and i ponder the question

February 09 2006

We were having supper with some friends the other night and I happen to make a comment that stuck with me. I said "I'm gonna go sit infront of the ocean and talk to God for a while"



I sat on the bench below.



My question is now this... HOW can someone sit infront of the ocean and not talk to God?



He told this wave below where it had to stop. This wave is big and powerful, trust me, I was under it. But my God, who dwells in me, who intentionally tortured his son on MY behalf... looked at it and said "This far you may come, and no farther" [reference: Job 38]





Holy Holy Holy



Lord, God Almighty



All thy works



Shall claim thy name



In earth and sky and sea

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February 07 2006

So I'm finally flying over to spend the weekend with my boys Hodge and Jeff... That poor island doesn't know whats about to hit when the 3 of us get togther.... haha, it's gonna be awesome!



You may here stories on the news!

cruzin...

January 29 2006

So I rode a motorcycle up the north shore of Hawaii today... it was awesome, pics to come soon!



My brothers and sisters, I ride on your prayers


One thing, thats all... Another Question

January 28 2006

If you could say one thing to an apathetic christian, what would it be?





So, I have a question.

January 18 2006



As most of you are fast asleep on the east coast of our beloved United States I lay on my twin mattress in the middle of the pacific ocean where it is curently 930 with a burning question on my heart.




We've become good at this whole "church language" thing, you and I. We walk this life in the midst of our Christian culture listening to our "christian music" and what not, often spouting weighty phrases with shallow intent.




So, here is my question. What is your answer?




What does it mean for God to be the "consuming fire" in our lives?







We say this phrase and sing this phrase all the time, but what does it mean?




YOUR TURN...

So Long, I'm Gone...

January 15 2006


The gate is wide, the road is paved in moderation. The crowd is kind and quick to pull you in. Welcome to the middle ground. It's safe and sound and until now it's where I've been. Cause it's been fear that ties me down to everything. But it's been love, YOUR LOVE that cuts the strings.





 





So long status quo, I think I just let go. You make me want
to be brave. I wanna be brave. The way it always was, is no longer good enough. You make me want to be brave. Brave…





 





I am small, And I speak when I'm spoken to. But I am willing to risk it all. I say Your name, just your name and I'm ready to jump, even ready to fall... Why did I take this vow of compromise? Why did I try to keep it all inside?






So long status quo
, I think I just let go. You make me want to be brave. I wanna be brave. The way it always was, is no longer good enough. You make me want to be brave. Brave…







I've never known a fire that didn't begin with a flame. Every storm will start with just a drop of rain. But, if you believe in me. That changes everything. So long, I'm gone…



So long status quo, I think I just let go. You make me want to be brave. I wanna be brave. The way it always was, is no longer good enough. You make me want to be brave. Brave…








This says absolutely everything... the pictures are random, but they fit perfectly. So long status quo, i think i just let go...

What is your status quo?
What is it that the strings of fear bind you to?
What if someone cut them, and you were free?

I ride on your prayers...
JV

not much of a loco gato kinda man...

January 13 2006
So yesterday I had my first experience in authentic Hawaii food... and it was quite the experience. This wonderful and strange creation consist of two hamburger patties, two over-easy eggs, smothered in brown gravy and over white rice. They call this style of "food" "Loco" which is spanish for "crazy" and i think it might be an adequate description. Oh the irony...

here is a wonderful visual description for you.


this next pic is a cat who lives here at the BSU... i HATE him... i've actually thrown him across the room a few times.



Love never fails! (1 cor 13 8)

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January 11 2006
well... were up to day 3 here in Hilo... and ill be honest, it's been quite the adventure! I "moved" into a house with 4 other guys today... i'm stayin in the lower level with 2 other guys. i have a twin mattress on the floor... and its awesome, everything i need... and im even thinkin it's gonna work out better than the two foot too short couch i've been on since i got here... haha

but things are going well... God has definitely proven himself faithful!
got a few pics for you to enjoy, feel free to comment and let me know you are still there...

**this is Anavah (john's (my boss who is 25) daughter) playing in my rainbows, more like skiing for her**


**yesterday we got to go "exploring"... it was awesome, here im standing on lava (cooled) in the ocean watching waves crash against it and splash 40 feet in the air, then one splashed against my lava and i got soaked... here i was contimplating the passage in Job 38, read that and it will give you a better perspective on this pic**


** les and i had a short lay-over in maui so jeff and hodge came and saw us for a bit, they were awesome and seem to be really in their "element", and honestly jeff martin is too much for this island! **


**yeah, and the rumors are true... this milk is $8, given it's at our lovely 711 thats right down the road, but still thats almost 3 times the price of a gallon of gas... last night les and i went there and bought a $10 bowl of cereal for this morning... haha, im gonna go broke buying food in this town...**


**this is our lovely BSU (BCM) here in Hilo... it's really cool, a lot of student come and hang out here all day inbetween all their classes...**


** these lovely individuals are amazing! they came to send us off... for that i will be forever greatful! **

and thats all for now, i gotta go find a postoffice to send some papers in so i can get paid... so i can buy more food.... haha

you guys are in my prayers and i hope we're in your's

"Love never fails.." 1cor 13:8

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January 10 2006
What up guys.. if by chance you decided that you loved me enough to send me something cool and make me feel like im at home here is my address....

just put mine or Les's name on it

1409 Kapiolani St.
Hilo Hi, 96720

Love you guys,
All In

Hilo

January 10 2006
So... Im here... I've been on 4 planes today and 5 different flights, in the air for 14 hours, in 5 different airports and now im finally resting on a couch in the BCM that's about 2 feet too short...

At the moment i can barely concentrate to type these words, so if they are a little nonsensical, nevermind... but i wanted to write and say that i got here.

All is well at the moment. Les and I are both a little overwhelmed by everything. After all, it has been an emotionally traumatic day! But, God is faithful!

It's times like this when I find awesome peace in the fact that this life is not about me. I took a short glance at the sunrise as Tracie was taking me to the airport this morning and He settled my heart with that thought.

I love you guys and i covet your prayers!
All In...


I'M GOING TO PICK A FIGHT... (best William Wallace accent)

December 08 2005


**A seven-year old boy was at the center of a Nashville
courtroom drama yesterday when he challenged a court ruling over who
should have custody of him. The boy has a history of being beaten by
his parents and the judge initially awarded custody to his aunt, in
keeping with child custody law and regulations requiring that family
unity be maintained to the degree possible. The boy surprised the court
when he proclaimed that his aunt beat him more than his parents and he
adamantly refused to live with her. When the judge suggested that he
live with his grandparents, the boy cried out that they also beat him.  After considering the remainder of the immediate family and
learning that domestic violence was apparently a way of life among
them, the judge took the unprecedented step of allowing the boy to
propose who should have custody of him. After two recesses to check
legal references and confer with child welfare officials, the judge
granted temporary custody to the Tennessee Vols, whom the boy firmly
believes are not capable of beating anyone. **

found this on someone's facebook and thought it was hillarious...

oh, don't get all bent out of shape... it's only football...



I CAN NOT WAIT!

December 01 2005

34 more days till we... as a generation will gather for His renown.... His fame... His glory...


Passion 06....


one chance...


one life....


make it count...


make it matter...


live for something eternal...


live for something great....


live for His Renown.....


www.268generation.com
Isaiah 26:8



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November 26 2005

So, it's 2 days after thanksgiving and you're bored out of your mind. Nobody is left in town and you are out of ideas. What do you do? Humanize your favorite childhood heros... the ninja turtles! (minus donatello)...


It makes for an interesting evening... or atleast it killed about 20 minutes of our time!

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November 21 2005



"I love to think of nature as an unlimited
broadcasting station, through which God speaks to us every hour, if we
will only tune in." - George Washington Carver ...


This is Hilo, Hawaii

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November 07 2005

In my confusion and frustration, I look to the ever stable and Lord of all, Father I was put here to serve. On him, I rely, for answers to, season of which to pass, and points at which to meet on this journey He has me on. All dependence on and clinging to, a false sense of security or a useless lifestyle spent fleeting “risk”, is only from the enemy. I will not be swayed by his influence. I will continue to search completely after the heart of God Almighty. This path doesn’t promise anything other than His glory and so, it is my life-blood and purpose. My focus is clear and my heart is set.

Starlight and Sweetness... Mr. Wertz

November 04 2005




fallin' asleep to the sound of stars shootin' round the moon
but i can't watch them fly tonight, baby
i'm too busy watching you
i guess your smile is the sun's way of lighting up what's dark, yeah
so shine, shine, shine, for me baby
it only takes a spark
sweetness in starlight
sweetness 'til the day sighs
sweetness in starlight
sweetness 'til the sunrise, yeah...oh the day sighs
and there's nothin' under these bright stars
that could bring this night to ruin
so hold on tightly to me, baby
cuz tonight's gonna end too soon
and your touch is potent medicine, oh
knocks me out with just one shot, yeah
i've never seen such strong elixir, baby
it fixes all that i'm not
you fix all that im not, yeah
sweetness in starlight
sweetness 'til the day sighs
sweetness in starlight
sweetness 'til the sunrise
yeah, i'm holdin' on so tightly baby
i won't let you go
i won't let you go...
sweetness in starlight

Decided to go back just minute ago and listen to some stuff I hadn't listened to in a while. Matt Wertz was the artist of choice.

Man, i had forgotten how cool this song is! It should be the theme of every high school prom in the country or something!

Now comes another familiar tune and he is telling me everything's right... man, this guy is cool!

And He set me on fire, and I am burning alive.

November 03 2005


And He set me on fire, and I am burning alive. With His breath in my lungs I am coming undone. And I cannot hold it in and I cannot remain composed. Love’s taken over me and so I propose the letting myself go. I am letting myself go. You are my joy. You are my joy. You are my joy. You are my joy. I need to catch my breath, I need to. I need to catch my breath, give me a moment, now. I’m laughing so hard…



You are my joy
You are my joy
You are my joy
You are my JOY!


A prayer for the day…

The Barbarian Way

October 25 2005
Jesus the King came to fight for your heart! If He has won your heart, then to follow your heart will always lead you to follow the heart of God. - McManus

sigur ros

October 13 2005

Who is this that questions my wisdom with such ignorant words? Brace yourself, because I have some questions for you, and you must answer them!




photo from justincredible


(job 38:1-15)



Where were you when I laid the foundations of the earth? Tell me, if you know so much. Do you know how its dimensions were determined and who did the surveying? What supports its foundations, and who laid its cornerstone as the morning stars sang together and all the angels shouted for joy?





photo from justincredible




Who defined the boundaries of the sea as it burst from the womb, and as I clothed it with clouds and thick darkness? For I locked it behind barred gates, limiting its shores. I said, `Thus far and no farther will you come. Here your proud waves must stop!'



photo from justincredible


Have you ever commanded the morning to appear and caused the dawn to rise in the east? Have you ever told the daylight to spread to the ends of the earth, to bring an end to the night's wickedness? For the features of the earth take shape as the light approaches, and the dawn is robed in red. The light disturbs the haunts of the wicked, and it stops the arm that is raised in violence.




photo from justincredible


(31-37)



Can you hold back the movements of the stars? Are you able to restrain the Pleiades or Orion? Can you ensure the proper sequence of the seasons or guide the constellation of the Bear with her cubs across the heavens? Do you know the laws of the universe and how God rules the earth?



Can you shout to the clouds and make it rain? Can you make lightning appear and cause it to strike as you direct it? Who gives intuition and instinct? Who is wise enough to count all the clouds? Who can tilt the water jars of heaven?

A Moment

October 10 2005
As I sit in my office, Nichole Nordeman’s eloquent words quietly pace through my mind. “I am” she says. Each one seems to speak separately, as I take them in. This particular talent for writing would be considered anointed, I think.


I sit here and write. I sit here confused and wondering. This writing, an expression of what, I don’t know, and to whom, I’m not sure. Writing, it’s something I’ve grown up hating, but have grown to love. This information is beginning to become useful. What do I love? Not what other’s love, for my sake, but what do I love? I can name a few, but they seem to be independent, with little in common.


I’ve accepted the fact that I don’t need to know what will happen along the way, only what direction I am pointing. For I am sure of my destination, and I rest in that peace, but the planning, human side of me wants to talkback in question. He wants to ask for a plan, for answers, for just a little more light on the situation than I’ve been given at this moment.



So I sit here and wait. I wait on …


I bow my head, submit to who I know is truly in control, and make decisions only in the light He mercifully chooses to shed. I meander through desires, feelings, dreams, emotions, and personal plans with only one intent.





I fall. I rest, in the consuming fire. A beautiful surrender wraps me as He holds.
My heart fills with hope from time spent with Him.


This is what He was looking for.


A moment in the day, when I remember