Like as the hart desireth the water brooks, so longeth my soul after Thee, O God, yea even for the living God.  When shall I come to appear before the presence of God?  My tears have been my meat day and night, while they daily say unto me, "Where is now thy God?"

That's a good question.  We can't all have what we want, but I can I be given the satisfaction of wanting what I have?  Am I always to lay my head on bed of discontentment?

Didn't go to church tonight, which I kinda regret but not totally.  New sport trend is ultimate frisbee now, but I'm not sure whether it just vexes me more.  I'm just waiting for a break, is all...

Just so you know, the above biblical reference came from a song by Herbert Howell we're doing in chamber.  I like its sound...

I want to lose all my self-inhibition to people.  I hate people.  I wanna be blazed again...