Haven't been on here in a really long time......i like phusebox, but so many more people i know are still xangans, so when i post on here not many people read it.  oh well, whatever.

Harry Potter was amazing, of course.  I saw it at Opry Mills in IMAX on Friday with my Etymology class, Mr. York, and Mr. Marlatt.  It was so much fun :  ) Characterizations were a little wierd sometimes, but I thought the special fx were great and all the major action plot points were covered.  I thought a few scenes could have been added in there for backstory, without sacrificing too much time, but w/e, it was still great.  I cried when Cedric died, I'm such a dork.  later.

VMI was great, we won and our run was so freaking clean!!!!!

Happy Halloween, go get fat on candy!

Haven't updated on here in a while......life's going pretty well.  Marching season will be over soon so I'll actually have time to SLEEP again.  Hopefully.  Well, I'll be getting more hours at work, so maybe I won't.  Who knows.  At least I won't be marching anymore.  It's weird that it's my last season.  Of course I'm feeling sad but overall it's been a great season and I'm excited my band experience is ending on such a high note. (Odd, the season where we haven't won everything is the season that I'm having the most in)  One more football game and one more competition.  ANYWAY, everything is going pretty good, school is decent.  I'm going to take the ACT for the last time on Saturday.  I was worried about it, but not anymore.  I just don't care that much right now.  (I can feel that senioritis kicking in.)  I'm failing Calculus for this six weeks, but, again, I don't care that much right now.  What *do* I care about right now?  Getting more hours at work so I can buy more music.  (Sacrificing gas money for cd's isn't really working out.)  Being able to hang out with my friends again.  Thinking about moving out of this house.  (I want to leave so badly.  And at the same time, I want to hang on for as long as possible.)

That's all.  cya later

is so much fun.

About as much fun as fucking a porqupine....or having Beavis in my section.......or listening Juergens's anecdotes....



or tearing off my own limbs using a spork.







That was the most random entry I've ever written. thanks for reading, even though it was completely pointless.

i likes me some taters and bacon, especially when they're accompanied by french horn serenades from fallopius.

Your face is God's fumble.

Every time Mrs. Juergens says "Britons" in relation to the freaking Anglo-Saxons that's what I think of. Just thought you oughta know.


And now I feel like watching "The Holy Grail." Anyone want to join me?

Is it an African or a European swallow?

I am completely inept at.....everything!!!!!!! ARGHHHHHH!!!!! don't be my friend anymore.

I don't have to work today!!!!!! So you should call me, and we can chill.

1) siegel won against oakland....20 to 14....freaking amazing.

2) I gave up. But I'm ok, don't worry : )

is the coolest show ever. who agrees?

Happy Birthday to Grace!!!!! Her party was so much fun....laser tag is way cool....and so is grace!! I LOVE YOU and I hope you had a great time at your party! Happy 17th!

and now.....SFI + IC time : (

Yay for pancakes!
No yay for the most unfun practice ever.

so, yeah........summer reading really sucks. especially when you leave a book you could have read anytime this summer to finish in one weekend. grrr...

well, at least I had -some- fun today. I bought not one, but TWO dresses. I haven't bought a dress (besides a costume) since I was 11. that's saying something. they're both -really- cute. now the problem is deciding which one to wear to Grace's partay, because that's the reason I bought them. the pretty dress part is required. how well i'll hold up for two games of laser tag in a dress and heels.....i'll take bets on that one.

I guess I'll go back to finding symbolism in a literally homoerotic victorian novel and trying to finish Crime and Punishment. cya monday.

Yellow - Coldplay

Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And everything you do,
Yeah, they were all yellow.

I came along,
I wrote a song for you,
And all the things you do,
And it was called Yellow.

So then I took my turn,
Oh what a thing to have done,
And it was all yellow.

Your skin
Oh yeah, your skin and bones,
Turn into something beautiful,
You know, you know I love you so,
You know I love you so.

I swam across,
I jumped across for you,
Oh what a thing to do.

Cuz you were all yellow,
I drew a line,
I drew a line for you,
Oh what a thing to do,
And it was all yellow.

Your skin,
Oh yeah your skin and bones,
Turn into something beautiful,
And you know for you,
I'd bleed myself dry for you,
I'd bleed myself dry.

It's true, look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine.

Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And all the things that you do.

So I have officially decided that this was the best band camp I've ever had, even better than freshman year. But I'm still glad it's over. I'm really tired.

I got my senior pictures done at 9:30 this morning. I thought I was going to get to sleep in. But no. I got up at the same time I've been getting up all week. And to do something that I absolutely hate. Curse cameras. (You know they steal your soul)

And now I have to go back to my calculus summer work. I really wish I had done this earlier. There are much more interesting things I could have been doing this weekend.

Day 3 of band camp.....4 out of 5 songs on the field. That's so amazing. I have a really good feeling about this season, I'm actually really excited about this show. I haven't been able to say that since freshman year.

And hey, congrats to percussion and guard.....Sections of the night! Woot!!!!

This weekend was so much fun!!! Tyler's birthday was on Friday, yay for cookies and stupid party hats! Then on Saturday, Marylane came over and she and my dad and I painted my room, and it's soooooo great! I've been waiting such a long time to do this, and I'm totally happy with the color. It's purple; the technical color is "Starry Sky." Then I went and hung out with Tyler, Katie, and Adam at the library and we saw an "octopus" in the fountain. Today I moved all my furniture back in my room and put my posters and such back on my walls, and now I'm typing out this entry.

Now, it's time for band camp. *heaves a giant sigh of resignation*

With a name like Smuckers, it has to be good.

If you're not Grace, you're not going to understand where that came from lol.

Why can't I accept that the boy-thing isn't going to happen soon, and be happy with that? Why do I always have to be wishing that there's something more going on than what there really is? I feel so much better about myself even compared to one year ago, so much more comfortable in my own skin. And I've loved hanging out with my friends this summer, being able to laugh and be stupid and not be worried that other people will think I'm unacceptable. And now I'm really excited about this marching season, not just because the music is cool and I'm actually enjoying being a section leader (so far, knock on wood), but because I'll get to be with all these awesome people so much for the next year. Why can't I just be happy with this level I've reached, why do I have to keep wanting more? It's not like a boy would make me a better person. I know deep down somewhere that I'm fine just the way I am, and it's not a big deal that I haven't found someone yet. I know the right one will come along and everything will be just great and beautiful. I know that I should enjoy each part of my life, because they're all definitely worth savoring. I know these things. It's just hard to convince myself when I see the couples holding hands, looking at each other like there's no one else in the world at that moment but them. It's hard not to want that so badly that it just destroys my happiness with whatever other great things I have. I'm trying to be satisfied, I really am. It's just hard.

Pre camp started yesterday......I think it went well. I like helping the midgets learn how to march. And our music sounded really cool when we put it with the percussion parts, especially "II." Anyway, that's all, because I have to go work out now. Bye!

She walks in beauty, like the night
Of cloudless climes and starry skies,
And all that's best of dark and bright
Meets in her aspect and her eyes.

~~~~~~By the way, Abbey Road is such a good album~~~~~

I'm just a waste of her energy,
And she's just wasting my time.
So why don't we get together,
And we could waste everything tonight.
And we could waste, and we could waste it all tonight.

Love's just a waste of our energy, yeah,
And this life's just a waste of our time.
So why don't we get together;
We could waste everything tonight.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


~ It's never going to happen, is it? I just....But I don't deserve that kind of happiness. Yeah, probably not.


Why am I not good enough?


I wish I had someone to talk to right now, I really do. ~


sorry, that was waaaay too vague and very emo.

practice tonight......plus a lame cookout.

again, i'm trying to muster up a ' woot ' but it's just not happening lol.

I can't go to DCI, because I have to work. But it's not a big deal, I wasn't that pumped about going anyway.

I'm about 1/3 done with Frankenstein, So that's 1 1/3 books out of 3 done so far. Haven't even started on my calc summer work. Well, there's always the old standby, "It'll get done.....eventually." The story of my life.

Maybe I should try to start off on the right foot my senior year. I'm going to go work on my calc.

wow that was a really boring entry. sorry.

bye

and I still haven't read two of my summer reading books.

I think I'm FINALLY going to get to repaint my room. No more freaking flowers!!!!!!! I hate those stupid flowers. The weekend between precamp and band camp is when my dad and I will go for it, if nothing random gets in the way. *crosses all 10 fingers*

who else has to play at summer school graduation?

if I don't see you there tomorrow, I'll probably see you on tuesday...first practice of the season....
*I'm trying to muster up a ' woot ' but it's just not happening*