Jamie Crabtree

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February 15 2007

So yeah, I’ve been doing nothing but sitting at the hospital
for the past few days. Pa’s surgery went fine, but this morning he had to be
rushed into emergency surgery.



            His blood wouldn’t clot and he kept
bleeding, but they’ve fixed it. I think they’ll put him in a regular room day
after tomorrow.



 



Valentines Day was uneventful, which was fine by me. My
friend Sarah gave me a really cute flower with a Hershey in the center, but
that’s about it. I was enjoying it, I wrapped it around my pen, the pen was
green so it was funny to me.



 




So yeah, I’ve had like 4 hours of sleep today. I could go
for a hug; all day at the hospital doesn’t really do a body good. *sigh* I’ve
been listening to a lot of Laguna Coil, Evanescence, Three Days Grace, and Skillet
lately.
  I think the
general atmosphere of the hospital ICU is getting to me. I’ve been to hospitals
before, heck I’ve been a patient there more times than I care to remember. But
when it’s someone like Pa, it’s different. He’s never even been sick, and then
they just show up with a brain tumor. It’s like someone shattered a stained
glass window, almost profane.




 It’s hard you know.
Just sitting there when someone like him is laying in a bed in the Vandy ICU attached
to 9 bags of a thousand different things with his face so bruised and swollen
he can barely open his eyes, I’m amazed I haven’t just lost it all over everything
and everyone.
I have however given myself a very
small cut on my palm. I was clenching my fist so hard, my fingernails did a
little bit of damage. No, I’m not cutting, it was an accident. I was mad,
really really mad.



 



So yeah, putting up with The Aunts
hasn’t made me that happiest person in the world. Yes, I have some of those,
who doesn’t? I could tell you quite a few stories about our adventures with
them.



 



On a lighter note, I spent about 2
hours today making fun of just about everybody in FFVII. My cousin and I
watched Advent Children today, oh the jokes abounded. Cloud bore the brunt of
most of them, simply because when two people that tend to share a though
process things are always funny. Poor Cloud, the whole tight black clothing
thing failed him today, it failed him miserably…

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February 16 2007
praying for you and your pa. :) love you girl.