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Press hard

Make sure what is done is finished.

Let the agony

Turn into sweet relief from the pain.

Such warmth, pulsating

Was the beginning and now will represent the end.

Orbs will stare back

Hazel and cold when you find where the deed was done

and a life begun ends.

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Been awhile...lots of time to think

Although I haven't been updating much I immensley enjoy reading up on everyone's life and have done so faithfully. Yet here lately with the numerous posts about leaving to begin the journey that leads into a life of one's own I have executed many one sided coversation in my own little world...my mind.

I find it almost sad that everyone looks around and sees a place where they have grown up, with all the friends they created many a memory with through the numerous years of friendship, and they know they are leaving it for college of the misc. other things. Maybe it's jealousy because I never technically had a graduating class that I had gone through school with...the only year I went to high school in Murfreesboro I was in between classes {{never technically a junior and never technically a senior}} then I ran straight for the college campus. I look at all the people I had grown up with in Montana and wonder what life has been like spending the last two years as if nothing changed. What would it have been like if I had been able to enjoy my highschool years with all those I had grown up with? Would college have been a bit more scarey instead of something that was considered a simple upgrade?

I know all of this is crazy talk and not much of it probably makes sense, but I'm just off thinking about what could have or would have been if I wasn't here... there are a few things that never would have happened either though. Pros and cons...here we go.

If I had stayed in Montana:

I would have never finished high school in 3 years

I would have never met Herschel

I would have never gone to college right away

I would have never enjoyed a choral competition in New York City

I would have never met so many people I love (oh you know who you are!)

so many more...

I would have gone back to China to teach english for a few more years

I would have continued in my Thespian passion

I would have been with those I grew up with

I would have continued playing tennis, basketball and volleyball

I would have had a second or even third letter and 4 plus pin for my lettermans jacket

Oh lord... it's a pity party post. To bad! Love you all!

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I miss the moutains..and living in the valley

I miss Montana and every person I grew up with there. I miss the things I once use to do with them like steal construction cones at 3 in the morning or tell stories of days old because we were romantics. Sadly I know that even if I went back it wouldn't be as I had left it. Those who were left in Great Falls continued their life as much as I did. They aren't where we use to be together...so much has changed.

Herschel and I want to go up there together...I think we will once we're engaged so that Uncle Lee can meet him...

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I'm to much like him

She's to much like her

But in the long run the eldest takes up for her clone

It's annoying... so maybe I wasn't ever a make up/ fashion person. Frankley I'm still not but I like to cover up some blemishes but otherwise simplicity and comfort are more my style.  I hate that just because I'm not mile long legs with an attitude to follow along that I have to take the crap the younger one dishes out.

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