I've discovered that I've gotten so good at hiding my emotions, that to my amazement, because of simple song lyrics I've discovered something I didn't even know was hurting me.

"It's like her mind just quit
Oh, but bring up grandpa
It's like someone flipped a switch.......

Black and whites of days gone by....

We started losin' her when she lost him
But to hear her carry on
You'd swear she's seventeen again...

While the world is fading all around her
Sharin' a sundae at the counter
He's goin' on and on about her
Bet she's right there right now
Tomorrow she won't remember what she did today
But just ask her about Ellsworth, Kansas 1948"

If u don't know my grandparents love story..well it was amazing. And something I'm still trying to record for my own knowing. (If u wanna know about it ask when u've got LOTS of time). But I don't think my grandmother was ever the same after her and my grandfather divorced. Her dementia set in pretty bad the last 2 years, but mention my grandmother or he went to see her, and it was like the entire world just lit up and for a moment she was fine. Even when she got SO sick there at the end he still made her happy. Idk...I guess I just miss seeing her light up when he walked in a room. Basically...I just miss her.

And I still need the prayer.