There's a certain slant of light,
On winter afternoons,
That oppresses, like the weight
Of cathedral tunes.

Heavenly hurt it gives us;
We can find no scar,
But internal difference
Where the meanings are.

None may teach it anything,
'Tis the seal, despair,-
An imperial affliction
Sent us of the air.

When it comes, the landscape listens,
Shadows hold their breath;
When it goes, 't is like the distance
On the look of death.
     ~Emily Dickinson

so I am going to be a typical Siegel girl and say

YES! Great game.. 75-65!

this wasn't last nights game, but it was the best I could do.

 

So today, what I thought was going to happen did (well it didn't really happen but it was confirmed)...to an extent...

I had a feeling that Sean would be leaving fairly soon after he got married.  Turns out he is "leaving" I think May?  about a year and a half after he got married.

Zach is also "leaving"... I didn't expect this.  I am the most upset about this... don't get my wrong I love Sean, but I feel I a lot closer to Zach... I mean I invited him to my birthday party for crying out loud.  He bonded more with my sister, because mainly they are both crazy...but anyway.... so gradually we got closer because of her...and the Guster songs we sang on the Philly mission trip. 

But hey it gets better... Ben Brown... a person I consider to be one of my best friends....is coming back to the youth to do Sean's job.  I am really excited about that.  I just can't expect everything to go back to the way it was 1/2 of 7th- 1/2 9th grade. I also knew this would happen if Sean left. 

wow longest entry ever.....

btw "leaving" = volenteering when they can 

so over all I a bummed and happy, bitter sweet if you will.

well there you go, I suppose thats it.

another btw: if you don't know who I am talking about the pictures are in the same order of the paragraphs.

Went to MTSU today for a field trip, to make a video about African Art.  Thats was ok, really boring.  The best part was not having to eat at the high school for lunch, and I got to see Zach at complete random.  It was great.

I have been doing so much reading lately.  I finished up Harry Potter 5 last night and I am now about  half way through Fight Club.  I also have to read the Awakening for English.  Too many books too little time I suppose, cause I have a crazy long list after those 2 that I want to read.

my face is pretty swolen from getting my wisdom teeth removed on Friday.  Its funny how many people ask me about the medicine, its really not all that great. It just makes me feel shaky, dizzy, and tired all the time. 

my parents got me a Ben Harper dvd for Valentines Day.  Last night I decided that instead of the whole haveing a terrible v-day because I don't have anyone in my life that I would just remember all the people that I love and that love me, it doesn't have to be about just that certian type of love.  :)

I declare v-day from now on agape love day!

oh and I had to hold my passenger side door closed with a towel, while I shifted and drove,  it was one of the most difficult things I've ever done in my life.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

oh wait there's another!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

Why is that when you loose something that you find in the place that you look 3 times before? 

I got so worked up.... its ridiculous... I mean what am I going to do when I can't even handle the smallest little thing....

I mean that stuff really doesn't matter... why do I freak? its just stupid.

I don't know....

amor!

cz

PS Zach, I found my other keys...

I am so completely exhausted... I really hate being sick.....

So apparently its supposed to snow? I sure hope so...and I hope I am well enough to play in it....

amor!

cz

Heck yea I'm going to Chicago with Art on April 11th.  I am so excited it should be incredible. Apparently I got the last spot... so that makes it even more special. :)

Is it sad that I have to call someone in TX to talk about Gilmore Girls the way I really want to? 

Yes all of those people that are keeping up with Gilmore Girls this is from an old episode but Jess is by far my favorite of her boyfriends... maybe its because Alexis and Milo are actually together?

Well sorry about that.... no more Gilmore charged entries

WB tonight @ 7 new episode :)

amor!

cz

I am so completely frustrated right now... all because of my stupid mistakes and a substatutes assumptions... I don't really want to go into it right now but if you really want to know ask me later.

hey but something good happened though... In art I apparently painted a really good tree with water colors... my art teacher was so excited because I had been working on getting the right technique for two weeks... so I am excited that she's excited. Watercolor is alot harder than one might think.... 

I absolutly love my photo editor!

so winter retreat tonight... still have to pack... I have about and hour after I get home to get  ready... I really hope its fun... considering this is our last one.... ugh....

 thats the only picture I had on here of last years... maybe because this was as we were breaking the camera?

Hey Zach! I was watching Fight Club....again

and I now get the whole Paper Street thing!

rock on!

so today my neighbor had 2 tickets to see Hairspray this afternoon that she couldn't use... So Emily and I went to see it.  It was incredible and the seats were amazing.  I wish I could see it again. I highly recomend seeing it, but you'll have to hurry cause tomorrow is the last day they are in Nashville.

Four jobs you've had in your life:
Usher at my Church

Yard Worker
Babysitter
Myspace editor
Four movies you would watch over and over:
Back to the Future
Almost Famous
Zoolander
Jurassic Park 
Four places you have lived:
Bowling Green, KY

Mt. Juliet, TN
Murfreesboro, TN
Almost lived in Columbia, SC
Four TV shows you love to watch:
Gilmore Girls
CSI
 Survivor
Amazing Race
Four places you have been on vacation:
Key West , FL
Steamboat, CO
Dinosaur, UT
Washington DC
Four websites you visit daily:
Xanga
Myspace
google
Phusebox
Four of your favorite foods:
Fruit Pizza
Quesadillas
Fries
Chili with fritos
Four places you would rather be right now:
Chicago
Philly
St. Augustine
Steamboat
Four bloggers you are tagging:
 Zach
Ryan
Emily
*insert your name here if you not one of the above*

how much do I love snow... I really don't know but days off are incredible!

So in lunch today I found a RHS yearbook and found bunches of Zach Prichard pictures... that made me very happy.  I also got to miss half of 1st period so I could go dig christmas lights out of my attic for the door decoration contest.  Oh and Sunday we went to Let It Shine and I am so sore I can hardly move.

I absolutly love this picture