My personality is a funny thing, always bitterly engaging people with their problems and/or idiosyncrasies, while afterward complaining to the lot of those victims my own sad, isolated state.  My personality's strange character can not be trumped by my intelligence.  When all you can do is to silently sough in prayer while crying to God on a basketball court and still not understand what life was supposed to be in last two years and not predict what life will be in the next two, you're at a quandary...and I am.  Still, I could raise the bar of my existence by not being a smartass, if I truly want that.