I'm finally 18.....

I'll write my thoughts later...

I went to CUSTOMS again at MTSU...this time for Alicia. Ehh...it wasn't that bad. I'm just glad I helped her get her schedule done. I actually feel comfortable that I know where I am going around campus. I actually even remembered where I parked. I didn't get lost once.

VBS hasn't been near as much fun as it was last year. I am very disappointed. I have the 5th and 6th grade kids this year. The girls have been wonderful....the boys on the other hand have been HORRIBLE. I don't think I've ever been around more disrespectful kids than I have this week. I made a vow that my kids would NEVER act like that and if they did boy would they hate me to be their mother. UGH.

Far Away by Nickelback

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know


I love you
And I've loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

Okay so maybe I won't go into ALL of the details because it would take way too long but I will give you the general idea.

I taught the kindergarden and 1st grade sunday school class today. I went into it feeling nervous and kind of feeling out of my norm for a bit. I had SO much fun. I think little children are so much fun to teach because they get excited if you get excited. We had a lot of fun with crafts, games, and the lesson. They are SO smart...it made me proud that they could answer ALL of the review questions before they left.

We had a visitor and his name was Christopher Jon Stewart. He was the CUTEST boy I think I've ever seen besides Joshua Ayers. Boys can be so sweet and cute when they are little. Awww.

And tonight is VBS! I am so excited! I feel just like a kid again........ :-) :-)

Yes....even as I'm reading the title of my blog I'm thinking...."You're tired. Get over it. That's life." Mhmm.

Been busy but happy as well.

Been having weird weird dreams with the same people in them......weird.....

And have I mentioned that shopping for babies is SO much fun and SO expensive? I can't leave the store without having to spend.....a lot. I will find so many adorable things that it takes me FOREVER to decide. My sister just has to have another baby girl for me to spoil......:-)

I was driving home tonight from church and only one question seemed to conquer my mind.

What am I doing?

"Without You Here"

Your love's a gathered storm I chased across the sky
A moment in your arms became the reason why
And you're still the only light that fills the emptiness
The only one I need until my dying breath
And I would give you everything just to
Feel your open arms
And I'm not sure I believe anything I feel

I need you.

I spent a lot of time outside tonight surrounded by my family while celebrating the 4th. I couldn't stop thinking about how much time seemed to be flying. It seems this summer is on fast forward and I don't know how to stop it.

Too much stuff going on in my life to write about and more than likely not things I would share.

And here's a question......what do you tell someone who has a staring problem....a HUGE staring problem?

Do you ever find the situations or the place you are in life...odd or better yet ironic?

If you would have told me I would be at the place I am right now a year ago I would have laughed at you.

I've realized a lot in the past week. I know what I think would make me happy. The only question is if it would be worth it.

Paul McCartney - This Never Happened Before

I'm very sure, this never happened to me before

I met you and now I'm sure

This never happened before

Now I see, this is the way it's supposed to be
I met you and now I see
This is the way it should be

This is the way it should be, for lovers
They shouldn't go it alone
It's not so good when you’re on your own

My grandmother had another stroke today. She's in the hospital now.

Please pray for her...

My grandmother is believed to have had a mini stroke today. Please pray nothing worse develops.

All I can do is pray.

This is tearing me up inside. It's hard to be strong when you feel you aren't.....

The summer has been going very well so far. I work ALL the time and it's great. When I'm not working I'm either at the greenway or laying out and loving the sun. And having the best friends a girl could have definitely makes the summer 10 times better.

I've decided to sponsor a child through the Christian Children's Fund. He is 11 years old and his name is Ocen Kenneth. He lives in Africa and is an adorable child. I feel very blessed.

I'm excited to see how this summer will turn out. I'm excited to see how different my life is going to be...if I ever let it.

Hope you guys are doing well.

I went to the greenway today after I visited with my grandmother for awhile. I go there to think...to breathe...to get away where I can be alone.

I've felt so many different emotions at the greenway. Complete happiness. Sadness. Fulfillment. Closure. Anticipation. Feeling lost. Feeling found. It seems to be my safe haven away from my world.

Listen to this song. It describes how I feel.

http://www.palisadehills.com/upload/03%20Be%20Be%20Your%20Love.wma

I've met someone. How does a person know when they are ready to start dating again?

I have such a hunger for God. It's so indescribable. I ache for Him. I am nothing but everything because of Him. I would be incomplete without His presence in my heart and in my soul. I can't physically see Him yet I can see Him more clearly than I can see anyone else. I see His love surround me everywhere I go. He is God. He is my Father. He is my life. Living means living for Him...I have no other purpose but to serve Him.

postamble();Today was perfect. I laid out early in the morning until I had to get ready to go to work. I finally have somewhat of a tan now. And now I am going to the Encounter College service for the first time tonight.

I think the best way to describe life is amazingly perfect. It's incredible how wonderful life is when you finally give everything to God....not that there was anything for me to give because He already had it all.

Tomorrow is the "Passing of the Torch" service. I'm so excited to pass mine.

Hope you guys are well....

Okay so...customs is this week.....Thursday and Friday. And I've been on mtsu review...it's helpful.....but there are so many different teachers for the exact same class that it's hard to choose what teacher I would like to have.

I kind of feel AHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have a lot of mixed emotions about today. I'm finally ready to close the chapter of my high school experiences and open the one for the future.

I'm ready to put most things of high school in the past and I'm ready to move forward. I'm excited and nervous at the same time.

But most of all I'm ready for what God has planned for my future.

Congratulations to all those seniors out there that are graduating.

I praise Him for today and for everything

I don't know what to say. Some days are better than others. Some days I get so busy that I forget....and then some days.....all I can do is remember.

I'm tired of all of it. The only thing I hate is that I'm not as strong as I "pretend" to be.

And the truth of not being good enough is what hurts the most.....

Life can be ironic.....too ironic.

Let Everything That Has Breath
by Matt Redman

 Let everything that, everything that
Everything that has breath praise the Lord
Let everything that, everything
Everything that hast breath praise the Lord

 Praise You in the morning
Praise You in the evening
Praise You when I'm young and when I'm old
Praise You whem I'm laughing
Praise You when I'm grieving
Praise You every season of the soul

If we could see how much You're worth
Your power, You might, Your endless love
Then surely we would never cease to (parts) praise

Let everything that, everything that
Everything that has breath praise the Lord
Let everything that, everything
Everything that hast breath praise the Lord

 Praise You in the heavens
Join with the angels
Praising You forever and a day
Praise You on the earth now
Join with creation
Calling all the nations to Your praise

If they could see how much You're woth
Your power, Your might, Your endless love
Then surely they would never cease to (parts) praise

I will worship, I will worship
I will worship You with every breath
I will worship, I will worship
I will worship You with every breath

We will worship, We will worship
We will worship You with every breath
We will worship, We will worship
We will worship You with every breath