meet josh. [please excuse the look on my face. i was being dumb]

this is the boy.
yeah. :-).
he makes me happy.

thought i'd post a picture.
just because. i can.
that's right.

k.so.
i'm not single anymore.

3-16-06.
<3

just for the record. the weather today.
is slightly sarcastic  with a good chance of.
a. indifference or
b. disinterest.
in what the critics say.[panic!atthedisco]

tonight should prove to be interesting.
boys trust shall be tested. as well as some peoples
maturity level. and my own judgement.
oh. the traumatic deals of highschool.
i can't wait until it's all over.
this needs to be settled.
although i can't lie, i'm slightly terrified of the outcome.
only slightly.

<3

smile for me daddy.
[whatcha lookin at?]
i wanna see ya grill
[you wanna see my wha?]
yeah. ya grill, yeah yeah, ya grill.

ohgees.haha.♥♥

i don't want to be just the girl you love to kiss. 
i don't want to be just the girl you run back to.
& i don't want you to fall back on me.
 i want to be your one and only...
your first choice... & the girl you're scared to leave.

so. i'm exhausted.
and thrilled that i only have two days of school
left in this week.
friday=dying my hair.
that makes me happy.
saturday is going to be a good day.
as well as sunday most likely.
i honestly can't wait till this weekend.
i'm really excited. pathetic, i know.
i think when he gets back.
i'm gonna ask him to help me burn some pictures.
some old letters.
some memories that i need to get rid of.
because it hurts to much to have them so close.
and i need to leave them behind.
i think that's what i'll do.
we'll have a fire and we'll watch my past burn.
and create new memories.
that sounds like a plan.<3

she diagnoses herself with indecency and anxiety
at least it's an excuse for her clothes being to tight
and the way she feels alone in a room full of people that she hates.
maybe someday she'll wipe off all the heavy make-up.
let someone in and see her hideous tears.
as they stain her pillow at night
while every morning the shower rinses them away.

ohmanohmanohman.
new hair?
for sure.
put a new pic on my profile so you guys
can see it.
i<3it.



lovve.

i close my eyes.
and for once.
i feel like i am happy.
<3