Today was just really depressing. First, I found out that I lost fourteen pounds in one week. Yeah, not good, but at least I know that is because I have never been as depressed as I am now. Secondly, I am starting to feel weird about certain things. Things that I once enjoyed, now just seem strange. Perhaps, I am just growing up or the depression is hitting harder than I thought. Thirdly, I have a 75 in Physics without the three points, the test we just took, and the corrections I did today. So, I have a feeling it will not be good. Finally, break is coming up and I am not allowed to see her outside of school or technically at all, so as if I haven't had a hard enough time, triple it and you get what I will be going through.
   I also had an extreme urge to slaughter people today. Not just hurt or kill, but slaughter and torture certain people... ... I REALLY need to go see someone about this.