I find it funny that I got seven remarks for what people disagreed with, but only two for what people generally thought was good.  Supposedly, I could glean from this that people would rather blast me for my bad than take my good and bad at balance.  (I have a despicable patina after all the secular college demons have "seduced" me.)  But I'm not going to.  Furthermore, it doesn't really matter in the big picture right now.

People are illogical, and being a person, I would know that very well after all I've said and done so far.  I would tell you, because this is my site and I feel I've been granted the right by my lack of shame for fault lines I have, but I've been strictly instructed not to do so, for fear the ruins of reputation will precipitate my utter demise into the bowels of hell.

I think I get it now.  No one understands me not because they don't try, but because I unintentionally make myself confusing, then intentionally do it as a backlash against people's not understanding me.  Or maybe not. I don't know: it's just a theory anyway, and as far as my theories go, I haven't much luck as of late.

Most of you don't trust me, or don't talk to me much.  So it's hard to make anything I say justifiable, for I am naturally pessimistic and horrifically, "humanly" logical, both traits which never reward me with a good sense of social accomplishment.  It's funny to think on these things from the perspective from where I came.  How did this come to be?

None of this probably makes any sense...but God doesn't make any sense either and somehow a lot of people trust Him.  God doesn't make any sense because of what has happened in my life, for example; but He doesn't make sense in other ways as well.

That said, things that don't seem to make sense at the time aren't bad by any sort of value judgment necessarily: they are just incomprehensible at the time to you (general you).  For example, you might not understand physics, but physics is very important and good.  So your misunderstanding or lack of comprehension of that material has no say in the value judgment of physics at large.  This is not always true, mind you, for arguments that don't make sense are no good because the purpose of an argument is persuasion.  Forcing a person to reevaluate their position seems to be, to me anyway, the primary purpose of any argument one might have.  We are not animals.  We are humans with the capacity to distinguish animal instinct from the choices we make.  Every human can reevaluate their position, and that's why we discuss things with each other and not animals, besides not being able to communicate with them.

All my problems stem from a lack of communication with God, in my opinion.  Some people disagree, but they don't know.  The issue therefore remains not on discovering the origin of the problem but revealing why and what has to change to solve the problem.  The origin of the problem would be nice however, although I can offer some mere guesses at what started it all.  This origin, nevertheless, was incomplete from the get-go.  A compilation of things attributing to the problem exists, but again, these are not important at this point in time.

No, the real issue is this.  How do I talk to God so that He responds to me?  He Himself said that, if one asks, it shall be given to him.  In other words, what are the right questions?  Why hasn't He responded?  Who am I?  And why was I made?  These are the important questions, no matter what anyone, from gossip to philosopher to political analyst, tells you.