So here's what happened:

So have you ever heard of soul tithes? Well a soul tithe is bad.

It's where you have a heart ache for someone you shouldn't be thinking about. In order to break a soul tithe you have to be honest and tell that person how you feel. It was my way of clearing the air so I could breathe again. Well I pour my heart out to this person whop I am attempting to break my soul tithe with, and you know what happened? It turned into a conversation I would never have with anyone. I mentioned something I shouldn't have and it turned around to reflect on "what a bad person I am" Which honestly the things that were said hurt me very badly. So I just avoided everything and turned off my phone and left my house. Here's what happened after I left my house, I went to a friend, who would maybe try and talk some since into me about just forgetting about it but instead here's what happened. I told him WORD FOR WORD about the conversation I had with this previous person, and instead of getting the whole yelling speech here's what he did, He hugged me and said "That guy isn't right for you. You did the right thing by telling him how you felt, but he's the one who's missing out." Which he showed me compassion, and understanding. NOT YELLING, NOT BRINGING ME DOWN, NOT MAKING ME FEEL LIKE I WAS ALONE AGAIN. NOT MAKING ME FEEL LIKE IT WAS MY FAULT!!!!! Which was a big deal. But you know it doesn't always happen. But I'll be fine. I just decide to erase a fraction of my life from my memory. I now realize his opinion of me doesn't matter. That I am now a very different person. I am now a much more viberant person. That I am now very independent. I now realize that the person who makes me want to die is just another person, another face in the crowd. And I'm one of those faces too. We all make mistakes? So that does't mean you can make yourself perfect for one person. I mean you can't controll someone you don't even care about. You can't be paranoid about something you're never gonna fix.

So get over it.