I'm beginning to lose faith in the idea that I can do this. Of course, to other people I'm happy and doing okay without him. But the minute I'm alone, I completely fall apart. I know that God is doing this with all the faith in the world in me, but I'm doubting myself. I miss him more and more each day, and some days it takes everything I have to just get out of bed. And what makes it even harder is the fact that I'm doing this all by myself. Because the only person that I can talk to about absolutely everything has suddenly become too busy to notice that I am not okay. It's the absolute hardest thing in the world to lose the person you loved more than anything, but it's even harder to lose them without a shoulder to cry on. I miss him more than I thought it was possible to miss someone, and no one even knows it. Like I said, I'm not sure that I can do this.

Love Always: Me