what day is it
and in what month
this clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up
and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

cause it's you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to lose
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

all of the things that I want to say
just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping inwards
you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

cause it's you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to prove
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

there's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
everything she does is beautiful
everything she does is right

you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to lose
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to prove
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

what day is it
and in what month
this clock never seemed so alive

I really love this song. It is an amazing one that describes how I feel right now. 

today in our church we have too many songleaders and not enough worship leaders...difference is a worship leader seeks God and desires to know what He is doing and following that...but a songleader plows through the song not even thinking about much else...

so it turns out I probablly have mono on top of my ear infection, they took my blood today! um.. I also have indigestion and i am going to have a ct scan on thursday fo my head... Im falling apart!

im in greenbrier! i havnt been here in forever. im happy....

this is my two youngest cousins, down here, preston and drew...

As usual, James has been under quite a bit of stress lately, and blogging has been very low on the list of priorities. I have gotten about 5 non-consecutive hours of sleep combined over the past two nights in order to finish a book and a paper for my English Lit. class. Yeah fun :) But I'm alive . . . barely. The caffine is numbing my true exhaustion now, but it's rubbing off. About an hour ago I fell asleep while "working" at my on-campus job. On top of all of this school stuff I'm also working on Bleacher Bums, my first play here at MTSU. I'm only onstage for maybe a 90 seconds, but it's a start. Since I know you guys care so much, and are clammouring to get tickets it is showing April 2, 3, and 4 at 7pm in the Studio Theatre @ the BDA. Anyway I need to get back to work/sleep.

-James

Well I'm babysitting for 10 hours a day, so yea, I'm getting online A LOT and so aparently everyone else is doing there spring break thing, and I'm stuck here, getting on phusebox, myspace, facebook, and even xanga (which I rarly ever get on) but the thing is, everyone is having a lot more fun then I am b/c barly any of my friends have posted anything lately.
But I guess that's what I get, but I do need the money from babysitting b/c I'm going to TX w/ the band the wednesday after we get back from spring break, and so I'm going to need this money, but it is very tiresome, and I've tallied it up, and by the end of the week I'm going to have worked
62 HOURS which my friends is a whole lot of hours, and that is way more than my mom does, but I guess this is what a babysitters life is, you have your fast weeks and you have your slow weeks, and this week is as fast as lightning, well anyways, I'm done ranting, I'm going to go watch b/c I love Peter Pan and I have nothing else to do, so yall have fun now

Oh, I thought this was cute I got it from a bulletin on myspace:

what a kiss means, kiss is the language of love,
then we have a lot to talk about it...
methods of love....

*kiss on the ear--------------------"i'm horny"
*kiss on the cheek-----------------"we're friends"
*kiss on the hand------------------"i adore you"
*kiss on the neck-------------------"we belong together"
*kiss on the shoulder--------------"i want you"
*kiss on the lips---------------------"i love you" or "i want you"
*holding hands--------------------"we can learn to love each other"
*a wink---------------------------------"Let's get it on"
*slap on the butt---------------------"thats mine"
*playing with the ear----------------"i can't live without you"
*holding on tight---------------------"don't let go"
*looking into each other's eyes---"let's get romantic"
*playing with hair on head---------------"tell me you love me"
*arms around the waist -----------"i love you too much to let go"
*laughing while kissing-------"i am completley comfortable w/you"

=advice=
***if you're kissing someone, close your eyes. it's not nice to stare...

***if you were thinking about someone while reading this, you're definitely in love...

so...things are going pretty great.

the band trip was simply amazing but i'm still recovering from a lack of sleep these past few months.

i have decided that guys are pretty ok after all.

but why does God make them so dern confusing?

but i do like the way they smile, the way they smell (well, some of them), the way they laugh, the way they fidget when they get nervous, the way they look all scared right before you chop their heads off with a huge machete.

(just kidding about that last one)

so there's this one kid.

yeah, he's pretty special...

i've known him for a long time but only recently have i been talking to him.

found out he even liked me during middle school when i liked him too...we were just too shy to admit it.

and then he said "it's not too late".

(awww)

so we are hanging out later this week.

...

somebody call me or something!

spring break is boring!

Today has been a GREAT day. I went to go get a new cd player for my car and then I went to Hot Spot. I'm just excited. It's such a BEAUTIFUL day outside. I just don't feel like going to work. My boyfriend is being an asshole and won't answer his phone. Oh well. I haven't really got to spend much time with him except for on Friday when I went bowling. I try to make plans to do things with him, but he's never up for going anywhere. So yea. I finally have all of my invitations done and I got to mail those out sometime this week. I'm excited. I'm going to start going to the tanning bed tomorrow morning. I'm just all full of energy. It'll all be gone by the time I get to work. ok well. I guess I'm going to go get ready...

Much Love

Hey everyone.  just got back from auburn.  It was a pretty nice campus, although i still like clemson more!  it was a pretty good vacation cept for me getting sick (grrr, i hate bein sick!)

AHHHH!!!!

soooooo bored... need to do something
either thursday or friday i am going to oprymills
friday night i am going to kaylah's to camp out....yay!!!!!!
so thruday and friday i have something to do kinda...
tomorrow i am open to anything sooo yeah

so i need to do something tomorrow

today has been ok
played sims 2 and fable
watched tv....
yeah nothing imporent sooo if you want to do some please tell me

                       meg

Over My Head(Cable Car)-The Fray

I never knew
I never knew that everything was falling through
That everyone I knew was waiting on a cue
To turn and run when all I needed was the truth
But that's how it's got to be
It's coming down to nothing more than apathy
I'd rather run the other way than stay and see
The smoke and who's still standing when it clears and

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

Let's rearrange
I wish you were a stranger I could disengage
Just say that we agree and then never change
Soften a bit until we all just get along
But that's disregard
You find another friend and you discard
As you lose the argument in a cable car
Hanging above as the canyon comes between and

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on

And suddenly I become a part of your past
I'm becoming the part that don't last
I'm losing you and its effortless
Without a sound we lose sight of the ground
In the throw around
Never thought that you wanted to bring it down
I won't let it go down till we torch it ourselves

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

Everyone knows
She's on your mind

Everone knows I'm in
Over my head
I'm in over my head
I'm over my

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

so it's starting to feel like spring here. there are little flowers pokeing up out of the ground. I get excited!

Sitting round feeling far away,
so far away but I can feel the debris.
Can you feel it?
you interrupt me from a friendly conversation,
to tell me how great its all gonna be.
You might notice some hesitation,
cause whats important to you is not important to me.
Way down by the edge of your reasons,its beginning to show
&& all I wanna know is..

where'd all the good people go?
Ive been changin channels.
I dont see them on the tv shows.
where'd all the good people go?
we got heaps and heaps of what we sow.

I can only name a few good people

but

where did all the good people go?

only jack johnson can speak these words.

So whats going on every one?
Hows life? My life is great, life is great, its the greatest its ever been.
I have the love of my life, and the best friends I could ever have,
.
Music is amazing, wow i love techno, rave music, rock, its all amazing!!!!!!!!

No glove no love lol l8er

boston was fun, providence even more so!  i will live in rhode island one day, hopefully providence.  and it will be fun :)

d.c. this weekend...too bad i'm broke...oh well!

...So, now that I have this idea for this establishment...  It's time to kinda write out the overall points/aspirations of this place:

***The Shop***
-New and used video games will be sold and traded; price-matching (on both selling and buying) will be accepted, so long as you have proof of some sort.  All games and systems of all sorts will be accepted, so long as they prove to be in good, working order.
-Video Game paraphenalia, such as t-shirts, action figures, posters, any kind of collectible item involving video games will also be sold here.  Trading and bartering of said goods is also welcome.
-If we have a used copy of a game you're lookin' for, you can try it out at the store for a short while.
-At least 10% of all profit from the shop will go to a different charity each month.

***The Arcade***
-Several of the newest and/or best arcade machines around will be featured.
-Many ticket-giving games will be featured; "real" prizes (i.e., good toys, discounts at the store or cafe, etc.), more tokens, or giving to a charity of your choice with each ticket having a certain amount for the store to donate as choices for ticket redemption.
-At least 10% of all profits will go to a different charity each month.

***The Cafe***
-Reasonably-priced food and drink available, and definitely not just soda.
-The cafe will have wi-fi support for Nintendo DS, PSP, laptops, and other machines implementing wireless internet usage, usage that'll most definitely be free.
-At least 10% of all profits will go to a different charity each month.

***The Events***
-Tournaments of all sorts will be held; sponsors are welcome to support.  Prizes will be given based on the amount of people signing up; much of the entry fees will go to the charity of the month.
-Video game talent contests will be held: show us the most impressive thing you can do in a video game!  Again, much of entry will go to the charity of the month.
-Visitation of St. Judes: help bring fun and good times to the children of St. Judes!

***The Name***
...I really don't know yet, to be honest.  I'm definitely open for suggestions in this department.

Any comments or suggestions will be greatly considered and appreciated; this post will be updated as suggestions/different ideas come up.

wow...do ya'll have younger siblings???? I DO!!!!!!!!! and it's not a walk in the park...im going CRAZY!!!!! this spring break is suckish x's 10! i have nothing to do...sit at home, watch tv, read, watch tav, and oh yeah, watch tv...there's only so much on b4 u noe every word to every rerun and on demand movie...

i cant believe im saying this, but i cant wait until spring break is over.

Lately, God has been putting on my heart those children who are less fortunate in this world. Though I have thought about doing mission work before, I had never really considered that it would be possible for an elementary education major to teach in a foreign country like that. I really want to show the love of God to those children in the world who have never known about Him, and I want to help little minds grow in a healthy way.  In chapel yesterday, they gave out this award called the Mary Morris Service Award, and it was given to this remarkable lady who had gone to Lipscomb and then after her first semester of teaching in Nashville, she decided to go to Honduras and teach there. She learned the language, established a school there, and is able to teach the Bible and about Jesus and how He died for us. It's amazing! It just really inspired me, and God put it on my heart that maybe that is something I should think about doing in the future. It's just something I've been thinking about lately.... and, though I know there are plenty of opportunities here in the USA to serve the less fortunate and to be able to teach our children here, I really feel that I need to get out there in the world where there is even less knowledge about the love of Christ.

Well, hope you all are having a wonderful week! I know I have... we didn't have chapel today, which is nice. And it's such a pretty day! I think I'm going to go sit on a swing outside for a litte bit before class.

yo yo

well i got fired from my job friday

im broke

but its all good!!!

wee

          Just because I don't tell you, doesn't mean I don't hurt. And just because I don't respond doesn't mean I didn't hear your words. Just because I don't scream doesn't mean that your words did not pierce. Just because I smile doesn't mean that I'm fine. Do you want me to scream to lose it and lash out? Why should I give the satisfaction of giving you control over my response, the satisfaction of seeing the daggers hit the mark and take root?

          Someone once told the story of a man who was provoked and mocked... when the antagonist left, the man was asked by an onlooking individual why he did not lash out... his response was simple... "that man doesn't control me"

          Hurt exists, whether or not you see it. Be careful of what you say to others because even if they don't display it for the world to see, your words and actions can hurt those around you.

yay! phusebox you are still here=)

Today is my birthday!    Finally Im 18.

Its gone good so far. Tonight I get Red Lobster too! Yummm! 

Oh and yeah pretty sure I got woken up this morning with Lindsey singing happy birthday to me. And I asked what time it was and she said 5:30. So yeah that was funny. and she decorated the inside and outside of my car. oh well, It was funny and cute that she was there.

So I drove an RC Drift Car Sunday afternoon, and it pretty much made my day. I have so much going on constantly, and now I might be buying a house......and I have to wonder, "Am I ready to grow up?" It was so nice just to be a kid again, so once I get paid, I am heading down to the devilish corporation wal-mart is and buying one. (That's the only place I have found this particular one.)

I'm almost 21, yet I am STILL a Toys R Us kid...

Drift action here we come!

Ephesians 2:8-9

⁸For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— ⁹not by works, so that no one can boast.

How can some people be SO conniving and manipulative and downright slutty?!? I am currently harboring an intense hatred for one such person. I know its wrong to hate but aren't there some people that just deserve it? That earned the right to be despised and hated not only by me but by all females with significant others. For I am speaking of the female who cares not of your boyfriend or FIANCE'S attachment status, she only cares that she can seduce him at her will. Well guess what chicka, this time YOU LOST. I have someone who is above you and whatever you think you have to offer. So take your scuzzy self else where. As previously stated I know its wrong and I'm going to have to overcome it, and I will, but for my sake, not for her's.

I got to thinking that I should probably post a real picture of myself.
I'll do that as soon as I find a picture of myself to post. That may
meen that I have to wait untill I buy that camera that want, but I will
do that soon.

It took me this long to admit to myself who I really am....

I'm a girl who is not scared to get dirty.....
who loves to go mudding
who loves big trucks
who loves cars
I'm a girl who can spend hours talking about cars
who is learning how to work on cars
who likes rodeos
who absolutly adores country boys :-)
who likes to go fishing and camping
I'm a girl that likes motorcycles
who likes the tattoo guys
and the bad boys
I'm a girl who longs to be kissed in the rain
who loves to dance in the rain
who loves to look at the stars and moon.
I'm a girl who enjoys the early morning phone calls to see if I am ok, and what I am thinking about....
but through all this I can still be that one girl that can look beautiful and never has to try hard to do it.
 This is me, wheather you like it or not, and I am tried of trying to hide it!!!  

Hey everyone! I just started this today. I guess xanga got old. Well we're on spring break! Yay! I'm not doing much. I wish we were going to the beach because i can't wait to soak up the sun after all this cold weather. I'm just babysitting and doing lots of drama practices at church and stuff. We have a play coming up called The Trilogy. It's the first three sundays in april, and each one is a continuation of the other. It's gonna be really good, even better than the other years we've done it. You guys should come. It's at Family Worship Center and every week the shows are 8:30am, 11:00am, and 6:30pm. I'm really excited about it. Friday was the prom fashion show at school. That's what the picture's of. It was so much fun! It made me look forward to prom even more. I'm kinda torn between these two decisions. My best friend isn't sure if she wants to go to prom, but she might ask this one guy. if she does ask him, i told her i'll ask this other guy. But the decision is what if she never decides to go to the prom? I was going to go with a bunch of girls, but i heard this song on the radio and it was talking about how your life is like a book and you get to pick what comes next based on your decisions. The rest is still unwritten. So I decided even if she doesn't go, I'll ask him. Well, it's getting really late so i'm gonna go to bed. I hope you guys have a fun and memorable spring break!!!  

I once heard a story where a worship leader heard a sound that blew him away. It was during a large worship celebration: one song had just ended… The instruments died out, the crowd grew silent. Suddenly the only noise in the place was a loud, out of tune groan coming from the front row. He looked for the source of the sound and saw a woman with tears streaming down her face, her arms stretched out to heaven, just pouring her heart out to God. This worshipper was deaf and had no idea that the rest of us had stopped singing and were now looking at her. She was just going for it, expressing an uncontainable passion for Jesus, which echoed around the meeting place.

To be honest, it was not the most musical sound he ever heard. But strangely, it was among the most beautiful: they were listening to the sound of her heart. A few seconds later, her friend nudged her in the side and she stopped. That moment has remained burned on my memory because it reminded him of a principle that is core to our theology of worship: God listens to the sound of the heart.
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“Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life” (Prov 4:23).

To God, the heart of the matter is the matter of the heart: God looks at our hearts (1 Sam 16:7), searching us (Jer 17:10), probing and testing every motive and attitude. He knows what’s going on in them (Luke 16:15), has set eternity in them (Ecc 3:11) and created them as the place of interface with him.

There is good reason for this: whatever has our heart’s affection instantly has our worship (Matt 6:21). The common understanding in both the Old and New Testaments was that the ‘heart’ was the control centre of a person’s being: all yours mind, ideas, thoughts, motives and decisions flowed from here. It is with our hearts that we look for God (Deut 4:29), love God (Deut 6:5), serve God (Josh 22:5), meditate on him (Ps 19:14), hang onto his word (Ps 119:11), trust in him (Pr 3:5), do the will of God (Eph 6:6), love others (1 Pet 1:22) and pour out our worship to God (Ps 62:8).

I just wrote a freaking novel on here!  I lost it all!  I am going to bed now!  I am so mad. 

well...I can say that I'm not hopelessly romantic anymore!

blah blah blah

Just think about multiplying one packet of starbust times 20, and I would say that is about the amount of a bag, yea well I ate a bag in less than 12 hours, and I don't think my tummy is very happy with me right now...

What is up everyone I really dont have nothing to say but this Spring Break Sucks Big Time

i'm not sure if it's more painful
to watch
with the knowledge that there is nothing i can do

or the knowledge that there is nothing i can say

***

it just hurts

so yea went mini golfing with a bunch of people and got there at 730 but we had to wait on them for an hour and a half so we played ski ball which is always fun, and pool.........yea i showed them all up with my amazing skills........not, ***heehee*** the cueball jumped off of the table and rolled underneath an arcade game.....anyways after that i wasted $2 on the stupid crane thing i have never won anything out of those........anyways we went out on the course and didn't finish til like 1000 it was cool though........

So today, after I ran at Barfield and played with a two year old (almost three she told us) on the playground, Megan and I went to get my car inspected. While we were waiting in line the people around us were trying to get my attention, but it freaked us out so we ignored them. Then they got other people around us to get our attention to tell us that my antifreeze was leaking everywhere. There was so much of it. So I was stuck in the middle of the line with antifreeze everywhere and no way to get out. I had to drive up to the inspection person and I was freaking out and they let me go straight threw to get the Firestone place downtown. But Megan and I took it in then walked to her mom's work, went out to lunch with her and then she took me home. But you might ask how bad the car is, lets jsut say $850 worth of bad (and thats with the employee discount!)

if you have only known me for a short time, you missed some of the best years of my life. and i realized about 20 minutes ago, i miss them too.

K-7th: My glasses, no makeup, & my ponytail were me. Oh, and my braces were a Lovely addition in 7th grade.You barely saw my face because it was always wedged in a book and if you did see me, i was talking constantly(what a change!). Drama consisted of someone tattling on another or who broke up with who in the "going out" phase.

And now. after the contacts, makeup, and straighteners...the catfights, the boyfriends, the **** i deal with,

i enjoyed today. The day of the PJs, the ponytail, and glasses. the day where i didnt need television entertainment, I read a book. and if you didnt know i dread May 20th like the plague,

you don't know me at all.

*e-$*<~thanks to someone who makes me laugh.

Well, my attempts at being heard prove futile...no remarks, but tons of regrets.  I'm quite bored and depressed, even at the chance of marijuana later on this night (which I doubt, and quite frankly is temporary anyway).  I've no one to call and no one to talk to back home.  Here, the chances are pretty slim too.

You know, I try to be happy and social, but for real, it doesn't work out too well for me.  Of course, all that's overshadowed by mistakes I've made.

And so...I'll probably fail again this semester these classes, and then run away from everything...again.  I thought about going to Lee next semester, but who'd want me there either after all this?  Ah, this venting ain't a cathardic session...I don't feel any better...

If you feel like I'm depressed (or depressing, whichever suits you best), you're correct.  This site's original intention was for me to actually keep some form of journal in private (b/c I won't if it's not in this form...I tried notebooks) as some sort of vent mechanism.  Now, it feels like just a confluence of humiliation.

You know the funny thing about depression?  There's really no point, no reason behind it.  It's like this semi-controllable (often seems totally uncontrollable) monster that creeps up on you to beat the crap out of you and then go away for a while.  This, of course, repeats a lot.  But there's no real point of grief behind all of it.  No one close to me died; I'm not poor; and things for the most part, on the outside, seem fairly good; yet that's not true.  Everyone seems a potential enemy to an ever vulnerable self-esteem.  Every success seems the beginning of what one doesn't have.  The lack of a significant other and the emotions entangled in such become a major "weakness"...

So...Life goes on at a crawl...

i'm painting my room...

you should come see it...

the majority of my spring break so far was soccer...

and i don't mind...

ninja meditate on top of mountain

i like boys...

i hope they like me...

because i'd rather that girls NOT have crushes on me...gross.

and now...i'm going to go pierce my lip. kbye.

LOVE// Britt

everyone like my new profile pic?

i got bored today...and took LOTS of pictures...

mucho love,
[becca]

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here are some from earlier:


my fine arts photo

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me and hay...(trav is in the back looking at us like we're dorks...he's right...)

wow... what a night...

i really can't explain... it was just a random... i dunno if i like it. i don't know if i will like it. but i will tell you this. old people crack me up. :D

today... i spent $35 i dont really have but i do.. but... yeah... i have court again tomorrow. i really hop he dimisses it so that i don't have to pay court fines... because number 1 i don't have that money because i just quit my job and got a new one... and 2 i have a phone bill... and number 3.. i don' know when i'm going to get paid again...

bummer... plus its spring break... ugh :

SO I AM OFFICIALLY TIRED. I MEAN ME AND TJ TALKED FOR AWHILE THE OTHER NIGHT. HE TOLD ME THAT HE WAS GOING TO CHANGE THE WAY THAT HE IS. SO I AM GIVING HIM ONE MORE CHANCE. HE SCARED ME SATURDAY NIGHT. HE HAD A WRECK ON THE WAY HOME. IT FREAKED ME OUT. BUT HE IS OKAY. HIS TRUCK ISN'T THAT GOOD THOUGH. BUT I THINK IT IS FUNNY THAT HIS PARENTS ARE THE ONES WHO DON'T LIKE MY DRIVING!!! WELL, I AM GOING TO GO NOW. TALK TO YOU GUYS LATER!!!!

ha..figured out the pictures!!

Why do I still hurt inside?

These feelings should be gone by now.

Why do I still love to hear him speak?

He should be just another voice by now.

Why is it when I close my eyes he is still there?

He should just be a distant memory by now.

Why do I still cry for him?

My tears should be done by now.

And why do I still write about him???

I should be sleeping by now.

First day of spring break! Today me and Paul picked out a song for Fine Arts, went to Pizza Hut, and then went to Wal Mart. Later me and Jackie went to the Green Way. We walked 4 miles and climed on all the rocks. We were jumping across the river on rocks and on the way back I slipped and fell. If it wasn't for Brady holding me I would have been a gonner! What adventures will tomorrow bring??

So i cant believe that i let Randy talk me into getting this. I now have a Xanga, Myspace, Face Book , Tagged , and now a Phusebox. Haha. So i cant seem to get a hold on this weather we are having up here. I mean it just snowed like 2 days ago really hard atleast 1 1/2 ft. if not more and now its sunny and warm. I heard that it is supposed to snow more later on. Praise the Lord is all i can say about that.

I just finnished Spring Break and let me just say that it was needed badly. Now i am pumped to finnish Highschool once and for all! i have 39 days left! woop woop. over spring break i got a puppy and wow she is great! she is a West Highland Terrier and her name is Shelby. haha she is so much fun! she just has her own personality and i love it! Yesterday she noticed our neighbor's puppy and they started playing together and wow she can hold her own when a bigger puppy kinda beats her up. wow dogs are so neat!

ok i think thats good for a first "entry"

Be Blessed,

      Lindsay

So I have to write a 250-word essay on "My Most Memorable Volunteer Experience."

Neither I nor my mother can think of anything appropriate.  This is amusing.

-- Florence Renaissance faire doesn't count in her book.
-- Taking over a Girl Scout troop during camp won't work, because mothers called in and complained that I'd given their children diseases by making them sweep out a latrine and wash the walls down with baby wipes.  And let's not even get into my fashioning a whip to keep those children in line.  Or pulling the drill sergeant on them.  "LEFT!  LEFT!  LEFT, RIGHT, LEFT!"  {{They loved it, for future reference.}}
-- -- I guess there's always the Oakland's Day Camp.  Then I can talk about dragging children across busy intersections and scaring them when we went gravestone-rubbing and trying to ditch 'em at the spring.
-- Even at a completely separate camp when we made vegan fudge as a gesture of winter-holiday goodwill, we gave the children the batch we messed up on.
-- My Girl Scout memories don't really involve helping screaming children, anyway.  They involve blenders and daquiri mix and lowering camp bras to half-staff out of respect to Ronald Regan's passing.

End Result: Kelly is not a {do-}good person.

yeah. so the new year has happened, and.....sara came over today. i got quite a few remarks on that last one, but not the record because sara got the record. heh. It's spring break. ha, that's all i have to say.

i am on one of my
death cab kicks. it
is quite satisfying.

carly comes home
tomorrow!! i can't
wait. i miss her lots.

i'm going to go
eat chocolate, now.

The Beatles Are A Terribly Overrated Band...

Good, now that you're here, you can remark on that statement as you like; not that I don't believe that statement, but I needed something to get your attention also to read the post below and remark on that one as well.  Please feel free however to post on both.

I read this and laughed today...
"With no ground to hold on to,
[the band] Meshuggah demands of you to walk along a path of unequaled rhythms and
to dive head first into a sea of pulsing human corpses while the beat
pounds your nerves in Hell."
Fun Stuff...

he withdrew.

and i had no clue.

and i'm actually upset by this, which is the shocking part.

the excitement that is my life. i actually got to witness this clever banter...

AJ: I have a cousin who lives in Hoboken

Justin: So he's like your Hobo-Kin? (as he can't stop laughing at himself)

On a totally different subject...  I'm so excited that LSU is in the final four. Every year, like a good fan, I pick them on my bracket to win it all... but this year i decided to pick the top teams (way to go, sue) I'm even more excited that I get to watch the games with my family in Nashvegas (in flip flops because it's warmer there)

The mom and dad came down!!!

So I got to see the old people this last week. We adventured around the island and played here and there! 

They got to give me food and pay for my food and take me to food, It was great! I didn’t get to see them all that much since I still had to work and we also had the Mississippi team in, but it was ok. On the last night, they took me out to the niece’s restaurant on the island, called Mamas Fish House” . (WOW!!!!) It was a great way to end the week, and to give me more food, since there is no way I could ever go there on my own.

I Love them soooooo much and it was really great seeing and making fun of them.

-Hodge

This is the latest devotion from a Christian Motorcycle organization that I belong to. Some of us have been trying to deal with things on our own. Maybe, if we could remember this from scripture, it will help us turn it all over to God. I hope so anyway. Without Him, we are nothing.


When
he saw Jesus from afar, he ran and worshiped Him. (Mark 5:6)



This setting of scripture describes the account of a man called Legion, which
is recorded in Mark 5:1-20. You may want to read the entire setting of scripture.
Here we see the story of a man that could not help himself, nor could the
wisdom and best intentions of the leaders (doctors, lawyers, priests, etc.)
in his hometown. When the leaders had done all that they could, they released
him and left him in hopelessness to dwell in the tombs of the dead. Many people
today are living among the dead with no hope. With man, there is no hope;
with God, there is always hope and deliverance.



As the story unfolds, we see Legion running to Jesus and falling down to worship
Him. Then the bondage of the world, both physical and spiritual, took control
of him, and he could not do what he desired to do. Jesus broke the bondage
and set Legion free as we see Legion in verse 15 clothed and in his right
mind.



You may be at your wits end in circumstances and situations. You may feel
as if you cannot go on. You may feel that your situation is hopeless. The
doctors may have given you a bad report. May I remind you that there is hope
in Jesus! I challenge you to do as Legion did: fall down, give the circumstances
and the situations to Him, and ask Him to do the impossible. In Him there
is hope.

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Remember that where our possibility ends, it is just the beginning of the
possibilities in Christ. Put your confidence in Him, and you will be more
than an overcomer.

so i went to Ryan's party. it was fun.
more fun than i expected.
i met like so many really epic people. and... danced. and stood there looking hot.

that was saturday.

yesterday i hung out with Caitlin a little. we went back to Ryan's house... cause he wanted me to come eat pizza. but we didn't stay long.
then i went to my sister's for the night.

fun.

now i'm sitting here. at home. gonna go to work in a little.

<3

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The Secret Garden: A Spring Ball: @ the Factory in Franklin

March 31, 2006

Building 8 230 Franklin Road Franklin, TN 37065
7:00-11:00PM-(Sorry but the factory makes us stop then, but we can party after)

$10.00 per person at the door
Plus bring a small item (required in order to attend) to donate to Haiti.
like Small Toys, Medicine, Kool Aid, Silly Puddy, Bubbles, Popcorn Kernals, etc.

Contact: 615.403.0513
Haititeam06@aol.com


Bring a date or not come dressed up and ready to dance.

100% of the proceeds will go to Restoration Ministries in Haiti where they help the needs of the community though food, clothes, education and so much more.

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The Secret Garden: A Spring Ball: @ the Factory in Franklin

March 31, 2006

Building 8 230 Franklin Road Franklin, TN 37065
7:00-11:00PM-(Sorry but the factory makes us stop then, but we can party after)

$10.00 per person at the door
Plus bring a small item (required in order to attend) to donate to Haiti.
like Small Toys, Medicine, Kool Aid, Silly Puddy, Bubbles, Popcorn Kernals, etc.

Contact: 615.403.0513
Haititeam06@aol.com


Bring a date or not come dressed up and ready to dance.

100% of the proceeds will go to Restoration Ministries in Haiti where they help the needs of the community though food, clothes, education and so much more.

everything but easy.  I don't live at my house anymore and i had to go to my sisters birthday thing and as soon as i got there i mean my mom just started hammering me with these questions that made me feel bad and she basically ruined my whole night.  I just don't think i can handle that kind of guilt anymore and i don't know what to do, so if anyone has any suggestions please tell me i am about to go nuts.

Small town homecoming queen
She’s a star in this scene
There’s no way to deny she’s lovely
Perfect skin, perfect hair
Perfumed hearts everywhere
Tell myself that inside she’s ugly

Maybe I’m just jealous-I can’t help but hate her
Secretly I wonder if my boyfriend wants to date her

She is the prom queen, I’m in the marching band
She is a cheerleader, I’m sitting in the stands
She gets the top bunk, I’m sleeping on the floor
She’s Miss America
And I’m just the girl next door

Senior class president
She must be heaven sent
She was never the last one standing
A backseat debutante
Everything that you want
Never too harsh or too demanding

Maybe I’ll admit it, I’m a little bitter
Everybody loves her, but I just wanna hit her…

Chorus

I don’t know why I’m feeling sorry for myself
Spend all my time wishing that I was someone else

Chorus
I get a little bit, she gets a little more
She’s Miss America
And I’m just the girl next door

I made myself up. New family. New history.
I don't know why.
It wasn't that I didn't like myself.
Maybe I found the fictional me more interesting.

It was something that just happened,
Like an accident you see unfolding,
Happening to you in slow motion
But seeming to happen to somebody else.

And now that it's over
And I'm living in the wreckage,
I think: This isn't me!
But of course it is.

Okay, first day of Spring Break... so far pretty good! Tonight I am going to the library to see if I can go get some info on this mysterious J.R.R. Tolkein guy... LoL. I am trying this new technique out "killing with kindness". So far it has worked wonders, wonder why I haven't already tried this... no matter. I have a lot of stuff to do this week academically, but nothing to do socially for now but things just tend to pop up in my life. Well, hope everyone is having a good break. Ttyl

wow. i'm awful at keeping this up to date....
hmm....it's spring break. then texas trip. if people say yeehaw and wear cowboy hats and boots, i just might get angry. new york this summer...i get to see Wicked on broadway. score! and heaven forbid teachers give us an actual break, so I have a project a paper and a lab to type this week. boo on them. and now I'm going to enjoy the wonderful spring-like weather. ahh....

Take a few minutes and look at this picture...

How does this picture make you feel?...

What do you see?...

I'm curious to find out how this picture makes you feel. I'll tell you the title of this picture in a bit.

my veins are filled with sand. everything is in slow motion. my body should be mad from lack of food, but it is not, it quietly submits. a sharp pain in my center reminds me to avoid movement. the act of typing itself is nearly too exhausting. that's right, you've guessed it. i have mono. so here begins my first entry into the world of phusebox. hello to all...

so as of today, stacy and i have been dating one glorious year...  it's been a good year!  she's on spring break, so she's going to class with me...  i wonder how she's going to like my sociology prof.  she'll probably not like her.  but it'll be fun having her in class.  a good distraction from the monotony.

i'm really jazzed about this whole one year thing.  i only had 2 other girlfriends in high school.  i haven't had a girlfriend for more than a few months since...  ...  annie...  and for those of you who don't know, annie was before high school.

leave me congratulatory remarks.

No one sees me cry,
In the corner,
You don't see me cry
Before I sleep....
No one sees me grab the floor,
Crying in agony
Before I weep...
Oh these tears fall all the time
And you don't know...
You can hear it in my voice,
I'm prepared to go...
Upon that hill, I swear I'll finally see
That all the peace was in the valley
While I sat alone, amongst the shadows
Of the forest..

Why is it that sometimes we can never get over that someone special that we have lost in a previous relationship? Why is it that no matter how many other people you have dated you still think about this person knowing that it will never work out? What if you really didn't get the chance to tell them how you really felt? As much as you wish you could forget about them and get over it why are they still in your head after all this time? I keep thinking perhaps only God knows why.....

KABUL, Afghanistan (CNN) -- Hundreds of people protested in a northern Afghan city following reports that a man who faced a possible death penalty for converting to Christianity would be released, officials said.

http://www.cnn.com/2006/WORLD/asiapcf/03/27/afghan.convert/index.html

Have you ever had one of those times in the shower when you're sittin' there washin' your hair and you come across this great epiffany that'll seemingly end all the problems in your life or in the world or both?

Well, I did.

I started thinkin' about how I get annoyed with the corporate setting of EB Games/Gamestop and thought, "Damn, how nice it'd be if we didn't have to go through so much crap to get things done the way they want it to be done."  They want us to push 8 gazillion different things in the course of 1 minute.  "That game doesn't come out for awhile...you can pre-order it!" or "I can put a one-year protection on that game for (x amount of dollars)." or "Bring in your old games to trade in!" or "Hey, you have our discount card?" or "You know you wanna get the strategy guide..." or "I got a used copy of this game for less..." or "Yeah, this'll be a game to consider getting (even if it's the worst game ever, advertising apparently pays)"...  The list of crap we go through goes on and on and on...  It would be nice, for once, if I didn't have to worry a moment on any of that stuff, so I could just talk to people, find for them what they want, help them with any questions/concerns/problems they have...  I want to help people, not be a pre-programmed jerk made to push as much crap onto them as quickly as possible...

So I got to thinkin'...how do I get around all of that crap?  Start up my own store.  Get some good, generally-knowledgable people to work with me, carry everything we possibly can (that's worthwhile at least), and just help people get the games they'll want to play and enjoy.

And, from there, I started thinkin', "Man, I freakin' hate the media for making it out to seem that everyone that has ever played a game, even something like Pac-Man, should be shot and burn in hell for all eternity."  So what can I do to overcome that "image"?

Support the community.  Support charities.  Have video-game-related events that'll end up somehow benefitting these. 

What kind of events?  Tournaments. 

What tournaments to have?  I dunno, some stuff out of an arcade.

How do I get access to an arcade?  Make my own.

And, so, my dream was suddenly constructed while I stood there rinsing the shampoo out of my hair.  The first video game...place...that does what it can to help out people in whatever ways possible.

The only problem left is figuring out how to get all of it to work...  I gotta make enough money to live and pay my employees...and raise as much money as I can for these different charities and funds and whatnot.

I'm now tryin' to figure out which charities I should donate to.  First and foremost, St. Judes.  I really do like what they're doin' and would like to help them out in anyway I can.

Secondly, American Cancer Society.  Hell, I'm alive because of the organization, per se; they saw it fit to put my name on a memorial of all the cancer survivors (at the very least out of my hometown)...  I really do have a vendetta against cancer I'd like to wage.

From there...  I dunno.  Perhaps the main Multiple Sclerosis fund...or the fund regarding Myleodisplasia...  I definitely want to donate to area schools, too.

It just feels so right...  It seems like it could work.  I would like nothing more than to see this establishment take form and start helping others as soon as possible.

...And so, I must change my major to enterpreneurship.  Forget about computer science, it does only so much.  Forget about chemistry, there are others that are much more qualified and motivated than I am about it.  I will find a way to have video games bring people together and help fight a common foe.

Please, if anyone is interested in helping with this establishment, I would be more than honored to have whatever assistance I can get, even if it's as little as pledging your participation in the events this establishment will offer.

so my birthday was yesterday! now im the big 16. it was a good birthday. my spring break has gone pretty good. im tryin to do somethin everynight this week. i dont wanna go back to school. i just want it to be summer and go to the beach. so im going to get my license on wednesday! woot! im excited.  

my new favorite game: Lineage 2 :P its beatiful and huge :P

I had a pretty good day yesterday:
Church
Camino Real
Will's Salvation
VTR (Voices That Rock) practice
nap
TV
Grocery shopping w/ Will
watching food network til 11:30 at nite lol

i realized i love to cook. i want to cook. who wants to come over and cook w/ me sometime over this lovely Spring Break?

ok... now how adorable is Josh? ^^

    So I am going to do a human video solo and I really need a good song. The sooner I get one the better. I really need it this week. If any of you have any ideas of somthing that is not all over the place right now, an older song or somthing not so well known, I would love any suggestions. 

My power supply blew up last Sunday. It took the mobo and proc with it.

See you when the money comes in to order new parts.

hey hey

this is leah and abby and we are updating my site.

we are having fun.

maybe going to kid's castle later anyone want to come?

talk to you all later. if you want to come just call leah's cell!

Leah and Abby

ok then yeah i joined this thing but i think myspace is better and thats sad cuz ut sux....

Well a lot has happened the past couple of weeks.  I went back home and saw Steph two weekends ago and had a good time just hanging out with her and her broham.  

We had lot's of fun watching movies and hangin out with the home folk.  Last weekend I went camping with my entire family and had lots of fun there too.  My family is lots of fun and we had some good meals too.  This week is the beginning of Cinderella!  Everyone should come see it.  It's this Thurs. Fri. and Sat. at 7:30, and the next week on the same days but at 7:00.  You guys should come see it if you get a chance.  I'll be one of the chorus members, so you could come see me.  Anyway yeah!  I love you guys.  Sorry I haven't updated in a while.  The spring break trip was a blast.  You can read more about that if you're interested on my xanga or go to Jonathan's site and click on pics to check out all that we did.  Good times.  Later guys!  Um....you guys could comment if you want to. Make me feel loved.  I know I don't update often, and this is no way to encourage me to.  Where are my readers?

Drew a couple of pictures lately:

Me:

and Aysha:

Spring Break. I'm gonna hate this. I guess I will practice my clarinet the entire day so I won't feel so lazy.

Danny

This weekend was fun I went to cowboy town with 20 kids from boys and girls club. They all had alot of fun. It did get cold  but they let us stay inside at first the kids were upset cause they wanted to camp so we set up all their tents inside. then they were happy again.

P.S. Ben, operation ACE starts this week!!!!

Hey, a friend of mine from school told me about this not too long ago over MySpace, but I wanted to tell all of you about this too on Phusebox..... It's a benefit for an orphanage in Haiti and all the information about it is all below... let me know if you have any questions, and I can ask my friend... Thanks!!!!!!!




The Secret Garden: A Spring Ball: @ the Factory in Franklin

March 31, 2006

Building 8 230 Franklin Road Franklin, TN 37065
7:00-11:00PM-(Sorry but the factory makes us stop then, but we can party after)

$10.00 per person at the door
Plus bring a small item (required in order to attend) to donate to Haiti.
like Small Toys, Medicine, Kool Aid, Silly Puddy, Bubbles, Popcorn Kernals, etc.

Contact: 615.403.0513
Haititeam06@aol.com


Bring a date or not come dressed up and ready to dance.

100% of the proceeds will go to Restoration Ministries in Haiti where they help the needs of the community though food, clothes, education and so much more.

For how tired I am I don't get it. I went to bed, fell asleep and then woke up about half an hour ago and staired at the ceiling.... so, not being able go go back to sleep. I got up, checked my completely uneventful e-mail and phuse box. Now that I've move a little I should fall back asleep easily.

Night everyone

I really suppose I could tell you all about my spring break, and you may understand what has transpired or not.  These thoughts are for my future self to discern, and probably (as well) God.  Although Rebecca Jensen states that complete honesty does not equal complete candor, I do believe that pertinent information, especially that which would change the behavior of someone close to her, should not be withheld from that person, but should be intimated in a cautious manner.  However, this act for which I've berated her on her Phusebox really did not consume my thoughts in my attacks on her person.  There are (quite obviously, I think) other reasons involved.

I've said, many times, that people really don't understand me.  Whether this opinion rehashes "teen angst" or not, I believe, at least to an extent, that it is true.  The better question, as Chris Morgan astutely speculated, is whether that misunderstanding comes from my own intention to be "unique" and misunderstood or from actual misunderstanding: the answer, likewise, is murky at best--both are involved.  So the question becomes which came first--nature or intention; and I can answer that.  First came my being understood, or better yet, my perception of such misunderstanding.  Because of this misunderstanding, angst set in, causing a desire for simultaneous conformity and "uniqueness".  That developed uniqueness causes misunderstanding, but it's not always intentional...As I said, the solution to Mr. Morgan's question is complicated at best...

Really, all of this is to say that, despite your thinking you understand the one side of any story you may have heard, a need ALWAYS exists to discern the truth from all sides--to read between the lines.

That being said, I can't really delve into the more difficult parts of the subsequent story, because I haven't the permission; otherwise, I would.  For those of you just expecting a description of my spring break, I had fun meeting with my grandparents and other family members from that side for at least a little while at Village Creek State Park in Arkansas.

Around my ninth grade, I met Rebecca Jensen and her brother Chris in Kenny Pyatt's Sunday School class.  Quite frankly, I was reluctant to meet with them (they didn't look that "cool" at the time), but I realized neither was I and that I needed to be kind to visitors as one longstanding member of FWC (to an extent).  Nothing really struck me about her then.  I really didn't get involved with her until Teen Bible Quiz the next year: I had heard she was a threat.  When I was lazy, she was, but other than that, I realized both Josh and I surpassed her.  The year went well enough.  During that time, I think I engaged in a considerably awkward conversation with her where I semi-propositioned...Don't worry, just kissing...during a Friday night cookout at the Lewis's property.  I think she admired Josh at the time, but for the most part, other than hormonal outbursts such as that, I remained largely uninterested in her in anything other than friendship.  Both the older Morgans thought she was attractive: I didn't really care.  Honestly, I didn't care for her mother very much, even though my family had started to become acquainted with theirs via invites to dinners and such.  The funnier thing was her age.  On the outset, she seemed older than she actually was--a year and a half younger than I and thus much younger than Josh (he was always weird about these kinds of things).  She claims I never noticed.  That's not true: I did.  I just debated it for several reasons.  At the time (my ninth and tenth grades), I was interested in the nonconformist way of life (e.g. Paige Crockett), and Rebecca was hardly that at all.  She seemed too set...too down-pat...too what everyone wanted.  We still seemed to manage a well-developed friendship though.  Eventually, I realized Rebecca admired me.  I knew this for a long time, but she seemed indifferent whenever I tried to ask her about it.  Later, I discovered that most of my signals were misinterpreted as attempts to exploit her "fault" for liking me.  It wasn't until she stayed in Washington with her sick mother that I began to really become interested: this would prove to be one of the initial problems I had with initiating a relationship with her.  Because she developed problems from the situation with her, I began to interested in her.  Read that sentence a few times, and you'll see the problems.  I began to see her issues as part of her kindof, a revelation to her personality and emotions.  Still, she represses those ideas.  But whatever the case, I was there and heard everything.  Later on, I entertained the idea of a relationship and followed through on the tail end of my senior year in high school (last summer)...next dumb idea.  We'd barely enough time to solidify any sort of relationship in addition to the temporal grief and concomitant issues.  I kept telling her the distance wouldn't phase me, but it did.  Georgia proved a much more depressive state than originally anticipated.  (I'm skipping a considerable bit here.)  I slowly began breaking it off, but my selfishness impeded my viewing her perspective.  I didn't answer my phone period--not just when she called, and she called often.  So it ended very awkwardly with apologies with some aspirations to the future, but nothing clear enough.  I talked to her a little, but was under the impression things weren't going too well.  Whenever I did talk to her, usually, I'd draw her into some fucked up argument usually dealing with my depression.  Other than that, we discussed her problems. 

Shortly speaking....I probably gave her more grief than reprieve.  Then as of late...

I began rekindling feelings for Rebecca lately, but she was either too retarded to notice or forced herself not to notice.  That sounds mean, but come on.  I became more awkward around her when I met with her last weekend.  She seemed indifferent and foolish, carried as much away with imaginary social problems she conjoured up with the Lewis/Morgan group as she could.  You can argue with me about that.  I do think they got too involved, but she always gives off this sort of passive aggression that simply doesn't solve anything.  Again, I could explain more thoroughly, but it would just serve to anger me more.  I don't want to be angry.

So I asked her in private if she still loved me, and boy the hell I opened in my soul.  She said yes, but not in the way I was thinking.  I was thinking...heh, yeah right, you mean no.  So I ended that conversation in about the most inept way I could and drove off to meet my parents for dinner.  Later on, Phusebox happened.  I attacked, and she didn't get mad.  That's her for ya, never could defend herself.  I still don't know if she got why it all happened or not, although I assume that she knows why.  Whether she wants anything to do with me is anybody's guess or I guess whoever wants to convince her that I'm evil and shouldn't be talked to.  Haha...what a weird thought...but I guess I'm the bad guy.  You know, maybe after all this, I don't really love her after all.  Would love attack that person loved?  Nah...at least in my mind.  Maybe no one will read all this shit.  Maybe you all will just all stare and say, "Hey, there's someone drowning: isn't that nice?"  Stupid fucks...never could get anything, but why I stopped attacking...

I've been asking to God to speak to me in my dreams.  Part of my dream on Wednesday night was a group of people including me were on a black beach.  On this beach, I followed Rebecca and ridiculed her, but she seemed phased only a bit.  Eventually, [a girl I know named] Kendall asked me why I did what I did.  I told her that I hated not having what I wanted, and wanting what I couldn't have.  She told me that I was doing no good, and ultimately was just hurting myself.  So I cried and cleaned up my section of the beach.

As for whether I'm sorry...I know I'm sorry, but am I contrite and penitent.  I don't know...But I know you, and you guys will go on with your lives whatever I put on here anyway...

So, whatever...remark, bitches...

Hey guys me and some friends are all heading to the Exit In this coming up Wed. The Show is $12 bucks if you purchase a head of time!!! LET ME KNOW IF YOU WANT SOME TICKETS!!!! THE BAND THAT WE ARE VOTING FOR AND SUPPORTING IS THE KIRSTEN DAVIES BAND!!!! They go on at 10pm So if you wanna meet me up there or car pool with a bunch of us up there we will be leaving like 9ish. Remember this is still a crowd Participation Round of Emergenzas Battle of the Bands so we need people there to VOTE!!!! Thanks for your love and support!!!

<3, AMY!!!!

on my top eight www.myspace.com/kirstendavies or www.kirstendavies.com

for ticket purchase online or from the band

New York

I got back from NY today. it was awesome. the hot dog stands smelled liked wipped a$$ and everyone is mad all the time up there, we went to little italy, china town, the rockafeller tower (i think that is what it is called), NBC, went and saw the phatom of the opera ( that was awesome with holly's comment How Did He Get Up There? LOL), ellis island, liberty island (kind of sucked because you couldnt go into the statue of liberty), we walked around in centeral park, saw some places where some movies where shot at. went to hard rock cafe, The Bubba Gump place ( it was from Forest Gump), walked around in time sq, Tried to go to CBGB but the tour guide person said if we could get almost everyone to want to go we couldn't and i knew there would be one person that didnt want to go but there where two Ryan and Mr. Lawson so we didnt, that made me want to get out and walk there and then walk back to our hotel in New Jersey, well over all it was a fun trip but it would have been better if we could have gone to CBGB because it is closing and that was i guess the only chance i would be able to see it open, well if i remember anything else i will put it up.

Andrew

yeah.
i dont think i will ever grow up.
in my heart i think i will always be 7.
even though im not really.
ha.
but i like being that way.
thats what makes me me.
i bet you agree dont you?
well if you know me at all you would.
ha.

so the band trip rocked harder than anything!!!

i'll put pics up later, but my camera conked out halfway throught the trip so i didn't get many pics.

and i've been talking to a guy i liked pretty much all through middle school and i just found out that he like me too, we were just to shy to admit it to each other during middle school.

wow.

talk about an akward conversation.

anyway, i'm really sleepy and i'm super glad that everyone had awesome yet safe time in nyc.

(it's crazy there!)

and it really is true that you can stand on one street corner and see like....two, three starbucks.

screw disney world, new york is the happiest place in the world!

EDIT....here's some pics from the trip.

and yes. i spilt coffee all in ari's shoes.

in case you were wondering

i have had the weight of the world on my shoulders recently

for once there is not a quote that i can find to explain or express how or what i'm feeling so here it is in all its beautiful randomness...
the Quote of the Week

"The most common error made in the matters of appearance is the belief that one should disdain the superficial and let the true beauty of one's soul shine through. If there are places on your body where this is a possiblility, you are not attractive-- you are leaking."

- Fran Lebowiz

     Happy 6 Months, baby.  *I know you told me not to do this... but I just love you too much & I love you forever & always... I promise*  

HAPPY 6 MONTHS CHELSEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

its been 6 months since we first started going out

I were a month, I'd be: May
If I were a day of the week, I'd be: Friday
If I were a time of day, I'd be: 7:00 pm
If I were a planet, I'd be: Earth
If I were an animal, I'd be: a cat
If I were a direction, I'd be: Right
If I were a piece of furniture, I'd be: a big comfy chair
If I were a historical figure, I'd be: hmm..
If I were a liquid, I'd be: Diet Coke
If I were a tree, I'd be: a big shade tree
If I were a bird, I'd be: a bluebird
If I were a flower/plant, I'd be: a daisy
If I were a kind of weather, I'd be: sunny with a slight wind
If I were a mythical creature, I'd be: hmm...
If I were a musical instrument, I'd be: a piano
If I were a wild animal, I'd be: hmm..
If I were a color, I'd be: greeeen!
If I were an emotion, I'd be : complete & total happiness
If I were a vegetable, I'd be: a tomato
If I were a sound, I'd be: birds chirping
If I were a car, I'd be: hmm..
If I were a song, I'd be: "The End" Matthew West
If I were a movie, I'd be: Never Been Kissed 
If I were a book, I'd be: Every Young Woman's Battle
If I were a food, I'd be: cucumbers & ranch
If I were a place, I'd be: hmm.. 
If I were a material, I'd be: cotton
If I were a scent, I'd be: strawberries & champagne from victoria's secret
If I were an object, I'd be: a computer 
If I were a body part, I'd be: a mouth
If I were a facial expression, i'd be: a smile
If I were a subject in school, I'd be: history
If I were a shape, I'd be: a circle
If I were a number, I'd be: 16
If I were an article of clothing, I'd be: a flowy, fluffy, spring skirt hah
If i were a pizza toping, I'd be: pepperoni
If i were a steet sign name, I'd be: uhm?
If i were a painting, I'd be: Starry Night
If i were a pleasure, I'd be: happiness

yeah that was fun..

I'd written a post earlier, but my internet connection died right as I pressed "publish entry", so it never came out. It stinks, because I really can't write as passionately about it as I did earlier, but I'll give it a try. . .

I've been thinking alot about what I want to do when I graduate, and it kind of bothers me. I have so many friends going into teaching and nursing, careers that are labled "normal" among many. What I want to do isn't really considered normal, especially around here, and it's starting to scare me. I know that all it takes is trusting God, but I get random thoughts that get me down and make me think I should just get a "normal job". . . but I won't. Not unless that's what God has in store for me, and I have a feeling that what He has shown me is what He wants me to be a part of. Gah, it seems impossible, but even as I typed that, the verse that talks about everything being possible with God comes to mind.

'Cause I know my God saved the day

And I know His word never fails

And I know my God made a way for me

It's gonna be alright. . .

so i got back from new york this mornin.  it was sooo much fun you have no idy.  went to see phantom, easily the highlight of my week, and the new york phil, where i got an extra snazzy shirt that im gonna have to do some ridiculous alterations on.  & we also saw lady liberty & ellis island & all sorts of kewl mess.

Nothing really to report except Spring Break was awesome!!! I fell out of a bar stool that probably Hemmingway himself fell out of several times, not to mention chilling out on his porch and in his writing house. We partied and partied. I passed out on Duval Street outside of Margaritaville, ans watched the sunset from the southernmost point in the U.S. Overall, it was one of the Top 5 Roadtrips yet....

I'm headed back home thursday night for the exclusive season pass night on Friday to ride the new coaster at Six Flags which will also mark the beginning of the 2006 Coaster Season. Exciting as it gets. I have a huge meeting on Friday morning with my old boss that might predict the next 3 years of my life. Your prayers will come in handy.

Mysti and mine's relationship is as good as its ever been. We're both just so in love and it makes me so happy. I never would have thought that it would have worked out this way. My bestfriend since 10, you just couldn't write it any better than that.

Well I'm back to my homework with only 6 weeks of school left. I need a job, I need a loan, and I need some PS2. You guess which one comes first...

I guess that means it's party time.

I were a month, I'd be: June
If I were a day of the week, I'd be: Friday
If I were a time of day, I'd be: 4:00 am
If I were a planet, I'd be: Saturn
If I were an animal, I'd be: a cat
If I were a direction, I'd be: Left
If I were a piece of furniture, I'd be: a lovesac (www.lovesac.com)
If I were a historical figure, id be: Lucy Burns
If I were a liquid, I'd be: Pepsi
If I were a tree, I'd be: Chinese Wisteria
If I were a bird, I'd be: a falcon
If I were a flower/plant, I'd be: a lily
If I were a kind of weather, I'd be: beautifully sunny
If I were a mythical creature, I'd be: a dragon
If I were a musical instrument, I'd be: a guitar|
If I were a wild animal, I'd be: a white tiger
If I were a color, I'd be: dark shiny blue
If I were an emotion, I'd be : optimistic
If I were a vegetable, I'd be: a tomato (or do u think it's a fruit? hmmmm...)
If I were a sound, I'd be: a sizzle
If I were a car, I'd be: my Chevelle
If I were a song, I'd be: Hotel California
If I were a movie, I'd be: Blow
If I were a book, I'd be: Harry Potter!
If I were a food, I'd be: french fries =)
If I were a place, I'd be: Savannah, G.A.
If I were a material, I'd be: the kind of stuff a shag rug is made of
If I were a scent, I'd be: peach
If I were an object, I'd be: a frying pan
If I were a body part, I'd be: a foot
If I were a facial expression, i'd be: a smile
If I were a subject in school, I'd be: history
If I were a shape, I'd be: a circle
If I were a number, I'd be: 14
If I were an article of clothing, I'd be: blue jeans
If i were a pizza toping, I'd be: sausage
If i were a steet sign name, I'd be: the sign in Erin that says, "A little bit of Ireland in Tennessee"
If i were a painting, I'd be: White Water Lilies by Claude Monet
If i were a pleasure, I'd be: happiness

I'm Leavin' on A Jet Plane...

and i cannot wait for warm weather! isn't it supposed to spring here?

spring break feels incredible after last week. i don't think i have ever been that stressed out before.

well, im going to auburn tomorrow...i guess ill find out if i like this college or not.  i dont know, im really considering clemson.  well see.

doing another photo shoot tonite..i'm pumped...this whole photo thing kinda comes in waves..go figure...but it's def. getting me lately.

have a great day!

<3

jen

[NP: Rent (original broadway cast)]

So I love my new job.

I found out that all of the paperwork for the apartment went through and I'll be moving in sometime around May 1.

Lyndi came up to Knoxville on Thursday and stayed with me until today so that made my spring break better than it would have been. My "break" was two days..the only 2 I didn't have to work. Oh well. Money is my lifeline now.

Kind of sucks that my parents won't be taking care of me anymore in the sense that if I'm hungry I can ask for some cash to go to Sonic or out to eat on the weekends.

Oh well. It's always better living on your own than living a life with so many restrictions and rules.

           

RAchel B.                                   Me and my sister Paige

                   

My baby cousin Ty Brodie        His older brother Oliver as Spiderman

                      

Here he is in his normal form