Nightmare Before Christmas, Dogma, Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy, Prince of Egypt, Tristan & Isolde, Donnie Darko, Constantine, The Rocky Horror Picture Show, Joe's Apartment, Fritz the Cat, The Nine Lives of Fritz the Cat, The Notebook, Jay and Silent Bob Strikes Back, 10 Things I Hate About You, Can't Hardly Wait, Final Destination, Underworld
A tornado of ideas, sucking up the cow of truth
February 11 2006
I spent last night in a hotel room on Old Fort Parkway. I spent the night watching movies and writing. I am finally writing seriously again. I have a purple notebook that I am filling up. I'm desensitized at the moment. I have shut off my emotional center. It a required task at the moment. I watched Donnie Darko last night and was inspired to write for a few hours. I hate when I get like that, a feeling where I have to write my thoughts down or I'll explode. It's not a pleasant feeling. I might end up going to the mall later but I don't know. There is nothing ever there to interest me. I might just peruse at Hastings looking for something to keep my interest for a few hours. I want love dammit. I want the kind of love that suffuses all of your cells and makes you feel so freaking good. I want to be in awe of the feelings I hold for the other person. I want to be inspired to write and draw things that would never have come otherwise. I want an otherwordly warmth to comfort me and guide me when I'm with this person. I want to feel as though angels are breathing upon me when I look at her. I want to feel my heart explode again and again when I hear her name. Is it possible for that sort of love to exist in this day and age? If so is it conceivable for me to stumble into it? Should I hold out hope? I will, until proof slaps me down into the depths of despair.
February 11 2006
just because your alone doesnt mean anything.. neither does having a boyfriend... have you seen some of the people at our school who have bf's or gf's.. they are still ugly... and i know several guys and girls who are still gorgeous!!! so HA I WIN!!! meag