FINE ARTS PRACTICE IS STARTING UP AGAIN THIS SUNDAY! YAAAAAAY!

very few of you will get this, but for the ones who do...

"DON'T SAY THAT!"     

"Everybody DIES!!!!!!!!"

last night was fun. me, my sister and chris d. slept out in the tent last night. wow, i'm tired. we didnt sleep till 6 then i woke up at 6:30. I WANNA GO TO BED!!!!!! it was worth it though. i kinda drifted off at around 2 to alicia and chris scratching my back and i woke up to chris trying to sing twinkle twinkle little star. then we made up this song that went something like "i hate camping! i hate camping! iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit's hot and humid and cold in here. damp and dank as ali says. i really really don't wanna be outside. i wanna lay on my inside." then there was a bunch of stuff about an old hag and how chris gives such good masages. anyways, it was fun but i need to get some sleep now, so good bye

tonight was crazy. words definately can't describe it. i dont think i can say anything that happened tonight because of graphic images and.... you just can't know. all i can say is my friends lost a bet and they had to walk down our street in nothing but there boxers. i laughed. i laughed hard. so did my friends kirby and chris. oh, the laughs. there were even funnier things like at the pond or the so called "arby's game" or capture the flag, but let's not go there. until next time.... goodbye.....

on the night i came home from camp, i got 13 freakin hours of sleep! 13!!! wow.... well, nutin much goin down in ali-town, just here at my friend kirby's house, who rocks by the way. we tried to make this stupid movie when i was over here and it turned out pretty good (in a stupidly randomly funny way) but then we got bored and quit half way through. so..... remark, peeps!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i got back from youth camp about 2 hours ago and it ROCKED!!!! it was both spiritually and physically incredible. the games rocked and the services were moving. if i had a chance to, i'd go back for another 5 days right now. once i get pictures back i'll try to put them on. 

so, it's that time of year again, when we leave our lives for 5 days and go on an amazingly awesome spirit filled place called CAMP AMBASSADOR!!!!!!!! i can't wait to see all my friends i made last year (especially peach and blake) and play all those messy games again. man, i'm getting phsyched just thinking about it!

that's me and becca at camp last year

today i was going through my binder and throwing out everything (because i dont need it anymore!!!) and i found this poem i wrote in the beginning of the year. i forgot about it, but i think i was really really mad at someone while i was writing it. here it goes:

What is this feeling?

It's not love, not hate

Why did you do it?

Why did I do it?

Is it because I don't love you?

or simply not care?

Part of me says I did the right thing

while the other regrets it

 Part of me still loves you

while the other tries to avoid you

Did I do it for revenge?

I feel like you need to be hurt

But I see you

and I feel sorry for you

Because deep down I know you still love me

as much as I love you

So why did I do it?

Why did you do it?

Jelousy?

My love?

Another's love?

It may not be true

but i can't help thinking

This love wasn't meant for me

The moment it happened, things changed

Everything changed

The jokes stopped, the feelings stopped

Your feelings stopped

It was like a barrier came between you and me

Between us

All i could think was

How did this happen?

Why did this happen?

Jelousy?

My love?

Another's love?

This whole thing is just two battles:

A fight for him

A fight for her

We end up in the worst positions:

A silent battle between each other

Trying to win the battle

with our "so-called" love

Then something bigger happens

Is this bad?

Or could it be good?

No, this can't be good

Once again, things change

but more drastically

This time, everything stops

Even our friendship, which used to be so great

dropped down to almost nothing

I don't know who my friends are during this

Those who bring me up?

Those who bring me down?

Down

with the others

The pessimists

The ungodly

The ones who encourage drama

just to bring others down

I feel I need to bring you down

Because there's no more love, no more emotion

But why?

It wasn't you

or was it?

But it can't be me

or could it?

There are so many questions that can't be answered

So here i am

writing a silly little poem that no one will understand

But me

Or will you?

Could you read this and understand?

Feel how I do?

No

No, you can't

Because right now

I feel so alone...

yeah, it's kinda crappy, but i was mad when i wrote it and i still dont understand what i was going through then.

yesterday was the last day of school!!! EEEEEEEEEK, I'M SO HAPPY!!!!!! it really ended, like, a week ago cuz all we've been doing in class is talking, watching movies, or signing yearbooks. so, yeah, im excited.

so, yesterday was tylers last day. we had a party, ate some cake, good times, good times. it's not like he's not coming back, he'll be back in a month. when alicia and i left, i dont think he wanted us to leave because he jumped on the back of the car and stayed there until  we got to the end of his road. it was funny to watch him, tho!

leave some comments, peeps.

ok, so apparently i found out tyler was moving before other ppl at church did. sunday night was madness with a bunch of "OMG"es, and "he's LEAVING?!" i was surprised i was one of the few to know. goodbye ty. see u in a monthish. you'll be missed.

today i helped out with a spring carnival at my friends church. i stayed from 11-3. it was tiring, but i got paid and i really needed the money. after that i spent a few hours at my friends house playing old games, such as "red light, green light", "mother may i?", "freeze tag" ect, and making movies with her and her little brother. it was fun, brang back some pretty good memories. the problem is, we were in the grass a lot and apparently im allergic to grass or sumthin cuz it ruined my legs and made them all rashy. and i wanted to wear a skirt to church tomorrow! hmph.... maybe it'll be better in the morning. i did get slightly tanner!

when fat people attack me i dont know what to do. but when i attack old people all hell breaks loose. i was fighting an old lady just the other day and she hit me so hard it felt like getting hit by a pruny grape. so i took a chair and hit her so "soft" i thought i killed her. i fell on the ground and put the cookie on the floor and apoligizied to my grandma. i said i was sorry for eating a cookie before dinner!

                                            -Justin Barnes

Justin, you have got to be the craziest guy i know. It's too bad i love you to death.

yes, today is a happy day. i have finally reached 100 photos! i could have done it a long time ago, but im too lazy to download all of my pictures onto phusebox.... hmph.... well..... it's friday! tomorrow means sleeping in and running a booth at a carnival. yaaaay. maybe i'll run a cotton candy machine or sumthin and i can get (yum) free cotton candy! mmmmm..... but i dont wanna think about candy right now. i went to the mall with alicia today and i got a snickerdoodle cookie, a chocolate truffle, a gourmet delight cookie, and a lemonade. then i came home to find that my mom went to jack-in-the-box and got me an oreo cookie shake. being nice and taking her offer, i ate a jumbo jack burger and the shake. i feel gross. like i need to run a mile or sumthin. oh, congratulations, mary beth! you did the best on my test! 80/100, pretty good, pretty good. if ur confused, take this test. it was in my last post, but only 4 ppl have taken it so far.

http://www03.quizyourfriends.com/takequiz.php?quizname=060506181204-878624&a=08

ok? will u take it? oh and here's a hint to the test: I WILL DIE FOR YOU!

alright, peeps, lets see how well you really know me!

http://www03.quizyourfriends.com/takequiz.php?quizname=060506181204-878624&a=08

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grrr.... so excited. school ends in just 10 days. 10 DAYS!!!! pretty soon it'll be summer vacation and that means going to bed at 3 a.m, sleeping in, YMCA, sun tanning, vacations, fine arts, all sorts of things. i hope i can make it. i'm already slacking. i got detention (which was NOT my fault), have a couple things of missing work, and i just dont really care about my grades any more. last 6 weeks i made an F on my report card and all i did was shudder at that site amongst all the A's and B's. wow, 10 days....

some awesome pics of me and my friend:

yay, tonight's the cookout! good thing, too, cuz im in the mood for a smore! sweet, 14 1/2 days of school left! im so ready for summer. usually at the end of the school year i say stuff like "wow, this year went by too fast! i wish it was longer so i can hang out with u more"....."yeah, im gonna miss mr.stinnet too!"....."awww, at least i'll see you next year." this year, no, none of that. this year is,"oh, you're not going to blackman high next year? too bad."...."GOODBYE, MR.MULLICAN! I ALWAYS KNEW U WERE GAY!"....."goodbye, middle school, im goin to high school!" wow, 14 1/2 days of middle school.

Rest in peace, Combos.

You were a great hamster, better than the rest.

You knew your name. You came when i called you.

You could do a backflip. How many hamsters could do that? You must be special.

Rest in peace, Combos. You were loved.

Rest in peace, Combos.

You were a great hamster, better than the rest.

You knew your name. You came when i called you.

You could do a backflip. How many hamsters could do that? You must be special.

Rest in peace, Combos. You were loved.

congratulations to all my peeps who advanced!!! most of you prbly know, but our youth choir got FIRST FREAKIN PLACE IN THE STATE! wow, orlando. that's gonna be so freakin amazing. districts was fun. im kind of upset that my drama and ensemble didnt advanced, but im not complaining because im still going to districts. aside from youth choir getting first, adam's drama solo (which was awesome!) got first, my brothers small ensemble got first (but didnt advance), and large vocal emsemble #1 (greater is he that is in me!). pictures from districts:

aw, she looks like gracie but prettier.

yay, it's randy!

me and krista

and there it is, the medal.

totally unrelated to districts, but it's me as a bunny!