i got back from youth camp about 2 hours ago and it ROCKED!!!! it was both spiritually and physically incredible. the games rocked and the services were moving. if i had a chance to, i'd go back for another 5 days right now. once i get pictures back i'll try to put them on. 

so, it's that time of year again, when we leave our lives for 5 days and go on an amazingly awesome spirit filled place called CAMP AMBASSADOR!!!!!!!! i can't wait to see all my friends i made last year (especially peach and blake) and play all those messy games again. man, i'm getting phsyched just thinking about it!

that's me and becca at camp last year

today i was going through my binder and throwing out everything (because i dont need it anymore!!!) and i found this poem i wrote in the beginning of the year. i forgot about it, but i think i was really really mad at someone while i was writing it. here it goes:

What is this feeling?

It's not love, not hate

Why did you do it?

Why did I do it?

Is it because I don't love you?

or simply not care?

Part of me says I did the right thing

while the other regrets it

 Part of me still loves you

while the other tries to avoid you

Did I do it for revenge?

I feel like you need to be hurt

But I see you

and I feel sorry for you

Because deep down I know you still love me

as much as I love you

So why did I do it?

Why did you do it?

Jelousy?

My love?

Another's love?

It may not be true

but i can't help thinking

This love wasn't meant for me

The moment it happened, things changed

Everything changed

The jokes stopped, the feelings stopped

Your feelings stopped

It was like a barrier came between you and me

Between us

All i could think was

How did this happen?

Why did this happen?

Jelousy?

My love?

Another's love?

This whole thing is just two battles:

A fight for him

A fight for her

We end up in the worst positions:

A silent battle between each other

Trying to win the battle

with our "so-called" love

Then something bigger happens

Is this bad?

Or could it be good?

No, this can't be good

Once again, things change

but more drastically

This time, everything stops

Even our friendship, which used to be so great

dropped down to almost nothing

I don't know who my friends are during this

Those who bring me up?

Those who bring me down?

Down

with the others

The pessimists

The ungodly

The ones who encourage drama

just to bring others down

I feel I need to bring you down

Because there's no more love, no more emotion

But why?

It wasn't you

or was it?

But it can't be me

or could it?

There are so many questions that can't be answered

So here i am

writing a silly little poem that no one will understand

But me

Or will you?

Could you read this and understand?

Feel how I do?

No

No, you can't

Because right now

I feel so alone...

yeah, it's kinda crappy, but i was mad when i wrote it and i still dont understand what i was going through then.

yesterday was the last day of school!!! EEEEEEEEEK, I'M SO HAPPY!!!!!! it really ended, like, a week ago cuz all we've been doing in class is talking, watching movies, or signing yearbooks. so, yeah, im excited.

so, yesterday was tylers last day. we had a party, ate some cake, good times, good times. it's not like he's not coming back, he'll be back in a month. when alicia and i left, i dont think he wanted us to leave because he jumped on the back of the car and stayed there until  we got to the end of his road. it was funny to watch him, tho!

leave some comments, peeps.

ok, so apparently i found out tyler was moving before other ppl at church did. sunday night was madness with a bunch of "OMG"es, and "he's LEAVING?!" i was surprised i was one of the few to know. goodbye ty. see u in a monthish. you'll be missed.

today i helped out with a spring carnival at my friends church. i stayed from 11-3. it was tiring, but i got paid and i really needed the money. after that i spent a few hours at my friends house playing old games, such as "red light, green light", "mother may i?", "freeze tag" ect, and making movies with her and her little brother. it was fun, brang back some pretty good memories. the problem is, we were in the grass a lot and apparently im allergic to grass or sumthin cuz it ruined my legs and made them all rashy. and i wanted to wear a skirt to church tomorrow! hmph.... maybe it'll be better in the morning. i did get slightly tanner!

when fat people attack me i dont know what to do. but when i attack old people all hell breaks loose. i was fighting an old lady just the other day and she hit me so hard it felt like getting hit by a pruny grape. so i took a chair and hit her so "soft" i thought i killed her. i fell on the ground and put the cookie on the floor and apoligizied to my grandma. i said i was sorry for eating a cookie before dinner!

                                            -Justin Barnes

Justin, you have got to be the craziest guy i know. It's too bad i love you to death.

yes, today is a happy day. i have finally reached 100 photos! i could have done it a long time ago, but im too lazy to download all of my pictures onto phusebox.... hmph.... well..... it's friday! tomorrow means sleeping in and running a booth at a carnival. yaaaay. maybe i'll run a cotton candy machine or sumthin and i can get (yum) free cotton candy! mmmmm..... but i dont wanna think about candy right now. i went to the mall with alicia today and i got a snickerdoodle cookie, a chocolate truffle, a gourmet delight cookie, and a lemonade. then i came home to find that my mom went to jack-in-the-box and got me an oreo cookie shake. being nice and taking her offer, i ate a jumbo jack burger and the shake. i feel gross. like i need to run a mile or sumthin. oh, congratulations, mary beth! you did the best on my test! 80/100, pretty good, pretty good. if ur confused, take this test. it was in my last post, but only 4 ppl have taken it so far.

http://www03.quizyourfriends.com/takequiz.php?quizname=060506181204-878624&a=08

ok? will u take it? oh and here's a hint to the test: I WILL DIE FOR YOU!

alright, peeps, lets see how well you really know me!

http://www03.quizyourfriends.com/takequiz.php?quizname=060506181204-878624&a=08

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grrr.... so excited. school ends in just 10 days. 10 DAYS!!!! pretty soon it'll be summer vacation and that means going to bed at 3 a.m, sleeping in, YMCA, sun tanning, vacations, fine arts, all sorts of things. i hope i can make it. i'm already slacking. i got detention (which was NOT my fault), have a couple things of missing work, and i just dont really care about my grades any more. last 6 weeks i made an F on my report card and all i did was shudder at that site amongst all the A's and B's. wow, 10 days....

some awesome pics of me and my friend:

yay, tonight's the cookout! good thing, too, cuz im in the mood for a smore! sweet, 14 1/2 days of school left! im so ready for summer. usually at the end of the school year i say stuff like "wow, this year went by too fast! i wish it was longer so i can hang out with u more"....."yeah, im gonna miss mr.stinnet too!"....."awww, at least i'll see you next year." this year, no, none of that. this year is,"oh, you're not going to blackman high next year? too bad."...."GOODBYE, MR.MULLICAN! I ALWAYS KNEW U WERE GAY!"....."goodbye, middle school, im goin to high school!" wow, 14 1/2 days of middle school.

Rest in peace, Combos.

You were a great hamster, better than the rest.

You knew your name. You came when i called you.

You could do a backflip. How many hamsters could do that? You must be special.

Rest in peace, Combos. You were loved.

Rest in peace, Combos.

You were a great hamster, better than the rest.

You knew your name. You came when i called you.

You could do a backflip. How many hamsters could do that? You must be special.

Rest in peace, Combos. You were loved.

congratulations to all my peeps who advanced!!! most of you prbly know, but our youth choir got FIRST FREAKIN PLACE IN THE STATE! wow, orlando. that's gonna be so freakin amazing. districts was fun. im kind of upset that my drama and ensemble didnt advanced, but im not complaining because im still going to districts. aside from youth choir getting first, adam's drama solo (which was awesome!) got first, my brothers small ensemble got first (but didnt advance), and large vocal emsemble #1 (greater is he that is in me!). pictures from districts:

aw, she looks like gracie but prettier.

yay, it's randy!

me and krista

and there it is, the medal.

totally unrelated to districts, but it's me as a bunny!

so fine arts is finally here. it's seems like i just got back from colorado and it's already districts!!! wow.... i have a feeling this is gonna be an awesome fine arts year. i've made a lot of new friends this year who werent in it last year (tyler, krista, hannah, meagen.....). oh and i didnt make the dance team but i dont really care...

just 3 days.... 3 days till DANCE TRYOUTS! (dun dun duuuuuuuuun.......) u guys dont realize how amazing it would be to make the team. i just..... words cant describe it. today was the second day of the clinic. the dance is really extremely hard but i still have another day to work on it..... grrrr..... u guys i need prayer about this.... uh oh, i just realized we dont have church tomorrow! wow, i was lookin forward to it, too.

wow, this has been a busy week.  i've been at church the majority of the week. here lets see my week:

MONDAY

didnt do much this day. woke up around 7, went to school till 4, had dance at 6:30 to 7:30, the usual monday....

TUESDAY

i think i had trilogy practice that day.... yeah, i think i did. well i dont remember tuesday, it was a pretty long time ago....

WEDNESDAY

i dont think i did too much this day either. maybe i didnt have such a busy week. well, i went to church at 6:30, but had to leave right after praise and worship cuz we had to let the puppy out of her kennel.

THURSDAY

trilogy practice from 6:30 till, like, 9ish.

FRIDAY

ok, this is the busy day! well, not necesarily busy, just full. ok, i had to wake up at nine because my sister was the easter bunny for an easter egg hunt at our neighbors house

 

and i had to do her makeup and had to hide the eggs. i stayed for the egg hunt and we got home at around 11.30, 12ish. then melody called and asked if we wanted to go to the lake with the boys and hang out. so we went and stayed till about 4 cuz we had to go to church at 6 for practice. so we went to church at 6 and stayed till about 9. it was just me and my sister (from my family) that went. we were about to leave, but tyler asked if we wanted to go bowling. we went bowling and it was FUN!!! it was cyber bowling. we danced like freaks. i did so bad. the first game i got a (hold onto your chair) 39! i think that's the worst i've ever bowled, and that was with pointers from tyler. the second game i did a little better at. i got an 87, which is still pretty bad but it's better then a 39! i actually got in second and 5 points away from first (grrrr, spikey....). i got home at about 12:30 and listened to relient k till i fell asleep at around 4.

 

Richard and Steven

my sister alicia and tyler

tyler after he got a strike

alicia bowling

wow, i look wierd in that picture. well, it's me, tyler and meagen.

SATURDAY

i dont remember. i just know i had trilogy practice.

TODAY

happy easter! woke up at 7, left for church at 7:20, stayed at church till 12. it's 3:15 now and i have to be back at church at 5:30. tonight's the last performance. after all the effort i put into this, tonight is the crusendo (crew-sen-dough) or however you spell that. and next week is dance clinic and tryouts for the high school. grrr im so freakin NERVOUS! wish me luck!

Ahh, yes, i knew my puppy would be a yankee fan! check her out:

yes, yes, so cute. on a more gruesome note, i found this picture on stevens site:not quite as cute as the puppy.... gross, paul, that's stage makeup, not jelly! it made me cry when i sawthe trilogy.... so everyone, come to the trilogy and see tyler look like a dead man!

first off, i'd like to tell everyone that i've reached my 50th friend! i know, i know, it's not that much.... i try..... well on an even better note than that, i got a puppy yesterday!! she's only 7 weeks old and she looks like this

 

haha, that one looks like she has a lazy eye.

and she's really really really loveable. she wont let you put her down if you pick her up. and i think we've decided on the name jolee (thanks hannah) because it means "pretty" in french. 

and on a slighty nerve racking note.... dance tryouts are april 21. grrr, im so NERVOUS!! if i make it this year, i'm prbly gonna make it the other 3 years in high school so this is the most important year to make it!! gives me goosebumps just thinking about it....

1. First name: Ali, but some know me as Duck
2. Do you wish on stars?: if im bored....
3. When did you last cry?: when my dog died
4. Do you like your handwriting?: i guess so.....
5. What is your favorite lunch meat?: umm.... that's a stupid question..... bacon?
6. What is your birthdate?: feburary 12, 1992                                   7. What is your most embarassing CD?: the shrek soundtrack                                                                                            8. If you were someone else, would you be friends with you?: heck yes!                                                                                                 9. Do you have a Diary/journal?: sorta..... no, no i dont
10. Do you use sarcasm alot?: duuuh! lol
11. What are your nicknames?: the most common one is duck, but im not gonna list them all 
12. Would you bungee jump?: i plan on it
13. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?:  i think so.....
14. Do you think you are strong?: i have very little upper body strength, but im strong mentally, if that counts
15. What is your fave ice cream flavor?: chocolate chip cookie dough. yuuuuuuuuuuuuuuum.............                                                           16. What is your shoe size?: 7 1/2
17.Red or pink?: ..... pink i guess? i dunno, these are stupid questions.....                                                                                   18. What is your least fave thing about you? nose, legs that used to be pretty but got stupid scarred up.....
19. Who do you miss most? if i told you i'd have to kill you..... 
21. What color pants and shoes are you wearing?: blue jeans and i am shoeless....                                                 

22. What are you listening to right now?: Apathetic Way to Be, by relient k
23. Last thing you ate?: did i eat today?.... um..... oh yeah, a cookie. i dont think i had any real food today and it's 4:30......
24. If you were a crayon, what color would you be?: a pretty one? i dunno, im not a crayon....
25. What is the weather like right now?: sunny with a high of 75! perfect weather and im on the computer....                                      26. Last person you talked to on the phone?: kirby.... no, tyler.... i dont know!....
27. First thing you notice about the opposite sex: sadly, if they have nice hair or arms....                                                                         
29. Favorite drink?: DR.PEPPER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!30. Favorite sport drink?: lemon lime gatorade
31. Hair color?: brownish......
32. Eye color?: a really pretty greenish blueish grayish brownish purpleish....
33. Do you wear contacts?: noo
34. Favorite food?: junk: anything chewy   actual food: i have no idea
35. Last movie you watched?: Stay Alive, it was freakin GOOD!!!
36. Favorite day of the year?: so far? uhmmmmmmmm........ that day at the rally was fun but prbly not my favorite, i dunno.....
37. Scary movies or happy endings?: scary..... ooooh......
38. Summer or winter?: summer!!!!!
39. Hugs or kisses?: hugs ar great, but sadly i never kissed a guy....
40. What is your favorite dessert?: it's all good, it's all good....
43. Living arrangements?: were i live now? i dont have my own house.... it's a two-story brick house.....                                          44. What books are you reading?: i think it's called Snake Charmer or sumthin.... 
45. What is on your mouse pad?: a whole lot of blue....                   46. What did you watch on TV last night?: does halo count?
47. Favorite smells?: guys smell good.....
48. Favorite sounds?: ripping velcro or music.... preferably relient k 
49. Rolling Stones or The Beatles?: yay for beatles!!!
50. What's the farthest you've been from home?: denver, colorado
51. Do you have a special talent?: i can dance good and i can make my tounge huge without it touching my teeth or anything, it's really sick.....                                                                                           52. Do you like cookies? random..... yeah, cookies are cool

You've ever ended a sentence with the word "SIKE!"

You can sing the rap to "The Fresh Prince Of Bel Air"

You remember when Kurt Cobain, Tu Pac, River Phoenix, and Selena died.

You know that "WOAH" comes from Joey from "Blossom" and that "How Rude!" comes from Stephanie from "Full House"

You remember when it was actually worth getting up early
on a Saturday to watch cartoons.


You got super excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school.


You remember reading "Goosebumps"

You know the profound meaning of "Wax on, wax off"

You have pondered why Smurfette was the only female smurf.

You took plastic cartoon lunch boxes to school.

you
danced to "wannabe" by the Spice Girls, Females: had a new motto,
Males: got a whole lot gay-er. (so tell me what you want, what you
really really want.)

You remember the craze then the banning of slap bracelets and slam books.

You still get the urge to say "NOT" after (almost) every sentence...Not...

Where in the world is Carmen San Diego? was both a game and a TV game show.

Captain Planet.

You knew that Kimberly, the pink ranger, and Tommy, the red* Ranger were meant to be together.

To the last sentence you said.....hey...Tommy was the green* ranger!!!!

*later to be white

When playing power rangers with friends you fought over who got to be who............and still all ended up being tommy.

You remember when super nintendo's became popular.

You remember watching home alone 1, 2 , and 3........and tried to pull the pranks on "intruders"

"I've fallen and I can't get up"

You remember going to the skating rink before there were inline skates

Two words... Trapper Keeper.

You ever got injured on a Slip 'n' Slide

You wore socks over leggings scrunched down

"Miss
Mary Mack, Mack, Mack, all dressed in black, black, black, with silver
buttons, buttons, buttons, all down her back, back, back" SHE ASKED HER
MOTHER MOTHER MOTHER FOR FIFTY CENTS CENTS CENTS TO SEE THE ELEPHANTS
PHANTS PHANTS JUMP OVER THE FENCE THE FENCE THE FENCE
he jumped so
high high high he touched the sky sky sky and he didnt come back back
back til the forth of july ly ly he jumped so low ow ow he stubbed his
toe toe toe and thats the end end end of the elephants show show show

You remember boom boxes vs. cd players

You remember New Kids on The Block when they were cool

You knew all the characters names and their life stories on "Saved By The Bell"yes....?

You played and or collected "Pogs"

You had at least one Tamagotchi, GigaPet or Nano and brought it everywhere

You watched the original Care Bears, My Little Pony, and Ninja Turtles

NANCY DREW AND THE HARDY BOYS WERE THE BEST MYSTERY BOOKS

Yikes pencils and erasers were the stuff!

All your school supplies were "Lisa Frank" brand.(pencils.notebooks.binders.etc.)?

You remember when the new Beanie Babies were always sold out.

You
used to wear those stick on earings, not only on your ears, but at the
corners of your eyes.whatever, you know you did that...

You remember a time before the WB.

You've gotten creeped out by "Are You Afraid of the Dark?"

You know the Macarena by heart.

"Talk to the hand" ... enough said

You thought Brain woud finally take over the world

You always said, "Then why don't you marry it!"

You remember when everyone went slinky crazy.

You remember when razor scooters were cool.

when we were younger:

Before the MySpace frenzy.

Before the Internet & text messaging.

Before Sidekicks & iPods.

Before MIKE JONES

Before PlayStation2 or X-BOX.

Back when you put off the 5 hours of homework you had every night.

WHEN LIGHT UP SNEAKERS WERE KOOL

When you rented VHS tapes, not DVDs.

When gas was $0.95 a gallon & Caller ID was a new thing.

When we recorded stuff on VCRs & paid $3.50 for a movie.

When we called the radio station to request songs to hear off our walkmans.

When 2Pac and Biggie where alive.

When the Chicago Bulls were the best team ever.

Way back.

Tag.

Get Over Here!!!! means something to you.

Hide-n-Go Seek at dusk.

Red Light, Green Light.

Heads Up 7 Up.

Playing Kickball & Dodgeball until your porch light came on.

Hopskotch.

Slip-n-Slides.... now there are just ghetto ones

Tree Houses.

Hula Hoops.

Reading R.L. Stine's Goose Bumps.

HELLO....HOT WHEELS!!!!!

"POWER OF LOVE" BY CELINE DION..ONLY COUPLES COULD SKATE TO THIS.

The annoying Nano Pets & Furbies.

Running through the sprinklers.

That "Little Mermaid"

Crying when Mufasa died in the Lion King.

Happy Meals where you chose a Barbie or a Hot Wheels car.

Getting the privelage to sit in the front seat of the car.

Drinking Sqeeze It "Squeeze The Fun Out Of It"

CAPRI SUN

Watching Saturday Morning Cartoons in your PJ's still wrapped up in your TMNT, Power Rangers, Barbie, Fairy Princess comforter.

Hey Arnold, Doug, Rugrats.

The original Power Rangers

Or what about:

The Secret Life of Alex Mac.

Ren & Stimpy.

Double Dare.

Rocco's Modern Life.

AAAHH!! REAL MONSTERS.

Wild & Crazy Kids.

Clarissa Explains it All.

CAMP NOWHERE

salute your shorts(CAMP ANAWANA)

Are You Afraid of the Dark?

The original cast members of all that.

Kenan & Kel.

"CITY GUYS"...ROLLW/ THE CITY GUYS <<

doug.

magic school bus.

Nick Arcade.

flash forward.

pete and pete.

legends of the hidden temple.

hey dude.

dinosaurs.

pinky and the brain.

Sailor Moon.

blossom.

hangin with mr.copper.

wishbone.

bill-nye the science guy.

MR RODGERS!!!!

Who could forget Snick? & Nick @ Nite with Bewitched, I Dream of Jenie, The Facts of Life & I Love Lucy.

Where everyone wanted to be in love after watching The Wonder Years.

or nick jr. with face

gulah gulah island

little bear

under the unbrella tree

PEE-WEE!!!

The Big Comfy Couch

Kool-Aid was the drink of choice.

Wearing your new shoes on the first day of school.

Class field trips.

POGS

When Christmas was the most exciting time of year.

When $5 seemed like a million, & another dollar a miracle.

When you begged to go to McDonalds for dinner everyday.

When Toys R Us overuled the mall.

Go back to the time when:

Decisions were made by going 'eeny-meeny-miney-moe'.

Mistakes were corrected by simply exclaiming 'do over!'

'Race issue' ment arguing about who ran the fastest.

Money issues were handled by whoever was banker in 'Monopoly'.

It wasn't odd to have two or three 'best' friends.
(plastic Bffl bracelets)

Being old referred to anyone over 20.

A chance to skate as a couple at the local roller rink was like winning the lottery.

Scrapes & bruises were kissed & made better.

It was a big deal to finally be tall enought to ride the 'big people' rides at the fair.

When playing Nintendo was the hardest thing ever.

When Ninja Turtles ruled the world.

DID I DO THAAAAAAAAAT???

smud and yak back. skip it and pop it.

Before we realized all this would eventually disappear

who would have thought you'd miss the 90's so much!!!!!

well this is cool... i went from 20 to 38 friends in about 14 hours.... cool.... well satuday was really awesome!! i started out the day good by driving around the church parking lot for about 5 minutes (yes, it was my first time driving!), then the junior high youth group went to chattanooga for the second time. that was fun.... i fell asleep on the van a lot.... then we had that "controlled chaos" thing and that was both life threatening and amazing! i left early, tho.... i needed a good day to make up for all the bad ones i've been having....

So im sick again today (crap!). I hate being sick. Im starting to feel a little better, but im still very light headed. I like phusebox. I still need to get used to it to like it more than xanga (im not to fond of myspace) but it's fun. and.... i feel like putting pictures in!

    

    

   

wow, so now i have a xanga, myspace, and phusebox..... wow... so this is it... be my friend.....