hey guys. Sorry I haven't updated in a long time. Big Stuf was good. I didn't quite walk away with the "fuzzy spiritual high" feeling I was expecting to get. I did, however walk away with something far greater than a just a "feeling". I really think that my relationship with God has gotten more profound as a result of Big Stuf. I give all the Glory to Him for that, and everything else I am. Go Abba!!

Yeah, it was interesting. I almost pushed Raoul off the edge of rational thought and into a blind rage by nailing him in the head with a flip-flop. Unfortunately, he was too level headed to really let fly. Oh, well. A failed attempt, I suppose. I'll try harder next time. Although, he is pretty adept at using a phone cord as a deadly weapon...
Let's see...what else...oh yeah, I discovered that there really is an undertow associated with a double red flag as far as the water conditions go (lol, aimee!)
I reaffirmed the fact that Alabama is, in fact, Po' dunk-ville U.S.A.
And Thursday when I got home, I slept 'till 4pm, no joke.
There's more, but my brain ceases to function at this point in the day.

Two things God really taught me was how to worship Him despite any circumstance, and that you can't always associate an intense encounter with God with a feeling. During the trip, God showed me how to worship in joy, in reverence, in complete emotional/spiritual/mental stillness, and how to worship in pain (the kind of emotional and spritual pain that can make you physically sick to your stomach.)
God is so awesome, and I love Him with everything I am. I am so in awe of his love and mercy.
He's quite a cool Individual. Rock on, Yeshua!
woot!!

What's the point in letting other people know you're hurting? I don't really know how to convey my feelings without worrying that I sound like I'm whining. Like right now. This sounds like whining, doesn't it?

*sigh*

I need to figure out what the lies are and what the truths are about who I am.

So yesterday I was going to be cool and make a "group", and, in my infinite wisdom, I put the name in the comment box. Since you can't delete a group, I made another one and gave it a name, but no description...do me a favor and pretend like neither one exists.

Maybe someone should make a "help raise money for Xavier so he can have brain surgery because he obviously can't do anything computer oriented" group.

...and yes. I realize that won't fit in the name box...



ARRRRRGGGGGHHHH!

*explodes*



----*EDIT*----

So apparently the non-nameless group is a hit. Just ignore the other one, then...

wow. I have a ton of people asking me to be their friends. I feel so looooooooved.

*singing in a half drunk manner*

When you wish upon a Klingon,
It makes no difference who you sing on!
When you wish upon a Klingon,
Your dreams come truuuuuuuuue!!!


It's interesting what one comes up with at 2 in the morning, with very little sleep under your belt anyway.

Raoul never stopped pestering me, so here I am...and I kinda wanted to anyway...because I'm cool like that....

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yeah...

:)