uhh ohh...i think i like a college boy....

i have a feeling, this is not going to be good...

i woke up to this...


and then, i went to eat...


and ate some birthday dessert


and i came home to find all my friends...

and then i got a cake!!!


so, all in all, my 18th birthday was fun...sorry it has taken so long to post...have a great week and good luck with midterms...

love_rebekah

saturday, morgan, my mom, and myself are going to see the rockettes and eat somewhere good...any suggestions on where to eat??

sunday is my birthday...family is going to bell buckle for lunch...

can you tell all holidays in my family center around food?  yummy!

I LOOOOOVE RACHAEL ROBERTSON!!
SHE IS DEFINETELY ONE OF MY
FAVORITE PEOPLE!
I LOVE HER BUNCHES!!

I MADE HER A PICTURE ON "PAINT" BUT PHUSEBOX WOULDNT LOAD IT...SOMETHING ABOUT BLAH BLAH BLAH   : (  <sad rebekah

so, i went to the doctor this morning and i have been put on voice rest because i have (a) a choir performance on the 16th (b) a choir concert on the 19th and (c) a voice recital on the 20th...so yeah, im freaking out.  you never really realize how isolated it would feel until someone says you can't talk...or sing.  it sucks.  though, i dont have to go to work today...the doctor wrote a note and said i couldnt work unless i dont have to talk...and my boss said i didnt have to come in...so yay!

so yeah, my mom is out getting my medicine (steroids for the voice and cough medicine)  though, my doctor said something about tea, honey, lemon and whiskey...i think my mom may try that one, just cause it seems funny...

have a great day! i love you!!

countdown to "the birthday" - 8 days!!!!!!!!!!

send me with fire to go love the world

i dont feel good

hope you've had a good day.

i dont drink, the last post was a song (my mom thought differently)

i love you

Well i've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
and i thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
but im just drunk enough to let go of my pain
to hell with my pride
let it fall like rain, from my eyes
Tonight, i wanna cry



"i'm not better than most girls...well, i am, i just dont tell them that."
_matt hall (the kid who thinks he better than, literally, everyone...)

i hate when people open my mail!!!

and what does my mother do?

she opens my ACCEPTANCE LETTER to union...and she doesnt think its a big deal...she thinks that it is her right to open my ACCEPTANCE LETTER!!!!

am i being stuck up?  but this is really bothering me!!! it's my ACCEPTANCE LETTER!!

and to top it off, she was like, yeah, well, you got into union, your letter came in mail, i guess you better start applying for scholarships if you wanna go, cause you arent going unless you get money...like it was nothing no big deal that i had just been accepted to my top choice school...like it was just some casual letter from a friend i see every day!

i dont really know how to start this...mainly because its a rant...and i dont want to offend anyone...so its all going to be as  vague as i can manage

1. i can't stand people who dont know how to keep their mouth shut.  you tell them things that you think are in confidance, but they have mindset to go talk about it...i dont care how mad or defensive it makes you! if you get that mad and upset, its probably for a reason.  we all hate to be called out, but sometimes it just has to happen.  and i hate it cause i care about the person i was talking about...he's still a friend and i wouldnt want to lose him for good, too painful really.  maybe i learned my lesson back in the 8th grade, but i guess some people arent learning it until their senior year...

2.  i had a very good talk with shana mcdaniel and matt hall the other night.  it was just about the future and what we want for ourselves, for our family, and for our future spouse.  just the future in general.  i just realized how much life i have left and i dont want to make anymore mistakes than i have to.  i want my husband and my little boys or my little girls.  and i want it to be hard.  but, i want Him to be there for me even when i can't hold my head up.  and another note, i dont really want to date anyone else this year,  i just dont want to get attached.  i use to think i wanted to marry someone i went to high school with, but now, i dont really.  i just want to live and let it happen.  and granted, i plan everything, i still want my life to fall in place, however God sees fit.  i've realized life is one big roller-coaster of emotional ups and downs, but i like it that way, if you were always happy or always sad, it may be void of anything real and true.  i need to go now, but i think there should always be three points, cause two seems lacking

3.  i like passion tea from starbuck's...i've found i can try all the teas, not get sick, and enjoy nice hot drinks (not coffee) all at once...yum yum...

so those are my three points...sorry if i hurt you.  im sorry if you have no idea what im talking about.  im sorry if you do know what im talking about, cause if you do, i most likely offended you.  but, know that i love you im just ready to move on. 

"...creatures whose life, on its miniature scale, will be qualitively like His own, not because He has absorbed them but because their wills freely conform to His" _C.S. Lewis The Screwtape Letters
reference verse "Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart" _Psalms 37:4

r.

so my wonderful day started at 5:30 this morning as i went to pick up rachael and madison for all-state tryouts!!!  they were fun and a little stressful...we us siegel kids just loooove pouring honey down our throats...i swear we had to look like some honey addicts with the way we were chuggin' that stuff!!

work, blah, blah, blah...

watched charlie and the chocolate factory...so so movie...

so apparently, i made MID-STATE which is good.  not great, but its better than nothing.  and the plus is that i wouldnt have to miss all-state because of spring break...congrats to everyone who auditioned and succeeded...fabulous darling...

today was a much-fun day!!!

_rebekah

i have been up a total of...18 HOURS!!!  im so tired and i think my voice isnt feeling all that hott...oh well, singing in church in the morning! we'll see how it goes i guess...

leaving for union...very excited...just pray that its all in god's will that i spend the next four years here and pary for megan, cause she's so stressed out...she may be graduating early...its really all in God's hands at this point with nothing we can do to help...i hate feeling helpless...

UNION
so, pretty sure my heart is set on union...if you dont know what union is or where it is, it is a christian college in jackson, tn.  im really really excited cause i've met a few students who are really nice; i have a roomate, maybe two, depending on if she graduates early; everything is just seeming to fall into place...i just have to find the means to pay for it...eek!
megan lacy, kyle mann, brittany, and i are all going on friday for a preview day.  starla went back in february, so yeah,  thats the clan.  excited cause megan and i are driving up there together and staying in the same hotel!  yay yay! i love that girl, she's such an awesome christian influence and it's really refreshing to walk into first period every morning and get to talk to her! 

_rebekah

so, going on the fall retreat...i'll be back on sunday...and im really excited about this yeah...though, it is also coupled with monotony cause we do the same thing every year, i love all the seniors going...so yeah, fun times

plus, i got my old job back...only working 3 days a week

and, im taking a college day to Union on Friday...cool

prone to wander, Lord, i feel it

prone to leave the God i love

here's my heart, Lord, take and seal it

seal it for thy courts above

won the game...whatever

went to starbuck's...whatever

WENT TO MARBLE SLAB AND I MISS IT SOOOO BAD!!! oh my gosh! you have NO idea!!  so, me and mom talked about it and she thinks it would be a good idea if i went back around thanksgiving and stayed until january...im super duper excited!!! i love all the people there and it makes the job about a gazillion times more fun....

_rebekah

gah, i love good moods! yay for harry potter! (random)

yay for the first saturday (in what seems like forever) that i get to sleep in!!!!

"something that is too good to be true probably is"

agree or disagree?  and why?

today was eventful...

ACT...whatever...

dance pictures...hope they turn out good...

dinner at sarah's....always something...

the MALL with sarah and jarred...then, we sat at starbuck's for forever...sarah is fun...jarred is fun...luckily, sarah went with so i didnt have to hang out with a boy all by my lonesome

i've decided im attracted to tall people...even though im short

_rebekah

variety show was fun...

went to eat with marie, brady, ruth, mary lane, jesse, nick, and jarred...that was fun too....steak n shake...dont know that i would ever go there again...yeah, lets just say, mary lane got a free meal!

night night!
 i love you soooooo much....

_rebekah


p.s. - oh yeah, so i heard about some dance team girls shootin down choir in the bathroom today...thats not cool...i mean really...i dont know...they said it right in front of a friend of mine who is in choir...so, yeah, people just need to grow up and appreciate people who actually get up there and try instead of sitting around and doing nothing...well, danceteam...but still, something that has credintials...

VARIETY SHOW AT 7:30!!!! GET THERE EARLY!!!!  COME! REGARDLESS OF IF YOU WANT TO!

love...rebekah

im bummed...sadness...

tonight was bad fad night...it was fun...except that someone in particular was there and he failed to speak to me...i dont know...well, he talked to me but it was weird...and i didnt necessarily like that.

"what the world needs now, is love sweet love, its the only thing, that theres just too little of..." _jackie deshannon....i dont know who sang this originally, but i have this chick singing it...

_rebekah

AWW! me and ryan at the wedding...its a cute picture, so i put it up so he can see it!

tomorrow is a pep rally!!! yay for pep rallies! yay for danceteam (even though a particular person **cough*salty*cough** is about to drive me up the wall!!!!!!!!

but anyway!! im hoping chelsea or amber will get queen, but im sure whoever gets it will deserve it...except that one girl...but anyway....

i love john mayer...and whoulda thunk it....i love olivia for letting me borrow it to put on my computer!!!

i love our new tops...

i love jarred cause he makes me happy! as does, weston and zach....they are my favorites! actually i have a lot more favorites but i can put everybody and those three are on my mind right now...

i love harry potter...reading the 4th book for the 3rd time right now...which is what i will go do...

hope you didnt waste your time on this cause, as i said, im not making any sense!

i love you!

love jesus!

rebekah!

so, i've just watched Diary of a Mad Black Woman and i really liked it...

people should forgive...i should forgive! i really hold onto things too much. i take things far too personally and i hold onto people far too long...

not saying that i'm going to start my life anew...but, im going to try this frogiveness thing and cut everyone some slack

so yes...i think i will

_rebekah

i love my little phusebox...and it loves me