This week has been HELL...

so much bloody homework... I welcome next monday, Just so i can start over.

So i've realized this week through all of this work... just how much time i have in one day... 24 Hours.. its not a lot but it is definetly enough.. Yet i dont use it wisely at all..

I slip yet agian into procrastinating... My life .. My calling..  I do ZERO of my work at home because i can not work unless i am under pressure.  I sit in my room and become distracted. Even if i was to sit in and empty room and do my home work  i think i would like play with my fingers or some shit..ANYTHING to not do my work.

But then the morning comes... and there is this RUSH... holy shit i have to get 5 sections of Precal done by 3rd period..The pressure is on, and im ready for it..

This is what i live for. those mornings, when my 3.8 GPA is on the line.

When i really dont care any more.. but yet i still do...  I get my 5 sections done.. whether copying or putting my nose to the grind stone and doing it myself.

So i say to myself.. " i will never put it off for this long ever again"  i kno i am lying to myself though... b/c i cant' not do it at the last minute.. It is my habit my addiction...  And it has never failed me yet.

I've yet to make a "C" in  a high school course.