im tired of being hurt

im tired of crying

im tired of not understanding

im tired of loosing what i had.

i just want everything to work.

Just tell me how i can get that.

[ugh]

things turn on you..

just like that [snaps fingers]..

one moment.. you think its fine..

then he comes and screws you over..[not literaly.. geeze]

or how whenevr u use to hear his name and smile.. then one day you feel like crying..

be careful how u give your heart up.. its not great when your always the nice one.. and they know it and they think they can do anything with you heart.. and they turn on you and find someone else..

what ever happened to not having to worry all the time..

actually despite how sad i sound and feel.. im glad and happy how things are.. i have a greater self respect and im not acting the way i did anymore... im not deoressed and i feeel so much better..

i mean i give advice to people about dating and how its not the end of the worlld. and how you dont need a guy or girl to be happy.. but after going through it.. i think i believe it even more.. im gllad i dont need another persons happiness to make me happy.

just be carefull..

life is to short to waste it on a lost llove..

im a free spirited girl with a big heart, i just want you to love me... run away with me please....

i care for you so much.. but sometimes i feel like i just cant.. the way you smile at me makes me hurt. i just want you more and more.

sometimes i sing... but i wont ever let you hear me ... im afraid that you will understand me.

i just want love.. maybe i look for it in the wrong way..

but its the way you look at me..with those pretty boy eyes of yours.. its the way you smile. its the way you say those sweet things that makes a girls heart melt.

i just want to run away from it all... trying to forget that i mean so much to you. it makes me hurt inside.

but your simply beautiful.. its your voice that makes me come running back, and now i seem like im hopeless.. because i refuse to understand that im actually important...to someone.. maybe its time for me to realize...the real me.

should i listen to my heart or go with what they all want... just to make "them" happy..?

i have always cared for those who need me...but that love cant close up that hole i have.. i need yours..but i cant have it...

we have these flip flop emotions.. like a typical teenager would... wanting to be older than we really are.. wanting to get out of this hurt we have caused.. but as soon as it comes around... its the only thing that keeps us going..wanting to stay out all day and all night...just to look in our eyes.. searching for that spark.. or that tear in side... knowing whats going to happen will hurt us..

im tired of my teenage emotions getting the best of me...

i seem to not make any sense to some people.

just look deep in my heart... you will unserstand why i cry.

So....

Phusebox has been taken over by myspace..

and thats a very sad thing,

i dont get on here that much anymore...

hmm

school  starts soon... and i dont wanna go back,.. but at the same time.. i do.. to see some more of my long lost friends of mine

Summer was absolutlly AMAZING

Vegas,charleston,dance camp,the pool, friends,partys

just sumpy amazing

So i have decided

As soon as i graduate im moving to Charleston South Carolina or somewhere in  North Carolina.... and Alexanna said shes comming with me.

Tennesse is just so boring.

plus that place is gorgeous.. [charleston that is]

but who knows... i might wind up staying here.. which i DONT WANT! but i never know yet.

hmmm

Alot of thinking has been in action....

and i must think some more..

[sigh]

So This Saturday I leave for Vegas!

yay

Nationals will be alot of fun!

Then the day i come back i will be going to Charleston with Alexanna! YAY! [does crazy jumping screaming dance with alexanna]

and were gonna take lots of pictures!

it shall all be fun!!!!

so i might not be the best at relationships.. but i do know what it feels like to love.. and i do know that love hurts sometimes..but in those good ways....

friends mean the word to me and its hard to keep them... but i have managed not to screw up this past year.. and i love every single one of them...

I [heart] you

Dear Time Traveler....

I miss you...Why did you have to leave me?
I will be here waiting...
I Love you with all my heaart.
Forever and always

Laura

AH okok

well so 11 days[i think] untill Las Vegas! yay

AHH and THENNN

I come back July 1st... and July 2nd.. i go to CHARLESTON WITH ALEXANNA MURPHY!omg this makes me extremly excited! ciz she is the best ever and Charleston is gorgeous and we will have the best time ever! So much fun'

so summer should be lots of fun

and i dont know what i would do without alexanna! if u dont know her.. then your worthless lol!!

Deeeaaaaarrrrrrr [insert your name here]

I Loooooovvvvvvvvvveeeeeeee you,

The end!

My Camera broke again!! GAH!

im putting some memories in these [ ] things to let u know...

Love i a hard thing to find... and i mean really hard...some people are just lucky....and well i dont like them lol...

Summer ha been amazing.. so many memories already...

[ spin the phone....? for hugs??] that was umm great!!!!

dance recitals are All the time... went to danceworks last night with Kelsey Brittan Chelsea and Kelley! fun stuff! Jamie and alexanna... u guys were amazing! and all of dance works ! [ 1,2,3... TRUE DAT!]

my dance recital is this Friday.. fun fun.. then i do Annie Saturday

Las Vegas June 24th-july 1st

maybe Charleston  july 1st -like the 7th.. prolly not tho

heartbreak is comming sooon... =[

comment maybe?

YESS! only 1 more day of school left....

i only have 2 take 1 exam... so really its 2 days for me.. but tuesday is a half a day for me..

summer is finnaly here...

Recital June 9th at 7:00 pm at Blackman middle... u better COME!

Nationals June 24-July 1st in LasVegas.... then off to Los Angeles!

Maybe charleston with alexanna

and ALOT of hanging out with my friends.. and friend in particular.. lol

lots of music...

maybe a concert

heartbreak...

then back to school for next year... *sigh*

love love

laura

you will always be my star....

So..

life has been ok... nothing special

Competiton tommorow at 2.. come and watch me!!

dance is good i guess..

only a week left of school! YESSS

still no guy.. but i have decided to take Jamies advice and stop looking for one... the right one will come along... i dont need to look for anyone..

hmm thats about it for now...

leave me lots of comments...

love, love

laura

so crazy stuff here

1.Got a Video i-pod

2.im freakin tired

3.had a really long wekeend

4.had dance competition this weekend... it went rly good..

5.recital June 9th i believe

6.nationals (Las Vegas) june 25-july 1st

7.Alexannas Birthday-June 25th

8. going to Charleston with alexanna (july 1st- well i dont know when

9. actualy spend time with my friends for the summer

10.dads getting a new job... yay!

egh i have lots of pictures.... i am not sure when i will put them up

still no luck with a guy yet.. hmmm

oh well

love love

laura

wow so i havent updated on this in a while...

finally got my texting back on my phone! yesssssss

 dance is pretty much amazing..... we have a competiton this weekend so tell me if u wanna come...

no luck on boys yet..... hmmm

well i thinki might go...

love

laura

so Tom Sawyer is alot of fun.. last show tommorow at 4:00.... im actually upset! i grew close to them.....egh

Tonights show was amazing! around 200 ppl came i heard!

lets see

sydney,kristi,kendall,jarren,cristin,shane,corey,mrs.marino,mrs. robin, mr. phil, moe,trey,alexanna,tonya,steve,sara beth, olivia, my aunt patsy and uncle vick ,my dadd-o,rachel,jamie,mr. allen and one other person i think all came tonight.. it was crazy

affter tis weekend im putting up all the pictures soooo yea

im gonna go

love love

laura

So Tom Sawyer is comming out in like 2 weeks!! U BETTER COME! Or i will be mad!lol

Dance is amazing!

Competiton May 5th and 6th and then a little one then NATIONALS! Las Vegas baby!

no updates on boys yet lol...

ah im leaving

laura

wow i had some fun tonight

SO theres this Boy....

and yet i cant stop thinking of him....

and NO one could even guess who it is either...

Dont you just love how that works? You dont give the name so a Bijilllion people start asking you who it is ....

i dont even think my best friend knows who im talking about either....

But all that will come in time...

for now.. things are just..normal...

dance is still the same...Church is still the same... School is still the same ( with a few exceptions) and The Play is still the same....

I havent seen my best friend for like 3 weeks before this past weekend.... i never get to talk to that girl...

and i ave set Goals for myself.. but no one wants to know about that so i wont bore you with that....

So right now my life is just Average...things come here and there but never stick....

well i better leave this thing.. comments maby?

i love you

AH ok soo alot has happened

Of sourse we had competiton and that was fun.. me and Cody broke up but we still good friends so thats good...

Competiton Next Friday in St.Louis! yay!!

Pretty sure my Valentines day is gonna SUCK! But its gonna be ok.. i guess

It Snowed today!!! YESSS! But ofcourse im sick.. EWWAHHH!

I think im gonna go Cuz im tired! leave me lots of G-reat Comments!

I Love you all! and Check out my new pictures

Laura

Ahh.. well i havent udated in a while... Umm Thanksgiving was AMAZING! soo was HARRY POTTER 4! ahh i so loved that!  i have had a great break.. dont wanna go back to school but o well.. did alot of shopping......

I will put pictures up tommorow!

I  Love You ALL!

<333 Laura!

Hello Loves!

Well lest see This week has been pretty good!

Dance is good,friends are good, Cody is good,Family is good,Church is goodand God is AMAZINGLY great! School is ok.. loL! but besides that everything has been great!!!!

Alexanna did leave us.. shes now at Smyrna.. so thats sad... But i still get to see her a little....

Last night was realy fun... We suprised alexanna.... lol! Tyler did come!But Over all the night was GREAT! we lost... really bad .. to Smyrna but its cooll.. we always loose! loL!

Now i just got ready for dance and i have 2 go to my brothers Soccer game first then dance then a party...

Well I think im going to go but i love you All!!

<33 La La La Laura

wow i Love this new Phusebox! yesss!

Well... lets see.... um school is great.. it can be pretty boring at times but still cool i guess.... um dance is awesome.. we gonna kick butt this year... its gonna be awesome... ALEXANNA u cant leave me and go to Smyrna! i will die! Seriously!
We had our homecomming game Friday.. yea we lost... 49-7 haha! and it was our homecomming lol! were losers! Umm o yea me and Cody r goin out so thats cool...well not alot left here i Love you guys!

well havent updated for a while..... this is still cool.. school is really fun.. i like some one! lol!! crazyness! theatre is so funny.. not looking foward to the variety show tho.. o well! i Love you all! ALEXANNA U CANT LEAVE ME!!!

Hey this Phuse Box is really cool!!! Well me and alexanna just got home from Jasons deli...Bed bath and beyond... and walmart! lol!!!! and omg it was hillarous!!!! i will put the pics up here later!!! so many cool things happened today!!! I wanna scream im so excited lol!! well im gonna go i love you all.. and i mean ALL