i could sit here and tell you my life is perfect. but its not. it has its ups and downs. Its heartaches and heartbreaks. its smiles and laughters.

but its mine.

i wouldnt trade my family, my friends, my life for anything. and even in the times i hate it the most, sometimes i just want to pull all of my hair out and scream and have this major hysteria fit, my life continues to surprise me.

that i can smile through the tears. laugh away my troubles. do the happy dance for someone who is worse off than me.

 maybe its not my life at all. maybe i just constantly surprise myself.

so. as of now, March 3, i am this....

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that is my happy dance for today. interpreted through the keyboard.

i think today is going to be a good day. i have $4.85 to my name, and some aluminium foil in a bag. some good materials to have a very interesting day...... *emily*~*lu*~*emmy*~*emoochie*~*hoochie*~*e-money*

any more nicknames to add?? oh, sorry, sara, "the tennis player" :)

life is going good. doing good, doing great....but let me give you a bit of info.

If........

...you are going to talk about me behind my back, don't do it to SOMEONE WHO IS GONNA TELL ME, MORON!!

...you got a problem with me, have enough courage to tell me to my face what you have to say about me because i sure got some things to say to you.

...you think you understand what i'm going through, if you THINK you know who the heck i am anymore, talk to me. try and see how the heck we are still  friends....because we arent. Tell ME.

...you think that i am so narcissistic to talk about myself like i'm better than everyone else...........you never "knew" me in the first place.

*emily*

now reading everyone's entries..it sounds like everyone had a fantastic weekend. But i did too, w/o military ball. I know, hard to believe, even tho the pictures i've seen, EVERYBODY LOOKED A-MAZING!! Actually chillin at home this weekend was awesome, provided by God. Thanks for the snow and the 4 wheeler!! thanks for my family, who cooperates with all my mood swings. Thanks for my boyfriend, who i woke up very early (i'm sorry) to play in the snow with. and thank you, God, for my friends that trail me down the hall to pick up my emotions, when i trash them. Thank you for the friends i have to keep me going with a laugh, a smile, and a dance, rather than judging my every move. Thank you for my friends that make an effort to care. Thanks God.....for everything.

nope.

 i am not going to define my whole senior year with one production. it would just be nice to be recognized for once. to show all my hard work and dedication has gotten me somewhere. and yes, aaron, i'm maternal (protective/motherly) about you! the fighting makes me nervous. lol.

Hopefully, all this work has gotten me somewhere! pray for my sanity and patience! *emily*

i hardly am on the computer anyone. My life is so cRaZy. i don't know what i'm gonna do anymore. I've about drove myself crazy! not as bad as everyone may think tho,.......ok, so

whats new

Clinical, my new love of ACTUALLY LEAVING at 2, going to work @ 6, service desk, being outrageously nervous, being very, i mean, very maternal...evern when i dont have kids!!! ZOUNDS!! what will i do...*emily*

Well, 2006. a year for great things. Yea, the phusebox people are getting ready to realize that i'm a very sensitive person. And i saw this thing, A new year for a new you. Whoop-de-do-da! Just because the year has changed and the fact that i graduate in 5 months, doesnt mean i have to run out **today** and get a new haircut.

It's crazy. Least everythung is kind of going back to normal. ...

I have been an apology junkie lately. I apologized for things i said about people behind their back, things i said to their faces, and things that just lacked an explanation. And most of them forgave me. Which made me feel 10x better. hopefully, the rest of the year will go off without a snap.

oh, and guess what...**Donald & I got back together..like a half minute b4 the ball dropped New Year's Eve.** ~sighs~ what a wonderful world we live in! *emily*

Imagine Saturday night. 10 Dec 2005.... about 8:00 o'clock and.................... I'm in the middle of OpryLand Hotel, lookin at these GORGEOUS ChRiStMaS Lights.... OmG, they were so pretty. I seriously acted like i was about 3, because you just have to understand that i love Christmas more than just about any. The whole sha-bang too. I love the lights, the tree, the food, the songs, EVERYTHING. and yes, people's attitudes SHOULD be better during Christmas because we celebrate in remembrance not "I want _________________ for Christmas." Yeah, so, I decided that i'm going to live in OpryLand...Not the rooms, just live in the garden area or something...just pose as an elf when someone walks by...lol...I wish everyone loved Christmas as i do....*emily*

SO i am trying to figure all this out, and its rlly awesome that i can do this in school, and not be BLOCKED!!! how amazing...well, to introduce myself, today i am Snowflake the Green Elf in the skit i wrote titled "Santa is Missing!" and yes, it IS totally adorable...Oh, and I love Smiling!! there you go!! me in a nutshell!! *emily*