I get so sick of my complaints day in & day out. I say I'm sick of this. I'm sick of that. I'm sick of myself & being sick of everything. I think we all get a little sick of ourselves every now & then, but what angers me the most is when we don't do anything about it. we just complain about us being dumb & don't take any action towards improving the very things we're "so sick" of. it's gonna take more than words to prove to the world that you're serious about what you say. words almost get on my nerves. if we were continuously speechless because we didn't have words to say, who would we be? probably nothing because we don't have actions to back everything up. I'm not just talking about everybody else who's disgusted with themseleves, I'm mainly talking about me. I constantly sabotage myself & make myself look so hypocritical & stupid by talking all this junk & never doing anything about it. it's like I'm lazy about what I say. not just in what I complain about, but in my spirituality, too. I tell you I'll do something for you & then I don't & I think it's okay because I can get away with it. sometimes I can't understand why God still puts up with me because I'm so narrowminded a lot of the times. I have a one track mind that's all about me, but yet I wear this sign on my head that says "I'm willing to do what God wants." that's a bunch of bull honkey doodle squat. if I'm being selfish, them I'm not willing. don't take my word for it, though. if I don't prove it to you by my actions, don't believe a single word I say.