmmmmmm. other than that life is going on as usual. mmm. yep, that about does it. oh and i will finally b getting a picture on here.

&& i miss you liek mad...

slipping into a black abyss
my eyes wonder
I hear my heart beat
cant think
what’s that
it turns dark
tears begin to trickle
blood pouring
stabbing pains
death....
~tRISH

if you ever wrote an autobiography, what would you name it?

mine would be "young neanderthal"

"the struggles make you stronger, the changes make you wise, and happiness has its own way of takin' its sweet time. No life ain't always beautiful, but its a beautiful ride."  ~Gary Allan

isn't this the truth? life is hard to understand, it never stays the same, but it's still amazing. So if you're going through anything whether its good or bad- appreciate the fact that you can learn from it and that its a beautiful thing just to be living.

Real
Stories of the Non-Technical (from comedy central)

 I called a company and asked to speak to Bob. The
person who answered said, "Bob is on vacation. Would you like to
hold?"

---

I worked with an individual who plugged their power strip back into itself
and for the life of them could not understand why their computer would not turn
on.

---

"Do you know anything about this fax-machine?"
"A little. What's wrong?"
"Well, I sent a fax, and the recipient called back to say all she
received was a cover-sheet and a blank page. I tried it again, and the same
thing happened."
"How did you load the sheet?"
"It's a pretty sensitive memo, and I didn't want anyone else to read it
by accident. So I folded it so only the recipient could open it and read
it."

---

I recently saw a distraught young lady weeping beside her car. "Do you
need some help?" I asked.
"I knew I should have replaced the battery in this remote control door
unlocker. Now I can't get into my car. Do you think that store would have a
battery for this?"
"Hmmm, I dunno. Do you have an alarm, too?" I asked.
"No, just this remote," she answered, handing it and the car keys
to me. As I took the keys and manually unlocked the door, I said, "Why don't
you drive over there and check about the batteries? It's a long walk."

during baseball.i got hit, where no normal male, ever wants to get hit. 

and everyone in my house is sick. except me.

how is your life?

so life has been good i am a little sick now. yesterday i could barely talk and today it seems to be better. so yeah. i got some new pics up on here. well outty.

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO JEDI

Life has been full of changes the past few weeks. I am now a leader at Riverdale High School and feel so blessed. At the same time i feel scard to death. I know that i have been called to this minestry for a reason, I just need to have a little faith. I guess it all boils down to not being in charge. I am not in charge of my life and the only one that is is God. It's just hard to realize...but im coming around.

Cherish
Two circular views of blue with a gray shade
So captivating
More than you know

False perceptions
That brought forth these questions of
Truth, love and hope
Now that you're injuring
I carry you with me just
Please hold on

Disappear and dissolve
A weakening wall
Will one day fall
It's wise to sever our loss
I redefine pulse
Through the iris

Love's not all lost
But it's nailed to my cross
And crucified all that I've held on
To be awaiting
Anticipating a touch such as yours

False affection
A spawn of neglecting
A love, lust, hoax
Please understand me
That now where you're standing
Is closer then I'd hoped

Disappear and dissolve
A weakening wall
Will one day fall
It's wise to sever our loss
I redefine pulse
Through the iris

Your Iris
Your Iris

Disappear and dissolve
A weakening wall
Will one day fall
It's wise to sever our loss
I redefine pulse
Through the iris

Disappear and dissolve
A weakening wall
Will one day fall
It's wise to sever our loss
I redefine pulse
A new iris

this is kit fisto. he has always been my fave jedi but i never knew his name. now that i do i have a lot of pics and made a jedi collage. yeah. i think he's kool cause hes green and a good fighter and can stay underwater for a long time.

here's some more pics but i think some more will be coming shortly..

getting presented w/ tucker

with sam (just back from Ecuador) and laura (visiting from Illinois)

me and the bffae (ha..)

my world is in disarray.. my kitchen is completely destroyed b/c we're redoing it.. its gonna look amazing.. but for now.. how does one function without a kitchen?!.. i have to go to the bathroom to even get a drink of water..

hmm... so i dont know why...

but iv been in kind of a blah... mood...

i really have no excuse...
i just am


ok so heres the layout of events lately... not that you care



1: lauren apologised for being stupid... but i refused to except it... yeah i know... harsh... but she lied to me like crazzy
2: Addie totally flipped out on me... i was with some friends over by greek row and she apperantly didnt believe me and started cussin me out and callin me a liar... yeah... o well
3: my bro is going "ghost hunting".... omg its getting embarrassing to say were related!!
4: my mom is bein the meanest woman ever
5: i didnt get early release.... still at DMS
6: friends have been... wierd... like... backstabby kinda wierd...
7: (not being conceded... just making a point) i dont WANT so many girls to like me... it gets on my last nerve!!!... sometimes i just want a FRIEND that doesnt want to make out all the time...
8: my stomach hurts... bad... ugh
9: im probably gonna be plan-less this spring break... im supposed to be with my dad... o joy...
10: hmm i miss the good times in life... i dont like roller coasters of emotions... i wish my life was all up hill



ok ill say this flat out... i LOVE nicknames... but some nicknames i want to stop... no offence to Linz but the whole Wemo thing... its gettin annoying... i dont want someone to think im tryin to be emo or im tryin to be a prep, or goth, or wigger, anything... im CHRIS... thats all... dont call me anything but that

ok sorry if iv seemed harsh or anything... iv just been like... well... you know...

Hey guys

Well Alder is being a complete jerk off right now. I haven't spoken to him in like 2 days. Yet I don't even get a phone call WTF is that all about. Oh well, he is really makein me upset. Gah BOYZ they make me so mad sometimes, but You can't live with them and you can't live with otu them lol. Anyway had a pretty good day at school.  Except I have a major paper due tomorrow so I better get on it. ttyl

Ok, I realize it has been a long while since I've updated.  But just so you know, I do read all my friend's updates almost everyday because I like keeping up with people.  :)  I haven't updated because I've been waiting for something exciting to happen, something worthy of sharing with everyone.  Also I've been really busy.  And although I still haven't heard back from any grad schools or jobs (and thus still don't know what's going to happen after graduation), there is some excitement next week because I am going to Honduras on another engineering mission trip.  I did this last May, but I am more nervous now because I am the team leader of one of the projects and I am so scared of messing something up or forgeting something important.  Is this what the rest of my life is going to be like?  Designing something with the hope that I don't forget something important and no one gets hurt?  I'm not sure I can take it.  It really is a big responsibility.  Am I ever going to be confident of my own skills and knowledge?  I pray that one day I can be.

Speaking of prayers, we need them.  Please pray for our team, that we travel safely, work efficiently, and serve selflessly.  Thanks!

Hmm, I guess I only have two exciting updates. 

1) I was in Susan (Bailey) Beaird's wedding on March 4th.  It was beautiful.  She was gorgeous.  It was a great day.  And now my two very bestest friends are married.  I pray that God has someone in store for me that is as wonderful as the guys that He has blessed them with.  I still can't believe that me and my friends are old enough to get married...

2) I get to go to Europe!  My dad and I are going to tour with Lipscomb's A Cappella in early June!  We are going to Germany, Austria, Italy, and the Czech Republic over 10 days.  I am SO excited!  The choir director that both my dad and I had at Lipscomb is retiring, so this is like his last hurrah.  Works for me!!!  If anyone has hints about Munich, Salzburg, Vienna, Venice, or Prague, talk to me!

Ok, I think that's long enough for now. 

Until next time...  :)

spring break is in a week.

you don't know how nice that sounds.

i swear, i can't stad some people at school.

but i'll be okay.

"starkburts" tonight.

<3

only TWO more days until spring break! im very excited even though im not doing ne thing. =o/

parents left for cali TODAY! party @ MY HOUSE! haha JUST KIDDING!!! i COULD NOT pull something like that off. haha. just not sneeky enough.

this week has felt like FOREVER! =o(  its ONLY wed.

academic orientation [keystones] is so B.O.r.I.N.g. like OMGAH! i hate it! i would SO rather be in KeYBoARDiNG! plus ms. hill was SO much NICER than ms. lynch. we cant talk, we cant eat, we cant drink, we cant listen to music when we r doing individual work.

gah. its so boring! PLUS we have to give speechs. i DONT do speeches. like no. today 2 guys from IMPROV. came and demenstrated a something something. idr what it was called. its like improv with a topic and u have 4 mins. to make up a speech about it.

it was about POWER TOOLS! how dumb is that? all the GiRLS where like power tools?

then @ lunch me && rachel && alyssa ladd were talking about it. and alyssa goes "is a lawn mower a power tool?" me and rachel were both like "hum. I HAVE NO CLUE! is it?" haha.

so do me a FAVOR. IS A LAWN MOWER A POWER TOOL??? thanks. =]

during 1st block. [since it was late wed.] i forgot to put my fone on vibrate. so i took it out after the bell rang and was putting it on VIBRATE and like i totally pushed the LOCK button instead of the VIBRATE button! && i DONT or DIDNT know the codE! i was like OMGAH! this SUCKS! cause my mom && dad know it. but they were on their way to CALIFORNIA!

so i was like OMGAh they r ganna kill me. haha. but then after class i was talking && talking to kayla and rachel and kayla was liek "DUH! isnt it the last 4 digits of ur NUMBER?" so i tried! && it IS!! =]

so my fone is NO LONGER on LOCK! =]

my spring break is ganna NOT be FUN. =[  call me if u wanna hang out!! =]

btw. what do u think of this outfit?? cute or NO?

thanks. =]

photo from bryan
sometimes i feel like this looking good from the outside but inside there is alot of stuff happening that is just crazy and you would not get it unless you knew what was going on

will only get this if u have ever seen the big lebowski

 one week
today.

= ]

This is some crazy stuff going down....

Oh my God.  That is messed.  Up.  UNREAL.  Go read the article.  No, seriously.  Go read the article.  And I thought this stuff only happened on The X-Files!

So in light of vacation this summer and who to invite... I realized today , that hardly any of my friends are GIRLS...  yes i have 100s of friends at school who are girls.. but very few that im really close too..

guys are a different story.. i've got too many guy friends..

Josef says that girls dont like me b/c i am a slut.  Allen says because i am a Dyke.  neither of these are true.. (i hope) 

So then why is it that i find girls incredibly hard to get along with. ?   females in general are vain and flat.  A horrible thing to say i kno... especially coming from me, as i am a big on equality for the sexes..  But at oakland girls care about what is on their heads... not what is in them.  They over react and love to cause drama.  Girls are for the most part less perverse than males...  I am a VERY perverse person and i think this has a lot to do with why very few females seek my friendship.. I have a horrible and sick twisted sense of humor ( that i wouldn't trade for anything) and  a mind set that will not let me settle for a lesser conversation when i know where to find a better one. 

I am NOT  a tom boy.. i care about what i look like to an extent, but appearance is not my life style and it never will be.  Im soo fucking sorry that i dont want to sit and talk about where i got every article of clothing on my body and how much i spent on each peice and who i was with when i bought it and what that person said about how cute it is.  ..  so sorry that i find othere things more entertaining and worthy of my oppinion.

dont get me wrong here.  There are a lot of girls who are not like this, and that i like very much.  But girls are mean...  mean mean mean... 

and guys have jsut always been nicer

7th and 8th grade.. Matt Ward was my best friend.

High School it has been Josef Beal.

Girlfriends come and go.... but the guys take more before they move on.

Rebekah is the same exact way.  the VERY EFFING SAME... this is why she is my ultimate best friend.. but on a scale scale she doesn't really count... b/c she is my sister. my real sister.  We;ve grown up together and in the process grown up almost the same.. not only in behaviour and ideas.. but in apperance also.

Then there is GG.... but she doesn't fit the catagory of a "girl girl"... she still is female and beatiful... but she isn't like the rest of them.  She has the loyalty that you find in guys.  that "i've got your back" shit.. no matter how stupid what you jsut did was...  She is my favorite girl....

so this has been LONG enough i dare say...

later

So I was looking for a book the other night, and I decided that I'm sick of buying books on God.  I think I'll read His autobiography instead.

man i am bored right now.............
nothing new.....

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.............

I think I have seen 4 other Mac laptops in the store within 5 minutes.  Starbucks continues to get cooler.  There was a girl here that couldn’t pick up the wireless signal.  She asked me to help her get connected. I did.  There is a lady being interviewed, at least it appears that way.  The lady interviewing is using an HP laptop.  I laugh at her.  So each time I have come here, I haven’t bought any coffee at all.  And I have a nice giftcard at home with $15 on it.  I never remember to pick it up before I leave.  I am listening to the RENT soundtrack once again.  It is verrrry good.  There is a male Starbucks employee walking around to all the tables and the counters and wiping them down.  The lady being interviewed is sitting right outside the window from me, and she is talking with her hands too much.  I think she isn’t being herself.  She won’t get the job.  A girl in a black shirt and wavy hair walks out the door.  There is a man at the ordering counter in a purple shirt with buttons and a collar.  About 20 feet away from me there are two guys talking, one about 10-15 years older than the other.  The younger guy is wearing a black bandana.  I need to change for tennis practice soon.  There is a couple at the table to my right.  The guy has a tall hot coffee cup and a Nokia cell phone sitting next to his keys.  A nother guy walks into the store with a wireless cell phone earset on and he is walking like he owns the place.  Then he goes straight into the bathroom, and I understand his strange walk….  The lady outside is making fists at the interviewer.  Not a good sign.  The guy with the purple shirt uses a walking cane.  He leaves the store.  Earset guy has on a North Carolina jacket.  The display that the store has set up is nice.  It makes me want a Barista machine.  The soft piano music begins to come through my earphones, interrupting “One Song Glory” and “Light My Candle”.  The earset guy leaves walking the same way, and I realize it wasn’t because he had to use the bathroom.  The couple next to me leaves.  A lady in a white blouse comes and sits down next to me, coffee in hand.  Unlike all the other times, however, she didn’t ask if I was saving it for someone else.  I’m kinda tired.  And now I am too mad about not being asked to go on.  Well, I’m not mad, but I am done.

::b

Im getting together with Sarah today.
Lets see how this goes...

Outline of the Vietnam War Refugees Research Paper

 

During the 1970’s, the Vietnam War shook the lives of millions of the population of the Indochina region, fleeing war, oppression, and torture; the coming of these fiercely independent peoples has changed our foreign policy, our economy, and our culture.

 

I.                   Introduction

II.                 The government of these people influenced the war.

A.     The oppressive French colonists ignited the Communist’s revolution.

i.               Vietnam was a French colony from the mid nineteenth century until the end of World War I.

B.     As a result of their oppressive colonists Ho Chi Minh began a revolution.

1.      Minh is disturbed by the treatment of his people, so during the peace talks at Versailles he submits a petition for the freedom of the Vietnamese people, which is later denied.

2.      Seeing no other way Minh joins the French Communist Party, which was working to free the French colonies at the time.

3.      In 1941 Minh Creates the Viet Minh, or the Vietnamese Communist Party

4.      In 1945 the Viet Minh establish the Democratic Republic of Vietnam as soon as the French were pushed out of the country due to American involvement.

III.              The First wave of refugees begins.

1.There were many causes for their flight

2.  

Indochinese boat people

Vietnamese refugee in a camp in Malaysia

Events resulting from the Vietnam War led many people in Cambodia, Laos, and especially Vietnam to become refugees in the late 1970s and 1980s, after the fall of Saigon. In Cambodia, the genocidal Khmer Rouge regime murdered millions of people in the "Killing Fields" massacres, and many attempted to escape. In Vietnam, the new communist government sent many people who supported the old government in the South to "re-education camps", and others to "new economic zones." These factors, coupled with poverty, caused millions of Vietnamese to flee the country. In 1979, Vietnam was at war (Sino-Vietnamese War) with the People's Republic of China (PRC), and many ethnic Chinese living in Vietnam, who felt that the government's policies directly targeted them also became "boat people." On the open seas, the boat people had to confront forces of nature, and elude pirates.

[edit]

Refugee camps

The plight of the boat people became an international humanitarian crisis. The UNHCR, under the auspices of the United Nations, set up refugee camps in neighboring countries to process the "boat people" and was awarded the 1981 Nobel Peace Prize for its work. The Orderly Departure Program from 1979 until 1994 was one such program that helped to resettle refugees in the United States. The United States and Vietnam signed an agreement on November 15, 2005 which allows those Vietnamese to immigrate who were not able to do so before the humanitarian program ended in 1994. Hong Kong adopted the "port of first asylum policy," and received over 100,000 of them in the city at its peak in late 1980s. Many refugee camps were set up in its territories. Frequent violent clashes between the boat people and security forces caused public outcry and mounting concerns in the early 1990s since many camps are very close to high density residential areas. The countries that accepted most of these refugees are:

• United States - 823,000


• Australia and Canada - 137,000 each


• France - 96,000


• Germany and UK - 19,000 each

By the mid-1990s, the number of refugees fleeing from Vietnam had dwindled. Many refugee camps were closed. The market reform of Vietnam, the imminent return of Hong Kong to China by Britain and the financial incentives for voluntary returning to Vietnam caused many boat people to elect to return to Vietnam during the 1990s. Consequently, most remaining asylees voluntarily or were forcibly repatriated, although a very small number (about 2500) were granted residency by the Hong Kong Government in 2002, marking an end to the Vietnam boat people problem. In 2005, the remaining refugees in the Philippines (around 200) were granted asylum in Canada and the United States.

The boat people of indochina were sent across huge distances and the boats were often overcrouded and most of the people persihed.

So, I looked at my Econ grade online, it said I had an A, I almost passed out. This is significantly better than my best friend killing me in celebration of the Ides of March, though he better watch his back.

I was reading Acts in detention yesterday and came across this and it made me think "if only everyone had the faith of Paul and Silas." i mean usually when we are feeling down and the world is against us we just give up. but instead we should be worshiping god. he never brings us to a hill we cant climb...never.

16 And it came to pass, as we went to prayer, a certain damsel possessed with a spirit of divination met us, which brought her masters much gain by soothsaying:
17 The same followed Paul and us, and cried, saying, These men are the servants of the most high God, which show unto us the way of salvation.
18 And this did she many days. But Paul, being grieved, turned and said to the spirit, I command thee in the name of Jesus Christ to come out of her. And he came out the same hour.
19 And when her masters saw that the hope of their gains was gone, they caught Paul and Silas, and drew [them] into the marketplace unto the rulers,
20 And brought them to the magistrates, saying, These men, being Jews, do exceedingly trouble our city,
21 And teach customs, which are not lawful for us to receive, neither to observe, being Romans.
22 And the multitude rose up together against them: and the magistrates rent off their clothes, and commanded to beat [them].
23 And when they had laid many stripes upon them, they cast [them] into prison, charging the jailor to keep them safely:
24 Who, having received such a charge, thrust them into the inner prison, and made their feet fast in the stocks.
25 And at midnight Paul and Silas prayed, and sang praises unto God: and the prisoners heard them.
26 And suddenly there was a great earthquake, so that the foundations of the prison were shaken: and immediately all the doors were opened, and every one's bands were loosed.

well the play is over. thanks to all three of you that came out.

i leave for hawaii in seven... seven days

yayayaya =D

so yesterday we came home from school and mom was like your leaving school at 12 on friday... cause we are going to memphis....

TO THE RELIENT K CONCERT

oh eyah its gonna be the bomb in so excited

so 2 days till rK and 6 till New York!!!

:edit:

ok so im screwing around while "working on my art project"

so i was goin through the system and reading xangas and its pathetic but im jealous... they have a song and he has pics of her on his xanga and calls her beautiful...and i feeel totally pathetic for caring why do i care STILL?? its kinda crappy im stupid

life is good

so i got an 80 on my sociology test.

the one i thought i failed.

that's a B-!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yayayayyay! party time..

Anger

My blood boils,

I see red,

images of violence fill my head.

I want to scream,

I want to fight,

I want to dream,

but not tonight.

I break down in rage,

and cry,

I feel I'm in a cage,

I smile and I lie.

The monsters laugh and joke,

with sharp claws they prod and poke.

They tear open my chest,

rip out my beating heart,

I fail their test,

and am torn apart.

They devour my happiness,

my thoughts, my life.

All around me is darkness,

I give in to discord and strife.

Rage, rage, rage,

I no longer see the light,

I am eternally in this cage,

I am lost in endless night.

This is for justin!!!!!!What do you think!!!!!(Lol)  I love you justin(hahhahahahahaha)

college is taking a toll on me.. im just so burnt out on everything.. i work 40 hours a week.. its just crazy.. so thats y i think im gonna take a semester off to just work and get money.. maybe that will help out just a little bit..

anyways, on a brighter note, warped tour is comin to nashville.. ive been to 3 warped tours before but this one probably has the best list of bands: underoath, thursday, silverstein, senses fail, from autumn to ashes, and alot more.. its gonna be crazy! so for all u out there that didnt kno warped tour was comin, ill c u there.. all day long... lol, cant wait!  

Im so happy we got to skip drivers ed.........again.......mr. johnson keep showing up late so he lets us go to the "market" or the gas station last time we went to mcdonalds....uggggghhhh.....i hate mcdonalds.anyways so what is everyone doing im bored so everyone share some stories with me so i can be unbored.......going to church tonight i love church get to talk to all my cool friends and ......jesus......jj anyways i am in physical science so i  will write more laterr

так возможно я сделал ошибку. я только думаю, что он не должен ждать на мне, когда я не думаю, что я чувствую тот же самый путь. я был неправильно?

So ummm.......yay told chelsea that i like her cousin ((dillon)) it was kinda embarrasing!!!!!!!!! ok REALLY embarassing LOL well um.........boreing homeroom today LOL well uuhhh................ LOL well later!!!!!!!!!!

Today I'm mucho confused! -relationships?-life?-future?-career?-airforce?-basketball?-

need to stop worrying about everything! my birthday is in like 3 weeks, and i should be looking foward to it!

I'm goin into the Air Force, should be looking foward to that too! Well i'm stoked about it, but just confused right now!  :-(

<3-yahl

Rissa

Here you go Rachel I've given in toyou and made a phusebox for you to message me on>Happy

what is up everyone I am so bored right now I just dont know what to do My mom will not let me go to the Concert( Dem franchiz boys and Lil Wayne) because she said that is to much cussing and that there are going to be thugs there and that I dont know how to duck and dive if bullets start flying the women is crazy. So hit me up with some of yall thoughts

some people have amazing talents i found these on the internet and was like omg this is awesome!!!!!!!

yep... skool sux!!

~tRISH

Okay, I know the picture is kind of blurry, but I like it anyway...great actress, great movie. But anyway..yesterday was fun...yeah, right. Okay, let's get to the rat killing...lol that's a great saying straight 4m John Wayne. Anyway, my day was all right until about 5th period, when a friend of mine's boyfriend kicked her chair against mine and I went to get up and RRRRRRRRIIIPPPPPPPP!!!!! Five long strands of my hair were between the chair and the desk...So needless to say I was a little peeved(if you know me, you know that I'm OCD about my hair) Well, I go to 6th period and we're reading a stupid play by Tennessee Williams, so that's already depressing..well, the teacher leaves to go make some copies and then...the stupid freshmen and sophmores in the class then proceed to talk and make fun of the people reading. I also had a major migraine and I felt like I was about to throw up so I was just not in the mood for dumb ass kids to be acting stupid just because they can. Well, the teacher eventually gets back to the room and they act like they were actually paying attention..I REALLY DON'T LIKE FRESHMEN AND SOPHMORES!!!! So... bad day, yet again. God, can I get just one bland/normal/maybe good day?

 These verses are for all my friends who are struggling this show that you must have faith in god he will never let you down. it shows the power of faith the walls of jericho fell because of the faith of people. My friend kale told me to read hebrews chapter 11 when i was stuggling and it has showed me so much and gave me the faith that god is with me through it all.

¹Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.

³Through faith we understand that the worlds were framed by the word of God, so that things which are seen were not made of things which do appear.

 ⁴By faith Abel offered unto God a more excellent sacrifice than Cain, by which he obtained witness that he was righteous, God testifying of his gifts: and by it he being dead yet speaketh.

⁶But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him.

²⁵Choosing rather to suffer affliction with the people of God, than to enjoy the pleasures of sin for a season;

 ³⁰By faith the walls of Jericho fell down, after they were compassed about seven days.

³⁹And these all, having obtained a good report through faith, received not the promise:

   ⁴⁰God having provided some better thing for us, that they without us should not be made perfect.

He seems to know
My sorrow and my pain.
He seems to know,
What road I have ta'en.
But how can he know?
How can it be?
How could he hear?
How could he see?
How can he possibly
Know or understand,
This sad man,
With nail-scarred hands.

WASSSSUUUPP.... Jinna and I are bored in first period hangin out with Mama G (WOO WOO...NOT!) So this is my first blog...go me! I definitely like Myspace better but hey, you can get on this at school so I'm not complaining too much. Anyways... so Jin and I are officially (Jin says that word "definitely has two 'f's") too cool for school! We should be allowed to graduate early cause we're just that cool! And Chelsey Duke is the most awesome person with curly hair in first period with us! OH YEAAH! Ok so now I'm feeling gay so I'm gunna stop while I'm ahead...yeah right. Well ya'll be good, ya hear?!

Love ya lots!! Annnd *SMOOCHES*

Jess

who else is ready to get the fuck away from this place... even if its only a week..

Spring break has never been so awaited.  and sooo longed for..

ok so my GMA down in West Palm Beach flies one of us kids down every spring break to spend it with her.  And this year is my year.  But after talking to her we've decided to have me visit this summer that way i will be able to spend multiple weeks with her adn my cousin and of course the beach...  : D  :D   :D  this makes me a little too happy..

also I GET TO GO TO HILTON HEAD ONE LAST TIME.... so Papa Fred sold Ocean Palms where we have spent our vacationing time for the past 9 years... :*(    yes it is very sad, b/c it has become a second home.  However... i get to roam the island this one last summer.  yes it will be a different resort.. but i can live with that.  Just to see our westin beach and pool one more time..

AND  i

get to  bring a friend again... so it will be just me and the G-rents ( argh) and hopefully my GG...

this makes me impossibley happy...

Just another wonderful day... Maybe for some of you guys but not for me... Me and my parents got in this huge fight and now we won't even acknowledge that the other one exsists... I know that's really horrible but if you only knew what we were fighting about then you might understand... It's just that we don't see things the same anymore and well they have their opinion and I have mine that doesn't seem to work in my house... My parents are just so close-minded that it's stupid... They cannot deal with things that are different from their own experiences... Well I hate to tell them but this is a new time and day things are going to be totally different from when they grew up... But anyways they are making me do all this crap before I can go to NY and it's too much to do in like a day and a half but you know what they always say: "parents know best". I don't know though I guess it's really a trust issue at this point but I am not sure... Alright well I am going to leave this issue now so I will talk to everyone later...

THIS IS VERY, VERY IMPORTANT!!

There has never been another blog more important than this one.  I am sure that many of you are sick of my current affairs or political blogs, but this is HUGE.  Imagine this, a baby about to be born...the legs come out and they are wiggling about in anticipation, but before the head exits, the doctor makes an incision just below the base of the skull and inserts a vacuum and takes out the "cranial content" (the brain!). 

There is hope, though.  Right now, there is a case before the U.S. Supreme Court considering partial-birth abortions and we can actually do something about it.  Go to www.aclj.org and sign the petition.  This is not some hokey thing, but a serious petition done by a legitimate organization based in D.C.  You will see if/when you go to the website.  This is very important and a great way to make a difference in our country.  We are the only country that performs this kind of abortion. 

Please sign this petition and get your friends, parents, grandparents, bosses, co-workers, anybody involved.  This petition with your name on it will actually go before the Supreme Court. 

Josh

so blocking rehearsal last nite was pretty much pointless for most of the ppl there... like we couldn't tell all the girls to come in from stage right during class...

"Am I just waistin' time
Trying to lose your mind
How do these things get done
So do you think it's true
When it comes out of you
Aren't we the lucky ones"
-Drake Bell (Telegraph)

So I have no idea what I'm doing now! I've found out that whoever decided who gets to ride in the limo has left my prom date and me off the list. I don't really care for me, but she (Elizabeth Gassler) goes to private school and does get a prom and I wanted this to be AMAZING for her. So, I guess we'll have to have our own prom without the group.

Grr to a small portion of the senior class.

so..............................I don't really have anything new to post today i haven't finished my poems yet so i can't really post that......................hummmmmm.......anyways. Have you ever wondered who you really are i don't know I am struggling to find out who i am i have changed so much in the last year its like i can't seem to really be able to find myself anymore..........but i guess change is for the best......right?

Im soo tired my eyes are burning and watering *cries* oh well i woke up in an unusually happy mood then i listened to some sad music now im kinda down weird huh?i dunno i think im still happy hehe..... Ok senoirs i counted and we have 31 school days  left!!!omg right? hahaha

i could sit here and tell you my life is perfect. but its not. it has its ups and downs. Its heartaches and heartbreaks. its smiles and laughters.

but its mine.

i wouldnt trade my family, my friends, my life for anything. and even in the times i hate it the most, sometimes i just want to pull all of my hair out and scream and have this major hysteria fit, my life continues to surprise me.

that i can smile through the tears. laugh away my troubles. do the happy dance for someone who is worse off than me.

 maybe its not my life at all. maybe i just constantly surprise myself.

just sitting here at school bored as hell like always

Today was colder than expected; I walked out in shorts and and short-sleeved shirt only to be rudely awakened by chilling breeze.

Everytime I journey to Andrew's or Mai's phusebox, I find myself questioning what the fuck they're talking about.  First off, I don't think anyone at FWC talks about them: I think that's bullshit conjecture.  If it's not, they're welcome to name names; and if they find this offensive, I don't really care.  All I'm saying is not to be paranoid about religious concerns if you have none.  If there's nothing to be worried about, why worry about it?  It's not your actions that have us worried: it's your willful separation from friends that care about you that's the problem.  I don't think people are talking about you.  Why should they?  I don't walk around thinking people talking behind my back (well, actually that's not entirely true, but the reasons for that deal with my depression).  I just think this shit is overplay on both their parts.  I have no problem admitting I have smoked weed or drank alcohol.  These are not the problems that concern me.  My problems deal with why these things came to be in my life and the unfulfillment thereof.  I think Christianity, on the whole, has a lot of problems, but if it didn't, it wouldn't be an accurate description of the real world.

In other words, these supposed gossips, if they indeed exist, are not supported by the influential parties at FWC, and not by God, who FWC supports.  Under such assumptions, why continue with this banter?

You may be offended by what I say, but if you are, I refuse to blame myself.  We all know our own needs for improvement, but to lord them over the brows of others who work just as hard is a farce of what you claim to face.  Each one is given what he is designed for, but to come out among men, and brag for defeating a foe and living with the bitter taste he left is just stupid.  Hail to nonconformity for such stupid claims to fame.

You rave on and on about how others misunderstand you, but have you clearly understood others and God's plans for them?  Don't trade blow for "blow" if you don't.

Second, I would wish that people would leave Rebecca to her own business, and not to interfere simply for your sake of love or whatever it is you call it.  Radical action isn't always appropriate in this case.  If she has anything to tell anyone, let her do it herself.  Believe me: I was there from the beginning.  I know. 

I'm trying to determine whether this has anything to do with the person more than the situation.  Would you carry on such a great crusade if you knew my thoughts as well?  But no, I've already told you and you misunderstood what I said time and time again.

Whats Up Phusebox? Me, Nothing Much... I Had ISS Today... Man It Was So Boring... And I Swear That ISS Teacher Is Evil As Fuck... (Wit Her Ugly Ass Bowling Shoes She Keep Wearing Hahahahaha)... Anyways, We Had Bible Study Today... It Lasted Until 11 Something... Then I Came Home... Me & My Brother Was Supposed To Dance Off But We Didnt Have Time And Everyone Was Leaving Because Of School Tommorrow... Well, My Prom Is Right Around The Corner... I Still Dont Have A Date Yet But I'll Find One Soon... And I Miss My Classes At School Especially 4th Period... I Love That Class... I Love You Miss Anderson Hahahaha... And Rachel And Aaron If Yall Are Reading This, Ima Make Yall Airplanes Go Boom When I Get Back Thursday Hahahaha... Im Just Tripping But I Miss Yall Though... Well, Im Finna Eat And Go To Sleep So I'll Write Again Soon... See-Ya...

finished his present for thursday.

score.

def. can't wait to give it to him on thursday. =)

yay.

and my presentation went loverly today in education, got to take some pics of andy *yay* and got my keychain of the space needle. score.

have a nice nite. i need to go to bed soon.

<3

jen

SO today was good, it was just really busy.  I woke up and decided I wanted to be pretty so I curled my hair and dressed nice and impressed everyone who normally sees me look grungy.  So that was fun.  And my hair stayed curly the whole day.  I thought I wasn't going to be able to eat today and the awesome guy that Trent is, he brought me food.  And it was GREAT.  So after classes and doing my duty of sitting in the box office, we had to host auditions for my directing class.  Then as soon as that was over, I had to run the B so that I could do the whole cast of Wizard of Oz and Hulk Hogan.  I also got to add some sideburns for Elvis.  So that was delightful.  Doing make-up makes my day.  I think that is something I would LOVE to do for a living, but I don't think I'm technically good enough for it to be my career.  I cannot wait for Spring Break.  Absolutely cannot.  I get to go to two concerts and sew lots of things.  I also get to go to Southeast's Easter Pageant.  I've never been before so I'm excited.  And this is the last year for it so it's even better.  Anyway, I hope everyone else has a great week and an ever better Spring Break, if you haven't had it yet!

Trichoptilosis

Does anyone know what this word means!

I do it means Split ends lol

I hate them and i wish i did not have them but i get to cut my hair over spring break :) Yeah for me lol

only a few more days till spring break and i can not wait at all :)

Have a great dat :) Jesse

today sucked...

At times i get the feeling that NO ONE cares, but other times
i feel like i’m sitting on top of the world, it all comes
down to your friends & in the end, i find you REALLY do need a
best friend & for those times, i’m grateful that there’s
you...

I smile because I have to, not because I want to, I laugh because I’m told to, not because I want to, I frown because I want to cry but try to keep it all inside, I wish I could just let it out but I can’t, that’s not what I’m all about. My feelings never show anymore because I don’t want them to. Every smile is a lie, every laugh is fake, all because I’m crying inside & don’t want my tears to show

The girl who seemed unbreakable...broke. The girl who seemed so strong...crumbled. The girl who always laughed it up...cried. The girl who would never stop trying...finally quit

I used to be a strong girl, a lot has changed, a lot has happened and I've had to deal with so much more than any person should ever have to go through and you know something? I finally broke, everything around me crashed and I fell right with it and I'm not that strong anymore, I can't handle this anymore

today sucked...and that's about it.