You know how it feels,
When you just can't have a good day.
&& Everyday just seems ordinary?
I feel like that alot lately.
oi..
O well.
I have edited this,
it was utterly depressing.
I hung out with Reese today.
She made me smile.
then I ate chicken mcnuggets,
made me feel fat, but that's
what mickey'ds is for.
right?

So anyway,
I have this thing called a phone.
&& You can call it,
cause I have free nights and weekends.
haha. yeah i'm a loser.
I think i'm gonna quit school
and become a tight rope walker,
Or maybe a human cannonball.
that would be wicked.
[to the extreme]
aye me,
that's my favorite saying.
along with none-the-less.
look i'll use them in a sentance:

Aye me, life is crazy, none the less, it's amazing.
yeah that's how it is.
haha I have no life,
I have to sing a song for
Speech, my mom wants me to sing Time Warp,
I'm up for it,
but it's hard to really sing I think.
Hrm, any ideas of songs?

Tounges are gross.
I realized that today.


anyone up for never never land?

So today was pretty uneventful...
Nothing is really going on .
I wrote this post like 5minutes ago,
and it deleted itself when i hit submit.
I wasn't very happy.
here's pretty much what I wrote:

What happened today:
   1st-I showed up late because my dad was held up in work.
I didn't realize i was gonna be late till about 8pm.
He ended up getting here at about 20 after so
we take livvy to school, and I'm thinking "what happens today"
and I really didn't remember, and so i walk into Biology only
to find they are taking their practice writing.
I was about 15 minutes behind everyone,
so I had to go sit in the hallway.
Therefore I missed about 10minutes more of the class.
She had draw a drawing that looked like sperm,
and of course my name was next to it....of course.
So we mainly just chilled the rest of the class.
   2nd-We did vocabulary and grammar.
Me and Kayla decided to sing random songs.
we were singing "easy" and then "under the sheets"
[Our rendition of "under the sea"]
It was amusing...so we "group" worked on our homework,
got that done before the end of class...
   3rd-we sang....Christmas music...I miss "I saw mommy kissing Santa Clause"
I also missed my Becca Hicks....aye me...
  4th-We went over  the study guide.
then me and Nick got married...by Ellen,
who was pretty much the wedding. It was funny.
Lunch was kind of dull...I feel like i get on their nerves
like half the time, then it's fine....I just am secluded in myself,
and i am lonely cause because of that.
  5th-skits...I love that class...it's amazing, as are the people in it.
we are doing an oral interp of any song...i think i'm gonna do piano man,
by billy Joel....it's one of my favorites...
  6th-I came in 15minutes late,
simply because Jessica and I decided we had to pee REALLY bad,
and we told her, and she let us go....so therefore we did.
and that was fun...then we came back and conjugated verbs.
and that's basically it...other than the telling Jared he's a woman..
that was pretty fun...

So i come home to find out we have to go out to Rockvale,
and we go to get my Grandfather, and take him to The nissan
place over near Jackson heights....then my pops took me to
Ruby Tuesday, and we celebrated my sister making honor roll.
&& Now I don't feel very well...nonetheless the food was good.
This week is prety busy the rest of the way through.
Tomorrow Im hanging out with some awesome amigas.
Then Thursday I'm exorcising with Lareisa[love that lady]
&& Friday Bowling && SPending the night with
Haylo and Whitney...fun stuff....
I'm free Sunday and then next week,
Monday and Tuesday are free...Wednesday
I have to babysit for like 2hours...then Thursday
is Turkey day...and Friday who knows...
My family isn't really in to celebrating much anymore.
We have no more than about 5 people during the holidays.
Thanksgiving isn't really a big deal anymore I guess.
1D...1C...2B's...2A's....average report card grades...
I'm beginning to loathe school..aye me.

well i'll stop ranting now...
I'm gonna get off soon,
A STORMS A COMING!
haha...i love storms...
I wanna go run in the rain,
alas, it's lightening....

<3Sarah


Photography is a passion....Brings out the things inside, through color and scene...it's the remedy for a bad day.

My cousin's wedding was last night.

It was really cute..my feet hurt really bad by the end though.
Me and livvy had to dress up, which was crap,
but it wasn't too bad,
we ended up going to Kroger and running around,
just cause we thought it was funny cause we sounded like horses.
haha. School tomorrow...kinda lookin forward to it(weird right?)

I didn't feel like smiling..haha
There is a kid on Figure it out with a mullet.
I love old school Nickolodean.
Okay well that's about it...
here is a picture of my feet:

Ow.

Jump.

[Mother may I?.]

I may end up in Juvenile in the next few days.
I'm not in a good attitude kind of state,
and my mom is a phsyco.
I need to get out of my house,
but i have very little chance of having a ride anywhere(sucks right?)
so pretty sure someone either needs to come get me or something..
o well...i have a wedding tomorrow afternoon.(ick)
but yeah, that's about all.


I know, i have the talent of drawing in sand...

aye me.

Oh so Electrikk ♥

we walk on ceilings.

Sunglasses=Hawt♥

I wrote a song...

Last Time
Bleeding from my eyes.

The crash comes from inside,

this broke,fragile body holds it

it all inside.

You're nothing but lies.

I've played and lost the dice.

this game you play is always the same.


You're a liar baby

(Give it your all)

Don't say maybe

(you know it's true, yes you do)

You were gonna save me.

(but I'm shot down)

'cause everytime's the last time.


Kisses on the lips.

I feel them through my fingertips.

They meant so much to me.

The butterflies would agree,

Then it all went down from there,

You know i just don't care...


You're a liar baby

(Give it your all)

Don't say maybe

(you know it's true, yes you do)

You were gonna save me.

(but I'm shot down)

'cause everytime's the last time.


We dance..underneath the stars,

Our love was hit by flashing cars.

and now it's over and now it's over...


You're a liar baby

(Give it your all)

Don't say maybe

(you know it's true, yes you do)

You were gonna save me.

(but I'm shot down)

'cause everytime's the last time.

Yes, everytimes the last time,

everytime...is the last time.


-By:Sarah Elizabeth Gearhart

I'm coloring my hair.
it is going to be brown.
Hopefully for a while this time.
haha. so yeah, brown hair.
New pics up of last night however tomorrow.

Where'd all the good people go?
Warning:I'm destructive

oh the aida days...


yeah, we're that wicked cool

i miss my hair...

my order:

I want a large order of Banana pancakes,
so we can pretend like it's the weekend.

with a side of a friggin huge hug.
and Mountain Dew to drink.

..waiter..


does anyone else think that spicy peanuts are the shizz.

I'm hangin out with my teresa tonight. YAY!!
I love my fwends.
keep it gangster you guys. REAL gangster.


questions:
--What are your views on stem cell research?
--What would you change about our economy?

confusion makes me angry.
I loathe alot of stuff.
Life's been kinda crazy.
I'm sick of stress and
not "getting it"
and i'm sick of the fact that I got to the most highly
equipt highschool in the county, possibly the state, and
we have teachers who don't know what they're teaching.
I pity the fool who hired them.
[pardon my pun on words]
So this weekend [minus tomorrow]
I have nothing to do.
But I do have free minutes for you
to call me and tell me we are hanging out.
yep. haha. I feel like singing in front of alot of people,
or putting on a performance,
I wanna go to walmart or the mall and just
make people look at me like "WTF"
I want to get in a verbal argumentation with someone,
and win. haha. random yes, but me none the less.
I have a tendency to notice peoples shoes.
and then there's the fact I can make someone smile,
REALLLLLLLLLLL BIG! It's cute.
Well, i'm gonna go buy a ringtone [woow]
oh and i'm gonna eat wicked awesome pizza.
I know your jealous.

-Sarah<3
10 Firsts:

First Best Friend: Berger Bear

First Screen Name: Babyblues409

First Pet: shawna

First Piercing: ears

First Crush: Kolby in 2nd grade

First Music: Metallica

First Car: n/a

First School: MNP

First House Location: murfreesboro, tn


9 Lasts:

Last time you smoked: 2months ago

Last thing you ate: pizza

Last Car Ride: from school

Last Movie: Fox and the hound

Last Phone Call: Lareisa when i got out of school

Last CD Played: Nat King Cole's greatest hits

Last bubble bath: like 5months ago




8 Have You Evers:

Have You Ever Dated One Of Your Best Friends:yes

Have You Ever Been Arrested: Nope

Have You Ever Skinny Dipped:yah

Have You Ever Been on TV: yah

Have You Ever Kissed Someone and Then Regretted it: yep

Have you Ever cheated:on homework

Have You Ever been on a blind date: kind of

Have You Ever been out of the country:nope


7 Things You're Wearing:

1. ex-boyfriend shirt

2. jogging pants

3. bra

4. earing

5. earring

6. earring

7. earring

6 Things You've Done Today:

1. eat

2. talk

3. myspace

4. school

5.sing

6. do homework... oh wait i haven't done that yet


5 favorite things In No Particular Order:

1.eyes

2. music

3.hugs

4.gum

5. my new candle


4 People You Can Tell Anything to:

1. berger

2. kayla

3. amber

4. bobby


3 Choices

1. chocolate or vanilla: vanilla

2. hugs or kisses:depends

3. pens or pencils: pencils.


2 Things You Want to Do Before you die:

1. Have a family

2. Sing infront of alot of people


1 person you wanna see: ...

Is it me or do my eyes look white.

Friends make me smile when I come to school crying.
They make me laugh and hug me real big.
They tell me they love me.

Funny how something so bad can ruin your day,
until you relize how many people care about you.
That happened today.
I was REALLY upset.
That's where my friends stepped in.
they love me.
I love them.
It's almost as good as Barney.
well. I don't have much to say, so i'm gonna go.

--Sarah<3

How was everyone's halloween??
Mine was good, went trick or treating, so that was cool.
I got a cell phone!!
[615]513-5685
yep yep.
I"m not doing too well in Geometry.
I need two100's to keep me from failing.
ahhh..But yeah, so that's all I really have to say<3
Close my eyes, let the whole thing pass me by,
There is no time to waste asking why
I'll run away with you by my side

"Life is simply a collection of little lives,
each lived one day at a time.
That each day should be spent
 finding beauty in flowers and poetry and talking to animals.
That a day spent with dreaming
and sunsets and refreshing breezes cannot be bettered."

Simplicity.
Clarity of expression.
Life is complicated.
Love is complicated.
Hate seems easy.
People are quick to judge.
Not quick to listen.
Anger is spread.
Kindess is steady.
Nothing is easy.
Don't expect it to be.
Remember things.
Recolect often.
Be alone.
Be with people.
Have goals.
Friendships are scarce.
Aquantinces are many.
There is a difference.
Make the difference.
Have fun.
Be you.
Don't hide behind emotions.
Don't be afraid to grow.
Explain yourself.
Somebody will get it.
Help someone.
Be honest.
Remember the little things.
Be selfless.
Learn.
Live.
Love.
Smile.

--Sarah Elizabeth¢¾

"Be composed--be at case with me...
Not till the sun excludes you do I exclude you.
Not till the waters refuse to glisten for you
and the leaves to rustle for you, do my
words refuse to glisten and rustle foryou."

"I wander all night in my vision...
Bending with open eyes over theshut eyes of sleepers.
Wandering and confused, lost to myself,
ill-assorted contradictory,
Pausing,gazing,bending,and stopping."

"Nothing is ever really lost, or can be lost,
No birth,idenity,form--no object of the world,
Nore life, nor force, nor any visible thing...
The body, gluggish,aged,cold--the embers
left from earlier fires,
...shall duly flame again;"

"The body slows with mortal ache, yet my promise
remiains true at the closing of our days,
A tender touch that ends with a kiss
will awaken love in joyous ways."

"Our souls were one, if you must know
and never shall they be apart;
With spended dawn, your face aglow
I reach for you and find my heart."

--The Notebook
By:Nicholas Sparks

When life gives you rain.
play in it.

If you're going through hell,keep going
-Sir Winston church hill.

Me: i wish i was an eskimo
Haylo (1:41:46 PM): me too
H (1:41:49 PM): but i'm an aleut
M (1:41:57 PM): what's that, a gopher?
H (1:42:07 PM): lol no. the 'eskimos' of alaska
H (1:42:16 PM): common misconseption
H (1:42:20 PM): eskimos are in canada
H (1:42:28 PM): aleuts are in alaska
--That girl makes me feel better.


[You say i'm pretty when I cry]

I made a bunch of cookies last night.
That's what happens when I am bored.
I get my braces off in January.
Exciting aye?
I'm probably not going to school tomorrow.
If you're in my classes, get my homework.
I'll probably come in before the start of school,
just to turn in my choir money and all that jazz.
So yeah. Catch me early I guess.
Today was pretty alright.
People are still talkin
some crap about me, but I'm not to phased by it.
I forgot my lucnh money,
so I had to borrow a dollar
[thanks Nick]
I hate borrowing money.
ugh....Concert tomorrow night,
it's a Salt and Pepper by Jackson heights,
and it's free...so yah, I'm friends with the band.
hah. Then Sunday is BOTB.

There is some crazy stuff on TV.
Thesse dudes are like poking holes in them.
It's some "becoming a man" thing.
I thought that's what puberty was for.
hah...I think I'm gonna get my cellular
this weekend...woop...That's about it.

I less than three you all<3

-Sarah Bearah♥

Forrest Gump:Pure love
I wanna watch that.
Anybody up for watchin Forrest Gump with me?

"When I was in China on the All-American Ping Pong team, I just loved playing ping-pong with my Flexolite ping pong paddle."-Forrest Gump


Take a picture.
It'll last longer.
[ooo burn]

I'm hanging out with my Chelsey Bear tomorrow.
Friday I am leaving early, because I have those skills.
Saturday I"m going to Kayla's Grandparents,
and then Sunday battle of the bands.
Monday is Halloween!!
Can't wait.
It's possibly my favorite holiday.
Life is swell as of right now.
I still have a few people who hate me,
but I guess yah have to deal with that sometimes,
especially with those silly girls.
I'm apperently a studd muffin here lately,
Don't know where that came from,
but hey, i'll take it.
Orthodontist tomorrow,
and as stated above,
I get to see my Chelsey!
Fun stuff.
I'm never gonna get a full week of school in.
I have had a half day/field trip/school function
every week minus the first week of school.
So yeah, that's pretty sweet.
I'm going to disneyworld sometime soon,
and then hopefully Cali when we get
our tickets, we can fly anywhere,
so that's pretty sweet.
Okay enough of the random.
Keep it Greazy
Fo' Sheezie.

What do you do when your printer decides
that it doesn't want to work when you have
to print out the speech you've been working on
for 3hours. ahh, technology.


I'm that talented.
[i know you're jealous]

So I was like,
"I think I'll update"
then i was like,
"I have nothing to say"
Simple enough,
I went to starbucks with my Teresa Bear.
The amount of sugar I took in,
may cause me to have diabetes.
Battle of the bands Sunday.
Call me if you wanna hang out.
any other time this week.
[615.898.0358]
or
[615.419.6633]
6days till I get a cellular device.
I know you're excited.
Keep it Greasy,
fo sheezie.

Xanga && Myspace
AIM:Wastedinthesoup


I was excited.
I found it on the way to the beach.
[[Yeah, It's real]]

I thieved this

so fill it out please<3

O1. Hi! I'm _____!

O2. I've known Sarah for _____.

O3. We first met  _____.

O4. My first impression of Sarah was _____.

O5. Now I think she's _____!!

O6. One thing that's awesome about Sarah is _____.

O7. I hate it when Sarah_____.

O8. I want to _____ Sarah because she's so _____.

O9. I get so irritated when Sarah_____.

10. I want Sarah to say "_____!"

11. I think Sarah is going to be  _____ when she grows up.

12. I'm filling this out because _____.

13. Sarah hates _____ because _____.

14. I want to buy Sarah _____.

15. The best thing I like about Sarah is _____.

16. Sarah is really really _____ but sometimes she could be _____.

17. I want to _____ with Sarah more!

18. Sarah is obsessed with _____.

19. _____ loves Sarah.

2O. My last words for Sarah before I close this: __________!

 

Who is Sarah Gearhart?
I am Sarah Gearhart.
My middle name is Elizabeth.
I'm 15.
I like cosmotology.
I change my hair color ALOT.
I like to take photographs.
Not pictures.
I stay on the computer to much.
I hang out at wal*mart.
I can't drive.
I'm a sophmore.
I'm crazy.
I have a dog.
I have a cat.
I want a bird.
I hate snakes,spiders,&& Sharks.
Pretty much reptiles and fish.
My dad hit me in the back of the head with a fish.
It was scary.

People think I'm Pretty.
I think I'm not.
I have lovely eyes.
I'm not slutty.
I laugh alot.

I'm loud.
I'm shy at first.
I smile 99.876346% of the time.
I make words up.
I go to Siegel Highschool.
You wouldn't like me when I get angry.
I hate Tv
Unless It includes laguna Beach
or family guy.
MTv is usually pointless.
I like some country music.
Don't hold it against me.
Politics make me angry sometimes.
I don't like Bush.
I don't like listening to him talk at all.
It makes me wanna pull my hair out.
I like teddy bears.
I like clothes.
I like to design.
I get bored easily.
I think I have A.D.D
Music is love.

I cry when I'm sad.
I broke my lamp.
Then my princess crown broke.
I was sad.
I didn't cry though.
I like the movie Grease.
I think it's stupid too.
But I love it.
  I don't drink.
I drink to much soda.
I accept everyone.
I'm sarcastic to the highest extent.
I'm in choir.
I'm always singing.

I'm a pirate.
I don't have a parrot though.
I like to laugh((haha))
Drinking orange juice and spirte makes me have to pee.
I like riding my mom's stupid looking bike.
Only because I can ride it with no hands.
&& My bike is broken.
I like starwars.
I dance.
Not well.
I wish I looked like homer simpson.
I lie sometimes.
Okay, I lied about lying.

I'm a fairy princess.
I can't fly though.
I wish biology wasn't mandatory.
All you need is faith and trust...
Oh, and something I forgot.
A little bit of Pixie dust.
I like movies.
I'm random.
I discovered about 4 bands before
they became famous.
Geometry is pointless.
I have green fingernail polish.
I like to match.
I'm the middle child.
I have a brother.
I have a sister.
I think my dad works for the CIA.
My mom and I don't really get along.
I'm the odd one in my family.
I am single.
It doesn't bother me.
I'm weird.
I don't have friends,
just aquantinces.
I have a very complex mind.
and an odd outlook on life.
but that's just me.
The End



So I was like,
"I think I'll update"
then i was like,
"I have nothing to say"
Simple enough,
I went to starbuck with my Teresa Bear.
The amount of sugar I took in,
may cause me to have diabetes.
Battle of the bands Sunday.
Call me if you wanna hang out.
[615.898.0358]
or
[615.419.6633]
6days till I get a cellular device.
I know you're excited.
Keep it Greasy,
fo sheezie.

Xanga && Myspace
AIM:Wastedinthesoup

Today was a day of memories.
Good, but upsetting none the less.
I can't stand the way reality hits in sometimes.
The way you hear a song and it kills you inside.
The thoughts of someone engulfs your mind.
Though all is good, your life is bland.
Without the one to hold your hand.
I hate the lonely feeling I have.

I need to get out.
have some fun.
You know the teenager stuff.
Someone come pick me up
and we'll go to the mall or something.

I feel as if I don't have many "friends"
In Spanish she said that it's a
huge compliment to call someone an Amigo.
(which incase you didn't know, means friend)
and i relized, I have all these people I call friends,
but I never hang out with them,
I only see them on certain occasions
(school,birthdays,etc)

Well, anyhoo. I guess that's all that's goin on.
I think my sister has strep throat(ick)
so I think i'm gonna stay away from her,
I don't need  anymore shots.
uhh..orthodontist monday,
I have to ask how much longer
i'll have these frikkin braces.
Probably like 2 more months.

Well if you wanna hang out,
let me know, i should be
pretty much free for a while.

--Miss Sarah&hearts;


I was in love with that french fry.
Devin ate it.
'Twas upsetting.

I relized today that I have a talent.
I can make people go from
extremely sad, to extremely happy in
about 2minutes or less.
It makes me all giddy.

You know,
this is being said like all whinie,
but sometimes I just wish someone would call me
and be like
"Hey sarah, let'shang out"
or
"Hey Sarah, how are you"
haha. Yeah I'm a loser.




yeah. random I know. but owell.

I wrote this song,
I need some thoughts on it.
My parents didn't get it.


Imaginary Homoscide.
by:Sarah Gearhart

If Drama was a sport you'd be the mvp.
You walk up and think you know everything.
Nobody knows why, but you cause suicide.
You think it's cute, you think you're great.
When we all laugh cause you're nothin but  fake.
ooh yeah.
cause you don't know what i've been taught.
and this is one more loss for your thoughts....
take it between the eyes.
All that comes from you are lies,lies,lies,
I can see them in your eyes,
hypocritical blah blah blah's
and all of those just because-es
you think, you can take my life from me.
but in the end you will see that
i'm not who you want me to be.
Stronger than what you see.
...I'll take it between the eyes.
This Imaginary homoscide.
Everythings lost inside.
you can't hide anymore.
Nobody cares what you say,
cause it never mattered anyway.
You caused some pain,
 you caused some strife.
When karma comes back it'll be a suprise.
Just take the blow..
your one last show
you don't know what i've been taught.
and this is one more loss for your thoughts.
take it between the eyes.
All that comes from you are lies,lies,lies,
I can see them in your eyes,
hypocritical blah blah blah's
and all of those just because-es
you think, you can take my life from me.
but in the end you will see that
i'm not who you want me to be.
Stronger than what you see.
...take it between the eyes.
This Imaginary homoscide.


Exactly.

"If it's drama you want, then look no further, They're like the Real World meets Boy Meets World meets Days of Our Lives."


I've learned life's to short for drama.
Life's to short for stupid fights.
For pointless relationships.
It's to short for not trying.
For giving up.
It's definately to short for bad hair days.
Too short for sleeping half the day away.
It's to short to not tell someone how you feel.
Even if you get hurt in the process.
Life is just a blessing.
Sometimes I know I feel like
puting everyone and everything
out of my mind so I can sleep
for 18hours and wake up just to
watch Laguna Beach or The Simpsons.
I want to enjoy life.
I have the past week.
From a message from God.
To the final Practice.
From the gain of friendships,
to the cookie baking spree I went on.
I stopped cursing.
I relized how ignorant it makes you sound.
It amazes me how shallow I've been.
Life isn't about who you are with,
who talks to you.
Sometimes it's best to be around
people you love.
Sometimes it's best to be alone.
Sometimes it's just best to talk to God.
Tonights the final show for the Variety show.
I hate that it's over.
It's been so much fun.
Especially since we've been on stage.
I love the experience.
I have been blessed with true friends.
Learned who my aquantinces were.
Grown up quickly.
Seen the good and bad in people.
I've lived this week.
You know how sometimes it just feels
like the light is on inside,
and then you have those days
where it feels like there's a big
metal box on the lightswitch so you can't turn it on?
Well in my life, It's just been a flikkering light.
I have just felt like it was on all week.
Which is awesome.
I love you guys.
Keep on keepin on♥

"...
and so our adventure ends.
And some of us found our heros,
and others
conquered our fears.
And one might even say we've triumphed.
 I'm not so
sure it happened that day, or that summer,
but somehow, we all felt
older and different.
I knew I'd never forget any of it
and I decided I
wasn't going to let it end
because I realized we're not just given life experience..
we're given the experience of life..."

"I hope you don't mind, that I put down in words,
how wonderful life is, while you're in the world.."

"Never knew I could feel like this,
like i never seen the sky before.
Want to vanish inside your kiss,
everyday I love you more, and more.
Listen to my heart, can you hear it sing,
telling me to give you, everything,
Seasons may change, winter, to spring,
and I love you, until my dying day..
Come what may...Come What may...
I will love you, Until my dying day."

"Take my hand, you break my heart,
I remember you most the nights we're apart
Steps and soda, stars and dancing,
every girls dream, my reality. Love in a box.
Inside jokes, and dirty thoughts,
everything we were and more,
Cute little faces, and knowing every
other word.  laughing at nothing,
being each other's everything."
-Me

Why don't you just go cut yourself already.

How bout you put a bullet to your head?

Sometimes I think, I'd be better off dead.

smoke the weed, do the crak.

Steal and drink,

to just be bad.

get a life.
You've been had.

(I feel like it's time for a rap battle)


Calling people names.

Talking behind their backs.

It just shows how Ignorant

you are.



I'm impossible to forget. But hard to remember.
Trust me. Everyone is less mysterious than they think they are.



Imaginary Homoscide.
by:Sarah Gearhart

If Drama was a sport you'd be the mvp.

You walk up and think you know everything.

Nobody knows why, but you cause suicide.

You think it's cute, you think you're great.

When we all laugh cause you're nothin but  fake.


ooh yeah.

cause you don't know what i've been taught.

and this is one more loss for your thoughts....


take it between the eyes.

All that comes from you are lies,lies,lies,

I can see them in your eyes,

hypocritical blah blah blah's

and all of those just because-es

you think, you can take my life from me.

but in the end you will see that

i'm not who you want me to be.

Stronger than what you see.

...I'll take it between the eyes.

This Imaginary homoscide.


Everythings lost inside.

you can't hide anymore.

Nobody cares what you say,

cause it never mattered anyway.

You caused some pain,

 you caused some strife.

When karma comes back it'll be a suprise.

Just take the blow..

your one last show


you don't know what i've been taught.

and this is one more loss for your thoughts.


take it between the eyes.

All that comes from you are lies,lies,lies,

I can see them in your eyes,

hypocritical blah blah blah's

and all of those just because-es

you think, you can take my life from me.

but in the end you will see that

i'm not who you want me to be.

Stronger than what you see.

...take it between the eyes.

This Imaginary homoscide.

1st period(Biology) 79
2nd period(English II Honors) 93
3rd period(Choir)98
4th period(Geometry honors)86
5th period(Speech)90
6th period(Spanish)89

2a's 3b's and a c.....not to bad

well there's my grades for you guys.
heh...Variety show is next THrusday
everyone should come!!

Homecoming game/dance on Friday.
good fun there.
welps i'm out

I just got home from the beach last night.
I surfed again. Twas lovely. I nearly died. Very Humorous. Thoughts compelled me the whole time. By the end I decided to turn my brain of... seemed to do some good, but stuff is still on my mind. But I understand now, I mean, he just moved on. It's not all that bad... If what I want to happen happens it'll be for the best, for now I don't know what I can do. I need to get more friends, get out of the house, i think i'll go for a bike ride, sound inticing. I hate being so blah.
Any ideas of how to get out of this.
yes i know go to God, i'm doing that.
I need a way to get to him better though?
my parents won't take me to church,
I have people willing to have me go with them,
but I need to go somewhere with people I don't know,
I like to get thoughts from varieties of people.
It's always a good thing I suppose.
well i'm done writing for today.
I have atan and blonde hair.
think about it. I'm hawt mamajamma♥

So..Last night sucked majorness.
I had fun seeing my friends.
He was there.
I knew he would be.
I thought it would be cool.
He held my hand.
Then told me he liked someone else.
but still likes me?
I hate that I can be so head over heels
for someone who doesnt even know if
he REALLY cares about me.
I just wish I could deal better.
I had to stay home and sleep in today.
Not saying I did that exactly.
Sleeping in does usually have you
waking up about 7 times randomly starting at about 6? ah o well...I'm pretty much apathetic once again.
Hopefully it'll all work out.
in the mean time. I'll be praying.
I'm getting away for a week too.
So maybe that'll help me.
I'm working on my relationship with God.
I really need help though.
Life messes me up sometimes.

First thing I'd do, is pray for time to crawl
I'd unplug the telephone
And keep the TV off
I'd hold you every second
Say a million I love you's
That's what I'd do, with one more day with you.