Well you guys I am about to head out. I am going to Harvard University I was accepted amung others from across the globe to study there to become a better leader and take a class. I will be completing over 50 class hours while I am there. Please be praying for me while I am in Boston. I will not know anyone besides who I meet. Well I hope you guys have an awesome time I will be back in 10 days.

make it this one. Today in church I had tears just role down my eyes like sweat from my brow. I listened to one of the most amazing story I had ever heard come from a soldier, man named Jonathan. He told us this story right before playing "Our God is an Awesome God." I was in infantry school in GA. I want you to picture a little church not able to seat more than 300 people. Now this church had no A/C and a tiny stage. Now picture it with 500 soldiers. Full uniform in the middle of summer. Many were standing and some were holding chairs so that there was enough room. I became the worship leader of this church. I got so tired of playing the same song every week. (we had new people coming and leaving so we kept it simple he explained). Every week the Army here had a tradition of yelling, right after "Our God is an awesome God he reigns" they would yell, not always with the timing or perfect at all "HE REIGNS" Every time. The 500 soldiers who later that week had drill sargents yellilng at them, then the soldiers yelling orders to each other during firing practice. They would yell that day to their ultimate athority. That alone would make you realize the power of God. But in another platoon I met a guy named Chris Fifer. He was a professing wicken. We practiced witch craft daily. He started coming to the chapel, however, to get out of mess duty. As did a lot of other soldiers. Eventually God worked in him and had him yelling with the rest of the men "HE REIGNS" with his hands held to the sky. This had a lot of guys including three unsaved drill sargents come and ask what we gave to him to make him change. Well a while ago Chris was with his squad doing patrol on the streets of Baghdad. He was in full body armor and helmet. But snipers know just where to put the bullet. That day Chris was shot right in the soft spot of his armor. He spent 2 months in a hospital in Germany before being moved to a hospital in Texas to be closer to his family. Surviving on all sorts of medical equipment one day before his daughter was born Chris died. His daughter never got to meet her father. And becuase of this song that we sang every sunday for 6 months I know that she will in heaven one day.

So Tom Petty never really had great videos but I thought a lot of his songs were pretty awesome, like "Free Falling" another great song. Well I hope you enjoy Tom Petty "I Won't Back Down"

Always be ready for what you say to be the last thing you say to someone because it might be. Something I learned...and I swear to my god that it will eat you alive if you aren't careful.

I wanna love you like Forrest loved Jenny,

I will run for 3 years 2 months 14 days and 16 hours to get to you.

 

I wanna love you like Wyatt Earp loved Josephine Marcus,

I will have no pride, no dignity, and no money, I am not sure how we will make a living but I promise to love you.  

 

I wanna love you like Johnny loved June, 

I will walk the line for you until the end of time.

 

I wanna love you like Homer loved Marge Simpson,

I will be confused but I will always know I loved you.

 

I wanna love you like Westley loved Buttercup,

I will get caputured but I swear to make it back to you.

 

I wanna love you like Ross loved Rachel,

I will do my best not to let you get on that plane out of my life.

 

I wanna love you like Han loved Leia,

I will run through the galaxy with you from the empire.

 

I wanna love you like Forrest loved Jenny,

I will if you will let me.  

 

 

 

 

 

   

 

Ok so here is a huge question that I really need people to answer for me (prefrebly in the form of a remark). ok

 

So if you have like a really good friend, like a best friend that you have known for like 10 years, but you really like him/her, do you tell them and risk ruining your friendship or do you just keep your friendship and tell him/her later in life. 

 

 

ok so in this case you don't see the person very much because of distance, yet you are still great friends. A relationship at this point in life is impossible.

 

Also this is just a greatly argued question and I thought I would see what you people had to say. Thanks for your time.

 

           --Austin Mathis
 

So yeah I went to the Roxy 8 Movie Theater in Dickson, TN last night to see "The Strangers." It was an enjoyable movie. My friend was trying to hook up with this one girl who he dated before but she didn't like him at all. I didn't really like her or the girl she was with. So any ways we went into the Zohan with them and tried to talk them into seeing The Strangers with us...the one that my friend liked didn't like scary movies but the other did. We failed at trying to get them in the movie...at first...lol. So my friend and I went into The Strangers alone. We were sitting there and the girls came in and we went to sit with them but the girl my friend liked made me sit next to her and my friend...we will call him mason...and the girl he likes lets call her maggie...and the other...uhmm lets call hollie. So Mason sat next Hollie and I sat next to Maggie. Well Maggie just broke up with her boyfriend so Mason was working hard to get her back. So I threw a lot of pick up attempts at her to make mason angry...needless to say none of them worked. But Maggie does get insanely frightened...she was constantly grabbing my arm and spilling her "ICEE" on me...good movie though...lol

So I know that I have posted a lot of blogs today but I just kinda got a chance to get on my computer today and got the stuff out that needed out. Yeah for those who don't know I have been in Wilkesboro, North Carolina (my home town). I love it and miss it...a lot. No one and no where would ever replace it. I've got a lot going for me here though. Not many know the whole story of how I got here and by god that is fine with me. So Just sit back and just enjoy this great song by Rascal Flatts called "God Bless the Broken Road."

Never ever let a drunk person make you dinner...or any other meal for that matter...

I was doing 90 in a 65.

 

I don't know why I didn't turn around.

 

I was heading for a completely different life.

 

And I was only 20 minutes away from your home town.

 

What would you have done if I were there at 3:56 in the morning?

 

Can I tell you how I feel?

 

Show up with out any warning?

 

Just be straight up and real?

 

Completely miss my plane.

 

To tell you I love you.

 

Not make it any big thing.

 

All these words I say will stand true.

 

I finally realize that love is sitting there and being completely content just holding hands.

 

I guess I really don’t matter to you now.

 

I was just this thing that happened.

 

It doesn’t matter what happens or how.

 

Just something, we did for those 28 minutes in the car that we were “trapped in.”

 

So now, I will let you go.

 

Release me I will from you as a burden.

 

I have absolutely nothing left to show.

 

I am gone now as I was then.

 

I have said all I have to say

 

Now I will let you say what you need to in your own way.

Ok so my apologies for not getting the song of the week out sooner I have been very busy here in NC. I enjoy it very much, however, I had a bad night last night, message me if you wanna know more...probably not though. Well this is Josh Groban's "Oceano" Hey this is the song for the week of the 1st. So please enjoy Josh Groban. I know I will.

So I have been reading some things that people before me have said and I have come to the conclusion that:

God is a complete gentleman.

We keep telling him to get out of our schools, our government, and our lives. So when we did so he, being the gentleman that he is, he backe dout quitely, with ofcourse, christians such as myself and many others fighting for him. Now people tend to wonder how God could let something so horrible as Katrina, or the Attacks on September 11, 2001 happen; Then I must ask you how can someone that we have pushed out defend us? Or why would he? 

It is not unlike our police officers standing outside of a building that has a bomb in it. They know it will expload soon but you come barging in there. You fight the officers and kill one, the rest back off. You go in the building with the police officers screaming to get out. You don't. The can do nothing else when the bomb is set off. I belive that relates very much to God and our country's current position on him.

What are your thoughts? Agree or think it is asinine? 

I have done nothing but load my weapon since I have been here.

No fighting, until now, I continue to threaten.

Now my gun is loaded and I have it raised against your forehead.

I stare you in the straight in the eyes

and 

My finger is meer milimeters away from pulling the triger

The hammer already pulled.

Curse you finger, Curse you blessed Revolver.

You have never failed me before in past conflicts.

Now the curse of past kills has come to haunt the one who has raised it.

I have prepared everyday of my life for something that I will never be ready for.

I have fought a thousand times never before have a fought in anger. I pray to god that this cloud of hate for my enemy is lifted so that I may see clearly enough to aim.

Now my gun is loaded and I have it raised against you forehead.

I stare you straight in the eyes

and 

My finger is meer milimeters away from pulling the triger

The hammer is already pulled.

Curse you finger, Curse you blessed Revovler

Now the curse of past kills has come to haunt the one who has raised it.  

Ok so like yesterday if you were in Dickson you saw how much it rained. How awesome was that? I mean it was just pouring down that is with out a doubt some of the best weather I have seen in a long time. I love that kind of weather.

So yeah I am heading to North Wilkesboro, North Carolina, my home town. Chris Daughtry wrote this song about his home town Greensboro. Which just so happens to be in North Carolina and only about 2 hours south of mine. So as I am getting ready to depart from Dickson heading to N.C. I like listening to this song. lol kinda gay...kinda corny...fun though.

If you don't have it then chances are you don't need it.

So I had another song planned for the song of the week but I was ramaging through you tube and I came across this song...I had forgot about it for a number of weeks and I remembered how much I loved it...LIE ok fine...well I did have another song planned but then I forgot the name of it and then I was trying to remember the name and I for some reason thought of this song then I remembered how amazing the video was...ok that is the truth. I love this video I think it is probably one of the best out there. I love this song too I hope you all enjoy it as much as I do. Coldplay "Fix You"

Of your little quiz thing...I got a score of 111 out of 140.

I am not lost.

I am just not sure where I am going right now.

I did not leave.

I am just not here right now.

I am not lieing.

I just can't see the truth right now.

I am not unstable.

I am just off balance right now.

I do not hate myself.

I just can't stand to look myself in the eyes right now.

 

     Don't you dare be so consided as to think this was caused by you. This occured to me long ago, when my actions reflected my heart, when I let them. Now I must hold back, not from fear of failure or the fear of anything else just simply the desire to...actually this goes against all of my real desires. I guess I am here floating down the river praying to God for an oar so I can help control this a little better. Has he not already done so though? It was indeed my choice. How many things have fallen so perfectly into place though. "Maybe it is hell that is calling me to the place that I call heaven." quote me on that.

So every night before I go to bed I pray to God that I will have the chance to give my life in service of my country. But I am really torn too, I mean I am going to serve in the military no matter what, and if my life is called upon I will not hesitate before taking the bullet, I just keep thinking of the family I would have. I know after I am dead it won't matter though. I think that my letter will sound something like this. Please enjoy Tim McGraw's "If You're Reading This"

Ok so I am going to be honest about something. You know how people will flavor their coffee with crap like "Coffee Mate" that makes it all carmel and crap? Ah that grinds my gears. Now I am not saying that I don't enjoy a good House Blend or Starbucks Grande Carmel Mocha, but when you are just drinking coffee just drink coffee. And there was an old saying that came around, "It ain't done until the bullet floats." That is how thick their coffee was. So come one, this morning or some time when you are about to drink coffee grow a pair and set down the sugar, pour a little more grounds in the coffee maker than normal and drink it straight.

Would it be easier to understand if I were a philospher?

Would it be easier to fight if I were a Marine?

Would it be easier to believe if I were a preacher?

Would it be easier to run froward if I were a marathon runner?

Would it be easier to walk away if I were a quiter?

Would it be easier to take a hit if I were a bullet proof vest?

Would it be easier to breathe if I were an oxygen tank?

Would it be easier to continue if I were a machine?

No.

Just because I have been hit does not mean I will not load my rifle again.

Just becuase I have ran out of ammo does not mean that I will not keep fighting.
Just because my brother has died in the same act does not mean I will stop.

Just because I can't feel my left hand does not mean that I cannot kill with my right.

Just because I am bleeding does not mean I will stop and wait for a medic to heal me.

Just because I believe in God does not mean I will pray to him in this land.

Just because they fight in the name of God does not mean that they will win.

Just because I have lost this battle before does not mean that I will win this time.

Now that you have left me, you must be dead to me, or I will not live to fight again.

I will not show you all of my battle scars,

I will just tell you I know what I am doing.

I will not tell you that I trust you,

I will just take your hand.

I will not tell you I am going to throw down,

I will just draw.

I will not lie to you my love,

I will just do excatly what I say.

I will not pray for forgiveness,

I will just believe that god understands.

I will not put up deceptive covers,

I will just stand in the rain for you to see.

I will not believe that you and your God will defeat me,

I will just fight till the death.

 

What do you do when you have already drawn but you just realized that you forgot to load your weapon?

When you are already too deep in a thing to stop because you love where you are at but your heart is where you have been.

I can't get over the fact that a long time ago I may have messed a lot of things up. Now 3 years later, I am still bleeding from the wound. I tried the quick clot but it is quick and does not last.