August 30 2005
I think I'm finally starting to be okay. A lot of it had to do with the events of yesterday. I guess I'm realizing that he's not the person he used to be. And this new person that he is doesn't really give me butterflies like the old one. Yesterday was the first time I'd really talked to him in almost a month, and for the first time in that month, I really was okay. The things he said to me, the horrible things he said at work the other night about me, the person he's become, made me just want to completely forget everything between us. Yeah, I still love him, but the person I love isn't there anymore. And suddenly, I'm okay without him. For the first time in over three years, I don't want to be with him. And it's a good feeling. Maybe one day he and I will be together again, but that is completely up to God, not me.
On a different note, I'm "talking" to someone. lol Man I hate that term! :) He's a political science major at MTSU. I'm taking it *really* slow, but he seems really sweet. So we'll see what happens!

Love Always: Me

Alex Kelley

September 20 2005
Hey, i hope everything works out for the best. I'll be praying for you!