In A Relationship
Clear Brook HS
San Jac south
horses, little kids, church, music
Simple Plan, Green Day, DC Talk, Likeminds, David Crowder, Lifehouse, the Killers, Switchfoot, Matchbox 20, George Strait
Racing Stripes, Independence Day, National Treasure, GI Jane, Mighty Joe Young, Ever After
the Bible, i like mystery books, the kind when you read them the hair on the back of your neck stands strait up
November 28 2006
Whats new with you?
I'm getting married in 5 months..
Hows your mom?
October 16 2006
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I'M GETTING MARRIED!
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September 04 2006
I started college. It sucks just like every other year of school. Well, thats how life goes I guess. My teachers are all pretty cool I guess. My boyfriend moved away to go to school. He comes home on the weekends. I'm sad. I miss him.
August 02 2006
Dude, England was freakin awesome!!!!
It was the coolest (literally) mission trip i've ever been on!
Pirates of the Car. II is awesome
I got my labtop this past week!
May 19 2006
I need a scanner.... That way I can scan the pictures I took at prom and my senior pics to show all of you...
I tried to take a picture of my boyfriends senior pic and it sux. oh well... (yes, i do finally have a boyfriend) He's awesome.
Not much to say really. I had some one congradulate me on my nephew thinking that he was mine. Do i look like I just had a baby? I didn't think I was that big... whatever.
I have my senior pics on a disk so when my computer at home gets hooked back up, i'll put some on here.
April 03 2006
This would be my cat. Poor fat cat...
She hates it when I do that to her.. lol. This new snapshot thing is cool. Now I don't have to waste time e-mailing the picture to myself, downloading it and then uploading it onto here.. Awesome!!!
March 21 2006
I keep on getting these discusting e-mails from some idiotic company. They're asking me if I want to buy something really disgusting.. *yuck* It makes me want to puke. I have no idea how they got my e-mail or why they're e-mailing a girl with information only guy could only use. This is gross and there is no way I can "unsubscribe" from them either. ugg... help...
Some scattered thoughts for all thinkers...
March 06 2006
My sisters baby shower went good. It was truely boring.
Spring break is in 4 days! *yeah baby* I can't wait... I'm so excited. Hopefully I won't work much because i've got plans to go to the beach, along with every other high school kid on their spring break... humm..
Prom is April 8th. My goodness thats close. I'm going for the friends and some photo oppurtunities. It'll be fun. Unfortunatly my sisters dress didn't fit so I actually have to go shopping,blah, i hate shopping. i hate dresses, but i'll go find one, buy it and wear it just for heck of it.
I wish I could go back in time and change some of the things I really messed up. I also wish I could rewind life to go back to the fun days when life was simple. Ice cream and climbing trees... gosh, why'd life have to get so hard? It feels like the last 4 yrs of high school have flown by so quick. It seems like if sit back and try to actually enjoy life, i'll just get swept away from the flow of traffic.
And the multi-million dollar questions are:
Why does everything have to change?
Why do we have to change?
Why do we make things so difficult to where we sit there in our "free time" and wish that we had done things differently?
Whats wrong with us that we try and fail and then beat ourselfs up on the inside 4 months later because we know that if we had kept on working at it then we might have had a chance on actually making it? Being able to say "I did that!"
Life is cruel....
March 03 2006
I went to phusebox.com today, again, on accident.
Their site has improved from the last time i accidentally went there. It's pretty cool. But it's also in like German or something so that kinda brings the cool factor down to like 5.
Prom is in like a month or something like that and I have to go shopping for a prom dress. *yuck* I hate shopping. The only reason i'm going to prom is to say I went, take pictures and to ultimately end up at Dennyâ€™s or IHOP at 1a.m. *yeah baby* stupid teenager stuff you know...
talk to ya later people,
February 27 2006
My sister is gone! *yeah baby*
She moved out on Saturday and thanks to one of my awesome friends Steven, it only took one day! She's gone! Anyways, i love it! Talk more later.
Praise God for He is good
February 22 2006
So like I had said before, Journey was great!!!
I feel different. Well I guess not feel but I can tell a difference. It's cool.
Something odd: I work at a Christian Book Store and yeah we play music and whatnot, usually something soft like Hillsong or Jars of Clay. I like to "dance to the music while I work which i'm sure totally freaks out everybody around me but I can't help it. After this weekend, I found myself wanting to raise my hands at work as i'm singing along with the songs. I swear people think i'm crazy so I usually stop after I realize what i'm doing. This makes me feel bad because i feel ashamed for not praising God like I would at church. Ugg, lifes difficult.
This kinda feels like one of those "Oprah or Dr. Phil, what am I supposed to do?" type posts... hummm.
Well anyways, much love to everybody.
February 20 2006
Journey is over. *tear*
I had a blast. It was one of the best Journey's I have ever had!! I'm sooooo tired though. The music was awesome!! and so was the teaching. One of my guy friends received a stuffed animal during one of our sessions (this is in front of around 700 people keep in mind) and Wes is up there "Steven, please come up to the front and get uh... Mr.Snuggles." My goodness, i couldn't help but laugh, and then like 5 people came up to me and asked if I had sent it! hahahaha, yeah right. So anyways the weekend was a blast. It was like 50 all weekend long and I had tons of fun!
Peace, i need sleep...
stage setup disaster
February 15 2006
February 14 2006
Well I don't like Valentines Day. Having a special day set aside to buy chocolates and flowers for your special someone is rediculous. If you were soooo much in love like you say you are then ya'll would do stuff like that for each other every once in awhile. Just something fun planned or bought for maybe the next time you talk and all they're saying is how bad their day has been... blah, blah, blah... You suddenly surprise them with a little extra something that totally makes their day. If theirs a day set aside for it, it doesn't seem that special. It's like you know it's coming. My way, you can't be disapointed. You Valentine obbessed peoples way, you'll be disapointed if either you don't get what you want or don't get anything at all. YOU'RE CRAZY.
Today is also known as Single Awareness Day.
Have a good day everyone. I could talk forever about how rediculious this day is but unfortumitly the bell is about to ring.
February 09 2006
Yesterday was interesting...
My friend entered in a contest to be the opening act for U2's concert on Feb 21st, or maybe it's the 20th?? I'm so excited for him and the band. I can't wait to hear if they made the top 3 or not. IF they do, everyone on here will be required to vote for them. (it's an on-line thing) it will be awesome!!!They're supposed ot find out on like Feb 15th or something like that. It's a crazy awesome oppurtunity. If they get to be the opening act then they also get a chance to win a record deal. Music is his passion and if it means that he'll be leaving us to become some big rock star, i'd still love to see him do it! even though i'd be very very sad..
Enough of that. My nephew is offically 11weeks and 2days. My goodness he's big and adorable.
Now I gotta do some actual school work, adios people.
February 03 2006
The Super Bowl is in 2 days and my sister moves out in 22 days. Life is good! I miss my nephew.. :( I havn't seen him in like 2 weeks. Well I still have homework so adios!
February 02 2006
Journey is in 3 weeks and i'm really excited. Nobody here even knows what Journey is but if you lived here i'd invite you to come and you would think it was awesome to.
I'm having "issues" with my quiet times or lack-there-of. Blah, life sucks sometimes. ya know?
Well anyways, my sister moves out in 23days! *oh yeah baby* there's some good news!
January 24 2006
My sister's baby is officially 9 weeks today! He's soooo cute and big now. He's gained like 6lbs since he's been born.
My preschool lesson is this week. I'm covered in paint from today. They don't really understand the whole paint on paper thing yet but they really like little instruments and making loud noises. It's fun. I like teaching. Today was sooooo much easier than yesterday.
I gotta go read my book now. Catch up on homework and whatnot.
January 15 2006
Is Love Stronger Than Hatred?
â€œThe value of love will always be stronger than the value of hate. Any nation or group of nations which employs hatred eventually is torn to pieces by hatred...â€ Franklin D. Roosevelt
The world around us holds an unseen battle between love and hate, good and evil, right and wrong. Yet we are one in the same. â€œLoving people live in a loving world. Hostile people live in a hostile world. Same world.â€ Wayne Dyer
Hamlet is the ideal unanswered question of true hate and undying love. Is Hamlet truly mad with hate or is he sane and understanding of everything he does. Is he working through the love of his father to get revenge on his uncle, the new king, or is he working off his own personal anger towards his â€œUncle Dad?â€
In Shakespeareâ€™s famous play Hamlet, Hamlet is completely torn apart by his mothers new marriage to his uncle so soon after his fathers death. I believe Hamletâ€™s love for his father is much greater than any hatred he could ever express towards his uncle. Although he is very angry with his mother, he does not hate her but pities her for her ignorance in his fathers murder.
Hamlet loved his father so much; he honored the very ghost of him. He vowed to take revenge for his fatherâ€™s murder. For Hamlet, hatred truly came when he realized his uncle had unbelievably killed his own brother and married his wife for the throne. His trust and faith in his father was so great that he risked his reputation, his sanity and his entire existence in order to make things right so his fathers ghost could â€œmove on.â€ Hamlet was willing to sacrifice his entire being for his father, which included the love of his life. His actions of insanity, and the irreversible murder of Opheliaâ€™s own father, drove even her to the point of which she questioned her own sanity and in turn went mad.
While Hamlet was away in England with friends who attempt to murder him, Ophelia, having lost her mind, kills herself. When Hamlet returns to find he has lost his one true love forever, he is heart broken. Hamlet remains calm and reasonable and continues to pretend he has in fact lost his mind, which so far has been believable to everyone. Though Hamlets death was dubbed a tragedy, it was all for love. Only the love and compassion he held for his father could have allowed him to create such a well thought out and convincing plan.
If Hamlet had turned straight to hatred and revenge, instead of love and legitimacy, he would have died a painful death on his first attempt to murder is uncle. Hamlet died for a cause. He died for what he believed in. He died for love.
â€œLove is all we have, the only way that each can help the other.â€
doomed to get neg. feedback
January 06 2006
I got an ipod nano for Christmas, and I don't want it.
-let the insults begin...
January 03 2006
...it'll be a day like this one, when the world caves in...
-Switchfoot : Nothing is Sound-
December 31 2005
2005 has been a pretty good year:
-Seniors rox! '06
-I have gotten alot of new friends.
-I work up at the church A LOT, and have tons of responsibilities I love!
-I got a new job at a Christian Book Store.
-I went to San Diego, CA!! *yeah baby*
-My youth minister this year will be the college minister next year.
-My sister had her baby...
-I lost my puppy.
-and few others I won't mention...
Happy New Year!!!
A Poem For the Fatherless
December 15 2005
this started out as a longer poem but didn't quite make it that far...
17 years I waited
For his kind words to touch my face
17 years wasted
Vanished, without a trace.
Why I let myself start to trust him
I still don't understand
17 years on a guessing whim
17 years, I "chat" cannot mend.
Calls are pointless
He tried and he did fail
My heart needs a seemstress
Effort now is as pointless as the mail.
17 years flew by so fast
But the images of hatred still do last.
Inspired by life.