And what am I doing? I am working at Blue Coast Burrito-- where I get treated like crap by the owner's wife-- and sitting on my dreams. Roosting. I am roosting. I am not going to auditions. I am not even writing my story I was SO excited about.  I am still excited, but I just can't seem to get past this block.

So, I have to ask the question: Am I actually talented? Could I make it? I have answered myself in this, and because of my answer I am not looking for auditions. I don't see a point.

Please, reader, don't answer the above question. That would mortify me. Just think to yourself: If God gave you a talent, even one that is weak and small, is it a sin to not do anything with it because you have tried and failed so many times you feel depressed at the thought of getting rejected again?

My friend and I have coffee every week and plan our big breaks. How he will write a character just for me and let me be his star, and he will achieve his dreams. Will it happen? Oh God! Will it happen?