What A Difference...

May 22 2006

Hello people that still read this..doubt anybody

well what to say really...

I fell out of love with dani, and now grudges are being held and friends taking sides it feels like..such a beautiful disaster really. I feel guilty about it all. I grew so selfish of her and everything around me, that it ultimately drove things away. Now I am a prarie dog with little to show. The man in the crowd with multi-colored mirrors on his hobnail boots..what a quote lol

My grandfather passed away little over a month ago. My family is doing alright we are hanging in there, and I made my peace with my Grandfather. That I have to show for.

Musically I am still wrting and practicing on guitar. Listening to everything for inspiration. To find that defninitive knack in a song. To get an extra push towards something. Picked up playing keyboard too, and just trying to get it all out in song. the one thing that I havea pleasure of battling really.

the summer is days away, and its a break I and all need. To figure out the confusion in the amidst. To mving on and not looking back, atleast not for a while. I'm truly sorry if I offend the ones I love I really do. Takes time but time is an overused word..can't think of another word to say really..Later

Hey guys

January 28 2006

          Well there is not much to say coming from me. I've grown a little older and matured a bit I suppose.

I'm sorry I don't have much time to write in here. I have been busy with family and friends a lot lately. I guess I finally have a life outside of the cyber world and I have empathy for those who are still on here constantly.

It'll be 1 year soon that I will have been in love and together with the same girl. I have put time to the test, and it still has not brought me down..I love you Dani..


I'm Back

December 30 2005

been gone for a month and i haven't missed out on much lol...

happy new year to all

best wishes


I hate having to put titles in here I can never think of a clever one...

November 25 2005

Thanksgiving was alright. I didn't pig out, but I had filling of food.

Another Thanksgiving has come to to pass. Oh how I personally have a battle with this holiday. It brings out my appreciation for things and my reluctance for memories on this day.

I still miss my brother and I always will. When I was younger he'd always be the one to hang out with and have 100% fun. He'd make your time around him never boring.

I'm thankful for my family, friends, and my love

I'm reluctant that it's these two days, that a phone call and my parents rushing to the hospital, leaving me to be taken home. Only to wake up the next day and here Jason's gone.

So always be thankful on this holiday. be thankful for what you have and what you had. I feel stupid to say that. I feel like I've become to only appreciate things when they're gone. I'm the complainee aren't I?

Merry Thanksgiving


Just updating you guys...

November 12 2005

ehh for the last week I've been grounded for breaking curfew, it truly sux but oh well, I can get some stuff done that i've been meaning to do.

Halloween was totally awesome! The most fun I've had in a while man.

And I am happy with my class ring..it looks the way I wanted it to be, but if I ever get another fancy ring, you bet your bottom dollar I'm going to Wal Mart instead of Jostens..400 bucks?! oh well...

Everybody have a good weekend....


October 26 2005

It's been a good day for me. I have finally begun to understand things more which is different than usual.haha ..Maturity..grasp it while there's still a chance lol.

Anyway getting the class ring soon..should be nifty.

Annnnnnnd..Halloween is coming up :-D

Annnnnnnd Turkey day in a month. I can already imagine myself becoming fatter after the feast lmao

7 months I've been with Dani..I love her to death

Live long and prosper


October 21 2005
Pretty nifty this thing now. I've been doin ok I suppose. I hurt back really bad a few days ago. Doc put me on Ibuprofin and some pain killers. Treating it like a back sprain, atleast thats what the doc said. Anywho seeing how nobody comes here and leaves remarks, I'm outta here..later

Contradict (I Can't Make Up My Mind)

October 07 2005
Words by:Max McGonigal

Do you think I'm real
Or do you think I'm fake

Is it wrong to steal
A heart that'll break?

You loved me first
and me smile

but I made you worse
after a while

So I can't decide
I can't make up my mind

Could this ever die
with not much left?

Can it pass by
With a little lift
But I can't decide
I can't make up my mind

Get up and make me good
Get up, get up, get up, and make me good

Get up, get up, get up, and make me good
Get up and go

I can't decide
I can't make up my mind

I can't decide
I can't make up my mind

O M G (rotfl)

September 26 2005
Well we didn't get talent show..neither did aaron's band which is rediculous..

I'm hangin in there right now..life could be better..could be worse lol..balancing the optimism and pessimism right now..

celebrated 6 months being with Dani..I love her more than she will ever know...

School is school..Some chicas gave good reasons why there is stereotypes in one of my classes..this girl won homecoming queen and one after another they went "OMG I voted for her!!" After the fifth one I said, "Omg I hate high school.."

I sometimes like to be a jerk its fun haha

Anyhow I hope everyone is fine..Later days..


September 17 2005
not much has been happening. we (as in the garage band I am in) auditioned for our school's talent show. We feel good about it. I think we have a fair chance, but there were plenty of good acts that tried out. So we're keeping our fingers crossed. I've left it up to God to give us a shot. All we can do is hope for the best and if we don't get in, then all I know is that the past several months were fun and worth it..and better luck next year.

I'm bored so I am gonna find something else to do..later everybody take it easy

Ghost Of The World

August 07 2005
Lyrics-Max McGonigal

(verse 1/Intro)
I just wanna be alone
by myself, no one else
just by myself

the sadness flows in my heart
just like a knife into my soul
paranoia is tearing me apart
and in my spirit, there's a hole

and no one knows
no one sees
no one knows, but me

So break me down(x's 4)

(verse 2)
just a little self infliction now and then
to keep away from I fear the most
anxiety that is everything and some
with my nervous sytem on a roast

and no one knows
no one sees
no one knows, but me

So break me down(x's 4)

am I the ghost of the world(x's 6)

(verse 3)
and no one knows
no one sees
no one knows, but me

So break me down(x's 6)