And those faded pictures of you and your sister on the first day at school...I always play with you...

October 10 2005
So today, I think Mother Nature thought I needed a good talk.
"I think you need a good talk", she said.
"Is it about the tomatoes I throw out of my window from my sandwiches?" I asked.
"No, those are bio-degradable."
"Oh. OK. Is it the empty salt packages?"
"No. I don't really like them there, but we have a larger issue at hand here."
"Ah, I know. It's the enire sacks I throw out the window with the sandwich wrapper and fry container. I knew I'd get in trouble for that."
"No, no, no. I REALLY don't like those, but we still have something more important to discuss."
"Is it...?"
"Oh, shutup and let me tell you. It's your appreciation for the world around you."
"I think I appreicate things just fine. I just don't like tomatoes or trash in my car."

My love is like...woah??

October 02 2005
      maroon five is lovebrought to you by the isLove Generator

So I was all like "So tell me Life, why do you love to suck so much?"
And Life was all like "Because I love to watch you cry. You're so beautiful when you cry. Sorrow is the most wonderful emotion you'll ever know because it makes you feel alive."
And I said "Well, thank you Life, but really, when I feel that alive, I just want to die, and that just isn't fair."
Life responded with, "Well, darling, tell me...whoever said that I was fair?"

We are the pirates who don't do anything, we just stay at home and lie around...

September 20 2005
      coldplay is lovebrought to you by the isLove Generator

So is OK. The Target business is kinda sucky, but whatever, it's a job. The job itself isn't so bad cuz I'm a cashier, I just talk to people and's just my managers (GSTLs in the Target world) who really suck butt.
I'm tired and kinda hungry. And have all week off.
I miss my Janie poo. And I really wish I could be with her right now...soon, I hope...
Everything is mostly peachy right now tho. School is still swell and yeah...I'm just kinda going with the flow.
Much love and peace out.

I've taken your words to heart, don't leave me to fall again...

September 11 2005
      kill hannah is lovebrought to you by the isLove Generator

Wowee. It's been forever since I've been on here. I lost my internet connection, got busy with has been a lot better since I last posted, tho.
Sooooo much better.
I still cry over things sometimes, usually when I talk to Mom on the phone, or my brother or sister.
But things are much better.
I've made friends at my new school, CJ has moved up here, and my parents are totally less controlling.
I mean, what parents in their right minds let their 17-year old daughter stay the night with her boyfriend in his apartment??
Good times, good times...

It's hopeless, stop explaining, don't tell me cuz it hurts...

August 05 2005
      interpol is lovebrought to you by the isLove Generator

My sister wants our mom to make me come back home, and then ground me so I can't leave again. She just doesn't understand...I love my sister, my sweet, sweet, innocent, little sister...but she just doesn't understand...she thinks I left because I hate Mom, or cuz it was something that her or Austin did...
I don't want her to think that, but I can't tell her the truth. She can stay in her illusion for a while longer. It's better that children stay children for as long as possible.
And my brother...he's just mad about the whole thing and refuses to talk about it with anyone. He thinks I don't love him or Kat...when really, I think of them as my own kids, and would do anything for them...I just can't go back home...

Hardcore sex bitch turned suicidal...

August 03 2005
      guns and roses are lovebrought to you by the isLove Generator we're just 2 days!!! Friday and Saturday...that's it! LOL...well, we'll be really busy those two days, that's fo sho.
And I'm doing my new room Oriental style, with blood red walls, black trim, and loads of extras to create "the mood".
Oh! And really super news! I should be home for a few days next week! I'll get to say good-bye to all of my friends down there.

Well, I'm sure the view from Heaven beats the Hell out of mine here...

August 02 2005
      marilyn manson is lovebrought to you by the isLove Generator

Well, ladies and gents, another extremely uneventful day has come and gone...I was bored as Hell for most of it, amusing myself by playing the most perverted video game known to man...Leisure Suit Larry...
Hopefully I'll have a job and license soon.
My mom just has to stop acting like an immature child and send me my birth certificate and social security card!
So yeah, I know tomorrow will be just as boring as it was today.

I admit my incentive was romance, I watched the pole dance of the stars...

August 01 2005
      lift point is lovebrought to you by the isLove Generator

I'm hopefully going to be getting a job VERY soon!! As....a....waitress!! Yeah, yeah, hold the applause. A sucky job, to be sure, but a job, nevertheless. It's a gig on a golf course, some nice restaurant. They must need help bad because it came thru the grape vine (3 grapes in all) that they'd hire me immediately, even tho I'm only 17.
Cool, huh?
And as rumor has it, I'll be making a pretty good wage in tips alone. Add minimum wage to that, and I think I'll be doing OK!
And I'm making plans to come home for a while sometime next week. I hope it all works out. I never got a chance to say good-bye to the people I thought I'd be seeing again after 3 weeks.
Funny how things work out.

I never conquered, rarely came, sixteen just held such better days...

July 31 2005
      rob zombie is lovebrought to you by the isLove Generator just doesn't matter, does it? Nothing does. You can cry and cry until you've drowned...but if just doesn't matter...
Because no one will notice.

Take my photo off the wall if it just won't sing to you...

July 29 2005
      cowboy mouth is lovebrought to you by the isLove Generator

I was mean...and I said everything that was on my mind...and I hurt someone very badly...and I'm sorry for that. But I just felt like I couldn't take it any more.
I would rather die than hurt you.
You deserve better.
Not someone who's going to put you down when they feel like it.

Tell me there's some hope for me, I don't wanna be lonely...

July 28 2005
      slipknot is lovebrought to you by the isLove Generator

I am the only loser who has nothing better to do than post a blog on here everyday. I don't have a job...I don't have my license...I don't know hardly anyone here...
Ah well...
Oh! Good news! I got a cell phone! If anyone wants the number, e-mail me, OK? I'd be stupid to put it on here.
OK...nothing else to say...wish me luck, I'm going job hunting soon.

I'll let you know about my new obsession, I'm running high up on a deep depression...

July 27 2005
      stephen lynch is lovebrought to you by the isLove Generator

Talk about some sucky stuff...I called my high school, back in Florda...obviously, the community college here isn't under WHS's "umbrella", or so Mr. Still said. And Illinois (he said it w/ the 's'!) was too far away and that it was tough luck for me and that I needed to register under the high school here and do early admissions...but they don't do that here!!
And now I can't graduate with my class...the people that I've spent the past 12 years with...I've known so many of them since kindergarten, and even more of them since 1st grade...What am I going to do? Graduating with a bunch of people I've never even met...without my friends...even without the people I hate, but have grown up with and love them anyway...
Ah well. All I ever do is complain here...
I need to look to a brighter future...this isn't the end of the world!

I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now...

July 26 2005
      unwritten law is lovebrought to you by the isLove Generator

You need understanding.
In your life there has been many people that
could never seem too comprehend your
personality. Now you have either become an
out-cast because of their narrow minds or you
have adjusted yourself to them, and never
letting them see who you are deep inside. You
now think that no one will ever understand you
and you hate that fact. Though you are scared
of what the effects might be if you would
decide to let someone in so you keep a safe
distance that you both curse and bless.

What Do You Need in Your Life? [dark pics]
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Yeah, another day has slowly come and almost gone. I've accomplished nothing but filling out some applications for places who I know won't hire me, due to my age and lack of work experience, and talking to my fiancee', who just now had to go to work!
All in all...a long day...with the rain falling and making everything outside look beautiful.

Cuz I love to wash in your old bathwater, makes me think that you couldn't love another...

July 25 2005
      my chemical romance is lovebrought to you by the isLove Generator

Today was a good day. I've finally realized that this move is all for the best.
Cheryl took me shopping and I got some cool new jeans and a kick ass pair of shoes!!
And saw "Charlie and the Chocolate Factory" for the 5th time!!!
Obsession is a terrible thing...when it's a 41 year-old man who lives in Paris...

This is a public service announcement, this is only a test...

July 24 2005
      sex pistols are lovebrought to you by the isLove Generator

Well...I'm still alive, just so everyone knows. I miss everyone back in Tennessee!!
Everyone take care of my Janie-poo, K?

Ahhhhh....I'm suffering from a wicked migraine...brought on from, well, it's not important what it's from...I just wish it would go away...I wish I could forget the look on my sister's face when she made me promise to come back and see her...and how my aunt told me that I didn't care about my brother and sister...and how all of my family told me how disappointed they are in me and my decision...

Are you sorry that you treat me unkind? Never you mind...

July 23 2005
      seether is lovebrought to you by the isLove Generator

Yes, well...I'm in Illinois now. I cried so much today...leaving the only family I've ever known behind. My brother and sister, my mother, grandparents, cousins, aunts and uncles...
Well, hopefully all for the best.
Tho I'm having a hard time convincing myself of that right now...

Weren't you the one who tried to break me with desire?

July 21 2005
      placebo is lovebrought to you by the isLove Generator

Well, me and Janie are about to go and see a preview for "The Island".
My family is getting here tonight....bleah...
I'm leaving for Illinois tomorrow...
My new home...

I traced the cord back to the wall, no wonder it was never plugged in at all...

July 20 2005
      jimi hendrix is lovebrought to you by the isLove Generator

Ah.....CJ came and saw me....and it seemed like everyone but me and Jane knew about it! We showed up and Michael's, and he said he had something to show us. We got down the hall, and there my boyfriend was!
Michael and Sarah helped him arrange the whole thing. I was SO FRIGGIN HAPPY to see him!
But just for the record, I'm still mad at him for doing it!

Because you're not hardcore, unless you live hardcore, and the legend of the rent was way hardcore...

July 16 2005
      butthole surfers are lovebrought to you by the isLove Generator

Whoooo....I'm soooo tired. I've been going to sleep too late. Well, it would be better if I got to sleep longer, but I really do want to spend as much time with everyone here as possible, so it's OK.
"Charlie and the Chocolate Factory" was GREAT!! It wasn't AS great as I give it credit for, but it was still wonderous.
"Good morning star shine. The Earth says 'hello'!" Hahahaha...come to find out, that's a line from a popular hippie play. But when Johnny Depp says it, you're left wondering what the Hell that has to do with the price of rice in China.

We are the cartoon heroes, we are the ones who are gonna last forever...

July 15 2005
      blink 182 is lovebrought to you by the isLove Generator

Oooooh, guess what! Charlie and the Chocolate Factory comes out today!! Yay!!
Yeah....that's pretty much the hightlight of my, my month!