This is going to be a really bad day.  At least the school day will be.

  I am soo tired.  i worked seven hours last night for my mom.  Open Bar wedding...  We dont hate Gail anymore, we found that out.  yeah.. she is a huge bitch, but she has to be.  And we're in no position to put judgement on someone just because they're a bitch...   ;)

not only am i tired, but i have 5 front back worksheets due  in Chem next period... Fuck i wish i was driven.  Wish that i cared...

So Bekah leaves on Monday... at like 4 am.  I am going to miss her terribley ...  My best friend leaving me for 5 months.  again ill be the only sane one living at the Luhrs House.  talking to my mom about things she shouldn't have to hear. just becuase bekah isn't there to take it instead.

The saddest songs are the happiest

the hardest truths are the easiest

put us bothf to the test

and tell me if you still need me

and i will swallow these words and see if i can still believe

The biggest lies are the little ones

when the look in your eyes is the distant one

angel or demon? you know that they can share the same bed

i've lain awake so long i've got them both inside my  head

This is what ill remember most about dying

for many moments life goes slipping through my hands

in vain

you were 80% angel 10% demon the rest is hard to explain

This American Dream maybe poisonous,

violence is contagious

crowded or empty. i walk these city streets alone

who ever brought me here is gonna have to take me home

This is what ill remember most about dying