Today was colder than expected; I walked out in shorts and and short-sleeved shirt only to be rudely awakened by chilling breeze.

Everytime I journey to Andrew's or Mai's phusebox, I find myself questioning what the fuck they're talking about.  First off, I don't think anyone at FWC talks about them: I think that's bullshit conjecture.  If it's not, they're welcome to name names; and if they find this offensive, I don't really care.  All I'm saying is not to be paranoid about religious concerns if you have none.  If there's nothing to be worried about, why worry about it?  It's not your actions that have us worried: it's your willful separation from friends that care about you that's the problem.  I don't think people are talking about you.  Why should they?  I don't walk around thinking people talking behind my back (well, actually that's not entirely true, but the reasons for that deal with my depression).  I just think this shit is overplay on both their parts.  I have no problem admitting I have smoked weed or drank alcohol.  These are not the problems that concern me.  My problems deal with why these things came to be in my life and the unfulfillment thereof.  I think Christianity, on the whole, has a lot of problems, but if it didn't, it wouldn't be an accurate description of the real world.

In other words, these supposed gossips, if they indeed exist, are not supported by the influential parties at FWC, and not by God, who FWC supports.  Under such assumptions, why continue with this banter?

You may be offended by what I say, but if you are, I refuse to blame myself.  We all know our own needs for improvement, but to lord them over the brows of others who work just as hard is a farce of what you claim to face.  Each one is given what he is designed for, but to come out among men, and brag for defeating a foe and living with the bitter taste he left is just stupid.  Hail to nonconformity for such stupid claims to fame.

You rave on and on about how others misunderstand you, but have you clearly understood others and God's plans for them?  Don't trade blow for "blow" if you don't.

Second, I would wish that people would leave Rebecca to her own business, and not to interfere simply for your sake of love or whatever it is you call it.  Radical action isn't always appropriate in this case.  If she has anything to tell anyone, let her do it herself.  Believe me: I was there from the beginning.  I know. 

I'm trying to determine whether this has anything to do with the person more than the situation.  Would you carry on such a great crusade if you knew my thoughts as well?  But no, I've already told you and you misunderstood what I said time and time again.