Life, it can beat you down....close your eyes and just believe.

November 22 2005
i dont really know how to start this...mainly because its a rant...and i dont want to offend anyone...so its all going to be as  vague as i can manage

1. i can't stand people who dont know how to keep their mouth shut.  you tell them things that you think are in confidance, but they have mindset to go talk about it...i dont care how mad or defensive it makes you! if you get that mad and upset, its probably for a reason.  we all hate to be called out, but sometimes it just has to happen.  and i hate it cause i care about the person i was talking about...he's still a friend and i wouldnt want to lose him for good, too painful really.  maybe i learned my lesson back in the 8th grade, but i guess some people arent learning it until their senior year...

2.  i had a very good talk with shana mcdaniel and matt hall the other night.  it was just about the future and what we want for ourselves, for our family, and for our future spouse.  just the future in general.  i just realized how much life i have left and i dont want to make anymore mistakes than i have to.  i want my husband and my little boys or my little girls.  and i want it to be hard.  but, i want Him to be there for me even when i can't hold my head up.  and another note, i dont really want to date anyone else this year,  i just dont want to get attached.  i use to think i wanted to marry someone i went to high school with, but now, i dont really.  i just want to live and let it happen.  and granted, i plan everything, i still want my life to fall in place, however God sees fit.  i've realized life is one big roller-coaster of emotional ups and downs, but i like it that way, if you were always happy or always sad, it may be void of anything real and true.  i need to go now, but i think there should always be three points, cause two seems lacking

3.  i like passion tea from starbuck's...i've found i can try all the teas, not get sick, and enjoy nice hot drinks (not coffee) all at once...yum yum...

so those are my three points...sorry if i hurt you.  im sorry if you have no idea what im talking about.  im sorry if you do know what im talking about, cause if you do, i most likely offended you.  but, know that i love you im just ready to move on. 

"...creatures whose life, on its miniature scale, will be qualitively like His own, not because He has absorbed them but because their wills freely conform to His" _C.S. Lewis The Screwtape Letters
reference verse
"Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart" _Psalms 37:4

r.

Nick Hawkins

November 22 2005
Yea, I've tried switching to tea, because it would be better for me and not upset my stomach...but I just can't give up the coffee, not yet at least

Ben Moser

November 22 2005
it was good to see you anyways tonight. have a good thanksgiving

Kyle Commander

November 23 2005
its good you've got your head on straight and you know what you want...that will actually take you a lot farther than you expect....it's a good trait to have. for the most part of it, i don't know what you talking about...but i hope everything there gets worked out and differences can be settled...but i'll talk to you later. bye bekah!

Ben Moser

November 24 2005
i love you bekah. i truly love you. lol. ;) have an absolutely fantasticsuperamazingwonderful weekend.