spiritual
yes, well i have been too cought up in guys that won't love me as much as this one & so i have found the one guy for me...God...i think i have been too cought up in others to relize that he is there & he loves me more than any guy on earth could...i am just to boneheaded to see it..yes i know they say this every week at church & i am just now relizing it...so i think i am gonna take a break from earthly guys & stick to the one one i will spend eternity with..the Lord so right now i am saying this...for every cute guy that comes & goes (and is stupid enought to break up over the internet becuase of your parents) i am gonna have the one Lord right there to comfort me...so i am think i am gonna take a break from boyfreinds right now...sorry the cute guy who works at kroger...who doesn't think i am just an imature sophmore because he is a senior...i am taking a break from guys to get back on the Godly path that is just right for me...now this really really really REALLY makes me wanna go to bigg stuf really bad now that i relize that i have been focused on stuff that won't be with me in heven...like this computer...i spend all day & all night on it...i think i need to take a little time of this thing i& read my Bible for a change...i mean all this stupid thing does is cause drama in my life that i can't fix...that is why i am handing my life to God & let Him help me "because i can do things throught CHRIST who strethen's me...well if i can't go to bigg stuf i guess i will have one of my own bigg stuf...at my house...

deicated to my lovely sister hannah taylor
& i am upset that my little sister is growing up so fast soon she will be in my place dating, drama, cheerleading, best freind movie trips, heartbreak, breakups, long convo's with that special someone, fights with her best freinds, them leaving you for someone else, tring to find your place in life...i am upset that she is gonna be gone till thursday in ky & this is her 1st big trip away from home...she went to st. louis last year but that was only for 2 days...but i mean my hannah taylor hale is almost a yuc!! yes can you belive it...our little starfish is almost a yuc gah she is growing up so fast (only beile-aire folks would know understand that last part) soon she will be sitting right where i am talking about me going to college or something gosh i know sometimes i just wanna punch her...but hannah taylor i love you sooo soo soo soo much & i am gonna miss you dearly while you are at crosspoint...even thought i said i wasn't gonna miss you you know i will miss you so much!! hannah i love you & never forget that...even though you probally won't see this till when you get home...i will put it in my xanga just for you in my next entry

my new cell phone
oh yeah i am getting a new cell phone!! kayla is a VERY happy person!! well i haven't got it yet because they haven't got the check in the mail for my parent's bill yet...they are putting me on thier cingular plan & i get 25 free text to send & to talk to any cingula person free..so if ya got cingular i will be calling you...oh yeah i am getting a phone like elizabeth's

yes..sorry for being so long i just had to get some stuff out

love you all...espically my Lord Jesus Christ
Kayla!!

edit:
i have found a new faorite song...thanks to elizabeth

I'm 15 for a moment
Caught in between 10 and 20
And I'm just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are

I'm 22 for a moment
She feels better than ever
And we're on fire
Making our way back from Mars

15 there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to lose
15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live

I'm 33 for a moment
Still the man, but you see I'm a they
A kid on the way
A family on my mind

I'm 45 for a moment
The sea is high
And I'm heading into a crisis
Chasing the years of my life

15 there's still time for you
Time to buy, Time to lose yourself
Within a morning star

15 I'm all right with you
15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live

Half time goes by
Suddenly you're wise
Another blink of an eye
67 is gone
The sun is getting high
We're moving on...

I'm 99 for a moment
Dying for just another moment
And I'm just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are

15 there's still time for you
22 I feel her too
33 you're on your way
Every day's a new day...

15 there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to choose
Hey 15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live

five for fighting